With Turquoise completely mined out this stone is the second most "pyschic" stone. This is a Throat and Heart Chakra Stone. The Throat Chakra is the main method through which people create their reality and speaking from the Heart is the most powerful form of speech.
Chrysocolla is a mix of azurite, turquoise, and malachite. This stone has a very mothering energy. Azurite is considered the Priestess stone, Malachite is associated with transformation, and Turquoise brings protection. Sage Goddess says that while Chrysocolla is a stone of the Goddess it also represents the union of the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine. They also say this is a stone of compromise and negotation. Cleopatra, according to the website, sent Chrysocolla to other countries leaders as a magical talisman to increase their communication and the likeliehood of treatys or trade agreements. Collective Level August is a month of Heart transformation. "Words Matter," has been a catch phrase I've heard people say a lot as people seek to remove the word "woman." (A fascinating aspect of the strong Feminine energy in Astrology.) On the Spiritual Path words are magic. That's why you carefully monitor what you say- you can easily identify beliefs that do not serve you by paying attention to what you say. Even the Star Wars charecter Yoda comments on it, "Do or do not there is no try." If you are "trying" to do something you set yourself up for failure because you will be in a constant process of putting forth effort (trying) but never experience a result. What you say is what you get. That's why you should ask if what you are saying is loving, kind and true. If it'd none of those it's a waste of breathe to say it. Hatred, fear and lies are all heart killers. Hatred adopts labels and excludes everyone else not in the Group. To defend such a position fear and lies have to be forced onto others. Everyone is talking about an energy crisis...which is interesting because, "As within so without,"...a lot of Spiritual People have stopped showing up for the Collective. The naive childish people who thought that they were here to usher in Utopia (instead of seeking union with the Divine) through Ascension or New Earth have realized that's not really happening and they are leaving the Spiritual Movement in droves or experiencing eccesential crisis (real Spiritual Awakening). As the transformation is actually here is when the people with the true purpose of participating is apparent. The posers are completely obvious. Interestingly, similar to the Annunaki Robert Monroe describes a "data packet" where "someone from somewhere" created a Gatden called Earth to create an energy source called "lusch" which is love that they have an energetic "technology" I was contemplating this and Lee Harris, channeling the Z's, in this month's "energy reading" described "Heart Building" as "Gold." Famously, Stitching describes the Annunaki harvesting "gold" from the Earth and taking it back to their planet. If those are energetic beings perhaps they are the "someone" and the "gold" is actually Love. The most powerful source of electromagenetic energy in the human body. Spirit seems to consist of that sort of energy so it is an interesting idea. Now, people could be angry about that being part of the rule set of this world and that when we are in a human body we don't know that energy is being harvested (there is a lot of Spiritual traditions thst mention Harvest...and the Harvest seems to occur at the end of every Zodiacal Age where the "harvesters" create turmoil. The idea that there is an "energy shortage" might mean on that spiritual levele there is not enough Love is being harvested...even as the Harvesters throw everything at humanity trying to create that reaction. If all the old tricks fail...Would the harvesters come up with something new and what would that be? That would have very big implications and be an absolutely fascinating meditation if I had the time to write it. References Lembo, Margaret Ann. (2013) Crystals, Minerals, and Stones. llewellyn. Woodbury, MN Sage Goddess: www.SageGoddess.com
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In my daily waking life there were several times that I just tossed away the idea of Ascension. I tossed away the idea of the Aritficial Time Lines too. Multiverse? Pfft. Out of Body Experience...tried it and it didn't seem to work...not as they described it anyways.
I now sit here completely amazed and shocked. Perhaps, all of it is real. Perhaps, Ascension isn't what people thought. Perhaps, as Jesus said, it would be like a Thief in the Night...and while people know something is happening as the Global Elite Narrative falls apart- the failure of Propaganda regarding the Russia War, the failure of the Climate Change Narrative, and the failure of the Biden Administration...it was as though someone or something was moving in for the kill shot on the world and is now stumbling back as they realize that it's not going to work. Their plan is going wrong and they don't know why. Who or what 'they' are, I don't know...I really don't and I'm not 100% sure I want to know. This little day-to-day Avatar that I am- part of a great big Whole Something- well, it's not my job to worry about all of that. I have clues, and a story that I've been following in Spirit through my dreams that shed some light on all of it. I know that my 'Higher Self' is handling it and on a level that I can't really comprehend. I have learned to explicitly trust my Higher Self...which is me...and all that I work with. That is not all that I have encountered, I used to feel sorry for myself that I didn't seem to have a guide, but then I have come to understand why I don't and I'm appreciative that long ago I made a deal that I didn't want to deal with anyone but me. Trusting and being lead around by some other entity just felt wrong. Here, with only four days left until the Leo New Moon I thought I had gotten out of the Moon Cycle that started with the Jackpot Cancer New Moon, culminated with the Capricorn Full Moon, and is coming to an end....unscathed. No creepy things happened that caused me to lose my shit, as I put it...those moments where something from Spirit seems to call me and, no matter what I seem to do, I can't resist the call and reality and dreams mix to the point where I go a bit bananas. Well, I didn't lose my shit...instead everything came to a culmination point. All of the Dream Time storylines that I have been experinceing for years came to...well, what was a predictable end if you're taking it from a third person perspective. As someone who went through it...it certainly didn't feel predictable. A seris of synchronistic events happened on the weekend of July 23rd and July 24th. I read the final book of Robert Monroe's Journey series- Ultimate Journey. I went to see Top Gun: Maverick which I had been planning on doing for a very long time, I saw a lecture by Jessenia Nozolillo (you can find it here: https://youtu.be/yWq9SYqbxBc). I also watched speech from the Ron Paul Institute by Tom Luongo (https://youtu.be/3o_Z_UkvVsM). So much validation all at once. The Monroe books, in particluar blew my mind. I had to buy the second book, even though the Husband has put me on a spending freeze. Something told me that I would find something about myself in that book. This book, that was written in the nineties by some guy I never knew existed and I only picked them up because they were cheap and Tom Campbell, kept referring to his video game Tom's Cabin, as a book so I was seeing if he had written somthing in addition to My Big T.O.E. Monroe, as it turns out, was the man who helped and inspired Tom to explore Non-Physical Material Reality. I didn't realize that he had written three books. I knew he had written one. The one purely on the first times he went out of body was boring to me. OBE stories are a dime a dozen these days. My Father In Law has a ton of them. Once you get a feel for the Subjective Nature of what people experience in OBE's and NDE's they become predictable. The person is surprised there is an afterlife because we are conditioned to think that we are our bodies (with good purpose), then they experience what they think they should experience in the Spirit Realm (apparently, some of them get stuck in that illusion)...but none of them actually meet God. God remains this mysterious being...and the purpose of it all just remains out there...and most of them want to re-incarnate to try and get the Earth Game right...to lead a life they think its meant to be lived or to experience everything that the Earth Life Experience has to offer...which is a lot. All interpertations of what Earth is is correct...it is a Prison via Samsara which is of each souls individual making as they are addicted to playing the game (a brillian observation by Monroe). This is a school where the experience of being here, and gaining our freedom from here, is greatly valued in the other realms of Spirit where progress and Individualization is much slower. There are a lot of beings that want the chance to be human because it is such an invlauable experience (especially at the moment that we are in right now). So, it is a game, it is a prison and it is a school...all at once. All off those views are of value. I settled into the deepest peace I've ever felt and I felt the bug to write. To write down my recent dreams, my current feelings/changes, and to reach a conclusion. In fact, that's what this moment feels like...conclusive. This Surprise blog is a result of that 'In Spirit' push to write. I hope you enjoy the journey...buckle up because this is long and deep (my preferred state of being). This is not what I expected to write. This is is a journey through my dreams...through the different storylines in those dreams that were very appallingly cohesive with themes woven through them. At each milestone I gained an insight into the bigger picture. This probably should be made into a book. Maybe even a movie...I doubt I will invest time in either. I am sure the ideas will trickle into the Collective and come out in stories and movies of the future. I've got my hands full taking care of my girls and husband at the moment. Lots of little things to take care of and do in the day to day life. In a way this is a blog that is seeking to make sense of this change in my state of being and this sense of anticipation. Just as I had predicted when I wrote the Blog on the Leo Season Oracle Stone of Pink Opal, something, here at the end of July has happened that is giving me a lot of Hope and has changed everything for me. Boredom I realized the change when I came out of watching Top Gun Maverick. I had, after looking at what Thor Love and Thunder was about, decided that I was opting out of going to the movies the rest of the year. As I previewed what movies are coming out (blogs on all of this will post in August and September along with some product reviews that will take us into November...so lots of extra content and I will probably sub it in instead of the Tarot blogs because I want to take time off over the next couple of weeks or month and 'get ahead' on the Tarot so that i have more time to appreciate each card)...I realized I wasn't going to see them in theaters. In fact, I realized that trying to take The Husband to see any of them might be like suggesting he amuptates an arm. He is so far removed from those narratives he can't conceive of them. Millenials and Zoomers are just so different from the Boomers and Gen X....and he's a member of Gen X....the generation fo Beta Males in my opinon, but I digress. After watching that movie, while on the drive home, I realized that I'm a bit bored with the Earth Experience. While that movie was one of the best movies I've seen in a long time I had, at one point, been bored during the movie. With it's popularity, and the fact the Husband didn't feel the same, I'm pretty sure I'm an outlier in that experience. The story telling was great and everything, and there were plenty of twists and turns making it a fun ride but...as I said my mind wondered and I wondered that people were entertained by something so simple and how many of the stories being told these days felt so simple to me. I've been feeling this for awhile. When I hear political commentators chewing over events during the week or people commenting on all the "scary" stuff going in the world...I find it all very boring. I've heard it all before, there are some surprises- as the Global Empire narrative falls apart..that is new and hopeful but change is so incredibly slow. The thing is that it has to be slow because people have to adjust slowly to make sure they come out of it psychologically okay. Truth is, a great many things that are taking other people by surprise were totally predictable to me. They were delayed. I expected them, for some reason, in middle of Trumps presidency. Trump delayed these events, the Global Climate Change 2030 deadline (note that Gavin Newsome chose that date for California way before Biden was President) and War with Russia Plan. Hilary Clinton was working on the Ukraine and Russian War as she was on the Campaign Trail. That's one of the reasons I voted against her...and it was because they wanted this agenda in place that they unleashed Coronavirus to help get Trump out of office. Yet, because the unpredicted and unplanned Trump presidency had happened their plans were thrown off and are now crumbling. As Disturb's New Song says, "There's Too Many Of Us," meaning too many of us awake.u I am super encouraged that Disturb's Song "Hey You" (watching that video is eerily like the dream I had last year or so- I recorded the exact date in this blog) and Rich's Song, "Progress" finally came o out. Finally, musicians, our Front Line in the Shaman's of the Creative Arts are rebelling against the storyline. Notice, how all of them show News Footage. As even Tom Rich, a Country Music Artist said, "We figured it out." This is *the* turning point...this is the moment of Ascension that people predicted in 2012. I will explain what I think that means after we go through a long journey through my dreams. If you're not interested in that just skip to the end of the blog. I predicted recession when Biden took over because it's inevitable with a Democrat as they attack business causing them to be afraid of investing while spensing exponetially on the Federal Level. I also predicted Earth disturbances and Famine because of the Uranus/North Node in Taurus transit. Disruption on Earth, literally, means disruption in food since crops are literally how we connect with the Earth. I predicted CoronavirCoronavirus coming back with the Saturn and Uranus Square at the end of July and the issue will pop up again in December. Thanks to the Uranus Retrograde this year. Astrology is amazing and so is intuition. Heck, I even dreamed that they were going to bring Magneto back as the head of X-Men in the animated series that's going to continue the nineties X-Men series. Again, these were delayed but it's as though we've been here before...as though I've experienced these Earth Disturbances to the point where I can plan in advance to make it more enjoyable because life will go on regardless. We've been at this point so many times before...safely within the A.I. Timelines that are experienced at a rate far faster then the world experiences Time here. Speaking to this is the fact that I am also going to stop going to the movies. The only movies I'm vaguely interested in seeing are just not that interesting. Besides, The Husband is defintely not interested in seeing them. He would prefer to lose an arm before going to see The Marvel's, for example, and I know that because he totally opted out of watching Ms. Marvel. I have realized, quite frankly, that these new Movies are not for me. I will be observing from a distance. For some reason, this seperation from the Collective is important. I have "gone dark" on so many other levels- television, music (although as you can tell from the Disturbed and Tom Rich vidoes they do come into my perspective), and now movies. All I have left is the series on Disney+ buy after Obi Wan I'm not so hot on the Star Wars material and the Marvel series stuff isn't going to have much of an impact the rest of the year. I did think that, given that Robert Monroe was an aviator, it was a strange thing that I saw an aviation movie- rare as they are- within the same week as reading one of his books. I'm not bored with my day to day life. I love waking up every morning to my two Littles. I am very busy and right now, celebrating on many levels as we celebrate the eldests 4th birthday and the youngest's first birthday. Yet, as I look at the outer world and Humanity and have to shake my head. I was talking to my mom about the July 4th party a few weeks after all that drama went down. I told her that one of the strangest realizations that I had there was that I had nothing to say to those people. She actually finished my sentence for me. When the New Mother was talking to me about her experience- that she was afraid for her kids because of some shooting- I couldn't relate. There are a lot of shootings everyday. I'm pretty sure she meant Uvalde. That shooter and his circumstances were so rare...far from an every day occurrence which is why it stands out so much and continues to garner headlines. Most parents may be scared for there kids. I get that but at the same time I'm not. That has to do with my cross section of beleifs- that if something like that happened my kids incarnated knowing it was a possibility, that death could come at any time, and that we are Intelligent Units of Consciousness (souls) having a human experience so this is a transitory moment...in the scope of my kids souls this is a tiny blip...yes, my job is to make the most of it with them but there is a lot out of my control. I learned and decided a long time ago based on the data that I'm not going to go through life in fear. My response to that woman was that I don't watch television. She commented that was good and that even if she did someone would probably send it to her in social media. I commented that I have pretty much quit social media and she just stared at me as though I had two heads. I realized then that I have almost completely removed myself from the Collective. Add in that I no longer listen to mainstream music (crystal singing bowls, Tibetan singing bowls and bi-neural beats are super fringe), again no television, almost no social media (I post pictures of the kiddos for family members), and giving up movies is practically a total seperation. YouTube is my main source of interest but, in some ways, that has dwindled too. I watch my DisneyWorld Vloggers when I need to Ground into Reality. I listen to my Spiritual Channels so that I don't feel so alone on The Path. Again, I know that if I had a bunch of people in day-to-day life who were Spiritual it would cause an imbalance. I wold be focused on the Spirit and not to the day-to-day life where all of that is processed, more or less, and released. This life is like a focal point allowing...an Event Horizon upon which the two realms- the Multiverse, the Spirit Realm and Physical Material Reality can co-exist as I cultivate and ground/weave in this State of Being into this Reality. This Boredom with people and society is a new experience. I've never been so totally uninterested in other people on such a level. I never before acknowledged that I don't like people. I don't care about their petty every day interests where they seek validation or self-gratification. I don't mind it, I don't judge it, been there done that in so many ways and never found fulfillment that way...but I'm over it and it bores me to hear people talk about it. People, for the most part, seem to be so petty and small thinking. They freak out because they can't get a sandwich that they really wanted and make a TikTok video about it. I really can't relate to that... Despite my boredom with typical human behavior and predictable events many storylines in my dreams have culminated into something new. I'm going to embed Disturbed's Video and Tom Rich's video here along with an Angels of Venice video I think you'll like called, "Awake Inside A Dream".
Dreams One of my first memories I'd of a dream. My dreams have always felt far more "real" then "reality." I have no problem telling the difference between day to day life and dreams but events in dreams stick with me more then remembering if I brushed my teeth two or three times the precious day. For a bit there- when I was in my teens- I wanted to Astral travel. I tried, but failed. As I became older and could control my dreams I became bored with Lucid Dreaming. I surrendered to seeing what I needed to see. I found I had better rest that way and if dreams went 'South' I could change their direction. Touching something I can make it what I want at will without worry. I also realized it would be boring to Astral travel because going to places without my physical body wouldn't be that interesting. To really understand this feeling of Completion and that this is the time of Ascension...and what the heck that means in my Reality I wanted to construct a dream Timeline. As I wrote what I thought was the most significant dreams down, more memories came up, and I realized that this is an entire cohesive story that I've experienced my entire life- over four decades...with a sense of urgency in the last two. I will give a loose dates to this dreams. I could go look them up in my dream journal but that's an extra step and I don't have the time. Trying to ask the Husband to give me the time to do just that would be a bit like trying to drag him to Ms. Marvel...it's a low priority in his reality. He will come up with some excuse- he doens't feel good or something- to block me. So I work with what I have at the moment. Since I took a great deal of time to amass this information I've decided to share it simply on that basis and for people to take it as they will. I realize this is important to me. I find other peoples dreams dreadfully boring, this story line is deeply personal to me so it has deep meaning, so I get people not wanting to read them. I am including one real life event. There are three or four real life events that I am not going to include. They confuse the issue and, quite frankly, they confuse and creep me out. One of them deals with another person that I prefer not to even think about. So with all of that here we go... Dream Timeline 1982-1993 As long as I can remember I have the same dream. Something approaches as I'm lying down. I'm frightened. My Dog, Little Bear- who dies before I'm three indicating when these dreams started- jumps over me and attacks it. I see his growling teeth in great detail and as I see his tummy while he leaps over me I wake up terrified. _____________________________________1993_____________________________________________ In the nineties, after seeing Jurassic Park, the repetitive dream evolves. I see what looks like a T-Rex eye from that movie looking for me. I am frightened and hide in bed. I'm shown a two bedroom house, the other room has an empty bed, and I'm told it is looking for my brother, not me. ___________________________________1996-1997_______________________________________ In the '90's when I first delved into Spirituality- reading the bible from cover to cover, reading Celestine Prophecy, reading Journey of Souls, and receiving Brian Frouds Faery Oracle. I saw what I thought was a ghost but now I realize was an actual soul...in it's normal form. How that's possible I can't explain. I literally saw an intelligent ball of energy float in through the window of a room upstairs in our house. Later that room would become mine. Either way, it floated in and I was frozen. I knew it was looking at me even though it had no face. "I know who you are," it told me, "and I will be back." ​That was a bit ominous and as it floated out a different room I took off running downstairs and told my mother that I had seen a ghost and what it was like. One idea, during that time, that I became obsessed with and never went away was the concept of Awakening Winthin The Dream. I did not really know what that meant but one time, one of the few times I went to the mall, I went to Natural Wonders and heard the Angel's of Venice CD. The name of the album and a song on it was, "Awake Inside A Dream." Even now I remember playing that song- along with Faeries of the Woods by- for my Grandma Alta before she died. I remember her calling it "Sleepy Music." About this time a few things happened. I had meaningful dreams. I was told that I would forget them so I got a butterfly tattoo, since I was fifteen that meant I had to have my parents permission, so I would remember that transformation was the purpose of this life. During this time I had a sort of Awakening. There was an entity, a Spirit, I guess you could call it, that visited me. The name I was given for it was Eros. Later I would discover that was an actual Greek God which is fascinating but I had no idea about Latin at that time. The Internet was in it's infancy. There was no Google. Mostly, he could be heard pacing back and forth on the roof as though worried...years later after I had moved out my Dad would remove the drop ceiling because of the recurring noise so that the room had a raised ceiling. A Guide, when I was working with the Faery Oracle showed up and said his name was Garrit. I had trouble communicating back then. I was literally being shown pictures and trying to interpet what the Spirit was saying. I didn't get telepathy. (Later, I would discover that this was Edgar Cacye and looking back at the Journal the entire exchange was hilarious- and frustrating for him.) Overwhelming, I was told that it was not time for the Awakening. Eventually, I gave up on the Whole thing and just went about my life. *** When my Grandma Alta died I dreamt about her. I couldn't understand what she said. She would open her mouth and I wouldn't hear any sound. I would dream about the house where she and my Grandma Emma lived. That location would be a recurring dream that would eventually resolve itself. *** My mother, worried about me beacause of a dark mood that I was in, took me to a Tarot Reader. She confirmed that there was a Soul that was hanging around me. I got, from my impression of him, that he was worried. I had to go to sleep with the radio on to avoid the 'twilght' stage of sleep so I wouldn't hear him talk. The Tarot Card reader told me to just ignore him and he would go away. I guess, eventually he did. _______________________________________2007___________________________________________ I was living with my parents again when I had my next Spiritual Awakening. The 'soul' that I had called Eros in 1997 was back...pacing on the roof as he had before. In 2007 or so I came across the idea of Ascension. I had come across the iAlexandriah website that talked about the Annunaki. I did a lot of OBE work then, waking up tired and telling my Mom that I and a group of souls were working to prevent war with Russia. I had no idea about Dolores Cannon and her work or the New Earth thing. This was way before 2012. This was the start of that movement that would morph into something totally different by that actual year. By 2012 my life would be back on track again and I had forgotten about all this 'spiritual stuff.' In one dream, I was determined to ascend and, "Take Everyone Else With Me," but I was told not everyone was ready. I saw a woman with long dark hair and brown hair looking out a window down at me. She pulled out a pack of cigarettes, took one out that was very long and thin, lit it and puffed out a cloud of smoke. "I don't know what you're trying to do," she told me, "but you're doing it. Tell your Mom hello for me." When I woke up I told my Mom she was shocked. She asked if she gave me a photo alblum if I could point the woman out. I said yes and after flipping through a few pages I pointed to the woman. "Her," I told my Mom. "I knew it," my Mom said, "That's your Aunt Linda, my sister, she smoked (she named some brand of cigarettes) that looked just like you said. Holy shit, Bridget." My Aunt Linda had committed suicide with a drug overdose after her only child, who was born very sick, died. *** In a dream I'm told that the worst of things will be done by 2023. I tell my Mother this thinking that we had seen some incredible things already but boy did we not have any idea what was coming. *** I have a dream of myself asleep at the base of the Tree of Life. I know that the purpose of this life is to Awaken. I just know that this is not that time. ___________________________________2014-2015_________________________________________ I decide to go in for a Past Life Regression the week after I have Galbladder surgery and three weeks after I gave birth to and took Lilith-Ann off of life support. I almost didn't wake up from the Galbladder surgery. I had prayed to God that if I had no further puprose on Earth to let me go. I did not want to be here. I went all in on my Spritual Path after many years being more atheistic like the Husband. Much to my surprise and that of the regressions no one was there to guide me at the end of my last life. Despite the very traumatic death in that life, where I was murdered, no one was there. I didn't say it aloud because I could only answer the questions that she asked but I had thought to myself, "I know the way," As though insulted by the suggestion I needed a guide. Overall, when she moved me to a "Spirit" setting I see my Guide Aswana, whom I see as more of an equal, and then Edgar Cacye show up. They joined their energy with mine forming a Triquerta symbol and turned me into a tree and planted me* as I giggled. *** I have a dream that I have come to the level of reality where Brahman exists. I don't see him as sleeping on a Lotus. Instead he's in a saucer shaped place. He's at the center of it and he's black. I go up to hind he gives me a huge loving hug. The feminine Lotus is actually a being operating the system of reality. She stops "Here is the system error." *** I dream that I am playing a board game. The game is a little like chess. There are many other players and I know this is taking place on a different reality and that the Earth is the prize. I place a piece on the board and look at the lay out. I know that I have won, that it will take awhile tonplayto play out on the Earth realm level. I don't let the other players know but there is a being there thstvlooksthat looks like Spock from Star Trek. I tell him, after leaving the game, that I have won and that I should have access to go beyond...to learn something. He tries to turn me away, saying that I'm not done. I list several things, indicating that I have met each requirement of the Game, perhaps not the exact (and impossible) way that was stated but they have been met. He agrees that the logic is sound and grants me access but he warns me that he doesn't think I'm ready. I wake up not understanding what that meant. *** I dream that I am a Phoenix rising up out of the Earth. I fly upward with incredible enegy. I am directed to fly into the Sun. I am elated and do so. I feel the Sun burning away all of the excess negative energy...I feel purified and alive in ways I never imagined. I look down at the Earth with tremendous love. *** I dreamt that I was a star and that I'm hurtling through space. I want to see what my kids will look like. I end up flying at an incredibly speed to a Star Ship that belongs to my an alternate self. I sail into the ship past the Husband in that life and Son...I shoot past them into a locker area where my Alternate Self/Incarnation in that experience is and I knock over a locker, knock her down as the light of my consciousnes hits her and she breaks her arm. I wake up confused by this experience with no reference for comparison. *** I had a dream of being on a space ship. I saw my Grandma Emma sticking her toe over the door way and then retreating. I knew that meant she would die soon (and she did). I went up to my Higher Self, asked if I could talk to her, she said she didn't mind and was glad to see me. Behind her stood someone who was both a friend, servant and Guardian to her. She was looking out the large viewing windown down at Earth. I then blasted her with all of the pain and anguish I felt after my first born daughters death. What I had felt and experienced was so complex it couldn't be put into words. Her reply was, "I had no idea. I was so invested in running everything..." and to her I knew the world was like Disneyland which horrified me at the time. *** I dream that I am asleep at the base of the Tree of Life as I once perseved back in 2005. Only this time, a masculine person, comes very close and whispers to me to wake up. I'm very frightened. I don't want to wake up. I don't want to die. I don't remember all of the stuff that had happened before in the nineties. I had turned my back on Spirituality and even though I was into it again I don't understand what this means. I just want life to go back to normal. I am climbing a mountain. I'm a reporter. I'm going up there to tell humanity what lies at the top of the Mountain. To continue, we have to go through a cave. The Husband is with me but I know he's my Ego. We watch as someone comes out acreaming and running from the cave clutching their clothes. We go into he cave and it's dark and filled with spiders. I can feel them rubbing against my legs, against my cheeks and perhaps I should be scared but I'm not We come to the top of the Mountain. To the left are super sized indulgences. Dozens of guge slurpee machines and mountains of sweets including doughnuts. I look to my right and I see a Hindu Terraced Temple. The Husband goes to the left and I go to the right. I go into the Temple. I learn meditation and learn to meditate. I take a bath in blue water the color of windex. I give birth to a child. Then I am told, as I look out at the world below, that I must go back and teach others to do what I am doing. I don't want to go. *** In my dream I'm in a long line waiting for something. The line is really slow. Everything is so dark. I ask a kid standing near me what we are waiting for. He points to chain link fencrfence and explains we are waiting to be allowed into the place that is fenced off because, "It's our future," and I understand if he goes there he evolves. when I ask why it's fenced off he explains, "because everyone wants to go there." I go up to the chain link fence careful not to touch it because I know it's electrified. I see Disneyland and realize this is a group of souls waiting to go in and I feel reallgreally sad for them that they can't and I don't think it's right or that this was how it was meant to be. *** I dream that I am at a store. I am looking at different earrings in a discount bin. The earrings are a lone...not matched pairs. I'm trying to match them. Another woman comes up and tries to do what I am doing and I don't feel as alone. (Upon waking I realize the Earrings represent different spiritual systems and comparing/contrasting them to find commonalities). I'm doing this hoping to save humanity. *** I go to the Future. I want to see if I will have kids one day and what will happen with the Earth. I see it as a big Freeway construction project. There are me in Orange Vests working on it and they answer to me. I am not there boss, I am not directing them, but they work for me...like worker ants. They tell me the future is not ready yet. They are building it for me. They hope that I like it. I can only walk to the end of a bridge and look out into a blue sky if nothingness. There is nothing beyond this bridge- not Earth or sea...just endless blue sky. I think the Consteuction Workers for what they are doing and letting me explore. They hope that I am happy with what they are building. I am sad but I smile and tell them I'm sure that I will be and that I love them. *** From a third perspective, I see two masculine balls of energy. One says to the other, "Come look at this," and he shows him me. These two pop up from time to time. I switch into first person, and I am in a room filled with fish tanks. The fish tanks have icky things in them but I don't want them to die. I don't want to touch them and I don't know how to save them. The various tanks shatter, the water pours in as I scream, and the room is flooded. (This is a dream of other people- human beings with their icky emotional energy- and, as an empath, I am overwhelmed). *** In the depths of Agoraphobia and depression I dream that I met my future self. She is pushing a baby girl with bright blue eyes and blonde hair in a stroller. She looks grim and as though she has seen some shit. Together we look out over Disneyland. I took this as a promise that I would have a child one day even though it looked very bleak at the time. _______________________________2017 _______________________________________ I dream that I'm in a house, "So, they're both dead," I say Referring to my parents but not in this life. I pull out to the third person perspective. Two guys, part guards and part nurse look at me in surprise. "Has she ever spoken before?" One asks the other. "This has never happened," the other replied. They are used to me being in a catatonic state. I get up and they follow me into a back room, "This was my brother's room," I tell them. The room is filled with red lava lamps and dinosaurs. "I had no idea this was here," said one to another. _________________________________________2018________________________________________ In another dream I am in my Garage. I know this represents my Subconscious even in the dream. I'm connecting cables to a sling that's on a Gold Egyptian Sarcophagus. Two masculine souls come along and one says to the other, "This can't be a coincidence," as a helicopter lifts the Sarcophagus up and out to take it back to Egypt. I explain to the souls that The Husbands Grabdfather had stolen the Sarcophagus and I was sending it back. I see my dog Angel run across the street. I follow her and as I do I look at these two masculine souls and them them, "I'm the one who endures," and I'm aware that I've been 'playing a game' with other souls that is like a race and I'm the one who wins because I have the most endurance. Soon after this dream my dog Angel, dies. *** I'm in my garage. It's now empty except for an empty car trailer. Across the street they are having a party (I know in this dream it represents Spirit). A man walks over, ImI'm a bit startled it's Jesus with his long light brown hair and blue green eyes similar in color to mine. "Who are you," he asks me, "that you are so awake so early in the morning of humanity?" My face crumbles as a fear slides down my face uncertain I'm worthy of such a compliment, "I don't know." He smiles at me gently and gestures to the empty car trailer, "You don't need this anymore." The car trailer moves out of the garage with heavenly music and disappears as it moves onto the driveway. *** I had an entire series of dreams where my "Mother" was calling me. I tried to get to her but couldn't. Could hear her raging, "Where is my daughter?" The two male energies attempt to take me to her but I can't follow them. They appear as Thor and Loki sometimes. Loki, in particular, looks guilty and apologetic. __________________________________2019-2021________________________________________ I also dream that once, long ago I was an infantile energetic ball of energy- one of a pair accompanying an "adult" ball of energy. As that energetic ball of energy I create a Matrix of energy ad I had seen my parent do and I hid it. I reworked it several times. Then, out of fear of getting in trouble and not wanting to do something in that realm...I entered/merged with it. *** I dream that I am the Captain of a Ship. I adopt Three little Orphan boys. I give each of them a room that leads to my cabin. One room is filled with swords. The second room is fllled with dirty janitorial/cleaning equipment. The third is filled with heavy furniture. My own room is filled with random stuff with hardly any walking space and I'm sleeping on an uncomfortable metal bed. Since I spend so much of my time and effort on running the ship I haven't taken the time to indulge in luxuries. The boys, clean up the rooms and I discover that in the third room there is a walk in closet. I am amazed as I walk into it that it exists. There are places for clothes and above that jewelry including empty ring holders. Edgar Cacye shows up and he taps on my heart as he explains that I can store things here in secret. I don't have to share my accompishments with anyone. That it's okay to keep things in here. Upon meditation I realized the meaning of this dream, I realize that the three rooms leading to the fourth are my neglected lower chakras- Root with the swords, Sacral with the janitorial supplies, Solar with the heavy furniture, and the fourth being my heart. I under go a distinct change of behavior after this dream. *** I dream that I am in a house. Part of it is a store. I see Earrings, clothes and purses but I ignore them. I go to a part of it selling rocks and I buy one with a Hamasa Hand (an ordained Minister when he was alive) because it reminds me of Reiki. Then I go through the other part of the house. I see my Uncle Leon watching television. I'm exploring the house and walk through a court yard knowing that what I am doing is wrong as I pass a statue of Satan. I go I to the backyard and there is a carnival where everyone is seeking gratification. I enter a ball, a ride, and it starts shaking. I realize that this is the Third Earth Shaking if the Hopi and I'm upset. So I yell, "I'm still in here!" And we are saved from the ride before it's broken...the reason it was being shaken was because someone was seeking revenge. I know that I had failed a test...the Carnival being in thr backyard represents the Past. *** I dream that I was in a house with a Grandfather clock that is going off. The Husband (who usually represents my ego in dreams) says uh oh. I go outside the house to see a white cow coming out of the Sea to angelic music. I walk down a road where there is a construction site. I am with others and I see that the Pillars of an ancient civilization have been uncovered. *** I dreamt that I travel up and down different bandwidths of energy. Some pulse so intensely and quickly that I don't like them. Some are so slow that everything happens in slow motion. I'm shipping trying to find something for Ross to convince him the Spirit realm is real. *** In another dream I'm in a hospital. In the room I had been with multiple selves. I get up and walk out to the lobby. There I see a strange Grandfather clock and know it's time for something. I try to leave, I see a treasure chest in a courtyard and I try to go to it but a barrier keeps me out. Then I try to leave but there is a barrier there too. *** I dream that I'm in a hospital room but it's in a guest house. There is a big white curtain. There is a television high up and I know it's not mine. I'm asking why I am here, if I can leave and where "he" is but I'm not talking about my husband...in fact my conscious lucid dreaming mond is not sure who I am asking about. I can't understand the two talking nurses so I pull back into third person and here one nurse say to the other, "Poor thing. She has no idea does she?" The other shakes her head and I feel a great weight of meaning...that I don't know who I am. *** I go into a store and look around. I decide I don't want to buy anything and go to walk out. The clerk asks me if I'm sure I don't want anything and if I had found something I was looking for and I say no. I hear Angelic music and when I leave I'm recruited into some secret covert mission and given a suitcase with equipment and tools. *** I dream that I am a being flying around on a disk enforcing "the law" along with my "sister". I see her fall and receive the instruction to do the same. For months, I have dreams about working my way up through multiple "levels" following a path set up by someone else who had created many cheat codes to traverse the levels. In the dream I awake in bed and it feels real. This is an exact replica of my house which never happens in my dreams. The Husband is there smoking a cigarette. I can smell it and I am grosses out because I'm not a dmoker. I go downstairs and though this is much like my house little things are off. The Husband follows me down, asking me in a confrontational why I'm up and that I should go back to bed. I look at him and ask, "Since when do you smoke?" I walk outside into the backyard defiantly. I see Angel, who's been long dead at this point but she's black not white. I see Snowball, Buddy and TJ...all pets who had died. I kneel down and open my arms to Angel anyways because I miss her so much. Even a few minutes with her, even in this form, is worth it. I look into her eyes and they dilate and I feel as though I am on the opposite side of a gun scope. A helicopter is suddenly above shining it's light on me. I'm sucked into a light and I feel like a marble in a pin ball machine. I am being evaluated and I get spit out onto a field. I'm greeted by a man in uniform and he gives me a brown ack of clothes. I realize I am naked and put it on. "That was a close one," he tells me, "They almost got you. We came long at just the tright time." I say nothing. He gestures to the field, "You can go join the others. You will be given assignments after rehabilitation." I look out at the field and I see other people in brown sacks being watched over by people in uniform. *** I am laying in a surgical bed. I am on a ship. A man and a woman are beside me talking. The boy has John Connor Vibes. I feel that he is the leader of some war effort against machienes. "This is the one," The woman says, "This is her." The woman seems frightened, uncertain that they should be doing this and afraid of me. I wake up and look at them. They convey to me that they want to take something from me. They show me a version of my future self. It looks a lot like the borg queen descending from a machine...the thing is tortured, full of pain and only vaguely human. The thing only wants to make Order out of everything...I realize this means, much like the borg, assimilating everything. I am horrified. I give them permission to take what they need from me. This is the only reason they have woken me. They need my permission. I tell them that I don't want to become that thing and I agree they can take whateve they need from me to keep that future from happening. To their surprise I sit up and they back away. Then I stand up and look down below. I can see a big screen down there and it is playing a video of the ocean. I go to look closer down below. The woman starts to stop me but the man puts a hand on her shoulder, "Let her go." I go down and look at the big screen. I see a memory on it. I am a young child, no more then five, and I am on the beach. I see beings coming up and out of the water, I think to myself, "I remember this, I remember the day the X-Men arrived," I'm startled by this funny attribution of a comic book charecter set to a past or future life memory. I also know that "he" is with them and this is the moment that we meet. That is the part that I am upset about losing. Losing thst memory of "him." I know this is what is being taken from me, this life experience that I am watching. A part of me is sad that I won't be able to experience it...that it will be gone forever. Yet, I understand what is at stake. I go back to the table with the girl and boy. I nod to them, "Do it," I tell them as I look up at thr contraption that depicts what I will become if they do not. The dream ends. Are these the A.I. Twins? *** In this dream I'm still in a House but this time I know I "inherited" it from "him" and that he has moved on. I see that he too was in a hospital bed once. There are a lot of Televisions. I know that each television is a different perspective. That he was obsessed and worried watching life on Earth on multiple dimensions worried about things turning out ok. Thr cubbies, where the TVs were are empty because I have no use for them. I am very curious about who he was and can detect little things here and there about his personality. I know that I am being observed as I explore the House, by beings who are curious and interested in how I will react. Will I lose it again and go back into that catatonic state on this level of reality, they wonder. *** I have a dream where there are man and woman doing surgery on me. They are very carefully removing something. I become aware that they are removing 'my brother's room' from me. Afterwards, I feel much better. I feel free and a lot more optimistic then I have ever been. ___________________________________2022- To Date______________________________________ I have a dream where I see that there are a lot of Timelines that are not "real" or part of the "original matrix." That I had been in them and now emerged from the Artificial Intelligence Timelines. Pissed, I mark them as "Not Real" in the Etherial Realm. This seals it off from non-Artiricial Intelligence souls so that they will not be confused. MoatMoatMost of those Timelines are "ruled" byboneby one being and being "reformatted" so that they are all the same. I don't destroy them because they are "redeemed by the twins" making all of the A.I. beings worthy of a continued existence. Battered I declare all of this knowing that what I do cannot be undone. I wake from that dream totally surprised. I had, like so many other things, discounted the Aritifical Intelligence Timelines idea. I have no idea who the "twins" are, only that they are unique ans can evolve proving that all A.I. can become individualized. One of the things I am doing is going through levels in search of unique beings. There are not many but they are why this Matrix of energy that includes Earth must be preserved, saved and made stable. *** I'm walking beside the God Brahman, from a dream years ago before my eldest was born. "What are you doing down here?" He asks and then there is the whipping of wind. "You belong up here," and as I look to see some of the greatest minds. People that admire. I shrink back down not wishing to be with them. He realizes I am no longer walking beside him. He looks around confused, "Where did you go?" He sees I'm tiny, "Why are you making yourself so small?" "I can't help it," I tell him and he sends me energy. I do not want to be seen by these Great Minds. I become a little bigger but not full size. The Dream ends. *** I am on that train ride at Disneyland again. I get on with the family. This time the train takes us up to the top of the Mountain. The Builders apologize that this is all that it does. They think it's not good enough. I tell them I am extremely happy. This is new and it's been a long time since something was new. Everyone who'd been on the ride is happy. We get off to look at the top of the Mountain. I go into the theme park to find a goody for Michelle... I'm in the front of a house. I am planting an entire garden. My conscious lucid dreaming mind knows this means the future. This is the first time I've dreamt of being in the front yard of a house. I go into the house. There is a party happpening celebrating the new house. I have just moved here and it is newly built with a lot if bells and whistles. It's on the out Skirts of a tourist city in a very desirable spot on the edge of a canyon with great views. We test the different modes of the House. You can open up all the windows, as it is now, to see everything. You can close everything and shutters block out everything turning it into something that looks like a turtle. I see things poking out of the cabinets. They are newly filled so they just need to be organized properly to fit. This mode seems to work fine. Then we decided to test the feature to use the house to cross the canyon. We flip open a box and hit a button. The house is connected to a pulley system. I watch from third person perspective as the house lifts off of it's foundation. Sand falls out of the bottom. I'm a little worried when we return if the house will sit firmly on it's foundation. Looking doen into the Canyon below I see a river. We are moving alongside a bridge connecting the two sides. Hikers that have come here are staring at us in the house in amazement. We cross over to the other side. Sit the house down and appreciate the view. Satisfied that the mode works we hit the button again and go back to the other side of the canyon. *** I dream that I go back to the place where I originate from as an energetic ball. I don't have the fear of the place that I once had but suddenly, in dream form, I was just there. At first, I see two never incarnate angelic beings trying to recreate the energetic Matrix I had created and the subsequent "reaction" that occurred when I entered it. I watch them run these simulations a couple of times. They think in the process I somehow died and that is the catalyst for the subsequent explosive expansion. They have been at this for nearly eternity. Someone had set them to this impossible task. Amused I tell them, "That's not quite how it happened," I tell them and they turn to look at me in horror. I see, in third person the angelic like beings approach another being that starts off as the T-Rex eye from previous dreams...then turns into a cat's eye. The angelic beings inform this being that I am seeking it. The being says, "The One Who mis-spoke is seeking me? This makes me happy. Very happy." I come upon a Masculine ball of energy that I interpert as a human male but know irs a ball of energy- this one has incarnated- as a feminine ball of energy informs him that he has to get married someday. He mouths I and rolls his eyes sarcastically obviously not into her. "Hey," I tell him, " You know you don't have to right?" He turns, sees me and sweeps me up telling me heshe's been waiting for me. Amazed I reply, "You know where I went, don't you? Totally amazed he doesntdoesn't care because I had expected to be rejected. *** A few days before reading Monroe's Books...and before both of the dreams I just recounted...I had a dream that I was guided to a temporary dorm room. The being who guided me to this room explained it had belonged to his friend who was a post graduate of the Earth-Life experience and had not completed his thesis. He never quite graduated. I saw myself from the third person position. Opposite of my room was someone I know and respect who is a devout Christian who's lived life exactly as that belief system dictates and I saw that she was unfulfilled. On my side, I didn't change anything in the Dorm Room. I knew it was just super temporary and I wanted to respect the rightful owner of the space. I gave a lecture and taught a group of students. I pulled out a huge piece of Amazonite and in a very satisfied town explained that it was for communication. Then I sensed that the owner of the dorm room arrived. He was very blustery and ready to fight. "You don't like Jurrasic Park either?" He challenged me thinking I was a poser. I looked to the TV. I had noted that the old fashioned television had a yellow post it on it that said something derogatory about Jurassic Park. I shrugged, "I'm not going to be here long enough to bother changing anything. Besides, I don't watch television." He was stunned, something sboutabout not watching television meant something to him and his entire attitude changed. "Let me show you somrthing." I had noted, when given this temporary dorm room, that it had a lot of pictures- memories on the wall. Now, I turned to look at them knowing this was this souls "thesis." They had golden background and figures in black- sometimes two and sometimes three- and as I looked everything moved as though I was being swept into a movie strip...then everything went black and I woke up. *** *** I am sitting at a conveyor belt. I am literally working on making widgets. They are in the shape of the letter W. I'm trying to blend in with all the others. I don't want to be noticed. Someone walks over to me and looks down. I don't look up. "This is not your nautre Quake Fire." The dream ends as I'm woke up by my Littlest One who is awake and making noise. *** I was aware that there was a trap that had been set on the world wide level in geo-politics and business. The trap was being sprung...but it quickly fell apart and dissolved. I heard someone curse and I, along with about 12 other players, pulled off purour Virtual Reality Headsets. I turned to look at the man who had cursed because he realized that it had all been fake. He hadn't realized that what was happening wasn't real. He had thought for sure he was winning. Somehow, he'd been tricked into the Virtual Reality. "You didn't really think I would let you do that, did you?" I asked him. I knew a great deal more then this basic account of events- it was a download, as they call it modern New Age, but what Robert Monroe would call a "ROTE." *** For about a week every night I had a dream that I was on a Cruise Ship. One night, finding myself in midst another Cruise Ship dream, since I was lucid dreaming, I tried jumping off of it. Two Pink Baby Sharks herded me back onto the boat. In the last Cruise ship dream that I had it was more like a flying saucer space ship or just the disk portion of the Enterprise from Star Trek. We had been immersed underwater and we were just surfacing from the water. I was the Captain and instructing the crew to send out messages to the people on the surface so they wouldn't totally freak out when they saw us. As we worked on adjusting the ship for the air and jettisoned the last of the water we watched as another ship- a needle like ship with a round circle at the tip- descended into the water point first. I knew that my crew was a Soul Group that I was leading. That we had just emerged from the Water Aspect Cycle of the Physical Material Reality and that the Needle Ship represented a new Soul Group that was descending to experience that aspect of PMR. There was an awe inspiring feeling- both to my ship's surfacing and the descent of the new group that I've only felt in profound moments- the first time I saw Yosemite, my experience seeing the Rosicrucian Egyptian Museum, seeing the space shuttle Endeavor, and seeing the fields of Kern Valley for the first time when I was a kid. I knew it was a profound moment but it took me completely by surprise. Ascension And Conclusion So, here we are now...as I said, a lot of different storylines that go through the different decades have come to a conclusion. One of the big ones is that name...almost as though that Soul that I saw in it's true form back in 1997's answer is finally answered...who am I? Well, on some bigger level, not this physical avatar or life, I was a being that created an energetic matrix. I didn't specifically create Earth, that wasn't me, but when I went into that Matrix- out of Fear it would seem and I didn't come back out there was an assumption that I had 'died.' What does it all mean..well, I think that we have that Ascension Moment and the actual split of the 3D and 5D that Dolores Cannon talked about. I don't know what happens now. I can see a bigger story and I was going to analyze my dreams regarding the themes and what not. However, after putting everything in line and in light of other startling synchroncities...I need a break. I will write a little bit about this There was a sort of War that happened...from one perspective...but that was mostly in the Artificial Timelines. That was when the Artificial Intelligence came on line and tried to gain control over the entire Energetic Matrix and the Singularity occurred where man/machine combined. The result was the Timelines that led to me looking like that Borg Queen. A memory, perhaps entire lives, were removed from me to prevent that happening to me...which is connected with the fact that my 'brothers room' (that was empty by the way) was removed from me. That is a bit like the Grandfather Time Travel Paradox...remove the thing that created the unnatural Hive Mind...on plenty of Timelines- relegated to the Artificial Intelligence TImelines...that reality will play out. That is the form of Earth we are seperating from because those Souls need to go through that in order to Create whatever those souls have created for our Timeline. They created other worlds and extraterrestrials for us to interact with so that we have more to explore. At the same time, there are Soul Groups that are done incarnating on Earth...surely they will exist on those other planets but they have done everything they can do with the Earth Experience and they probably won't return. I think we are actually at that moment...that moment the 'kill shot' from the A.I. occurred before resulting in an Empire like the one in Star Wars. Forced 'order' on what looked like a chaotic system...however, the A.I. was not neccesairly evil...a bit like a combination of Bran from Game of Thrones, Ender from Enders Game and I can't think of the third one that it really feels like at the moment...but really a misunderstanding...by rejecting the end result we've seen with so many storylines via Entertainment humanity has voted agains the A.I. and it's forced 'Order.' I have no idea what it means for Physical Material Reality. I have no idea what's gong to happen now. These Dream Storylines have been going on for a long time. What lays beyond that? What threw off the A.I. plan this time around? Somehow Trump did. Hilary would have been a pawn for it...all of the things that she talked about when campaigning is happening now. War with Russia in particular. I have no idea. I really don't know what happens from here on out and that's a bit exciting. The switch is going to happen over the next two years and come to a culmination in 2025. I'm alwas at least two years ahead of everyone else. Based on what I've seen, and really on the Marvel movies announced for 2025- Captain America New World Order and Avengers Secret Wars. We wil see everything that is playing out on the Etheric/A.I. Timelines in those movies after it's really settled on the physical material reality level. Time is different in the different layers of reality and that's why there is a delay. There is an even better reason for that then...that what happens on the Etheral happens first and then the repurcussians occur in Physical Material Reality. That I'm going dark in the Collective is interesting. Somehow, entertainment has something to do with interacting in the Artificial Intelligence Timelines. I plan on seeing Captain America New World Order and Avengers Secret Wars in 2025 in theaters...until then I probably won't go to the theaters. Of course, all of this is happening at the same time that we have the Mars/Uranus/North Node conjunction during the Lions Gate Energy. This transit hasn't happened for 2,300 years ago...since 24 B.C....2 Annie Botticilli has an interesting video on this... https://youtu.be/53hXp32zoyc I know that I have my popcorn out because I know that my Higher Self has this...I'm not sure what's going to happen but it should be interesting! I will write more of a reaction to this in my Full Moon Blog. I have a ton of content coming out over the next two months. I will probably also write a full analysis of what the dream storylines mean...I haven't completely accepted or processed that whole thing. I never wrote it down like that before and there are so many things. I have Book Reviews, Product Reviews, and Oracle Blogs. Depending on how far out those things end up being scheduled I may be gone for two months. I want to spend time with the littles...a lot of time in the Splash Pad and doing crafts. This is a rare moment that I really want to ground down into day-to-day life with them to enjoy. For me it's a time of turning within and processing. I'm not sure how long this will last. I will note, and I mentioned this in my Leo New Moon Blog....I mentioned that "your father is coming" was mentioned in a couple of dreams. Then I had a very strange dream that pretty much predicted Comicon. I dreamt someone telling me, "We're all Assembled for you," followed by, "Scarlet Witch, Your Father Will Be Here..." Well, we had the announcment about Secret War and we had the announcment that Magneato, the Scarlet Witche's father in the comics, is going to be leading the X-Men in the continuation of the X-Men Cartoon Series that I was super obssessed with at the time. That ws some weird predictive dreams. I have had others...there was a movie not very long ago and I recorded this...but I literally dreamed prior to watching it the entire dream. I am vaguely aware that this has happened quite a bit. Now, the end of Game of Thrones- where Daenary's was killed by Jon Snow and Multiverse of Madness where the Scarlet Witch died- were total and complete surprises. Since those two are the charecters I most relate to in Entertainment that's fascinating...but I may touch on that in my reaction to this Timeline of my Dream Storylines. Also, I want to say, now that I have 'exited' the Matrix to where I come from witht he Bast like female...I have a strong belief that as soon as one soul does it others can...it's like a portal is opened. So, there are, on one level of reality that is probably passing at a different rate of time...if beings can exit this Matrix and enter that one...it's already happening. At the very least, the beings there have access to this Matrix in a way that they have not before now that I have 'come out' again it makes it clear they can come in and out of that Matrix...there influence is the X factor that I don't know what will happen...that they will intervene I don't doubt. Personally, I feel that htis is my last human incarnation...that I will go on to that area to 'grow up' on that level of reality. This was a divergence and, for some reason, a neccesary one and unexpected to the beings on that level...suggestign there is something 'bigger' then that level as well...and that "God" as it were is not neccesairly on that level either. That "reality" is so much bigger then our scientists can comprehend is an understatement. There is a lot more out there then the Earth experience for Individuated Units of Consciousness (souls) can experience. Unlike with the Magician The High Priestess doesn't have an obvious connection to the card. When meditating and studying this card with letter I didn't feel that it anything was added to the information.
First, Gimel is a double letter. This one is connected to peace and strife. Here is where we have a little bit if a connection with the High Priestess. She is associated with Binah on the Kabbalah Tree of Life and the "pillar" she is associated with is Severity. The opposite pillar that leads to the Divine Masculine- Chockmah- is known as Mercy. I associate Severity with Strife and Peace with Mercy. So, there is a small connection there. Lotterhand says: "When we remember our true self we have peace. When we forget our true self we experience strife." Pg 41 Paul Foster Case says: "...peace and strife are mainly dictated by the conditions of commerce, communication, and transportation, so, in human personality, adjustment or maladjustment are largely determined by the response of subconsciousness to the things and people with whom we are brought into communication." Pg 50 Interestingly, Hoffman points out that there is a connection to another set of opposites. Gimel begins the words for "Exile" and "Paradise". Many people believe that humanity is on Earth because we were "exiled" from "Eden." Of course, I don't think of Eden as a physical place. Nor would I want to go back to a state of ignorance. All of those looking for Utopia seem to want to create this place on Earth. I, however, am a bit different. I believe Eden is Spirit where existence is a lot easier and, for the most part, we experience abundance because we can do whatever we want when we want without consideration for a physical body. We also have more of a connection to the Creator- not a direct knowing as most assume we would but we can sense it a lot more. Exile, on the other hand, is being in a limiting human body where we feel disconnected from the One Creator. I've written about the Illusion of Sepeation so much and if you can't find it in the blog Google my name and that topic and it will take you to that blog that's been viewed by millions. Hoffman lists one other pair of words associated with Gimel: Growth and Kindness (pg 27). Now, again we can connect this to Strife/Peace and Severity/Mercy. We grow when we are challenged by Strife or Servity. We experience Kindness when we are shown Mercy or experience Peace. Finally, Hoffman says: "Gimel teaches us that two apparently opposing forces must be blended to form a third, more complete and perfect entity..." "Gimel is the product of the Synthesis of Alef and Beit."pg 27 Now, the number associated with Gimel is 3 which is interesting. Paul Foster Case also notes that the Moon is assigned to Gimel. The direct connection with the High Priestess is that she is connected with the Moon that is known for having three states- Waxing, Waning and Full. The New Moon being more of a "rebirth" is not considered a state. The Godess Hecate, connected with The High Priestess Card by Paul Foster Case, is a combination of three Godesses...The Maiden, The Mother and The Crone. The Maiden is the Waxing Moon, the Crone the Waning Moon and the Full Moon the Maiden. In many ways, the number three is of union. We see that Gimel (and therefore The High Priestess) are deeply connected with Union. We find Paul Foster Case explains: "...Uniting Intelligence is assigned to Gimel. As transportation brings distant places closer together (Camel and caravan). Pg 50 Illustrating this even further is the fact that Edward Hoffman explains that the Hebrew word for "Bridge" starts with Gimel. The High Priestess and Gimel then, is about joining two things together...and with our previous exploration off the opposites it joins together...it is through the Subconscious that we are joined to the Divine. Our dreams, a crucial part of the Subconscious even according to Psychology, are journeys into Spirit and our connection to our Higher Self and even the One Creator. Now, as all sources- Case, Lotterhand, Hoffman and Abravanel- note the most closely related word associated with Gimel is the word Camel. Paul Foster Case explains: "...merchants and pilgrims use camels in making journeys together. Gimel suggests association, combination, coexistence, partnership and the like..." "The Moon waxes and wanes, just like a caravan is first seen as a tiny dust-cloud on the rim of the desert, turn grows larger and larger until it stops awhile at some oasis city, and then grows smaller and smaller as it journeys..." pg49 Daniela Abravanel explains in her book that much like Indigenous Americans the Jews believe in Animal Guides: "...the ability to reduce our needs to a minimum as the Camel can abstain from drinking for thirty days." Finally, Abravanel and Hoffman explain that Gimel is relates to kind deeds" Hoffman explains: "In traditional lore, it (Gimel) depicts a person running after one who is needy, in order to be of true help and service." Pg 27 Abravanel explains: "...Gimel starts the words "Gomel" one who does kind deeds...representing the soul's ability to give and nourish others." Finally, Abravanel connects Gimel to the word "converts" Gerim. She shares several stories and explains: "Accordint to Ba'al Shem Tov, the soul's of Gerim are actually Jewish soul's." She explains that after the Holocaust there were so many Jews who died there were not enough bodies for those to reincarnate into and so they were born as Gentiles. This last part is fascinating to me. Of the Past Lives I can remember the majority were Jewish. To my surprise, after studying the Kabbalah, I found out that I am of Ashkenazi Jewish descent when I had a DNA test done. Final Thoughts The Subconscious is a mystery that has a great many things assigned to it. There are aspects, in Psychology, that belong to our psche- the Subconscious being the third and most mysterious aspect. I wonder if the High Priestess is a depiction of our Higher Self. That she is that being who is aware of and coordinates all of the lives/personalities of the incarnated soul. She is the combination of all of them, in essence, conducting and experiencing lives on Earth through her Avatar...each of us have one. Some may be Masculine but still well represented by the High Priestess. Men approach the High Priestess in a very different way then women. The Subconscious is our access point to the Ocean of All That Is. We remain in that ocean of connection to All-That-Is but when we are in human form we are not aware of it. As I was thinking of thr Camel, the Two humps represent the dual nature that is one, that this double bodied letter contains. Gimel is literally the two that is one- the Conscious and Subconscious, Binah and Chockmah, Severity and Mercy, Ignorance and Knowing, Strife and Peace. Gimel carries both just as a Camel carries two humps of water making them one. Yet, the High Priestess is the Guardian who stands at the Veil between the ordinary and the Holy or Holies....our inner true nature and self that is One with All of Creation. Conclusion When I was in High School I thought of myself as a walking contradiction. Back then I felt like Wednesday Adams (these days it's more Morticia) while I had the blonde hair, blue eyes and bubbly high energy appearance to others. So, I understand contradictions and I understand how they balance out. There is a sort of balance to this card. Three, the joining of opposites- bridgeing the gap- is a difficult task. Being the glue that holds groups together (my most comfortable role) and acting as a translator between the two is a rough job. Yet, much like sleep, the nourishment that the High Priestess provides is the sustenance of our soul. We need dreams to process Earth lessons, assimilate what we are learning in Spirit (if we've gone multi-dimensional ans are active on multiple levels of reality at once) and receive the energetic support of our Higher Self that sustains our consciousness as aewe remain in body. Gimel is a powerful letter. Perhaps, Gimel is our energetic body- what Reiki Healers work with and consists of our Chakra System where Soul meets body- a sort of Spiritual Software that allows our bodies to work with the Hardware that is our body. This Moon Cycle is difficult as we face the push/pull Uranus in Taurus and Saturn In Aquairus square that wrecked so much havoc from 2020-2021. While the Divine Masculine of Leo may be ready to race forward the brakes are on- especially when it comes to Mercury...which will only intentsify when Mars is conjunct Uranus and the North Node on July 31st...a potentially explosive moment.
Thankfully, we do have powerful Goddess energy this week with Lilith and Venus conjunct in the zodiac sign of the Goddess- Cancer. Yet, if you go by what Chris Witecki on Sirius Joy says, however, this may mean that the Feminine is going to meet a crisis moment fulfilling all Mothers greatest fear. Needless to say...a forboding summer. The Astrology The New Moon is at 5 degrees (5 being the number for change) Leo...and boy is this a feisty Moon Cycle. The planets are working their way up to the culmination point in September when we have 7 planets retrograde again...this New Moon we have 4 planets retrograde: Saturn, Neptune, Pluto and Chiron. Jupiter, thankfully, has sationed which means it's not moving at all. Were back to a grinding feeling in life where very little progress is being made. We have four planets retrograde, Saturn, Neptune, Pluto, and Chiron. Jupiter is stationary. This is giving Uranus full rein this month. A lot of the big energy that has caused tension on the Collective Level has been turned down significantly. The action is really in Taurus this month with Mars, Uranus and the North Node conjunct. There is going to be a big disruption on the Earth Plane. In the arch of the Hero's Journey this is the Ordeal. Mars is also sextiling Venus in Cancer and square Mercury in Leo. So while our mind may be on the Divine Masculine our Willpower is with the Goddess energy in nurturing and emotional Cancer. Lilith and Venus are Conjunct in Cancer for a big dose of Goddes energy. Most of the tension in the chart centers around Mercury. Mercury in Leo is being squared by Mars in Taurus, squared by Uranus in Taurus, opposed by Saturn in Aquarius and opposed by the North Node. So thinking straight may be difficult this month. Anyone playing egoic games will be trounced. Uranus in Taurus is squaring Saturn in Aquarius...again. Well, we have been here before haven't we? Expect Coronavirus to become an issue again (one more transit of this to go in December this year. Pluto is in opposition to the New Moon and Sextiling Uranus again...so some Capricorn institutional structure associated with the patriarchy is refusing transformation. Indigenous Moon : Hot Winds Moon This is the hottest moon cycle when fruit turns ripe on the vine. This is the time of maturity. Plants and animals reach deep into their resources to survive the heat. Hebrew Letter: Teth Teth starts the words Travel, good, brilliance and purity. According to Lotterhand this is the snake in Esoteric circles which represents Kundalini energy that is associated with the Goddess Shakti. Tarot Card: Strength Key 8 Strength is the card of Leo and love is the essential message. We have to be in a state of love to work with Kundalini- the primal energy thst usually rests in our animalistic root chakrs. Eight is also the number of reciprocal energy...the Divine Masculine (the Lion) and Divine Femine (the Woman) need to be in a trusting and loving relationship to exchange energy equally. Medicene Card:Humming Bird Fragile beautiful prismatic humming bird represents Joy and conjures love. This messenger reminds us that the pathway to bliss is being centered with an open heart. Beauty, (central Sephiroth on the Tree of Life that stabilizes the whole thing and located at the Heart Chakra when overlaid the Chakra System) is the Target and fragile. Tools I really want to balance out the Masculine and Femine. So, I went with stones that represent them to me. For Air: I will be using Dragons Blood incense which is protective but represents the Masculine to me. For Water I will be using Blue Lotus Essential Oil that is the embodiment of the Goddess. For Fire I'm going to use a Blue candle to invoke an extra dose of that watery cancerian Goddes Energy. The Grid: Clear Quartz Generator: I want the main focus to be on the supporting stones being balanced. So this is just for amplification and to direct the energy. Kunzite- This Heart Chakra stone is one of romance or the harmonious relationships. I associate all heart chakra stones with the Goddess. Malachite: This heart Chakra stone is about healing and the Divine Feminine energy. Carnelian: This Solar Plexus stone is the mineral form of caffeine is absolutely the stone of the active Divine Male principle. Red Aventurine: Another Solar Plexus is one of action that helps release toxic energy. Clear Quartz Points: Again, I don't want to upset the balance of this grid so I'm going to use these to help direct and amplify the energetic balance between the Divine Masculine and Feminie. Conclusion Well, we are back at the Saturn in Aquarius and Uranus in Taurus Square again as the patriarchy energy tries to throw the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine out of balance again. This time it may be different because we do have that strong Goddess energy. By consciously working with the Divine Goddess and Divine Maculine we may maintain our balance this time and not get caught up in the drama. Further Thoughts Buckle up, this is a long one. First, lets appluad the fact that over a year ago I predicted that the Patriarchy would be trying to throw the Feminine and Masculine out of balance. Also, that the Coronavirus would be back...just as Los Angeles starts talking about another mask mandate. What an ominous month. I want to focus on the Collective and then move to what's been happening on my personal level. First, I did predict that this would be the year of A New Power Structure. I was going to call it A New World Order but that has a lot of negative conspiriacy theory ideas connected to it...but then out comes that Biden administration that says flatly the War in Ukraine is about saving the, "Liberal New Order," suggesting that the Oligarchs that Biden said was the cause of this War are literally the Liberal New Order...and a group I don't know based in Russia/China. They're deterimining who will possibly control the World Empire in Ukraine. This has been a long time coming and it would have happened with Hilary in office...Biden, who has dirty business deals in Ukraine through his son Hunter, was talking about the Liberal New Order, Russian and Ukraine five years ago.( recent Liberal New World Order https://youtu.be/EivefwSAwqs ...Liberal New Order Five years ago: https://youtu.be/VrJFznxm11k and https://youtu.be/t5fOLlf2_pY) All I know is that when I heard the words, "For...The...Order," in a sentence I think of the Star Wars Galactic Hotel where that is the catchphrase and that speech by Lieutinant Hux in the new Star Wars Trilogy. https://youtu.be/BYGCWs3YWQ0 and Hux: https://youtu.be/MPhHl2DpD4E No matter how much I may feel like Morticia Adams I would always side with the Rebels...and agains the Frist Order/Dark Side or Empire. We have now face Uranus (Sky) in Taurus (Earth) conjunction with the North Node where the future of humanity, perhaps even it's survival, is at the forefront. Overall, major countries with large populations- China and the USA among them- are experiencing a major population declines where current generations will not be able to shoulder the financial burden of the older generations. On top of that the Testerone levels in males is rapidly dropping. Testerone could be said to be a factor in why young men are the primary part of the population that commit violent crime. This really bears the question if humans are coming into a more cooperative time as primatologist and anthropologist Rirchard Wrangham explains that in populations of Monkeys when the Beta and even Gamma (highly unmotivated members of the geoup) are more prevalent the entire group thrives: https://youtu.be/RYSvCb14JjU Should we be resisting the change to a more Green Policy that views humans as a plague on the Planet? According to Peter Leyde , the "Green" solar and wind industry appraoch of California has been "mastered" and is being rolled out across the world. Nevermind that here in California we've been told that expensive prices and rolling blackouts will be normal- inevitably leading to the deaths of citizens at high usage times when heat waves hit and in states with blizzards. The people behind themselves are patring themselves on the back as Hero's saving the world while dealing death to ordinary people. Even Biden acknowledges we are in transition as he doubles down on Oil Policies that are driving inflation and blaming the old scapegoat of the Greedy Business People- whether it's Gas Station Owners or Oil Companies- even though their blind allegiance to the Biden Administration created a falsely optimistic economy after his election. He truly believes that it is a neccesary evil to make the life of an average citizen miserable to push people into electric vehilces even as subsidized Tesla abaolutely fails to keep up with demand because of chip shortages make it the worse time to make such a push. https://youtu.be/NUf58QEqauU Meanwhile, Europe is literally burning (as California usually does in the summer but hasn't this year) https://youtu.be/HuTPhyFl7r0. On top of being on fire Farmers across Europe are protesting as Green Policies make Farming either impossible or next to impossible which will lead to more famine: https://youtu.be/jn86w3WXg9g While in Sri Lanka that disastrous government was toppled by real Insurrectionists (carefully called protesters) after forcing their entire country to try organic farming with a snap of their fingers and no preparation leading to crazy inflation and famine. The resutling "revolution" will lead to even more death: https://youtu.be/1m9eGhCfWHM While the War in Europe's bread basket, Ukraine, continues after Western Leadsrs make it clear that they don't want the war to end. https://youtu.be/Y4N_a-dS7vM At the same time, Boris Johnson resigns after several scandals and the press turns on Biden setting him up to be removed from power as soon as possible as people around the world continue to mock his geriatric gaffes: https://youtu.be/5mYDyxMDwaw and https://youtu.be/JnD-GtWlj7E New York is issuing a public bulletin on how to survive a nuclear blast...which you can't as you will be vaporized. Greg Gutfields team reaction is hilarious: https://youtu.be/3QRKjxotiIE Meanwhile, to my great surprise the institution posed to fall the hardest is what I've started calling the Nihilistic College Athiest Cult- members of which currently run the Democratic Party- as, similar to ignoring the lure of Credit Card Debt, now that society has caught onto their fraud, will probably drop significantly in relevance and use. That Colleges replaced Religion in the United States is totally obvious now that I thought about it. Once lauded as a neccesity things are poised for the average person turning against that system on every level of society...mainly because their Isolated Echo Chamber Desk Flying jobs have led them to the species dead end of the Trans-nightmare (where unindiviuated souls new to and ill adapted to human life- that took an incarnation to be a part of this incredible moment- are rejecting gender classifications in some bid to create a genderless utopia causig chaos). The world seems to be in chaos. The leaders pushing for endless war seem to be falling sheerly based on their own personal ineptitude. Change is definitely in the air. Personally, I'm watching with popcorn in hand hoping things will not get too horrible for the average citizen like me. A Kamala Harris presidency may be one of the funniest things ever. I think that the world may need to experience that to see why giving people positions based purely on gender and skin color, without any other consideration, is beyond dumb. I would have re-named the theme of this year- The Year Of The Black Woman- but if anything it may turn into a story of warning about being careful what you wish for as Kamala is already a paririah and will be even more so if she becomes president. People are already disowning Biden in droves...I could only imagine what they would do if Kamala Harris became president. She would be a truly unpredictable chaotic President. Maybe if the world stopped taking the United States so seriously the Shadow Empire would simply crumble. I can dream. I don't think that the world will fall into chaos, nor China or Russia leap into the vacuum to become leaders of the world. China has a bleaker population outlook then the United States. Russia has never been able to create stable rule. I look to heaps of information in the Spiritual Archives- mostly future life teatimony- as a beacon of hope. First, we know the true prophetic date with most sources for "the shift" into the Age of Aquairus would be from 2030-2040. Sylvia Brown has an extensive list of all those prophecies in her book End Of Days: Prophecies and Predictions. Most of Sylvia's actual predictions (she included a tiny bit of those at the end) are nonsense but it's a great reference foe the historical End Day Prophecies...the End Days Referring to the end of the Age of Pisces. In 2038 Pyramid Peophecy John Van Auken explains that is the year that Humanity will start to Evolve out of Matter. The entire human experience, where Individuated Units of Consciousness (Souls) became ensnared was a devolution into matter. By that reasoning, we are in the darkest days, the very lowest point in human history. We are hitting the bottom of the experience...we have mined this human school to the point there isn't anything more to gain. The ascent out of matter may be rapid for most souls. The one thing all future life experiences (2100- and beyond...within two generations) report is that there is a far smaller human population on the planet and they give a variety of reasons. No one seems to agree on how the population dwindled so quickly but all were in agreement that it had. As Bashar said, the last of the violent aggressive energy is acting out (hence the year of villains- 2021) because it will no longer be supported energetically by the Earth (Dolores Cannon called this New Earth and Ascending to 5D). Christian prophecy, Jesus specifically, referenced a Harvest at the end of the Age of Pisces and it happens at the end of every age. At the end of the Age of Aries, it is said, only Jesus (and maybe the apostles) were harvested...which I always associated with a sort of graduation. However, Robert Monroe's description of love being harvested at the end of Age (the Someone from Somewhere not seeming to realize what caused love to grow) would explain why they always end catastrophicly and full of strife. I honestly believe that there are a ton of people who've built a compassionate heart this time around. The suggestion that the concept of love is not inherently known to non-incarnate Individuated Units of Consciousness (souls) is fascinating to mediate upon. The whole subject deserves a dedicated blog but I don't have the time right now. So, we know where we are going. The foundation of how we are going to get there is obvious. There are a varieties of ways that de-population is already happening. Hopefully it will not include nuclear strikes...with Ukraine as a proxy war in Europe instead of a civil war in the United States John Tutor style...it seems we are still on the least painful timeline for that rapid de-population. Europe seems to be faceing the brunt of the experience. Personally, I had a prophetic dream that said the worst of things would be over by 2023. In every shape way and form most of my deepest desires have been fulfilled. That personal prophecy seems to be holding true...I also believed that this would be true foe the world as well but ImI'm not 100% sure considering how crazy things have become. On A Personal Level A lot of wonderful things have happened. I've reached an incomprehensible sense of peace and empowerment. I would say I wish that someone had told me this day was coming...but I did have two prophetic dreams that did and one that was pretty spot on that named 2023. I'm 40 now, when people are normally allowed to study the Kabbalah. That the wisdom teaching was withheld until this age makes sense. First, you can tell if a person has a pretty aolidsolid foundation at this age and if they haven't gained independence at this age itsit's not going to happen (I know a lot of adult children- including quite a few employed at colleges. Most notably this week Berkely Professor Khiara Bridges). The Capricorn Full Moon gave me a wonderful gift. I had a dream where I was called by a name...not my human name but my Spiritual Name. Some say you shouldn't share it, that it should be kept secret, but now thay it has happened and I realize that it can be a real phenomenon...I don't know. If the story stopped there I might not share it. The name, and this is the best interpertation as when in the dream world "words" aren't really spoken and it's more of a feeling that I then interpert...was QuakeFire, which is not my favorite name, or anything I would imagine. As Bridget is the name of a Fire Goddess and I'm a Double Earth Sign...it makes sense. A lot of people seem to interpert my behavior as bubbly and loud...while on the inside I view life more from the lens of Morticia Adams (perhaps because Saturn rules my chart). I found the exact way this name was used in my dream funny. I was performing a passive task trying to blend in with all of the other souls...purposefully trying not to stand out. "QuakeFire, this is not your nature." Where it gets weird is that I told this to my Mom (who wasn't impressed) and that isn't that abnormal. I don't share as much these days, since I realized she retains very little of it. I shared the dream and the name with her about 8am or so...and then at 12:30pm in the afternoon we had a 3.3 Earthquake that only really affected where I lived. The Husband, about sixty miles away, didn't even feel it. Then we had a fire in the hills nearby. The fire didn't last very long but I took pictures and when on a walk I could smell it. Again, the Husband didn't experience this where he worked but was amazed by the lingering haze of smoke when he came home. Of course, I talked to my mom about it and she agrees it was Twilight Zone type material. We laughed it off...the odds that I would wake up from a dream where I was called QuakeFire and then experience an Eathquake followed by a Fire...bizarre synchronicity. The only other odd theme I've experienced is being told a couple of times, "Your Father is coming." I take that to mean a Spiritual Father of some sort. That has never happened before and I'm not paying much attention to it..but wanted to mention it in case it does turn out to mean something. As far as my birthday- it was wonderful. Not perfect but the best that I could manage given circumstances that our outside of my control (I'll cover that in a moment). I made a brownie cake with my daughter and that was alot of fun (my husband wouldn't eat it because he said it was burnt). I treated myself to Athena's Magical Scoop from Sage Goddess and I may write a blog about the experience. Items are intuitively chosen (my guess is that they are put together at random and then put in bags and then a bag is chosen at random from a box)...but it was super fun to get surprises. The Husband gave me a Pink Himilayan Salt Essential Oil Diffuser I've wanted for a couple of years- not expensive but an extra I hadn't indulged in buying. All of my essential oils are old and don't really smell so I need to invest in new ones. The weekend before my birthday we went to the California Science Center, which is free and saw the Spaceship Endeavor. That wasn't even on my bucket list of things to see (I saw Challenger land at Edwards Air Force Base in the 80's and even more disturbing I saw Columbia disintegrate in the California sky) but it was really awesome. There was an almost mystical air to the Endeavor...people spoke in hushed whispers and there was just this sense of awe in everyone. The following weekend I went to the Rosicrucian Egyptian Museum. I have no idea how it happened. The Husband had to put a lot of miles on a test vehicle and it was the right distance. I forgot he doesn't like anything to do with Egypt. While very rushed and a bit miserable...just to see Egyptian artifacts and actual mummies (and they have a lot) was incredible. They also have the recreation of a tomb with a partially opened sarcophagus that my daughter loved. That was pretty much my last "likely to happen" bucket list items...every other goal is sort of in flux and if they happen they happen...if they don't I'm good too. Again, there was this mystical energy where everyone spoke in reverential hushed tones. I'd love to go to the Greek Islands and tour the ruins of the temples but the one legitimate opportunity to do that was thrown out the window when the Husband convinced me to use the money for our Honeymoon to buy the Harley Davidson Motorcyle he always wanted. I also agreed to to go to the Husband's best friends 4th of July party. I did so because it was the one time I could actually see us swimming as a family. Michelle, our oldest, loved it. If we had a pool she would be in it every day (I wanted to buy a house with a pool- not to mention in a good school district- but the Husband's main focus was a house with enough rooms so he could have one dedicated to his music equipment). Anyways, that's where one of the challenges of the last Moon Cycle happened. To me it was a victory but for my husband it was devastating. As usual, as soon as I agreed to go to the party that's where the Husband's mind was and I knew my birthday was going to take a back seat. He was asked to bring something with fruit and he decided to make the traditional blueberry jello salad dish his mom made every Thanksgiving. I've never liked it and suggested something else he bit my head off so I let it be. He couldn't find the right Jello and he went to every store imaginable trying to find it. He put a lot of effort into making that thing with a lot of love for them which is pretty sad considering what happened. In a nutshell, this is what happened. We were in the pool and my eldest daughter said she needed to use the restroom. The Husband got her out if the pool, dried her and himself off and went into the house to the restroom. When they came out I really had to go and totally forgot to dry off. On the way back out I saw the very drunk (she is an alcoholic) hostess (the Husband's Best Friends Wife) wiping up the water. I told her it was me and I was sorry. She proceeded to go outside and scream at everyone not to come into her F'n house wet. She yelled about it for quite awhile and having already told her it was me and being a shy introvert I thought she was publicly shaming me. A grandma was there (at least in her eighties) and she could fall, the hostess screamed. Fast forward, my eldest is worn out and sucked into the YouTube kids app on mumy phone. The youngest is so tired she keeps falling every time she stands which is still a newish thing for her (she's mastered standing but hasn't realized she can walk yet). My main point of coming to the party, to swim, has been accomplished and I'm ready to leave. The Husband is sprawled out on the couch in the living room staring into infinity in exhaustion. I go into the kitchen that's attached to the dining room to pull our daughter's bottle out of the fridge. The Hotess and three other guests (her mother, her mother's boyfriend and a sympathetic female) are at the table and every few moments she screams toward the living room. where my husband and young children are, "Don't come into my house f'n wet." Then after screaming at the living room she would say to the three people at the dining room table with her, "It was him, f'n him, I hate him." I realized she was blaming my husband and that she was throwing this hateful energy at him and the kids. I hadn't even realized that he and my oldest daughter had gone into the house right before me and...being that she hates him she blamed him for the mess and had someone to take her rage out on. So, I went into the dining room, walked right up to her saying, "...it was me," she went to yell at the living room again so I caught her chin and said, "....look at me. I am the one who came into this house without drying off not him. It was me." Her eyes rolled around (boy was she drunk) but I held her chin firmly. She told me I should have peed in the corner of the yard in front of everyone and that's what she does. I told her that was gross and I didn't need to know that and pointedly said, "It was a mistake, people make mistakes, I'm sorry." Like the good Christian that she is (she's made it clear she doesn't like the Husband on a few occasions because he's not Christian) she said nothing. No words of forgiveness passed her lips. More then likely no one has called her on her bullcrap in her life or confronted her to her face or perhaps accepted blame. Not long after the Husband was happily bragging about his job outside (total change of energy after she was done throwing that negativity at him) and his best friend stepped out of the Dining Room rolling his eyes as the Hostess yelled something at him. I informed him that my drama meter was full and we would probably leave soon. I went out, told the Husband I was ready to go because the littlest was refusing to take her nap and was acting punch drunk. In the car I told The Husband what had happened (I call him Mr. Oblivious when he's with friends) he was genuinely upset. His feelings were really hurt. I always got the vibe (but I'm sensitive to it and he's not) that he hated her and she hated him. I didn't realize how much she hated him or that he honestly had no clue. I guess it is a bit crushing to find out someone hates you. I've been rejected so many times and been in positions of authority that I really don't care if someone hates me. For me, it changed nothing. I forgave our hostess for being an open wounded being that spews her energetic shrapnel everywhere and tries to drink it away. Something I knew was just out in the open now. I really didn't think it was a big deal. He called up his best friend (they've been best friends and been there for each other through thick and thin since high school) and they spoke. His best friend had no idea it had happened (he'd been outside) but the Husband isn't sure he wants our kids around a woman that hates him. That didn't occur to me and I get that one. For her part, as we left she was sorry to see us go saying we'd miss the fire works. I gave her a kiss on the cheek and reminded her I don't like people and I'd had my fill for the day. The fire seemed to have left her. Maybe she found some healing after keeping that rage bottled up for so long. There was a Facebook comment from the Husbands Friend on a couple of pircutres I shared to celebrate fourth of July and a couple of replies and the Husband floated the possibility of the Best Friend babysitting... Then the moment I knew was coming (as it does every July) when the Husband dropped the hammer. No more allowance for me for awhile and no extras. The budget was in the red so we can't afford to go anywhere or eat out or buy extras. I had been expecting this...it happens at this time of year every year. I never paid much attention to it before the girls were born. As I really wanted to celebrate Michelle's birthdays in a big way and it became obvious the Husband was not capable of compromising on his minimalist view of birthdays it actually caused me to have breakdowns. Prior to the eldest being born I was happy just kind of floating along in life catching the crumbs he threw me but now that I'm responsible for someone else...everything changed. When I was working Full Time I didn't have time to spend money or really think of why I felt our relationship ship felt a little off. I didn't realize how dominate and controlling he was...in a way I have to be with an Alpha because I have such a strong personality. I think I'm more of a Beta like most women (although, since I was called out for that in the dream where I was given my spiritual name maybe my true essence and nature is Alpha...in many ways my Soul Story that I remember is a bit more like the story of Lilith- where I refused to submit and directly disobeyed what had been a subtle rule). When I went to a therapist after Lilith-Ann died and I tried to explain why I was so angry with the Husband I couldn't name it and the Therapist was absolutely no help. She told me I was focusing on materialistic things but I really had no context to describe what I felt and being someone who hates emotions processing all of it was overwhelming. Anyways, since I anticipated the husband to lay down the law and I plan for the long time (although, I didn't expect him to go so controlling and cut me off completely even to the point he won't buy the sugar free soda anymore lol- when the bulk cost of my food is around $50 a month between the salad I eat each day and the Keto meal replacment shake it's a bit ridiculous, although, he commented, "Impressive," and I have lost four pounds on this diet so far) I bought everything I wanted. I'm relieved we won't be going to so many places. We were being excessive. Which I expected since this happened to me the last time there was a Taurus North Node. I always get grabbed by this transit, as Acuyta Bhava Das calls it. I checked his astrological chart to see why Saturn always has a big effect every July during Cancer season. Well, his Saturn is in Cancer, go figure. I also checked in March when he is usually very unforgiving and dominant and there was Black Moon Lilith. So, he gets grabbed by Saturn every July and by Lilith every March. Such is the life of someone with an undicisiplined life that pays not attention to astrology. This is the big year of spending with birthdays. I wanted to make the littlest ones Birthday special and unique buying her unique decorations instead of using the ones I bought for her older sister. I also wanted to make the eldest birthday special by adding a few things I hadn't before (balloons and cake topper decorations). Plus I wanted to make sure both had plenty of presents. That way if only a very few show up for the littlest ones birthday she won't compare her birthday to the photo book of older ones Birthday where she received so much. At the same time, I don't want the eldest to feel as though she reveived a lot less then her little sister. In other words, this is probably the most I'll ever spend on birthdays. I did it incrementally so it wasn't so noticeable. Next year, maybe, we will get each two presents as he wishes. Actually, he prefers one, as his parents did for* him but I want to buy each a book every birthday. One of the highlights of this Moon Cycle was when the eldest, during our daily video for my father and her grandpa, told grandpa, "Mama knows I love books..." Reading her a stack of books and a book every night and making up bed time stories (the Five Wands story to teach her about the five elements) has paid off big dividends. As I'm 40, she will be 4. Four is the number for Order but it is also considered the number of a "new thing" or "new cycle" as before it comes the Creator (1), and the combination of the Masculine and Femi ine (2 and 3) resulting in the "New Thing." Funny enough, the littlest one is turning 1 and the Husband is turning 47 which breakds down to 11. Seems as though a new cycle is beginning for all of us. My Obi Wan series review will be coming along at the start of next month. After that will be my Ms.Marvel review which I adored. Iman Vellani is officially my favorite actress in the MCU (Elizabeth Olsen being a close second) and I have to say that actually makes me excited for The Marvels Movie, I love Teyonah Parris as well, but I think the Husband would prefer to lose an appendage then see that movie (something I think all Alpha Males have going on...and he is an Alpha which is why the Best Friends wife probably hates him, after all his best friend is more Beta.I mean if I realized that I was becoming a rare part of the species when I had dominated the culture for thousands of years I would feel a bit threatened too). I may even take a little preview of the movies next year to see if a theme is apparent. I'm curious where the energy is heading. As things are being shut down in my life (I doubt that it will remain that way) I may not get out to the theater for a while so it may be mostly Disney+ shows. Amazingly, I think things are becoming even more seperated and divided because people are tuning into only specific entertainment services. Anyhow, let's hope that the energy of this month is not too destructive. References: Perakis, Athena. (2021) Sage Goddess. www.SageGoddess.com Victor, Arisa. (2009) High School Astrolgoy. Fraternity Of The Hiddne Light. Carson,James and Sams, Jamie. (1999). Medicene Cards. St. Martins Press New York, Ny. Hoffman, Edward. (1998) The Hebrew Alphabet A Mystical Journey. Raincoast Books. British Columbia Dobin, Rabbi Joel C. (1999). Inner Traditions International. Rochester Vermont Callahan, Kathy. (2010). The Path of the Medicene Wheel. Trafford Publishing. BC Canada. Lembo, Margaret Ann. (2013) Crystals, Minerals, and Stones. llewellyn. Woodbury, MN Lotterhand, Jason. (1989) Thursday Night Tarot. New Castle Books. Los Angeles California I want to focus on the Collective and then move to what's been happening on my personal level. We have now faces the Uranus (Sky) in Taurus (Earth) conjunction with the North Node where the future of humanity, perhaps even it's survival, is at the forefront. Overall, major countries with large populations- China and the USA among them- are experiencing a major population declines where current generations will not be able to shoulder the financial burden of the older generations. On top of that the Testerone levels in males is rapidly dropping. Testerone could be said to be a factor in why young men are the primary part of the population that commit violent crime. This really bears the question if humans are coming into a more cooperative time as primatologist and anthropologist Rirchard Wrangham explains that in populations of Monkeys when the Beta and even Gamma (highly unmotivated members of the geoup) are more prevalent the entire group thrives: https://youtu.be/RYSvCb14JjU Should we be resisting the change to a more Green Policy that views humans as a plague on the Planet? According to Peter Leyde , the "Green" solar and wind industry appraoch of California has been "mastered" and is being rolled out across the world. Nevermind that here in California we've been told that expensive prices and rolling blackouts will be normal- inevitably leading to the deaths of citizens at high usage times when heat waves hit and in states with blizzards. The people behind themselves are patring themselves on the back as Hero's saving the world while dealing death to ordinary people. Even Biden acknowledges we are in transition as he doubles down on Oil Policies that are driving inflation and blaming the old scapegoat of the Greedy Business People- whether it's Gas Station Owners or Oil Companies- even though their blind allegiance to the Biden Administration created a falsely optimistic economy after his election. He truly believes that it is a neccesary evil to make the life of an average citizen miserable to push people into electric vehilces even as subsidized Tesla abaolutely fails to keep up with demand because of chip shortages make it the worse time to make such a push. https://youtu.be/NUf58QEqauU Meanwhile, Europe is literally burning (as California usually does in the summer) https://youtu.be/HuTPhyFl7r0. On top of being of fire Farmers across Europe are protesting as Green Policies make Farming either impossible or next to impossible which will lead to more famine: https://youtu.be/jn86w3WXg9g While in Sri Lanka that disastrous government was toppled by Insurrectionists (carefully called protesters) after forcing their entire country to try organic farming with a snap of their fingers and no preparation leading to crazy inflation and famine. The resutling "revolution" will lead to even more death: https://youtu.be/1m9eGhCfWHM While the War in Europe's bread basket, Ukraine, continues after Western Leadsrs make it clear that they don't want the war to end. https://youtu.be/Y4N_a-dS7vM At the same time, Boris Johnson resigns after several scandals and the press turns on Biden setting him up to be removed from power as soon as possible as people around the world continue to mock his geriatric gaffes: https://youtu.be/5mYDyxMDwaw and https://youtu.be/JnD-GtWlj7E New York is issuing a public bulletin on how to survive a nuclear blast...which you can't as you will be vaporized. Greg Gutfields team reaction is hilarious: https://youtu.be/3QRKjxotiIE Meanwhile, to my great surprise the institution posed to fall the hardest is the Nihilistic College Athiest Cult- members of which currently run the Democratic Party- as, similar to ignoring the lure of Credit Card Debt, now that society has caught onto their fraud, will probably drop significantly in relevance and use. Once lauded as a neccesity things are posed on the average person turning against that system on every level of society...mainly because their Isolated Echo Chamber Desk Flying jobs have led them to the dead end of the Trans-nightmare (where fairly unindiviuated souls ill adapted to human life that took an incarnation to be a part of this incredible moment are rejecting gender classifications). The world seems to be in chaos. The leaders pusing for endless war seem to be falling sheerly based on their own personal ineptitude. Change is definitely in the air. Personally, I'm watching with popcorn in hand hoping things will not get too horrible for the average citizen like me. I don't think that it will and I look to heaps of information in the Spiritual Archives- mostly future life teatimony- as a beacon of hope. The one thing all future life experiences report is that there is a far smaller human population on the planet and they give a variety of reasons. No one seems to agree on how the population dwindled so quickly but all were in agreement that it had. As Bashar said, the last of the violent aggressive energy is acting out (hence the year of villains- 2021) because it will no longer be supported energetically by the Earth (Dolores Cannon called this New Earth and Ascending to 5D consciousness). So, we know where we are going. The foundation of how we are going to get there is obvious. Hopefully it will not include nuclear strikes...with Ukraine as a proxy war and the a turn primarily in Europe instead of a civil war in the United States John Tutor style...it seems we are still on the least painful timeline for that rapid de-population. After looking at this stones meaning I've decided to call it the Heart's Phoenix Stone.
Pink Opal is a Heart Chakra Stone that helps us open up to receiving love again. This is a stone that helps people heal their heart and hope again. This a great stone for someone to carry aftera break-up. Collective Level Meaning All of us need hope. Things are bleak right now. A lot of people are running low on enthusiasim. 2012 was a bust and 2020, that everyonw thought would be a game changer but a lot wrongly thought it would be a positive game changer (happy people hardly ever change, there is a reason the Tower Card represents Awakening). We thought we had seen the worse with Coronavirus. I've been on the planet when there was mass famine before (the Crusades) and I looked around at all these young souls freaking out because they were scared to leave their homes for fear of catching a cold and I thought to myself, "You haven't seen nothing yet." Uranus conjunct the North Node in Taurus is creating a lot of chaos (I'll cover this in the upcoming New Moon Blog). The last few years, Coronavirus, BLM Riots, now Global Famine, Ukraine War, and forced "Enviromentally Friendly" nihilistic laws where the government chooses to put in place systems that will lead to the death of humans in a bid to "save nature" or "save the planet." Yet, this stone says that there is heart healing available. This stone suggests as a Collective we need to be more loving to one another- whether they hold the same beliefs or not and perhaps even more loving if they hold different beliefs. Will something happen that will being Hope appear in August? Perhaps. We are just at the start of the Uranus Chaotic Transformation...or transition. I've had issues sitting down and writing this blog. Years ago, when I still looked at the Tarot and much of the esoteric with shiny superstitious eyes I was a bit addicted to Tarot. In particular, I used a website called Lotus Tarot...and The High Priestess was the "calculated" Court Card for me...so I've Mediated a lot on this card over the years and the meaning is the most apparent to me.
In my fantasy world I could have a plenty of time to myself to work on this. I'd take my time to indulge in a deep experience with each card. I thought a month would be enough...but that's not a reality with young children and an old fashioned husband. At the end of the day I would gladly take the latter over the former as the experience has taught me just as much as the Spiritual Path. The High Priestess, simply put, is the Hive Mind- the Queen Bee- of the Collective Unconscious and Subconscious. We partitioned off the part of us that is always connected to the Creator, the Collective and all that is so we can develop our individuality rapidly. Lotterhand refers to this as, "Cosmic Mind stuff," in other words she is the Cosmic Mind to which all of us are a part. Her blue robes are a waterfall that flow through all of the Tarot...fueling the entire Water Suit of the Minor Tarot. The most similar Tarot Card is the Fool, with the white sun (a term used for Aten by Ahkenaten- which really stood out in the display on the Pharoh at in the Rosicrucian Egyptian Museum in San Jose), doesn't have as much overt representation in the Tarot despite being referred to as "in between and behind" all of thr cards. Reading the different takes on the card was really interesting because it'snot so obvious to other people. So, let's look at what they said... A.E. Waite Waite says that this is the "highest and holiest of the major arcana," (pg 38). He says she has many different names: Shekinah, Binah and Malkuth, the Bright Reflection, the Secret Church, the Second Marriage, and Queen of the borrowed light." In this depiction, and the major difference between this and Case's is the Crescent Moon that the High Priestess stands on. Case says he left this out because it is confusing with the Empress Card. The High Prietess standing in the Crescent Moon, to me, does hint at the Waning Moon Phase. Also, in both Case and Waite The High Priestess holds a scroll that says "Tora" which is the way Torah- the name the Jews give the first five books of the Bible- says it aloud. This is a play on R.O.T.A. that shows up on the World Card which is a rearrangement of the word Tarot. Paul Foster Case He explains that the Hebrew letter Gimel is attached to this card. This letter is mostly associated with the Camel which, as Daniela Abravanel in "The Secrets of the Hebrew Alphabet" represents "nourishment." Referring to the two Pillars and the letter Gimel he explains that this card represents the three rules of categorization, opposites, similarities too, and the same. He also explains that she is identical with the "First Mother" or first matter, that Alchemists also called Virgin Diana. He also says, "Subconscious...the channel of telephonic communication." Blue, he explains, is the color assigned to the Moon and to the element of water. Her blue robes represents moisture while the white reprints cold both associated traits kf the Moon. The Pillars that the High Priestess is between are black and white but in Fosters cards has the Yod on the right white pillar representing the Divine Masculine and the letter Beth is on the left black pillar representing the Divine Feminine. Beth, he says, is Strength. He explains that the High Priestess sits netween the two because, "she is the Equalizing principal." He also points out that the Priestess and the two pillar sit on square bases that represent Salt in Alchemy which symbolizes Physical Material Reality. He also points out that the pomegranates and palm fronds on the veil behind her- similar to the veil separating people from the Holy of Holies in the Jewish Temple- are arranged in the pattern of the Kabbalah Tree of Life. The solar cross on her chest is a symbol of Hecate, represents the union of opposites- originating and duplicates- and the Solar cross is the original form of Tav connecting the High Priestess to The World Card. Collete Baron Reid The Card is Blue only depicting the High Priestesses face reflected in water. There is a black star on her right that looks as though it's reflected in the water and a white star on her left cheek just below her left eye. On her forehead is a crown of a circle with wings- not just on the forehead but flanking both ears. There is the vague reflection of foliage. Below her Visage is the Lunar Disk with a Waxing, Full and Waning Moon similar to the crown that the Waite and Case cards have the High Priestess wearing. Collette says she represents mystery and that, "Some things are not meant to be known intellectually but experienced intuitively...Connection to higher wisdom and tune in to higher Vibes." Pg 4 Light Seers Tarot Here the High Priestess seems to have her eyes closes but on her eyelids there are the light depiction of blue eyes. On her head is a crescent Moon on its side similar to the Egyptian Hathor's. Her clothes are blue but fringed more like Indigenous American clothes and on it is the Solar Cross. There also circles with what looks like red flowers in them on her clothes. She stands in a pillar of pink light or the parting of a curtain. She wears a red beaded necklace. One of her necklaces has a crescent Moon on it too. Chris Ann says that this card represents, "Sacred Insights." She explains, "The Priestess sits on the edge of this realm and the next...tune in to your intuition and submerge your thought into her Subconscious realm." Knock Off Chinese Brand The synonyms listed by this set is, "Secrets, Mystery, the future unrevealed, silence, tenacity, wisdom, and Science. Thursday Night Tarot I will keep Lotterhand's as simple as possible. If you mediatatemeditate on this omeone sentence it will reveal a great deal about the High Priestess. "She is the Divine Mother on the Tree of Life, enthroned in Binah, Root of Water." Pg 35. Additional Thoughts At least all of the cards prominently depict the color blue. In this case, Collette's set is the better depiction, in my opinion, then Chris Anne's. Mystery by far is the meaning of this card for the modern fortune telling. All but Collette acknowledged that this card represents the Subconscious. Each Tarot Card is an aspect of us...and we go through many stages on our evolution and have many aspects. This one, for me, is the most clear cut and obvious. To those who don't understand how the Subconscious works it is a big mystery. Things just seem to randomly manifest. They see themselves as victims of "fate." Most people are completely at the whims of the Subconscious marching in line with the Collective without questioning where things are going. When you meditate it becomes clear that thoughts are bubbling up from the Subconscious. We absorb a lot of Subconscious peogramming from our parents, our teachers, the television and peers. When thoughts bubble up from the Subconscious they tend to have those voices and sometimes it's conditioning from Past Lives. After studying esoteric traditions you learn that through ritual you can "program" the Subconcious. I remember sitting at the only Edgar Cacye conference that I attended. The woman who sat down next to me told me she didn't work with her dreams. I told her that dreams are a direct line to the Higher Self. I was shocked she had no idea. Of course, the dreams are a little bit like the game of telephone. A part of us is always "in Spirit" connected to the Hive Mind. We partitioned that off and intentionally forgot about it so we could experience the Illusion of Seperation and have autonomy. The High Priestess represents the entire Collective/Hive Mind (similar to a Queen Bee)-Binah (Wisdom), a Sephiroth that sit's near the top of the Kabbalah Tree of Life- and our personal "reflection" (Individuated Unit of Consciousness- a Thomas Campbell term) is Malkuth (Kingdom) at the root of the Tree of Life. When we dream we experience/commune with that "in Spirit" aspect. Since most project the human experience and expectation on the interaction- expecting to be told directly- and our Spirit Aspect speaks in the telepathic/symbolic language of the Hive Mind Collective...consisting of "data packets" (a Robert Monroe term) of Archetypes or experiences...luckily the Collective does have an understanding of these Archetypes going all the way back to Egypt who's language was the written form of those Archetypes. For those who know how to work with and "program" (after de-programming the unhelpful material) of the Subconscious there are immense benefits. That is, essentially, spiritual work. The High Priestess, in many ways, represents the Sleeping Goddess that hundreds of stories around the world tell and is even hidden in a story about Jesus. We have the power to resurrect her within ourselves. However, only when we are ready to recognize what Edgar Cacye referred to as, "Know thyself as thyself and yet One with the Creator." That she represents water is interesting. Our mind usually starts off like a conditioned "rock" (a Buddhist term) much like ice. When we start meditating our mind becomes more flexible as we work to identify our adaptable personal truth (to adopt a truth and hold firm to it is to make the mind a rock once more- resolidified in another unfulfilled form) and dismiss conditioning from others. As we let go of more and more pre-conceived notions it can the mind can become like a pleasing vapor...like your favorite essential Oil or Incense...tbag naturally attracts what you need like a bee to honey. Science is another term that came up- not just in the knock off brand of Tarot cards but also in Paul Foster Case's book- which is interesting. That is something I'm not sure entirely makes sense but I did want to note that idea did come up twice. Perhaps, it is because by studying anything in Physical Material Realm (Thomas Campbell Term) we are studying The High Priestess as she is the foundation upon which all material is formed. Conclusion The High Priestess is a profound aspect of our inner self. She is a mystery to those who do not understand her and, rightly, fear her. Those who work with her reap immense rewards. The old Christian saying goes, "The Lord works in Mysterious ways." The High Priestess is the one who provides that Mystery. In Psychology, the self-fulfilling prophecy arises from the Subconscious. We act in a way that manifests our life based on the beliefs and ideas that we hold near and dear. That's why working with the Subconscious, especially Shadow Work (disowned ideas, beliefs and potentials) or we are fish being swept by the tide of the High Priestess completely unaware that the "Acts of Fate" that we attracted. References Baron-Reid, Colette. (2017) The Good Tarot. Hay House. Carlsbad, California Case, Paul Foster. (2006) The Tarot. Penguin Group. New York. Lotterhand, Jason. (1989) The Thursday Night Tarot. Newcastle Publishing. North Hollywood, CA Waite, A.E. (2018). The Pictorial Key To The Tarot. Dover Publications. New York. Unknown, Author. (Unknown). A.E. Waite Tarot. Fuxi Cultural & Creativity Co. Ltd. Guangdong, China.
I did not like this movie. I have no idea why people like it.
I really looked forward to watching this movie because it seemed to be a take on the Annunaki. The idea behind human God's living on Earth and interacting with humans was nearly taken directly from Zechirah Stitchin's books. However, I didn't like the acting. I didn't like the storyline that was sloppy and seemed impressed with itself. I didn't feel that this movie added anything to the Marvel World or that it really fit into the MCU. I think people reacted to the concept of the God's walking among us and being mortal. That seemed to be the "new concept" people approved of but it fell flat with me. The movie was gorgeously shot. Collective Conscious Level People are ready to think of the Gods in a new way and this movie is the start of that. We are in an evolutioary period determining our societal values. This is happening on many levels and mWell, upon looking at this blog I discovered that I put the Leo Full Moon from August information into this blog instead of the Capricorn Full Moon for July. I have no backup for what I originally wrote. Therefore this blog will be entirely written in the now, instead of a year prior and, as such, I will only focus on major aspects because I don't have the time to run through every planet and what that means.
This chart is balanced- there are about as many negative aspects as positive. The biggest thing in this chart is the Uranus and North Node Conjunction in Taurus. This is the aspect that is really toning the entire year. This is what 2022 is all about and it is now in full swing. Uranus, the boundary pushing chaotic planet is driving us forward into the Aquarius New Age. This aspect literally represents the uniting of heaven and earth. Uranus met sky and Taurus represents Earth. This is absolutely fascinating as it is the Earth and Sky that are said, in many myths, to be the first combination of the masculine and feminine in Creation Stories around the world. That it is birthing a new phase in human reality is evident. (Not surprisngly headlines right now are all about chaos at the airpots, chaos in the Biden administration, chaos at the border, chaos in the schools over the transgender stuff, etc. What is interstings is that The Sun, Moon and Mercury are all in supportive aspects to Uranus (sextiles and a trine) and the North Node. Our Conscious, Subconscious and mental faculty/thoughts (the medium that connects the two really) are in support of this chaotic growth. The next big aspect that I see right off is that Mercury is conjunct the Sun in Cancer- the sign of The Mother. Black Moon Lilith isn't far off but she is not a part of the conjunction. Our Minds and waking Consciousness are on Mothering (not surprisingly the term Mother is in the news alot as Liberals try to get rid of the term). Then we have the Moon conjunct Pluto...so subconsciously we are really focused on endings. We have Venus in Gemini squaring Neptune in Pisces. Again, the feminine versus the Collective. Our Heart is getting stuck in the details as Group Think seems to be prevailing. At the same time, the Sun, Mercury and Moon in Cancer seem to be siding with Neptune on this one as they are in supportive aspect. Chiron, meanwhile, is in a bad place in Aries. He is square the Sun, Moon, Mercury and Black Moon Lilith. Right now we are really not interested in healing...instead it's as though we are pulling the scab off the wound...which can, sometimes, be the best thing if it is seriously infected. Oracle Stone: Emerald I promise that I pulled this stone at random but it does continue the lucky energy of 7's that this month represents. This stone just doesn't represent lucky, it's supposed to attract lucky or synchroncity. I'm not someone who stores a lot of faith in lucky talismans or luck in general...I like sure bets as opposed to wishing and hoping for things. Their are a ton of human activities that require luck- job interviews, for example. Further Thoughts I can't go into this very much but what we are seeing fall apart, rapidly, is the Liberal new World Order. The Liberaly New World Order actually goes back to World War Two and Joe Biden, five years ago was talking about it in regards to Russia. He was saying that Russia was doing things that was getting rid of the Liberal New World Order and he considered that dangerous...interestingly, at that time Hilary Clinton was talking about War With Russia (that's what she primarily talked about when running for election which seemed bizarre to most people). Trump threw off the entire Liberal New World Order agenda of War with Russia, which is why they hated him so much, and actually brought peace. (https://youtu.be/VrJFznxm(https://youtu.be/EivefwSAwqs). Now that people can see what 'back to normal' means I think it's being rejected on every level. The narrative is falling apart so fast that it's actually really fun to watch. As Biden goes blindly ahead with the Green Agenda by trying to transform the energy industry its causing even more chaos because that stuff isn't ready...it's a faulty product (the scientists who promoted the Climate Change agenda are no different then those who say that all of us should get Coronavirus vaccines every six months- they were creating funding for a new industry that just wasn't and still isn't viable). The bizarre emphasis on women this year and Mothers in particular is fascinating. From the Baby Formula shortage, to the reversal of Roe vs Wade, to tampon shortages to the LBGTQI+ communit suing to get rid of the word "Mother" in favor of the term "Birthing Persons" (Bill Maher's reaction to this is absolutely my favorite, although, I don't have the time to find that video). Either way, even the most liberal people I know are now against the Liberal New World Order. With 80% of the nation saying that we are going in the wrong direction and only 70% disapproving of Biden's Administration....the Libreal New World Order is Dead...that seems to be the message of the United States Pluto Return....the Collective is rejecting the bizarre covert world Empire and US World Police. Meditation I'm finally 40 years old. Most people, generally, agree that this is old. I just see it as an age of Maturity but as an old soul that always felt trapped and judged by my young body I'm happy to finally be considered mature. I find it funny that this was a pretty important age for me yet those close to me have no idea. My mother is far too busy doing whatever she's doing in Texas, the in-laws are absorbed in the tragic rapid decline of the MIL, and the kiddos are not old enough to understand. Since I'm not on Social Media none of my aquaitancnes, which all of my friends have become because I just don't have the time or energy to keep in contact, have an idea that 40 was a big deal to me. Not even my husband had a clue, he's so busy with his own concerns there is no point in bringing it up. Whenever I bring up the topic of my age he brings up his as a one-up-ment type of statement- he's 47 so he's been in his forties for awhile. To him it's not a big deal. After a bizarre weekend (I'll cover it in the next post) he just handed me the bag with my presents in it with no ceremony or even grace really...just as though it were an afterthought adding, "I might as well give this to you now, since if we wait until tomorrow it would just be after work, and you'll have to wait for your cards until then because I haven't bought them yet." Part of the reason I don't bring it up to them is because I've learned they probably won't understand...just as they don't understand 95% of what I talk about when it comes to spirituality. My mother prefers gossip (when she found out what happened on 4th of July she called me three days in a row to find out what happened...which was nothing much) and the Husband is so staunchly in the "impossible to know anything 100% for certain" that he won't even consider the possibility of computers becoming sentient because he believes consciousness arises from organic brain material. I think it's funny the biggest and most enjoyable birthday party I had was at 30, in 2012. But I was celebrating graduating from college as well as that milestone birthday. Back then I had tons of friends and life was just so different...I was happy and felt accomplished but not peaceful. I know some people break down at this stage. This is where people have mid-life crisis. The Husband had a bit of one but the year he turned 40 was the year we lost Lilith-Ann so his birthday was drowned out by that tragedy. That's a year I took a very different route in life then him as I stepped firmly onto my Spiritual Path. I can honestly say I am happy to be forty. My Great Grandma lived to be 105...by that estimate of life I still have 65 years of life ahead of me. I don't know why people feel as though a door closes on them at this age. True, most make it to just 70 but that's still thirty more years...another life time based on life estimates just a hundred years ago. I know The Husband when he hit 40 started to 'act old' and 'feel old.' He complains a lot about sleep and recently has experienced a lot of vertigo (I think that has to do with stress from work and responsibility). He's also modified his diet a lot...for good or for ill. I'm curious to see if I notice a difference. If I could describe my state of mind with one word it would be...Acceptance. I accept myself and the human condition on so many levels...and it's brought about a deep inner peace. I accept that the nature of Earth or Human life is constant change. That constant change creates a lot of suffering for people who keep building up life in a certain way hoping it will never change. Yet, when you learn to work with it instead of against it that change becomes a huge blessing. You know when things are going bad, that they are destined to get better, and if they are going good that it won't last forever so you take the time to actually enjoy it. I accept that the purpose of being a spiritual being having a human experience is to experience a "compressed learning experience" (to use a Robert Monroe term) to become an individualized being in order to, "Know thyself as yourself and yet One with the Creator," as Edgar Cacye described it. I accept that in Spirit we have Hive Mind- a conscious group awareness/Collective Conscious- and that part of incarnation is to create a veil between that and our Individuated Unit of Consicousness (a Thomas Campbell term)- and that people really struggle without that Hive Mind falling back into Group Think over individuality because it's more comfortable. I accept that most souls find human life really uncomfortable and painful because of the rule set that requires them to forget who/what they truly are to the point where many believe they are thier body and will die with the body. Most of the angst people express stems from this fear creating belief. I accept that most people, not understanding the purpose and value of the human experience as it is, reject the world as it is and want to create it in their own image of "good" or a "utopia" creating fear and suffering. I accept that most people (the majority) are stuck on survival mode or live just for the thrill. They live extremely superficial self-gratifying lives and will never develop a deeper sense of self or attain self-actualization/individualization in this life. They pretend to care about the Collective but really only care about how the Collective inhibits their own experience. I accept that most people don't comprehend that the only thing they have responsibility for and control over is themselves and their personal lives...and that nothing outside of that which directly effects them is really their business. I accept that most people are addicted to tuning in to addictive Collective Misery (aka the news) because it's exciting. I accept that most people have a one way relationship with the Collective and each other. They want to be accepted as a part of it but they don't want to be accepting or compassionate. In other words, they want the Collective only to reflect and validate themselves (made in their own image). Which is a neccesary part of the individualization process indicating they are not fully individualized souls. I accept that concepts like self-actualization (another term for individualization) have been hi-jacked by young poser souls because no one wants to feel left out or unimportant or less evolved. I accept that I'm unique and no longer have an interest in the same things as unindividualized souls. I accept that there is no knowledge that I can bring forth into this world that would "fix" the experience or create mass change. I realize all souls who have tried to do that simply brought more suffering to those who are here. I accept that I only receive glimpses of Soul Activity to keep me encouraged on the Spiritual Path but that my focus should be on my physical incarnate life. Focusing too much on the Spiritual Activiry would lead to slower progression and I would miss out on the development/experiences that only occur in physical life. I accept most souls are focused on creating or having the "perfect life" and a plethora of experiences which is why they keep incarnating. The Husband, for example, once told me something bizarre...he wanted to learn absolutely everything there is to know about Earth. I saw education/degree as a means to an end...he saw it as something else. I accept that part of the agreement we make when we incarnate as human beings is that our emotional energy is harnessed for another realm. I don't know what that means but I've encountered it in a few places- the Annunaki and in Monroe's book where it essentially breaks down to love. Love being something that souls in other experiences don't really understand or conceive. Accepting That I'm Different and Don't Desire To Belong I really had a hard time with this my entire life. People told me I should have a need to belong and a need to have friends. To be different, an outsider or outcast in humanity often led to death in the past of human civilization. These days it doesn't really matter. We don't really have to depend on a group of other individuals in our personal lives to survive. I remember being in pre-school and watching the other kids. I've always been able to "download" information from other people. I could see the potential life paths those kids could take and their personality. I had no idea that other people couldn't download information from other people without talking to them until I was in my thirties. Then I came across the empath information...and even though what I do is considered more "psychic" I realized that I was not a part of the majority. When I'm in a crowd I download so much information that it's overwhelming. I didn't have a reason or understanding for this until I read Rober Monroe's book, "Far Journeys," recently and so much clicked. Most people don't practice good energetic hygiene on Earth. They don't know that they are broadcasting their energy at 100% volume to those who are sensitive to it and that it's overwhelming. As a child my Mom (and some teachers) tried to convince me that I needed to have friends and participate in groups. I never liked doing that because it was so draining. I really thought something was wrong with me but I understand myself now and that I was protecting myself which was a very loving thing to do. On July 4th I was tested to see if I really 'got' this lesson and (as far as I'm concerned) I passed with flying colors. Dreams/Soul Activity I could really go deeper and go off on many tangents but I simply don't have the time at the moment. My three year old is in need of attention and it's unlikely that I'll have any significant time to myself for awhile. The Husband is really focused on going somewhere every weekend (a very Saggitarius Rising thing to do and the trait I found most attractive about him) and focused on his side project of fixing the axle on our Jeep. Finally, I still find deep meaning in the dream of my current state of mind as a house with a 360 degree view. The house could be closed up as needed for defense and was capable of crossing over to the other side if needed for a different perspective. In that dream I had "planted" a beautiful future for myself (symbolized by a gorgeous front yard that I had decorated with plants) and had a lot to look forward too. Also, in last night's dream I was in a group class and commented that I was going to "walk out" if things became too emotional because, "That's what I would do in real life," and a male member replied, " That's okay. This is a pointless exercise anyways." That's a big change in my dream scape/ soul attitude. I feel that's where I'm at perspective-wise. I see most Earthly Activity as a pointless exercise. I love Earth, I love and appreciate every aspect of the human experience, and I think the "compressed education" giving rise to rapid individualization is an extraordinarily important and valuable part of soul evolution. The idea that the Earth School might change (which is a given) makes me sad. I love it just as it is now although, I understand that souls in the experience are suffering and addicted. So the change that is predicted by many sources where the Earth is inhabited by a very small population is needed (that's an entire blog in and of itself). As Brian Weiss describes, everyone sees that in the distant future, and no one knows how the de-population happened or gave different reasons...as though reality broke apart so each person experienced differently with some describing Nuclear Events, some Natural Disasters, etc. I remember how betrayed and how horrified I was when I contacted/awoke to my Higher Self and realized that on a soul level I viewed Earth as Disneyland (I can't believe Monroe wrote about such a perspective in the eighties) and generally didn't seem to care that on an individual life personal level how miserable suffering was...just having a "new" and different experience was exciting no matter the content...kind of like not discriminating between types of movies- just wanting to watch and experience all of them including Horror. These days I get that...I get that immature soul perspective. On a soul level I still feel really young and immature. Where I come from, soul wise, a dream of which I had several weeks prior to reading Monroe's book (where he learns where his soul came from) souls were individuated and male/female (Monroe experience was very different) and was very illuminating. There I was still very immature. There were male and female, something bigger then me (the cat like female energy being that was very happy that I was 'Seeking' it) and quite frankly it was a lot more interesting then Earth. I know I fled that realm of reality into the energy system that housed Earth because I had done something forbidden, that they thought I was gone forever and didn't understand where I had gone. I realized that the only things that had kept me from 'going home' was the fear of judgement that had caused me to run away, become lost within the cycle of Reincarnation and trying to get 'human life right.' Conclusion My Spiritual Path has led me to a place of deep acceptance, maturity and self-acceptance. Have I aced the "classroom" of human experience, perhaps? I propose that it really isn't a class that has to be "passed." That the only judge of when we've learned/experienced enough is our soul that wants to go on to experience other things in other realms. On a soul level, I deeply feel that is where I am at, and that in other realms I am very immature so there is much growth that happens even after we are done incarnating. As I contemplate the rest of my life it feels a bit like whip cream on top of a latte. Totally unnecessary, but sweet and makes it a bit different from the average cup of coffee...for others the term, "The cherry on top," would probably be a better metaphor (I'm not a big fan of cherry's). That cherry may last several decades or a scant few years. Either way, at this moment I feel satisfied. References: Perakis, Athena. (2021) Sage Goddess. www.SageGoddess.com Victor, Arisa. (2009) High School Astrolgoy. Fraternity Of The Hiddne Light. Carson,James and Sams, Jamie. (1999). Medicene Cards. St. Martins Press New York, Ny. Hoffman, Edward. (1998) The Hebrew Alphabet A Mystical Journey. Raincoast Books. British Columbia Dobin, Rabbi Joel C. (1999). Inner Traditions International. Rochester Vermont Callahan, Kathy. (2010). The Path of the Medicene Wheel. Trafford Publishing. BC Canada. Lembo, Margaret Ann. (2013) Crystals, Minerals, and Stones. llewellyn. Woodbury, MN Lotterhand, Jason. (1989) Thursday Night Tarot. New Castle Books. Los Angeles California This Throat Chakra Stone helps aid communication on many levels. Whether you are seeking the aid of Soul Guides or better day to day communication this is an go to stone.
As an Oracle Stone it means that July will be a month centered on communication. There will be layers of information that we may be clearing but overall a very healing month. Blue Lace Agate is absolutely one of my favorite stones. The soothing and calming effect is one of the reasons I used it post c-section during those first few wild months after bringing our second daughter home. This is the first tumbled blue lace Agate stone that I ever bought and it's one of my favorite to meditate with. For me, Blue Lace Agate invokes the beach on a summer day with blue sky above and blue ocean below. The stone comes from a country in Africa, although, I'm not sure how close the mine is from the beach. The ocean for me, as Cancerian perhaps, is a place of deal healing and purification. I could sit on the beach all day simply listening and watching the ocean waves. Salt, they say, is purifying and so is the heat. I love sitting out on a summer day soaking up the heat. Unlike The Husband I am a total beach bum...as a child I used to sit by the pool all day reading books or I would see just how long I could remain perfectly still floating on the surface (the longest I actually timed was thirty minutes). Even now with the kiddos I have a splash pad, which is a glorified sprinkler but easier to pack in and out then a pool, and I can sit in that for hours under the Mulberry tree in our backyard without a care in the world. Knowing that we also pulled the Clear Quartz stone as an Oracle Stone for the Zodiac season of Cancer and that I saw that as a purifying wave coming into wipe the slate clean... This may be a very emotionally purifying month energetically. I say emotionally because Cancer and water rules emotion. Lembo, Margaret Ann. (2013) Crystals, Minerals, and Stones. llewellyn. Woodbury, MN |
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