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I don't like joining groups.
I'll participate from time to time but I hate feeling obligated. I'm a lone wolf introvert. I just don't like group dynamics. I do fantastic and I am a team player (which sometimes means I do all of the work and other people slide by with subpar contributions) but I just really don't like groups of people. I usually come away so drained from being in those types of situations that I am grumpy for days afterward. I was a member of the Learning Light Center but that's pretty much like donating to them and you get a free 15 minute reading and a free 15 minute healing but even better is the discount for their bookstore. That's a good way to dip a toe into the water with those experiences. I haven't been a member in three years though...because my view of psychic readings has drastically changed and I the Reiki by proxy videos Lune Innate is all I really feel I need. How The A.R.E. Is Different The Edgar Cacye A.R.E. is different. First, I don't have to attend anything. Second, I've really benefited from the knowledge they share openly and willingly. There are no secrets or need for confidentiality or any of that nonsense so many esoteric groups usually involve. Third, there is no hierarchy besides the type you'd see in any business. Fourth, they have a really cool magazine. Fifth, they do a lot of charitable stuff and I'm happy to help enable them to do them...from a Summer Camp to providing Prisoners with Spiritual books...the charity side of the A.R.E. is phenomenal. However, while those are all good reasons they are not the primary reason I'm a member. My Two Guides I've always had a Male and female guide. I first met them when I read the book for Brian Froud's Faerie Oracle in the nineties. I was recently reading a journal from that time and had to laugh. Edgar Cacye has always been one of my guides. He's not always around but he shows up when big stuff is going down. I've had a variety of dreams with him in them but I didn't really connect it all until just recently. Back in the nineties I didn't know who Edgar Cacye was or about the Association. I knew nothing about the organization when I worked with Brian Fround's Faerie Oracle. At the time I was a born again Christian and I was reading the bible from cover to cover. My mom was terrified of the supernatural so she had no clue about Edgar Cacye. I had no idea what an Oracle deck was. My mom had bought it at Sams club for me as a 16th birthday present. She thought it was just a book and it had faeries. I was a voracious reader and would read anything. I also collected anything associated with Faeries so she bought me the book figuring it was something I would read. She also buys me books about Angels all of the time. She's a funny woman. She had no idea what she had put into my hands and neither did I! If it had been a Tarot deck I would never have touched it! Either way, I was shocked when the meditation in the book produced results. One of them allowed me to feeling my energetic auric field for the first time. The book activated the chakras, spoke about a tale and wings...and it was the wings that allowed me to feel my energy field. That energy field was huge and took up almost the entire room and I was blown away! The book also explains how to get in touch with Guides and it spoke a little bit about guides. I didn't know anything about that so I decided to give it a try. Shockingly, I had automatic results. Now I have not been able to call on them that way since (maybe I should read the book again come to think of it...I haven't read it since the nineties). I met two guides. There was a man and a dark skinned native American woman with the longest beautiful dark hair I've ever seen. The woman was not forthcoming with a name so I called her Meera. That was a High Priestess character from a story that I was writing at the time. When I asked the name of the man in spirit I was confused. I didn't know anyone named Edgar. I wrote in my journal that there were two syllables for the name but I could only remember the last of Gar...which I adapted to Garrit. Then the last name I wrote was Casement! Looking back on that now I think it's hilarious! Yet, it's also a validation. Edgar usually shows up as an older version with silver hair and piercing blue friendly eyes. He doesn't usually wear glasses. At the time I really didn't see the point in being in touch with the Spirit Guides. They didn't seem to really have anything to say about my teenage struggles so I let that whole thing go and went on as though nothing had happened. How I Learned About The A.R.E. My Dad was given a book before I was born. He thought it was conspiracy theory junk but he kept it for some reason and it ended up on the family book shelf with a set of encyclopedias. When I was a teenager I picked it up and read it. I can't even remember what it said. I think it was a book that had to do with doomsday prophecies but I'm not sure. There was a lot more in it then Edgar's predictions but the name Edgar Cacye stood out and I always remembered it afterward. I thought I had a dream book from the A.R.E. but what I remember doesn't seem to exist. I'd say it's the Mandela Effect but I found one that looks like the one I had and it's by a totally different company. I really loved that dream book and really associated it with Edgar Cacye for some reason. There was a comforting element to it. Back then I would read all of the small print int he books and I read that he A.R.E. encouraged people to reach out to them for more information. That stuck with me for some reason. 2014 In 2014 I entered a Dark Night of the Soul. I've shared this before but what was really interesting is when I went to have my Past Life Reading. Now I was blowing out of the water all of the stuff that I had been raised with by going there. I was going against the grain, against my husbands beliefs, it scared the crap out of my mom and my dad was very much against it. To my surprise no one was waiting for me at the end of my last life. So, after exploring a second life the past life reader instructed me to meet with someone in Spirit. I saw my Guides...Aswana and Edgar Cacye. I even clearly told Kim that Edgar Cacye was my guide. I remember smiling and feeling so warm. I was so happy to be with these two! They turned me into a tree and planted me. At that time I was never really fully in my body energetically. My lower chakras were completely blocked. I had one foot in spirit and one foot on Earth...and literally a few days before I had almost died on the operating table during a surgery to remove my septic gallbladder. Not long after when I was struggling with PTSD I was told in a dream to go to the A.R.E. I started to read John Van Auken's books...things were validated and clicked...and woosh...I was firmly on the Path of the Seeker. Conclusion I don't think that I'm special that Edgar Cacye is one of my guides. I don't know what my connection is to Edgar. I do feel like he's family. I had a close family friend from Kentucky that I considered family when I was younger. People have asked me where I'm from in the South because I somehow picked up that Kentucky accent. I would have been incarnate in my life in Chicago where I was murdered when Cacye was alive so I don't think I was associated with him in his past life. His life as Ra-Ta though is very easy for me to visualize and his Persian life as well that Kevin Todeschi talks about...so maybe I am an associate of some sort. I don't really know. He tends to be a little stern with me but also delighted...more like a fatherly relationship. That's how I would describe my association with him. So maybe in some past life hew as a father figure. I'm not sure, but it's one of those really strange things that I cannot deny. I knew I resonated with the material and I always thought it was so strange I latched onto the A.R.E. like a life line all those years ago in the nineties when I knew nothing about the work that Edgar did. So, that's why the Edgar Cacye A.R.E. will always be very dear to me and I believe the material that they share from the readings. All of it goes really well with what I know intuitively and all the research I have done. I'm beyond grateful for their existence! Thank you, brave soul, for joining me on the Path of the Seeker today. I know there wasn't too much to this one to really affect your life but hopefully it was interesting!
I am so humbled when I see people talking about Shadow Work. Of course, the concept comes from Carl Jung. My contribution is the name which seems to have inspired so much interest in the topic. I never heard anyone call it Shadow Work until I did and it is just amazing to me to hear it stick let alone that so much interest in it has developed.
When I saw the Campbell Foundation had released the above video I felt so grateful. I literally had tears in my eyes. I know from experience that these things are released because of interest. Enough people asked the Campbell Foundation about what Campbell knew of the Shadow that they released a video of him discussing the topic. I don't believe that the Shadow is necessarily the same gender as Campbell will say on the same subject in the video below. Too many people cast their opposite gender traits into the shadow for that to be a case. The Anima/Animus tends to get mixed up in the Shadow...when the energy of the opposite gender (in Spirit we don't really have a gender but have the qualities currently assigned to both genders). How profound to hear one of my personal heroes talking about this subject! The importance of Shadow Work really comes from some of the conspiracy theory fear based ideas people had expressed.In particular the idea of Shadow People and The Hat Man concepts which were causing people very real fear. I realized those were just a projection of the people having those experiences interior Shadow. What they were experiencing was very real but for various reasons they were assigning it to an outer force. They just needed to change their perspective to heal themselves. I'm so grateful to see a movement arise that can counteract that negative fear based idea. The opportunity for people to heal that repressed part of themselves is so tremendous. One of the main reasons I created this blog and my YouTube channel was to offer an alternative positive explanation. A lot of what emerged at first in the Spiritual Community was negative fear based information. Even now I see people straying into that mind frame from time to time. Yet, it doesn't seem as dominant today. I don't know if that's because YouTube deleted people who were sharing that fear based nonsense that was having a negative impact on some people who were already psychologically fragile or if people are healing. I prefer to believe it is the latter but it just might not be on my radar anymore. I have disconnected from so much recently that I really don't know. I really just keep to what's on my radar and that's pretty much it. That's why it's really interesting to see videos about Joseph Campbell speaking about the Shadow or Numerologist.com which I find a little annoying sharing information about Shadow Work. I can only imagine how much more is out there that I am not hearing. Conclusion I'm really amazed at how this Shadow Work concept has taken off in the Collective. When watching the movie trailer for the IT sequel I realized how Pennywise is a metaphor for the Shadow. With shows like New Rockstars breaking down those trailers and movies there is a new dimension to these collective experiences. I think things have shifted in a very positive and very good direction as some of this stuff goes main stream. I never imagined that breaking down movies to find out meanings would become mainstream in some ways. Marvel played a huge part by saying, yes, they do little Easter Eggs just so fans can find little details. I think that's so much fun. Shadow Work, though, is really something I am grateful for because it was so healing for me to comprehend that idea. I'm so grateful that everyone has access to it now and some people are doing so much better at explaining and working with the concept then I. That's what's truly beautiful. I think it's long overdue. After all, Carl Jung passed away in 1961. It's taken almost sixty years for the world to catch up and comprehend his healing ideas! The funny thing is that it's not even Psychology that's giving practical tools to people to do this work...it's the spiritual metaphysical "new age" community. Psychology, sadly, has become so interlinked with Psychiatry and the pharmaceutical companies that it's the faintest image of potential...because that would be the branch that could truly embrace the Holistic approach recommending different doctors for different afflictions. If only society would start thinking outside of the block. In many ways what Jung shared was not anything new. After all, there were Ancient Systems that worked with the Shadow. Systems of belief that were in tune with nature and viewed mankind as a part of nature (not above it, or a steward, or superior to nature) saw the reflection of this internal structure in the changing of the seasons. Yet, that is an entirely different blog. I think, for most people, accepting it as a modern psychological discovery is far easier to believe. We've been conditioned to believe that humanity is more intelligent then ever before...where as I tend to believe that we were just as intelligent in the past but it was necessary that we descend into ignorance for a few Ages. That too is an upcoming blog. Who would have thought that things would change as much as they have in the past five years?
This video was inspired as I realized that I had not given a list of the Path's of 7 that I had found. I know that I have found more in prior years and probably listed them on this
The name of the video is the same that I have decided to give my series of books. I know that the song seems to be an odd choice. Strangely enough I tried to put other songs by Delirium Disorder (my husbands band) but they didn't work. Since this is the only song that worked it just seemed meant to be...and oddly enough the amount of information that I wanted to share was about as long as the song. I just had to adjust a few slides a couple of seconds which surprised the heck out of me. My husband won't say what inspired the lyrics but very much, to me, it sounds like someone struggling with their Shadow. My husband is not spiritual and he wrote this ages ago before he and I ever discussed the Shadow. He writes his lyrics in a very stream of consciousness way, however, which is a very genuine way to work with the subconscious. I'm hoping to get my recording equipment up and running soon so that I can get back to working on the 7 directions of the Medicine Wheel. I may also play with recording the Tibetan Singing Bowls for the introduction and conclusion of the video. Things in my life are a little bit odd given that my husband and I are gearing up for trying for a second baby and different parts of the house are being worked on...so I'm in a very transitory period which will probably last well into next year! I'm not fantastic at living by the seat of my pants. I like to do things in a slow, orderly and progressive fashion but everything right now seems to be fits and starts as I seek to balance the tiny amount of relationships I'm currently focused on. Thank you for checking out the video and, as always, thank you brave soul for joining me on the Path of the Seeker. Love is one of the most fundamental parts of creation.
That's one of the reasons why the path that most call 'the dark path' which is based on people loving themselves, always putting themselves first and trying to manipulate their way along the Path of the Seeker will eventually end up in the same place as those who work to elevate everyone. I certainly don't recommend the self-centered path because it takes them a lot longer to reach the goal. They are the ones who are going to be trapped in really long cycles. Often they are so trapped in their own psyche/ego/shadow complex that they don't even want to become enlightened or end their own suffering. They're too focused on trying to perfect the art of manipulation. Each path is sacred and each ends up at the same place. Those who choose to elevate the whole, to embrace their shadow, to love and forgive everyone will simply reach enlightenment faster. They're on the Fast Track to living a peaceful life. Once you realizing that everything is truly one...it's pretty obvious that it's not wise to pick sides. Of course, I'll still cast my votes during elections, but I also know that the results are not within my hands. Eventually, the struggle of satisfying the self by taking from someone else becomes a little silly. After all, if you embrace the fact we create our Subjective Reality it leads to understanding Unity...we are everything that we see and we are everything we encounter. We are the person who just cut us off at the traffic light. We are the little lady bug that we notice dancing along the leaf. We are the plant of which that leave is a part. We are the air, the dust, and the ashes. We are the ones manipulating light to create our own personal reality. There really isn't anyone else here. Just us, in this little hologram projector booth both running the show and experiencing it. We are Dorothy and the Wizard of Oz at the same time. That's a bit mind bending, I know, and I don't know if there is an outer reality beyond this booth that is actually real. I'm not sure if that's the Realm of Spirit and if beyond the Realm of Spirit there is something else. After all, Creation is supposed to be Infinite so there should be an infinite amount of realities that we can experience. To try to strive against someone else, to compete with them, and to act as though we are superior to them is a bit senseless when you embrace the concept of Oneness. A life of equality and where everyone is the same is boring. I'm not advocating that at all. I don't believe in a dystopian one world socialist future. In fact, it's learning the perspective of which someone else is living their life that there is great value in diversity. I love learning about different cultures and their values. Learning what they are value that's different from me gives me an options to refresh my own values. While are all one on one level that all-knowing part of us is not a part of this reality. We are playing down here as separate beings and in the process all of us are learning while the aspect of All-That-Is that is AUM (Absolute Unbounded Multiplicity) can learn too. So, diversity and individuality are absolutely necessary. In the end, the most important thing about love is it is the most fundamental building block of this cosmos. Love is what binds everything together...it's the sheer will of the Creator- of All-That-Is - for us to exist. Maybe it's Dark Matter. We are safely nestled in a little cocoon- not a prison or anything negative- but a place where we can experience as many cycles of being a human to gain the ability to retain individuality when we are outside of the flesh. There is a funny thing in spirituality where it's believed that we return to Source and then we get reabsorbed again. I've never understood that thought. Some people really wish to lose their individual sense of self. Others, on the other hand, think that we are going to continue to a life that is just like this one but without the suffering...where it takes a lot longer to die. The Hindu tradition confirms this and so do some channels. That's what some extraterrestrials are like and even Angels exist for a very long time without death but learn very slowly. Yet, the Creator holds all of them, all levels and souls growing at different rates without judgement. I can understand that because as a manager I had employees learn at different rates. Some mastered everything very fast, some mastered the register, some mastered cleaning and I never judged or belittled any of them. I simply knew where to place them to gain the optimal performance and I never required any of them that did not wish to master all of the different positions to do so...I placed them where they were happiest because it allowed the work place to flow the best. I think of the Creator as being like that...he lets souls sort out where they are happiest with their productivity towards individuality and lets things play out as they will. All the while knowing the most likely outcome. So, this wasn't a very organizing blog but just stream of consciousness. Thank you, Dear Brave Soul, for joining me on the Path of the Seeker.
You might be wondering...why is she showing the new Lion King Trailer for this topic.
First, isn't it weird that there was only one trailer and isn't even weirder that the focus is on Scar talking about how, "The world isn't fair," ? This just seems so timely. Yet, Scar really represents the type of people I want to talk about in this blog. They hide in the Shadows searching and stealing the scraps...but why? I choose not to believe in evil for evil's sake. Sure, there might be some out there who are truly deranged. Those I know who did things I disagreed with were often suffering the most. Living in the Shadow is not something someone chooses to do. We know from our studies on this blog about the Shadow. To have a big Shadow is to have a lot of disowned aspects...as lot of shame, fear and guilt. The grudge that creates the Shadow exists because we hold the mistakes we've made against ourselves. Is Love Finite? Those who live in the Shadow actually believe that there is not enough love to go around. So, they seize onto whatever love that they can find or they strike out to those who seem to possess the love and success they want. However, when they try their hand at what others were successful at doing...they create a wasteland just like Scar does in the Lion King. These are the energetic vampires. In my experience there are far more energetic vampires then people who are spiritually connected to Source Energy. Some people honestly don't know how to connect with the divine. Some may have a perception of it but they are too afraid to connect because of the karma of making mistakes in past lives or this one. When we choose to live a righteous life (which basically just means falling your heartfelt intuition) we heal all past lives...but some people either don't know that or can't believe it. The thing is that when you are connected to the Divine...when you put into place a Spiritual Practice and work to create that bond...you have more energy and vitality. Yet, when you start from nothing...when all you know is that Spiritual Hunger...it can seem impossible. That's why those who cannot feel Oneness or naturally connect suffer so much. I also don't believe it's through any fault of their own. They honestly don't believe it's possible to connect because they have never had that experience. Take for example, in my last life that I can recall I was murdered by someone who couldn't connect to Source. That person saw myself and the person I was dating in that life so filled with vitality and opportunity that he struck out. When I experienced my past life memory I stepped into his shoes for a moment to feel what he was and it was hear breaking. I understood in that moment the utter lack and inability to love that this person felt. They were an abandoned street orphan that no one paid attention to except to shove or spit on. I can't even imagine what that life was like and so in this life I felt so much forgiveness despite the fact that soul had killed me in a previous life and took advantage of me in this life because he couldn't experience love in this life either. Being An Example The need for Healers and Mystics is tremendous. By choosing to connect with the Divine we serve as examples to the people who walk in the Shadow. Perhaps they won't take the opportunity to integrate their Shadow in this life but it will leave an impression on them. Hopefully, they will receive the message that the Shadow is not something to be feared. We hold space for the opportunity for them to take that step and provide an example of how that looks. Have you ever noticed when you are at the store and you're exclaiming over some product...people are naturally attracted to look at that item? The other day, I was buying grapes at the grocery store. They are these super yummy organic cotton candy grapes that my daughter and I go nutty over. I exclaimed, "Yay they have our favorite grapes!" to my daughter. Three other people walked over to investigate the grapes. I'm not sure any of them bought the grapes but...you get the point. When people see that others are happy because of something they are naturally attracted to the source of that happiness. Yes, some people can't stand to seem someone who is happy and connected. They may be like my co-worker from a few years ago who added bleach to the dishwater because she knew it broke me out in a rash. The pain they experience comes from the fact that they don't understand. They can't comprehend how or why others are connected to the Divine Source of Energy and things are so hard from them. They feel like empty broken vessels. How I Understand Certainly, I know this feeling. I've chosen not to be disconnected at certain times in my life because I found the idea too frightening. I didn't want to imagine that an all-knowing God was watching me all of the time. Why would God watch me get dressed or pee? I was born tired. I think I was carrying a huge karmic burden. I came into this life depressed and with very low energy. I had trouble connected with other kids who seemed absolutely bizarre to me for some reason. I would watch them from afar just observing their behavior and I've never felt that I fit in anywhere. People either treat me as a guru (my nickname at one Middle School was 'Mother' and everyone came to me for advice, for example) or they are naturally repelled by my energy. The Oneness felt more like a burden when I didn't fit in during my school years. I was mad at that deep abiding peace because my heart was full of turmoil and rejection. So, I disconnected as much as I could and tried to go about life as society dictated. In the last few years I've learned how sweet it is to be connected and feel the Oneness. I can't maintain that state of being all of the time...but I do manage it most of the time. When I breath deep, imagine a beam of light pass through my body and rooting me to the ground...it's easy for me to feel outward with my energetic body and just be...but it does take a little bit of time. That's why meditation is so necessarily for me. Connecting daily helps me recharge. The Qi Connection In Qi Gong there is the belief that every child is born with Qi that they inherit from their parents. This life force energy (the essence of which is love) is what keeps the body going. Sometimes, people inherit a naturally low amount of Qi. The only way to really overcome a deficiency of Qi is to open up and connect with the divine. Otherwise, again, we come back to the idea of people who behave like scavenges fighting over the scraps of life force energy they can steal from others by dominating them. Conclusion I feel sorry for those who cannot feel Oneness or connect to the Divine. I really believe deep down in my heart that they are innocent and do not know what they are doing. They don't know why they feel the way that they do or how to help themselves enter an empowered state of being. The only thing that can possibly help them is by living the best life we can and hoping that our example will rub off on them. I do believe this situation will change as we transition into the Age of Aquarius. Even though I've spent most of my life feeling on the inside like Wednesday Adams...I realize that I'm a bit of a live wire. Not only does it scare some people but it's caused people to attach to me and drain me dry of my energy. Even when super depressed people didn't realize it because I've always had a sunny disposition. The practice of not maintaining relationships when they cross boundaries has really helped. I can consciously realize now when people are draining my energy. I have had a little practice with stopping the flow but I'm still learning so I'm in no position to share that with others. Thank you, dear soul, for joining me on the Path of the Seeker today by reading this blog. I hope that I have given you food for thought. Look closely at this picture and you'll see the web of an Orb Spider. I love these ornate webs and as we delve into this next topic it does remind me of something woven into the collective consciousness of humanity.
Love is a fascinating topic to me. In spiritual circles you will hear people say, "Sending you light and love." Are Light and love one? Is Light and Love both attributes of the One Creator (as I like to call All-That-Is...of which all the "Gods" are a part just as we are a part of the One Creator...in fact, nothing exists outside of the One Creator but that is a different topic). The ancient texts indicate they are not. In fact, the story about the Light may surprise you. There are several different cultures that express the same story in a very different way. The Dogon Narrative The narrative of the Dogon seems to have the most complete picture, although, the symbolism may be difficult for some. Laird Scranton has made a wonderful and persuasive explanation of the symbols. I'm not going to claim I'm going to do the story the best justice so I highly recommend you pick up Laird's books. The story goes that there were four pairs of twins gestating within the womb of the Creator God Amma that was neither male nor female. Each pair was to work together to co-create with Amma. Yet, Light, known as the Fox and male escaped the womb with a piece of the Placenta. The Fox created our part of reality using the Placenta. Now, there was an entire series of events to help purify the defiled Placenta that the Fox had used to create but we won't get into that here. Instead, what is fascinating, is that during the cleansing of the Placenta Amma hid the Fox's twin from him so that he could not create the way he was intended. Afterall, the Light had already proven to be a rebel by leaving the womb before the appointed time and stealing the placenta. Already, it's pretty clear that the Light would be Lucifer- the Light bearer- and being a trickster the names Loki and Coyote also come to mind. We know that everything is made up of energy and that we can perceive as material reality is formed from light but it does not compose all of that energy. I think that's an important point to consider. Adam and Lilith In the Oral tradition of the Kabblah there is the story of Lilith- Adam's first wife. Yes, I am proposing that Adam is Lucifer or the Light incarnate. If we take both of these to be metaphors on one level of conception it is a possibility. Either way, Lilith leaves Adam. Some say it was because she wouldn't bow down to him as he wished. So, instead of the woman that was created to be with him Adam ends up with Eve who then eats of the tree of Duality- Good and Evil- and leads to death. Also, in he Kabbalah tradition it's said that Adam Ha Rishon gave Light to Malkuth, the Kingdom which is designated as Female, before the appointed time. The result was that the Sephiroth broke resulting in the Keliplot also known as broken vessels. So, in the same tradition we have the story told two different ways. Shiva and Shakti I think that it's interesting that Shiva appears in Hindu tradition to Brahma and Vishnu as a beam of light. He also incarnates many times throughout human history to help guide people. There is also the story about how Shiva and Shakti separated. The story goes that Shakti was Shiva's second wife. She went to a party at her fathers house but her father ignored here and didn't make an offering to Shiva. Shakti was so ashamed she leaped into a fire and killed herself. Shiva was so upset by this that he turned to a life asceticism and went into a deep meditation from which he could not be roused. If you look up Shiva and Shakti you will find that they are the emobdiement of the Masculine Consciousness and Feminine Subconscious- although, Hinduism doesn't quite describe it that way. Shakti is said to reside in the Root Chakra and raise up to meet her lover at the Crown Chakra. "If Shiva is united with Shakti, he is able to create. If he is not, he is not even capable of stirring." ~Adi Shankara In one tale one of the other God's took pity of Shiva and cut Shakti into pieces that he sent to Earth. Isis and Osiris In this tale Osiris is taken surprise by his evil brother Set who chops him up and hides his body throughout the Nile. With the help of her sister, Nepthysis, Isis collects the body parts of Osiris but fails to find his penis. Without his penis she cannot create life and so she uses magic to create her son Horis. Psyche and Eros In the Greek version of the tale Eros, or Cupid, is sent by his mother Venus to kill Psyche but he falls in love with her instead. Since his mother would be displeased by his disobedience of marrying Psyche he tries to keep it secret...even from her. She is taken to marry him but her father was told that he would be a horrible monster. She lives in the lap of luxury and loves him but must never look upon him. He always arrives when it is dark and uses the darkness to hide from her. After her two sisters come to visit she follows a plan to discover him. Once he is asleep she uses a lamp to discover that he is not the hideous monster she had been told. However, he flees from her and she is deposited onto the Earth where she has to undergo several tasks to earn him back. A fascinating note is that Psyche's original name is Anima. Obviously, it is from this tale that Carl Jung use the term Anima and Animus. Conclusion Light is a rebel in most of the tales. Only in the Greek version is the character that has a similar myth depicted as love. Love is something more refined then light. Plus, believing that Light is good and Darkness is bad is a really limiting and dualistic notion. Instead, the heart of the story is the act of rebelliousness and the removal of that beings ability to Create. To say it another way is that the person's subconscious is veiled from them so that they cannot create. I'm also not saying that light is bad but it's not love. I'm not sure why people say, "light and love," unless they are referring to light as wisdom or enlightenment? Either one seems a bit odd. Light, almost always, represents consciousness in symbolism...to send someone consciousness is a weird gesture. In the end if the intention is well meaning I can't imagine that it can harm someone. However, the saying does reinforce the dualistic idea of good and evil. Thank you for joining me on the Path of the Seeker. I hope you enjoyed this first Meditation on the nature of Love. I have a least two more parts to write. At the end of last year, based on the movies I was attracted to, I said that this year is one of Big Endings. I also knew that I was going into a major hermit mode. I had no idea that it would become such a huge theme in the collective! In astrology, as I noted in Wednesday's blog, a lot of astrologers are saying the same thing. I'm not enough of an expert to go through the details of the astrology. Apparently, it has to do with the eclipses, Saturn conjunct Pluto, and Chiron entering Aries. Some are calling this sequence of events, "The Shift," "The 2020 Reset," "The Event," and, "Timeline Intersection." While I have no interest in getting excited about this transition, although I do have to say that I have had some dreams regarding it and that I agreed to 'shift' to some new path. A lot of that is reflected in the fact that I have chosen to be a healer and to go into a receptive mode. Now, this is new to me. As I settle deeper into hermit mode and practice receptivity (check out my YouTube video on creating a Sacred Space to learn an easy technique for this)...I realized that there was a lot that needed to go. I have let go of so many negative beliefs, thoughts and fears it's amazing. I quieted my mind a while ago but there were patterns, I want to say chemical ones, that lingered so I still had some depression. I realized today that I have come so far mentally from where I was in 2014. First, I didn't think it was really possible to entirely quiet the mind. Now I summon thoughts at will. I can sit in a peaceful meditation for hours without interruption. You can ask my husband. I'll be meditating in the tub and he'll come up asking why it's been two hours! When for me it maybe feels like twenty minutes! When my marriage faced a crisis I fell back into those old fear patterns and I was hit with a panic attack. The stark difference in the state of mind between even that time period earlier this year and now is so different. Second, choosing empowerment is huge for me. That's the path I've set my feet upon with choosing to be a healer and by choosing to gift myself something every month. I have given away my power in every relationship I've been in- both to lovers and friends. So, this, again, is very new to me. The purging however...was really shocking but it's definitely something everyone in the collective is going through. I want to share with you what I've been going through so you don't feel alone and maybe you can pick up something you can apply to your life. Letting Go Of Physical Objects I watched Marie Kondo's tidying up and that show really inspired me to reevaluate my home. I went into my closet and I went through all of my clothes asking, "Does this bring me joy?" That lead to me getting rid of 11 bags of clothes! This was huge for me. A lot of the clothes I got rid of I bought while in middle school and high school. They were shirts of sentimental value. As I went about trying on the different clothes just to see if they fit I was humbled. Pregnancy has changed my body size so that shirts that I had worn since middle school now looked more like bras. The fact I could still wear several of my high school shirts while in my thirties had been a source of pride. I can't believe I was able to keep those shirts in good condition for so long. Needless to say letting go of that stuff was a big step for me. Everyone knows I hold onto things. I have a lot of toys that I'm going to give my daughter that I had as a child. Most kids don't know what happened to their toys but I ensured that mine were always with me so that when I had children I could give them these toys. I knew I was very lucky to have them in the first place so I wanted to share that with my children. Yes, that's how focused I've been on having kids my entire life...from childhood I kept things I liked to give to my kids! Redecorating The next thing I realized as I looked around my home was that the way it was decorated didn't bring me joy. I decorated this house on my own in 2014 right after my daughter Lilith-ann passed away. My husband has never been into decorating this house for some reason. When it came to apartments that we used to live in and rentals he always wanted to be involved but there is something about this house where he didn't want to decorate it at all. I think, if he had it his way things would still be in boxes. The way the house has been decorated is erratic and, for the most part, cluttered. This is a very good reflection of my state of mind at that time. A lot has changed in the last five years. More than I could ever imagine and I have no idea where the strength to overcome so many obstacles came from. Especially with the extremely cluttered mind I had in 2014. Now, I would love to paint the entire house. Right now it's what I call renters off white. The color is more of a yellow. I do not like it and I have the color I want to paint the house but the husband has put the brakes on home improvement projects. So, working within the limitations I started assessing what I could change. First, we don't drink but we had a huge liquor cabinet. I fill that a display cabinet full of anything sort of enshrines it and I think of drinking alcohol as a low energy activity. My husband owned all of that alcohol before we met in 2009...so, obviously we haven't touched it. So, I asked my husband to go through and keep the alcohol he liked. He kept more than I expected but he's not good at letting go or change. I then moved the cabinet into the living room and filled it with my fairy and dragon collection. That seems a far better reflection of my husband and I. The dragon collection belongs to my husband, although, I had some before I met him ( he's a double fire sign so it fits) and I've collected fairy's and butterflies since I was a small child (I'm a double Earth sign so that really fits too). I changed a lot of other things as well but that was probably the most significant. Old Teachers There have been people that I have followed on YouTube since 2014. I realized they were in a kind of loop. They weren't teaching anything new but were repeating the same things over and over again. There was also a lot of anxiety. For some reason, whenever I watched their videos a lot of crazy weird fear based videos started popping up on my suggestion list. I realized with this astrological eclipse season some people were going back to old Fear Based and extreme points of view. I touched on that on Wednesday in a short and sweet post because it just doesn't serve us to go into this, "If I don't get with it I'm going to miss my window of opportunity to get out of the Matrix," type of thinking. I get why people want to leave the 'matrix' but if we were really supposed to leave our bodies would die and we would exit as souls. The transition that's coming up, and yes, my dreams do indicate something is going on...but I can say with all of my heart if you're reading this post you're going to be fine. That may seem to be weird but I really believe, based on my interactions in the dream world, that what's coming is going to be somewhat magical and really good. I'm sick of my old patterns. I am so ready to let them go! That's all this period is really about and I think it's beautiful. Since I have changed so much since 2014 I decided to let go of those people who are falling into fear because of astrological alignments. While I never knew any of them personally I have watched them grow over the last five years and it was a little weird but necessary to let them go. I realized I hadn't resonated with them for a very long time and that I was just holding on to them in some vague way to support them. I have felt so much relief letting go of that old energy of 2014 that it's amazing. I really believe that those who start blaming any groups (human or celestial) or going into this state of mind that something big on the collective consciousness level will happen that will violate peoples free will...are harming themselves and I won't lend my energy to their self-destruction. We are all one on the collective level. While I might say that Rome completely and utterly abused their spiritual power and I will say that Greece killed the intuitive nature in favor of intellect...all of these steps were necessary in the evolution of mankind. The most difficult role a soul can choose, and therefore the one that requires the most love, is to play the villain because on a spiritual level that can be costly and lead them to digress in their own progress. I have to fall back on Bashar's rubberband analogy. When we have people pulling on us, what we think is negative, what they are doing is allowing us space to fly forward so exponentially in our growth. I know it seems a little twisted that out of great suffering true compassion is born but that's what I've experienced. I'm thankful for my struggles, I'm thankful for my failures and that's because without them I couldn't relate to those who are suffering. I couldn't relate to people and how they are feeling when they are in that deep dark hole of despair that I know so well. While I can't pull them up, because that doesn't work, I can give them advice on what shovels and ropes to use. That's why I prefer YouTube and blogs, I don't want people clinging to me to help lift them up because if I can do this...believe me you can! I'm just pointing out landmarks on the Path but my path isn't going to be exactly like yours. Our individuality is the beauty and glory of our part of our creation. That is what makes this experience so very holy and I would never infringe on your freewill. Letting Go Of Social Media As many know I quit social media in January after I had a panic attack as a result of friction in my marriage. That friction led to a sort of existential crisis as I had to re-evaluate myself the view of myself as a strong woman and realize, that once again I had ended up in a co-dependent relationship and that was not easy to admit. Nor was it easy to come to the conclusion that I love the life that I have built with my husband, that I deeply love my husband whom I know is my soulmate and ultimate companion in this physical reality experience...and somehow come to grips with his deceitfulness. This was a process I could only go through alone. Letting go of Social Media was my best choice. I never realized how many people on there were very negative. As someone with a lot if empathy I really tried to be a positive force on Facebook to help lift other people up. That's a terrible burden and one I should not have tried to carry. I know I helped some people but the majority of people were untouched. Having been away from Facebook for five months I can see a difference. For one, I don't hear about the news at all unless YouTube pops it up for some reason. I stopped watching the news in 2007 but I didn't realize how much FB was feeding me the news as people reacted to it. There was always someone sharing something about the news or reacting to some obscure event. I had a dream that lead me to the realization that most people use the internet for releasing excrement...basically sharing pointless bullpoop. Meanwhile, I've been using it as more of a confessional box. Especially with this blog. Now that I'm really just tuning into the people who reflect the energy I want to see in my life...I feel *so* much better. I feel clean and clear. I really have no reason to worry about people because I'm no longer bearing witness to their suffering. I strongly believe that there is an entire host of non-incarnate beings- call them guides, ancestors or angels- that are there to witness with them and to aid them but there really isn't much that I, personally, can do to help them. The Results Somewhere in the last four years my husband and I stopped doing my favorite thing...going out into nature.For the first half of our relationship we went out into nature a lot. We went to a lot of National and State Parks. As I've released so much stuff and reflections of energy I don't want in my life...we've gotten back to nature. This a great example of making room in your life for what you really want by releasing what no longer serves you. The energy of people, places and things that are not in alignment with yours is uncomfortable to bear. They become burdens that weigh you down. When you release that old energy it makes spce for something new. We went to a place called Crystal Cove in Newport Beach and Long Beach Nature Center. Getting back out to nature every month is like a personal reset. I even managed to get my husband to sit and take in the scenery of a lake. He's usually full steam ahead and not someone to sit down pondering life or a nature scene. There was just this beautiful moment as I watched the water of this lake, I think it was man made, move with the blue and rare red dragonflies buzzing along the surface. I can't describe how serene that moment was but it was so zen. My husband also purged a lot of his stuff. He threw away several large trash cans of stuff from the garage. A lot of it was material we had inherited from his grandfather that didn't really serve a purpose. So, by witnessing me perform this transformation he was inspired to do the same. There is a lot more coming my way, I know, and in some ways I'm reluctant right now to move forward into that phase. I'm really pausing to enjoy the moment because it is such a beautiful time in my life. I love spending every day with my gorgeous daughter who is beyond any expectations I ever had. Conclusion There is an art to letting go. Yes, we can be a bit mournful as things change. However, the one thing we can depend on in this existence is change. The more we can embrace and accept the nature of reality the less dramatic these cycle endings can be! That is the benefit of the Path of the Seeker. Life always throws us curve balls, whether we are prepared or not, and it's better to know what to do. On the Path of the Seeker we learn to anticipate and use the cycles as a launching point so we can continue to consciously expand. We learn to plant our seeds in the low point and enjoy the harvest when it comes in...or learn to plant something new. That way the dynamic highs and low changes of life aren't as dramatic. We know what to do when we are faced with a life challenge, we can go into our sacred space (eventually with enough practice you will be able to tune into your sacred space even when your in a crisis situation as I was in last June when I was in the hospital), enter a state of graceful gratitude and literally change our experience of the situation. Then we can be receptive to the lesson the experience we are having is their to teach us so that we don't really have to go through it again. We will be tested, as I said, to see if we fall into the old way...but that's to be expected. Even when we learn one lesson we can expect another curveball and lesson to appear. If I was not in the position where I am so happy in life I don't think I could would have handled discovering that my husband had a secret bank account and wasn't holding himself to the strict spending limitations he held me without destroying everything. Instead, I realized how I was responsible for creating that situation by giving away my power and energy to him...and we've worked it out and moved on. As always, thank you so much for taking the time to check out my blog and read these little confessionals. That you are choosing to walk the Path of the Seeker with me, even for a little ways, means so much! .Well, we are in that interesting moment again...
I'm weighing in on this 2020 shift that has been popping up a lot recently in the Spiritual Community. Just like with Y2K and 2012 people are going to the extreme interpreting the set of eclipses that started on July 2nd and runs through 2020. I wrote already that maybe this is an awakening of the Subconscious. All in all, it's an astrological alignment that everyone is excited about because there is a Saturn and Pluto conjunction starting here in July and will pop up again at the end of this year. Plus there are eclipses. I'm happy people are excited but it's important not to go into fear. Do I think that we are going to switch into a random dramatically different timeline? No. These things are always gradual so taking risks that things are going to 'end' within the next year is not healthy. Yes, it's an exciting time to be alive and things are going to be different. Things are going to change because a big cycle that was being repeated- a lot- is over. I can only say...how many times will people say, "Doomsday? Woohoo!" I do think that it is a time where people are purging and that's wonderful. I'm going through that myself in so many ways and I'll be posting an blog called "The Art of Letting Go." Just please, don't look at this experience as a potentially bad experience. You don't want to experience transitions that way. If you can disconnect from the fear based people who are promoting this as the latest doomsday. See this as an opportunity of letting go of things that no longer serve us whether they are physical items, teachers or beliefs. I'm sending you all so much love and thank you for joining me on the Path of the Seeker. |
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