I know, this sounds like a negative post.
This is not a negative post at all. Everyone who tries anything is bound to fail at some point. Failure and experience are the greatest of teachers...but both require bravery. After all, this is a Hero's Journey...not a sit and live vicariously through other's journey. When on the Path of the Seeker there isn't a linear progression. There are known highs and lows. There are times when you won't know what the next step will be or how things are going to work out. In his book The Path of the Kabbalah Rav Michael Laitman says there are over 600 degrees of correction we must go through to turn back towards the creator...that's a lot! You'll Be Tested On the path you will be tested before you are ready for your next set of lessons. Already, it's tough to learn in a non-linear environment that requires you to trust your own intuition and instincts which is against societies status quo. The amount of self-trust you have to develop is extraordinary. Plus, unlike going to a physical school you never know when your lessons are going to pop up. There is no regular pattern. Sometimes you'll get a pop quiz out of nowhere. At the time, I didn't realize that something so simple and so small was a test. Yet, it set me back on my spiritual path for a year. That Subconscious Dialogue You, see I've told you about starting that dialogue with your subconscious. This is something I've been working on for years but I didn't understand it completely. I was mostly trying to understand the symbols. Even the best book on dreams that I have ever read, Keven Todeschi's Dream Interpertation and More Made Easy! didn't explain that dream's were the easiest way to start a dialogue with your Higher Self. You can get a flavor of what's going on with your Higher Self...sometimes you can meet your Higher Self as I did once...but it's not a consistent thing. No one really explained to me that recording and tracking dreams were a way to start a dialogue with your Higher Self and even guides! I didn't understand it that way and I didn't understand a lot of the dreams that I experienced but for the last three years I've been very dedicated to writing down my dreams. I don't obsess over the details. Sometimes when you wake up you will focus on an unimportant emotional part of the dream...maybe something you didn't think you would do or a particular interaction with someone. Recently, as I said, everything has fallen into place and has started to make sense...instead of random information I'm realizing there really is a pattern, a rhyme and reason as well as people who knew this for decades or hundreds of years. That can be incredibly reassuring on the Path of the Seeker. There is plenty of negative reinforcement out there because for the longest time people have been very fear based...to the point where positive forces could not reach individuals. I've had a couple of stumbling blocks...and struggled a bit in the last year but I've realized that there are good reasons. There were always indications in the dreams before things happened. There were also, surprisingly, when I went back after some time and the emotions associated with them had passed...some very clear instructions. I have had very direct teachings from both Edgar Cacye and Paul Foster Case in my dreams which...quite honestly...I didn't realize until I went back (I wrote down that they were in the dreams but for some reason they didn't seem as important as the events in the dreams...but I can still recall as I read the notes from those dreams what they looked like). One of the most direct comment was from Paul Foster Case who told me, "You need to use the symbols from my cards and the personal symbols you've worked out!" Wow! I had forgotten completely about that instruction and completely missed it...usually I hear the instructions right before I wake up. They are similar to a summation of the dream that I had and they have become more direct in the past two years as I pay attention to my dreams. Bashar calls the level of consciousness where we dream the Template Reality. Surprisingly, that is a stepping stone between us and our Higher Selves...where the Higher Self expresses the desire for their next experience....so the Higher Self has already decided something will happen and there is a little bit of a delay of the consequences of that even that happens in the life of the Seeker. That's what I really want to illustrate for you today. I want to share this experience because it has had a complete affect on my perception of reality. Dream From Around April 2017 Yup, this has been a year long thing. This dream left a huge impression and I felt so victorious! I had a dream where I was in this fun-house. I knew this was a test. The key was not being fearful even thought I felt trapped and alone. The thing was like a labyrinth. I encountered two of my friends in this dream. I knew then, and I know now, that they both represented different aspects of myself as well as symbolically representing them. One of them was lost, and I encountered her in the hallway, I showed her how to make the doors appear when we encountered blank doors that seemed to block our progress. She followed me and I told her I would get her out of there. She's my more spiritual and open minded friend. She attends church but she has showed interest in the Tarot, scented oils, and other therapies. I know that she is a natural born healer but she keeps most of her Subconscious fenced in. This is the uncertain spiritual aspect of me that's a bit traditional. A little while later we came across a room where another friend was drowning in a steel and plastic water tank. The tank had no lid. She could get out at any time if she wished but she struggled and thrashed sinking to the bottom making things worse. I tried to help her but she wouldn't get out and I had to leave her. Now, water represents emotions...but for me items in water tanks represent the ultimate unpleasant emotion that I fear most....and usually if II know, this sounds like a negative post. This is not a negative post at all. Everyone who tries anything is bound to fail. When on the Path of the Seeker there isn't a linear progression. There are known highs and lows. There are times when you won't know what the next step will be or how things are going to work out. You'll Be Tested On the path you will be tested before you are ready for your next set of lessons. Already, it's tough to learn in a non-linear environment that really requires you to trust your own intuition and instincts. The amount of self-trust you have to develop is extraordinary. Plus, unlike going to a physical school you never know when your lessons are going to pop up. There is no regular pattern. Sometimes you'll get a pop quiz out of nowhere. At the time, I didn't realize that something so simple and what felt like was small was a lesson or that I failed. That Subconscious Dialogue You, see I've told you about starting that dialogue with your subconscious. This is something I've been working on for years but I didn't understand it completely. I was mostly trying to understand the symbols. Even the best book on dreams that I have ever read, Keven Todeschi's Dream Interpertation and More Made Easy! didn't explain that dream's were the easiest way to start a dialogue with your Higher Self. You can get a flavor of what's going on with your Higher Self...sometimes you can meet your Higher Self as I did once...but it's not a consistent thing. No one really explained to me that recording and track dreams were a way to start a dialogue with your Higher Self and even guides! I didn't understand it that way and I didn't understand a lot of the dreams that I experienced but for the last three years I've been very dedicated to writing down most of my dreams. I don't obsess over the details. Sometimes when you wake up you will focus on an unimportant part of the dream...maybe something you didn't think you would do or a particular interaction with someone. Recently, as I said, everything has fallen into place and has started to make sense...instead of random information I'm realizing there really is a pattern, a rhyme and reason as well as people who knew this for decades or hundreds of years. That can be incredibly reassuring on the Path of the Seeker. There is plenty of negative reinforcement out there because for the longest time people have been very fear based...to the point where positive forces could not reach individuals. I've had a couple of stumbling blocks...and struggled a bit in the last year but I've realized that there are good reasons. There were always indications in the dreams before things happened. There were also, surprisingly, when I went back after some time and the emotions associated with them had passed...so very clear instructions. I have had very direct teachings from both Edgar Cacye and Paul Foster Case in my dreams which...quite honestly...I didn't realize until I went back (in the dreams I had no idea who they were...but I can still recall as I read the notes from those dreams what they looked like). One of the most direct comment was from Paul Foster Case who told me, "You need to use the symbols from my cards and the personal symbols you've worked out!" Wow! I had forgotten completely about that instruction and completely missed it...usually I hear the instructions right before I wake up. They are similar to a summation of the dream that I had and they have become more direct in the past two years as I pay attention to my dreams. Bashar calls the level of consciousness where we dream the Template Reality. Surprisingly, that is a stepping stone between us and our Higher Selves...where the Higher Self expresses the desire for their next experience....so the Higher Self has already decided something will happen and there is a little bit of a delay of the consequences of that even that happens in the life of the Seeker. That's what I really want to illustrate for you today. I want to share this experience because it has had a complete affect on my perception of reality. Dream From Around April 2017 Yup, this has been a year long thing. This dream left a huge impression and I felt so victorious! I had a dream where I was in this fun-house. I knew this was a test. The key was not being fearful even thought I felt trapped and alone. The thing was like a labyrinth. I encountered two of my friends in this dream. I knew then, and I know now, that they both represented different aspects of myself as well as symbolically representing them. One of them was lost, and I encountered her in the hallway, I showed her how to make the doors appear when we encountered blank doors that seemed to block our progress. She followed me and I told her I would get her out of there. She's my more spiritual and openly minded friend. She attends church but she has showed interest in the Tarot, scented oils, and other therapies. I know that she is a natural born healer but she keeps most of her Subconscious fenced in. She represents the more religious uncertain aspect of myself. A little while later we came across a room where another friend was drowning in a steel and plastic water tank. The tank had no lid. She could get out at any time if she wished but she struggled and thrashed sinking to the bottom making things worse. I tried to help her but she wouldn't get out and I had to leave her. Now, water represents emotions...but for me items in water tanks represent the ultimate unpleasant emotion that I fear most....and usually if I dream of water tanks or fish tanks that break it becomes a nightmare. These usually represent repressed unpleasant emotions. That's the aspect of myself she represented. That's the thing when your in dreams. You do not need weapons. You do not need anything but the power of your own Will. When you encounter a blocked passage way you tap into the knowledge that you are an eternal being and that you have the ability to manifest what you wish transforming those apparent blank walls into doorways so you can go where you want...of course, in these dreams, I always want out of whatever this Cube shaped building (there is a deep meaning there that will become clear as we work through the Kabbalah Tree of Life....and no it's not the scary Saturn Cube descriptions you've heard of the fear based people...they're on the right track but projecting their fear of being victim...which doesn't bring joy or peace...which are the two most important indicators when you're discerning the authority of a Spiritual Teacher). Eventually, I got to a point where I was pretty darn stuck. I was really upset but I was able to create an escape hatch and leave. Then I encountered a woman dressed like a witch. She was very unhappy that I had succeeded in escaping. I had escaped in the wrong way! The dream was a tad sad but inspiring. August 2017 I went with my mom to the Learning Light Center in Anaheim. I had become tired of going there because I had learned that the path of the Seeker did not involve anyone or anything outside of myself. I didn't need to have my fortune read or a healing. The people who went there were spiritually hungry zombies looking for someone else to sate their spiritual hunger instead of walking the Path of the Seeker. I knew this, but I went anyway to support my mom. There was this healer who did Quantum healing. I decided to give it a try because it reminded me of Dolores Cannon....although, I at the time, felt she was not a reliable source...and I have had numerous indications she was not a good clear channel...including someone asking Bashar when I saw him in person about her and he pretty indicated she represented a false path. I should have known that something was off but I didn't quite trust myself back then or have a lot of confidence in my Path. The woman did the healing. Now, at this time, I had been having dreams that I had no heart. That my heart was gone. I asked everyone, "Where is my heart? Where is my heart?" This was a new development in my dreams at the time. I found this very strange because I have always been a very caring and loving individual. I love deeply and I even catch/release spiders or insects I find in my home (not really ants because that's different). I also felt a lot of deep love for the people in my life so I didn't understand these dreams at all. She did the healing but just like in the dream she told me that I had somehow 'escaped' through my intellect but that wasn't supposed to be how it worked. I was supposed to use my heart. So, she blocked off that way on the Quantum level. I had terrible dreams after that and I realized the freedom I had recently found in my dreams were no longer there. I was really mad at the healer. I realize now that this was a very important and final lesson on my Spiritual Path. Dream 2/1/18 I had a dream that I was in a bedroom. Edgar Cacye was there but he was younger with much darker hair then he usually has in pictures. He said, "So you're the one who grew early. Your heart is broken. You might want to have it looked at." I went to lie on the bed and discovered the ghost of a woman exuding a lot of heavy evil feeling of hate and fear lying there. She was saying, "Let them build the border wall!" I tried to banish her with my Willpower but I couldn't. I was locked in a mental battle with her. I called out for Edgar's help and it all disappeared. Thomas Campbell Dream 3/2018 As I was reading My Big T.O.E. by Thomas Campbell I had a hilarious dream. I really didn't understand it at the time. Yes, this was almost a year after encountering the Healer (that I never went back to even though she wanted me to) and the series of Heart missing dreams (which had simply become normal at this point although I still didn't comprehend what it meant). I was sitting in a portable school room. I was studying a book because I had failed a test. The Tutor looked like Adam Savage from tested....who to me represents a self-actualized Practical Scientist if ever there was one! There were two children there, one girl and one boy, and I told them, "This is what happens when you blow off a test." Now, I didn't know that I had failed a spiritual test or blown one off. So, this really puzzled me...but that book did confirm all of the things I had already discovered on my own Spiritual Path of the Seeker. I can't think of any of it that contradicts my main sources or my own experiences...which is very rare! I have a very similar approach to the Path of the Seeker so I felt right at home reading that book. After reading that book and watching Thomas Campbell interact with others on YouTube my self-confidence soared and I realized I really don't care what the naysayers think. Most of them are miserable unbalanced people I can't help anyways. Dream 5/11/18 I was in a kitchen. Negative female comedians were at a sink using a faucet as a microphone. There were people in a circle listening to what they were projecting into the Collective Subconscious through the Faucet Microphone. I stepped up and spoke into the microphone silencing everyone in the group. I knew what I was saying contradicted the comedians. However, I knew it needed to be said for the common good and in service of the One Creator. Then Loki and Thor walked in stealing the show. Loki was going to do a trick involving a strand of crystal gems on a string. I held out my hand to participate and receive the gem. He held one out to me that was a clear but slightly pinkish crystal heart. My mom (not my mom in this life) was standing near us. He made a comment I don't recall and I replied back, "Is any human not like that?" that made him laugh but he snuck a glance at my mom who frowned so he ducked his head almost as though he were afraid of her and became serious. He went to drop the pinkish crystal heart into my hand but then switfly stopped, dropping it in my sisters hand instead and gave me this beautiful clear crystal heart. My mom was so happy with this that she had us pose together for a picture. I knew this was a momentous achievement. My heart bad been returned by the Trickster. (If you check out my post on the Heart which I posted last week this will make total sense...Loki is much like Maui who stole Tahiti's heart to give to the humans and is the equivalent of Prometheus who stole the Fire of the Gods). Then I woke up. Dream 5/8/18 I had a dream I was at someone's house. Only, she was the second wife and as I was going through it she had changed everything. There were elephants everywhere and I thought that was strange. My mom in this life was with me. Part of the house had been turned into a shopping area. So I was looking at a bathing suit and contemplating buying it. Then I picked up an old ivory sword and told the girl who was looking at the same area that I owned at least 12 swords. Then I was looking at rocks in a little basket. One of them was green and had a Hamasa hand on it. I thought of buying it because it was so beautiful. The Hamasa hand is a symbol that's supposed to protect the heart and green is the color of the heart chakra. I decided to come back to it. Then I went to go outside but one of the men that were sitting watching television on a pair of chairs warned me I probably didn't want to do that. I wanted to see the garden in the back and how they changed it so I ignored him. I went to the right sight of the house a long a creeky wooden path. That lead to broken down ruins. I walked up some steps and saw what I thought was a devil at the end of it. I went back down and back up a second time and the devil was gone. Then I was in a theme park and as I walked through it met the daughter in law of the current owner. This carnival was another way for them to make money. I went into an arcade with her and her husband. As we were in there the doors closed and it became a clear round ball on a track. We had to strap in for the ride that was very violent and the entire globe shook. I yelled out, "Hey I'm still in here!" and the shaking stopped. Dream 5/17/18 I had a dream that I was in a class room. A teacher was handing out video games which we were to play. He gave me two for some reason. Something happened and I knew we had to escape. The teacher meant to kill all of us. Everyone in that class knew they were going to die. I had to do something so I led everyone from the classroom into a closet and a knocked on the wall until I found a hollow space. I knew there was a hole there and I led everyone into the library surprising the librarian. The teacher came after us and again I led the class into the closet but this time I realized everything in there was mine. I really wanted to take everything with me but I realized that I couldn't so I took only the small things I adored most and we all escaped from the school. Explanation As you can tell, when I log my dreams I try to keep them simple but there are different themes. I realize now what this series of dreams meant. Yes, it was over the course of the year, yet, as I said, something was blocking me from having a straight forward dialogue with my subconscious. I apparently lacked information...in one dream Paul Foster Case told me to combine my personal symbols with the symbols of the Tarot to get the best results. Since I've done that things have completely changed. After the Thomas Campbell dream I really debated what Test I had blown off. I realize now the test was when I went to the Healer. I had no reason to go to anyone else for help or a healing. I knew that when I went but my curiosity had been peaked by her description and my mom was deeply into that stuff. I decided to join her and have the healing. I didn't expect her to jumble things and I certainly didn't expect that it would almost be a year later for me to regain my confidence and have another dream where I could escape by creating doors. Conclusion I learned a really important lesson. Not only do I now know what it means to drop into your heart center (I was already but not consciously) but I now know that it is absolutely important that I don't look to anyone else...a healer or friend or guide or guru....to help me with my Spiritual Path or tell me how to do it. Each person's path is unique to them and it is solely an inner Path. No matter what any person tells you with any sort of authority....you alone create your reality. Only you determine what is and isn't real. If I hadn't been open to that Healer's suggestion that what I was doing was wrong- I wouldn't have been blocked. Not everyone will understand your path and that's fine...because that's their choice. There is more I can say but for now this will suffice. So, yes, I failed a test a year ago. Apparently, based on my dreams I learned this final lesson just in time to prevent an "Unhappy Ending." Well, really there are five lessons that were really important that I really didn't realize were important which were indicated in a dream on 5/18/18: I believe those five lessons are: 1. Let Go Of Fear- Know That You Are An Eternal Being That Will Always Exist 2. Do not look outside of yourself for answers. 3. Calm/Quiet your mind- ego...specifically through meditation. 4. Let the Ego/Shadow Dissolve. 5. Know that we are all One. Agazarian 22 in. Wind Gong with Mallet
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