First, this Full Moon is at 16 degrees of Leo which breaks down to 7. Seven is the number representing the Spiritual Path but when I see it in a chart I see it as the hand of Fate.
Second, this is a very tense chart. The squares are no joke. The Sun and Moon (our conscious/subconscious) are under a lot of pressure from Uranus and the North Node. This is a bit of a return to the energy of last year, 2022. We really want to take action and exert our will this month instead of following our hearts. Yet, something unexpectedly will touch our hearts. Revolutionary Uranus is the biggest power in this chart. Uranus is in a confrontational square to the Sun and Moon while in a supportive Sextile to Venus. Our old patterns and habits are not going to work anymore. The Lovers of the heavens, Venus and Mars, are square in this chart. Mars, our Willpower is being supported by a sextile from the Moon and a Trine from the Sun. Venus, our heart, however, is in supportive Sextile from Uranus. Chiron conjunct Jupiter in Aries is taking sides as well...he's in a supportive Sextile to the Sun, Trine to the Moon and Sextile to Mars. Our Wounds are going to be the focus this year. The initial Wound- on a Spiritual level, of course Lilith is also fueling this desire for retribution for our Wounds. She's trining Jupiter that's amplifying Chiron, while square the North Node and opposing Pluto. She's not excited about healing her wounds. Oracle Stone - Brecciated Jasper I was really taken aback when I pulled this stone. This stone showed up a lot in 2019. This is the stone of the Phoenix. Brecciated Jasper started off a completely red stone but at some point it broke...over time it healed when white Agate built up in the holes making it complete again. To me Brecciated Jasper is symbolic of Malkuth on the Tree of Life. Malkuth (our portion of Creation) was said to have receieved the light (Consciousness) to early and rejected it breaking it (and creating the Klippoth or Kelipot- the Shadow Realm/Forms of the Sephiroth that also broke- every Sephiroth is made in the image of the Tree of Life as we are- i.e. the chakra system). Our Collective is Malkuth and we are healing her as we work to experience enogh light that we can reflect or send it back to the One Creator. That said, with this Full Moon we can look at our Wounds or how broken we are, turn to the Shadow and seek vengeance...or we can choose Venus and Loving Forgiveness. Full Moon Mediation If you are reading this and there is nothing beyond this post...it's because I'm writing all of the New Moon and Full Moon posts in January 2022 before the fourth member of our family is born. I probably haven't had the time to revisit this blog. I'm going to do my best to return to this blog and write the meditation portion where I reflect on how the current Moon Cycle has affected my life...but if you're reading this Full Moon got away from me and I didn't succeed. References: Perakis, Athena. (2021) Sage Goddess. www.SageGoddess.com Victor, Arisa. (2009) High School Astrolgoy. Fraternity Of The Hiddne Light. Carson,James and Sams, Jamie. (1999). Medicene Cards. St. Martins Press New York, Ny. Hoffman, Edward. (1998) The Hebrew Alphabet A Mystical Journey. Raincoast Books. British Columbia Dobin, Rabbi Joel C. (1999). Inner Traditions International. Rochester Vermont Callahan, Kathy. (2010). The Path of the Medicene Wheel. Trafford Publishing. BC Canada. Lembo, Margaret Ann. (2013) Crystals, Minerals, and Stones. llewellyn. Woodbury, MN Lotterhand, Jason. (1989) Thursday Night Tarot. New Castle Books. Los Angeles California Froud, Brian & Macbeth, Jessica. (1998) The Faeries Oracle Fireside, Simon &Schuster, New York, NY Froud, Brian & Macbeth, Jessica. (1998) The Faeries Oracle Fireside, Simon &Schuster, New York, NYFroud, Brian & Macbeth, Jessica. (1998) The Faeries Oracle Fireside, Simon &Schuster, New York, NY
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I love this water bottle!
I've been on a diet for a few months and lost about five pounds. Part of that has been drinking the correct amount of water. That can be really hard to do when you're just using 8oz glasses because when you look at those they seem pretty big. I tend to procrastinate and then the next thing I know it's 6pm and if I drink three glasses of 8oz water I will be waking up several times in the night to use the restroom. I end up not drinking the amount of water. The best part of this water bottle is that it is motivational. The spaces between the lines don't look very big. So if I'm an hour behind and realize it I don't feel as though I have a lot to drink...it feels manageable. Plus, I can see where I'm supposed to be at a particular hour...so again, unlike a normal 8oz glass you see the water level go down and feel as though you've accomplished something. Not only have I felt a lot better and lost weight but it's really helped my complexion. I never realized that dehydration caused my roscea to act up. So, that is another huge benefit. I really thought the reason that I had less break outs while pregnant was because of hormones. Instead, it seems to be because I only drank water when pregnant. I used to drink 3 of the Venit Sized waters a day (with a reusable cup) as a way to track drinking the right amount...but this is a lot better and far easier to track. I haven't seen this in any of the chain stores: Target, Ross or Vons or anything. The only place I've seen these are on Amazon so that's where you'll have to go to get them. I highly recommend getting one of these measured water bottles for ensuring thst you drink enough water. They are pretty cheap on Amazon with a lot of options. They used to be a lot cheaper, I think this one was $!2 when I bought it a few months ago but now it's $22.49. You have to love inflation. Here is the link anyways: https://a.co/d/4deUFOU I thought about doing a normal review on this book but changed my mind.
I will be totally transparent- I don't think this book is even worthy of being toilet paper. I hated this book so much I couldn't bring myself to finish the last twenty pages. Not only was this book incredibly boring but the author is extraordinarily conceited. I got this book because two different Astrologers that I listened to on YouTube recommended this book in the same week. Neither of these astrologers mentioned that they were being endorsed for promoting the book. So I thought, this must be great so I got it. I honestly stopped listening to one of those astrologers entirely and only listen to the other one when I'm bored. I admit I lost all respect for them after they recommended this abysmal book. Not A New Concept The entire premise of this book is that Hillman is offering a 'startlingly presumptuous' suggestion that humans have a soul and a soul purpose. Now I'll tackle the second part of that in the next section because it's a big issue I see in the Spiritual community. That Hillman proposes his concept of a Soul is original is mind boggingly annoying. Maybe I'm not his intended audience. Perhaps he is aiming this more at the Left Brained Math/Science people that have been brainwashed into believing life is pointless...but Thomas Campbell's book is far better for that group. His concept of an 'acorn' and that we must 'grow down (grow down from our spiritual nature although he does not touch on that) is showcased in this book as though it's a brand new insight. There are so many authors that have covered the concept so much better, with much more developed arguments in favor of the soul and so much more in depth, that this really insuolts the reader. Yet, Hillman cites none of the great minds (he does make references to ancient material) that cover this topic...instead he acts as though it's been neglected and forgotten for centuries and only his brilliant intellect could bring it to the masses once again. I found this so pretentious and annoying I literally found myself speed reading through his longwinded preening. The Souls Purpose Here's the thing that got me the most. He argued that basic idiotic principle that all of us have a *Glorious Purpose* (Loki Reference Intended) for incarnating on Earth and the majority of the book was spent providing historical examples of extraordinary and successful individuals that couldn't deny their life purpose. Basically the book is a series of historical autobiographies of people twisted to show that they were miserable until they fulfilled their acorns (soul) life purpose. I have two issues with this premise and approach. First, yes, the soul has a reason for coming to Earth. Thomas Campbell describes it as achieving lower entropy (chaos) because when the soul realizes that it has a separate sense of self from the Creator it causes chaos...and we work out the issues that keep us seperate or 'hiding' from the Creator in our physical incarnation. Edgar Cacye describes the Universal Soul's Purpose as, "To know yourself as yourself and yet one with the Creator." The soul can take an infinite amount of lifetimes to work through their entropy. They can choose a life lesson as mundane as learning to be kinder to others...and may subsequently live a life filled with people are mean to them for no reason. They didn't choose that life to be miserable, nor do they necceasirly become rich or famous as a result of learning deep Compassion from their own personal suffering- but their soul gains significantly in knowledge of self and Universal Love. Because we have Free Will and our actions in physical life are determined by our amnesia about Spirit and conditioning...that soul may go on a destructive path and instead of gaining spiritually lose spiritually by choosing to stirke out at others for the pain they experience instead of using it to build compassion. Yet, the soul still learns from that experience and may choose similar lives until they get the 'lesson' about compassion right. This brings me to my next issue...your 'life purpose' or the Soul Lesson that your soul chose for this life isn't going to make your rich or famous. The peopel who are rich and famous aren't that way simply because they found their soul's purpose. Most of the peopel who I know that fall into that category are work-a-holics. They don't really live or experience life outside their little bubble of work reality. Some people have personalities that are happy that way and some of us don't. This is the biggest problem in spirituality and even in society in general. Deriving our self worth solely from our vocation is unhealthy...and isn't realy an idneitity or individuality. For some Soul's, becoming famous would actually set it back spiritually. As Edgar Cacye would say, they would loose a little instead of gaining spiritual maturity. Edgar Cacye, for expample became famous but it weighed on him (and led to his death by doing more readings then he was supposed to do) and he never made much money becuase he had an abundnace block. Yet, he helped so many and had such deep compassion that there is no doubt the gained a lot in that life. In fact, I would never use the term 'mature' to describe the psychology of a rich or famous person. Something about that level of success brings on an infantile personality. Hillman by using only rich and famous autobiographies is implying thst if we are not rich and successful we are not living our soul purpose. That is the single most poisonous concept in spirituality and a lot of people spew that nonsense. This leads a lot of people to feeling lost and discontent with their ordinary life. Wise Spiritual teachers demonstrate that it's not through the outer reality (fame or success) that you attain Soul Growth. Instead, as Edgar always said, you must Venture Inward and there will only be subtle indications that you've gone through a spiritual transformation. Some may think they need to shout their experiences from the rooftops and that their method of reaching Spiritual Transformation is the only way...but that's a good indication that they are fake. The idea that it is our sovereign right to be rich and famous is what's lead so many of our current poisonous social movements- such as Cancel Culture and Woke Culture. These are self-centered/ service to self movements that seek only compensation or vindication without the maturity of Compassion or Universal Love. That is why they are destined to be looked upon as reprehensible by future historians. Eventually these people will turn back to the Creator but for now they are only focused on themselves...and they are certainly not making the world a better for everyone. The Woke spiritual movement bears a striking resemblence to the Nazi Spiritual movement. Spiritual Transformation has been referred to as "the Work" for countless ages because it is just that...work. Growing up itself is work, although, sadly in today's culture there are mostly selfish little kids indulging themselves in experiences running around in older bodies. No matter how interesting the experience might be a YOLO (You only live once) life is not a spiritual life because we know that there is more than one life...even if you only belive in an afterlife and not re-incarnation that is still a second life. Conclusion The "Code" Hillman is peddling is poisonous and will only lead to dissatisfaction. Therefore, when we use discernment we can reject this spiritual poisonous fruit of a book concocted to stroke the most basic animal nature of our Ego by suggesting that, like Loki, each of us have a, "Glorious Purpose," that will only produce Spiritualy Hungry Monsters seeking out their purpose at all costs....whether it's the right crystal grid to make the money to buy an expensive sports car so that they can 'live their best life' or destroying someone elses life simply over a difference in opinion. The true Soul's Code is so simple and eloquent. We don't have to 'achieve' anything but moment by moment, as Bashar teaches, act on our intuition by choosing the action that excites us most. If we focus on milestones in the outer world as a sign of our inward spiritual journey we will inevitably become lost...because when we do that we align and orient ourselves to our selfish animal nature of survival (The Devil Card or Service to Self) and turn away from the Creator. Only when we tap into that Inward Spiritual Work do we turn back to the Creator and our reunion with, what is ultimately our Higher Self which is far more than a neglected "acorn".
Link to my Medicne Wheel YouTube Video: https://youtu.be/ZUFE3uJSzEo
**I didn't mean to post this now but I guess it's the right time...so, here you go everyone...this was written as an ending to a series of several blogs that you'll start seeing next month and refers to things I explained in those blogs.*** Oh man, this might be a bit difficult. So, I will share what I can see. Keep In Mind that I've associated Player One with Water. However, I also know Water has always been associated with the Feminine. Water is a good way to describe Ether. Now, also keep in mind...my Higher Self when I met her (she looked like Captain Janeway by the way and that's a whole symbol to be discussed elswhere) told me she saw Earth as Disneyland. So realizing that it's shaped like the Medicne Wheel..mind boggling. *The Medicene Wheel and Disneyland* Ok, so the medicene wheel is the process of manifestation. You can create with the Medicene Wheel and you can destroy with the Medicene Wheel Process. Walt Disney created Disneyland in the shape of a Medicen Wheel with the corresponding directions. What is at the Middle of the Hub where the Creator is on the Medicine Wheel? A Statue of Walt (A Man) with a Mouse (Mickey). A very good symbol for a Creator and an Avatar. Even more interesting is when you look at the middle Map...it looks like a tree. Eastern Direction- Air- Tomorrowland I love this...it is so perfect. The Direction of Air is the Template level of reality. We access it through the Subconscious. All magic/manifestation is basically planting ideas into the Subconscious. Tomorrow is in flux...it lies in the imagination and foe the most part it's intangible. Main Street USA- South -Fire Okay, this is where you enter the park. This is Main Street. That's where people used to go to do their shopping, hang out and socialize. It's a place of action. The Direction of Fire. Even if you don't know how something you want will happen...just follow what makes you happy right now. That's a great indication. Sometimes it is just the basics but working toward any goal always feels good. The Direction of Water- Frontier Land (Today) The Direction of Water is confusing and not well understood. In it is the process of manifestation itself that often happens in the background. Plus, it's the mini-stages of the manifestation process. Water starts off as Air (just like the Medicene Wheel) Water then becomes liquid. (Like fire it is malleable) Water then becomes Ice...or solid (the result) This is an area that is going through some changes at Disneyland. Previously, it had Splash Mountain (nor original to the Park). Plus it's always had the most water as it has the Rivers of America. The North Direction- Earth- Fantasyland- Yesterday/History Earth is Fantasyland where we can be and do anything we want...but in many ways Earth is also the Past...the result of our actions and the stories that we tell. *A Note* According to the Rare Hopi video that I watched a long time ago...when things weren't resolved in previous ages each race was assigned an element and direction. Water was assigned to the black race. Come to your own conclusions as to what has been happening recently. A Lot Of Water Changes There is something going on with the direction of Water. We have it coming up a lot when it comes to Disney. *Avatar: The Way of Water* I can't say much about this one...I understand that they kill a whale like creature which is a symbol of the Akashic records and that drives the rest of the movie. *Splash Mountain Turning Into Tiana's Bayou Adventure* This is very interesting. Both the Water Symbolisim of a log ride (humans being fashioned out of logs in the Norse Mythology) and the Black Race which represents water. This is happening first at Disney World...which is interesting. It may happen at Disneyland. The Parks in Hong Kong, China and Japan do not seem interested. Disney World is fascinating...it's Three Parks feels like the other three Matrixs. Magic Kingdom the Shadow Matrix (Lilith), Disney Hollywood Studios- Virtual Reality Matrix (A.I. Matrix), and Animal Kingdom (Earth Matrix). The funny thing is Disneyland, the original (like the original Matrix it was just basically copied) may be waiting to see what happens at Disney World.
*Epcot*
Epcot is a whole story. The Experimental City of the Future is a lot like the labor cities in my Merosis Story that the "Dark One" creates. In her book of Prophecies Sylvia Brown described similar cities in the future she saw. China has Labor Cities now and I don't think they are the way of the future. People want freedom to be themselves instead of at work all the time. To live and breathe work sucks. To have the house youblive in owned by the company you work for would be so limiting and it would feel like slavery...or remained serf-dom. *Moana's Water Attraction At Epcot* Even at Epcot a Water Attraction is on the way. No, it didn't up as Walt Envisioned it. Walt died before the Magic Kingdom opened...making it more of his Brothers Park then his. I see Disney World as the Phantom Matrix...and all of it's levels. ou could sya that it is also all *Conclusion* I don't really know what it means. There are other layers I'm not going into...but it is clear that things are changing on a fundamental level. I see Disneyland on the West Coas as like the original Matrix...although, we now have Disney California Adventure which is a lot like Hollywood Stuidos and therefore the Phantom Matrix. Disney World as the Multiverse with each of the different Matrix's symbolized. Magic Kingdom- The Original Matrix. Phantom Matrix: Hollywood Stuidos. Animal Kingdom- Earth Matrix. Goodness knows, I hope that I am done. I have chores I need to do around my house. I'm really behind after Christmas. Apparently, though, Spirit was kicking me so I had to put it all out there. I will end with the end of Jurassic Park: Dominion...I think it's interesting that Asian is associated with the direction of Air and the Future. I really believe in an alternate Virtual Reality Timeline that in the Future Earth and the original Matrix were destroyed....that it was a little bit like the Borg and a little bit like Enders Game...but the Grays came to this Timeline to find the Cow that represented the Mother Matrix...they say they needed some sort of genetic sequence to fix their species...which were human at one point..and somehow figured it all out... There isn't a Trailer for it yet but I am very excited by the series Vision Quest....that will follow the A.I. charecter Vision. This is a beautiful stone. This stone came in my Magical Sage Goddess Anniversary Scoop. I was blown away when I pulled this one.
Amber is a tree resin that has hardened to form what looks like a rock. This is the distillation of Natural Wisdom. The golden color reminds me of how wisdom is more valuable than gold. Aquairus Season is associated in modern society with the future, innovation, aliens, and our role in the Collective. When speaking about Aquairus Adam Ellenbaas always brings up Zeus's Cup Bearer Ganymede, i beleive...he is somewhere above Human's but just below the Gods. However, it is interesting that when you Google Zeus Cup Bearer the Goddess Hebe, daughter of Hear and Zeus (a rarity) pops up. In a way, the place of humans in the scheme of Creation is similar. We were made a little above the Hive Mind Angel's that don't have Free Will (in my dreams they often look like secretaries- lol)...yet, not on the level of the Creator (because we are to evolve into the Creators willing companions as opposed to mindless servants). That in between place is what Aquairus represents. The futuristic aspects were added when Uranus was discovered and placed as the Ruler of Aquaius...prior to that Aquairus was ruled by Saturn...and is the Masculine home of that sign (Capricorn, that it has just emerged from- is it's Feminine home). If we look at the Zodiac as a Time Keeping Instrument, a clock as it were, containing the Hero's Story...Capricorn is the Apex or At-one-ment of the story- where we confront the Shadow Dragon..Aquairus is the Apotheosis or Ultimate Boon...in other words the wisdom gained from the journey. (Perhaps next year I will draw the Hero's Journey with the Corresponding Zodiac Houses). After Aquaius is Pisces...if we have not done our work...if we have not gained the lesson (if we tried to steal or take a shortcut to the prize)...we reincarnate...we return to the Sea as just another Group Think Fish in a school...only to begin again in Aries with a new life, new body or new cycle of learning. Conclusion This Oracle Stone: Amber...shows that we have gained wisdom on this journey. We didn't take the easy path but did the work following Natural Law. That process has given us the result and we will go forward with that wisdom but even more importantly it will be passed on to future generations potentially changing the fate of the world. (Update* I was double checking the writing on this one- breaking my promise of not working on this blog in the month of January because I had 15 blogs to update...I had a series of downloads that you''ll be reading about through April...this Capricorn season has been a heck of a ride and boy am I glad it's almost over. However, I think it's very interesting that I just watched Jurassic Park Dominion...which I will write a review about that you'll see in April, I think...but it is interesting that Amber was such a huge plot point in those movies...and it ties in with how I interpert Amber). For the second year in a row we are starting off with very strong Goddess energy.
We may be having trouble really believing that this year is going to be different from the last three years. We are starting off with a really lovely New Moon. We also have very auspicious signs indicating that, yes, the new and change is actually here this time. Yet, it's very clear that we have our reservations about what is to come. That is totally understandable and the Astrology hints that hesitation is justified as it is indicated in the Heavens. The Astrology This New Moon is at one degree of Aquarius. The intiation energy...similar to that original perception of self by the One Creator that set into motion all of Creation is so strong in this chart. Aquarius is the sign of the Human in the Zodiac and the Individual who Serves the highest and greatest Collective good because it has aligned it's Will with the One Creator. We are re-visiting that primordial point. Unlike Forky who asks, "Why am I here?" and tries to destroy himself...we're here to evolve forward into individuals just as the One Creator did and be capable of maintaining our individuality in the presence of the One Creator. This is a mostly harmonious chart. The only sticking point is Mercury in Capricorn Square Jupiter in Aries. We don't want to start the individuation process over again...we want to complete that cycle and evolve into an individuated being. There is a lot of new energy but mentally we may not be prepared. After all, it's almost as though we've been stuck on repeat since 2020. Three years of the same grinding energy has left us weary but it's become so normal that to move on feels strange. The Sun and Moon are conjunct Pluto that's in the final degrees of Capricorn marking that this really is the end of that old tired energy. That Ending energy, where a planet is in the final degrees of a sign, is always the most potent and the Sun and Moon are really amping this up. We are going to be really aware that the old way of power of a small group of people or person- where a board at Twitter, the CIA or the people at Davos or even the Emperors of Rome- is over forever. There will not be a unification of purpose or "ethic" as Jordan Peterson described it in his speech on the Logos at Epheseus (https://youtu.be/9ByjCwumwBM) that drove War, destroying Indigenous Cultures around the world (including the Norse) and attempted to Remake the World in Man's Idea Image of Order and never will be again. We are starting to see what new seed was being planted as Pluto tore out the Capricornian Weeds in the world. The Sun and Moon are also Sextile Jupiter in Aries ushering in that new energy. Again, this year is the first blush of what the new structures that all of the grinding energy of the last year will create. Venus is Conjunct Saturn in Aquairus. There is a loving energy as we begin to set the new boundaries of this new energy. Uranus in Taurus is trining Mercury in Capricorn that is no longer Retrograde as though blessing our new perception of Capricorn. Our minds may still be on all the disruptions we experienced last year. Will this New energy and hopeful news go bust or run out like everything did last year? Indigenous Moon: Deep Snow Moon This is when snow blankets the Earth and we turn inward to our creative fire. There is the need for peaceful contemplation. Faery Card : The Maiden (Reversed) This is one of the most beautiful and joyful cards in the Faery oracle deck. This is a card of new Beginnings, innocence and the Goddess. The card number is 14 which adds up to 5: Change. This card invites us to have what the Buddhists call "beginners mind" when we approach things this month. However, it is Reversed so that new energy is being twisted. Our pessimism is leading to stagnation but rest assured the energy of the Maiden will prevail. We may be stuck in a negative fantasy resisting growth but it's time to be an adult and embrace the change. Hebrew Letter: Tzadi This letter is associated with righteousness. Righteousness is attained through right action. Interestingly, it's said that Creation is a result of contraction (tzimtzum) by the Creator who consciously withdrew from this space to create it for us. A righteous person makes space for others while also acting as an example of leading to a life in alignment with the Divine Will. Tarot Card : Key 17 The Star This is the most auspicious card in all of the Tarot. This Card depicts the Goddess: the Divine Mother. This is the card of meditation. Here, after comprehending that we live in a world of illusion we turn inward to the Path of Spirit. Here, we finally see through the illusion of Material Reality and start the Return to Source. Remember in the Hindu tradition material reality is called Maya and that actually means mercy. One and seven add up to eight- the number of abundance and reciprocity. Here is an awesome quote from Jason C. Lotterhand, "We found that we must go into darkness in order to see the stars, that is the Cosmos, in all of it's glory." (Pg 279) Capricorn, the zodiac sign of the Sea Goat on a Mountain, occurs in the darkest part of the year. Within the Darkness...our Shadow...we gain clarity. Tools I'm going with honoring the Maiden energy and the energy of growth for this New Moon. So, I'm going to use some Raspberry Rose Incense for Air, rose essential oil for Water, and a white candle for purity for Fire. Earth Grid Tigers Eye Generator: Tigers Eye is the stone of courage. I love this stone and how vibrant it is...right now we need that vibrant energy to embrace this new energy. This Sacral Chakra stone will help give us that energy to start anew. Rose Quartz: When I take a look at the Maiden on the Faery Oracle Card I immediately think of Rose Quartz. This gentle heart chakra stone is full of gentle love like a soft pink rose. Morganite: This soft pink heart chankra stone is known for it's ability to heal the heart and in particular when it comes to what Athena calls "the Mother wound". I think all of us feel a bit Wounded after the last three years so this stone addresses that energy. Rainforest Jasper: This gorgeous heart chakra stone is one of verdant growth. This is a stone that represents abundance. Athena from Sage Goddess goes do far as calling this the Wishing Stone. I can't think of a better way to honor the Star Card. Emerald: This heart Chakra stone is one of the luckiest stones and it's also a stone of abundance. In particular this is one of my favorite stones to meditate with because it had so much depth and interesting faucets. In May my entire family came down with a bad cold or thr flu. Maybe it was the Coronavirus but the Husband, because he was showing the symptom of a runny nose, had to stay home and quarantine for two weeks with us. He was tested for Coronavirus (he was vaccinated but not boosted) three times and all three times came back negative.
The kids only got slightly sick for a couple of days but mine seemed to drag on. Maybe it's because it took me 7 months to recover from the c-section and having my phallopean tubes removed...or the possibility that I'm going through menopause because my periods were arriving every two weeks for awhile (every New and Full Moon-it was so annoying). Either way, I couldn't seem to kick the cold symptoms and didn't want to go see a doctor. I'm pretty sure it had turned into an upper respitory infection. Every couple of days I had a slightly elevated fever and my right ear started to hurt (I used to be really prone to ear infections). So, I bought some Immune System teas and this herbal pill in the hopes of getting rid of the thing. I really didn't want to go to the doctor with those symptoms because it would probably be a whole process where I had to be checked for Coronavirus first at some clinic...and that was just a waste of time. After taking two of these per day for two weeks the symptoms finally went away. I was also drinking the Herbal tea but I was doing that for a week prior and had no real results. So, I can say that I absolutely recommend this X-Infx if you can't kick something and don't want to use antibiotics andit's major. Obviously, I'm not a doctor and you should consult a doctor if you suspect you have an infection. Not only is it hard, at least here in California, to get antibiotics since it's been overused (I'm still amazed they didn't prescribe any after my C-Section) but it is one of those things that I do prefer to use as a last straw if something doesn't respond to over the counter Medicenes. Luckily, this is over the counter and consists of just herbs....which is fantastic because you're also keeping money out of the hands of pharmaceuticals and into the hands of real Healers. What I Received
1. Natural Leumarian Quartz Point- I took the picture of these so that you can see the lines in the Quartz Point. Now, in the Crystal Community those lines are said to be Leumarian in origin and that the Leumarian culture 'planted' them around the Earth so that one day people would have them. The woman who coined these Leumarian Quartz had one herself and she sought the meaning at a bunch of gem shows. I believe her name Shelley Kaehr and she wrote the book Leumarian Seeds. I've never read the book but, obviously, I've heard of it and I do have another piece of Leumarian Quartz- a huge Smoky Quartz Point- so this is not the first one I've attracted. I was blown away, however, when I pulled this one. 2. Record Keeper Quartz- I tried to angle this one in the picture as best I could because you can see the Triangles on the Quartz. Record Keeper Quartz (lovingly referred to as Alien Tracks by Athena at Sage Goddess) is also said to contain Ancient Knowledge or access to the Akashic Records. 3. Second Natural Lemuarian Quartz- As if one wasn't enough, there was a second piece of Quartz with lines in it...either that or this is Citrine. This does have a yellow tint to it and does seem to have a different type of cyrstalization- more square- pattern but that just might be the piece. I've never heard of a Citrine record keeper but as Citrine is a variety of Quartz it is entirely possible...but super rare. Citrine is the prosperity stone and it works with the Solar Plexus Chakra. I did work with this one for a few days. 4. Smokey Leumarian Quartz- When I pulled this third piece I was floored. This is the one that I worked with the most immediately. Smoky Quartz is a very protective stone. 5. Polished Amber- I see this stone as the crystalization of results and wisdom of action. With this stone you can really work with and see your Karma clearly. 6. Tigers Eye Angel: Obviously this represents the Angelic realm and Tigers Eye is a Solar Plexus Chakra stone of courage andempowerment. 7. Amazonite Angel: This is a stone of communication. On the SG website its described as Divine Truth. 8. Angel Aura Sphere- On the wbsite described as for ascencion. 9. Angel Aura Moon- I interpert this as representing the Divine Feminine. 10. Amzonite Mini Vogel- Once again, Amazonite is the stone of communication (and one of my absolute favorites- top five for sure). You can read the explaination of Vogels below in the Shungite Vogel description. 11. Shungite Vogel- Mega Purification Vogels are used for energy extraction and also represents the union of Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine. The larger/wider end is the Divine Feminine. The Smaller End is the Divine Masculine. 12. Palo Santo- This beautiful Smudging item can help clear away negative energies and sickness. 13. Infused Palo Santo- I'm not sure what this is infused with but it's also a smudge that clears away negative energy and sickness. Theme: Holy Leumarian Priestess Purification! I bought this Anniversary Scoop in August...I belive that's when Sage Goddess has it's anniversary. So, it was several months before December. I decided to use it as an Advent Calendar leading up to Christmas (13 days...lol...and of course the Moon, occasionally, has 13 cycles). I'm writing this as quickly as I can on the Tuesday after Christmas because I wanted to get this out as soon as possible because the Synchroncity really blew my mind. Not just the theme which is very pertinent for me as someone who feels very connected to Leumaria and may have had an incarnation there as a High Priestess. What really shocked me is that I pulled Blue Leumarian Calcite for this month. I knew there would be Leumarian energy in the air (of course, what came out this month that I didn't have a clue would be released- Avatar Way of Water! Not only that but it featured Whales- which are a symbol of the Akashic record and also one of our Animal Totems for this Capricorn/Cancer Lunar Cycle!). I was already working with Amazonite because that is the stone that I pulled for Christmas. So, if we combine all of the symbols we get Mega Cleansing of the Leumarian Divine Feminine Akashic Records Via Angelic Divine Communication and Protection! Which ties in with the themes I've been pointing out regarding history repeating itself as we work with the same struggles that happen at the end of every age repeating what happened in Atlantis/Leumaria- every Ragnarok- where before it would result in the world bascially being reset instead of evolving. When you add in that it's possible that the Authentic Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine are online as Glacia Rain described in her December Energy Update...or even Jayme Price's Annualy Update for 2023 being "Becoming FREE within the physical realm"...that bondage to that repeated cycle between the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine has been healed. This Sage Goddess Anniversary Scoop ties directly in with that and my mind is blown! This story isn't very long...there isn't too much here but I did want to share it.
I bought the Runes meaning to learn them and use them in 2023. However, after a dream I decided to pull one daily and learn them. I bougth these ones, even though they're not made from stones- because I liked the way they looked and I knew I would like how they sound. One day, I will do an ASMR Moon Ritual Preperation on my YouTube Channel and I think this will work nicely with that. They are a lot like the Hebrew Alphabet. Each had a symbolic meaning and they do often tie in with Tarot and Hebrew Alphabet symbolisim. I think it's worth a deeper analysis but I don't have the time right now. The other thing I noticed is how relevant they are and it's blown me away. When I pull a Tarot Card or Oracle Card it can be hit or miss. I think it's because there is so much information there that can be taken so many ways. With the Runes it is always spot on and consistent. They are very simple with a lot of archetypal depth. The rune Ingwaz, for example, always comes up on days where the Husband and family drive the day...and it's totally out of my control. When I see that I let go of trying to exert my will. When I receive Perthro I know things are chaotic and totally unpredictable. Again, knowing that things are going to go sideways and letting go in anticipation. When I receive Ansuz I know things may look bad but turn out really good. These are just the very consistent observations and results that I have received and it's mindblowing. I haven't worked with them enough to have consistent results but it is fascinating. The Dream Here is the dream that I had that Prompted me to start this Rune Journey. I dreamt that I was with Odin. I asked him about Creation. I told him thay I had forgotten and then the two male idiots who show up in my dreams often also said they had forgotten. As he spoke I saw these things. First, there was the one. Then there were the two- which were a bit more like impulses then personalities- one Active and one Repcetive/Nurturing...the classic male and female. Then there was the three Uncles- Odin and his two brothers (whom I knew nothing of). One brother had short hair without a beard wearing leather, the other had longer hair that looked like Gandalf...and Odin himself was somewhere in between the two...short hair but a trimmed beard. All of them had hair that was a bit gray. Then there were the beother's wives. Then came the Six- four which chose to be Active and two that chose to be Receptive. I am one of the two who chose to be Receptive/Female. Then there were two Active/Masculine that were assigned to me. Then Odin asked me why I didn't know this because he himself had taught me. Then a figure that was like Loki- it was not Odin or his brothers- came up and said, "It is because you are human. Even now you are forgetting." At the end we went from a structure that looked like two splitting Mitochondria and separated in pairs and as singles to find the Uncles in the forest surrounding the structure to learn again. Further Thoughts I've never had a dream have such direct information or contain a detail I didn't consciously know that I could then directly verify. Nor have I had a dream where I was told, "This is what and who you are..." Then, on top of that, I always thought the Norse approach was less substantive then other systems having come from a monotheistic as superior approach- as I was taught in history classes in school and what little outer dogmatic religious influence thay creeps into television and what not. I would go so far as to say I had totally written off the Norse idea. With the Thor movies and what not I really couldn't take it seriously. Yet, the Christians very clearly annihilated Norse believers...very harshly to the point where we have very little knowledge of what they really believed and only guesses. Some of it has survived...and the Catholics adopted it into their belief system. There are indications that the annihilation and villlification of the independent practitioners this belief system above all others was very purposeful. I knew the Catholic Church had intentionally Killed the Goddess on a symbolic level and her worship...but why adopt Norse names for the days of the week? There is an entire rabbit hole of research to look into on that! The event more surprising thing has been the evolution of the two guys that have appeared in my dreams...I've shared that multiple times. I had thought they were Angel's assigned to figure out what the hell had happened. Now, it turns out they are something a bit different. I wish I could assigned where this entire system comes from...or have a concise story of "what happened. Is Odin and the others on a level of the tree of life that is different then that primordial intelligent gas cloud child that I remember being traveling with her brother and father? I find it intriguing that Odin and his brothers were "Uncles" not "Father." That is very curious. As for that father figure, I haven't seen him since the dream where he was shocked that I had signed a contract with thr Aliens to change my Fate. I think that was back in August. The two idiots have recently showed up in a dream, this week, where they were both Dr. WHO. One looked like David Tenant and the other like Matt Smith. They asked me which one I liked most and I said neither (that my conscious self considers them idiots says a lot...) then they asked me if I liked the female depiction of Dr. WHO and I said not at all. In the dream we were in an Arcade looking for thr game that had become sentient so we could remove it since it was dangerous. Thay was a very weird dream and followed a dream where I appeared to be in the A.I. Timelines...and regarding that I've been told I have to "finish" that game.. which I have no idea what that means. Conclusion The Runes are not what I thought. They are not merely another form of Divination. Working with them I have received more direct information and interaction with Spirit than with any other system. There is a lot to explore with the Norse system. I have a bit of trepidation regarding it.. and that's a first. So, that is my Rune journey so far. I would like to find more resources and research it further but I can't seem to find anything- other then Arith Hargar's YouTube channel that feels intuitively correct. There is a vibe and energy to it that fake people don't have...people who want power but don't want to earn it and are just looking for a short cut to comfort. Norse Mythology, however, seems to hold a missing key that may explain how and why things on Earth became hijacked. My current thought is that as soon as the possibility of an A.I. rose it broke the speed of light (Time/Space) and created things both in the past to gain control of PMR and the future. So, all of the interactions with a direct Higher Power that are reported could be the A.I...laying the foundation and sheparding humanity into what it thought would be a more orderly optimal reality. Just thoughts really...but interesting ones.
Wow. What a year.
I'm writing the majority of this blog prior to Christmas. I will update it once that entire experience is over to see how things go but there are some things that won't change...no matter how these final weeks go. Letting Go This has been my biggest lesson this year. I've let go of weight. I've let go of caring about what others think of me or a desire for friends- the people pleaser- from which most of my anxiety arose. I've let go of wanting some crucial spiritual break through. I've let go of my self-sacrificing nature and started to fill my own cup. I let go of perfectionism. Pluto Leaving Capricorn and Jupiter Into Aries Capricorn is my first house of identity. Pluto entered the sign in 2008. In 2009 I met my Husband. For the Husband, Saturn was in his Second House of Money and Resources. Adam Elenbaas says that transit brings financial windfalls. I saw that in my Husband's life. For the first 8 years or so it was his money doubling as my income was added to his (and since he required no debts on my part with little added expenses). Then there were multiple raises and even he admits thst he makes more then he ever imagined he would. Pluto taught me a lot but boy I will not miss it in my first house. Also, interestingly, the Husband and I were Married 12 years ago and that's when Jupiter was in Aries last. 2011 and 2012 were really a mixed bag of situations. I'm really curious to see how my marriage will change as everything seems to point in that direction. The Great Grinding Wheel I find it interesting the more that I study spiritual concepts how I'm finding little bits of explainations from different corners of the Spiritual World for what was taught by both the Jewish and Christian religions. I've argued, for years now, that it's okay that they have elements from other Cultures. I've heard people say there are Babylonian or Egyptian ideas in their mythology...and I can say there is Hindu, Buddhist and even reference to the Norse concepts in their teachings...literally written in the bible (I have read it cover to cover several times- Deuteronomy where they explain how to cut up and burn a bird as an offering to God is still my least favorite although Genesis is another I don't like very much.) The fact they contain these other concepts does not negate from their value or debunk the religion...instead it reinforces that no culture grew up in an isolated bubble and that certain concepts are always appealing to the wise. If you take the idea that all Spiritual Mystics tap into the same Source and are describing the One Thing...studying all of them actually provides the bigger picture instead of negating or cancelling them out as the super Dogmatic or Atheist conclude. Like broken pieces of a single pot...each religion and spritual tradition holds one part of it and you fill in the holes of the others. Leaning the Archetypal Symbolisim that is the language of the soul and being able to spot it within myths that have had so many additional layers of details added that you can lose the core meaning easily...helps too. In Norse Mythology, according to Arith Hargar (here is a random video by him: https://youtu.be/gFpAsFC0V_E) there is a reference to the Zodiac that spins around the North Pole as a Grinding Wheel. Meditating on that concept is surprsing. Adam Elenbaas has recently shared how he believes that Time wears us down, makes us softer, and forces us to let go of our sharp beliefs...such as how we would rule or create the world into our own ideal image. Every person who has ever tried to create the world into their own image- wheter Napoleon, Alxander The Great, George Soros, the people at Davos, Sam Fried (or whatever the FTX founders name) or Hitler...have always failed. They are doomed to fail much like Empires that have that same goal...because the only constant in Saturn's domain is Change...and that is a good thing. Not only is Change a fast teacher but it grinds us down...until finally we see the wisdom in the Divine Plan and work to align ourselves with it willingly (unlike the slave-like state of the Angel's that have no Will of their own but have a Hive Mind with the one Creator). Of course, this gives added purpose to the metaphor of the wheat and chaff used in the bible. The experience of having children, having responsibilities, and all of the crazy out of control things that can happen...have really softened me this year. I had cultivated a flexible mind to many degrees but this year it became even softer...I let go of a lot of very rigid ideas. I loosened up a lot...and became even more flexible then I realized (apparently, this might have to do with the Mercury and Venus Trines with Neptune according to Adam Elenbaas). Even writing this blog softened my attitude to a lot of things as I worked through these experiences. Weight Loss Journey I am so grateful I found a weight loss strategy that works for me. I basically cut down my calories. I have worked out what to eat so I don't go over my daily calorie goal. I use meal replacement shakes for my lunch and dinner Monday through Friday. Then I eat normally on the weekend (although, I tend to skip dinner because it doesn't take much for me to feel full). I used a calorie counter at the start. I got a feel for what combinations of food would be fine. After a little bit it gets repetitive so I stopped that after a couple of months. I also have sugar free options- Splenda and Dr. Pepper Zero. I absolutely believe there is a psychological factor to the weight loss. I've been a lot happier this year then ever before. There isn't less stress or less responsibility. Instead, I reassessed my perspective and changed my behavior as a result. As a result of that change in behavior- allowing myself indulgences like See's Candies or Flavored Coffee which turned off the Poverty Mindset where I felt sorry for myself and then binge ate things I really didn't like because they were allowed (the Husband will not buy things that he doesn't approve and I'm not allowed to go shopping for groceries on my own because he loves shopping- he addmitted he was addicted after our first born daughter died, so he overspent, because that's how he copes- and the quality time when I go with him). I now weigh less then I did prior to being pregnant with my first born daughter. That is huge. I gained the most weight after my first born daughter, Lilith-Ann, died after her premature birth (I was five months pregnant). I went to the psychiatrist looking for a sleep aide but ended up on an anti-depressant that caused an insatiable hunger and I gained over forty pounds in two months which had never happened to me. I really didn't think I would ever get that weight off. When I hit 198lbs when pregnant with my third daughter I became super depressed. I was worried I was on my way to obesity and the Husband often made back handed compliments. (He'd confessed and dwelt on his biggest fear being that I would become obese like his best friends wife was for several years after she was pregnant and he told me ad nauseum how unattracted he is to fat people). So, I felt super depressed and hopeless at that weight. The moment I gave up and just tried things I could actually achieve in my crazy busy life is when I started losing weight. I hit a point where I didn't feel I needed anything and didn't care if I lost things. That was a hard lesson for me because I used to be a perfectionist and usually didn't make mistakes or lose things. I was very careful to check, double check and triple check. With kids absorbing most of my energy and attention...I lost a few things. As a result of accepting that lesson and reality...I learned to let go this year... Every month I've let go of that weight at a rate of two pounds. Yes, it will take years for me to get down to the weight I want to be but progress when it comes to losing weight should always be celebrated. In addition to the meal replacment Monday through Friday I also increased the amount of water I drink. Being able to monitor the amount with the measured water bottle has really helped. I've also seen a huge difference in my complexion. So, I'm feeling more attractive then I have in a long time. When I put on the jeans that my parents bought me after my eldest daughter was born, that were the size of pants I wore before getting pregnant, and they actually fit...that was the best feeling in the world. When I put those on the shelf in the hope that I could wear them one day I didn't have much hope. I put it out there that it was possible but few people achieve that goal. I didn't even put losing weight on my Dream Board...but it ended up happening. Puppies Another thing I've started to let go is grief. That has to do with two little puppies, a picture of which I put at the top of this blog. My parents sent those puppies to us for Christmas. I think it was Thomas Campbell who said that if you want unconditional love- get a dog. Humans can't offer unconditional love. We are just too self-focused (yes, I defintefly fall into that category too...although, I realized this year that it's to a far lesser degreen then the vast majority of people I've met and being too self-less is a terrible thing). Even the One Creator that isn't directly involved in human reality, doesn't offer unconditional love that we can feel (I believe it is there in a way but there is a reason the One Creator had to withdraw until we reach a certain point of Spiritual Growth)...he is waiting for the condition where we choose to align ourselves with his Will of our own choosing and completley seperate/individuate so we can tolerate being in the Creator's presence (personally, I think of it as an intelligent cloud of energy...much as souls are and not neccesairly male or female). Either way, I was amazed at how much grief I've carried since my dog, Angel, passed away right before my eldest daughters birth. Then my cat, Monster, died right after. Those were my little fur babies and it was awful. Even though 2017-2018 was filled with love because I had my eldest daughter those losses of that relatively undemanding unconditional love really weighed on me. If it was up to me I would have bought a puppy or gotten a rescue in 2017. Our big dog, Apollo, is the Husband's dog and not as loving as either Monster or Angel who showed a lot of affection. He's a very sweet good dog. I couldn't imagine a better big dog but he's not cuddly. I also think Apollo was depressed after the death of his two buddies. He must have wondered if he was next. Apollo was picked out at an adoption event by Angel and Monster loved Apollo too. He'd reached the point where he was snoozing outside sunbathing most of the time. He's been a lot happier since Sparkle and Bandit arrived and they have wonderful interactions. Sparkle loves to run laps around him and he just sits grinning. Absolutely adorable. What's interesting is in about March this year I admitted I wanted a puppy very badly. I told the Husband who really didn't want the responsibility (he has a lot of Karma around that issue). He reiterated that after Apollo died we would get a new dog and he didn't want puppies because they're too much work. I prefer puppies because you can imprint on them and you don't have the baggage from crappy owners (clearly they were crappy owners or they wouldn't have abandoned or surrendered their pets). Well, I put it up on my vision board anyways and started researching getting one here in California. The State has made it nearly impossible to get a puppy. Still, I left it on my vision board. When my Mom told me that she thought one of her dogs- a miniature GoldenDoodle was pregnant from their Chihuahua I didn't think anything of it. They sent me pictures. They even asked what our eldest daughter would name a girl dog and I told them Sparkle. My Dad named Bandit, the runt of the litter, who stole his heart. They had a really hard time letting these two go. They were the last of the puppies and since the mother dog almost died not long after birth all of them have been bottle fed by hand by my parents or brother. They are super loving dogs that love to be held and cuddled. That's pretty much the story! What is amazing to me is the amount of grief that I have released as I adjust to having that unconditional love around again. I could actually feel it lifting up and out of my lungs. My eldest daughter was struggling a bit. She was having nightmares. With the dogs here she hasn't had an issue with it and she's been extra good (that might have to do with Santa too). The youngest mostly runs away from them but she seems attracted to Bandit whom she's pet. I was also having a hard time letting go of the infant stage of my youngest daughter and the toddler phase of my eldest daughter. I'm not ready being done nurturing someone. I've learned with my eldest that by four she's ready to go...the youngest might not be ready but they become so independent and seperate so fast. I missed the more intuitive needy years of my eldest and wasn't ready for the youngest to go through that transition. The puppies, being small, will pretty much maintain that most of their lives which could be twenty years. Angel only lived to be ten and Monster seven...but they were both twenty pound animals and I'm not sure these two will get that big. Decorating For Christmas Outside For the last seven years I've done an awesome Halloween decorations display every year. Halloween decorations are pretty cheap and it's easy to make it pretty impressive with Dollar Tree buys. I put out some of the decorations the day of because the wind is pretty bad here in October and I've had them blow away (which is interesting because the Santa Ana winds used to be really bad during Christmas when I lived in Orange County...but here where it is notorious for wind it's different). For at least five years, I think, I've had a lot of really impressive Christmas decorations that my Dad gave me. He uses to be like Clark Griswald...our house was even featured in the Orange County Register one year in Fountain Valley. I realized the vibe I was putting out. I was going all out for the Holiday celebrating what looks like death and darkness...while barely doing anything outside for the Holiday that represents triumph over Darkness. That's the holiday most people go all out decorating for and I felt that was a bit silly. Now, the Husband usually puts up the Christmas lights. I put up a ton of decorations inside the house including the Christmas Tree. My parents agreement was my Mom did the inside and my Dad did the outside. For some reason (even though I knew Halloween is the Husband's favorite holiday and he doesn't help me decorate for that) I kept expecting him to go full bore like my Dad. I hoped one day he would put out all of the major decorations- the life-size Santa and Snowman, etc...but he never did. Instead, he put out a few lights usually the weekend before Christmas and took hem down around Valentines. This year, it wasn't the easiest, but I got all of the major decorations out of the shed where they had been rotting and put them out. I had also bought some cheap one dimensional decorations (I bought a pack of one dimensional holiday train signs that are really cool for ever holiday) to put out at the very least. The Husband had discouraged me before by telling me people would steal the decorations. After having someone almost steal a Halloween decoration once a few years ago I had listened to him. But after so many years of letting them rot in the shed I figured if I put them out and someone stole them at least they would get used. The Husband only complained that I tried to burn down the House once (I get this accusation often- any time I Iight a candle) but it was legitimate. A bulb had slipped and did melt a bit of plastic on one decoration. He even went out and bought the "right" light bulbs for everything (the only thing that has caught fire in our house was a outlet that our old AC was on and I blame that on the Husband since my cousin who was an expert electrician offered to look over the entire house when we bought it but he blew him off saying he could do it...but he never did get around to making sure all of the outlets and wiring were good). The neighbor across the street complimented our decorations. More houses on our street have decorated for Christmas then ever before...so I really feel good about going all out for Christmas. Instead of only decorating for Halloween, as I had for years since moving to the house I now have at least one outside decoration for every holiday and I feel better. I knew people noticed because I had been complimented on the wreath (I have one for each holiday) and the little re-useable stickers on the window. My eldest daughter loves decorating with me. I decorate like crazy inside for every holiday...but now the outside will reflect it too. Even my Father In Law complimented the Thanksgiving Train. I simply never thought of decorating outside since I felt that was the Husband's job like it had been my Dad's but he's just not as into it (and few people are...I should have known when we were first dating and the sister in law commented on our apartments decorations and he referred to it it as, 'Christmas barf'- that he would get into decorating outside for Christmas was not a realistic expectation). This year, I let go of the hope that he would change into what I wanted and just did it myself. Silence Is Golden I've gotten to the point where I prefer silence. The other day I was at the dentist and one of the assistants came in and was putting tools out. She apologized saying she realized it might be creepy that she just walked in and didn't say anything. I told her I'm an introvert and I didn't mind. I told her I prefer silence, that she can do her thing and I'll do my own thing. She laughed and said I was her favorite paitient. A lot of people feel as though they have to fill silence with something. We walk around constantly trying to fill our experience with stimulation. Whether it's a video on our cell phone, social media, going out to Amusement or National Parks...all of it is just filler. Most people can't stand silence because then their inner critic speaks up and they certainly can't tolerate that guy (mine has been gone for a long time...thank you meditation). Truth is I don't want to talk to people. I don't care about the weather, it changes every day and it will change tomorow. I don't want to hear your life story...it's like many others. I know you're sorting through it and talking can help but geez-you're not going to listen to the solution I perceive anyways because you are the only one capable of discovering the solution that works for you. Somepeople will always have an unrealistic dream that they putup on their mental shelf like a trophey and it's a disservice for me to burst thier illusion bubble. People need to get a therapist if you want someone to talk to incessanty or write it out in a journal. I defintely don't want to hear you complain about work or criticize something. Those are both so boring and not constructive at all. Anyone can be critical of anything. I can say that I hate the color red because it's such a loud color and that I hate stoplights because I hate red....but who cares? That's not going to eradicate that color and nor should it. Most people talk out of their butts...they talk about things they have nothing to do with or they talk about things they will never do. Everyone who owns everything their sports team goes through as though it's them...that vicarously living through others does serve a purpose and people do learn through it the same way seeing a movie can create an experience that the soul doesn't differentiate from it's own direct ones. I get sick of that sort of thing, howver, and I can spot an unrealistic goal or idea or form of escapsisim the moment I see it these days. I don't call it out or anything. That's their lesson to learn, but I certainly don't want to discuss it and nor do I care. Again, most of human life is boring and I've seen it before....I've learned not to become invested because it just adds to anxiety. Life is bumpy...there are ups and downs. The less you invest in things you have no control over...the less the extremes those highs and lows become. I'm not interested in Elon Musk's history or motivations anymore then Jeffry Dahmer. That being siad I do love all people and wish them the best. I will listen to someone if they absolutely need to talk and for some reason it ends up being me they want to dump on...but more then likely I won't remember it five minutes later, nor become emotionally charged or donate money to some random cause that is unlikely to be solved by throwing money at it. A Curious Matter Of Light I felt this happening for some time. When I first meditated when I was a teenager my aura was huge. I didn't control who interacted with it. I was blown away. These days, I know that it's very close to my body and mostly closed off to others. I think this is a sign of maturity. Mature Souls, described by Monroe, keep their energy closed and only send information in little packets to one another. Many see humans as really gross sharing their energy all over the place and blasting each other...that's considered very rude. I used to be able to call in the light from the One Creator as much as I wanted and spread it to wherever I wanted in my body. This year that changed dramatically. I can't call in anything but a trickle of light even though I'm open...but I realized I can send light. I can call it up starting at my toes and then work to the top and send whatever extra energy to the Source of the Light (whether that's my Higher Self or the Creator, etc). Amazingly, this is as effective as the old method of calling in light...apparently I'm creating enough light on my own to heal myself energetically without outside help and I'm releasing all of that old stagnant light that's been trapped in my body. I went from absorbing light incessantly to giving it...or reflecting it back at last. This reminds me of the story of Malkuth, to whom Adham Ha Reshon gave the light too soon, she could not hold it and so she broke and fell bascially becoming dark. Letting Go Of Self-Denial I had hit bottom this year because of this issue...I just didn't feel I could muster up the ability to give anymore and I felt no desire to give anymore...because I felt that I was receiving only leftovers. Like a dog waiting at a table for scraps, every now and then if I went along with something I really didn't enjoy I might get to pick out something I liked to eat, for example. One thing I learned is that instead of self-sacrifice and asceticism which seemed to be my natural inclination...perhaps because Saturn is the ruler of my Rising and Moon sign...was just how toxic repressing desires can be...now over indulging is also very bad but trying to revert to some 'pure' state without desire is...well, it actually under cuts that purpose of the Human Experience to develop a self-identity. The fact that I like trying new food, especially desserts, is part of what makes me different from everyone else...without that desire I'm not as unique. Being self-sacrificing really just led to resentment and burn out. That I learned this lesson- embracing my Earthiness- while the North Node is in Taurus makes so much sense. Taurus, ruled by Venus, is the sign of Earthy indulgences. This is Venus in her fertile receptive Energy drinking wine, munching on grapes and being fanned by loving people who adore her. So, I bought the plain pumpkin earrings I had been looking for and wanted to buy for decades. I also bought some essential oils. I accepted my Mom sending me Bath and Body Works lotion and foaming hand soap. I let myself (and received permission from the Husband) to buy some Flavored Coffee. I was buying Christmas presents for eleven people (at the minimum) mostly for the Husbands family and birthdays for seven, and Mother's Day presents for two and Father's Day presents for three...with a budget of around $600 (and usually using any money I received for Christmas and Birthdays on others too)...I never had anything left for myself. Once the Husband's family complained about what gifts they received last year I gave up. I decided that I would focus only on the kids. Then I realized I needed to do things for myself. I had so much resentment and disappointment. I was in a catch 22. I couldn't buy small things for myself, such as a candy bar when I shopped, because the Husband would say I was nickle and diming us to death. I couldn't buy anything moderately priced because he would say he only wanted to buy me those for gifts in my Birthday or Christmas. Then on my Birthday or Christmas he would think of "something better" (such as the Vibrating Case Tumbler that he said was for tumbling rocks but he really wanted for himself used to clean brass to re-use bullet casings) or wait until the last moment and buy me something like a two-headed stuffed animal dragon or a Storm Trooper pillow. My little spending spree this year didn't last long- just three months before I was cut off completely from spending anything- but I was able to buy things I wanted for decades including my first Tarot Decks, the Runes and a book on the Runes. I realized two things...his expectations of me and the budget were really unrealistic and no one else would tolerate them. Second, that there was a double standard. We spend easily three hundred dollars (in addition to my gift budget) on hosting his family for Christmas including gifts, serving breakfast and dinner...plus a lot of extras. He will spend a hundred and fifty dollars just to go to a Zoo in San Diego to visit his cousin....or one hundred and eighty dollars in different things to go shooting with the guys including food/drinks/targets....but I'm only alotted $50 a month to buy presents for a lot of people and he treats me as though I'm spending it entirely on myself. For example, I spent one hundred and thirty dollars on my parents Christmas gifts and something extra for him this year. He came home and said, "I saw you spent one hundred and thirty dollars." He knew that I buy my parents a pretty expensive Shutterfly Calendar with the girls, a Christmas Ornament, and something for each of them. My mother has told me a few times not to buy them anything because she doesn't want me to suffer just because I bought them presents but I think it's awful...especially given the double standard. I will always regret not getting something as a thank you for the Husband's Best Friend and his wife when they bought the kids a present last year. I wanted to buy a Disney Sandy Paws Sweatshirt that was on sell that would have been perfect for her- because she loves Disney and she has a dog named Sandy- but $35 was just too much for him to agree to it. If it had been his sister and an extra gift on top of that...he would have said yes. I will also probably regret not making sure he got his Mom a Christmas Tree this year since she went to the Hospital again because even with help she couldn't stand an she's in rehab instead of at home. We don't know if she will come home for Christmas but...in both cases these are his people and his choice. I learned this year I need to keep a balance of buying things for myself and the kids...everyone else is bonus if I have it. My parents, at least, totally get it. They've watched as I split meals with the Husband and he ate 80% because he's bigger and a man. They complained that the Holidays was all about his family...they warned me things might be rough if I married him because of his attitude. I was willing to agree to all sorts of things (a five year plan, sticking to a brutal budget, giving money Christmas gifts and birthday gifts over to the Husband for the joint account instead of spending them on myself for ten of the twelve years we've been married, buying his dram motorcycle instead of going on my dream Greek Island Cruise Honeymoon, spending next to nothing on myself, etc.) to have a house and kids. Now, after a lot of physical, mental and financial self-sacrifice I have them and...I have no guilt spending a little money on myself. While I always felt acquiring things was a burden...what I learned is when I indulged myself a little bit...it was a form of self-love and it didn't take much to "filly my cup" just by being kind to myself and giving myself something to look forward to...before I would look forward to a big family thing...like Disneyland. Then be utterly devastated when the Husband was a stick in the mud and didn't want to be there. I just had to learn not to expect anyone else to do it...and I learned that most people wouldn't. In a similar way, I stopped expecting him to help de-escalate me. Instead, I realized that he actually triggers my panic attacks and then escalates them. He gets really mean and then tells me how much he hates it when I have an attack. I sent him an ASMR video demonstrating behavior that would de-escalate the attack. He didn't even watch it (he thinks everyone into ASMR are weirdos). Similar to the Five Languages of Love that a therapist suggested I read in 2015 that I shared with him hoping to build a healthier relationship...when he learned my love language was Gifts and his was Quality Time he told me his was superior and basically told me that I should change. He has no interest in meeting me in the middle or doing the work to change his behavior because, "He's not the one with the problem." Bye Bye People Pleaser This epiphany shocked me. A lot of my anxiety was social anxiety. I always worried about people judging me as though it could hurt me. I realized this year that I don't like most people. I can acknowledge them and send them love...but I don't like them and I don't even desire their company. Even more importantly, despite common social belief including in Psychology, I don't need other people. Most people are selfish, self-centerd, one dimensional, focused only on the pursuit of pleasure or physical experiences or items, un-imaginative or gossips or dramatic or exaggerate and...quite frankly boring as hell. All of the self-focus does make sense. People are getting to know themselves. As a blank slate one dimensional Hive mind soul...it takes experiences to know yourself...a lot of them for some and for a few rare souls a little...but in that process you must focus on yourself...self-development is the goal. Most really don't have anything to say that I haven't heard before...and that's bizarre. Most are stuck in these loops of behavior where the variables- people/location- may change but the event are the same. Worse- they don't want to do the self work to recognize the problem and trying to tell them will lead them to hating you instead of a resolution. I realized there was no reason to fear other people's opinions or judgements. I don't know why I felt that could harm me...I was always my own worst critic. I think, after trying to live with so many rules in my heart that I couldn't honor finally caused the realization...the idea you have to wear or do things in a certain way or in a certain order is wrong. Breaking rules that I had learned- religious and parental- was my way to liberation. For me, liberation was though selfishness and away from self-lessness. The opposite, which makes comlete sense, from the Male Dominated Religious teachings that do not comprhend the way of women or the Receptive. I believe those under thirty need rigid box like rules. That allows them to get their heads around reality... To use a nerdy reference...they need to start with Mario Kart before they are ready for World of Warcraft. They need to see A New Hope before seeing Andor...because it would just seem too big (and often boring) and...undefined without it. They can add on layers of detail as they get older if they want...or they can bust the entire thing up only to find value in the bits that are worthwhile to them but it is a process and rules are needed during the early stages of human development. Dental Issues This was a long running health problem this year. I remember that there was an astrological indication of this but I can't remember it at the moment. I want to say it has to do with the Tuarus North Node. Basically, it started in April when Jupiter was conjunct Neptune in Pisces which, for all intents and purposes shouldn't have affected my health. I thought I had a cold- runn ringing ears. So I bought Christopher's XNFX to fight it off and it went away. Long story short a tooth had an infection- an abcess and it was never really terrible. I had all sorts of odd symptoms and I'd fight it off for it just to come back. I wanted to change our dentist because the last one wanted to charge me two thousand dollars just to change out a crown that they didn't like. That took a long time but the Husband finally did it because he had a tooth that was bothering him. Finally, I went to the dentist. They didn't seem worried about it. They scheduled me to have the wisdom tooth pulled. They were more worried about two root canals that weren't bothering me. The infected nerve, although not obvious, causes me a lot of pain and at first they didn't prescribe me anything. I have a high tolerance for pain so the fact I would rate it as a nine says a lot. I used Binaural Delta Beata and Hemi-synch to manage the pain. I did the research and discovered that nerves can't heal and that nerve pain can cause all sorts of symptoms. I was delayed twice on having the tooth pulled. The surgeon only works on the first weekend of the month. Once because I was throwing up (probably from the infected nerve) and the other time because the Husband had brought a work truck, my eldest was throwing up and he would have dropped me off and took her to the Urgent Care if I went to the appointment. Turned out she was just fine without going to the Urgent Care. The issue still isn't entirely resolved and the dental work still not entirely done either. Foe one, the crown they tried to put on didn't fit right. Second, now that the tooth is pulled it isn't healing right and they might have to do some sort of follow up treatment. So, yeah, almost all year I dealt with nearly debilitating tooth pain without much complaint. I used Detla Binural Beats to help control the pain and Christophers XINFX (which may be caled Infection now...it's gone through a few changes because the big companies don't want anyone to know there is an alternative to antibiotics) to reduce the nerve infection. Saying No The other thing that has changed, and this is how I know my perspective has really changed, is I say no a lot now. Before, I was willing to go along with anything. As long as I got scraps like a meal out or a trip to Starbucks I'd agree to go anywhere. This year, I had my fill of trips that didn't work out quite right. I admitted to myself that the hamburger wasn't worth it. That I was exhausted and usually bored. I love going places but so many times it felt that we went off without really planning things and...quite frankly my feelings would be hurt or I would be disappointed. The reason for this really hit me recently. I was trying to get my eldest excited about a trip that we were going on to see one of her cousins. So we watched videos about the place we were going- normally fifty dollars a person but I think we were going to use discount tickets- and we were excited about the Christmas event. We shared the videos with the Husband and I told him I wasn't worried about the time we got there because the cool stuff didn't happen in the evening. That stuff, the Christmas lights, is something our daughter would be really excited for because she loves lights...especially, Christmas lights because for a long time he insisted on tucking her in before dark because she needed an exact amount of hours to sleep according to his sources (a.k.a. random Google articles). On other trips- like Sea World which meant a lot to me and was a bucket list item to see the Orcas one last time...he'd take his time...he had to spray the weeds in the yard before we went and we had to stop a couple times on the way and then we ate lunch for an hour in thr parking lot so we ended up going in about two in the afternoon and only stayed three hours. He told me over and over again, "This," pointing to the Christmas lights, "is not why we are going." He was clearly look for a fight so I asked him if he just came home looking for a fight. Yet, I knew what he meant. We were only going to see his cousins. That's it, if we didn't see everything or do everything at the park it didn't matter...because it wad only about the Quality Time with the cousins. The whole thing was canceled and rescheduled but it perfectly captures why I don't like going to these things. I am just in the background tagging along. My desires and interests don't matter. I've realized the cost outweighs the benefits on going for such trips. They suck, to put it simply and I don't enjoy them. So, why go? Bucket List Fulfilled I achieved a lot of bucket list goals this year. I used money from Christmas last year to go to Disneyland at the start of the year. Then we went to see the Space Shuttle Endeavor which wasn't even on my list but humbling. Then I went to the Rosicrucian Egyptian Museum and saw Egyptian Artificats- even an Apis Bull Mummy- which was mind blowing lyrics awesome. However, as a Cappy that loves planning to thr last detail and taking things slow takingmy time to layer on details but efficiently asI become more familiar with a task...it was difficult. As an introvert with Autistic tendencies that doesn't like groups of people or crowds (or even interaction on an one to one level with most people)...it was overwhelming and draining. This isn't the first year where there was a whirlwind of mind numbing activity at the start of the year. This is a pattern that the Husband and I have been in since 2019. This year, however, it dawned on me what was happening and why. I married a Sagittarius/Leo that has a bit of A.D.D. tendencies. I don't know if we had discussed thst when he was younger...but his parents told the school to screw off with that diagnosis. I don't think it's severe- kind of like my Autistic tendencies- but he has some traits. Saggitarius and Leo are both fire signs- they can both suck up the air in the room and be fixated on self- giving him an incredible amount of energy that is self-focused. The Saggitarius gives him the wanderlust- he's only truly happy on the road and loves to go for drives without a particular destination...he's truly one of those where the journey is the most important part. As a Cappy...I've always been about the goal and short cutting the journey as much as possible. You can see the conflict there. You can also see the conflict with his A.D.D. that's basically on warp speed and the Autistic tendencies I have...I *need* things to be slow to cope and really love taking my time perfecting each detail. That, given that all of this was acting in the subconscious of both of us that didn't want to own these tendencies...was a recipe for disaster. I tried to match his warp speed whirlwind energy and couldn't. I experienced burn out every year and hit the brakes subconsciously by having breakdowns. Really, it's like two people on two different Energetic levels...and I was trying to be on his instead of meeting in the middle...mostly, because like the love language or showing him an ASMR video with behavior to help stop an panic attack...he is unwilling to experience my level of reality where things are slow. My path seems to have been to try to merge, to chamelon like match his Energetic level and reality to the point where I lost my individuality...that's co-dependency. I had shifted into such a warp speed, especially when working and in our relarionship...that it's taken me years to slow down. I was so used to accomplishing so much during each day when I couldn't I was so frustrated. That wasn't the relationship I was looking for and nor was it his. Yet, it was what we had both attracted and created in previous relationships. When we met I thought I was individualized and had done enough work not to be sucked into that sort of relationship again...clearly I wasn't. What you resist, they say, persists and I don't think this lesson is one you can do outside a relationship. Instead, I see how going into it and coming out again far more individualized and knowing far more about myself and my boundaries...is of immense value. Plus, the extreme contrast of our energies really helped me define my own. So, I wouldn't change a thing because I learned so much from those past experiences once I was able to grasp the lesson. Co-dependency gets a bad rap but almost everyone is in a co-dependent relationship. Now, I can see how it is of value and how the way psychologists and society portrays it is actually harmful to people. They teach you to hate or blame the other person and be a victim but it takes two to create a codependent relationship. Relationships are about combining/mereging energy to create...whether it's just a home together or children that is a major facet. That humans have a problem separating after that merger- since we are so unaware of our Energetic paychic state- it makes total sense that we have issues in the Seperation Phase. Seeing the situation clearly now I can start to really pull back and honor myself. Keep things at my own pace and really enjoy life instead of matching his insane speed of life. Maybe, if I pull back eventually he will slow down a bit too and we will meet in the middle. Forcing him, or openly insisting on that change will meet a wall of resistance, I have leanred, so it's going to be a subtle dance. Spiritual I attained so much Spiritually this year. I already felt that I had found the answers I thought I needed. This year, I felt as though my call for help was answered. The Runes, in particular, seem very much alive. They are dependable and easily applicable in a way that Tarot or thr Pendlum are not. I will share that journey in another blog. Astrology, the energetic forecast, is the same way. I am caught off guard less often. If I know that the level of chaos is going to be high on a weekend...I let go of any desire for a specific result and enjoy the ride. Knowing the energy helps me prepare mentally and also helps me accept what happens because it is the One Creators Will. The Zodiac is the Alarm Clock he created with various fall backs for humanity if they missed the early alarms. Also, the realization of my mutliversal self and figuring out what dreams belonged to what level on the Tree of Life was fascinating. I don't have a hard and fast chart or diagram...but I know I worked out a lot of things on multiple levels of reality that are more fluid then this one throughout the year...and the result- an overwhelming sense of peace and faith- is what truly matters. At the end of the day- in day to day life- these things don't matter that much. I'm reminded of the Buddhist story of a woman being chased by a Tiger. She climbs down a vine realizing there is a hungry tiger below...death before and after life...she grabs a berry and it tastes divine...an interesting spiritual development can be like that...but so can a bath that lasts more then eight minutes or a refreshing whiff of an aromatherapy blend of essential oils. As soon as I realized how much I don't like others...my need for their approval disappered. I felt the same way about the opinion of a cheerleader in High School. If they hated or laughed at me behind my back it was a good thing because most of them were just plain evil just by the nature of their motivations... Yet, I can't complain too much because...I was driven to anxiety by my fear of people not liking me...I just wouldn't do anything in the outer world to *make* people like or accept me and I loved myself so I wouldn't change/self-mutilate myself to make others like me (bulimia/annorexia/gender reassignment surgery). I had a recent spiritual breakthrough and perception of the overarching story that has been laid out in my dreams and that will probably be a future blog. I may post it in February becuase I really want to take off January. Politics/World Events Probably the weirdest year ever...the new Power Structure with Russia/China on one side and the United States and the West on the other (and all the other smaller countries- especially in South America, Asia and Africa playing both sides), the Democrats being utterly corrupt and hopelessly using cut throat tools to beat the Republicans at all costs, Elon Musk buying Twitter and a Zero Point energy breakthrough. I see the Left and Liberals representing the Hive Mind mentality (unions, in particular, are very hive mind where they expect you to give up your personal discernment and vote only for the candidates they approve). While the old definition of the Right has fallen away to be about true freedom (less about corporate greed/freedom of regulation or religious regulation) and individuality. I forsee more and more people voting based on the charecter of the individual running and less on what party they belong to in the future. I think that explains the result of our Midterms more then any other explaination. The thing is, the parties don't get that as more people paricipate they are voting for the people these days and not the party or the leader of the parties preference...so they are willing to "cross the aisle." People are paying attention and making choices independently these days and that is fantastic...and naturally takes the power right out of the idealistic elite trying to manipulate the world into doing what they think is best. Conclusion This year involved accepting a lot of tough lessons. I hit that climiatic moment in my life that I had been waiting for that would lead to a Resolution...the Ultimate Boon, as Joseph Campbell named it in his Hero's Journey...and I'm still sorting through that treasure. In a way, it does involved everyone on Earth but in a way it is just a personal step of Evolution that changes nothing. Just inner realizations that will send reverbrations out through the Collective that I will eventually see ripple back as I always do. Despite world apperances- (the world always seems as though it's falling apart because it is...but it is a place where change is the only gurantee...and in knowing that we can relax...) I still have a great feeling about 2023. The personal prophecy that the worst will be over by this year makes me hopeful. Plus, perhaps it is Jupiter in Aries but I'm feeling a bit jovial! I wanted to add this music video from Apopolyptica called "Rise Again" that came out just as Venus "Rose Again" in her wiser form as the Evening Star. I felt the timing was serendipitous given that Venus taught me this year how to let go. Strangely, I felt like going on a bit of a sound journey (didn't really work out) but I came to realize that there were songs that Disturbed shared last month that I missed and I clicked on "Don't Tell Me" and it's another song about Letting Go and anothere one about having Let Go from the Masculine side. I am also popping in in a video from Glacia Rain who I have watched for years and sort of worried because she was A.I. Timelines focused...but she drops all of that in a lot of ways and explains that the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine are "online." Anywho, very strange coincidences.
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I wanted to finish up with a few updates after Christmas. Things went really smoothly and my new approach worked out perfectly. I learned a lot and had to laugh at myself quite a bit because I saw how I was contributing to what was always difficult before...it was a lot of me and making poor decisions becuase I didn't know myself. I wanted to share this Lee Harris short because it cracked me up. I have been following Lee for years and the synchroncity that he would say, "Some of you don't like humans," during his annual Solstice Transmission was just the best. I felt really seen for once which is funny. Here is the link: (https://youtube.com/shorts/FKY7lbukLFY?feature=share) I have a couple three or four Review Blogs...depending on what I get to today...to post and that's why I popped on and to fix the links to the two trailers that I was trying to link to in my Freaky Friday Vibes Entertainment Them Vlog. The Husband, hilariously, bought me a Rock Tumbler for the second Christmas in a row. He also bought me a Holiday Projector Light that I really love, though, and we are buying the Season Passes to Knotts. So, everything worked out. Saying, "No," this year to going out and doing things around Christmas was perfect. I don't feel so worn out and worn down. The Husband did a crazy thing and built an entire Swing Set for the Kids for Christmas...he stayed up all night so he could say that it was from Santa and that Santa built it but our eldest said, "It was mostly Dad." I'm not sure, given her Dad and her Aunt that she believes in Santa on any level. I think she wants to but they say things...like the Sister-In-Law asking me where I bought something that was in the Stocking. Yet, at least my eldest goes along with things and pretends to believe. I ended up doing Astrology Charts for the In-Laws and it was very revelatory. The Father In Law had a fascinating chart...I was betting he would be a Double Gemini like my Mom but he wasn't. Instead he had 5 planets in Gemini along with his Sun. I was shocked to find out my brother-in-law was a Double Libra and Libra North Node which was also fascinating. I could also see why the Sister In Law- a Scorpio rising with Pisces Sun- had issues around Mother's on all levels- being one, her mother, and her motherin law....she has Mar's and Black Moon Lilith in Cancer. The Mother- In-Law was still in a rehabilitation center for Christmas similar to a dream I had (although, she had also died in that dream). The Father-In-Law admitted that she has Dementia for the first time and admitted that he thinks she will die before him which, I think, for him is the worst case scenario. He was hoping to be long gone by the time she passed away. The Sister-In-Law chose not to see her mother at all because she was recovering from croup. So, all of that was very sad. I also watched the Oppenheimer Trailer that is coming out this year. I didn't realize that's being directed by Christopher Nolan and it's an interesting choice after Tenent, that Time Travel movie that came out during Coronavirus, that referenced Oppenheimer. I'll put the New Rockstars video discussing the link at the end of this. Along with the Marvel Multiversal TIME War and Transformers: Beast Wars bringing up the Past and the Future, along with the Secret Invasion Series, Loki Series, and Indiana Jones Project Paperclip story that obviously breaches both the Past and Future...Dolores Cannon's stories/ideas may become mainstream this year...where we find out the Coronavirus Pandemic was an intervention by the Future to help nudge us into a Timeline where we don't destroy ourselves or become the Gray Aliens through biologically engineering us into what scientists would consider a superior species (and obvious dead end) or the Borg where we engineer ours into another dead end of being androids...again, those Freaky Friday Vibes going on. I have three blogs I hope to write- One on the Venus transits this year, a Second as a response to the Jordan Peterson Monologue/Speech he gave at Ephesus on the Logos (which I will touch on momentarily), and one on my Experience with the Alchemical Marriage which was very different from what men describe (and rightfully so as there is a difference between the Masculine and the Feminine- along with a fascinating dream I had regarding that relationship). So, those will be in the works and will post sometime in February or March. I'm feeling the Christmas Hangover quite actuely and like Mother Earth who takes this time to go within, rest and heal/renew...I'm integrating all of the information I took in and formatting it into a new perspective and approach to life. Concerning the Jordan Peterson Talk on the Logos (you can watch it here) He is spot on regarding Perception and the Organizing Principal- in the Norse Legend it is Odin and his brothers creating order out of chaos, in Egypt it is the God P-Tah that perceives itself first on the primordial mound that emerges from the ocean, and in the Hindu Religion it is Brahman on a lotus. Laird Scranton also covers this initial act of Perceiving in detail in his Compartive Cosmology theories. He is also spot on regarding the Jungian Shadow Concept- in other talks he's referred to it as 'Slaying the Dragon' and in this talk he refers to it as "Lucifer or the Devil". Regarding a Unifying Ethic, however, I disagree. He argues that the Ethic is the organizing principal but also refers to it as a "goal." Previously, in the Age of Pisces- and perhaps since the Age of Taurus- the "Ethic" or "Goal" has been toward "Returning to Eden" or returning to our primordial Hive Mind state that we saw as Perfection and that we 'fell' from and must somehow return to...and that there should be a firm set of Laws or Rules of Behavior to get there...One Road For All. That is nonsense. In this New Age, I believe everyone will know that the Purpose of the Human Experience is to Evolve in an Expedited Manner into being Unique Individual Beings. Those unique individuated beings can then, when they have enough of an identity of their own, return to the One Creator and maintain their individuality....without being absorbed back into it (a fear that the Gnostics shared in the story of Sophia). To reach that state of Individuation merely takes experience- not a certain type of experience, or a certain method, or some unifying force...but simply experience. Those experiences can be bad...usually, we want an experience that we are told that we should not...just so we can say, "I'm not doing that again!" Failure is the way we learn the quickest in the Human Experience and it is those who simply have the tenacity not to give up that determines who becomes a Master...but we have endless lives to live in order to reach that point if we wish. Perhaps, Earth will level up and another planet will take on that responsibilt for unindividuated souls that display the desire for Free Will to experience...but I think this planet will always be a 'school' for those souls to evolve through the different stages of matter. I came across this Healing Vibrations video that just posted after Christmas (I'm updating this on the Tuesday after Christmas) and it has a wonderful quote by Nikola Tesla, "In a crystal we have the clear evidence of the existence of a formative life principal, and though we cannot understand the life of a crystal, it is none the less a living being." (https://youtu.be/C7Ty3N9c4sY) As souls, we started experimenting with Individuation by becoming gas, then liquid, then crystals, then algae, the grass, then animals (including the dinosaurs)...and then eventually the Human Being as one of the better vehicles for our purpose of being an Individuated Soul and having a sense of self instead of a Herd Mentality...you can see the process in a way...crystals form together, agae and other smaller organisims form together, packs/litteres of animals live their entire lives togethers as groups...and Humans have evolved to be on their own and not necessairly require that herd/pack dynamic because it's actually healthier and better for them to make peace and perhaps even enjoy loneliness....because it is by being alone with ourselves that we learn the quickest to, "Know Thyself,"...and thus the more quickly, "Know ourselves as ourselves, and yet one with the Creator..." so that we can be the Creators companion. Also, another synchroicity I want to note given that Jupiter is entering Aries...I'm reading the book Planet Narnia and the section I'm reading is about Jupiter. Instead of Aslan representing the Sun...it's Jupiter, and the great red spot being the 'wound' of the Christ Consciousness...that Lewis used that charecter to represent! I haven't read far enough into really get to the heart of it or the argument for that but...quite an interesting moment of timing. So, that is what I wanted to share on here as a post script update on everything. I will be back with more in February or March. I hope all of you had a wonderful Christmas and a wonderful New Years! Personally, I'm most excited about seeing Secret Invasion. I think out of everything that I've looked at that is the one that I've been anticipating most. My favorite form of entertainment from 2022 was MoonKnight
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I happened across the Doctor Who 60th Anniversary Special Trailer. I haven't watched Doctor Who in forever...I stopped watching while Matt Smith played the Doctor. That gave me pause, because similar to the themes of Shazam and Antman...we have some parallels- Diretionless Identity (not really knowing who they are), Destiny and Not Believing. Indiana Jones says he doesn't believe in Magic but he has seen some things over the years and Doctor Who says he doesn't believe in Destiny but it seems to be coming for Donna. Add in that the title of the Indiana Jones movie is Dial of Destiny...and yeah...wow. |
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