For me one of the biggest struggles has been watching a lot of people who are suffering but refusing to do the personal work necessary to release the belief systems or patterns (that they inherited from their parents, society or past lives). Some people have reached a point in their thinking where they don't think that more work is necessary, their minds become like rocks, and they don't experience new growth but repeat the same behavioral and life patterns.
Even more amazing, some people are so addicted to the material world, serving themselves, the physical experience and afraid of the light (because of shame) that they don't want to even consider their issues. The Darkness and Light Let me explain how I define darkness and light first because it can be confusing. This isn't as simple as good and bad. Yet, at the same time it is is far more simple and complex than that concept. The Darkness is, in a sense, selfishness. We give into the darkness when we believe that our self is all that exists and all that we can know. This represents only being a servant to the self and working towards goals that only serve the self. This is not inherent to our spiritual nature. All of us as souls chose to turn away from the light of the Creator/God/All-That-IS or the natural Order to pursue selfish indulgences create our lives in the image we think we want but ultimately leads to our dissatisfaction. This path leads to a disconnection from others, the rest of creation, a feeling of loss, isolation and loneliness. The Light is the sense of service to others and the interconnection of every aspect of the universe from the smallest mineral (rock) to the beauty of the the cosmos. This is the perspective of Oneness and yet Manyness at the same time. This is the natural order of All-That-Is/God/the Creator. When looking for an example of this we need only look to the story of Yeshua or Buddha or to Native American teachings of the animals, minerals or plants being our cousins. In this perspective we go with the flow of the Creative Forces, we do not resist them, we listen to our intuition in the now, and even when we are uncertain of the outcome we follow that intuition. Within that natural creative flow, we set an intention then we let go of expectations so that All-That-Is, God, The Creative Forces...bring us the best outcome even if it is something we never could have imagined! To live a life of the Light is to truly be a warrior and takes more courage than forcing our will on the outer world trying to force it into the life we think we want based on all of our old patterns and beliefs. There is a balance of trust and faith in All-That-Is that if we are in the state of Wholeness everything will be provided to us. I know, that being in this state of expectancy, service to others and acceptance (it's a mental state of suppleness) can be hard to maintain when it's so easy to slip into the common paradigm but I believe in the promise made by Jesus/Yeshua: "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all of these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:33 So, being in this State of Mind (I will explain my point of view on this in another post) what happens is that the Creative Forces/All-That-IS/God is able to provide all other needs. This working within the natural Order of things, HIS will (as mentioned in the Lords Prayer) instead of forcing and projecting our own will onto creation makes it easy for thins to naturally flow to us. Most of us exist in a state of Darkness throughout our life. This is the common paradigm on Earth. There is only the self, sometimes our family as well, but primarily the self that we think about or consider when making choices. There are more people today that are Lightworkers then ever before and a lot of false Lightworkers who've heard the knowledge but don't apply it in their daily life. There are a lot of people praying for self-destruction. There are also a lot of people who see that there is another way of being and they don't even attempt to turn towards the Light. I understand starting, then falling off, then trying again. What I don't understand is why some people don't even try. This post is primarily a meditation and a reflection on what I see and experience in daily life. Amplifying the Darkness When I first started on my path to Wholeness I didn't understand the concepts involved with what people were talking about. When I read James Redfield's book Celestine Prophecy and his other books I felt that there were hints of truth in it but the method of doing this spiritual 'clearing' wasn't clear. I couldn't quite figure out how I could apply it to my own every day life. Yeah, it sounded interesting for other people of other cultures, maybe but applying it to the very solid unchangeable version of the world I had been taught seemed impossible. Further, compounding the problem is that there is no singular method that people can use to loosen their emotional burden. I have to say that therapy did not help me at all. I was not taught how to recondition my mind or thinking at all. Instead the therapist really seemed to focus on what I saw as negative which caused those problems to become bigger and far worse because I was concentrating on them. Our society has a tendency to focus on what we do not want. What this means is our Higher Self, because we are so excited about negative experiences and seem to want them...we are given even more negative experiences. Just look at our news. Media can be seen as a direct reflection of society because they go with stories that reward them with the most viewers. The viewers effectively vote for what they want to see by tuning in. News outlets have found that negative stories are what get the most attention. That's why they will cut from other shows to a live video of a High Speed Chase or a Police Stand Off. As a society, on a subconscious level, we have been amplifying the Darkest aspect of humanity, focusing on it and then saying, "This is the human experience." Holding Onto Pain and Darkness Yet, even as I talk to people and listen to their stories, which has always happened, I find that people don't want to heal. For a time I will invest attention in a person that is having a hard time. Those people, almost like an addict to the help, love and support I give, will come back to me multiple times with an update about their situation. What I have inevitably found was that those people will sometimes resolve their current problems and then automatically find a way to create an equally miserable experience. Their cycle of pain or crisis is unending. There was one woman who complained of chronic pain. Eventually, she had her gallbladder removed. However, instead of feeling better after the surgery, she complained that she was still having pain. At the same time, she portrayed herself as a victim because she had to take care of her elderly parents, who did not live with her, by checking in on them occasionally. She never once said a positive word about her life. Some people honestly don't want to heal. These people want to hold onto the pain that has brought them so much misery. That misery, even though they cry out and say, "Oh I am so miserable," in some way serves them. In many cases, I've discovered that it gives them something to talk about and it's a way to get attention. This is probably a pattern that started in childhood where their parents only paid attention to them when something bad happened. So, they were taught that the only way to get attention was by being in crisis. They hold onto the pain instead of healing because they are in love with the attention their wound gives them. Even if they heal one wound they will create another one just to continue the cycle. They only know how to approach life from the position of someone who is wounded...a perpetual victim. The sad thing is that they are only a victim of is themselves. Inevitably, they feel lonely and unsupported because other people are naturally pushed away by such a mentality. They try to change their outer world, telling others they must change because they are the "bullies" but what needs to change is the mind of the victim. Choosing To Be A Phoenix or A Victim This is a tough subject in our time. In a world where micro-aggressions, micro-invalidations and micro-insults are a thing it's important to look at why people want to be victims. Why would people want to amplify such petty slights? Why would they try to force their will on other people? This might sound terrible that people would actually fall back to the position of victim out of choice. Yet, ultimately, being a permanent victim is absolutely a choice and a pattern that the individual is creating in their own life. Most of it has to do with them taking events personally and interpreting them through the perspective that they are the victim. In the moment of a circumstance we can be a victim. There is no doubt that someone who is raped, had their house robbed, witnessed a loved one being killed, has been beaten up, been discriminated or suffered from some other form of personal space invasion is a victim. Yet, they are only a victim in that moment. People absolutely deserve to be compensated and justice done to the perpetrators of these acts in the hope that they do not continue to create more victims. Yet, the person who was victimized has a choice. They can remain a victim their entire life or they can use the Dark Night of the Soul to transform themselves. Every time we are reduced to ashes we have the opportunity to rise from those ashes as a Phoenix of hope so that we can be a light to others. We have a choice to be the Phoenix or the Victim. Yes, it is an exchange of energy that occurs between the perpetrator and the victim. The person on the receiving end can, ultimately, choose what they do with that energy. You can own that experience and use it as a platform to gaining a broader more enlightened view of humanity or you can allow it to crush your spirit. Everyone always has a choice. The Benefit of Being A Victim There are benefits to being a victim. Being a permanent victim relieves people of their responsibility for their own happiness, prosperity and success in life. Some people even claim that because they are victims their thoughts and actions are not their fault! They will inevitably become the victimizer and create more victims because misery loves company. This is very powerful because it gives the person a reason a way to justify all of their negative behaviors and activities. They act as though they are not in control of their lives, and in many ways they are right, because they are giving all of their power to others from the potential offender to the true offenders. By their very subconscious behavior they create offenders out of neutral behaviors by subtle attacks or overly defensive behavior. When the person fails to succeed at anything in their life they fall back on the label of a victim. "Well, that didn't work," they say, "because I am a victim." Fill in the word victim with any of the thousands of labels that are synonymous with that word in our culture currently (female, immigrant, gay, minority, etc.) and you have millions of people who think of themselves as victims. Further, all of these victim groups are justifying and enforcing one another so it's a ever deepening unhealthy psychological state of society. The people who think the world is being controlled by a negative entity or aliens fall into this category as well. These people see themselves as victims that are being held down. As long as they see themselves that way they will be...because they are creating it out of choice within their state of mind. Then there are the people who look at the government and think that's what's holding them down or holding them back. Still others think that corporations are in collusion with the government to hold them back and make them sick with genetically modified foods. There are even people who believe that they are victims of Satan and that's why they can't succeed in life and bad things happen to them. All of these are just excuses not to look within, not to look at the self, but to project outwards on outer organizations, groups and people a sense of helplessness. These are all expressions of Faith-Less-Ness, in themselves, in the Creator, and in the Natural Order of the world. Yet, what is creating this irregularity is their choice to resist the natural flow of creative flows because they are pursuing an image they have created in their own heads instead of trusting in a Higher Power that has a better plan that will make them happier. Are People Addicted to The Darkness? So many people are addicted to the Darkness. The drama is so exciting. Even when told about the idea that there is another way to live, even with all of that information at their fingertips to do so, they choose the Darkness. This used to make my heart ache. Why do people choose to suffer? For most, it is because that is all they know. They wallow in their suffering and the suffering of others. Just look at the trend of Reality Television that amplifies the worst part of human nature. The Light is so foreign to them, the nature of Wholeness and the prosperity of Happiness that they cannot allow themselves to partake in the experience. Part of this is fear, like a junkie not wanting to give up their drugs because it's been their coping mechanism for so long. They cannot imagine life without darkness, sadness, drama and misery. They must be distracted by some outer wrong in the world so that they do not have to examine themselves. They resist the natural flow because they must be right all of the time and will not submit to any power outside of themselves. Part of this is feeling that they are unworthy of the Light, of happiness, and Wholeness. Why face that fear when we can remain with the familiar and known trends? We learned these patterns of behavior, thinking and beliefs from our experiences, parents, from our society and from school. They are tired and true producing results we can expect and rely on. By the age of seven we have mentally formed all of the rules to our game of life. Untying these rules can be hard because we have to face the unknown. We have to chart new territory in life as we know it...deviating from all of the patterns and examples that we know. The people in love with the darkness might, for a time, be able to apply the information of how to clear emotional blocks from their life...but then, out of habit, reflex and because they are used to them...they will place them right back. While I feel sad for such people, I have come to realize that I cannot save them or help them. I watch them, and I hope one day they will be ripe for help, but I know that they are not ready. Perhaps they will not be ready in this life. Conclusion A state of Darkness, of selfishness, hopelessness and powerlessness is the common state of the human being in our society. Right now, it seems as though our world is rewarding the people who feel this way, that willingly take on the label of a permanent victim and it is amplifying the Darkness. When we dwell in the Darkness we are slaves to our own selfish desires. This is a form of disorder and isolation that is not something that the Creator/All-That-Is/God wishes for humanity but one that we create by resisting our natural inherent soul-self and the natural flow of creation. This force, this Darkness, is not terrible or evil. This has given rise to our ability to be individual souls. We can tell the difference between ourselves and the rest of creation. Yet it is what people do with and because of this energy that can be destructive. In a past life, as I described, I was murdered. The kid who murdered me felt powerless and I felt his powerlessness in the moment that I recalled my death in that life. I understood his sense of powerlessness and that he did not feel important. I understood by killing me he was striking out at that part of himself because he did not think he could have what I did. I will add, that in his current life he had the same victim mentality. I often tried to understand why people killed Yeshua/Jesus. I believe the reason is much like that killed me in my past life. They could not stand what he represented because the Light he represented only amplified the Darkness within them. They could not tolerate this reflection of themselves.They did not know what they did, striking out in powerlessness at someone they saw as powerful. They didn't realize they were rejecting someone who represented a pattern, a way, for them to find Wholeness and turn back towards the Light in their own lives. That is why he asked God to forgive them, because they did not know what they were doing. Sadly, for many people in this day and age they are the same. They claim the title of victim and cast the disowned aspects of themselves into the darkness creating their own nightmares. They are in love with their misery. Even more sad, is that only they can save themselves. Spirit will continue to send them Wake Up calls, until the pain is too much and they sever themselves from life or they Awaken to the Kingdom of Heaven within. I will explain my point of view on that in my next post.
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