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The difficult energy of this Moon Cycle continues. The energy of this Full Moon is a bit more balanced then the New Moon Thankfully! Yet the energy is a mess. Overall it is a fitting finale to the messy 18 months of the Nodes being in Gemini and Saggatarius. Luckily, in January the Nodes are moving into Taurus and Scorpio. Although, that will lead to it's own mess with two Black New Moons and 13 Moons in the Cycle. The Astrology The Sun and Moon are both in harmonious aspects with Jupiter. The Sun in Saggitarius is in Sextile with Jupiter and the Moon is in a trine with Jupiter. This is really pumping up the energy of Gemini and Saggitarius giving a real final taste of the North and South Nodes being in thesw signs. The Moon is at 27 degrees so again we have-9- the theme of completion and endings. There are five squares in the chart. Mars is square Jupiter, Saturn is square Uranus, the North Node is square Jupiter, Lilith is square Neptune and Chrion is square Mercury. No one is liking that expanisve energy of Jupiter in Aquarius right now...we dont want the new Aquarian Self-Actualized Unity Consciousness, thank you very much, we prefer the Piscean Group Think There are six trines balancing this out. Thsere is Jupiter Trine the Moon, Lilith trine Saturn, Chiron trine Mars while the North Node trines Pluto And Venus. Our destiny, the North Node, is loving the ending of these institutions that have been built to such a point of solidity that the only way to grow further is to dismantle them- willingly or unwillingly. The fact that the North Node is Trining Pluto, the God of Death and Endings...is really indicative of the ending this month represents. Oracle Stone- Zebra Jasper Zebra Jasper is the stone of Balance. Zebra Jasper has both the dark and light marks on it making it a wonderful stone (similar to Snowflake Obsidian) to use while during Shadow Work. When we integrate Shadow we are no transmuting the Darkness into Light. We are acknowledging that Darkness exists and it exists in all things. All things, from the perspective of Unity Consciousness, comes from the Creator- therefore the Darkness and the Light are neither good or bad as people have come to associate with them. The Darkness is the deep of the Ocean that is teeming with strange but magical life and it is the darkest areas of the sky that actually hold the most stars when we use a microscope. Darkness is the mystery of the Womb or the Void of the Mother Goddess that holds everything within herself...the Oneness Consiciousness..the paper, if you will, upon which the Creator writes (the Creator being a conscious force associated with Light and the Sun). Zebra Jasper, with it's straight lines, is more of the Masculine version of Oneness since Consciousness tends to run along a straight axis (a stream of thought for example or think of a film strip. Snowflake Jasper is more feminine with it's circles). Mediation I wrote this meditation without looking at the symbols for this Lunar Cycle and did not consider them because there have been so many deep and profound things going on in my life this Lunar Cycle and big epiphanies. However, I will say that the symbols- even the two Medicene Cards on either side of the Temperance Card represent a sort of balance. The Lizard Card and Raven Juxtaposed are both very reminiscent of the Scorpion and Eagle symbols of Scropio into which the Moon South Node will soon be changing. Temperance is often seen as a card of Balance. On the right of the Angel is the Lion for Leo the sign of the Sun, Masculine and Consciousness. On the left of the Angel is the Eagle of Scorpio a Water Sign, Feminine and Subconscious. The Angel is pouring water onto the Lion and Fire onto the Eagle balancing the two aspects of Creation. The Angel is standing in the river and the two animals of the zodiac on Land...again Balance. The Temperance Card is actually a card of experimentation trying to find the right balance. Wow has this Lunar Cycle been rough but I've had a lot of epiphanies. I was feeling all cozy with Venus in Capricorn and then Boom! The New Moon Solar Eclipse happened in Saggitarius. From the start based on dreams and the "storm" pattern I saw I chose to forego Breaking Points (the News) and the Walt Disney World Vlogs I normally watch. The New Moon was just as glitchy as I expected. People (including me) reported that it was going to be on the 4th when it was actually on the 3rd here on the West Coast...meaning for the entire United States which was really weird (the only astrologer that got it right was the Leo King David Palmer). I've also heard astrologers (either Acuyta Bhava Das or Rock Levine) say that the Nodal change is going to happen on the 22nd of this month when I have end of this Month but in my notes that's not supposed to happen until January 22nd. Time is already getting weird. Next year, based on what I've seen it will be even more glitchy and weird. During this Moon Cycke I was hit with a lot of sorrow and very potent dreams with a disturbing message (I will go into all of that in a Personal Update). As a result I've done a lot of energetic purging. I realized that Saggitarius Season is always difficult for me. Usually, about now I get super stressed out and then bottle it up and then have a breakdown in March. Saggitarius is my 12th House which Acuyta Bhava Das refers to the house of "undoing" but I also associate with Oneness and Hivemind (being the House of Pisces which is Group Think/Hive Mind). If you compare the Wheel of the Zodiac to the Hero's Journey it's the Return Home where you return to being an ordinary person instead of a Hero. I've known a lot more Saggitarius people in my life then any other sign. My Great Grandma Emma was a Sun Saggitarius and my Grandma Alta, her daughter, was also a sun sign Saggitarius. My best friend in High School, Victoria, was a Sun Saggitarius too. My Mother-in-law us a Sun Sign Saggitarius. Finally, the Husband is a Saggitarius Rising. Meditating on Saggitarius during the New Moon I realized that in a way it is my "medicene." You attract what you need to learn, as they say, and a recurring theme in my dreams is that I have a college degree but I haven't graduated high school. I'm almost there and I'm missing something simple...but I'm not there yet. Perhaps tge answer lies in Saggitarius. I also had a major breakthrough in how I see The Husband. Thst was pretty huge as I let go of the idealized version of him that I held and understand him as the person he is...he doesn't complete or finish projects because once he's learned something he gets bored and moves onto something new. He likes the challenge if learning but he Masters nothing...he is very Saggitarius! There has been a lot of action in the heavens. Neptune has been the major player. On the 5th Neptune in Pisces squared the Sun and sextiled Jupiter in Capricorn. I had a horrible nightmare and woke up in a funk. I told the Husband I needed time to myself to cry. (I have a hard time crying, especially in front of other people, because I see it as weak...and in general have a hard time processing emotions although I'm far more emotional these days. The fact that I wasnt emotional is one of my features that attracted the Husband). I realized that I needed to let go of a lot of energy...a lot of Pain and Trauma on my Heary Chakra. I've been listening to Cassie Spires on YouTube play the Tuning Forks (I was looking for tuning forks heart chakra videos) because my heart chakra has felt out of whack. I just hit the point this month where I was emotionally drained. This year has been rough and physically challenging. I've been having issues with my right wrist and have been wearing a wrist brace since I had my second daughter. I was trying to tap into more love energy in my heart chakra... Then I had the dreams and realized I was being warned not to sacrifice my own happiness for anyone else. The Husband, according to the Astrology, is going into a rough patch. Given that his Mom was in the hospital for a month and is now at home with 24/7 care I'm guessing it will be something around her. The message is clear, though, I need to stick to my guns and stick up for myself. I cannot sacrifice my own happiness or take a back seat to make room for the Husband to do as he desires. I don't desire much..my children were my deepest desire (and it took 10 years into our marriage to achieve that because first he had to buy the drum set he always wanted, then he had to buy the Motorcycle that he always wanted (at the expense of my dream honeymoon), the he had to buy the House, then he had to buy all of the music mixing equipment he wanted, then he had to buy the truck he always wanted, then he had to buy the RV he always wanted, then he had to buy the Jeep he always wanted, then he had to buy the Guns he always wanted...you get the point I'm sure. Like the majority of people he has a endless black hole f desire that will never be filled. I feel fulfilled with my daughters. I just want to supply them with the things that the need. I desire taking them to all of the places that I love most so we can build those experiences. I want to make them year books so they have a story that they can visually see about themselves. Taking Michelle to Disneyland next year is so huge for me...it's like a rite of passage. I thought I wanted a Husband who was veyr involved with the family and wanted tehse same goals. Yet, for some reason this ws the man who the Creator provided and I have a deep soul history with him. Clearly what I wanted was not meant to be and funny enough as I was thinking this Collete Baron Reid's Astrology article said just that for my Cancer/Capricorn signs. Here is the receipt: https://youtu.be/IlOmVPdgtMk The lesson of this life has been Service to Self for me. I've masterd and done Service to Others lives. I need to stop carrying others pain and loving myself more. I realized what I thought were energetic blocks in my right hand and foot (the Masculine, active, giving force in our bodies- Lune Innate works on them in her POV sessions and so dies Reiki With Anna- both on YouTube) was actually brusing from giving too much. As soon as I realized that my wrist issue cleared up. I go into this in my Personal Update Blog but there us a deep question I'm meditating on...How can I build myself a beautiful heart? You see a while ago in a dream I saw my Heart Chakra. My bed was there but it looked uncomfortable...almost painful and childish. The rest of the room was filled with dusty heavy furniture from other people. There was also a big dirty mop with a big yellow bucket filled with black dirty water. Meditating on this I realized my heart was a Janitors closet. I spent so much time fixing and cleaning up after others in life that I didn't take care of myself. I simply figured I could handle sleeping in an uncomfortable bed in a messy room with almost no room to walk because I had taken other people's unwanted furniture. Ultimately, I realized I have a fear of giving love to people (not my kids) because it's been the people that I loved most that have hurt me the most. I love people but the nurturing aspect that I used to have with everyone is now solely reserved for my kids...and that may be a really good healthy thing. As a kid I gave advice to my mother as a mother would- after all she was my kid in a past life where I was a single mother (widowed) that sacrificed a lot for her. That Mothering aspect of myself is the part that always wants to rescue others. Knowing that Suffering is the name of the game here on Earth and that it leads to developing a unique history and becoming what Thomas Campbell called Individuated Units of Consciousness that can, once we have amassed enough of a unique history and have a unique sens of self, become the Companions of the Creator...rescuing people from suffering his actually harmful...if anything it's a 'Sin.' I don't know how to make my heart chakra into a lovely room but I think this Taurus North Node may be able to teach me. I do know how to release the heavy furniture and the Mop...energy work videos are perfect for that! After crying I had a vision while meditating. I saw the left side of my body, the feminine receptive half fill up with darkness of the Mothering void that rippled with an iridescence bubbling up through my Root Chakra from Mother Earth. Then I felt a bolt of white energy shoot like lightning down through my Crown Chakra filling up my Masculine giving side of the body and penetrating deeply into the Earth. With both I felt balanced and the thought, "I am a force of balance on the Earth bringing Peace and Love to the Dark and Light." Then I saw a man dressed in a nomadic leather clothes with long dark hair in dread locks bound in leather thongs and he said, "Good job, kid," which caused me to cry snapping me out of the meditation. I don't know who or what that was but it was powerful. I'm curious to see what this New Nodal story will bring. Clearly, it's going to be difficult and I am to do the opposite of sacrificing myself for others. I have to walk the Path of Service to Self to gain more of a self-identity instead of merging with the Husband. We defintely merged at one point and I lost myself in his world trying to make him happy by making the amount of money he wanted me to make. He has a more established sense of self and its hard to compromise with that...I also merged with my Mother who had an iron will and I had no choice but to obey...so I have this very obeying side to me...that servant side that I need to balance out. Venus is undergoing her Retrograde Underworld journey- complete with Pluto's embrace on Christmas- in my First House of Identity. That journey will not end until March...the month where I usually break down. The Star Point itself is on January 8th 2022. Anasatsia did a lovely video on the subject that you can find here: https://youtu.be/CzyOwb_86Ds Plus, we have that last Uranus/Saturn Square. We have that Omicron Variant- a Greek Letter that translates to "little o" but is equal to Hebrew's Ayin- or the Eye. Think the Eye of Ra or Odin or in the Lord Of The Rings The Eye of Sauron...the Bull's Eye but it's the little "I".. the Animal Soul humanity has so long tried to snuff out. I don't believe that is a coincidence. We are coming to the end of the Age of the Animal (Indigenous Tradition) but destroying the Ego or Desire Mind (killing the Bull) is not the way to embody the true Human Expression. In the Inanna myth of Sumeria that Anastasia discusses in regards to Venus the Goddess descends to the domain of her sister that is the Goddess of Death because the "Bull of Heaven" is killed. Destroying our individated self to reunite with the Creator is not the purpose of material reality...we wouldn't be much of a Companion to the Creator if we were just absorbed back into it...no more then a cell in my body can be my friend. I cannot consciously have a deep conversation with that cell....I can talk to it but it won't reply. The next Lunar Cycle and next year's New Power Structure theme will be interesting. References: Perakis, Athena. (2021) Sage Goddess. www.SageGoddess.com Victor, Arisa. (2009) High School Astrolgoy. Fraternity Of The Hiddne Light. Carson,James and Sams, Jamie. (1999). Medicene Cards. St. Martins Press New York, Ny. Hoffman, Edward. (1998) The Hebrew Alphabet A Mystical Journey. Raincoast Books. British Columbia Dobin, Rabbi Joel C. (1999). Inner Traditions International. Rochester Vermont Callahan, Kathy. (2010). The Path of the Medicene Wheel. Trafford Publishing. BC Canada. Lembo, Margaret Ann. (2013) Crystals, Minerals, and Stones. llewellyn. Woodbury, MN Lotterhand, Jason. (1989) Thursday Night Tarot. New Castle Books. Los Angeles California
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