I received this question in response to my YouTube video on the Self-Fulfilling Prophecy Psychology's Law of Attraction.
That sat me back a little and I had to think about it. My response was that I was very negative a year ago when I posted that video. When I made that video I didn't realize that I presented that idea negatively...especially given how powerfully a self-fulfilling prophecy can change our lives- I thought I was being positive! By that point I was a thousand times more positive then I had been at any other point in my life. I was shocked someone interpreted that video as negative. I thought about it some more and I realized just how gargantuan the amount of negative conditioning that I received throughout my life. Psychology Is Negative As I thought about it I realized part of my negativity was because how the information was taught to me about the self-fulfilling prophecy. I have stated before that there is no attempt in psychology to actually cure people anymore. Instead, the discordant mind is enabled in psychology in the erroneous belief that all of it is a dysfunctional brain a person can't control. However, psychology goes even further. They only diagnose whats wrong with people. They do not identify or reward good healthy behavior at all! They only focus on the negative behavior and what causes negative behavior. The only exception is Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs. Maslow sought to study the psychologically healthy so that psychologists could teach people how to be healthy. Carl Jung also believed that people could be cured without drugs...and he was renowned for curing people with psychological disorders. Realizing that part of what fed into my negativity was one of my degrees was a shock to me! Balancing Earth and Water Apparently, my Higher Self took very seriously the idea of balancing Intellectual Earth and Emotional Water in this life. I came in with the most watery of all water signs- Cancer- and I came in during a Blood Moon Eclipse in 1982 with the Moon's intense emotional energy. I was an extremely emotional child. I had temper trantrums and anger issues. I didn't want to eat anything but french fries. I was extremely stubborn. I also entered a family that was made up entirely of Intellectual Signs. They were all very much in their intellect and little old emotional me was an abnormality. Of course, I immediately got labeled, "The troubled one." My mom called me her, "Trial." Out of all of her children I was the one that worried and embarrassed my mom the most. With Intellectual Capricorn as my rising and moon sign, thankfully, I was able to cope in that environment...and, yet, I married an intellectual in 2010. I realized about 2008 that I needed someone very much grounded in 3D in order to keep my balance. My husband is definitely a 'salt of the Earth' type of guy but he's also capable of deep emotions and luckily doesn't consider me a wacko for having spiritual beliefs...even if he chooses not to agree with them. A Year Of Change I've said that this year was all about change. Yet, I realize, for me, that change started midway last year when I became committed to the plan to ensure that my daughter would be born...against all odds and a couple of doctors flat out telling me it was impossible. Little did I know how much change would come...that I would let go of the last two stubborn attachments that I had made when I was on my own as well as a friendship. I realize now that even a year can change a person and their approach to life significantly. I've been on and off the Path of the Seeker for a large portion of my life. Yet, in this last year I've made the most progress towards being positive and surrounding myself with positive people. I had a lot of negative people surrounding and attached to me that I had to let go of...some were family, some were childhood friends and some were new friends. Even more amazing is that even a year ago if someone had challenged me on the Path of the Seeker I might have folded. I wasn't very certain of myself despite all that I had seen and the undeniable mystical experiences that I've had. This year, however, I was strong enough to resist people putting me down and challenging my beliefs. Even the most negatively influential person in my life, my father, whom I love very much called me a wacko more then once....and I was able to shrug it off! Conclusion I had a lot of reasons to be negative a year ago. I had to overcome negative college programming...and it wasn't just the Psychology Degree but the Masters in Business Administration reinforced an every man for himself fear based mentality. I had a lot of people attached to me that were still negative. A lot of people who were extremely jealous...some of which I think have been jealous of me over multiple life times. People that don't like anyone that is more successful then them because they keep repeating the same negative fear based and dominant attitudes that cause them harm. You can see the change start to take hold around December of last year when I shared that there can be Peace on Earth. I truly believe that and while I believe everyone is worthy of being saved...it's not something that we can do for other people. We an only walk the Path of the Seeker, illuminating the way for others, and it's their choice if they put their feet upon the path or continue to destroy themselves. As long as we given them the choice by living as an example...that is enough. I'm curious why the karmic slate is being cleaned on so many levels and I'm extremely excited about next year! As I seem to be ahead of the curve I'm curious what the future holds for humanity in general. Although so many seem to think that all is lost I think that we have everything to gain!
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As I head into the cycle of Motherhood relationships are definitely a focus in my life. My relationship with my husband will be strengthened and perhaps even tested as we deal with the challenge of raising a little independent being. My relationship to my daughter will also be of paramount importance. In both of these I'm obligated to do my best regardless of circumstances...good or bad.
When it comes to friends...none will be a priority over my husband or daughter. What is the purpose of relationships? What makes a relationship good or bad? I've learned a few things on the Path of the Seeker. The Eight Fold path of Buddhisim has an entire chapter dedicated to relationships. The Purpose of Relationships Whether it's the channel Bashar or the Buddhist Eight Fold Path....relationships are described as a mirror. The deeper and more committed the relationship the more likely the person you have a relationship with will mirror back to you the traits you do not want to see because they are going to give you honest feed back. The person who lives with you sees you in a totally different light then your friends or acquaintances at work. Parents see you in a different light then your spouse. Your children see you differently then anyone else. Each relationship is a unique journey. Most importantly every relationship gives us the opportunity to learn more about ourselves. The Important Lesson of Criticism in Relationships When a friend, partner, or child point out a flaw the last thing we need to do is become angry. Often our tendency is to defend our egoic sense of self, which we can't stand to see as flawed if we have not matured. That defensiveness can turn into resentment and a breakdown of the relationship. We shouldn't be constantly changing ourselves to suit another person's needs in a people pleasing doormat fashion of someone with poor boundaries...but we should be receptive to criticism. The best thing to do is to look at the situation from the perspective that criticism offers us an opportunity to know ourselves better and to learn about the other person. Here discernment is absolutely a necessary skill. This is why serious relationships are better for fully developed individuals who know themselves. Even in relationships with mere acquaintances, including the people we work with, we have the opportunity to learn and grown. We must practice discernment because, often times, with immature individuals criticism is a form of projection. The more the other person despises parts of themselves the more likely they are going to be irritated with them in other people. The trick then is not to instantly react in relationships to criticism. First, we need to determine if the other person is projecting their un-owned traits upon ourselves. If they are this gives us the opportunity to learn more about them. Second, if we determine that it is a flaw in ourselves we can then decide to work on that flaw. How do I need to change to fix this? Third, we may determine the criticism is true to some degree but there is no need to change. For example, someone might disagree with your spiritual beliefs and suggest that they are wrong or stupid. That might be true for them in their opinion but you choose to agree to disagree. A person might hate the way that we eat but we determine that it's something that is a dislike isolated to that one individual. The ability to assess the situation and come to one of the above conclusions indicates that you're capable of a authentic relationship. If you have knee-jerk reactions to the situation of criticism more personal development is needed. Mediation in all of it's forms will help quiet the inner sea of emotions allowing for reflection on the matter before a reaction. Giving and Receiving Another fantastic opportunity that all relationships provide is the opportunity to practice giving and receiving. As human beings none of us are good at this practice. After all, we wouldn't have come to this plane of existence (Malkuth) if we didn't have the desire to receive for ourselves. Practicing the balance of giving and receiving is tremendously important. There are many forms of giving and receiving...recognition, emotional, financial, gifts and care taking. Heck, simply smiling and saying hello to a stranger who replies hello back is a form of giving and receiving. Giving to others without strings attached...without expecting to receiving anything back and especially to strangers shows us the type of rewards that we can reap from such action. Although the rewards may not be directly attached to the act it does come back to us in other ways. For example, one day I was at one of my favorite sandwich shops and the person in front of me didn't have enough money in their account to pay for the sandwich they ordered. Many months later, due to a billing error, my own account was empty when I went to pay. The employee who had seen my act of kindness many months before paid for my sandwich. I went back as soon as I had enough money in my account and repaid her with a little extra. Some people fail to understand the purpose of giving or contributing to a relationship. They just want to take the benefits offered and make no effort to contribute to their partner because they feel their presence in the other person's life is enough of a gift that they don't need to do anything else. This leads to a horrible imbalance that will eventually be resented by the partner that is always giving. These types of relationships never last. For me, the greatest pleasure is to give other people thoughtful gifts that recognize their interests and essence. I love the act of giving and seeing how a well purchased gift can cause a person to be extremely grateful and the feeling of being recognized. When it comes to Receiving we have to accept in all forms whether recognition, emotional, financial, gifts or care taking. Sometimes this is as simple as smiling back at a child or a person at the grocery store. Sometimes it's allowing yourself to cry on someone else's shoulder when going through a traumatic experience. Sometimes it's asking for financial help from loved ones...and other times it may be a unexpected gift (whether it's something we desire or not...the ugly sweaters Grandma sent to you for example) or allowing someone to take care of us if we are physically disabled. I've seen many older people struggle with receiving care giving because it hurts their pride. They are so used to being indepdent the very idea of being depending on someone else to meet their needs is humiliating. They want to do everything for themselves even as they wet the bed and their hand shakes as they feed themselves. Please, do yourself a favor and learn the pleasure of receiving help before this point. I have struggle with receiving. I used to turn away gifts, including tips, when I was younger because I didn't want to feel like I owed anyone anything. I thought everything came with a price tag. However, that's not true. I've learned that there are people who give from the heart (as I do....so I don't know why I'm surprised) and expect nothing back in return. I receive gifts often now. I have also had the life lesson of having to learn to trust other people to take care of me when I was disabled. While pregnant with my daughter Michelle I had to depend on my husband to do absolutely everything as I was in bed rest...from the finances to making dinner every night to making the necessary preparations for our daughters arrival. Since I'm usually the active one who likes to create to-do-lists and complete projects...it's been tough to settle back and stay in a Receptive Mode...a subject that I have written a blog about back in November. Forgiveness Forgiveness is perhaps the hardest thing to practice in our closest and most intimate relationships. Yet, we should practice genuine forgiveness in all of our relationships. People are going to make mistakes. A lot of people have a hard time forgiving themselves for making mistakes, especially if there are serious consequences, but when we practice forgiving others we can find the ability to forgive ourselves. Eventually, as I accepted that making mistakes is a natural part of the human experiences and everyone has legitimate reason for the mistakes they have made...how can you not forgive people. To judge another and hold a grudge against them for making mistakes is hypocritical and an act in futility. Others are going to let you down at some time and holding them to the false expectation of perfection will only bring suffering. Now, there is a certain point where someone stops making mistakes and they start doing things intentionally. If the intention is there to harm or if they genuinely don't care about the person they are negatively affecting...then it is more then acceptable to hold them accountable. There is a point where we can be far to forgiving and make excuses for the excusable...victims of physical abuse often demonstrate this failure in discernment. Again, discernment is the key...did the person mean to intentionally hurt you or was it an honest mistake? If it was an honest mistake then you should forgive them. We can even forgive those who intentionally harm others because in their mind was a distortion that justified that action. That doesn't excuse their action nor does it excuse them for being punished by the law...but we can understand that people can do terrible things because they are not capable of discernment or realizing that they have a choice. People pushed to that edge are usually plagued by a heavy psychological shadow and they are suffering terribly. We can forgive them for not truly knowing what they do. Practicing Transparency There is a statement I came across a long time ago that I don't know the source of that stated, "Who is capable of standing naked before God?" I saw this as personal challenge to become as transparent as possible...to be as spotless as possible so that nothing was hidden. I decided that lying was not for me and I have told everyone I know not to tell me their secrets because I don't want to have the burden of keeping things hidden. In relationships of all kinds it is essential that we do not lie or keep information from the other person. Now, in friendships you don't have to tell your friend absolutely everything. When it comes to a spouse, however, I think it's integral not to keep any secrets. My husband knows every little detail of anything I think is important. He knows that I don't hide anything from him (except maybe candy but he knows my hiding spots and he knows if he asked I would tell him)...and our relationship is better because of that trust. Sometimes it's hard to be honest...especially about our feelings or when we are afraid of hurting the other persons feelings. Yet, honesty is the best policy and talking things out instead of resenting each other for imagined hurts is the healthiest option. This may require some intense honest Shadow Work. This may not come naturally but relationships are wonderful place to start practicing transparency. When you have nothing to hide there is far less to fear. The Practice Of Seeing Buddha In Our Relationships I love this practice. Here, until you can really perceive the concept, you treat each person that you meet as Buddha or Yeshua or God...whichever you find a more acceptable concept. The people who are mean, superficial or cruel are just the sleeping Buddha's of the world. They still have that Buddha within but they haven't awakened. I had a far easier time treating each customer I encountered at work as a piece of the divine then I did my husband. I know all of his strengths and limitations by heart. I've seen him in a rage and I've seen him as his normal happy go lucky self. I know his likes and his dislikes...In fact, it's because I am more then aware of what makes him human that it makes it hard to see past that to the Buddha that I know he contains. I realized this recently...but if we should treat anyone as a divine being it should be our spouse and even our children. I know some people will be absolutely horrified by the idea of elevating their children to a sacred status. Yet, raising a child is one of our most sacred duties. That soul is trusting you to give them the best conditions for their own spiritual growth and development in life. They are depending on you to equip them with coping skills to succeed in life. The mere fact that so many kids in this latest generation have resorted to violence and suicide shows that many parents are failing this sacred duty. Too often parents depend on schools to give their kids the coping skills to help develop them into adults...but schools are under no obligation to do so...all the do is teach kids what information to memorize so they can pass tests and get into college. I guarantee you if you treat your spouse and children the way you would treat the most divine figure that you are capable of imagining your life will change. If you wouldn't say it to Buddha or Yeshua you have no business saying it to your spouse, children or even your friends. When you realize that you would say something like that to them it's time to search your heart and do some Shadow Work. Conclusion Relationships are ripe with the opportunity for self-development. There is no reason to look at relationships as anything other then a gigantic opportunity to develop yourself more fully. There are a lot of skills that you can only develop in a close relationship. Acquaintances, being shallow, cannot provide the same amount of spiritual sustenance and learning that an intimate relationship will bring. The thing is that you need to balance what you bring to the relationship with the ability to receive what the other person brings. All it takes to appreciate a relationship is the right perspective.
No one likes the idea about being judged.
If someone says, "The last judgement," most people think of Doomsday. Yet, this card isn't about that judgement at all. Instead it's all about purification. Trial By Fire Have you ever heard this statement before? Usually that means someone's being tossed into the fire...right into the mix or the worst case scenario at work. They either, "Sink or Swim." The process can be hard. In some job a lot of people cannot handle a Trial by Fire or Sink or Swim scenario. The benefit of such training is that you know that you've faced the worse case scenario and it can only go up from there. I have gone through this type of training several times and I've always learned that it made me a stronger worker. People who are babied and have everything done for them ultimately end up being terrible at the job. They can't handle any situation on their own because they are so used to everyone carrying them. In real life, and in our spiritual transformation, no one can carry the load for us or go through the trial by fire for us. The entire point of this life is to LEARN about ourselves. Those who don't even attempt to try...will just come back again and again until they do finally gain Mastery. 4D This is an interesting part of this card. The people who reach this point on the Path of the Seeker start to exist on a level that transcends what other people experience. This is because there is no longer an attachment to PMR (Physical Material Reality). With the Subconscious and Waking Consciousness working together we are no longer stuck in duality. Our mind is no longer working against itself. This transforms how we look at the world. Squaring the Circle Have you ever heard this statement? Here we get a little bit of what that might mean. The square with the cross in it, the banner, is reminiscent of the Universal Archetype for the Sun...a circle with a cross in it. The significance is that the Sun has been transformed. That this represents completion represents that the Primordial Being Adam Kadmon, connected with and represented by the Sun in our Solar System, has been transformed. This transformation occurs due to the fact that enough people made their mind still...resolving the paradox created when Adam Kadmon gave the Light of the Creator to Malkuth before the appointed time...the will to receive for selfish purposes has been cleansed and peace has been restored as a result. The circuit of giving and receiving with the One Creator has been restored. On the Kabbalah Tree of Life as identified by Francesca Simon 4 represents Order. We see the evolution of this square concept throughout the Path of the Seeker. We start off with the Half Baked concept of the partially formed square upon which the Devil sits on in the first card of the Path of the Seeker. Fire Represents Results This is one of the most interesting part of this card. While we might think that fire would be the first stage of this process (like alchemy) it isn't... Yet, what does fire really symbolize? Energy! Within our body the fire is the metabolism that breaks down our food so that it can be distributed throughout our body to our cells. Without that energy we literally cannot function in the physical world. Again, this takes us back to the Solar Chakra...the place that rules the process of breaking down food and turning it into energy. This is also the chakra associated with Will, the Sun and the Sephiroth Tiphareth. Of all of the chakras it is our Solar Plexus that needs to be cleansed the most and working with the other chakras. That's because, just like Adam Kadmon, we use our will to receive and please ourselves without considering anyone else. The entire purpose of the Path of the Seeker is to reach the point where we release that desire to receive only for ourselves and reconnect with the One Creator openly sharing our experiences with the Universe. Conclusion There is so much to this card! While this card might frighten some it contains one of the most beautiful concepts in this deck. I've mentioned that most people walk around like Spiritual Zombies, and this was symbolically implied with Zombie fever that seemed to have swept entertainment about four years ago (I can't believe they are still making the Walking Dead television series). Here we see the zombies rise from their tombs and receiving the divine breath so that they can be reborn, Receiving the light of the Creator is entirely a personal choice...we are closed to this light because of the painful reaction we experienced by receiving it too early in our development. The Path of the Seeker allows us to refine ourselves bit by bit until we can become vessels that can receive this Light. There is no cause more noble, more life changing, or world changing then walking the Path of the Seeker for this purpose. By Walking this Path and saving ourselves we help to save the world. When you look at that phrase what do you think?
I haven't really thought of what Spiritual Maturity is...or that it could play a role in a person's development. Can Spirit's mature? Is that what makes a difference in a persons ability to navigate their life and the Path of the Seeker? I didn't think of this concept until I watched this YouTube video shared by the Theosophical Society of a presentation from Dr. Connie Zwieg. She's not the best presenter or writer but her information is interesting. https://youtu.be/h_VJNwrtHaY The answer is yes...but I never really thought of it that way. The Buddha is the most obvious example of someone who was spiritually mature. The idea of spiritual maturity becomes even more applicable when we add in the concept of reincarnation...with each soul the life becomes more mature. With each decision and consequence that we encounter in those lives our Soul learns more about itself. After all, the entire purpose of the trip into Malkuth is the paradoxical statement from Edgar Cacye, "Know ourselves as ourselves yet One with the Creator." Each time we incarnate we come closer to that goal (hitting the bullseye or achieving grace)...and when we're ready and we are confident in knowing ourselves...we are ready for the next step in our Soul's Evolution. So, let's take a look at the faucets of this interesting concept. Spiritual Immaturity All of us, when we are younger, look to our parents as God's. This is one of the foundation concepts in psychology. Our parents form the framework for all of our relationships in our life. We start off as seeing them as the absolute authority...they are all knowing and they provide a sense of security for us...without them we wouldn't survive. Most of us do not have parents who are mature themselves. Either they were married young and never really developed their personal identities before getting married, some people settled and some parents are just toxic with no desire to become well. A lot of people become parents because that's what's expected after marriage...and some women only have the goal of being a mother...never developing themselves as a full individual and they are left with the empty nest syndrome when their kids leave home...or they raise kids who never launch. The problem is that the child will inevitably transfer the relationship they had with their parents to their relationship with the Creator. They look to the Creator to a be a provider (praying for financial success for example) and they stay in a child-like mode. This dependence on the Creator for all their needs prevents them from achieving one of the major goals in human life...to grow spiritually. They remain like children, but not the innocent children that Yeshua spoke about...they resume the relationship they had with their parents. When something happens that they perceive as bad they figure that it must be punishment from this celestial parent. If they are doing well they think that this is just a gift from that celestial parent. They fail to take personal responsibility. Then, if they come across a spiritual teach or leader that they think represents this Creator...they put that person up on the same pedestal. They see that person as a surrogate for this parent/God...to the point where they will deny their own senses if the spiritual leader is doing something wrong...to the point where they will drink poison willingly. We Are The Creators Of Our Individual Subjective Realities Those who are spiritually mature take responsibility for themselves. In truth, we are 100% responsible for the lives that we create. If something bad happens...we were short $75 on rent...that's entirely our fault and has nothing to do with the One Creator. In our personal Subjective Reality the Creator merely provides the material we use to shape into the life we create. (here is a video I made on this subject) In fact, the Creator is fundamentally neutral when it comes to the plights that we experience in PMR (physical material reality). In the Jewish Kabbalah the idea of Tzimtzum (associated with Tzaddi) that the Creator contracted itself...the Cerator separated itself from being involved consciously...so that the Creation exist. The Creation is a part of the Creator...the energy of the Creator is here powering this simulation but the One Creator is not intimately consciously concerned with each individual person on this planet. Mentally....the One Creator is not involved.. We were given space so that we could achieve what Edgar Cacye called, "To know ourselves as ourselves and yet one with the Creator." All of the good or evil we experience comes from within us...either because we feel that we need to be punished or that we need to be rewarded. As long as we are stuck in this cycle of judging ourselves as good or evil we are asleep. The Creator even exists at a different speed of time...so as far as the Creator is concerned we took a good short nap...which, for us, consisted of many lives...and we woke up happy. The idea that the Creator- a force outside of you- is controlling your life is just not the case. Spiritually we are eternal beings and we are always safe. The Higher Self Even the Higher Self....the soul essence...is not directly controlling this life. Yes, the Higher Self does set intentions that we can become aware of through intuition for this life. The Higher Self will also throw stumbling blocks before us but that's because it's veiled from us and that's the only way that the Higher Self can get our attention. The Higher Self can try to guide you through intuition, dreams and emotions but the communication can be garbled if our subconscious, our line of communication often called the veil, is muddied with the Shadow...and the bigger our Shadow the less we can communicate with our Higher Self leading many to ignore their subconscious completely. The spiritually mature clear the channels of communication with the Higher Self by doing Shadow Work and starting a dialogue with the Higher Self by learning how to translate personal and universal symbols (archetypes). This speeds up our spiritual evolution significantly...so that we can become co-creators with our Higher Self. A souls ultimate purpose, as the book Journey of Souls and Edgar Cacye both say...is to form this same partnership with the Creation. First, though, we have to spiritually grow up and become partners with our Higher Self. When we work in conjunction with our Higher Selves life simply flows smoothly and with Little Effort because the there's no need for the soul to send stumbling blocks as a last resort in communication. That's what being in alignment with our Higher Self is all about. The First Steps Of Spiritual Maturity Spiritual Maturity is waking up to how Creation really works. If we are stuck in the quagmire of attempting to recreate the failed parent/child relationship of our youth with the Creator...we remain spiritually asleep and immature. Once we take responsibility for creating our own Subjective Reality and understand the importance of Co-creating our lives with our Higher Self to achieve the goals of our soul...we are spiritually mature. Yet, it takes the desire to walk the Path of the Seeker that will drive us to research these topics...to dive into the vast, wide and often confusing world of spirituality searching for answers...search for Truth. That's why our level of creation...Malkuth..is also said to be the realm where of Discernment. When we are wondering through this illusion we are required to sort the distortions...misguided teachings or interpretations...and develop the ability to discern the Truth. None of these are small tasks...all of these are great Heroic feats and they can be achieved.Great men and women have gone before us who have achieved this knowledge and we left their Map's for us to follow. Conclusion I don't know very many spiritually mature people...a handful at best. Most people remain at the spiritually immature level. They just aren't ready to grow up. Yet, if you are here, reading this blog...your ready for the answers and spiritual maturity. There is no higher calling... But be gentle with yourself because you're going to make mistakes. You're going to misunderstand the synchronicities that light up your intuition from time to time. You will misinterpret dreams or emotions. Think of those mistakes as spiritual adolescence...no one holds a teenager responsible if they make unintentional mistakes while going through such a turbulent part of their lives. Those moments are brief and are not the ones that define them in their later relationships. Let go of those fear based childish concepts...choose to mature. I promise...the rewards are many.
This weeks video was a little short. I've noticed with Alchemy it's pretty easy to sum up the steps. There is no reason to make it too complicated. Especially since we are working with this 4 fold system.
A Tranquil Mind This is the first time where our thoughts become truly quiet. We've reached a point where there are lest restless thoughts. Although, for me, this was the goal because I wanted to quiet all of the negative 'what if' racing thoughts that I had on a daily bases. I knew those were tied to my anxiety. What I didn't expect was that it would be uncomfortable at first! I was so used to thinking...well, over thinking, really, because I'm a planner and my mind was used to racing around imagining every possible outcome for an event...mostly focusing and planning for the worst case scenarios. My husband calls this, "Hoping for the best but planning for the worst." I knew from my studies, however, that this was not a healthy practice...because what we focus on is usually what we get. In some ways, I'm still not completely over this lesson but... I noticed my mind was silent. There were no more intrusive 'what ifs' or the sound of my mothers voice warning me against something. To think at all I had to summon up the thoughts and focus them like a laser beam on whatever subject I wanted to explore. This has been an extremely lucrative ability when working on these systems of seven....because it allows for really clear thinking. Yet, it can be disturbing and you might want to revert back to that chatty mind. I noticed that I have a little less tolerance for constant noise. I prefer silence to the television running or the sound of music playing in the background. I find all of thta extremely distracting and unnecessary. I realized that most people need that constant droning in the background because it drowns out all of the chatter in their heads. I was the same way for a long time...especially when I was younger. I had to go to sleep with the music playing or else I couldn't sleep...fearful thoughts would just keep racing through my mind causing insomnia..but music or the television could drown them out. Change In Metabolism As I explained in the video this one really surprised me. I do admit that I bought a nutrition book by Edgar Cacye. Part of the reason I had a psychological breakdown was because I wasn't eating the right food while working out too much. So, I wanted to fix that and I put some of the guidelines in place but I wasn't really strict about them. The next thing I knew my metabolism had become regular with almost no effort from me. I also started craving vegetables more then I did meat. Now, I am a meat eater. I do love my red meat and my chicken. Yet, I found I can't have them too often and not in large quantities. I prefer to have small amounts of protein and usually at lunch if I can manage and if I can't then I have them for dinner. I keep meat to a minimum of 4ozs- about the size of the palm of my hand. I keep grains, which are harder for the body to breakdown, to the morning. I will indulge in pasta for lunch and try not to have it for dinner because I notice that it weighs heavy on the stomach. Aside from those guidelines I don't really think about nutrition all that much. These are simply habits that I have adopted and they work perfectly for me. I can no longer stomach fatty fried foods. I can have french fries occasionally but a full fast food meal will give me an extreme stomach ache. I have to be very careful when I go out to eat to select items that won't upset my stomach...usually sticking to salads or vegetarian sandwiches. Mind and Body Balance To me it makes sense that the body responds positively to a balanced Mind. The Brain, after all, produces chemicals that travel throughout our body as a result of our state of mind. Those chemicals will either lead to more chaos in the body (adrenaline) or have a healing effect (endorphins). An unbalanced mind that goes to extremes leads to the brain releasing extreme doses of these compounds...especially adrenaline. This, in turn, leads to an extreme reaction throughout the body, and in particular, a breakdown of certain structures...particularly the muscles and organs because of this contradictory set of instructions...should they be active and build up the body or should they remain in starvation mode holding everything in reserve because of uncertainty? Even in the modern world where we are not running for physical tigers...we can find 'tigers' in the form of aggressive people in every action that we undertake...the key is the reaction that we have to them. Being in a constant or near constant state of fear does not allow the body to heal itself. Adding to that a poor diet of fat foods (which have a calming effect or induces, as my husband calls it, a 'food coma') can lead to a complete body disaster! Conclusion In Distillation we start to see the results of our work. Here the mind reaches that point where we can tell the difference as it becomes more refined and tranquil. We are less likely to have knee jerk emotional reactions because the subconscious and the conscious waking mind are working in union. With both aspects of ourselves working together we experience less chaos. Also, when meditating we can reach a deeper state which is really relaxing. I admit, I thought this point was the end. Yet, this stage of Distillation has lasted over a year for me. I think, perhaps, it is because I've had some stubborn attachments (which I wrote about in a blog called Releasing Stubborn Attachments that you can find in the side bar). I also still have that tendency to 'plan for the worse' and focus on that... At the same time, I've noticed after a year of releasing these attachments that it's now the slightest residues that remain. They're more like an empty reflexive habit then a state of mind that I remain in for long periods of time...and they're more noticeable because that type of thinking no longer feels natural. I find myself wondering, why I am I even thinking this strange thought that does not serve me? I then do what I would in meditation- I examine the thought, label it thinking and then let it go. Our entire life can be a form of meditation if we let it...all it takes is discipline and practice. The rewards are immeasurable. Who doesn't want to have a quiet mind, razor sharp focus and concentration or a healthier body? (The above image is from one of my favorite video games...Tekken.)
I have to say that this year has been very interesting. I faced challenges I never even imagined. I have been writing this blog for over three years and haven't been challenged. For some reason, when I was at my worst most unbalanced state no one really challenged me. Since I've been at my most confident state...things have been a little different. As a result of the challenges I have faced this year I feel as though I have passed some of the most important tests on the Path of the Seeker. By far, one of the most difficult is facing the people I love most who just can't believe or are not interested in the Path of the Seeker. This year I faced some of my most meaningful critics...and I realized that their judgement did not affect me. This was a surprise because back in 2014 when I felt I had lost everything and threw all caution to the wind to start earnestly seeking without caring about others judgement...if I had faced the judgement that I dealt with this year I would have given up. The Fear of Judgement is what kept me from this path back in the late 90's and in 2007. I know I'm not the only one that finds it difficult to deal with loved ones after a Spiritual Awakening. I'm very lucky that my mother is open minded and supports this unconditionally even if she's not exactly interested in spirituality for the same reasons I am. She's seen how it's benefited me and she's happy for me. I've seen her unfold as a result of her exploring her own spirituality. She's not really interested in the Path of the Seeker but just alternative spiritual practices like Reiki and Holistic Health practices. Most of the people in my life are not interested in the Path of the Seeker. I do struggle with it because sometimes I don't feel supported by my immediate friends and family when it comes to my greatest passion. I have supported others unconditionally but I have not received the same. Since I am such a giver, most of the time, people take advantage and exploit it by volunteering me for things they don't want to do or just receiving my love attention without giving anything in return. Luckily, I find plenty of support online from Francesca Simon who lives on the other side of the country but thanks to Facebook Live is very much a presence in my life. I love watching Victor Oddo's videos because he's usually going through similar circumstances to mine and I have no doubt he's part of my specific soul group. Then there is Colette Baron Reid who has been instrumental in developing this information and who shares her wisdom every week with her Universal Energy Forecast Oracle Card Reading that is usually spot on in ways I can't imagine until I'm meditating on the previous week. Since I've seen the results in my life, the synchronicities stack up and because I've had many things I learned on my own validated by authors of my favorite books of Timeless Wisdom...I have rock solid unwavering faith. I know the Path of the Seeker does work and produces a more satisfying life. That's why, this year, dealing with one of my greatest fears...facing challengers on the Path of the Seeker...were little more then a speed bump (compared to other challenges) but plenty of reason to celebrate. So, let's break down these Challengers I've faced. why I feel they challenged me and how I responded to them so you can have an example of how to deal with these situations in your own life. My Husband He doesn't really pick fights with me over my beliefs, my research, this blog or my YouTube channel. I feature his music at the beginning and end of my videos. So, in some ways he does support what I do but he certainly doesn't believe in any of it or necessarily understand it. I'm not entirely certain he reads my blogs and if he does read them he picks and chooses. We hardly ever discuss them. He tells me that what I believe is strictly New Age...that he studied all of this back when he went to college and decided he didn't believe in it. His most common response when I explain meditation or spirituality is that, "It's good for people who need it." He's seen the remarkable change that meditation has wrought in my life and he acknowledges that but he implies that the reason it works is because...on some level...my mind needs it when his mind does not. He would say that I'm projecting on him...but the suggestion is that my mind is weaker and that it's a weakness to be spiritual. As I've shared before that he had a particularly evil Comparative Religions teacher in college who basically taught him that all religions are frauds that just want money and that religions are based on primitive needs for security in an uncertain world. That teacher taught him atheism and he even converted some people who sought to challenge that belief to athesim before he met me. At the very least, I have helped him move the dial of his thought process from the atheist ant-god stance to the agnostic, "I can't prove or not prove that life after death or a Creator exists so I'm going to try to live my life in a way to treat everyone the way I want to be treated." At the very least he has always lived by the golden rule. He also completely gets the concept of a Subjective Reality which is probably the hardest concept for most people to grasp...that the way we perceive the world is 100% up to us and 100% dependent on our psychology which we can change by applying certain practices. That right there is remarkable but he has an easier time accepting that, as would most atheists or agnosticis, because it's a perspective of the world that doesn't involve a Creator or anything besides PMR (physical matter reality). For the most part, he focuses on physical things and physical results. His passion lies in watching movies so buying a new high definition television and going through our movie collection to criticize the movies that claim to be HD and finding flaws in the graphics is highly exciting to him. As a musician comparing and contrasting recording techniques is one of his favorite passions even though half the time I can't exactly identify what he's talking about. That's just who he is...I support him in pursuing his passions as long as it makes him happy. A Former Friend I have ended many relationships in the last year. Anyone I felt was a negative influence is gone from my life. As I have shared, one of my closest friends ended her friendship with me and because of a dream I didn't even try to save it. Only later did I realize how healthy of a choice that was and realized that she was one of my biggest spiritual challengers. I knew she didn't approve of my alternative beliefs to the point where I never brought them up with her. She wrote blogs in response to some of my assertions dismissing them for various reasons but never spoke to me directly about them. She was very passive aggressive in that way...never openly disagreeing with me and avoiding debates of all kinds...but willing to make public arguments to counter mine. I read them, considered her position, weighed the benefits of continuing to believe as I choose...and still continue to believe the same thing anyways knowing that somehow what I wrote hit close enough to being valid that it triggered a response. I don't disregard anyone's point of view out right.I used to consider event he conspiracy theorists until I realized how important it was to be picky about what you feed your mind...and I realized the effects of even watching those YouTube videos gave me nightmares and made me very discouraged with life. The people who make those videos and arguments are not bad people...they are suffering and have a very fear based life which has obvious negative psychological results- typically a nervousness that repels other people. I have no problem with people disagreeing or even judging me. I don't have to accept the gift of that judgement. At one point she asked me if I thought she was too stupid to understand what I wrote about spirituality. I was taken completely by surprise by this statement because I really try to simplify what I share as much as possible. I don't use the archaic and often expansive or confusing language that you might find in some of my favorite books from the 1930's so it never occurred to me that anyone would be 'too stupid' to understand what I wrote. My mother who is very dyslexic (I am dyslexic too), who couldn't read until I taught her how to read while I was in my teens, and never graduated high school has no problem understanding the concepts that I share the way that I describe them. She's my target audience. The idea that someone with a college education couldn't understand what I was writing or talking about never occurred to me. I don't look down on people who might not 'get' this information...it simply means it's not on their frequency or something they are meant to understand. That just means there is some other teach out there that will resonate with them. Now, I had realized that spiritual pursuits were not her forte. So I didn't bother talking to her about them. I didn't feel that way because she was 'stupid' but because I didn't feel that she was genuinely interested I never spoke to her about spiritual topics because she wasn't open minded. She was an expert on the spiritual concepts she chose to believe in and I didn't feel that playing devils advocate would benefit anyone. At one point she declared in one of the blogs that she, "Needed to find a friend who shared her faith." I knew this was because I wouldn't reinforce parts of her traditional Christian belief system but that stung. Faith is something very different from a belief system, yet for some reason, people get those two concepts confused. Somewhere else she wrote, "Similar but different," I can't remember if it was a card, a blog or a Facebook post...that was when I realized that she had really rejected me but wasn't really ready to let go of the friendship...I also knew it was mostly because I didn't reinforce her typical Christian belief system. Another time, when I stated my belief that she chose her mother while in spirit (she knew that I believed in reincarnation and life in between lives- I let her borrow Journey of Souls by Michael Newton but she returned it unread) she went ballistic. How dare I suggest she chose such a terrible life. I backed off quickly saying that it's simply an empowering belief I choose to believe in and that in no way does she have to accept the idea that she's responsible. I hoped by being an example...to go from being afraid of leaving the house and having PTSD...to healthy, happy and successful would be inspiring. Instead, it just seemed to make her feel worse about herself. She preferred the person with severe mental issues that I was back in 2015 over the healed, happy and whole version that I've become. Sometimes, that happens when one person changes and another doesn't. Who knows, maybe knowing that I had so many issues made her feel superior and better about herself when I first met her? After our friendship ended she made a Vagubooking comment about someone she knew being a, "False Prophet." I knew this was directed at me... I realized this had more to do with our friendship ending and her attempting to make me feel bad. I've never even attempted to say that I am a prophet. That's not something I would claim. That might have hurt when I first met her because I was so uncertain of myself and the Path of the Seeker...but I just laughed and snoozed her profile so I don't have to see her misery. I understand that psychological game very well and I have seen it employed by people who felt disempowered and hurt many times. I know that this is just a passive aggressive way for someone to express their suffering. I don't have to accept the gift of their suffering, however, and bear no guilt for other people making choices that hurt. Just like the comment she made suggesting that I don't, 'have faith,' the very wording of the attempt to make me feel bad missed the mark so horribly that it was funny. I also know that feeling disempowered is a choice in our modern society...there are so many empowering teachings out there...many of which I share...there is no longer an excuse not to develop oneself spiritually or psychologically. I feel terrible that people choose suffering but I also have healthy boundaries and know that's their burden and not mine. As the old saying goes, "You can lead a horse to water but you can't make them drink." I do not have to receive the gift of their misery. As they say, misery loves company and so, often times, those types of people well self-eliminate because they can't stand being around happy people. Miserable people simply can't tolerate happy people because it exaggerates the void within them. I don't identify myself with my 'spiritual accomplishments' if there are any such things or as a spiritual authority. I don't write my blogs on spirituality and make my YouTube videos to inflate my ego. If you look at my Facebook profile it doesn't say 'blogger' or 'YouTuber' as my main job...it says Barista at Albertsons because that is my vocation. I don't make money off of either of these ventures. Although, if YouTube does decide to monetize my channel at some point I will agree. I know that what I have achieved and done spiritually as well as psychologically can be done by anyone. None of this makes me 'special.' I am the first one to admit that I don't know everything and that I am shocked that I found answers because everyone says that's impossible. Like most self-fulfilling prophecies the reason most people believe it's impossible to find the Truth or Answers to our biggest question is because they hold that belief. Nevertheless, that friend taught me a lot...not intentionally...but I am grateful for the experience. I am stronger because of that test of adversity. An Old Friend Now, this one was a bit more of a challenge for me. There was no helpful guide in a dream telling me how to proceed. Someone I very much admire who is one of the most giving, loving and wonderful individuals I have ever met was triggered by my post, "Humanity's Purpose." His point was that the way of the Christian church works and that there was no point in studying other paths. I could tell that reading that post had really challenged something in his belief system. The last thing I want to do is to create an existential crisis (a.k.a. A Spiritual Dark Night of the Soul) in someone for whom their current religion appears to be working. I don't want someone who seems to be happy to hit such a low because something I write resonates with them and causes cognitive dissonance because it doesn't agree with the textbook interpretations of the bible written by people accepted as religious authorities. That is not really the people I write this blog for...I was never fully satisfied or bought into the traditional Christian dogma. I will openly say that when I was Seeking, even though I was baptized...I never found the rest for my soul that Yeshua promised through the textbook religious answers. They rang false and now I consider them poisonous to the human soul. Yet, people choose to read this blog at their own risk. If they find something here that disturbs them or causes cognitive dissonance and existential crisis I have to leave that up to Spirit believing there is a good reason that it happens...the desire not to disturb other people's peaceful spiritual sleep will not keep me from sharing what I have found with others. The best response that I could think of was to say, "If the path you are on makes you happy then it is for you and that is all that matters." His response, sadly, was that he wasn't happy. I shared a few blogs with him and explained that I believed by finding the same Universal Truth among all the religions peace can come to this Earth. He wrote a long reply, 'unpacking,' the information that I had given him and giving the textbook Christian replies. I admit, I became bored and didn't continue to read the reply. The only part that really mattered to me was the fact he admitted he was following a Spiritual Path that did not bring him happiness. I know the reason he continues to follow that path is because of those textbook responses he memorized. Sadly, his devotion to what he had been taught is so strong his mind is simply not open. This saddened me tremendously. There was no point in arguing with him...his cup is already full with textbook dogmatic Christian responses that some pastor thought up and then shared as 'gospel truth.' I love him very much but I realize this information does challenge the old divisions between religion. While what I've discovered is logical most people, when it comes to their spiritual beliefs, are not logical. That's because so much of what people are taught is fear based and exclusive. I accept this fact. I accept that people choose to remain on Spiritual Path's that don't make them happy because they have been taught that human beings are meant to suffer. I honor their choice as it's a reflection of Free Will. My Father The man I was most afraid of being rejected by when I set out on the Path of the Seeker in 2014 finally blatantly rejected my belief system in 2018. He has always been very condescending about spirituality in general. He did not approve of my mother taking us to church because he didn't see a point. At that point, for some reason, he was against it, although, he never really explained why. In his old age, he has become more of a dogmatic Christian then anything else but that's because he identifies himself first and foremost as a Redneck. On July 4th, we were celebrating my birthday. My husband, ever one to enjoy collecting musical instruments, had bought me a set of Three Universal Singing Bowls. I have used them as an active meditation ever sense. I was explaining to my mother that, "They help clear the chakras." My dad nodded at first and then when what I said sunk in stated, "You know I don't believe any of that shit." I shrugged because, yes, I did know that and it didn't bother me. "You know," he continued when he didn't get a dramatic response from me, "I don't read anything you share or watch any of your YouTube videos." I just looked at him serenely and shrugged, "Well, then the information is not for you." His mouth dropped open, "What's that supposed to mean?" "I know other people are finding some benefit out of my work because there are hundreds of people who view my blog every day and there are over a thousand people who've tuned into my YouTube challe. They find meaning in it, just because you don't...doesn't mean that it doesn't have value...it just means it's not for you." He stared at the table for a few moments as though thinking about this and he remained silent as my mom changed the subject. My biggest fear...dealt with so peaceful and in reality such a minor little experience...and, yet, nevertheless a huge indicator of my spiritual maturity. Conclusion When other people challenge your beliefs it does not invalidate them. The idea that if ones beliefs are not accepted by the masses makes them wrong is just a symptom of poisonous Group Think. Often times, these people are just triggered by cognitive dissonance. What they've been taught doesn't work but because it is reinforced by Group Think and Fear they have huge blocks when it comes to considering anything outside of the realm of what they have been raised to believe. Thanks to the Roman Empire the Christian belief system is fear based and it teaches people that if they do not believe exactly what the dogma says they will be punished for eternity. That's a pretty major punishment and I think anyone is justifiably fearful of such a threat...as long as they choose to believe that the One Creator can make mistakes, isn't eternally patient and wants to destroy a part of his Creation. Yet, often times, as I pointed out...these beliefs are not based on logic but emotional responses to these classic dogmatic teachings. When confronted by someone who is suffering in Western Society we have been taught the toxic religious belief that it is our job to take on the burden of their suffering. Yet, that's not what Yeshua taught in Matthew 11:30: "Take MY yoke upon you and learn from Me, for My yoke is easy and My burden is light." Those are his actual words. Not, "I will take YOUR yoke upon me and save you from it..." But, "Take MY yoke upon you and learn from Me." (A yoke is wooden tool often carried on the shoulders so that a person can carry a lot). He says to follow the pattern that he has established to find relief from suffering. He never told anyone he would do the work for them. That's because the idea that you can fix someone's negative behavior patterns for them...transforming their sin to grace...is impossible. That's something Rome completely made up and the Christian Churches that only rejected the Pope's authority kept intact for the purpose of profit. There is a reason Rome forbid people from reading the scriptures and told people they were too stupid to understand them. Even modern Christians hold onto these erroneous poisonous beliefs for no other reasons then tradition and fear. Sin, in the Hebrew tradition...(and, yes, Yeshua was a Jewish Rabbi and he said in Matthew 5:17 he was here to uphold every line of the the Torah not change it)...is an archery term that simply means, "Missing the Mark (i.e. Bullseye)." Not original sin. The idea of the Original Sin is not something you will find in the Hebrew Tradition...it was entirely made up by Rome. Grace, in the Hebrew tradition means, "Hitting the Mark (Bullseye)." No one can do that for you but if you follow the pattern that Yeshua taught....of non-attachment similar to the Buddha (that's why he didn't have a family or a house or a job) and is the true meaning of the statement, "Be in this world but not of it." The actual quote is from John 17:16 is in reference to Yeshua's disciples when he said in prayer: "They are not of the world, just as I am not of this world." Each of us must choose to let go of material attachments which cause suffering and move towards embracing joy...to be in this world but not of it. Final Thoughts For me, personally, I know that my purpose and goal is not directed towards convincing any one person...not even my loved ones...of the validity of my belief system and what I have discovered. I don't desire popularity or even recognition for bringing through these ideas. I just want them to get out there to the populace and when I see someone make a YouTube video or share this information in a more effective way that reaches more people I celebrate! As my soul so eloquently said during my most recent mystical experience...when I had the opportunity to ask any question of this spiritual messenger... "How can I make the Logos of this planet realize that it is one?" A logos of a planet is a the group soul...or the over soul of the planet depending on what term you prefer. This is a subconscious network of communication, Jung called it the Collective Subconscious, created by the beings that choose to incarnate on that specific planet. The reply was simple, "Keep speaking with your beautiful voice." So, no matter what Spiritual Challengers step up to say that my way is not the right way..that I am wrong...that what I am doing is for nothing...that I am affecting nothing...well, I can see the difference. I've received confirmation by spirit many times over that I am making a difference and I know that my intention is absolutely pure. When I first started, and as these challengers show, I had more to lose when looking from a PMR perspective by exploring and putting these ideas out there. Yet, the benefits that I have reaped in my life have been so numerous that I know that while they may doubt me...that doubt and fear has no place in my Subjective Reality Experience. I feel sorry for them that they feel triggered, unhappy or miserable walking their Path...but that is not my burden. I can only be an example that shows a different way and they are more then welcome to reject me. I have heard the call of Spirit and I have answered...as promised I have found Matthew 6:33 to be absolutely true: "But first seek his kingdom and his righteousness, and all of these things shall be added to you." Kingdom...of course, has a much deeper meaning in the Hebrew tradition then any Christian suspects. I highly recommend you check out these two blogs to really understand what Yeshua meant when he referred to the Kingdom, for this information was a secret teaching that Rome attempted to blot out...and is probably what he taught his disciples in secret because the masses were not ready. The Sephiroth Malkuth (Kingdom): https://bridgetkorns.weebly.com/blog/july-14th-2018 and https://bridgetkorns.weebly.com/blog/malkuth-hebrew-letter-meditation Humanity's Purpose: https://bridgetkorns.weebly.com/blog/category/1-humanitys-purpose
As you listen to the sound meditation concentrate on the Alchemical Symbol.
When the sound meditation ends get out your journal and write down any thoughts, impressions or ideas that came into your mind no matter how odd. Just like a computer...we can't expect to receive what we ask the Divine for unless we are in a quiet, patient and receptive mode. We have to be actively waiting to receive the form our desire will manifest in so that when the notification- "Do you want to receive this?"- pops up in our life we see it so that we can choose to accept. Otherwise, if we are in the other room cleaning the drapery we are going to miss the opportunity.
Being in a Receptive Mode is not a normal mode for me. Both of my parents were the type of the people who were always active. They were always doing. Even now it's very uncomfortable for me to sit down and watch television because I feel lazy. Yet, receptive doesn't mean lazy. Instead, it means to be in a state of receiving. When we are constantly active we never enter the state of receiving. Instead, we're in the constant state of action or transmitting. Yet, if we don't take time for the opposite end of the spectrum, being receptive, we never reach that point where we can receive. Being On Bed Rest Earlier this year I was on Bed Rest. From March through August I wasn't able to go upstairs to sleep in my bedroom. I wasn't able to do my household chores. Because of an aversion to the smell of cooking meat or warm olive oil I couldn't make meals. I couldn't even do the lifting and bending associated with filling the Dishwasher! I have to say...it was extremely frustrating! I wasn't on a catheter so I was allowed to move around and sit. I changed from the couch that folded out to a bed to a recliner when I could lay on my back, and once my belly became to big to close the leg rest of the recliner, I moved to a normal coach with lots of pillows stacked up so I was sitting up to sleep so I could scoot to the side to get off of it. For the most part, by July I felt like a turtle on it's back most of the time! Yet, it was a good way to practice being in a receptive mode. There isn't much else you can do...and luckily I still was active with making my YouTube videos and writing my blog. I also read a lot of books as you can tell by the book reviews. Thanks to my Tibetan Singing Bowls in the last week I was able to do a active meditation which had been sorely missing my life. Usually I would practice active mediation while in the garden or doing chores. Yet, for the most part I was forced to be in a receptive mode. What Does A Receptive Mode Mean? Moses didn't hear the still small voice of Spirit until he was in a receptive mode. Usually, it is when we are finally able to clear our mind of all of it's useless chatter and really be quiet that we can be receptive. To reach that state of quietude takes quite a bit of discipline. In our modern world from the time we are little and enter grade school we are told to act, act, and act. As the Nike ad says- Just Do It. Yet, when we are in this constant state of action we are not in a mode to receive from the universe or others. Because we are doing for ourselves constantly we often only receive or experience what we have sown when it smacks us over our head. In a receptive mode you allow things to come to you instead of going out to get them. The answers can come in the form of dreams, messages through your favorite people or through random events that crop up throughout your day. While I can meditate all day, to sit and simply be quiet without focusing on my breath or performing my Heavenly Light meditation was a new experience. Sometimes, I would just sit and watch the lovely plants that were across from where I lay in the month of July. I'd watch how the sunlight traveled across their leaves as the day wore on and watch their new leaves grow across the many days. This was, in some ways, a meditation...but to be just be like that with no goal in mind was new. Receptivity and Manifestation When we put restrictions on how we want to manifest reality it can develop slowly. In my experience, the most important part is letting go of the desire to actively *make* something happen. This is really hard for me to do myself because of how I was raised. I was taught, things only happen in this world because you *make* them happen. As though, no matter what you try to do in this world something will try to resist you. Yet, what I have learned in the recent three years is that the opposite is true. To receive our desires we have to let them go and then...wait to receive. If ware not in a receptive mode we might miss opportunities that would have given us what we wanted. Only when we are in a state of observation can we receive our blessings. There were numerous sales that had I been in an active, "Got to get this done now," mode I would have missed out on. Because I took a wait and see approach, putting items in my shopping carts online (since I couldn't go to the store to shop!) that I wanted and waiting to see if a sale or coupon came along...I saved a lot of money. I ended up buying a mattress for our crib for one quarter of the price that it was normally. I was shocked...but the one that I wanted which was a premium and made for our crib came up as on sale randomly one day...when none of the other mattresses were on sale! If I had taken the usual approach of being proactive and just buying it as soon as I decided we needed it...I wouldn't have gotten it at that awesome sales price. Receiving One of my favorite Pledian channeled messages from Wendy Kennedy stated, "When what you wanted to manifest arrives you are no longer there!" This really speaks to the need to go into a receptive mode. When we send out our request to the universe we have to wait and practice patience. If we move onto the next thing we are not going to be in a receptive mode to receive that first request. In a way, that sends a signal to the universe that what we wanted to manifest first is not all that important to us. The trick then, is to put in the order, let it go and then go into a patient receptive mode. Otherwise, we are sending all sorts of requests into the universe and we'll never receive the previous requests. This also brings up the need to be clear and to really want the things that we are requesting. If we really want something we will be patient and wait for it to arrive in our lives. Of course, we may have to put some work into it as the opportunity comes up (for example, with my pregnancy there were steps to getting to the point of being pregnant- surgery, finding the right doctor...but each step appeared in a natural way as I was open to receiving the information). Conclusion We are so active in our day to day lives in the West. I often wake up with a huge to-do list in my mind. I have 'major' to do lists on the refrigerator door. I see them every morning as I reach in to get my milk reminding of what I need to get done. Not being active is not something I was taught as a child. Yet, being on bed rest more or less forced me to be in receptive mode. To recognize the world around me. To listen to the messages that I receive from friends and loved ones. To really connect with the world. Edgar Cacye says that Patience is one of the Fruits of the Spirit which we learn in Physical Matter Reality. Buddhism teaches that cultivating patience is a virtue. I've realized that patience really equates to being receptive. We can learn to receive life on life's terms and things flow naturally with no effort. There are amazing opportunities that the universe hands to us all of the time but because we are being active in the areas where we are not trying to manfiest something...we miss them. There has to be a balance of transmitting and receiving. Most people, when we talk to others, don't fill the entire experience with our own chatter without waiting for replies. What's the point of communicating if we don't practice being silent and listening to the other person? The same applies to working as a co-creator with the Divine. July was a hard month.
You would think the month of your birthday would be easy. In many ways it should have been a very joyful time. With our daughter Michelle on the way and, for all intents and purposes, a new life ahead...struggling with attachments from the past might seem easy...after all, I'm steps away from an entirely reinvented new life and in many ways a fresh start. Yet, startlingly for me, it really wasn't. A lot of what I have had to let go of this month are patterns that started back in 2006. I went through a very transformative time then. I had left my ex-husband and I was rebuilding my identity. Unfortunately I didn't have the information that I do now and I was on a totally different wavelength. I built myself up by identifying with physical things- most notably my dog Angel and my truck that I called my Silver. They were the first and probably the last items that will be entirely, "Mine." Since I possessed them when I met my husband I still identified them with myself because they were mine before they were his. Losing Angel Korns Death is always hard. Losing Angel was a lot harder then I ever imagined. Not as bad as it could have been, I must admit, if I she had transitioned in 2014. In many ways, her timing to cross over was perfect because I was at the best place mentally that I have been in my entire life. Letting go, however, has been hard. You see, I never cry for the being that's gone. The animal or human who has crossed over, I think, is in a better place. Being in NPMR (Non-physical Matter Reality) sounds like an absolute blast. The opportunities there are limitless. I do cry for myself because that having that familiar comforting presence in day-to-day life is quite the adjustment. Angel was such pure joy and she was always in the middle of everything. She's night and day compared to the dog she picked out- Apollo. Since she has been gone the house has been really quiet. She doesn't wake me up in the morning to feed her (Apollo is so easy going that it's easy to forget to feed him and since my husband is feeding him the special canned food that we bought Angel which makes me sick to my stomach...he's been fed at noon a few times). I don't have a fuzz ball constantly at my feet. The first week was rough. I kept looking for her because no matter what I was doing she was always just one step behind me. None of our other animals are like that (although, our cat Monster has been extra loving and been more of a lap cat since Angel left us). I didn't realize how much of my life and my identity revolved around that little dog. Taking care of her was such a joy and she was such an unconditional companion that it's no wonder she touched many people's hearts. Letting go of my attachment to her and becoming at peace with the void she left behind has been one of the hardest things I've ever done. I still catch myself looking around for her. There will never be a dog that can replace her and fill that void. She and I just went through way too much together. For the years when I was single and alone she was my life line. I was excited to go home from work because she would be there running to happily greet me at the door. I did have a dream that she came to visit me and that she was happy. So, that was a magical moment that I cling to when I'm feeling sorry for myself. As the Luke Skywalker quote from the Last Jedi that I used at the end of the video I made in Celebration of her life (boy was that tough to make!) said: "No one's every really gone." She's still here in many ways. My Silver Yup, I'm guilty of one of those things that I identified in my Dark Night of the Soul videos. I associate myself way too much with the truck that I drive. I loved my 4x4 2006 Ford Ranger Sport package. Plus, this was the vehicle that Angel and I went on a lot of Road Trips in...so in a lot of ways it's one of the last things that really reminds me of her. There is poetic justice that the final road trip we went on together, to the vet, was in the Ranger. There is a conclusiveness to also sell this truck within the same month. My husband, funnily enough, listed it for $6,999. I nice repetitive little number sequence representing balance (6) and completion (9). Not many girls drive trucks so I felt it made me unique and it was rare enough that I could find it easily in the parking lot of wherever I went. I loved that it had plastic interior that was easy to clean- especially in the snow. I liked that it had manual windows because I never had the issues I saw other people have with automatic windows where they stopped working. I bought that truck off the lot, which some people think is stupid, but I had it for 12 years and I knew all of the problems that truck ever had. I never got into an accident or even got a ticket in that truck. Letting go of that is a bit hard too because I feel as though I'm going to be just another family schmuck in a sedan. I know that sounds horribly judgmental but it's not. I don't really care what other people drive...I just don't like conforming. My husband has agreed to get one of my favorite vehicles- a Chevy Cruze. Of course, it's going to be used because we don't have the disposable income I had when I was living in Big Bear with my parents. So, I have no idea what the history of the vehicle is or what might be wrong with it and I naturally suspect that the person selling it is getting rid of it because there is something wrong. Also, I won't be able to go and shop around for the Chevy Cruze because I'm on bed rest. I had hoped that the Ranger would be ready to sell earlier in the pregnancy so I could help shop for the Cruze but for many reasons that didn't happen because my husband had other priorities. So, I have to trust my husband to find my primary vehicle that I will depend on to get around entirely on his own. That is very tough for me because I am so used to taking charge and being involved in major purchases that will have a profound affect on my life. Tools The best tools to use to release attachment is writing in a journal and meditation. I consider writing in a journal or writing a blog such as this to be a form of meditation. Organizing thoughts and feelings into an easy to understand form is paramount to letting go of them. If you don't know what you're working with how do you know how to let it go? Meditation, staying centered, is very helpful. Recently, I've been using multiple forms of meditation. My husband bought me a set of Universal Tibetan Singing Bowls for my birthday. Sitting down and teaching myself how to make them sing is a form of active meditation. Then there are the sound meditations that I do using the Temple Sounds YouTube video's. I love these because they limit the amount of time that I meditate in a gentle way. I could literally do a meditation focusing on my breath all day if I didn't have something limiting the amount of time. Alarms are just way too...harsh...as a way to limit the time of mediation and that is the main reason I prefer sound meditations. The crucial thing about Meditation is that it gives you time to let go of your emotions or thoughts. Often times those thoughts and worries will return after the session. During the session, however, there is simply silence which I really enjoy. I don't have incessant thoughts often, just during times of anxiety or when I'm struggling to let go of attachments (as I said these are the last two attachments I really have), and that struggle can through off my balance. These moments of realigning myself with my center gives me the perspective to proceed forward with far less fear. Meditation is a bit like reformatting your mind...just like your computer we tend to accumulate a chaotic clutter of data in our mind. By organizing our thoughts around a subject through written meditation we can view a situation more clearly. By finding our calming Center in our meditation we can approach emotional subjects from a more grounded perspective. Conclusion In some ways, giving up my attachments to these two remnants to who I was back in 2006 is freeing. I really won't be replace either of these items or this attachment. The idea of becoming as attached to anything in the future is extremely unlikely. At the same time, both are very hard for me because they are not items that can be replaced because of the unique situation I was in when they came into my life. Angel Korns was a unique little dog with a very full life and very developed personality. I've never encountered a dog like her and I my family had many dogs throughout my life. She's not something that can ever be replaced. My husband has been trying to get me to give up the Range for 9 years and I've held onto it. The vehicle has always been very impractical in the city with terrible gas mileage because it's a 4x4. The only reason I'm giving it up is because I couldn't use it to transport Michelle. Again, it's not something that can ever be replaced because it's probably the only vehicle I'll ever buy directly from the dealer (my husband is 100% against that because of depreciation). Because of that and the fact it was 100% what I wanted with no one else's input...it is not replaceable. The good thing is that without those attachments there will be less anxiety. If the Cruze gets into an accident I won't care. Sadly, when future dogs pass away I probably won't be attached to them because they will be chosen by my husband. So, while I know letting go of these last two attachments from the days of my independence because I built my identity on them is beneficial it is also very hard. They were so much a part of my life I know there will be a big void that will never quite be filled. My intention is to become comfortable with that void and uncertainty. Not being tethered to anything is a really good thing. Letting go of these final two attachments is a positive thing but it's still not easy to let go of what is familiar to step into the void. Letting go of these last few attachments really sets the stage for a fresh new start. in some ways, that can be unsettling because who know's what that unknown territory may hold? The only option, really, is to trust in the universe that this fresh new cycle will be full of good things, positive spiritual growth and development.
Here we come to a very important part of the Kabbalah Tree of Life.
There are many blogs to reference here that I have written for this Sephiroth because it is where Transformation or Transmutation occurs. Here we come to the heart of the Cube of Space which I am still studying so this i just a very preliminary blog (I have recently come to the realization that the Goddess Archetype is Time which means Saturn could actually be feminine on the Symbolic Archeytype level): https://bridgetkorns.weebly.com/blog/the-cube-of-spacetimeand-saturn This is also where we remove the sword from the stone expressing our own Sovereignty....which should post this week. Finally, here is where we can explore the idea of the Sacrificial Heart and that should be posted this week as well. With all of those shared let's take a look at the other concepts that are important with this Sephiroth. Balance There is no doubt that balance is incredibly important. We already woke up to the two elements of our psyche that we need to work with- our Intellectual Mind and Subconscious Willful Heart. In the previous Sephiroth we started to integrate the Subconscious into our waking Conscious mind by learning the language of the Subconscious and working with our dreams. Finding that balance between our Intellect and Heart is important. By working with both through Meditation- after all this is the Meditative Intelligence- we come to understand and value both forms of thought. Each of their gift and they compliment each other. Yet, at this stage we are still 'in bud' much like the Sun Tarot Card key suggests. The changes are mostly under the radar...we can feel them but just like in the Fermentation stage of Alcahemy correlates with this Sephiroth...the changes are occurring on an almost imperceptible level within us. That's because we are fine tuning our sails and our dialogue with the Subconscious. We are learning those subtle cues and we are going to make mistakes. Just as a child learning to speak makes mistakes that must be corrected so that they grow up to be capable of clear communication. Kundalini By chance, as I'm writing this blog I am reading a book called Kundalini An Untold Story by Om Swami. The Book Review for this book won't be out until mid-January. That said, I really recommend this book if you are interested in Kundalini. I've been meaning to buy this book for a long time but put it off. yet, Om Swami provides a very down to Earth real-world and matter of fact description of Kundalini. What he writes about is 100% what matches my experience...which is amazing. I noted in the video that Tiphareth is directly aligned with the Solar Plexus Chakra. This is important because the Solar Plexus Chakra is the one that governs our Will power. This is important in the story of Adam Kadmon...who shattered because his heart became divided (as we will see in the next set of Sephiroth- Geburah and Chesed...both of which represent the Heart Chakra) because of his willful desire to transfer the light of the Creator to Malkuth before the appointed time. Here we find a curious statement by Om Swami that correlates with the Serpent being cast low (this might prompt a further exploration into the Garden of Eden): "The latent energy of kundalini is present in all of us like fire in wood. Our fears and conditioning hold us back. They plunge our creative energy to the bottom most chakra and we end up using it for petty things for the most part of our lives. And through the years we spend living, majority of the time is spent in either battling with ourselves or with others. There is little sense in fighting with the world or accumulating negativity in our minds. Instead, we have the choice to walk on a path that brings our creativity and energies to the fore." pg 75-76 Om Swami goes to explain that this energy of creativity natural home is within the Solar Plexus Chakra. One of the most curious things about humanity is how we create so much that we do not really need. We create things only to please us...not to contribute to the whole of humanity or to serve humanity...sometimes serving the whole aligns but usually people create out of a desire to receive more money...a selfish desire not to serve or magnify the One Creator. When our Creativity rises to our Solar Plexus in service of all it overflows (believe me that since experiencing this I have had tremendous inspiration) which is a sign of a Kundalini Awakening. This Service to All and to The One Creator is the Right Intention. The Sun Such a potent symbol to all cultures and spiritual activity. The Sun, however, is not the highest point of our Ascension process...Yet, it's symbolism is important. The Sun is the strongest source of Creative energy in our Solar System. Without the Sun life on Earth would not exist. To boil down the science behind the sun into simple terms...the Sun provides all of the energy that we need to exist. That is why it the perfect symbol for Will Power. Earth and Water Isn't interesting how Rav. Michael Latiman connected Water with Heaven? This concept of having the right balance of Earth (salt) and Water reminds me of running a salt water aquarium. If you have ever known or tried to keep a salt water aquarium you should know that it's no easy feat to get the mix of salt and water right. If the PH is not right in either direction all of the fish will die. Again, here, we find that Balance is essential...and difficult. Meeting The Higher Self (Soul) I've talked a lot about my experience with meeting my Higher Self so I won't go into details here. You can easily find it by going to the side bar of this blog. The thing is that when I did meet my Higher Self I was absolutely shocked to find that she was entirely focused on the Earth feeling as though each life was a 'ride' and Earth was like Disneyland. I was so appalled and horrified by my souls lack of compassion for me...or any of the Avatars that it/she played on Earth that I didn't know what to make of the experience. At the time I had expected some sort of huge revelation...that my Higher Self would be so in tune with the One Creator that she'd give me some profound revelation that would help me in this life. What I got was shocking and it took me a long time to understand what it meant. Only in hindsight can I comprehend how truly profound that Revelation was to me. For one, I learned not to take life so seriously. My Higher Self surely didn't. I realized my Higher Self was more like an addicted adolescent video game player and wasn't thinking about the bigger picture of the Cosmos. She was happy that I had 'won the game' and had the meeting with her but that was the extent to which she was concerned about this monumental moment. I have since learned that my Higher Self, addicted to the Earth Plane of Existence, was as asleep as I had been prior to my Awakening. I had to Awaken that aspect of myself to Compassion. That is what I think the concept of creating our own Tree of Life really means. By finding balance and uniting the two sides of ourselves- Severity and Mercy- on the Earth Plane we Awaken our Higher Self to it's higher purpose. ..breaking the strangle hold of distraction of the Earth experience... We prompt our Higher Self, which is far from a all-knowing-being, to finally 'grow up.' This idea is backed up in the Edgar Cacye material even if it's not said in simple terms. The Sons of God came here to wake up the Souls of Earth from their single minded focus on creating the Earth Plane experience. In essence, this means by correcting our own Will to Create on the Earth plane we can also correct our Higher Self's intention...causing it to unite it's will with the One Creator and the Divine Plan. Conclusion We've gone deep in this blog and touch on many faucets of this concept. Tiphareth is a very complex Sephiroth...it is the place that needs the most work on our Spiritual Journey. However, when we correct and purify this Sephiroth we transform our lives. Here we start to see with new eyes the world around us and our place in the cosmos. Within the realm of Tiphareth we come to Know Ourselves in ways that the other Sephiroth cannot imagine...and it is with the power of this Sephiroth that we unite the two Sephiroth below it (Hod and Netzach) and the two above (Geburah and Chesed) becoming truly one instead of the dualistic perspective of Good and Evil that has come to define the human experience. Video's I made that can help you explore this suject further: Binah: Shadow Work Video: https://youtu.be/F1cv5oyV_1c The Hero's Journey Video With The Mystical Marriage: https://youtu.be/Z8XXE_eJFzI |
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