(The above image is from one of my favorite video games...Tekken.)
I have to say that this year has been very interesting. I faced challenges I never even imagined. I have been writing this blog for over three years and haven't been challenged. For some reason, when I was at my worst most unbalanced state no one really challenged me. Since I've been at my most confident state...things have been a little different. As a result of the challenges I have faced this year I feel as though I have passed some of the most important tests on the Path of the Seeker. By far, one of the most difficult is facing the people I love most who just can't believe or are not interested in the Path of the Seeker. This year I faced some of my most meaningful critics...and I realized that their judgement did not affect me. This was a surprise because back in 2014 when I felt I had lost everything and threw all caution to the wind to start earnestly seeking without caring about others judgement...if I had faced the judgement that I dealt with this year I would have given up. The Fear of Judgement is what kept me from this path back in the late 90's and in 2007. I know I'm not the only one that finds it difficult to deal with loved ones after a Spiritual Awakening. I'm very lucky that my mother is open minded and supports this unconditionally even if she's not exactly interested in spirituality for the same reasons I am. She's seen how it's benefited me and she's happy for me. I've seen her unfold as a result of her exploring her own spirituality. She's not really interested in the Path of the Seeker but just alternative spiritual practices like Reiki and Holistic Health practices. Most of the people in my life are not interested in the Path of the Seeker. I do struggle with it because sometimes I don't feel supported by my immediate friends and family when it comes to my greatest passion. I have supported others unconditionally but I have not received the same. Since I am such a giver, most of the time, people take advantage and exploit it by volunteering me for things they don't want to do or just receiving my love attention without giving anything in return. Luckily, I find plenty of support online from Francesca Simon who lives on the other side of the country but thanks to Facebook Live is very much a presence in my life. I love watching Victor Oddo's videos because he's usually going through similar circumstances to mine and I have no doubt he's part of my specific soul group. Then there is Colette Baron Reid who has been instrumental in developing this information and who shares her wisdom every week with her Universal Energy Forecast Oracle Card Reading that is usually spot on in ways I can't imagine until I'm meditating on the previous week. Since I've seen the results in my life, the synchronicities stack up and because I've had many things I learned on my own validated by authors of my favorite books of Timeless Wisdom...I have rock solid unwavering faith. I know the Path of the Seeker does work and produces a more satisfying life. That's why, this year, dealing with one of my greatest fears...facing challengers on the Path of the Seeker...were little more then a speed bump (compared to other challenges) but plenty of reason to celebrate. So, let's break down these Challengers I've faced. why I feel they challenged me and how I responded to them so you can have an example of how to deal with these situations in your own life. My Husband He doesn't really pick fights with me over my beliefs, my research, this blog or my YouTube channel. I feature his music at the beginning and end of my videos. So, in some ways he does support what I do but he certainly doesn't believe in any of it or necessarily understand it. I'm not entirely certain he reads my blogs and if he does read them he picks and chooses. We hardly ever discuss them. He tells me that what I believe is strictly New Age...that he studied all of this back when he went to college and decided he didn't believe in it. His most common response when I explain meditation or spirituality is that, "It's good for people who need it." He's seen the remarkable change that meditation has wrought in my life and he acknowledges that but he implies that the reason it works is because...on some level...my mind needs it when his mind does not. He would say that I'm projecting on him...but the suggestion is that my mind is weaker and that it's a weakness to be spiritual. As I've shared before that he had a particularly evil Comparative Religions teacher in college who basically taught him that all religions are frauds that just want money and that religions are based on primitive needs for security in an uncertain world. That teacher taught him atheism and he even converted some people who sought to challenge that belief to athesim before he met me. At the very least, I have helped him move the dial of his thought process from the atheist ant-god stance to the agnostic, "I can't prove or not prove that life after death or a Creator exists so I'm going to try to live my life in a way to treat everyone the way I want to be treated." At the very least he has always lived by the golden rule. He also completely gets the concept of a Subjective Reality which is probably the hardest concept for most people to grasp...that the way we perceive the world is 100% up to us and 100% dependent on our psychology which we can change by applying certain practices. That right there is remarkable but he has an easier time accepting that, as would most atheists or agnosticis, because it's a perspective of the world that doesn't involve a Creator or anything besides PMR (physical matter reality). For the most part, he focuses on physical things and physical results. His passion lies in watching movies so buying a new high definition television and going through our movie collection to criticize the movies that claim to be HD and finding flaws in the graphics is highly exciting to him. As a musician comparing and contrasting recording techniques is one of his favorite passions even though half the time I can't exactly identify what he's talking about. That's just who he is...I support him in pursuing his passions as long as it makes him happy. A Former Friend I have ended many relationships in the last year. Anyone I felt was a negative influence is gone from my life. As I have shared, one of my closest friends ended her friendship with me and because of a dream I didn't even try to save it. Only later did I realize how healthy of a choice that was and realized that she was one of my biggest spiritual challengers. I knew she didn't approve of my alternative beliefs to the point where I never brought them up with her. She wrote blogs in response to some of my assertions dismissing them for various reasons but never spoke to me directly about them. She was very passive aggressive in that way...never openly disagreeing with me and avoiding debates of all kinds...but willing to make public arguments to counter mine. I read them, considered her position, weighed the benefits of continuing to believe as I choose...and still continue to believe the same thing anyways knowing that somehow what I wrote hit close enough to being valid that it triggered a response. I don't disregard anyone's point of view out right.I used to consider event he conspiracy theorists until I realized how important it was to be picky about what you feed your mind...and I realized the effects of even watching those YouTube videos gave me nightmares and made me very discouraged with life. The people who make those videos and arguments are not bad people...they are suffering and have a very fear based life which has obvious negative psychological results- typically a nervousness that repels other people. I have no problem with people disagreeing or even judging me. I don't have to accept the gift of that judgement. At one point she asked me if I thought she was too stupid to understand what I wrote about spirituality. I was taken completely by surprise by this statement because I really try to simplify what I share as much as possible. I don't use the archaic and often expansive or confusing language that you might find in some of my favorite books from the 1930's so it never occurred to me that anyone would be 'too stupid' to understand what I wrote. My mother who is very dyslexic (I am dyslexic too), who couldn't read until I taught her how to read while I was in my teens, and never graduated high school has no problem understanding the concepts that I share the way that I describe them. She's my target audience. The idea that someone with a college education couldn't understand what I was writing or talking about never occurred to me. I don't look down on people who might not 'get' this information...it simply means it's not on their frequency or something they are meant to understand. That just means there is some other teach out there that will resonate with them. Now, I had realized that spiritual pursuits were not her forte. So I didn't bother talking to her about them. I didn't feel that way because she was 'stupid' but because I didn't feel that she was genuinely interested I never spoke to her about spiritual topics because she wasn't open minded. She was an expert on the spiritual concepts she chose to believe in and I didn't feel that playing devils advocate would benefit anyone. At one point she declared in one of the blogs that she, "Needed to find a friend who shared her faith." I knew this was because I wouldn't reinforce parts of her traditional Christian belief system but that stung. Faith is something very different from a belief system, yet for some reason, people get those two concepts confused. Somewhere else she wrote, "Similar but different," I can't remember if it was a card, a blog or a Facebook post...that was when I realized that she had really rejected me but wasn't really ready to let go of the friendship...I also knew it was mostly because I didn't reinforce her typical Christian belief system. Another time, when I stated my belief that she chose her mother while in spirit (she knew that I believed in reincarnation and life in between lives- I let her borrow Journey of Souls by Michael Newton but she returned it unread) she went ballistic. How dare I suggest she chose such a terrible life. I backed off quickly saying that it's simply an empowering belief I choose to believe in and that in no way does she have to accept the idea that she's responsible. I hoped by being an example...to go from being afraid of leaving the house and having PTSD...to healthy, happy and successful would be inspiring. Instead, it just seemed to make her feel worse about herself. She preferred the person with severe mental issues that I was back in 2015 over the healed, happy and whole version that I've become. Sometimes, that happens when one person changes and another doesn't. Who knows, maybe knowing that I had so many issues made her feel superior and better about herself when I first met her? After our friendship ended she made a Vagubooking comment about someone she knew being a, "False Prophet." I knew this was directed at me... I realized this had more to do with our friendship ending and her attempting to make me feel bad. I've never even attempted to say that I am a prophet. That's not something I would claim. That might have hurt when I first met her because I was so uncertain of myself and the Path of the Seeker...but I just laughed and snoozed her profile so I don't have to see her misery. I understand that psychological game very well and I have seen it employed by people who felt disempowered and hurt many times. I know that this is just a passive aggressive way for someone to express their suffering. I don't have to accept the gift of their suffering, however, and bear no guilt for other people making choices that hurt. Just like the comment she made suggesting that I don't, 'have faith,' the very wording of the attempt to make me feel bad missed the mark so horribly that it was funny. I also know that feeling disempowered is a choice in our modern society...there are so many empowering teachings out there...many of which I share...there is no longer an excuse not to develop oneself spiritually or psychologically. I feel terrible that people choose suffering but I also have healthy boundaries and know that's their burden and not mine. As the old saying goes, "You can lead a horse to water but you can't make them drink." I do not have to receive the gift of their misery. As they say, misery loves company and so, often times, those types of people well self-eliminate because they can't stand being around happy people. Miserable people simply can't tolerate happy people because it exaggerates the void within them. I don't identify myself with my 'spiritual accomplishments' if there are any such things or as a spiritual authority. I don't write my blogs on spirituality and make my YouTube videos to inflate my ego. If you look at my Facebook profile it doesn't say 'blogger' or 'YouTuber' as my main job...it says Barista at Albertsons because that is my vocation. I don't make money off of either of these ventures. Although, if YouTube does decide to monetize my channel at some point I will agree. I know that what I have achieved and done spiritually as well as psychologically can be done by anyone. None of this makes me 'special.' I am the first one to admit that I don't know everything and that I am shocked that I found answers because everyone says that's impossible. Like most self-fulfilling prophecies the reason most people believe it's impossible to find the Truth or Answers to our biggest question is because they hold that belief. Nevertheless, that friend taught me a lot...not intentionally...but I am grateful for the experience. I am stronger because of that test of adversity. An Old Friend Now, this one was a bit more of a challenge for me. There was no helpful guide in a dream telling me how to proceed. Someone I very much admire who is one of the most giving, loving and wonderful individuals I have ever met was triggered by my post, "Humanity's Purpose." His point was that the way of the Christian church works and that there was no point in studying other paths. I could tell that reading that post had really challenged something in his belief system. The last thing I want to do is to create an existential crisis (a.k.a. A Spiritual Dark Night of the Soul) in someone for whom their current religion appears to be working. I don't want someone who seems to be happy to hit such a low because something I write resonates with them and causes cognitive dissonance because it doesn't agree with the textbook interpretations of the bible written by people accepted as religious authorities. That is not really the people I write this blog for...I was never fully satisfied or bought into the traditional Christian dogma. I will openly say that when I was Seeking, even though I was baptized...I never found the rest for my soul that Yeshua promised through the textbook religious answers. They rang false and now I consider them poisonous to the human soul. Yet, people choose to read this blog at their own risk. If they find something here that disturbs them or causes cognitive dissonance and existential crisis I have to leave that up to Spirit believing there is a good reason that it happens...the desire not to disturb other people's peaceful spiritual sleep will not keep me from sharing what I have found with others. The best response that I could think of was to say, "If the path you are on makes you happy then it is for you and that is all that matters." His response, sadly, was that he wasn't happy. I shared a few blogs with him and explained that I believed by finding the same Universal Truth among all the religions peace can come to this Earth. He wrote a long reply, 'unpacking,' the information that I had given him and giving the textbook Christian replies. I admit, I became bored and didn't continue to read the reply. The only part that really mattered to me was the fact he admitted he was following a Spiritual Path that did not bring him happiness. I know the reason he continues to follow that path is because of those textbook responses he memorized. Sadly, his devotion to what he had been taught is so strong his mind is simply not open. This saddened me tremendously. There was no point in arguing with him...his cup is already full with textbook dogmatic Christian responses that some pastor thought up and then shared as 'gospel truth.' I love him very much but I realize this information does challenge the old divisions between religion. While what I've discovered is logical most people, when it comes to their spiritual beliefs, are not logical. That's because so much of what people are taught is fear based and exclusive. I accept this fact. I accept that people choose to remain on Spiritual Path's that don't make them happy because they have been taught that human beings are meant to suffer. I honor their choice as it's a reflection of Free Will. My Father The man I was most afraid of being rejected by when I set out on the Path of the Seeker in 2014 finally blatantly rejected my belief system in 2018. He has always been very condescending about spirituality in general. He did not approve of my mother taking us to church because he didn't see a point. At that point, for some reason, he was against it, although, he never really explained why. In his old age, he has become more of a dogmatic Christian then anything else but that's because he identifies himself first and foremost as a Redneck. On July 4th, we were celebrating my birthday. My husband, ever one to enjoy collecting musical instruments, had bought me a set of Three Universal Singing Bowls. I have used them as an active meditation ever sense. I was explaining to my mother that, "They help clear the chakras." My dad nodded at first and then when what I said sunk in stated, "You know I don't believe any of that shit." I shrugged because, yes, I did know that and it didn't bother me. "You know," he continued when he didn't get a dramatic response from me, "I don't read anything you share or watch any of your YouTube videos." I just looked at him serenely and shrugged, "Well, then the information is not for you." His mouth dropped open, "What's that supposed to mean?" "I know other people are finding some benefit out of my work because there are hundreds of people who view my blog every day and there are over a thousand people who've tuned into my YouTube challe. They find meaning in it, just because you don't...doesn't mean that it doesn't have value...it just means it's not for you." He stared at the table for a few moments as though thinking about this and he remained silent as my mom changed the subject. My biggest fear...dealt with so peaceful and in reality such a minor little experience...and, yet, nevertheless a huge indicator of my spiritual maturity. Conclusion When other people challenge your beliefs it does not invalidate them. The idea that if ones beliefs are not accepted by the masses makes them wrong is just a symptom of poisonous Group Think. Often times, these people are just triggered by cognitive dissonance. What they've been taught doesn't work but because it is reinforced by Group Think and Fear they have huge blocks when it comes to considering anything outside of the realm of what they have been raised to believe. Thanks to the Roman Empire the Christian belief system is fear based and it teaches people that if they do not believe exactly what the dogma says they will be punished for eternity. That's a pretty major punishment and I think anyone is justifiably fearful of such a threat...as long as they choose to believe that the One Creator can make mistakes, isn't eternally patient and wants to destroy a part of his Creation. Yet, often times, as I pointed out...these beliefs are not based on logic but emotional responses to these classic dogmatic teachings. When confronted by someone who is suffering in Western Society we have been taught the toxic religious belief that it is our job to take on the burden of their suffering. Yet, that's not what Yeshua taught in Matthew 11:30: "Take MY yoke upon you and learn from Me, for My yoke is easy and My burden is light." Those are his actual words. Not, "I will take YOUR yoke upon me and save you from it..." But, "Take MY yoke upon you and learn from Me." (A yoke is wooden tool often carried on the shoulders so that a person can carry a lot). He says to follow the pattern that he has established to find relief from suffering. He never told anyone he would do the work for them. That's because the idea that you can fix someone's negative behavior patterns for them...transforming their sin to grace...is impossible. That's something Rome completely made up and the Christian Churches that only rejected the Pope's authority kept intact for the purpose of profit. There is a reason Rome forbid people from reading the scriptures and told people they were too stupid to understand them. Even modern Christians hold onto these erroneous poisonous beliefs for no other reasons then tradition and fear. Sin, in the Hebrew tradition...(and, yes, Yeshua was a Jewish Rabbi and he said in Matthew 5:17 he was here to uphold every line of the the Torah not change it)...is an archery term that simply means, "Missing the Mark (i.e. Bullseye)." Not original sin. The idea of the Original Sin is not something you will find in the Hebrew Tradition...it was entirely made up by Rome. Grace, in the Hebrew tradition means, "Hitting the Mark (Bullseye)." No one can do that for you but if you follow the pattern that Yeshua taught....of non-attachment similar to the Buddha (that's why he didn't have a family or a house or a job) and is the true meaning of the statement, "Be in this world but not of it." The actual quote is from John 17:16 is in reference to Yeshua's disciples when he said in prayer: "They are not of the world, just as I am not of this world." Each of us must choose to let go of material attachments which cause suffering and move towards embracing joy...to be in this world but not of it. Final Thoughts For me, personally, I know that my purpose and goal is not directed towards convincing any one person...not even my loved ones...of the validity of my belief system and what I have discovered. I don't desire popularity or even recognition for bringing through these ideas. I just want them to get out there to the populace and when I see someone make a YouTube video or share this information in a more effective way that reaches more people I celebrate! As my soul so eloquently said during my most recent mystical experience...when I had the opportunity to ask any question of this spiritual messenger... "How can I make the Logos of this planet realize that it is one?" A logos of a planet is a the group soul...or the over soul of the planet depending on what term you prefer. This is a subconscious network of communication, Jung called it the Collective Subconscious, created by the beings that choose to incarnate on that specific planet. The reply was simple, "Keep speaking with your beautiful voice." So, no matter what Spiritual Challengers step up to say that my way is not the right way..that I am wrong...that what I am doing is for nothing...that I am affecting nothing...well, I can see the difference. I've received confirmation by spirit many times over that I am making a difference and I know that my intention is absolutely pure. When I first started, and as these challengers show, I had more to lose when looking from a PMR perspective by exploring and putting these ideas out there. Yet, the benefits that I have reaped in my life have been so numerous that I know that while they may doubt me...that doubt and fear has no place in my Subjective Reality Experience. I feel sorry for them that they feel triggered, unhappy or miserable walking their Path...but that is not my burden. I can only be an example that shows a different way and they are more then welcome to reject me. I have heard the call of Spirit and I have answered...as promised I have found Matthew 6:33 to be absolutely true: "But first seek his kingdom and his righteousness, and all of these things shall be added to you." Kingdom...of course, has a much deeper meaning in the Hebrew tradition then any Christian suspects. I highly recommend you check out these two blogs to really understand what Yeshua meant when he referred to the Kingdom, for this information was a secret teaching that Rome attempted to blot out...and is probably what he taught his disciples in secret because the masses were not ready. The Sephiroth Malkuth (Kingdom): https://bridgetkorns.weebly.com/blog/july-14th-2018 and https://bridgetkorns.weebly.com/blog/malkuth-hebrew-letter-meditation Humanity's Purpose: https://bridgetkorns.weebly.com/blog/category/1-humanitys-purpose
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