Love is one of the most fundamental parts of creation.
That's one of the reasons why the path that most call 'the dark path' which is based on people loving themselves, always putting themselves first and trying to manipulate their way along the Path of the Seeker will eventually end up in the same place as those who work to elevate everyone. I certainly don't recommend the self-centered path because it takes them a lot longer to reach the goal. They are the ones who are going to be trapped in really long cycles. Often they are so trapped in their own psyche/ego/shadow complex that they don't even want to become enlightened or end their own suffering. They're too focused on trying to perfect the art of manipulation. Each path is sacred and each ends up at the same place. Those who choose to elevate the whole, to embrace their shadow, to love and forgive everyone will simply reach enlightenment faster. They're on the Fast Track to living a peaceful life. Once you realizing that everything is truly one...it's pretty obvious that it's not wise to pick sides. Of course, I'll still cast my votes during elections, but I also know that the results are not within my hands. Eventually, the struggle of satisfying the self by taking from someone else becomes a little silly. After all, if you embrace the fact we create our Subjective Reality it leads to understanding Unity...we are everything that we see and we are everything we encounter. We are the person who just cut us off at the traffic light. We are the little lady bug that we notice dancing along the leaf. We are the plant of which that leave is a part. We are the air, the dust, and the ashes. We are the ones manipulating light to create our own personal reality. There really isn't anyone else here. Just us, in this little hologram projector booth both running the show and experiencing it. We are Dorothy and the Wizard of Oz at the same time. That's a bit mind bending, I know, and I don't know if there is an outer reality beyond this booth that is actually real. I'm not sure if that's the Realm of Spirit and if beyond the Realm of Spirit there is something else. After all, Creation is supposed to be Infinite so there should be an infinite amount of realities that we can experience. To try to strive against someone else, to compete with them, and to act as though we are superior to them is a bit senseless when you embrace the concept of Oneness. A life of equality and where everyone is the same is boring. I'm not advocating that at all. I don't believe in a dystopian one world socialist future. In fact, it's learning the perspective of which someone else is living their life that there is great value in diversity. I love learning about different cultures and their values. Learning what they are value that's different from me gives me an options to refresh my own values. While are all one on one level that all-knowing part of us is not a part of this reality. We are playing down here as separate beings and in the process all of us are learning while the aspect of All-That-Is that is AUM (Absolute Unbounded Multiplicity) can learn too. So, diversity and individuality are absolutely necessary. In the end, the most important thing about love is it is the most fundamental building block of this cosmos. Love is what binds everything together...it's the sheer will of the Creator- of All-That-Is - for us to exist. Maybe it's Dark Matter. We are safely nestled in a little cocoon- not a prison or anything negative- but a place where we can experience as many cycles of being a human to gain the ability to retain individuality when we are outside of the flesh. There is a funny thing in spirituality where it's believed that we return to Source and then we get reabsorbed again. I've never understood that thought. Some people really wish to lose their individual sense of self. Others, on the other hand, think that we are going to continue to a life that is just like this one but without the suffering...where it takes a lot longer to die. The Hindu tradition confirms this and so do some channels. That's what some extraterrestrials are like and even Angels exist for a very long time without death but learn very slowly. Yet, the Creator holds all of them, all levels and souls growing at different rates without judgement. I can understand that because as a manager I had employees learn at different rates. Some mastered everything very fast, some mastered the register, some mastered cleaning and I never judged or belittled any of them. I simply knew where to place them to gain the optimal performance and I never required any of them that did not wish to master all of the different positions to do so...I placed them where they were happiest because it allowed the work place to flow the best. I think of the Creator as being like that...he lets souls sort out where they are happiest with their productivity towards individuality and lets things play out as they will. All the while knowing the most likely outcome. So, this wasn't a very organizing blog but just stream of consciousness. Thank you, Dear Brave Soul, for joining me on the Path of the Seeker.
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You might be wondering...why is she showing the new Lion King Trailer for this topic.
First, isn't it weird that there was only one trailer and isn't even weirder that the focus is on Scar talking about how, "The world isn't fair," ? This just seems so timely. Yet, Scar really represents the type of people I want to talk about in this blog. They hide in the Shadows searching and stealing the scraps...but why? I choose not to believe in evil for evil's sake. Sure, there might be some out there who are truly deranged. Those I know who did things I disagreed with were often suffering the most. Living in the Shadow is not something someone chooses to do. We know from our studies on this blog about the Shadow. To have a big Shadow is to have a lot of disowned aspects...as lot of shame, fear and guilt. The grudge that creates the Shadow exists because we hold the mistakes we've made against ourselves. Is Love Finite? Those who live in the Shadow actually believe that there is not enough love to go around. So, they seize onto whatever love that they can find or they strike out to those who seem to possess the love and success they want. However, when they try their hand at what others were successful at doing...they create a wasteland just like Scar does in the Lion King. These are the energetic vampires. In my experience there are far more energetic vampires then people who are spiritually connected to Source Energy. Some people honestly don't know how to connect with the divine. Some may have a perception of it but they are too afraid to connect because of the karma of making mistakes in past lives or this one. When we choose to live a righteous life (which basically just means falling your heartfelt intuition) we heal all past lives...but some people either don't know that or can't believe it. The thing is that when you are connected to the Divine...when you put into place a Spiritual Practice and work to create that bond...you have more energy and vitality. Yet, when you start from nothing...when all you know is that Spiritual Hunger...it can seem impossible. That's why those who cannot feel Oneness or naturally connect suffer so much. I also don't believe it's through any fault of their own. They honestly don't believe it's possible to connect because they have never had that experience. Take for example, in my last life that I can recall I was murdered by someone who couldn't connect to Source. That person saw myself and the person I was dating in that life so filled with vitality and opportunity that he struck out. When I experienced my past life memory I stepped into his shoes for a moment to feel what he was and it was hear breaking. I understood in that moment the utter lack and inability to love that this person felt. They were an abandoned street orphan that no one paid attention to except to shove or spit on. I can't even imagine what that life was like and so in this life I felt so much forgiveness despite the fact that soul had killed me in a previous life and took advantage of me in this life because he couldn't experience love in this life either. Being An Example The need for Healers and Mystics is tremendous. By choosing to connect with the Divine we serve as examples to the people who walk in the Shadow. Perhaps they won't take the opportunity to integrate their Shadow in this life but it will leave an impression on them. Hopefully, they will receive the message that the Shadow is not something to be feared. We hold space for the opportunity for them to take that step and provide an example of how that looks. Have you ever noticed when you are at the store and you're exclaiming over some product...people are naturally attracted to look at that item? ​ The other day, I was buying grapes at the grocery store. They are these super yummy organic cotton candy grapes that my daughter and I go nutty over. I exclaimed, "Yay they have our favorite grapes!" to my daughter. Three other people walked over to investigate the grapes. I'm not sure any of them bought the grapes but...you get the point. When people see that others are happy because of something they are naturally attracted to the source of that happiness. Yes, some people can't stand to seem someone who is happy and connected. They may be like my co-worker from a few years ago who added bleach to the dishwater because she knew it broke me out in a rash. The pain they experience comes from the fact that they don't understand. They can't comprehend how or why others are connected to the Divine Source of Energy and things are so hard from them. They feel like empty broken vessels. How I Understand Certainly, I know this feeling. I've chosen not to be disconnected at certain times in my life because I found the idea too frightening. I didn't want to imagine that an all-knowing God was watching me all of the time. Why would God watch me get dressed or pee? I was born tired. I think I was carrying a huge karmic burden. I came into this life depressed and with very low energy. I had trouble connected with other kids who seemed absolutely bizarre to me for some reason. I would watch them from afar just observing their behavior and I've never felt that I fit in anywhere. People either treat me as a guru (my nickname at one Middle School was 'Mother' and everyone came to me for advice, for example) or they are naturally repelled by my energy. The Oneness felt more like a burden when I didn't fit in during my school years. I was mad at that deep abiding peace because my heart was full of turmoil and rejection. So, I disconnected as much as I could and tried to go about life as society dictated. In the last few years I've learned how sweet it is to be connected and feel the Oneness. I can't maintain that state of being all of the time...but I do manage it most of the time. When I breath deep, imagine a beam of light pass through my body and rooting me to the ground...it's easy for me to feel outward with my energetic body and just be...but it does take a little bit of time. That's why meditation is so necessarily for me. Connecting daily helps me recharge. The Qi Connection In Qi Gong there is the belief that every child is born with Qi that they inherit from their parents. This life force energy (the essence of which is love) is what keeps the body going. Sometimes, people inherit a naturally low amount of Qi. The only way to really overcome a deficiency of Qi is to open up and connect with the divine. Otherwise, again, we come back to the idea of people who behave like scavenges fighting over the scraps of life force energy they can steal from others by dominating them. Conclusion I feel sorry for those who cannot feel Oneness or connect to the Divine. I really believe deep down in my heart that they are innocent and do not know what they are doing. They don't know why they feel the way that they do or how to help themselves enter an empowered state of being. The only thing that can possibly help them is by living the best life we can and hoping that our example will rub off on them. I do believe this situation will change as we transition into the Age of Aquarius. Even though I've spent most of my life feeling on the inside like Wednesday Adams...I realize that I'm a bit of a live wire. Not only does it scare some people but it's caused people to attach to me and drain me dry of my energy. Even when super depressed people didn't realize it because I've always had a sunny disposition. The practice of not maintaining relationships when they cross boundaries has really helped. I can consciously realize now when people are draining my energy. I have had a little practice with stopping the flow but I'm still learning so I'm in no position to share that with others. Thank you, dear soul, for joining me on the Path of the Seeker today by reading this blog. I hope that I have given you food for thought. As promised here is my Valentines Day post. I wrote this mostly angled for those who don't have a loved one in their life. Yet it can apply to anyone who is hoping their situation will change for the better...be it a move or a job or whatever change you may desire.
All of us experience cycles. I've experienced a five year cycle where I learn something and a three year cycle of a spiritual growth spurt on a regular basis. To really experience something new, we have to make room for new experiences and to do that we have to put to bed our old lessons. I'm going to explain the process to open up for healing so you can close down those old emotional lessons you've been re-experiencing in your life and how to open up the room for a new more positive experience. Don't Fear The Unknown Fear. We all feel it at times. The feeling can be pervasive. Sometimes it doesn't seem to have a source. All of us Fear change, we try to hold onto the past pleasurable moments and fear the negative. When things start to change we leap to the worst case scenario mentally...then worry about it incessantly and as the psychological concept of Self-Fulfilling Prophecy explains...our subconscious does everything in it's power to validate our expectation. Since we live in a subjective reality it is easy to find proof that our fear are valid. We can almost prove any point that we make our mind up to argue. I discovered this during my college years. I would take a stance, seek out articles and studies that supported it and craft my entire paper around a hypothesis. Not once did I find information that suggested an error...if I did find something that contradicted the point of view I was arguing I'd leave it out of the paper. In fact, every fear you have is valid. There I said it...it is possible to experience all of your worst nightmares in every scenario you encounter in your life. If that is what you want to experience. If you want to experience the more positive side of fear learning to frame it properly so it does not control your life is an important step. Sometimes to gain something very important we have to take a huge risk. With love, when you first meet someone you like there is the risk of rejection. Accepting impermanence, the cycle of life in death where nothing lasts forever in our reality, alleviates the pain of fear. Even if you are rejected you know the feeling won't last forever. You can dedicate time to feeling that fear or you can examine it, label it and release it. As long as we Fear the feeling of Fear we will hold onto all of the emotional baggage of our past. We will continually project it onto others and onto our future. We will create the reality we don't want. Instead, we must make Fear a friend. When fear comes to visit I greet it, "Oh hello there old friend. Nice to see you again. What is it that I need to be mindful of?" Once it delivers the message it goes away...if I fight it the feeling grows and grows until it's overwhelming and I can't even bring myself to leave the house. Life itself seems to lose it's vibrancy. I'm in the lowlands of despair. Some people spend their entire life in that despair because they hold onto their fears and regrets so tightly they don't allow themselves to experience anything else. When you reach the point where you don't fear the Unknown...where you don't care about how you go from A to B...you enter a very powerful place. In fact, you start to see that the Unknown is not a dark black hole...but a brilliant white blank slate of potential. Clearing Your Emotional Energy In order to create room for something new in your life...you first have to recognize what didn't work in the past...but in order to do that you have to accept the pain you felt as a result of the decisions you made and release the hold of that pain in your life. Exploring that pain takes a certain amount of bravery. No one likes to see where they are lacking or examine a painful situation they experienced from multiple perspectives. I find it hard not to shut down emotionally in such situations let alone revisit or re-imagine them! Back in 2007, just before meeting Ross, I cleared up a huge mental hurdle I had for myself. I felt that I was lacking something because I was divorced. I didn't see why anyone would give me a chance again because I had not been faithful to my vows the first time. I realized I had said those vows only out of obligation and that I had no control of what had ended that relationship. I released the label completely. By naming that label- a divorcee- and then releasing any emotional energy that it had over me I moved into a state of expectation. I knew that I deserved a better experience. I knew that what had influenced me in the past had no power over me in my current life. Just because I had a failed marriage didn't mean I was doomed to repeat that mistake. I was emotionally honest with myself. I knew why the last marriage hadn't worked. I identified the behavior, mostly a lack of self-esteem and social conditioning that a girl who dated a lot of people was a whore. I realized the role that had played in my poor choices and I healed them. This was a powerful process. When I met Ross in 2008 I was a totally different person that I had been before. I was more emotionally honest. I was less of a people pleaser. If he didn't like me it wouldn't matter. I would go on, and there would be someone else if I chose. I didn't take it so seriously when I made a mistake or beat myself up for hours afterwards. On our first date when I farted a lot because I had a white pasta sauce that flared up my lactose intolerance...I let it go. I didn't dwell on it. The decision if he would come back for more was up to him and as unlikely as it would seem...for him it was a breath of fresh air to be with someone who was authentic. To release emotional energy we have to accept that we had a bad experience. We have to own our role in creating that experience because in any situation where two people were involved both are responsible. I made poor decisions from a place of dis-empowerment that led to my first marriage that was horrible. All of the signs were there that he was not mentally healthy. I should have run away screaming. I chose to stay with him. I chose to try and save him from himself...which was never my burden or my role to play. By owning my owning my own mistakes and the responsibility I held in that situation I was able to learn from them. I was able to adjust my approach to relationships in such a way that I would not repeat that experience. We often repeat the same lesson over and over again until we learn from them. Unless we learn what we did to get what we got...we're going to keep doing the same behavior and keep getting the same thing. Preparing The Way In 2007 I didn't know I was preparing for the Best Life Partner I could ever have met coming into my life. I was just trying to live life the best way I possibly could. We don't really need 'tools' to prepare the way. Instead it's it is a frame of mind we apply in the now...in this very moment. The best definition for abundance I have come across is from Bashar. He describes abundance not as money but as, "Being able to do what you want to do when you want to do it." In that way, I am very abundant and when you feel abundant it carries over to every other area of your life. I discovered that in 2008 when I met Ross. I was already abundant and happy...he sensed that and was attracted to me. If I had felt needy he would not have been attracted to me. Being in that zone means that you have to accept where you are at in life. You can't sit there thinking, "My life could be better if I had this...this...and this..." In that way you'll always wait for life to 'happen' to you instead of being an active participant. Then when something blind sides you and you're wondering why...you feel like a helpless victim and not someone who played a role in the situation. You have to know that right now in this very moment your life is the best that it could be...that you have mind the potential in every situation that you have faced. Sure, you don't have to be 100% happy with the situation you are in right now...but you have to realize life is never going to be perfect (and to say that it has to be is, in a way, arguing with Reality and God...and it's just an insane way to choose to suffer). I wasn't 100% happy living in my parents house in Big Bear Lake. I felt isolated and I felt bad that I didn't have my own independence. Yet, I chose to embrace it and to make the best of the moment. I enjoyed showering my parents with thoughtful gifts and I bought my very first vehicle (my 2007 Ranger) right off of the lot! To experience abundance you have to be happy with what you have and not focus on what you lack. That means taking inventory and finding ways that you were lucky. I was lucky my parents were very loving and supportive of me allowing me to live in their house. I was lucky to live in a place that so embodies nature and I only had to drive a couple minutes to reach a nature walk that I could enjoy with Angel. I was lucky to have my dog, Angel, as my constant companion. I had a lot of blessings, but I really had to appreciate them and accept them with every fiber of my being to really feel abundant. When you reach the point where you feel that all of your needs are being met...you have fulfilled Robert Malsow's Hierarchy of Needs. At that point, you are a Self-Actualized person. Malsow suggested that only 2% of the population is self-actualized! Only 2% of the people are capable of meeting all of their own needs! That's when the real miracles happen. I can attest that you might be self-actualized at one moment and in the next have your feet cut off from beneath you. I believe that we are spiritually tested in this way and at some point you can (because I have) become comfortable with that uncertainty...that groundlessness. If you feel as though you are lacking something in your life the best way to deal with it is to prepare. Go through Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs...identify areas where you feel as though you are lacking...and search for a solution. Believe me if you Seek you will Find and you will be Fulfilled. Every person's journey is unique. What worked for me may not work for you. Some people might not achieve it in this life time. That's okay, at our essence we are infinite beings so there really isn't need to rush. Accepting The Unexpected I did a little ceremony before I met Ross. I sat down and I wrote down in my journal everything I wanted in a man. That list was over one hundred items long! I just poured out everything I wanted. Everything I desired. I wrote that same list on another piece of paper. This was during the winter of 2007. When the fire in the hearth was going pretty good I threw in the paper. I let go of all of those expectations. What I didn't realize was that I had set an intention, then I let go of expectations. By burning that paper of expectations I let the Universe know that I was going to accept whatever it provided. This, I've learned, is a basic way of manifestation. You set an intention, you place the order with the universe, you get into a state of gratefulness for what you expect to arrive...and you let go of expectations. If I had insisted on a person who met all one hundred of those traits...if I had looked for them instead of just being accepting of whoever came...I would not have reached out to Ross. When I went back to look at the list many years later in my journal I realized he actually met all of those expectations. He fulfilled all 100 but not quite in the way I had anticipated. That's how the Universe works sometimes. Reaching out to Ross in the first place was a fluke. I was on Ok Cupid for the Myers Briggs Type Indicator Test. I stumbled onto part of the website that allowed you to rate guys. I was really enjoying rating the guys and giving the ones I thought were really fake and egotistical lower scores. When I saw Ross' profile I thought it was fake and wrote a snarky letter calling him out...little did I have any idea it would lead to the greatest romance in my life. Ross was far from an echo chamber. He didn't think or feel the same way as I do...he still doesn't. I've had an influence on him...he's no longer a straight up atheist as he realized it's anti-god. Yet, that's what makes our relationship so interesting. Often times, what we expect or what we think we want is not what we need. That's why it's so important to let go of expectations and accept what comes our way. This allows for so much more creativity and the Universe can deliver you the perfect thing or person you didn't expect. Conclusion In order to make room for the new in our life we have to follow a bit of a process. Each of our processes are unique. At different levels of our own life path we will experience a different cycle of release and rebirth. First, we can't fear the unknown. We have to let go of the Fear and open ourselves up to infinite possibility. Second, you have to let go of your emotional baggage and pain. As long as you're identifying with something painful you radiate that energy and you will only attract something similar. The only way to create something new is to let go of that old pain and energy...let it heal instead of keeping that wound open. Think of it as personally cleaning up your mental house. Third, prepare the way or set an intention. How you do it doesn't matter...the simple the better. Don't worry about how you're going to get from A to B or set a date. Just feel the excitement that you can feel the way being cleared so that it can come into your life. The universe has it's own timing and thought it might not meet what you expect...it's always perfect and looking back you realize how perfect that timing really was but usually only in hindsight. This takes a little bit of trust that the universe will bring you what you need when you need it....but once you can search your heart and find that trust your life will open up in new and exciting ways. Four, accept the unexpected. If we are holding onto a very specific ideal we might reject everything else...even the Greatest Experience we might ever have.. because we were only looking for one specific experience. When we are looking for that one thing...we might over look a dozen similar things that would serve us better that the universe has presented but because it didn't match exactly what we wanted. Five, live in the moment. Explore the depths of every moment for the golden nuggets of wisdom and the type of experiences that bring you the most joy. By doing this now you are building yourself a better future. We can't go back to yesterday and we can't fast forward to the future...if we experienced only the high points in our life we would miss out on the depth of the experience that often gives us the most wisdom. Evert moment is precious. Every time we meet a stranger we have an opportunity to learn a little bit more and express our compassion a little bit more...making the entire world a better place. Well, it seems like a formula that I have presented. You don't have to do it in exactly this order but this is what I have learned works for me. As I said, the process might be different for you. At different stages in life and spiritual development it may take a longer or shorter period for the change you want to enter your life. Each of us have a unique path...this is just what I've experienced. Marrying a skeptic has been the best experience. I am very grateful for my loving husband and I have many cherished stories about our experiences together. I never would have considered marrying a skeptic...if I had held fast to what I was looking for...I might have demanded someone who was a complete mirror of me. I would have missed out as Ross continuously challenges me to grow intellectually. I can even apply the same situation to my best friend Jennifer. If I had rejected her husband Joe when he said, "Oh my gosh you remind me of my wife I bet the two of you will make great best friends..." I would never have the fantastic relationship I have with her. She makes my life just that much sweeter. Don't hold onto your emotional baggage expecting to get what you already got, open up your mind to all possibilities and live every moment acting in compassion...and you really can't go wrong. I hope you enjoyed this post and I wish you a wonderful Valentines Day |
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