As always, I'm gong to present a bunch of ideas.
Some of these ideas are relegated to fantasy. Some of these are just ideas I just want "out there". I'd love to see movies or books written on these ideas. I believe the inspiration for ideas come from a multitude of sources. Instead of sitting on them, I want them out there for people to work with and create new things. Today I'm going to touch on some bigger themes that have been coming up a lot. I might revisit some territory but this is just a brief snynopsis. Once I'm in a better place where I can spend more time delving deeply into these topics I'll go into further depth on these ideas. So, we are going to re-visit some ideas. I have done some research on these topics but it's more of a brief sketch of the image that I see becoming clearer. I am, as you probably know, most curious about going back as far in time to trace where the ideas that became our religions came from. By understanding that, I think we can start to identify unifying ideas and better understand who we are and the principals upon which our world was built. There are very prominent themes that can be extrapolated from Laird Scranton's work with the most ancient of Knowledge....and then traced down through the many religions. Each religious perspective or take on this can give us more clarity of what the original full picture might have been. Laird's work gives us the edges of the puzzle....but it can be filled in with later mythological interpenetration of that information. Take off Your Literal Hat We have become stuck in taking things literally. While it is beautiful to think that many of the things depicted in mythology occur on the material plane of existence it is unlikely. I believe some myths take place outside of time and space. We try to understand them by our perception of things but they are almost unfathomable to us because we aren't used to interpreting information in that way. So take of that literal hat that says everything physically happens on Earth and let's go into the land of the abstract. Giants We have heard about Giants in a few sources. The alternative spiritual field are nuts for Giants. They believe they literally existed. I don't know. The Giants might refer to forces of nature. Interestingly we find a lot of referrals to Giants in different religions. The Greeks, late comers in the spiritual cosmologies that I study, believed in Titans. Their God, Zeus, slew the Titans. The Norse believed something similar. In the Norse story Odin slays his father, a devourer (the Norse equivalent to Giants), and makes the world out of his remains. (Check out this article on this subject: http://norse-mythology.org/gods-and-creatures/giants/). Most of the alt-spiritual group refer to the Nephilim in the bible as Giants but maybe it's the Devourers. As I dig deeper into this subject by comparing Egyptian, Norse, Dogon and Christian comsmologies I'm sure I'll develop this idea further. Different Levels of Existence Realms: Spiritual concept that I will explain later...three levels of All That Is that appear to be interacting with one another. Dimensions: The rules are different in each. "Time" also exists at different rates within each. Multiple Timelines: There are probably a near infinite number of timelines. Each has a different version of us. These timelines are born from minute changes that can have big effects. Multiple Earths: Just as there are multiple timelines, there must be multiple Earths, just as there are multiple versions of each of us. Our Higher Selves, or Soul, is multi-dimensional experiencing all of this at once. In time travel, John Titor explained, multiple versions of himself went back in time. Because it wasn't perfect in dialing in a specific time, he never wound up in the exact past for his specific timeline. Then he even spawned a new Timeline by inadvertently preventing Y2K. Yet, there were multiple versions of him and one eventually would make it back to one of the future Timelines similar to his with the computer information they needed making the trip worth it because in some Timeline the effort would succeed. The Serpent Briefly I will revisit the Serpent topic. Serpents figure prominently in all myths throughout the Earth. Whether it is the Serpent that tempts Eve to eat of the Tree of Life and Death....or the Serpent Quzicotal that taught civilizing skills to the Native Americans. In my post that I have written but not shared about the Ancient Egyptian Neters because I intend to buy Laird Scranton's book on Ancient Egyptian Mythology where he breaks down their role in his cosmology comparison with the Dogon...(so that will come after Christmas)...There is a transition that I noticed. The Neters exist outside of our Time and Space (as I believe Adam and Eve did as well). They are more like Forces of Nature. Interestingly, there is a progression in their Glyphs. The first Neter's have the snake symbols as a part of their names. Then there is a transition to the Cosmic Egg, a Chick and finally 'creation' comes to fruition in the image of a Hawk (Horus). Realms Interestingly, from Laird's research there seems to be three separate "Realms" of creation. I wonder if this progression has to do with those 'realms.' The interaction of these three 'realms' are what create our reality. This also jives with what Jamie Sams has said in her book Other Council Fires Were Here Before Ours. On one level there was perfect harmony in the form of waves (the well of destiny in Norse Mythology from which the tree Yggdrasil sprang? The Void in the Native American Traditions). Then there was a sense of self-perception that created Chaos. (Perhaps the Giants of Norse Mythology?) Then of course is the material world that we experience. Interestingly, I wonder if the Norse Gods are similar. They seem to exist outside of our Time and Space as well and describe cosmic forces. So I'm studying this idea. The Giants might be the original chaotic forces born from the self perception of All-That-Is, symbolized by the Egyptian Neters with the snake symbols.I believe they are the same concept as the Titans of Greek Mythology. Thor and the Midgard Serpent I'm researching this one a bit so this is prior to research so I will come back to this topic. As I said in my previous post Ragnarok is part of the cycle the God's don't realize happens. They wake up re-born with amnesia every time it happens. Yet, though it is in the 'future' (remember they exist in a place outside of our own time) it is recorded even as people are worshiping the God's that will die. In that story Thor always dies when he kills the Midgard (Earth) Serpent. This cycle is repeated over and over again each time the worlds are renewed. Nine Worlds/Dimensions Midgard is the Norse word for our world, from what I can understand. It is one of the nine worlds (nine dimensions?). Thor is the "God" of this world/dimension (Earth) and he fights the Midgard Serpent. I find this all very interesting. As Midgard suggests we are in the middle (confirmed in other sources such as the Dogon) of these Nine Dimensions. Let's say we take the Eight Neters and apply them to this idea of 9 dimensions each of them "ruling over" a dimension. The ninth missing dimension is the Abyss, or "untime" the primordial womb (Well of Destiny?) from which all of us sprung. This is always implied as though everyone knew this to be the case. in the Egyptian Cosmology...even though Neith is left out she is considered "The Mother" of the Neters. Then let's apply the snake to those...the dimensions that are "below" us would be symbolized by the snake. The dimensions above us would be symbolized by the egg, chick and Hawk. In Ragnarok Thor always dies as he slays the Midgard Serpent. If, whatever we are doing creates a new higher and lower dimension as Bashar has stated....then somehow maybe the cycle the "gods" have been in on the 9th world/dimension that leads to the destruction and renewal of it all...has been averted. Perhaps Thor has beaten the Midgard Serpent somehow? I find this to be an entertaining thought. Ophiuchus The Serpent Bearer Alright, so let's stop there for now. That's as far as my thinking has gone on that specific topic. When I went back and studied how Thor dies fighting the Midgard serpent I was stopped cold. Remember all that fuss I made about the new "Horoscope Sign" Ophicuchus? All of us know that the ancients used to say that the constellations were set in place to commemorate certain events in the celestial world. Interesting, that at this time in our history the Serpent Bearer becomes recognized...as though a new constellation has been added. Just as a new dimension/world is said to be added. If we go with the idea that the heavens are reflecting celestial non-material events...this is very interesting. In Sumeria, where it was first recognized as a sign it was not included because it did not fit their calendar well enough. There was only a two week period. Yet, the pole of our Earth has shifted since that time and so now it is being included in our Horoscopes because it is now in the sky for a significant amount of time. Now it is in the sky for about a month. So, we have the 13th sign (some see that number as unlucky but according to Bashar the number represents Transformation). Thinking like the Ancients I'd say that Thor finally conquered the Midgard (Earth) Serpent. Pole Shift This takes us to the idea of the Pole Shift. In California there has at last been a shift in the weather. NASA confirmed a pole shift, although they say it is from the time of Ancient Sumeria until now so it was a gradual shift. Edgar Cacye predicted a cataclysmic pole shift if people continued on the dangerous path that we were on. Did a pole shift happen this year around October? There were hints about a pole shift being tracked by scientists back around 2012, I believe, but then it was completely dropped. I can't find any modern reference to such a thing except for the small article about Ophiuchus by Nasa. This is just an interesting idea. What a pole shift exactly means I don't know....but it's interesting and it may mean that the strange phenomenon that we have experienced had to do with a minor shift in the magnetic pole of our planet. Jesus/Yeshua the Time Traveler? Alright, this one is just fun. I do not suggest this seriously but it was an epiphany I thought was entertaining. People say the reason we don't have conclusive books about the Jesus depicted in the Dead Sea Scrolls is that there were multiples of him. Perhaps even three. I was watching Flash Season Two and they were talking about Time Remnants. That multiple versions of the same person can co-exist in a Time Line without fracturing it if one of them Dies. Well, definitely one of the three Jesus's did die. That would also explain why they saw him after he died. Of course, as a multi-dimensional being that might have brought a lot of that energy and knowledge into this life (or remembered it through various training...if what Edgar Cacye said is true that he was taught by Hindu, Egyptian and Jewish teachers he was actually the combination of multiple faiths)...he might have been able to manifest himself as three different people. This is just an entertaining idea and it would be a solution to the paradox represented by the Dead Sea Scrolls. Conclusion This is the interesting stuff that I have been researching. There will definitely be more to come. I also want to note that it is interesting that Thor: Ragnarok is coming out next year. Did 2012 start off with an alignment of the "Nine Worlds" or "Nine Dimensions" which leads to a convergence of timelines and allows those "Nine Worlds" to interact in the cosmic soup of creation by not leading to the repetitive destruction/recreation cycle but something completely new? Is that what's causing the Mandela Effect? Perhaps later I will go more in depth to an outline for an idea on this one (think of it more of a fantasy type work then something I necessarily believe is reality but nevertheless a mind bending and illuminating different perspective). This is where the path diverges. I think one group will take a route down to World War Three (Hilary Clinton getting into office might cause that) and Civil War as John Titor eerily described... Or it could go a different route that is far less likely and a miracle... I'm in the mood for miracles. Let's go CUBS!
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Well after a very busy emotional week for me and a beautiful thunderstorm I am feeling refreshed and renewed.
I believe there are cycles in spiritual dimensions that are reflected here on Earth. This idea of cycles, of periods where everything is destroyed and refreshed is reflected in multiple belief systems: In the Bible, that is why the Deluge was sent and it was because a time of cycle was complete that the events that happen 'in Heaven' affect the Earth and possibly destroy it. In the Hindu Tradition it is the Kali Yuga- four stages that the world goes through that end with destruction and rebirth even on the spiritual dimension (we are known to be in that final world according to the Hindus). In the Hopi tradition there have been many worlds before that we do not remember, the world of the mineral, the plant and and we are currently in the Animal. At the end of each world there was destruction of the surface of this planet. The survivors only lived because they were preserved by nature. In each world, we learned a different set of lessons. They believe that the next world is that of the Human. In the Norse Mythology it is Ragnarok. In this the Norse Gods die...and they remember that they die in every cycle. In every cycle they die the same way, caused by Loki. Thor dies every time fighting the same Serpent (remember this because the Serpent Tamer was just added to our Horoscope- has Thor finally beaten him in the Spirit realm?). The God's are then reborn never remembering that they die the same way every time and have no way of preventing it. If what Bashar says is true, that this is the splitting of the Prisim...and a new dimensional being is created that can look back down through all of the multiple levels and dimensions and timelines because of it...perhaps we add something to this cycle of re-creation. Maybe, this time, "the God's" in their spiritual dimension are not stuck in a loop of creation and destruction because of something we do on this insignificant planet. I Voted I have already voted...so for me, my prayer request to the Universe for some change has been sent. I am in a watch, see and pray mode. I will say that if Hilary wins, which will disrupt the balance in this country that we once had between the two parties...and if she starts World War Three I will hold responsible every person who voted for her. The signs are there that she wants that war no matter now insane and unjustified it is...but too many are still trapped in the tunnel vision of Group Think to vote for anyone else. If someone else wins...it will be a miracle and I'll be satisfied. The reason I 'wasted' my vote, was because I believe that one step in manifestation is to take an action towards what we want most. We might not see it right now, but it will come to be...we are the Agents of Change in this world. As long as everyone is locked into a two party system way of thinking with the typical unreliable politician whispering sweet promises they will never achieve...there will not be the change this country needs. There is no denying this country needs change and with it we will change the world to a better place...because for all intents and purposes by having bases in 98% of the rest of the countries in this world we influence/control them. Yet, there are many other things that I have been thinking about. Fun stuff, really. So, on to the fun stuff. The Weather There has been a shift in the weather. I don't know if people are really paying attention to it. We just had the biggest storm I've seen in California in a very long time. We are actually going to have a winter (we didn't have a drop in temperatures at all last year). To me this is a miracle. The funny thing is so many southern Californian's hate it. We commute a lot of miles because it's easy when the weather is almost always good. As soon as it rains the freeways get gnarled up and a long commute becomes longer. We promoted people moving to California with the Rose Parade, a rather interesting poorly spoken stuttering customer told me just the other day, to attract people to this State because of the good weather. When the rest of the country is locked in snow, at the heart of winter, California is Sunny. A great tool to attract like minded people to this state. If emotions and desires affected the weather, Californian's would definitely continue the drought in a desire just to keep blue skies and warm temperatures. Then again maybe there might be a majority who feel that we need the rain, at last, maybe the dead lawns woke them up. Either way, it's a nice shift in trend and I am grateful for it. The Cubs Ross and I were watching Men in Black Three. There was a modern baseball scene. I thought it was the Cubs (but watching the clip online it's the Mets) who had gone to the World Series and won. Griffin, the 5th dimensional being said it was his favorite moment in human history because it was a miracle...a very unlikely outcome occurring. The really strange thing is the next day I saw all of the Dodger Fan's complaining that the Cubs had won and were going to the World Series. That was a huge coincidence and ironically the game is happening today! If the Cubs win it would show that we are on an "unlikely" timeline. There is another movie where Baseball plays a key role. In Back to the Future 2 in 2015 the Cubs won the World Series. Interestingly, I came across a clip from last year when one of the writers were being interviewed about the prediction. Which is weird because it wasn't until this year that the Cubs were going to the world series. So, why they were talking about it last year (other than that was the year it was 'supposed' to happen but if it's off by a year, statistically that's not huge) is strange. Given that the Cubs haven't been in the World Series since the 1940's....and the fulfillment of policy that would indicate we are on an "unlikely" Timeline. Just for the fun of it. Here is a video of the writer of Back to the Future talking about this prediction (https://youtu.be/3Iy5FAuYVVY) and the scene from MIB III.
Fifth Dimensional Beings The character of Griffin is interesting. He was based mostly on modern physics. The fifth dimension, it's been said by phsyics, is Time. So, that character perceives time differently and as he says...he can see multiple timelines but he's not sure which one is going to 'coalesce.' That's an interesting idea...especially given that a part of us is "outside of time." In my fantasy series of books (which I'll publish some day and last year I put a synopsis up on this blog) I had what was called the Tower of Time. There were five Towers in the fantasy world I created called Merosis. The Tower of Time did not really exist in the same dimension as Merosis...it periodically shared time with it so the people inside aged very slowly when compared to the rest of the population allowing them a 'lot of time' for study. In my spiritual studies I've discovered that the portion of our souls that remain in "heaven" or the spiritual dimension is outside of time. This is our Higher Selves...they see our life from a perspective similar to Griffin. Our Higher Self (replace with Soul if that term seems obtuse) knows all of the potential realities, futures and timelines...it seeks to steer us from that lofty perspective but even our Higher Selves aren't certain what route we will take and what timeline will "become real" and be experienced here on this plane of existence. I had totally forgotten that MIB even went the timeline route until we watched the third one again. The movie came out in 2012. The idea of traveling back in time to save the present is one that has been talked about a lot recently. X-Men Days of Future Past, released in 2014, had the same exact story line...one key person's death lead to the destruction of the world (in that movie Mystique, who reveals herself to be a mutant, and I've been wondering if that's the fulfillment of the Hopi Blue Kachina Prophecy or a reflection of that in another Timeline as all possibilities that we imagine do exist in another Timeline/Earth). Here is the trailer for Men In Black Three and Days of Future Past which are really the same plot.
We Don't Need Permission
One of my habits is to ask the Universe for permission when I want something to manifest. I learned in a recent dream that I need to stop doing that because that's not part of the rules. I think I learned it from the Lords Prayer, where it says, "May thy will be done on Earth as it is on heaven" instead of the will of the person praying. However, I imagine that if you are in alignment with the Creator's will...there is no need for permission. The Universe will bring what is appropriate per the Creator and the individuals Higher Self (Soul). Asking permission actually blocks manifestation. There will never be a reply. That's not how this reality works or the purpose of it...here we are experimenting with creating on a grand multi-dimensional scale. That's part of the fact that we are spiritually created in the image of the Creator. (Just as the male/female split was not in the human flesh but in Spirit but that's a whole different matter i may approach when I finally post the research I did on the Egyptian Neters). I Will Prepare A Place For You This is one of the things that Jesus/Yeshua said. When I was thinking about multi-dimensional beings it occurred to me that's what Jesus/Yeshua was fully in this reality....a multi-dimensional being that was capable of accessing information outside of Time as we know it. I always thought he meant preparing a place in heaven. What if he meant that he was preparing an alternate timeline or an alternate reality for those who actually modeled their life after him? What if that's really what the splitting of the Prisim is? That's what allowed for a new Earth Timeline that does not end in destruction to exist? I've talked about this a lot previously. In the Hopi Prophecy, the Pyramid Prophecy and Bashar has been saying....that there will be a split. Those who are not ready to go on with a new set of lessons, as all of the scenarios that can be played out have been played out on this planet, will go down one split that will not end well (the Hopi timeline shows that timeline simply coming to an end). The Pyramid Prophecy shows people who do not ascend in the kings chamber going down into a pit which is the lowest portion of the Pyramid called the "well of souls" (and reminds me of the pit in Revelation). Bashar says those who are not done with this cycle of learning will simply incarnate on another planet that has been prepared for them and think it's Earth (that's an odd one). This is only a thought, not meant to offend, but I find it fascinating. Conclusion We are in very interesting fun times. I will continue to pray and meditate on positive energy. I will continue to believe that the mind is the builder, thoughts are things and that our power of manifestation is staggering. I believe the Mandela effect might be caused by all of the possible previous Earths (multi-Earth/TImelines- both physics theroies...I suggest watching the DC series Flash and it will make a lot of sense), with all of the possible previous Earths merging just before this split in the road. This has happened at the end of each World- as the Hopi call it- and the last time it happened the result was the flood. I think when our multi-dimensional higher self becomes so condensed on this level of reality they become more powerful. Only this time, unlike before, in one timeline the Earth won't be "Shaken" again or destroyed. The people will be following the will of the Creator, as the Hopi explain, they will have a close relationship with the Earth and the Creator. This is why the hunter and gatherers are always the ones who survive cataclysms (read Graham Hancock's Magician of the Gods to get more of a handle on this or Other Council Fires Were Here Before Ours by Jamie Sams and Twylah Nitsch)... Keep in mind I never thought World War Three would be possible in my life time. I thought the hatchet had been buried with Russia. Yet, Hilary has made it clear that it has not. The Hopi say that the "Third Shaking" where the Creator tries to tell us to wake up and return to the ways the Creator instructed us...will involve the "Gourd of Ashes" (Nuclear Weapons) and that it will destroy the world with fire. Now, it is said that Bashar and his people have made it clear that will not be allowed...but they are here to see the split int he Prisim because somehow by doing that we change the entire nature of the universe... I will go more into this idea further in a future blog. I think we've entered the period of renewal known as Ragnarok by the Norse (and as I have said at this time in previous history our world was destroyed...and it is a reflection of what is happening in a spiritual dimension which is where Ragnarok takes place). I suggest you look that up (also, I find it interesting that the movie Thor: Ragnarok comes out next year). By the way I'm including a video explaining the Flash Timeline...I also have to state I'm a year behind on Flash because I wait for it to come out on NetFlix. (https://youtu.be/ZpjrlZe7ueQ) I'm also including a cute little video about the the Norse Ragnarok Death of the Gods Story. Finally, a video explaining the end of Apocalypse...and I'll finish with the trailer for the next stage of the X-Men series...Logan. The new Timeline they created is fascinating. (https://youtu.be/XoJWtydos9I) Weebly is being difficult so I'm providing links you can copy and paste if the video doesn't show up. Until next time...be kind, be firm and create your life filled with love. I'm a bit mentally exhausted but here is a running list of epiphanies, ideas and thoughts I've had regarding things I've encountered recently.
Politics I'm sorry to go here but this is part venting. Part of the reason I'm mentally exhausted is that I made the poor choice of reading the transcript for the last presidential debate today. Talk about a very difficult decision. I don't like Republicans because they bring Christianity into politics too much and I firmly believe in the separation between Church and State (we do not need to become like Rome). I don't like democrats because I think they would drown us in a sea of regulation and entitlement programs that choke the economy. I would like to keep it simple, remain impartial as I have in the other elections and vote for Gary Johnson but this election...well, I want to cast my hope into the universe for a better United States and world. I cannot believe that Hilary is attempting to blame Russia for Wikileaks. That astounds me but Putin did say at the start that if Hilary won it would be war and I'm glad the issue came back up...that a foreign leader believes Hilary is a war monger. This actually terrifies me...if a foreign leader is that worried about Hilary getting power because she would abuse it and cause World War Three the rest of us need to be worried. Donald Trump is an enigma. He's the Iron Man of this election, you kind of hate him because he has a silver spoon in his mouth. He didn't grow up in the South Side of Brooklyn or anything so he's not humble. Yet, he's very good at building functional systems of people and mutually beneficial agreements/contracts as his companies (plural, meaning many all with their own CEO) prove. If he was the CEO and founder of Starbucks, Howard Schultz, who is a nice mix of humble and brilliant...I wouldn't hesitate to vote for him. But Donald is a bit off putting by his really prickly egotistical personality. Yet, as I stated before that Trump and Sanders were considered at all is a big leap forward in the perception of the people of the United States. I think we are on the verge of the two main parties, The Reps and Dems, being toppled. People are quite frankly sick of them because once in power they act as one party. There are only about three points on which the two parties differ- abortions, immigration, and guns. All of which are ethical and moral quandaries. So, for now, because of Hilary's anti-Russian pro-world-war-three stance and because Trump is the closest thing to a third party candidate I am voting for him. I will not vote for someone who is advocating and speaking provocatively about a fellow country that has nuclear power in a way that promotes acts of war against them. She's saying the system is being rigged just as much as Trump...but it's the Russians. Which smacks of McCarthyisim. Either one we can only hope and pray for this country that they are only in there for four years. Jill Stein (Green Party) is a far better choice than Hilary and Gary Johnson (Libertarian) is a far better choice than Trump. Both of them should be considered by the people of the United States and should have been int he debates. Dreams I've had awesome stuff happen with dreams. I had a very odd dream that I couldn't understand. My store manager was rearranging furniture in front of where i work. It was a sofa, end tables, and other stuff. I knew it was an act of futility. Then it literally happened. Only it wasn't really furniture. It was a food display. The kiosk wasn't working right and so he tried to throw it out. However, he ended up putting it back because after failing to fix it the repair company came up with a solution. There is much more, dreams that illuminated certain things to me, gave me answers about things that had not occurred to me before. But that one is probably the most interesting recently. Time Lines I'm currently watching Flash on Netflix (I just finished Super Girl- she and Rogue were my favorite super hero's in the comics when I was a kid)...and they are talking about timelines. Both of those shows have timelines as an important piece in their plot. I also watched Angel's and Demons yesterday and X-Men Apocalypse. Angels and Demons actually featured CERN and in The Flash there is a facility that looks like a hadron collider (smaller then CERN) that had a problem and created meta-humans. Of course X-Men Apocalypse is the follow up to the Days of Future Past (which I covered before). If you're not familiar it's a bit of a timely piece of fantasy/science fiction work. The reason being that an entire group of people who believe in conspiracies and metaphysics believe that there has been timeline manipulation. Some blame CERN, John Titor (a supposed time traveler) implied he created a timeline different from his own because inadvertently prevented Y2k from happening...and there is any number of reptilian and supposed hidden government agencies that time travel. Some of the ideas are pretty darn out there and paranoid. I don't and will never present such negative ideas here for the sake of I don't want that to be created or to feed negativity. Any who, the plot of a good story came to me. I will go into this in a later post. I just wanted to point out, for now, it is very interesting how Timelines, alternate universes and how Time Travel might work and it's effects are popping up a lot in popular culture. I already mentioned how a Russia, China and Iran alliance was talked about by John Titor. The fact that there has been ample evidence that Hilary wants to go to war with China and Russia (both allies of Iran which might be arming themselves with nukes thanks to the 'peace agreement')...is a strange echo of what he described in the time period when he was posting in 2001. Finding Lost Items This is a bit odd but in this last week I found a lot of lost items I thought were gone for good. I thought I had lost my spider web bracelet at Knotts Berry Farm Hotel a week ago. I thought I had lost a black star stud earring at work months ago. I thought I had lost a gift card a customer had given me as a gift. All three were found last week. I found the star earring, the oldest thing, by stepping on it in my walk in closet. I had placed and moved a lot of things in that area, even vacuumed it and I don't see how that earring had been there for months. I lost sleep over this earring when I first lost it trying to remember where that might have been. I found my spider bracelet in my dog, Angel's bed. I'd been looking for it for ever a week. I lost sleep over losing that bracelet because it's pretty unique. I didn't think I could replace it. My gift card was friend by my dear friend Joe. He and Jennifer knew that I was upset about losing it. He found it by where I usually park in the grass. All three of these I was trying an experiment. Don't think or worry about them. Don't think that they are missing. I trained myself to believe that they were in the house. That somehow, by just thinking that I would find them I would....and strangely I did. By far one of the strangest manifestation thought experiments I have ever performed. Conclusion My week has been very strange. I am mentally exhausted and I'm ready for this year to be over. I normally love Halloween but this year...I'm ready for Christmas and a new start with a new year. The theme for next years movies is interesting. The big theme reflected in them if looking at them as a whole is a world changed, a last war or final event and that changes everything. In one an experiment with a Hadron Collider causes the Earth to disappear (time line and Hadron collider...seems to be similar to the radioactive materials cause super powers idea that fueled a lot of fantasy and comics in earlier times) and a space station stranded in space trying to determine if a European space craft is friend or foe. There is a *LOT* and when I say a lot I mean *More than ever before* strong female lead characters in movie. In fact I think there are more female leads in action roles than there are male. Red Sparrow, Wonder Woman, Alice from Resident Evil, and Selene in Underworld. I am totally ready for that phase in my life.
When I heard what Pence said at the end here it stopped me, "This is a choice between two futures."
This last week has been very busy and very strange....a lot of big and small synchronicities in my world. Even more interesting that people think that Trump being successful is the result of MEME magic. Here is a link to a video about that (https://youtu.be/KlIm7HjW8cY ) . Which I might cover in a future post. We are about to go into Woo-Woo land as some people call it but take my hand and let's follow this spiral of information... The Dakota Pipeline The Dakota pipeline is getting no press at all. Yet, Native American's from all over- From Hawaii to the surviving Mayans have come out in support of not allowing this timeline along the Missouri River. This reminds me of the Eagle and Condor prophecy. They couldn't get together for peaceful reasons...but they were able to unite against a common enemy...big oil that likes to destroy natural resources. Sad reasons but right on time with the scheme of things. War With Russia and China? There was a point in the last debate where Hilary talked about needing leverage over Russia. How do you get leverage over a Nuclear Super Power? The mere idea sounds bizarrely dangerous. Further, it seems that Assad is the best choice to rule in Syria and we should be backing him and not the Al Qaeda rebels if we really care about civilians. The position that the United States has been taking seems very wrong from a moral and ethical point of view. Just check out the video below. I'm really surprised how I went from the only person saying I couldn't vote for her based on the fact she seemed to want a war with Russia to it being all over the internet to the point where my husband actually commented on it. He doesn't believe that we could or would go to war with Russia or China but there is plenty of information suggesting that might actually be something that might happen. Most people aren't following the issues...such as the fact that we are building missile silos close to Russian borders which does appear to be threatening and breaks U.N. treaties. Further are the strange fact that we may be guilty of war crimes in Yemen because we sold weapons to Arabia that they are using on civilians. Here are a couple of videos about it...
John Titor
I've written about John Titor before in my Timelines Blog and I'll include a video here of a long episode of the Moore Show on the subject:
Civil War
Of course the idea of war with Russia and China reminded me of the John Titor material. True, his exact predictions were not correct. We did not have a Civil War start in 2005...in fact, that idea didn't even remotely seem possible at that time. Today, however, that tension does exist. Here is an article from Cracked.com Yet, this could be explained by the 2.5% variation between timelines and the idea that John Titor did something in 1975 to prevent Y2k....and so we are in a timeline that is different from the one he experienced and was directly changed by a time traveler. However, there is this article from Cracked.com's David Wong: http://www.cracked.com/blog/6-reasons-trumps-rise-that-no-one-talks-about/ Trump is, essentially, the response of the rural communities reaction to their way of life being under attack. Their jobs are disappearing over seas. Their lifestyle is under attack. Hilary calls them 'deplorables.' They look at the people that live in the cities being insane with the BLM riots and the attacks on people going to Trump rallies. More and more, as David Wong points out, the people in rural communities are feeling helpless and their interests...which represents as a huge percentage of the country land wise...and increasingly disenfranchised. Never before has the stage been set for John Titor's civil war between the cities and rural towns. The truth is if Hilary tries to make them give up their guns via a Executive Order and take away the Second Amendment there is the possibility that this might happen to some degree. There will certainly be resistance. Some sherrifs have stated they will not enforce any such executive order. China John Titor explained that seeing a weaker west China would make it's move and start to expand. The strange thing is that this, in some degree though later then he said, China has made this move. China has created a man made island where they have put missile systems and fighter jets. (http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3460472/China-setting-radars-man-islands-help-establish-control-sea-air-space-disputed-region.html). Here is a video on that as well: Russia In John Titor's story Russia was the country that fought with the corrupted government of the United States (to make it simple he had an almost libertarian point of view, he loved the constitution but he hated the way our government had become) and destroyed the cities with nuclear bombs. This is also an interesting because we can see that Hilary really wants war with Russia. They are blaming Russia for the DNC email hack. She is also blamingi them for the most recent data dump that shows that Hilary is quite honestly the most corrupt politician in existence accepting donations through the Clinton Foundation for favors while she was Secretary of State. Oddly, Obama might even strike back for these hacks (that Wikileaks actually claims and they have no assosciation with Russia) at Russia with a cyber attack which might instigate war. My Thoughts So, I am sitting here looking at this...obviously, the timeline John TItor might have been from might have experienced some things earlier because Y2K lead to instability in the United States. Without Y2K it might have taken longer for these things to materialize. Obama might have been a mistake. He was elected in 2008...and he has had a very good reason not to go to war. Not only was not being engaged in the Middle East part of his campaign but as the first Black President he had to set an example. It would look very bad if the first Black President initiated a World War.
Don't Be Afraid
Before you get really freaked out and afraid about Nuclear War, we have to remember a few things. First and foresmost Titor is not the only one interferring with our Timeline. The gray's, seeing that we are on a similar path to their timeline, has intervened. We have the Yahyel and the Essassani. There is proof that a Nuclear War won't happen because they've started up sequences and shut them down to show it's not allowed. So, we're on a unique timeline where a lot of stuff has happened to contribute to a unique future and possible to the splitting of the prism. Perhaps a great deal of alternative Earths don't end well and a minority go on. Music Videos Two music videos came out that gave me pause. First, there was the Avenged Sevenfold Music Video. I've known for a while that they are into some alt-metaphysics type stuff. Their illusions to Worlds Colliding in Hail to the King seemed to refer to Nibiru and the Annunaki. In this one, they mention that everything is just a simulation (the theory that we are in a computer simulation which I'll cover some day when I go over the idea that this is a holographic universe). The name "The Stage" refers to the Shakespear quote, "All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players; They have their exits and their entrances, And one man in his time plays many parts, His acts being seven age. At First, the infant, Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms." They also show Hilary as pulling the strings of the audience (no Trump strangely) and that her strings are being pulled by a demonic source. To me to see this stuff in a mainstream song/video is amazing. That just shows how amazingly widespread these ideas have spread...and I'm humbled and HOPEFUL.
Prisim From Lindsey Stirling also dropped.
This one, obviously reminds me of the Splitting Prisim information that Bashar has shared. First, the name obviously. Second, the Japanese setting because Bashar is *HUGE* in Japan. Third, the triangle at the start and end of the video which is the symbol for Bashar. To me that's fascinating. Especially as there are many images of her interacting...reminds me of the theory that there are many of us in parallel worlds/time lines (I'm currently watching Flash Season Two where there is an Earth 1 and Earth 2 interplay haha!) Conclusion The reason this presidential election is so strange is that the Internet has forced transparency. Even if it's just Youtube videos or Wikileaks data dumps...the media may be loyal to the president but they cannot collude with them. Franklin Roosevelt would not have been elected because someone with a cell phone would have captured video of him getting in an out of his vehicle. We could become fearful. Yet, as I have argued in my posts when you are coming from a point of love and support the universe itself supports you. We might take ourselves to that edge to see what might happen but I believe in the people of this world to pull away and not take that path. Seeing mainstream music videos that seem to address this stuff and the stuff I follow like Avenged Sevenfolds The Stage and Disturbs Vengeful One is also reassuring. There are a lot more people awakening to the way we have been manipulated by the media propaganda. I will leave off with Pence talking about how this election is about two futures...to me this is just really eerie given that it does seem to be the question do we want John Titor's future which Hilary, representing the status quo seems to represent or do we take a chance? Yeah, Trump isn't great. Trump might not be totally different from her...but for a Democrat to win after another Democrat completed two terms...would be unprecedented. That would lock in that point of view in our country instead of the balance between the two parties. This one is going to be a short and sweet blog.
I have put forward before that I do believe that upcoming movies do indicate where the Collective Unconscious (or Group Oversoul) is going. I am aware that they are written and put into production two years before they come out...yet Hollywood is always trying to predict the next big thing. I also believe that writers and artists are the 'modern' cultures Shaman's so they are able to tune in and see where trends are leading. Our television and our movies are like mirrors. Polarization I have talked about how the movies at the start of this year really indicated that there was going to be a polarization. We have seen it more strongly this year then ever before...although the seeds of it showed up in the preceding years. This election has really brought all of that polarization to light...the people who are working out of fear and those who are working out of love are quite clear. Although, the latter seems to be a smaller group. Anti-Heros or Anti-Politicians? The one aspect that I couldn't really add into the equation were the anti-hero movies that came out this year. Instead of having the good guys win the day...there was the sentiment that sometimes the Bad Guys have to stand up and do the right thing. Sometimes, it's only bad people who really understand how reality works at it's basic level and can fix it. I really couldn't put this into context or why this was a trend until I realized... Trump and Hilary are the anti-hero politicians. Neither of them have a good track record. Although I've seen a comparison between Trump and Iron Man in this article (http://www.cracked.com/blog/6-reasons-trumps-rise-that-no-one-talks-about/). He's the play boy philanthropist that's decided something has to be done to help our country. He dislikes where it is headed under the direction of Hilary and Obama...so he's reluctantly taken up the choice to become a politician. This after years of people asking him if he would do it and him saying no...so clearly within his mind the country is in a dire state and he's going to save it. Yet, he comes off like a used car sales man, praising himself all of the time and his openly lewd behavior is off putting. Hilary is definitely a villain in the scheme of things, getting rich while being the Secretary of State and an email scandal that would have landed any military veteran in jail. The possibility that her mishandling of confidential material lead to the death of a scientist that our country abducted and interrogated. She states that she didn't know that the C on the confidential emails meant confidential and that she didn't receive any training regarding how to handle state secrets and confidential material. The biggest donor to her Clinton Foundation is the Saudi's who are now bombing civilians and funerals in Yemen with weapons that still say USA on them...But she thinks she can make the United States better. We've hit a new low, as a nation, where the people who put off they were Hero's, like Barack Obama, failed to perform. So now, we are turning it over to the villains in the hope that they will do what is right for our nation. Not for the common good of every person but simply to save their own skin. There is a bit of twisted logic to that one. Yet it fits. We hope that Trump would deny his own personal business interests and close loop holes in the tax code, problems with treaties that make imports cheaper then home made items, and make companies return to the United States. We hope that he can somehow bring back manufacturing jobs that are leaving this country in droves and leaving the rural communities ghost towns. While cities can adjust with more customer service jobs when a manufacturer chooses to leave a rural community it cannot. We hope that Hilary will close the tax loop holes as Obama promised but didn't deliver. We hope that she finds a way to make peace in the Middle East and with Russia...even as she bizarrely spouts anti-Russian rhetoric as though we were deep in the Cold War and not a five year old Syrian Civil War. We hope that she, at the very least, keeps the status quo on the economy that Obama has held which is neither growth nor degradation. Neither of these two talk about compassion. Neither offer genuine sentiments towards the victims that they describe and throw at each other like arrows of condemnation. Neither apologize for their behavior. They know their behavior is not classy and don't even attempt to be considerate of others. They are the villains, they know they are the villains and they embrace the hatred of the people. They don't try to change peoples minds and they aren't even claiming to be good people with strong ethics and morals. They only try to convince us that the other candidate is worse! It's mind boggling! Conclusion This year has been a strange one. I think that we are about to enter a really interesting phase in this country. There is so much transparency these days that we are electing exactly what we think most of the people in the government are...villains. They are corrupt, they are out for businesses (money) interests only, they are not serving the people and they lie all of the time (but ask for fact checks on opinions). In many ways, we are electing exactly what we believe politicians to be but this time it is obvious and the candidates are not striving to be better people. They are not even attempting to pretend they have compassion. Maybe after this election we will start to view our government differently. Maybe we will see that we don't need leaders who are out to change the world in the image they think is best. Idealists are always living in a fantasy world that is out of touch with the common citizen of our country. We just need administrators to make sure the basic infrastructure remains in place and no more. In the age of the internet we can govern ourselves like never before...because we can organize and vote quickly if it was organized correctly. There is no need for executive decisions to be made by one individual. I had to break down my belief system, after my last blog, and make it as simple as possible. My husband wanted to understand where I was coming from and how I could defend it. Is it possible to have a belief system that doesn't involve God? Can I leave out the bigger metaphysical pieces of the puzzle that have made a more complete picture for me?
Well, yes. There is a very simple approach from life that lies at the core of my value and belief system. That core principal rests on the idea of personal responsibility. In fact, it makes me more responsible for my own reality then The Creator. While the Creator and the idea of reincarnation, life after death, ghosts, karma, and chakras definitely play a key role in all of this and have their place in it at the heart of all good spiritual practices is a basic system. I believe this system was created by a more intelligent force in creation. Whether it came directly from the Creator, or was a product of Shamanic Dream Quests, or it came from some other interaction...it does not matter. That system is very simple and even when you remove The Creator and all of the rest from it can you use it to approach life. Life is Subjective I have explained this one many times. This is scientifically proven as well and promoted by psychology! Life is subjective...it is basically neutral data that you encounter...then based on your belief system you create how you respond to the stimulus. Life is 100% what you make of it. No one forces you to watch the news and become mad. You choose to do that...and someone with a slightly different perspective might find the entire thing absolutely hilarious. (I often have a surreal feeling watching the news after years of not watching it because...it seems really fake from the people who are reporters to the biased way they tell stories all of it almost seems like satire...especially on a slow news day). Two people can experience the same exact situation and have two totally different responses. I went to Knotts Scary Farm on Thursday. The Tricksters came up to me and sniffed really deeply. I asked if I smelt good...because I knew it was an illusion. I knew it was fake. I knew they couldn't touch me and even if they did...well, I'd probably walk away. So, I'm friendly. One time I even offered one a piece of churro when he asked in a creepy voice. His unadulterated shock made my night (he then went around chasing people asking them if he wanted his churro which could be interpreted in interesting ways). Yet, there are people who freak out. They scream, they run, and the Tricksters encouraged by this behavior and the attention run after them...squeaking or sparking their way through the fog. Someone dressed up as a clown can look menacing...and so we have a clown epidemic in our country (wake up to the illusion). People who think about sex all of the time see sexual symbols all over the place. Something that might not look like a penis suddenly does. Yet, I'm getting ahead of myself so let's go on to the next topic. This is basic psychology. When at the end of my capstone psychology class I read that there were too many varieties of people who reacted too many ways to safely categorize or predict behavior in a definitive manner...I went, "Ah ha!" and I was really disappointed because I'd been hoping psychology would give me a glimpse of the motivations behind people's actions. Yet, the answer is that there are just too many ways to react...and the only way to really predict that is based on a person's internal beliefs. The mind is always at your command...if you think it...it will happen eventually. The Self-Fulfilling Prophecy This one is proven by science. Guaranteed to make the hardiest skeptic gag on their bloated anti-god rhetoric. In this, basically, a person latches onto a belief or idea. Then their subconscious makes it happen. This explains how affirmations and even positive thinking can work. The brain is trained to expect positive things so your subconscious is going to work for you ensuring that you are extra aware and expecting the parking space near the front of the store. Is it destiny or is it the power of the brain that really own you feeds you a small percentage of the data that it's taken in through the various forms of stimulus? In the end does it matter? With simple Affirmations, a Goal Board, daily positive meditation and working on being a positive person (fake it until you make it...if someone asks how you are say fantastic even if you're not...and somehow just with that reinforcement...even if you know it's a lie it will soon be true because everyone you encounter will be happier to see you!)...you too can train your mind to work for you! Fear Based or Love Based Similar to the Force we have the choice to approach love from Fear or Love. Fear based approaches cause us to hate people and resent them. Usually because we make certain assumptions that lead to a Self-Fulfilling prophecy. Someone will hate us if we act a certain way...so we do and then we're in hot water and hating them. Fear just leads down a dark path....the opposite of the positive path. People who are working on fear try to turn the world into the image they want. Through manipulation of the environment and other people they create their own world. They work against the natural order of things. Naturally, this causes a lot of other problems in their life and like a spider web they weave the trap for themselves. I could go in to why there is no reason to fear. There is good fear, it does let you know when things are not right in your life. Fear will even give you a little guidance as to what needs to be jettisoned or adjusted. If you're afraid of meeting people...usually you have to ask yourself why. Then you realize that you have a belief that was constructed by fear...just knowing that can free you or start to free you depending on how badly you think you need that belief to survive. The love based person trusts themselves above all else. That means not depending on the universe to provide for them but to simply allow for things to happen naturally. When meeting resistance there is an understanding that door is not meant to be opened (unlike a fear based person who will keep working at it until it does open and something bad happens). Being open minded they will give anything consideration for a time but trusting in their ability to know when their boundaries are crossed they will defend themselves as needed. That simple trust is love in a way because there is no love when trust is gone. There is no need when there is love for completion or turning to anything else for answers. This isn't spiritual in any way. We are experts on ourselves, we read endless personality information (Myers Briggs for example) to try to get a perception of ourselves. For some it is elusive...some people take on a defined role and image...and for others it is completely flexible because they can be one person one minute and a totally different one the next. Accepting The Natural Order This, again, has been scientifically proven. In our universe there is order even in chaos. There are patterns...almost as though life is a transmission of some sort from some unknown source. This has lead a lot of scientists to propose we live in a holographic universe (which is not so proven). Yet, the Natural Order is not hard to identify and track. The Earth has a natural rhythm and has dealt with global catastrophes only to adjust and then allow life to thrive again. Some Scientists say we are in the fifth or sixth mass level extinction event...yet Joe and Jane off to their job hardly notice the difference from day to day. The very idea that Humanity thinks it can control nature is such a folly it's laughable and depicted in such movies as Jurassic Park as general knowledge. We can have a slight impact but on a universal level there is a natural order, there are physical processes in place that occur in response to variables and life finds a way. The only problem is that Humanity likes to work against that natural order- massive farms, massive raising of life stock...that can have negative effects. Working against the natural order always causes negative effects. Whether it's the loss of human life because a building was created somewhere that is vulnerable to different issues (frequent flooding or land slides)...it is a failure to really understand the natural order of the universe that causes them. There is a delicate balance that needs to be maintained. Conclusion There really isn't a need to identify the Creator as having a major role in your life. There isn't even a need to make everything complicated. Personal responsibility is the firm foundation of every approach to life. We are not mere bits of straw on the ocean of life being tossed about helplessly in a storm...unless we mentally choose to be based on our beliefs about reality and life in general. That being said, the idea of a Creator does help. That we are part of the Creator, as well as the Created, that we are made in that spiritual image and that is why we can Create and reformat the world based on our will. That there is a divine will or Order to the universe. That the reason we came here is to experience the ability to create and tame the will that makes us desire to work against the Creation by formatting it into our own image. Yet, my very simple set of beliefs don't require it...it just requires a commitment to wholesome healthy psychological living and responsibility which are principals that anyone can put into place within their own life. As I conveyed in last weeks blogs about the Law of Attraction and Synchronicity I have had a lot of indications that I needed to let go. In one day, there were a bunch of items that talked about letting go...a card from one of the sites I follow, a video by Victor Oddo, and even today there was a weekly tarot card reading by Doreen Virtue that talked about...yup transformation.
I have discovered some of the things that I have been carrying with me when it comes to old grudges from the past. Not only did I not need to bring up those old issues when examining future choices and situations...I realized I needed to completely let go of the person that I have been for the past two years. Transformation I know all of us can look to the past and see how we have transformed. The person we were five, teen or fifteen years ago almost seems foreign to us. We definitely transform from one era of our life to another and usually in a subtle progression that we are not even aware of during the transformation. There is a concept, however, that is better suited for rapid growth. I know, personally, I'm desiring some rapid growth. I have , for two years, been captive to a situation that I faced for a very short period of time, about one month of upheaval, and I've been stuck in that past holding onto all of the emotional fall out that occurred because of what happened. What I realized last night is that I don't need to be that person anymore. In fact, I don't even recognize the person I was in January of this year I have changed and grown so much. What I've Been Creating I realized that in my closest relationship, the one with my husband, I've been creating a sense of being unsupported. This started two years ago when my daughter was born prematurely and died because her lungs were not developed enough for her to live normally. I pushed everyone away when she died...the pain was just so great that just to function I couldn't focus on it. I couldn't say my daughters name for over a year without falling into a crying fit and having a panic attack. My biggest issue is that I felt the Creator had turned it's back on me by allowing my daughter to die. Not only did I feel unsupported by my family, friends, and even my spouse...but I felt unsupported by the universe itself. I projected that feeling, on a subconscious level, onto my husband. Part of it was that I simply wasn't communicating with him as I had when we first met. When we first met I was very bold and blunt. I was very much a take me as I am or not at all person who stood my ground. I know that I've been creating this sense of being unsupported by him, that he supports his friends and family more than he does me, through my actions. However, I also realize that I stopped looking to him for support in a lot of ways. Our path diverged as I went through my healing process because I turned back to my spirituality to find some meaning in it all. He has no desire for finding meaning in anything. I lean more on my friends than I do him when I want advice or I need to vent. Our communication level went down a lot in the last two years. I simply stopped talking about a lot of things with him. He is not spiritual like I am so I can't talk to him about new avenues of interest I've come across in that area. I have plenty of friends that are interested, however, and so I find communion with them. I have other areas of support for all of the areas that my husband can't relate to me. That has given me a sense of not having much support from him. Yet, it's not that he doesn't support me and my decisions...he does, it's just there haven't been a lot of decisions that involved him in the past two years. The past two years have been intensely personal for me and the process of extracting myself from the grief I experienced was difficult. A Little Taste As I said before I have known about the Law of Attraction for almost a decade. Hardly anyone knew about it back then. Bashar, for the most part, and his description is what fundamentally began to help me understand how it works in the last two years. This has helped me a lot to recover and make the necessary changes to get back to being self-confident. Then I had a little taste of it working recently. This little taste is giving me the hope and the inspiration to reach out further...to grown in new ways and restored my faith little by little. A New Me The concept I've latched onto in the last twenty four hours and really embraced is that I am a new person. In this moment, right now, I have the memories of all of the events in my life...but I also have a choice. That choice is to see myself as a completely new person and that those experiences no longer belong to me. I don't have to operate the rest of my life based on those past experiences. I don't have to carry them forward with me. I don't have to own them. In a sense, I can look back at them as though they were a past life. Maybe, that's why I don't feel very old, although when I was in my teens I thought thirty was old (and I'm thirty four). I almost feel as though I've gone through multiple life times in this life. I was a different person in every city that I moved to...sometimes I was the popular kid and sometimes I was the outcast. I was the video gaming twenty year old who played MMORPG (only role playing games) into the wee hours of the night. I was the woman who's ex-husband nearly killed her and then claimed he had no memory of the event. I was the angsty writer who actually got published. I was the powerful business woman who was going to work her way into corporate and change companies for the better of everyone. Then I was the grieving mother locked into being stuck between depression about a past I could not change filled with regret and extreme anxiety about the future. There have been many other versions of me too. Even more amazing is that I realized I am not that person anymore, they were roles I played for a short period of time. That's all they were, just roles, that I played for a short duration. I do not need to carry their burdens forward. Almost like past lives, I can leave their stories, their psychological burdens, their short comings and their tragedies in the past. I can carry forward the major lessons I learned about myself and the behaviors that did not benefit me...but I don't have to continue their story. A Fresh Start Starting today, I'm not going to look to the past to define my future. This is a new book, and this is the very first page in a very new chapter with a very different character than I have ever played. I have learned a lot of valuable lessons that I can apply to the future. Yet, I have the ability to write my future, starting from today, with every act I take and every word I say. That can define who I am today in a way that is not influenced by the past. In a way, it's kind of like a birthday, a new beginning. The past is the past, the way I used to react to things, that script that has played out so often is also of the past. I can't change that at all. I can change how I approach interactions today. Instead of reacting to situations on a completely emotional level, I am able to step away and decide what to do. Not only for myself, but for the other person. Sometimes, what we think is the easiest best way to do something doesn't really benefit others. I have been very blunt in the past, a say it how it is sort of person, and that at my core essence is who I am. I know myself far better than anyone else and I will not let other people attempt to define or project on me their issues. I do choose to be uplifting to other people, to reach out, to say I care. To try, even if there is no return, to do good unto others. That's where my passion lies and it doesn't take a certain job or anything in particular to do that...just mindfulness in the moment. Conclusion Sometimes, letting go isn't just about letting go of certain burdens or behaviors that we have carried over from the past. Sometimes, we have to let go of who we were in past situations and how we responded to things. Often, we carry the emotional and psychological scars from the past into our Now. I've learned when I do that I'm on the offensive, I'm very constricted energetically and I have tunnel vision. In that state I'm very reactionary, trying to react and prevent things from happening again and thanks to the self-fulfilling prophecy I create more of what I don't want. While it's hard to leave an old identity in the past it's a bit like shedding ones skin. I realize that feeling of being unsupported that I experienced when my entire world was falling apart and my daughter was suffering in her incubator...is not the image I have to be frozen into for the rest of my life. I can choose to change it and I have changed it. That isn't me anymore. I'm not coming from that place of being unsupported. I have friends and family that are not involved in my daily drama who can look at me and tell me, "That's not right." Just having people like my friend Jennifer there to sympathize with me through my ups and downs has really helped. She validates my emotions and she gives me a new perspective when I really need one. I know that I can call on others when I need help as well, such as my friend Vica, and dozens of others. I am more supported than I have ever been. Sure, it's not all coming from my husband but he can only do what he can. He works a lot and he needs to focus on staying mentally steady within his own daily schedule. Nor should the burden have ever completely fallen on him for all of my needs. Having a diverse network of friends who can offer advice and support is important. I embrace this new version of myself, that is different and separate from that person in the past. I let go of all of that which has defined me in the last two years. I don't feel the need to tell people about the loss of my daughter, the terrible events that lead up to that and how it destroyed my world. I am a whole, complete and confident person again. I have no interest in changing the world or corporations anymore...just my little corner of the world. If everyone worked on just changing and improving the little corner they are given maybe we could have peace on Earth. Further, I believe that this new stance will take my relationship with my husband to a new more authentic level. Now that the communication channels have been opened we both have the opportunity to adjust and change. He's been very receptive of everything and willing to hear everything I have to say. |
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