One of the most toxic beliefs that I have dealt with and worked on has been that some emotions are not okay.
In our society there are two types of emotions that are acceptable in public- Happiness and Anger. There is not much judgement if someone expresses they are "pissed off" at another person, especially men, and everyone prefers a happy person. I have said, in previous blogs, that sometimes we have to Fake it until we Make it with being happy. Expressing how depressed we are with other people will just push them away. In expressing only discontent with life we will subconsciously create more via a psychological Self-Fulfilling Prophecy. We will only attract people who are equally unhappy. Often we try to hide our sadness, our grief, our anger or even fear from other people. All of these emotions are considered weak but each of them is immensely valuable during our life's journey. I am in no way saying that does not mean that we are not allowed to feel these emotions. In fact, I encourage people to immerse themselves totally in feeling emotions that comes up and to explore the feelings that they have. Doing so in public is not acceptable in our society but there are many ways we can pursue this on our own and with trusted friends. Suppressing Emotions Does Not Work I used to think that I was very good at suppressing my emotions and I was proud of that. I tried to keep a clear head in traumatic or stressful situations. I froze out my emotions and didn't really experience them. I believed that people who were balanced all of the time that showed very little emotion were mentally healthy. We see this portrayed in the movies all of the time with the stoic general or president outlining the plans to save the world. The problem is that you can't ignore emotions. They will pop up in other ways in our lives and when they are denied they will emerge as something very negative later on...what I consider a Wake Up Call from spirit. For many of us our emotions will be expressed with our appetite if we do not consciously acknowledge them. My friend Jennifer recently wrote a blog, coincidently that she published yesterday as I was writing this that explains Emotional Eating: (http://observationsfromasimplelife.blogspot.com/2016/12/emotional-eating-recognizing-it-and.html?spref=fb). Over eating and under eating can both be connected to suppressing emotions. Instead of being comfotable feeling the uncomfotable emotion we express them by over eating to comfort ourselves or under eating to punish ourselves. If we ignore our emotions for a long period of time, and express them in unhealthy ways, it can lead to a variety of health problems. Obesity and anorexia are just two ways that unexpressed emotions can manifest themselves in a persons behavior. The inability to have stable relationships is another way that emotions can be channeled in an unhealthy way. Often, when we have an emotion that we can't deal with we project it onto someone that we know. Most often, it is the people that are the closest to us because we know that they probably won't leave. When we unleash the entire onslaught of unexpressed emotions it causes the other person to wonder where the angry tirade came from...when it was really another emotion from an entirely unrelated situation such as grief over not being promoted or a feeling of helplessness from watching the news. Emotions Are Road Signs Emotions have a very significant role in our lives. I, personally, believe they are one of the ways our soul intuitively knows something about a situation. Often, because of being conditioned by society we ignore the more uncomfortable emotions. Later, when a situation didn't go as planned we find that we had a terrible feeling before we committed to it. The thing is that Emotions are often not logical. In our society, where we often pretend we are robots in a mechanical universe and not people...we don't like that because it introduces a variable that can't be weighed or measured. I have discovered, in my own personal life, that my emotions are road signs indicating which way I need to go. If I'm feeling uncertain about a situation I sit down and write out how I feel about the different options that I have. I pay attention to the emotions that I have as I consider the possibilities. For example, if I am considering attending a party I look at both options and how I feel about them. Option A: Stay At Home....I feel positive, I'm a little excited to have time to read a book I recently bought, relaxed, and only slightly guilty for not going to the party. Option B: Go To Party....I feel sick to my stomach. There are some people I know I won't like who are there. I never really feel comfortable when I'm at that person's house, the food is usually disgusting, etc. Sometimes it's the opposite. I find whatever option I'm excited about that invokes positive feelings is the one that I should choose. I challenge you to test this in your personal life, because when I started using this technique to make decisions I experienced a huge change in my level of satisfication with my life. Too often I was doing things to try to please other people and it never brought me happiness. Paying attention to our own intution by being in tune with our feelings can lead to a much more fulfilling life. Exploring Emotions Sometimes an emotion comes up that doesn't make sense. Recently, I've felt very rejected in some interactions I've had. I decided to explore the emotion in my journal. The emotion felt very irrational. What I discovered is a deep seated feeling of rejection that started when I was a small child. Part of it comes from when my mother was looking to discipline me. She had a lot of rage that came out when she was spanking me. Then in third grade my best friend, named Julia, decided she wasn't my best friend anymore and became best friends with the new girl at school named Jenny. Both girls rejected me and teased me horribly based on faulty assumptions. The emotion of sadness that popped up was a signal that I needed to work on these childhood wounds. Learning how to heal and let go of old burdens is incredibly important. Healing Emotional Wounds The best way that I have discovered to heal emotional wounds is to express and explore the emotions we felt. As I child I didn't fully understand the emotions I was feeling and why. Sometimes, this involves a long conversation with one of my best friends. Exploring the topic in a blog is another way to acknowledge that emotion. Another thing I will do is draw something- often times in an abstract way- that expresses that emotion. Ultimately, I do not seek approval from others while exploring an emotion. That is a very important revelation that I experienced. We have absolutely no reason to justify our emotions to other people. Second, if you work on a emotional wound pamper yourself. You deserve a reward for doing this hard work. Stay home in your jammies, enjoy a cup of hot chamomile tea, buy a slice of chocolate cake and watch Disney movies all day...engage in whatever activity nurtures your soul (that does not have negative side affects such as drugs, over shopping, over eating, etc.) The trick is to do this as a reward, not a constant activity, and to reprogram (recondition) your mind to associate dealing with these 'unpleasant emotions' with positive reinforcement. A spoonful of sugar, as Mary Poppins said, makes the medicine go down in a delightful way. I've learned by simply acknowledging and working to express an emotion (especially those I could not give voice to when I was a child) heals the emotion. The emotion will simply evaporate as I reintegrate the energy that had been struck within my conscious mind...and I feel more energized during my day to day activities. Emotions are like mirrors, they show us what it is within ourselves that is a little off. Just as you have to adjust your sail in a boat according to the pattern of the winds, we must pay attention to our emotions and adjust our course accordingly. Wake Up Calls As I have said, I have not always been good at paying attention to my emotions. I completely froze them out for a very long period of time. What I found is that when I didn't deal with an emotion it came up as a major medical Wake Up Call. One of the major issues I often have is sticking up for myself in situations where people take me for granted. I find that often when this happens I end up having problems with my throat. This week, as I dealt with this issue of rejection that came forward in my conscious mind as an emotional wound I needed to heal, I put off working on that feeling. I didn't write in my journal to explore it and I didn't do any of the other activities I normally do...then I promptly had a really sore throat. Sometimes, when we ignore our emotional needs it will lead to other problems. Especially if we have been working non-stop. Emotions will pop up as a marker that we need to slow down and if we don't we will get sick or injure ourselves in some way to ensure we do take time out to rest and relax. Conclusion Emotions are a major tool that the Creator has given to us. Through our emotions we can intuitively know what direction to take in life. We can be given warnings that what we are currently doing is not beneficial. Also, we can catch conditioning that we might have learned as a child and even Emotional Wounds that we need to heal from childhood by paying attention to our emotions. A very insightful statement I have heard recently is that from the age of 1-7 we learn the 'rules' of how our world works. That is when we are conditioned by our parents and society how to interact and respond to the world. Sometimes, what we learn during that time is not correct (in fact, I've learned a lot of what I learned wasn't) and we have to re-program how we think. Emotions are wonderful helpers in doing this work and giving us a clue as to what we need to heal in order to have a healthier and happier life. Ultimately, I believe that we are meant to be happy the majority of the time. We often carry around a lot of baggage from our childhood that needs to be healed, however, that keeps us locked in circular negative patterns that we repeat. Each loop we complete upon this negative pattern causes the problem to become larger and larger until we have a HUGE Wake Up Call that we cannot ignore. Yet, we have this amazing emotional ability that can act as companions upon the Road of Life. All Emotions should be savored and appreciated. Each time an Emotion comes up now I say Thank You...because I see it as a companion and a helper that the Creator gave me to navigate and find healing in my life.
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So often we feel as though we are missing something vital to our lives.
We feel empty on the inside. Shouldn't there be more to this life? Maybe if I achieve the right equation of success, the right people, the right stuff...maybe then I will be complete? Nope. Wholeness is not outside of you...it is within. You contain all of the answers you need. This has probably been one of the hardest posts for me to write. Simply because the world is so subjective and the idea of Wholeness can be subjective. The path to wholeness is going to be The Religious Cope Out This is going to make some people uncomfortable. Yet, I have to address this part of current religious belief because I see it as unhealthy. I see it as an easy cope out. This an excuse for laziness and it's why a lot people who are religious aren't living a life that includes spirit. On Facebook there are posts, "Like and Share if You Love Jesus and want to go to heaven! If you don't share you'll go to Hell!" All of us know this is not true. We all know that to be a person worthy of 'heaven' requires a bit more than simply liking a Facebook page. The same goes for saying that you have found Christ. Simply "Finding Christ" and becoming baptized and being a born again Christian does not make you "Christ-like" nor does it promise you a place in heaven. All Spiritual Paths to true understanding takes dedication, self-reflection and walking the talk. Sure, you may know the golden rule but do you practice it every day in every way at every moment? How about when a driver cuts you off in traffic? Do you turn the other cheek and give them the opportunity to do it again? Probably not. So, let's dispense with the idea that merely accepting Christ as your savior has made you feel "whole" because I know for a lot of people it has not. Being baptized and saying you believe in Christ doesn't give you a ticket straight to wholeness. Living in spirit daily is a practice that eventually permeates you on such a level that you can't imagine life any other way. Relationships There is an unhealthy obsession with soul mates. Another person cannot make you whole. I have found that people fixated on finding a 'soul mate' are not really looking for a person. People looking for their soul mates think that a soul mate will complete them. That once they find them life will be so much easier. Yet, they will be sorely disappointed when they realize that's not how relationships work or what they are about. Life is not a Disney movie. The story doesn't end with a marriage where someone who has been alone all their life has found a companion. There is no "happily ever after" but a complex interaction of emotions and energy that's a real relationship. I remember a sociology class I took. The teacher described that when two injured people come together they are often attracted by the fact that the other seems to have a matching wound. Then they put those two wounds together and they form a communal scab. Such relationships are hard to end because it means ripping open those old wounds. Yet, the relationship is always unhealthy because scabs can lock in infection. This is why people need to do inner work before they get married. They need to clean out the infected part of their lives and personality to become healthy individuals on their own before seeking out a companion in life. They have to find a sense of who they are and their place in the universe. They also need to learn to love themselves as few people do. The moral of the story is that Relationships do not bring Wholeness. If we are seeking Wholeness through marriage it's going to end in bitterness and divorce. The need to "find themselves" and seek true wholeness will eventually end the enmeshed relationship with divorce. So what does? The Success Formula Society has sold us on a Success Formula. I blame this mostly on schools. In order to be happy, we are tuaght, we need to be educated, get the right job and live the American Dream. People think that there is some formula for success in life. Find a partner, buy a house, and have some kids...then poof you're happy and whole. Well, there are a few problems with this Shangrala of modern life. No formula will make you happy. If finding your soul-mate doesn't make you Whole then having kids certainly won't and neither will any personal object. Work and money won't make you feel whole either because they are merely tools. There is no magical secret Formula you can put together in the outer world to make you Whole. Self Help, Quizzes, and Psychic Readings This is another trap I've seen people fall into and never get out of when trying to find Wholeness. Constantly going to others to feed you with directions to the decisions you need to make, advice or even tell you about yourself is unhealthy and can be expensive. There are a wealth of resources there just waiting to tell you how to live your life. To me, when I hear this, what the person is really saying is they do not trust themselves, their Higher Selves or the Source (God). I remember reading reviews of the book called The Secret. The Secret was a self-help book that claimed that all wealthy happy individuals used these secrets that it contained. This was supposed to be a recipe book for becoming rich, being more successful and achieving more in life. Well, sadly, the information is wise. However, this little pocket sized book didn't go into the depth necessary to really understand these "Secrets." Besides, the focus, which I see so often, is on money and career success. Yet, as I said previously, this will not bring that sense of Wholeness people are seeking. Attracting certain objects or a parking space closest to the entrance of a busy store is all well and good but...this is just outer reflections of an inner state of being. The truth is no one knows you like you. This is something that I've said many times when offering dream interpretations for people. Each of us contains all the knowledge we need about ourselves, but it's just a matter of turning inward to see those truths and "secrets." Self-reflection is hard because it requires us to see ourselves in our entirety. Not just what we want to see, not just focusing on our flaws, but the bigger picture. We are not trained to do this, we are so trained to look at the small details that the bigger picture can often escape us. We are so focused on trees (pimples, personal failings) that we don't look at the wealth that the forest has to offer. That's why it's so much easier to go to someone with an outside perspective and have them tell us what they see and yes it can bring insight. That person can see the forest instead of focusing on the trees. But, they are also limited in their observation because we are presenting such a narrow band of information to them. These outer sources might see the forest but they don't have the higher perspective that our soul has...and they might not see that it is us that is lighting the trees on fire in the dark of night and blaming a friend, a spouse or a co-worker. Self-Actualization Abraham Maslow was the first person to really describe why and where we get hung up on on our journey to Wholeness. He described the person that has reached Wholeness as a Self-Actualized person. He believed that only one in a hundred people become self-actualized. I've written on this topic previously and I encourage everyone to research the topic. Maslow envisioned a pyramid with Self-Actualization at the top. He called this pyramid the Hierarchy of Needs. He said, to reach the top a person had to fulfill all of the other needs below it first. I will include a Youtube video at the end of this on the subject. The key thing is that it does take some work if we are hung up on one of the lower levels of the pyramid. For example, it's easy to become hung up on the level of security if we grew up abused and never felt safe. Further, we might not have that issue as a child but something in adulthood can happen and throw us back to that state. My Path To Wholeness I have re-written this part of this blog several times. I couldn't decide how to go about writing the transformations that I've under gone in my thinking as the years have progressed. Should I break it down into steps? That didn't seem right as each person has a different path to tread. So, I'm going to give a general overview. The Calling The first time I started down the path I realized that there was a bit of a mystery in the bible. This was when I completely read it from cover to cover when I was fifteen. I was shocked to see that the Old Testament discussed animal sacrifices which was something I always associated with witchcraft. I was also surprised that Yeshua eluded to deeper teachings, that there was a set of teachings given to the disciples and a set given to the people as parables. Later, I would learn that in many cultures this was the norm....the uninitiated who do not seek the knowledge are never given the knowledge. At this time I read the Celestine Prophecy series and found it interesting. I also began interpreting my dreams and was introduced to Edgar Cacye's story with my Grandfather Douglas McMasters (the Dreamer of Muscoy) America in Prophecy. I also read the book Journey of Souls. Finally, I discovered that while it was easy for me to tap into the Oneness at that age (which became harder later on and I lost the ability and desire for a long time) not everyone could. This was strange to me and I really couldn't imagine not being able to feel that way. Major Wake Up Call One For a few years I fell off the spiritual path. Although, I do feel those were wasted years of my youth something wonderful happened. In working loading trailers I managed to find that sweet spot that Athletes call "The Zone" where the mind no longer has to govern the actions of the body and everything becomes synchronized. A Wake Up call that completely destroyed how I viewed myself and ripped me out of the life I had created (friends and all) provoked me to return to my spiritual search for knowledge and wisdom. I had to start my entire life all over from scratch. When I did go back to the spiritual path I discovered more than I ever imagined. There was a lot more information out there on spirituality and a lot more on the web. Befriending the Mind I began working with meditation. I read Sakyong Mipham's book Turning The Mind Into An Ally. I began to understand that the mind is not necessarily consciousnesses. I learned how to find my center and to quiet the ceaseless chatter of my mind. A lot of it was tuning into the "zone" that I knew how to access because of the work I did loading trailers. Now, if I want to think of a subject I summon up the thoughts. My mind is no longer the director (I think most people call that self-narration portion of our mind the Ego but my thoughts on it are a little bit different and complex). I also sough to meet my "higher self" although the idea remained abstract to me. I also read Dan Millmans books at this time which further encouraged me along my road towards balancing mind and body. I realized that being able to tune into the zone, as I did at work loading trailers and when meditating was a rare gift (later I would become aware that I had practiced meditation in a previous life). I discovered at this point that I could alter and control my dreams. I also became familiar with the idea of Projection. This is where a person projects the disowned aspects of their own personality onto other people. Often when a stranger doesn't like us for any reason or a co-worker decides they don't like us...it's because of them and not us. A lot of people to do this, I'd even say the majority of people are like this because it takes a lot to look at one's own reflection and own aspects of ourselves that we don't like. So, when we start seeing a pattern in someones behavior we see that its not the other person the individual hates...but the part of themselves that they have rejected that they see reflected in the other person. ( Although I did not discover this at the time it's appropriate information to place here. The only way to stop projecting onto others is to work with our own shadow, embrace those shadow elements we have taken on and transform them. One of the methods to do this is in the video I'm attaching at the end with Christie Marie Sheldon. Her method, of finding a pattern and then "zapping it out of existence" is the best that I have ever discovered. Since using it myself and releasing a lot of old negative baggage I've carried around I feel happier and lighter. I can feel my aura, my energy, has doubled and expanded.) Then there is a concept of boundaries. Establishing firm boundaries, which you will not allow others to cross and will speak up if they do is important. Part of this requires that you decide what is acceptable and unacceptable behavior on the part of the other people. I made great strides towards self-confidence during this time period. I did a lot of work on rebuilding my self-image. I had wonderful successes, achieved three degrees and was promoted to management roles at two different companies. Major Wake Up Call Two Again, a decade later, I had another Wake Up Call. This time was different, however, and more soul shattering. Whereas I had been able to find meaning and purpose in all of my other adventures in life I could not find a purpose for this one. I felt completely abandoned by the Creator/God. I was mad at my Higher Self that had the full picture of what was going on for letting something so tragic happen to me and for me to be ripped so completely out of the life I had been creating for a second time. I struggled with this over a span of two years. Sometimes I felt completely broken and alone...completely abandoned by Spirit and unable to tap into the Oneness and harmony I once could feel so effortlessly. I felt utterly abandoned. Setting Aside Personality This time I learned that I don't have to create a persona for myself. I've never built myself up again. I don't have a self-image. I have no expectations for myself, no goals, no desire to "prove" myself to anyone. I have no need or desire to belong to groups or apply labels to myself. I know that all labels and social constructs are all..well, imaginary bull crap that divides people and I just don't want to buy into anymore to feel as though I belong. I exist, I am a part of the Source, created by Source because the Source of All-That-Is desired my existence and for me that is the only validation I need. When we are children we begin to build a personality for ourselves in this world. School starts training us in thinking that we are a vocation. I have a yearbook from elementary school where they asked us to draw our future selves and what our vocation will be...the drawing is surprisingly accurate but I learned early on that I didn't want to be a vet because I don't like to see animals in pain. This type of training is what leads so many people to base their self worth on their jobs. Not only that but we are challenged to build a personality, what we do not like, how we define ourselves in comparison to others throughout our school years and even our teachers or parents give us certain definitions- he's the underachiever, she's the teachers pet and so on. Yet, we are not, in our basic essence, those personalities. In a talk given by Edgar Cacye in Washington D.C. Februry 3rd 1935 he said this: "We have been admonished by this one, that one, and the other to develop our personality in order to be a power in the world; but if we turn rather within ourselves, where the Kingdom of Heaven is, what has been the promise? 'All of these things shall be added unto you, in their place.' We are all on our way for a development." At another talk given to a Norfolk Study Group Open Meeting Edgar Cacye said this: "Apparently, I am one of the few who can lay aside their own personality sufficiently to allow their souls to make this attunement to this universal source of knowledge- but I say this without any desire to brag about it. In fact, I do not to claim to possess anything that other individuals do not inheriently possess. Really and truly, I do not believe there is a single individual that doesn't possess this same ability I have. I am certain that all human beings have much greater powers than they are ever conscious of- if they would only be willing to pay the price of detachment from self-interest that it takes to develop those abilities. Would you be willing, even once a year, to put aside, pass out entirely from, your own personality?" I have absolutely no reason to view myself as superior to anyone and I do not view anyone else as superior to me. As I have progressed along the path of spiritual knowledge I've learned no one is a superior to anyone else but I do have a deep seated respect for each person as a reflection of the Source (God). Each of us has a gift or a talent that we can use for humanity. The Creator didn't create us without a purpose or strength. Not everyone's purpose or strengths are the same. Each of us has to turn inward to find what our purpose and strengths are...then we have to learn how to apply them to the outer world. Owning Our Flaws I worked on owning all of the aspects of myself that I had tried to reject and repress. By embracing those darker aspects of myself and owning them I realized I saw people differently. I could see them for who they were not what I wanted them to be or needed them to be to justify my own actions. I just saw the movie Suicide Squad and there was one point, when Diablo discusses how he killed his family by losing himself to rage (the monster within) and Harlequin tells him to, "Own that shit!" That's what we have to do in our life. We have the choice to be the victims of our own actions by disowning what we have done or parts of our past we don't like. We have the free will to spend our entire lives feeling sorry for ourselves if we want and there is no Judgment from Spirit. The greatest judge we face in the afterlife is ourselves. We can also choose Responsibility. We can choose to own those mistakes, embrace them, realize we are imperfect humans that are going to make mistakes. The Great Spirit already forgave us, he knew all what we would do when he conceived the idea of us in his mind before he unleashed us into the universe...and he did it anyways because he knew that our Spiritual potential is great. All of us are a little twisted, we are all a little flawed and if we don't embrace that aspect of ourselves and transmute it then we are going to create a shadow self. That shadow self of all of our disowned junk that we don't want to face and didn't even know we are creating can pull us down into a mire of unhappiness. I see this as naming our own demons so that we can cast them out in the way that Christine Sheldon describes. A Higher Perspective Perhaps, what transformed my view of life the most was my experiences of Past Life Regression and meeting my Higher Self in a dream that explained a few things to me. This sounds strange, I'm sure, and I'm sure you're wondering what the Higher Self means so I'll go a bit deeper into my personal interpretation and experience of that in another blog. What I discovered was a perspective of life here on Earth far removed from what my parents, society, teachers and religious dogma taught me. That our souls don't view it as a punishment or a prison sentence because of a Fall. That we voluntarily come to Earth (my soul sees Earth as a sort of Disneyland that is incredibly fun and exciting ) and that we learn the most on a spiritual level when we face adversity and experience what some might call 'suffering.' Because strangely from 'suffering' we learn Compassion, Patience and Unconditional Love. In Spirit there are no "Good Guys" and there are no "Bad Guys." We are just Spiritual Beings on a Human Journey of Self Knowledge. Our souls can be damaged if we do evil deeds, but that is a different subject and that still does not provoke judgement on the part of Spirit. I realized also that life is subjective. That two people can have the same exact experience and create lives that are totally different. Another Insight is that the Soul really doesn't care what the nature of the experience is as long as we are experiencing something. Our soul chose these lives because they knew the risks and they knew how much wisdom they would gain. In fact, the entire purpose of incarnating is to gain the hard won knowledge from experiences. (Remember Eve ate the Fruit of the Tree of Knowledge and that knowledge came from the existence of death). The Great Spirit Then I realized that we are souls, not our bodies, we are created in the spiritual image of the Great Spirit and it clicked. The Great Spirit is the great spiritual fire and our consciousnesses are little sparks of the divine. That means that all of the people we meet are also an undeniably perfect aspect of the Great Spirit and even if they don't realize it, even if they abuse their creative abilities, to insult them or treat them poorly is like mistreating ourselves and the Great Spirit. From John 10:34 we learn, "Jesus answered them, 'Is it not written in your law, "I have said you are Gods?" This is a quote from Psalm 82:6, "I said, "You're Gods." You are all sons of the Most High." Then I learned that God/The Great Spirit is never separate from us, that we are part of the Great Spirit (the word God doesn't seem to capture the depth of the Great Spirit) and he is a part of us and there is never separation. Just a sense of it in this realm. I will go into these concepts a bit more in a future post that I will share on Friday called The Mind of God. Further, it dawned on me how the Mind is the Builder and how we create our own reality. I realized I was putting out a lot of frustration and anger towards others in this world. This misdirected energy was coming back to me and short circuiting my attempts at a more peaceful life filled with what I truly desire. With all of this combined, and continuing to find information that validates my own intuitions I have found an inner peace that cannot be taken from me. There is more, and I will go into all of this in more depth (to go into all of it here would turn this post into a novel) but I wake up most mornings refreshed. I have occasional low energy days just like everyone else but compared to last year, when I was in the depths of despair mourning my daughter and wishing I had joined her in death, it's been a miraculous turn around. I haven't gotten it all correct, yet, but I have become more balanced, more grounded and more aware. My current mantra when I start to give into negative thoughts about others or the world when reading a political article is to say, "Peace, Healing and Love," within my mind and imagine a tremendous ray of light from Source, from God, from All-That-Is being emitted from me to the person harboring such negativity in the hopes that their burdens become lighter. This is helping me to consciously rewire how I think and to place my focus on what I want to think about instead of falling into typical knee-jerk reactions. Achieving Wholeness I can't explain when this deep seated peacefulness took up residence in my heart. There was no magical moment where I reached Wholeness, no sense of nirvana, it was just a progression and one day I realized that I felt entirely complete. The amount of joy and peace that I feel on a day to day basis cannot even be expressed in words. The person I am today is totally different than the person I was one, ten, fifteen, and even twenty years ago. I feel whole and complete. I do not desire anything. I realize that everything is impermanent and bound to change. If things are wonderful and blissful at the moment...that will change. If things are challenging, chaotic and barely tolerable...that too will change. I just ride out the different eddies in the current of the river of life peacefully knowing that it leads to the The Great Spirit or Source (God) (as you can tell, I see all of these terms as interchangeable). My life is comfortable and while it continues to morph as time progresses, as all lives do, I find it is incredibly fulfilling. Yes, I'm still in a processes of self-discovery and experience but I'm a willing participant able to to see how I direct the flow of energy in my life in different directions depending on how I'm thinking. Conclusion Reaching Wholeness is a process that starts off with self-reflection...then we realize the entire world reflects back to us our own inner state. Meeting others can be a study in self-reflection once we know boundaries. When we identify certain patterns in our lives we can learn that by identifying them (naming them) and dismissing them (zapping them out of existence as Christie Sheldon describes it) we can transform our lives. I strongly believe we come to Earth to learn Patience, Compassion and Love. I believe that it is rare for souls to take on this quest. With some key realizations life becomes really obvious and simple. Yet, it is a complex progression of realization that diverges greatly from what we are initially taught. The way I perceive the world has become more flexible. There is no hard and true reality that exists the same way for everyone. I will delve more deeply into this change in perspective and how it differs so wildly from how I initially perceived the universe in a future post. I apologize that this is such a small snippet of this huge subject but to summarize what I have said....there is no outer path to Wholeness. The Great Spirit by whatever name you wish to call it does not exist outside of us. We have deep inner resources...a plethora of spiritual help....that we can tap into for guidance but ultimately our Higher Self and Source is what we should seek. There is no right way to reaching Wholeness. There are many paths. Yet, I am proof that it can be achieved on this level of existence (some claim that it cannot be achieved) no matter how terrible our experiences have been and without guidance from a specific guru or "master." On each step of the road after each Wake Up Call, where I found I wasn't living in attunement with my Higher Purpose....I learned a lot. So, even though painful Wake Up Calls from Spirit are undesirable they are always beneficial. The key I've learned, is not to ignore Spirit...because at first the Wake Up calls are subtle...but when I've ignored they become even louder and louder until they can be a life shattering experience. Yet, at the end of the transformations I find myself right back where I started just a little bit more wiser. You might ask, what is the point? Well, that is a completely different post but, suffice to say, inner peace in light of all of the struggle and suffering I see is more than enough of a reward for me...and that sense of Wholeness and At-One-Ment with all of Creation. I find it similar to training a new employee, if you do everything for them they will not learn. Sure, they may fail. Yet, failure is often the greatest learning experience.
There has been a trend regarding the idea of "Awakening." This trend goes back to 1998.
As I explained in my Zombie blog post, a lot of people are walking around spiritually dead. They are stuck in the seemingly hard and fast rules of the world that we are taught by our parents, society and our schools. In that world all that there is gaining material possessions, hitting certain hallmarks of achievement and death. They define themselves by the groups they hang out with, the possessions they have, their children or their jobs. There is, clearly, something going on in the Collective Consciousness of humanity. The desire to wake up and the idea that we were waking up on some level. There are more people feeling the Spiritual Call then ever before but it's been a slow gradual trend upward. The question I had, when I was analyzing this trend and explaining how I saw it, what does waking up mean? Why do we have this urge to wake up now? Why does it seem so urgent? There is a definite pattern to this desire to wake up. So, let's explore this first. The First Group Awakening 1998 I find it interesting that Edgar Cayce marked 1998 as a milestone year. There was a not a lot of information that came out at this time. This was about the time that the song "Awake" came out by the rock artist Godsmack. Prior to this period there was very little "New Age" material on the shelves. In my collection of books there are three from this time period. Those three are Celestine Vision By James Redfield from 1997, Dancing the Dream by Jamie Sames (1998), Fingerprints of the Gods by Graham Hancock (1995) and Dan Millman's The Life You Were Born to Live (1993). These people were the precursors to the movement we see now, the people who awoke the earliest, and could see a spiritual pattern in what was happening. There was not a lot of information out there that really spoke about a spiritual path. Yet, these topics were not exactly embraced by the larger community. The idea that we are all interconnected, that how one behaves affects others and an Inclusive perspective of all cultures was just seen as being the stuff of tree hugging hippies. Sure, Celestine Prophecy and Graham Hancock's book had both become Bestsellers. Yet, the interest just wasn't there for most people and it was still very much a part of the counter culture that didn't interest many. That was the first opportunity for a more inclusive spiritual approach to life. Perhaps this was amount of awareness largely due to the imminent approach of 2000 which people saw as important. After all, we were leaving the 1900's behind and even in the 1980's people hadn't really envisioned the future past 2000. That date seemed so very far away. The movie Back to the Future had some wildly interesting ideas about what a future world would look like in the 2000's, but, unfortunately progress is a bit slow and we now have cellphones instead of Hoverboards. The Second Awakening 2008 This Second Awakening really centered around the date of 2012. A lot of people looked at that date with anticipation. Of course it got associated with the Apocalypse and then became the whole debacle that evolved into that 2012 movie and everyone thinking it would usher in the rapture. Some thought that it heralded the return of Zechariah Stitchins Annunaki. However, there were ideas spread then that began to take hold in humanity. Hence, the wide popularity of these ideas. Of course, the movie and what was fed to the general population at large was a majority cataclysmic horror and not the spiritual ideas. About this time period there was also the book the Secret that hit stores and Depak Chopra became as sensation (his books are okay). Yet, the 2012 movement was inspired mostly by spiritual concepts. The big deal about 2012 was the Precessional year. Undoubtedly the world is in the process of moving from the Age of Pisces to the Age of Aquarius. The actual process started approximately in 1960 and probably will end about 1940. The Doomsday people thought that because the alignment with the Galactic Center of our Universe happened in 2012 some sort of catastrophe would happen. They paired that along with the end of the 13 Mayan Backtun calendar (the Mayan's had many calendars and a Mayan Elder visiting the A.R.E. during the 2012 nonsense actually commented that he was more worried about surviving the two following 13 year cycles that end in 2038) and assumed that it would be the "end of the world. People, though, in a negative way, opened their minds enough to consider the idea that the way that the universe operates may actually affect them. They also began looking at the stories of ancient cultures and seeing parallels and similarities. Yet, amazingly in seeing these parallels with the Bible people are starting to connect the same stories with other stories around the world. They are seeing the connection that there are remarkably similar stories and perhaps this isn't because they were primitive people worshiping nature. Maybe, just maybe, there was more to these stories that should unite us. From a spiritual stand point this Inclusive sort of view is a huge step forward compared to the very negative literal tunnel vision that has dominated this world for thousands of years. Perhaps, on the Collective Consciousness level, we decided instead of being pushed into this spiritual awakening through a catastrophe that we would experience it in a different way. Third Awakening These days there are more people awakening then in the previous two groups. There are more people talking about the Annunaki, about ancient mysteries, about the 'spooky science' of Quantum physics and people are thinking about the world in totally different ways. There is so much out there now to read about Spiritual Awakening. There are so many songs, for example, Imagine Dragon's Radioactive that I included at the start of this post which was a huge phenomenon and quite honestly I got sick of hearing it on the radio. Sadly, as is quite normal, everyone is attaching negative beliefs to these ideas. There is a prevalance of people believing that they are being controlled by beings more powerful than them (which means they carry a belief of not being powerful enough). There are people who think that CERN is messing with the fabric of the universe in attempt to free Satan from the abyss (a strong fear belief). Even the Christians are getting into the act with "the convergence" that was supposedly going to happen on September 23rd of last year where they really thought the rapture would happen (a belief that the world is evil and they cannot change it so they must escape it). Then there are all of the people who are so excited about the Blood Moon Tetrad and Jonathon Kahn's the Harbinger. Of course, the Harbinger is all about God's Negative Judgement on our nation and that he may allow it to be destroyed because we have 'turned from him.' The Annunaki have actually been mentioned on television on the Ancient Alien Show. In fact, Ancient Aliens is presenting a very Inclusive look into the history of our planet. This show has been on the air for years and it's popularity is so strong that it does not show any signs of stopping in the near future. Heck, the concept of possible Alien 'creators' has influenced a couple of movies (Prometheus and Jupiter Ascending). Suddenly, we are not looking at our ancestors as Primitive idiots who were barely a step above the cave man. We are looking at them as possibly being more advanced than we are now and perhaps knowing more about their origin then our current society does. We are contemplating that perhaps we are not the epitome of human evolution. This mass level of spiritual awareness can be seen everywhere. More and more people are waking up and realizing there might be more to these Dusty Old Religions and beliefs. Heck, maybe there is more than our five senses and indulging our physical whims. People are running radio television shows and YouTube pages talking about this change in consciousness, spirituality and how Mind is the Builder. There are people talking about Kundalini Awakenings and what it means in a practical sense and that it can happen to anyone not just some ancient Yogi in India that has been practicing it for decades. The Call of Spirit I felt goosebumps the first time I watched the Force Awakens trailer. There have been, through various channels, the suggestion that we are going to regain powers that we had in Atlantis. That in those times we destroyed ourselves with those powers. Some think that these powers are of a technological nature, and they may well have been, but I think there was a great deal of spiritual power. We absolutely create the world that we live in. When we look at the world and we see chaos, hatred and so much evil it is a reflection of our own inner turmoil. Psychology points towards individual manifestation with the many experiments that prove Self-Fulfilling prophecies. We have the unique ability to manifest our desires and format the world around us to our liking. I believe there is a reason that so many people are awakening, or feeling the need to go back to their spiritual roots and examine all of those old stories Reason, Logic, and Science told us were no more than nursery rhymes to soothe the Primitive soul. We possess technology that can destroy the world. The Nuclear threat is something that we have been aware of for a very long time. The more we stray from the belief that we are all interconnected, that we share a communal spiritual history, and (when we reach a certain level of understanding) that we are all One...the more likely we are to try and annihilate each other and destroy humanity. I recently came across the information involving something called the Maharishi Effect. In this experiment that was done in the 1970's they discovered that if only 1% of a population practiced meditation there was an effect on crime. In one city there was a 17% drop in the crime rate. Further studies showed a correlation in a drop of sickness and a drop in accidents as well. (http://www.trancenet.org/maharishieffect.htm). I am a little skeptical, after doing some research, that this correlation is only present with a certain type of meditation that a certain type of school teaches. This seems to be a very self-serving method of driving in students to a particular program. Do I think that this needs to be researched by science? Absolutely. Do I think they will study it? Nope. This strays to close to the idea of validating spiritual ideas. Let's just say that this phenomenon does exist and it's not just the Maharishi meditation technique that causes this decrease in crime, health and accidents in the local community. Let's say each person that has awakened an remembered their spiritual nature has the same effect. Their path to that connection and that remembering of their spiritual nature can be many fold (not just a specific form of meditation) but the effect of all of those awakened people will surely be felt. Now, let me be clear about my own practice. I do not work with anything beyond myself...I work with Source and my Higher Self. As I meditate and go into the 'zone' I am able to hold more and more of that energy that originates from my Higher Self and ground it into this reality. What that means is that I'm literally bringing heaven to Earth and holding it here. That is what I feel is the most important aspect of my own Spiritual Practice and I don't doubt that is what causes the Maharishi Effect. By acting as a clear vessel for my own Spiritual Energy it helps embody and be an example to others that it can be done...and there are almost intangible effects that I see on the people around me. But Why Is There So Much Bad In the World? Times are, as far as the media portrays, far worse than they have ever been when it comes to unity. People are being polarized by the narratives that the media is offering. Yet, I can't blame it all on the media. There is the Flat Earth guy on YouTube and the Dark Age Christians running amok saying we need to burn the 'music witches' and that symbols are the language of Satan not Spirit. This is mind boggling to me but it makes sense that as more people become more positively connected with remembering their spiritual nature that it would trigger a tremendous push of energy back by those who have not. A good part of the population really seems to want to see the world destroyed as it was in the days of Noah so that we can begin again. These people have, for all intents and purposes, given up on humanity and think that they will be part of the Elite 144,000 that will be spared out of the Billions of people on Earth. Sadly, it is probably about a billion people who think this way. One recent end of the world video on YouTube managed to rack up 1 million hits and was even shared on Television. To me this is madness. The Polarization This is where things become a bit odd. I have noted the polarization that we are seeing around the globe on different issues. From the movies to the political process there is a polarization among the people. I didn't really comprehend what this meant until I watched a video by an entity known as Adronis. Something he said just made it click. Frequency is something I studying because I intuitively know what it means and I think of it like music. Trying to sort it out for people who don't comprehend it right off the bat can be a bit confusing. I don't have musical training so, for those who are musically trained such as my husband, when I describe it a musical sort of way he scoffs and criticizes my lack of music knowledge saying that I am talking nonsense. To borrow from Bashar all of us are like little radios. We are tuned into a certain bandwith on the radio- let's say 102.7 or 98.7. Now, most of us have used the radio so we know that every radio station is very different. The feeling you get from listening to Big Band as opposed to Rock Music is totally different. People are like radio stations. Depending on our mood, mindset and what we are creating in our life we are tuned into a particular radio station. We also act a little like an attenna and we give off the energy of the radio station we are tuned into. For example, when we watch Winnie the Pooh...it's clear that Tigger and Eeyore have a different energy about them. Tigger gives off the energy of excitement, of too much energy, and a bouncy uncontrollable cantankerous energy. Eeyore expresses a very sad, gray, droopy...low energy. People are like this as well and when we are around people with a lot of energy it tends to be contagious just as a depressed mood can be contageous. The same goes for people who are holding the pure vibration of energy grounded in their bodies. Only, what happens is that when they are around people who have not done personal work inevitably it brings up the issues that the other person has buried in their subconscious. When this happens all kinds of weird reactions can ensue because the people who are burying their heads in the sand, spiritually speaking, don't want to face the subconscious shadow versions of themselves, which the pure spiritual "frequency" or energy provokes. So, the natural reaction is for some people to rise higher while those who are not ready to deal with their issues fall quickly to separate themselves from an experience they view as negative. This is happening because so many people have awakened and ground this spiritual energy. There is so much friction between these two groups of people that it's bringing the most ugly aspects and issues out of those who aren't ready to remember their spiritual nature. What Do I Need To Do? I've run into a lot of people feeling the pressure, what do they do now that they know they are important and that answer can be found in the bible and it is the most important rule we were very taught. We start conducting ourselves in a more loving fashion of support and service to others. As Yeshua said the Golden Rule and his most important teaching is: the "Treat others as you would have them treat you." Even more important is to share your own perspective. Share your experiences with other people. Coming across people that have had similar experiences to my own has been tremendously helpful. The trolls that like to ground negative energy have already banded together and formed groups. It is just as important for those of us who are working more in the positive to join together in support. Each unique expression of the Source needs to contribute their piece to this "Awakening" or "Acsension" experience. I think it's important to that we don't get caught up into the negative belief that we are going to leave everyone behind. I don't really think it's going to be that obvious or blatant. No one can really say how each of us will experience this change. All that I can say for certain is that it is very obvious that a change is occurring. From Jonathon Kahn's Harbinger, to Bashar and Adronis saying that everything that will in the Fall of this year, and just based on the current strange mood in this country it's clear that change has arrived. Perhaps, the amount of Light Workers that have Awakened have reached a criticle mass such as the 100th monkey phenomenon that I've spoke about before...so many people have spiritually awakened it's causing spontaneous awakenings in others. Jamie Sams hints at this in her book Dancing The Dream when she says that previous Dreamers and Seers forged a path for others to follow into the Dream Weave and to the Rainbow Whirl Dream. Those words really appear to be felt by many of the people experiencing this new spiritual paradigm. Most importantly don't become just another animal in a group. Express your individuality. Conclusion We are in midst of a Spiritual Awakening that as been happening since 1998. This is what so many musicians have sensed and why they have wrote songs about waking up. According to Adronis this is the start of an eight year period where we will see a restructuring of the infrastructure of the world. Even weirder is some people are calling the "Awakening" a "Harvest" and it does make you wonder about Revelations. This Spiritual Awakening may last until 2040 and may lead to a new "root race" where people are more aware than they were before of their relationship with others and Source (God/All-That-Is). We are at the end of the Age of Separation from Creator/Source that started with the Destruction of Atlantis. Yet, the survivors of Atlantis knew that forgetfullness was just a temporary phase in human existence. They knew when Humans would start to wake up to their Spiritual origin and Spiritual nature. They knew that we would regain our 'God Hood' that humanity had in the days of Atlantis. They left us messages, one is the Hopi Prophecy Rock, another is Gobekli Tepe where pillar 43 indicates this time and place which only happens once in 26,000 years (at the half way point is when Yeshua appeared). The Great Pyramid points to 2038 which is the end of the cycle it predicts and describes. At the same time the very real danger of destroying ourselves exists. There are a lot of people that seem to want that to happen and are willing it into existence. Our strange tendency to think negatively and not to be optimistic and hopeful as a species makes this time particularly precarious. I could probably include a dozen other media items about "Waking Up". There are about a dozen songs that I can think of that have that theme. But I'm sure that you're just aware of this theme as I am. |
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