I've been slowly getting used to the state of Oneness that I have achieved.
I can't teach, so much, how I reached this state of clarity. That seems a gargantuian task I'm attempting with my YouTub videos with no end to inspiration. The process was either two years or a decade with a hiatus at one point depending on perspective. I just read a book by Michael Feeley and it occurred to me this is the state most call entlightnement. I find it strange to think of myself as Enlightened but if fits. I still have no idea why I'm still on Earth so I must have more to do. I always thought Enlightened people would simply leave this experience. I'm aware that there is far more to this state then what I've currently achieved. Also, it's very different from what I envsioned. Far more simple, although, when I attempt to explain it...it seems complex. I also realize there are a lot of people like Michael who don't understand enlightenment and who are stuck on the Path of the Seeker. I learned a lot from reading that book, although, I don't think what I learned was the author's intent and I'll share my review of it this Wednesday. Utter Forgiveness There have been some fascinating changes in me due to this state of being. For one, I find that I have the capacity to absolutely forgive every person on this planet. Even the unconsciouable murderers and rapists and terroritsts. Yes, from one point of view it is terrible what they did. From another point of view...every person who becomes a offender was once a victim. They know not why or what they do so for that they must be forgiven. All of us have made mistakes in judgement. They thought they were doing the right thing on some level for them. I can forgive them and nto hold any hate in my heart for them but feel sorrow that they are so lost that they would harm themselves. I know this is hard for other people to understand. We are so busy defending our little scrap of consciousness the idea of someone taking or harming that is not welcome. Rightfully so, but there are always reasons. Each person is so unique you cannot reduce them down to an act which probably had a lot of stepping stones and warning signs before it was reached. Now, when I read articles about someone who committed a crime I just feel sadness. I feel sadness that person is so lost and so unlikely to find peace in our world. I do not hate them and I do not fear them. I know they are stuck in a cycle of learning. Yesterday, I saw someone stealing. I didn't feel hate or fear or anger at their action. They were not stealing from me and, although it was clear they did it out of selfishness, I just felt sadness. They weren't harming anyone. Our Police say that as long as people steal less then $1000 they can get away scott free so why should I fight that? Yet, I felt sad for him and his young son who is being taught the beginning of a life in crime. The feeling is different when you love them and do not judge them. I could not conceive of nod judging them before undrestanding dawned upon me. I cannot judge someone when I don't know their life story...why they are doing the things that they are doing or the repurcussians they may or may not face. I can feel sorry for them that they are so worldly they cannot perceive of another way. The Future Ten years ago I never imagined that people would be talking about the Annunaki. I never imagined there would be thousands of people on an Awakening facebook group. Misguided and confused as to what that might be, as I have been, I do see it as a very positive step that people are *trying*. The tiny group of people I knew that were interested in mystsic mysteries was so small ten years ago. A handful of people scattered across the globe. There is a bible reference to bread. Bread in the temple was very special. Each person in the community contributed a little bit of their dough. Then the bread was made from all of them together. There was no leavening because the people were unenlightened. There are two people who talk about cookies. One was Willa and another is a woman who works for the A.R.E. who gave a very good talk even if it was in error. They talked about how each of us on this path are like cookies. When you smell chocholate chip cookies when you come into a house your mouth automatically waters and you desire them. Each person who spiritually awakens is like the chocolate chip cookies...or leavening for bread. Not too many are needed to influence all of society because once people start sensing that different state of being they will want it for themselves. Also, the more people who pave the path the more access other people have. People are just now catching up to the cutting edge stuff I was into ten years ago. I can only imagine that if a lot of people are where I am at ten years from now the world will be a far better place. Service Oriented Society The mysteries that beings like Bashar teach are not so mysterious. As human beings we want them to be but they are not. A service industry society is where we ware going and this has already been predicted by economists and other people who like to follow trends. This is happening for a variety of very good reasons and should not be feared. Of course, this will require a wage increase for the people who are service industry jobs as opposed to the current state of things where they are the largest group of laborers with the lowest amount of pain. A market correction (recession) is undoutedly in the near future. As machines are taking the pressure off of us to do manual labor jobs that shorten the life span the longer people will live assuming the stress is removed of a lower income by raising wages. I see us having more time off and more time to spend with the family. Oneness Removes Division The other thing that I've really noticed is I can't really fear much. That's where I see people getting stuck in their Awakening. The find out the Government isn't out to protect them and they start believing all of these wild stories about how the Government is out ot kill them or keep them ignorant. From GMO's to fluoride...they don't really comprehend how the government works. Without citizens there is no capital and there isn't a country. Others are fearful of aliens that have 'been controllign humanity' casting the Annunaki and Orion's who are supposedly aliens (I've never met either so I can't say for certain) in this light of such power that they practically worship them as Gods which is moronic and if anything such ideas should cause the opposite response (a total lack of credability on the part of such beings for intervening with our race). Still more fear population control because of the Georgia Guidestones. Those guidestones written in hieroglyphics as well as engilsh and another lanugage are just some rich guys delusion. That delusion shows a complete lack of faith in the One Creator as though the population on this planet is a mistake...but if you lookad at total land mass humanity is a very small blip on the radar. Still more, and this is mainstream, are terrified for the planet. The planet wil continue even if we are not on it. That's another lack of faith that the planet has fail safes. The idea that we are so all powerful that we could destroy the planet is hilarious. I think I've named all of them, aside from war, but war is just awful so that's a legitimate thing to dislike. I'm not fearful of a world war. Unlike the governments who fail to comprehend their citizens...I believe we have moved past that in a lot of ways. A draft would not go over well for any political party anymore. Defending the USA is one thing but to go to another country and try to do what we will...that's totally different and no other countries with their organized armies are attacking the United States. When people start talking about a Global Elite that has hidden the secret of the Kundalini Awakening or our Spiritual Birth Right...I just have to laugh. No, no they haven't. When I read a book like Michael Feeley's I know I get it...but I know the great deal of the population will look at that and see nonsense. Oh, and don't forget the Flat Earth conspiracy. Talk about a great example of subjective reality and how a consensus can come together and create their own. The same thing, of course, can be said about the Mandel Effect to a certain degree. There is a very specific thing that happens as you hit that point of no return when it comes to the Awakening. At that point most of what you say sounds like utter nonsense to everyone esle around you because of the divide from a person who is going through an Awakening an those who are asleep is so huge. That divide in lanuguage in understanding is the reason why the Freemasons and Rosicrucian Order were developed. People going along the Awakening path are like Hansel and Gretal....oh here is a piece, or here is a piece...finding their way home. They can only be given so much at a time because the cognitive disannonance would be true great if they heard the full truth all at once they would be unable to comprhend it. That's why I'm creating my YouTube videos. I'm bridgeing that gap between the two...speaking in layman terms and keeping things as simple as possible. I've retained just enough knowledge of how I once thought when I was extremely Worldly to be able to talk to those who are Worldly and explain concepts so they can understand. I use the terms and ideas they have found to be acceptable, mostly psychology which is considered legitimate science at this time. Conclusion The future is bright indeed. Humanity has been being spoon fed information since the fifties or sixties. Identifying the reason and cause is unimportant. I see a future where people don't have to work so much to make so little. I see a future where more people are enlightened then at any other point of time in our history. Simply some of the movies coming out indicate this...and also a divergence. One set of people are becoming more and more service to others. This group goes with the One Creator's will much as a person rowing a boat down a stream. They don't fight the currents but work with them to make the journey more pleasaurable. Another set, as they discover how the world works, is becoming more service to self wishing to create a world that conforms to what they think is perfection. At some point, these two will become invisible to one another. That's, more or less, what's been promised in the New Age, New World...or whatever you may call it. I see no Apolocalypse in the future...that is just part of the Awakening proecess where your lower self- your lower centers- are at war with your Higher-Self or higher chakra centers. Once those two are balanced and you've made a choice in one direction or another...everything changes. I hope you enjoyed my vision of the future. Have a wonderful day.
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I have been seeing and celebrating more female characters in movies. A lot of the big head lining movies this year have strong female leads. Selene in Underworld, Alice in Resident Evil, Wonder Woman, Ghost In A Shell with Major, Rey in Star Wars...lead villains such as in The Mummy, and little girl leads in Woverine, Transformers, and in Split. There is a lot of strong feminine energy in the movies this year.
I find it interesting that female characters are judged so harshly. Things are getting better but even when reviewing it they have names for female character's that are good at things (Mary Janes) and seem to have it too easy. They have names for character's that need to be rescued (damsels in distress). They don't do this with male character's at all. If everything comes to a male character naturally or easily it's not questioned. This ties in with the concept of the Return of Goddess in a lot of ways. There are some meta-physical people who believe that we are returning to the Goddess based on these trends. That the Goddess is coming back into the world...and they talk about how we were originally a matriarchy. I agree that there evidence of Goddess worship that predates the worship of a male God. However, I really disagree with everything else that the people furthering this idea are proposing. I just want to share my meditations on the subject because I think it's very important. Here is a video with the typical argument/point of view on the return of the Goddess. Androgynous Source What makes the most sense to me is that Source is neither male or female. This is why I prefer to call "it" Source or All-That-IS as opposed to God/Goddess. I realize that this isn't quite in popular culture, yet, but I think we are getting there. An idea that I agree with is that Source/God is neither male or female. This suggests that both the concept of male/female reside within that force...it is both and neither. Heck, you can call it "The Force," because that is equally representative of Source (although, it would be one aspect of the trinity but that's a deeper discussion). From this perspective, there is no reason for a 'Goddess' to return. Source is neither feminine or masculine in nature...there are, clearly, aspects of it that is but it exists outside of our dualistic reality. The Feminist View I reject the feminist view of the Goddess. The person in the video that I shared echoes this point of view. They seem to dwell on the idea that at some point thew world will return a matriarchal religious point of view of Earth is better then a patriarchal form. Further, some seem to think that those who choose to believe in a patriarchal point of view should be punished. I don't think any of this is important. Yes, bad things have been done to women in the name of Abrhamic religions. We can't go back and change them. We can change how we act in the future and if women do the same unto men that was done unto women int he past...they cycle will just repeat. That would show that no one learned anything. There have been Gods and Goddesses since time immemorial. This reflects the duel nature of our material world where we have the choice to embody the energy of one or the other sex...or both if we so wish. There is no superiority. There is no matriarchal mother Goddess who is going to come in an obliterate the God of Abraham. I don't think that is necessary. I don't think any reparation is necessary. Why would we trade one system that is exactly the same for the system we already have besides the gender of Source? Women acting as men doesn't help this process...and it certainly won't help if they misuse their force to overcome the 'power' of men. In this way, they would not be working with the feminine energy but work more with the male by misusing willpower. Source isn't male or female...both are misunderstandings in the first place. All this does is make me think of this Star Wars Quote from The Force Awakens... ​
Finding A Balance
I see society as struggling to find a natural balance between the male and female energy. That's what we really need in this world is Balance. That way there can be the proper blending instead of lurching from one extreme to another. This is happening because there has been a imbalance with the male/patriarchal energy being stronger in the world. The active willful self-serving nature of man has been dominate. The compassionate giving energy of the feminine is very much needed. Yes, the point of view is shifting...right now female character's are dominant. This is necessary so equilibrium can be adjusted appropriately. I never thought that it would change so dramatically. I dreamed of this when I was a little girl. There was even a female super hero Barrista! Talk about amazing! Hawk Girl was featured on Flash as a barrista...which made me so extremely happy! I see this in the expression of Drag Queens and of Gay men who embrace their feminine side. Maybe they don't do so in a conscious manner but that is what they are exploring in an extreme manner (which isn't usually that healthy). The same goes with the metro-sexual movement. Women just weren't being listened to so...a lot of men who were a little bit of both had to give the shift a little bit more energy but literally embodying the feminine energy in male form. Anima and Animus Carl Jung understood the balance the best. He explained that each person has both a feminine and a male side. In order to be complete the two have to be in perfect union. He called the feminine aspect in men the Anima. He called the male aspect in women the Animus. (http://www.carl-jung.net/animus.html). I will let you explore this topic on your own. I add that the mysterious male figures that women usually dream of and the mysterious female figures men dream of...are the Animus and Anima. These tend to reperesent our Higher Selves in our dreams. Until we we unite both the person will naturally be out of balance psychologically. We need the compassion and the love of the Anima in order to be a better person. We need the strength and will power of the Animus to protect ourselves from being taken advantage of in day to day life. The key is finding a balance between male and female...to embody the energy of both. To unite them in a spiritual way so that we are not feeling one way or another. This doesn't involve our mate in life, although, they can help teach us more about how to embody the opposite energy. I have found this balance by doing a few jobs that I was told only men were capable. I did them and I did them better than most men. I saw women come in and pretend to be weak so that they were given everything but I earned every ounce of respect and money with blood, sweat, toil and tears. I have a very strong balance of both my Anima and Animus energy. I can tap into whichever I need at the moment in a very fluid manner. I am comfortable with both energies...I am assertive when I need to establish my boundaries so that I am not exploited by others but I am compassionate and merciful with each person I encounter. Understanding The Goddess Concept I am not an expert nor have I delved too deeply into the topic. The first thing to understand that there is a trinity with Goddesses as well....there is the Maiden, The Mother and the Crone. Any Goddess tends to represent one of these concepts. The Goddess is seen as one but she has three aspects. Laird Scranton has placed the timing of the switch between the Matriarchal Religion and the Patriarchal Religion. At one point the Dogon Grainary was Matriarchal with the base a circle and a square at the top. Men tend to be represented by the square and women by the circle. However, the Buddhist stupa is the opposite with a square base and circular top. The reversal somehow happened between the time the Dogon belief system started and that of the Buddhist. In fact, the Dogon God's name, Amma, sounds decidedly feminine in origin....although, they will be quick to say Amma is neither. Little Girl and The Beast I could say that the Little Girl standing up to the Beast theme I've described before (http://bridgetkorns.weebly.com/blog/the-beast-part-1) represents the Goddess. In this form it would be the maiden. I see it as the energy of compassion standing up to the system we have created that lacks compassion. All of humanity This is where society is at...We have a system that was created to satisfy Ego and insists on the misuse of willpower. We as a society are dealing with the Sacral Chakra needs. Here we are being judged for what we have sown and reaped. This is where there is a reconciling...where we need to find a balance so that we can release all of this fear we have created because of our misuse of willpower. This happens when people try to force their intentions on others. The only way to really fix the issue is compassion and mercy. Will people give in to fear acting on impulse to force others to do what they believe is best? This seems to be what's driving the terrorists and the people seeking extreme Government Regulations through socialism. These people want to control everyone else. This is the biggest fear of most people...an elite group that thinks they no better than everyone else ruling the world. We've experienced it before with the Pope in Rome where witches were executed because it threatened the government and religion...do we need to experience this lesson again? The other way to go is to submit to the Natural Order of the Source choosing love, harmony and beauty. A system free of human meddling/will power seems to be the best course...where no one person has power over others. The world does not need one ruler...not someone "standing in" for Jesus (the Pope) or anyone else. We don't need a government that acts as the worlds police man. Fear is the only thing that causes people to arm themselves and attack others. For this to happen a transformation will have to take place. The people's perception of government must change. Elected officials- from the president down to the most lowly DMV employee- would be simply seen as administrative offices meant to maintain the infastructure. They wouldn't be given power...nor would they hold it. They would be thrown in jail if they accepted any gifts or forms of payment from corporations or other governments. Oligopolies, of course, would have to be destroyed. All executive boards would be shut down. Each company would return to a single owners. The Stock Market would only be used as a tool to invest for a temporary growth spurt and companies would be made to leave when they reached market saturation. Owners of companies would be put into jail if their company did something that hurt people putting personal responsibility back into play in the economic market. The focus would switch from this unsustainable need for extraordinary growth...to sustainability and making sure each task a company undertakes is weighed against the need of humanity and the cost to the environment. What will happen, I'm not sure but I can see this re-balancing of the male/female forces and the choice between those two paths being the major choice offered to society at this time. These are the first steps...as we return to compassion and mercy. I'm not sure if all of this is going to play out to some conclusion in my life but I am hopeful. Conclusion Believing that every male has a female counterpart only seems natural. That is how balance in this universe is maintained. Every galaxy circles a black hole which can be seen as female in nature. Every solar system circles a sun which can be seen as male in nature. There is a very delicate balance. The return of the Goddess which does seem to be reflected throughout the world does not suggest one will dominate the other. Neither does it actually symbolize a physical Goddess. This is just an adjustment of the energy so that there is both the ability stand up for oneself and to be compassionate. We are at a point where society is seeing blatantly the two options. Do we give in to Fear, regulate everything, and force our will onto others in an unnatural way? Will we repeat that lesson? Do we choose harmony, patience and accept each person is responsible to bear their own burden they have created by their choices in life? Do we realize that everyone equal on every level....that on the level of Source we are all One? Will we cast out the idea of superiority or elite? I see a balance being restored that has been off for thousands of years. Perhaps, we had to experience the Goddess first and then the God in order to have a taste of both so we could balance the two modes energies on a Group Conscious level. The rhyme and reason does not matter. Ultimately, anything in the extreme is not healthy. Everything that I am attracted to in my reality seems to point to choosing a healthy balance of the two. I think the choice has been made. This is represented by the feminine energy being represented so predominantly and the demand for it by the public. I don't think, however, that this energy will 'return women to superiority'...but instead teach us that no one is superior to the other. We are all here togther and it's better to work together in a conscientiousness group oriented point of view because it's simply easier. Each person expresses that collective energy in a different way, so that it cannot be dictated by any one person or group, but allowed to express itself in whatever way it most desires. This is the Natural Order...playing to each members strength so that the group (pack) grows stronger as a result. Watching it play out and settle will be interesting. For some, the idea is so foreign and frightening to them that they thought the following music video was satanic. P.S. An interesting note as I watched Slegdehammer by Rihanna. I was thinking while I was making the unicorn frappucino that had a mix of bright pink and blue colors...how odd I see this everywhere. I'm naturally attracted to the pink and blue effects that make purple where the two mingle. The Edgar Cacye A.R.E. has it at the start of their videos, the Ron Paul Liberty Report has it at the start of his show...this color scheme of the male (blue) and female (pink) mingling (purple) is becoming very prevalent.
(The above photo does not belong to me. Retrieved from: https://www.dreamstime.com/photos-images/yoke.html).
There is a quote in the book of Matthew that I have always absolutely adored. At once it was the sweetest most comforting thing I had ever read. I loved it so much and I was so motivated by it that I hung it on the door of my room. "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest. Take My Yoke Upon You and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11:28-30 This quote might as well be tattooed upon my heart. This is my mantra and drove me to the path of seeking spiritual truth. I never wander too far from this idea. Yet, there are many layers to this simple quote from the mouth of Jesus. When I was meditating recently on the idea of will power and how it can be misused I decided to look at one of the Greatest Teachers and icons of our time. This quote immediately came to mind. In Christianity people tend to claim they are Christ like. Yet, many of the Christians I meet are not charitable in heart (although, they are gladly charitable with money because they believe that by giving to the local person with a homeless sign and then posting about it on Facebook they can buy their way into heaven) nor do they really seek to know what it means to be like Yeshua. Many do not truly seek him or they would know his Jewish name. I no longer call myself Christian. Further, I do not desire to call myself by any name. I simply am. What is The Title Of Christ Let's start off with something basic that most Christians who only show up for Sunday Sermon and Dogmatic Bible Study don't know. Christ was not Jesus's last name. Just as I've stated before his first name was probably not Jesus. Jesus is the Roman version of Joshua. When the Catholics sunk their nails into this new religion they used only their own terms and language. More than likely his name was Yeshua. I only use Jesus because it is the common name in English to refer to that individual. The title doesn't change one whit of what he said or the person he was..a name is just a name as I stated before (I have a lot myself). Yet, it does indicate the religion was hijacked by Rome. Rome had it's own purposes for adopting and twisting the religion into something they could use to maintain control of the known world. They decided what books went into the bible (there were a lot in circulation) at the Council of Nicea. They clearly had an agenda, to keep the Empire of Rome in existence, and although some think this idea has been debunked I don't think it has been done so satisfactorily. Yes, they had criteria but that doesn't mean all of it was innocent. Further, the dogma they introduced required them to ban ordinary people from reading the bible for a reason. Sadly, most of the dogma they taught which isn't even in the bible, is still taught and followed by non-Catholic churches. Christ is actually Christos. Christos is a Greek based word (Messiah in Hebrew) and simply means anointed. That would translate as Yeshua Annointed or Yeshua Messhiah in Hebrew. The practice of anointing was practiced throughout the middle east. In this place of blending between the West, East and South the kings and statues of gods were often anointed. This was considered a mark of sovereignty. Here is an article on anointing: https://www.compellingtruth.org/anointed.html. The Folly of Saints How does one define Christ-like or soverign action? Well, based on the dogma I've been preached and encountered throughout my life people are supposed to act like super natural Saints. These people are considered super humans. They aren't supposed to act like ordinary human beings living pay check from pay check. No, this reserved group comes straight out of the womb abnormal but in a blessed way. Saints give up all of their worldly possessions and devote themselves to the less fortunate. The idea of Mother Theresa comes to mind. Yet, not everyone can be Mother Theresa in this world and it still function. We still need people to work in a myriad of industries including farming. If everyone stopped working and merely devoted their time to the poor all of us would be poor. Strangely, we can see in the bible this is not what was required. "And some tax collectors came to him to be baptized, and they said to him, "Teacher, what shall we do?" And he said to them, "Collect no more then you have been ordered." Luke 3:12-13 Did Jesus tell them to quit their day jobs and minister to the poor? No. He told them to keep doing their job but not take anymore than they had to from the people. He just wanted them to be honest. He told them to do their job well and justly. Taking On Others Burdens "Being made in the flesh, heir to the weakness of same, one becomes more spiritual by the even balance that is obtained by making personal application doing that...that will aid another; not that self is to be crucified that another may have ease in the material sense. When the desire and the purpose, the application, is one- then it becomes easy; but when they are at variance one to another, hard is the way,and the call of the flesh becomes strong." EC 538-30 This quote from Edgar Cacye really speaks to this moment. Becoming a martyr is not advisable. Someone I know recently shared a very toxic belief. She believes that Christians need to carry each other's burdens. Nope. Jesus never says that he's going to take your burdens from you. Only later people said that he wiped away their sins. Yet, this isn't really explained in detail in the bible. Clearly, this is one of those hidden teachings and if my dreams are true totally different from what Dogma implied...it is the death of the worldly self that seeks wordly riches which is how humans 'missed the mark.' I will get more into that in a blog on double mindedness. Instead, Jesus tells people to, "Take my Yoke upon you." He stands as a role model and an example of a way of life. What is a Yoke? I have a picture at the top of this blog of a yoke that a person carried. A yoke was often used to carry pails of milk (a symbol of sustenance and the product of work). Sometimes it was referred to as a pole. Either way, it s a burden born of work. How is it that the Yokes we make for ourselves with our deeds seem to be so burdensome and heavy? How did Jesus make a light yoke? How is it that his yoke is lighter than ours? These are the questions I have pondered and meditated on much of my life. Again, here we are brought back to the chakras. Here, we find an indication that if Jesus' heart were to be weighed it would be light as a feather. He was a leader who taught through role modeling. Everything he did taught us how to make our hearts as light as feather so we could experience the Kingdom of Heaven. What is Work? There is confusion for a lot of people here. They think it is profession. Yet, even Tax Collectors (that were seemingly reviled in the time of Jesus) could continue in their job and still be baptized followers of Jesus...clearly we're not talking about how we make our money. This seems a mystery to those who preach dogma. Let me make it very simple for you. Every day, every time you interact with another human being, every moment...you make choices. Those choices are your work. In each of those moments you either make a choice that is self-gratifying that makes your wounded ego feel better dominating the other person in a very predator like way...or you come from a place of mercy and kindness. The choice in every moment is yours. How you treat them is how God/Source treats you. Anyone can claim a title but you'll know them by their works. (Matthew 7:15-20) God/Source is merciful in that there are so many opportunities to change in a lifetime...nearly every moment we can make that choice and start living our life that way. From the perspective of Edgar Cacye everything we have ever done is written down in a Book of Life. If you add into the equation...all of your past lives also testify for or against you...that is quite a record... often of misdeeds and missed opportunities. Yet it is our soul, not God/Source, who reads this book and decides our lessons on Earth are not yet done. Even after you make the choice to act in mercy and loving kindness to your neighbor...it is hard to maintain. Too often it is easy to fall off of the boat and start coming from that place of a judging and vengeful ego when dealing with others. All too often I find it easy to judge someone as cheap, hateful or stupid...but it is not my place to make this judgement or to punish them...that's entirely between them and God/Source. Thus, the labor day in an day out is to gradually start coming from that more merciful place of interacting with others in every relationship and encounter we have...there are so many opportunities in a lifetime that there is no excuse not to perfect it. A Light and Easy Burden When you study just the words (not the layers of interpenetration that started with Paul) of what Jesus said you find he is a very loving person who never denied anyone seeking wisdom. He doesn't say that one person over the other deserves to be enlightened. He didn't work only with people that were in agreement with his beliefs...he said he came for the Jews but at the same time he gave a great teaching to the Samaritan at the well (John 4:1-42). Thanks to Dogma and a feeling of unworthiness most people think the ability to be like Jesus is beyond them. In fact, some might even think it's blasphemy to want to emulate Jesus. Yet, in that quote at the start of this blog from Matthew 11:28-30 he clearly tells us to be like him. Clearly, if he was a loving person he would not tell us to be like him if it is something beyond our capability. Too many put Yeshua on a pedestal where they cannot even conceive of being like him. He was divinely born without sin and the perfect human being according to Dogma. Yet, the story that we find in the bible is not about a perfect person. He scared his parents by staying behind on a Feast Day at the Temple as a child...that's a disobedient little boy. He has doubts, he has fears, he is tested in the desert by Satan...Yet, he passes the test of trusting God/Source and continues to serve the Natural Order instead of his selfish desires...even up to his own death which he prayed he would not have to do but forever sealed him to the fate of becoming a religious symbol for the Roman Empire to conquer with and later the Crusaders. All of us have every opportunity to pass that same test every day. Maybe the test is not so obvious in the moment but nevertheless it is the same. What is Our Burden? Each of us create our own Yoke. We create our own burden. To reach the point where we can see people so clearly that we can truly help them we have to come to terms with our own issues. Sadly, most people will not seize upon the opportunity to start acting in a more enlightened manner simply because they feel they are too 'sinful' to even attempt living a virtuous life. They feel their past testifies against them and they can't start anew. Yet, Sin, in Hebrew simply means to "Miss the Mark." Here is a post that covers this subject. http://www.hebrew4christians.com/Meditations/Chata_ah/chata_ah.html All of us are carrying baggage...the product of our work...our yoke. What I've learned is the only person really keeping score is ourselves. We punish ourselves endlessly for what we consider to be misdeeds. Whether it's not keeping our houses at certain levels of cleanliness to failing to get a college degree. We are our own worse judges. We hardly need anyone else to beat up on us mentally and when we do encounter that we often justify them. To be free of that burden we have to come to some realizations about life on Earth, our limitations in it and our role. Working through our own issues by taking an inward path requires us to forgive ourselves. That's a huge step on the path that a lot of people aren't willing to take. They hold onto all of their failures, all of their faults, all of their mistakes, all their trauma... identifying themselves and their lives by the past. They work hard to prevent those same things from happening or hiding those misdeeds from others...yet, somehow it always seems to happen again. Yet, God/Source already knows, so who are we really hiding our faults from? Most of the time we hide them from ourselves...unable or unwilling to even feel the pain so we can heal it...we keep the wound open. We carry it through our lives and weave it into our being to the point where we confuse the wound with our very essence. Simply accepting Jesus as the Chosen One of God doesn't heal that pain. That's just magical thinking dogma. Those made up teachings are not based on his actual words but are left over from a religion that justified the existence of a government that wanted to rule the world because humans were too unworthy to have a direct connection to Christ- their government officials (Priests) had to provide it for them. Our Identity I could identify myself as a divorcee, as the mother of a child who died...and I could dwell in that identity for the rest of my life. Other people will see me as a victim and even justify that belief...but for what? Are we the deeds that we have done? Are we the actions that we have committed? At the core of my being I know that I am a spark of light emanated from the Great Source of all the Cosmos. That being is not defined by the actions I took in this life or the life before...it is an immortal unchanging aspect of God/Source. We are not the actions we have done...that does not define our existence. We were judged worthy of existence when we emanated from the Source/God. Source/God knew our entire journey, our purpose that does not lie merely in the Earhtly realm, and knew all of the faults we would commit...he knew how many times we would miss the mark. Yet, we were so worthy of existence despite knowing all of that...Source/God created us! Our actions in the past, our mistakes, our burden...need not define us. We cannot go back and change all of that. We can change in the NOW. We can choose to be the better person instead of being vindictive. We can choose mercy. We can kneel down before the Source and say, "Not as my will, but yours in the labors and deeds of my hands, my mind and my words." (Edgar Cacye) When we are faced with an interaction with another human being we can see it as interacting with God. God is among us in all sorts of varied forms every day. Every day we are tested, "Have you learned your lesson yet? Will you follow God's will or continue to create life in your own image? Will you falter now?" This is why I see opportunities for right action in alignment with the Natural Order and not obstacles in my life. In The Flow Letting go and being in the flow allows you to act within the Natural Order of God/Source. We might not see the reasons or the purposes but we go with it, trusting the entire way that there is a reason and a purpose. This state of being is of peacefulness. The Flow of life is unceasing but it brings us momentary puzzles and delights that we let go of...because we trust that there is a reason and there will be more. How often do we hold onto that which no longer serves us? I did far too often until I learned to let all of that go...until I learned that all things in the physical realm are temporary. Even if I am uncomfortable within a situation...I know that it is temporary and somehow it is serving a Higher Purpose in my life or Source/God would not flow it in my direction. If I am really happy and blissful in a moment I know it is temporary and I am eternally grateful to enjoy that moment to its fullest. I know that I will be tested and tested again, "Have I really learned submission?" That is the purpose, the fiery furnace, of life in which I chose to be placed as a soul because the rewards were so great. To forge my individuality in that furnace and be a companion of God/Source is totally worth all and any tests or tribulations. I can trust that the core of this ultimate truth has settled deep within my being and I offer my service to Source/God in all of its forms and aspects from a truly selfless state of being. As you will see in my next blog that also means promising to be of service to all of my human family. I don't have to change my lifestyle. Just going to my service industry job and treating each person with the love and respect they deserve as emanations of Source is enough. This doesn't have to be a big deal trumpeted by the News Stations. Conclusions To be Christ like is not my goal. Who was Jesus the person and how was his burden light? What influences did he have upon him at the time? Certainly, Jewish, Hindu, Egyptian and Buddhist mysticism were accessible to him. Why would anyone mislead the people into believing Dogma? To preserve their power. Rome, from the time of Paul (who never knew the living Jesus) began to manipulate the early church. That governmental power used Christianity in the hopes of ruling the world and for a time it did...not just physically but mentally. In many ways the Pope in Rome still holds undeserved power as the ruler of the world in Jesus place. May the Malachai Prophecy be right and this be the last false ruler of the spiritual world. Jesus never sought to rule the world. They crowned him with thorns to mock him. What is the Yoke that Yeshua carried? The teachings of how to be a better person. The commandment to love God/Source above all else, and to love your neighbor as yourself. After all, there is only one being here....all of us are emanations or aspects of Source/God. To love yourself is to love God/Source. To love your neighbor is to love God/Source. You still practice discernment and protect your body. You refrain from taking on other people's burdens. Yet, you love them even as you see them struggling and suffering...just as you suffered and triumphed...because you know the end result of that will be the best for them. All of that struggling in this finite world will some day, perhaps in another life, cause them to turn from their own selfishness realizing that what they will create will never match what God/Source creates...that working with the Natural Order is so much easier then trying to thrust our personal will upon creation. That mentality of, "Well, if I were in charge this is how things would be...so everyone should see things and do things my way..." is 'missing the mark.' Nothing does anything better then the Natural Order. All man-made attempts to emulate it have failed. Just look at imitation sugar. Once people realize that they can't do things better then the Natural Order they will stop misusing their willpower...they will turn toward God, admit that his will and creation are flawless. Then they will use their free will in service to the Natural Order that flows from Source/God...combining their will with God's in a union that will benefit all. That is the only way to alleviate suffering. The profound peace I have achieved was completely inconceivable to me...and almost beyond words to convey to others. I am attempting to translate it the best I can in this blog. There is far more to the topic of misusing willpower and this is only my first attempt. Yet, no, you do not need to carry the burdens of other people's work. NO, the people who do so are not good people but are enablers. Enablers prevent people from waking up and seeking God...they lull them further asleep and as such they are just as bad no matter how much monetary success they may experience. The enabled just want the riches of this world without working for them. You cannot love the riches of this world (mostly unnatural) and God at the same time. There is a clear and obvious choice. ​You know what to do....will you do it? ***UPDATE*** I was watching a video by Victor Oddo this morning that is a great example of what I'm talking about in this blog. A simple little action, someone saying, "Hey," and showing that they genuinely cared changed his entire day. That's all that's needed. I was so excited last night when it occurred me to do this "life review" I couldn't sleep. When that happens I know it's a clue from my soul something good was going to come out of this meditation. Then a synchronicity happened and my cell phone was turned off because I failed to charge it last night. No distracting calls from my mother which is the only thing that allowed this blog to happen.
I'm spending today in quite meditation and contemplation. Tomorrow, I venture back out into the world of work. This is a sort of ending and a beginning. Although, my three weeks off of work was planned for my surgery it has proven to be far more. I expected it to be only two weeks but it ended up being three. In some ways it has been a very spiritual experience. For most of us who go a little bit deeper into the spiritual part of life anything can become a meditation. Meditation is simply placing the mind on a subject or an activity. Different practices are created with different aims. The spiritual epiphany I experienced, however, is a bit different. I'm not a joiner. I haven't followed a particular religion or a particular school of thought. I am attracted to Edgar Cacye's A.R.E. more then any other group. I believe this is probably because they follow an Inclusive practice where all Spiritual disciplines are considered equal and a reflection of the same nature of our reality. My spiritual epiphany is puzzling to me. All of what I have sought has been answered. Now, I am sitting back waiting and watching it unfold without the slightest clue as to what I might be producing. Edgar Cacye says Mind is the Builder and I intend to write a blog on that but where I am at on a mental level is far different than anything I've experienced in the past. The familiar patterns have been left behind. I have no idea what my Mind is Building or what to expect! Of course, this gives room to fear. What happens when the Mind and Spirit act as one? I'm not really sure. There really isn't much about this anywhere. There is a lot about pursuing God but not really what to do when you achieve that complete wholeness. While my future is a blank slate my past appears crystal clear. I can see a sort of story and symmetry to it that was previously impossible to grasp. In the Spirit of this moment I want to take a moment to look back. The following meditation is primarily for me, I'm reviewing my spiritual/mystical journey. The mystical experiences I've had are pretty darn uncanny. I had little choice but to lead a spiritual life of a Seeker although I wouldn't have it any other way when I look back. The journey has been terrifying and transcendental...sorrowful and yet joyful beyond compare. Perhaps you will be entertained by the stories, maybe they will inspire you on your own Spiritual Quest or maybe they will confuse you. This journey is very personal and unique to me, I don't expect anyone to have this same exact story. Yet, it can serve as an example of the broken path most of us walk. Spiritual Ideal In his book Spiritual Breakthrough John Van Auken uses this quote from an Edgar Cacye reading: "Ideas and Ideals are quite different. One rises from the finite, the other from the infinite." (Reading 3211-2) In order to know our Spiritual Ideal we have to really be in tune with Spirit (our Soul). I can't say that I know anyone in my personal sphere of influence that has attained this consciously or even pursued it..save myself. I certainly never meant to pursue it...I just 'followed my bliss' or what felt good I guess! In fact I thought that if you achieved the Ideal of the Soul that life would end. What purpose would the rest of your life serve if you weren't pursuing that goal? Yet, at the precipse that I am at I can see the Ideal that my Soul had in mind in this life. (I've been at a place of certainty before in my spiritual quest so I don't really trust it...Tomorrow all of this may come to mean nothing to me or be just a fabrication of wishful thinking. I believe I have the answers for now but as I've learned before when this happens life changes course and there is something new to be discovered in my personal Spiritual Quest.) I guess, the issue is I can't really perceive what might be next which is giving rise to doubt and fear. If I could define the spiritual ideal of my life as of this moment it appears to be, "Awaken within the Dream to an understanding of my True Divine Nature." I will get to what that means at the end of the post. I can see now a multidimensional perspective of events in my life. When I experienced them they were very personal and very discouraging. The emotions involved completely blinded to me regarding what the purpose might have been. I felt very much like a victim and not a willing active participant that would choose such suffering. My conscious mind certainly would not have chosen these events. Yet, now I can see a very definite purpose. I can see how my Soul diligently tried to steer me toward my Spiritual Ideal even when my conscious self wanted nothing to do with spiritual interests. After all, we have an instinctive desire to conform and be like all of those around us...spiritually speaking a lot of people are dead in this world. I would never have conceived of myself as a Mystic. I tend to stay very left brained and logical which is the perspective of most of our society. Just saying that I have had mystical expediences makes me uncomfortable. My mind might have wanted to pursue an ordinary life, not a mystical one, but Spirit or my Soul (kind of interchangeable) wasn't about to let that happen. A Meditation On The Past Early Childhood Memories I have two really odd early memories. Profound Spiritual Insight The first one was when I was playing Barbies. I was young, probably four or five. I would assign a personality to each Barbie based on how they would look. Then I would act out stories with them based on how I thought each would respond to different situations that I put them in. None of the other kids I knew played this way and this is why I absolutely *HATED* playing Barbies with anyone else. They didn't assign the right personalities to the Barbies. The weird thing was that at one point when going through this I thought, "This must be how God thinks when he creates us." Now, both of my parents were Worldly people only concerned with material gains. We didn't go to church. We didn't talk about God. I didn't watch television so aside from past life experiences there is absolutely no reason why I would have this thought. Further, this epiphany has stayed with me since then. I am not at a conscious adult level of spirituality where I can't get it! Misunderstood Past Life Memory The second memory I have is of telling my mother of something I remembered. Again, this was when I was around four or five. We were driving when I asked her, "Mom do you remember when Dad had all his friends and my uncles over and they were smoking cigars?" At the time my mom told me I was mis-remembering. That it never happened. Further, as far as I know I have never ever seen my father smoke a cigar. Not once. We didn't even have friends or family who smoked cigars so where did I get the memory from? Had she been the person she is today she would probably realize that this was a past life memory recall. She doesn't remember this event at all. I remember it because it caused me great distress as a child and it always puzzled me. How did I so clearly remember details about something that didn't happen? The truth of this didn't really become clear until I had a Past Life regression and that scene was vividly recalled...in my last reincarnation. I've covered that life in previous posts but that regression solved a mystery I never understood. Viewing Others From the Outside I remember pre-school. I was a strange child. I did not have friends. I could see dynamics between people. I could see the potential futures that held for them. Mind you, I was four or five. I didn't feel as though I was part of the group nor did I play like the other children. I just watched them as a curious outsider as though their interests and pursuits were totally alien to me. "Mother" From third to sixth grade I went to school in Bakersfield California. I always had a hard time connecting with people. Yet, for some reason about fifth and sixth grade I had become friends with many people. In fact, people came to me for advice. I was given the nick name "mother' because people would come to me for 'mothering advice' that they didn't dare ask their parents. I was very inexperienced at the time but somehow my advice was always true. Of my years in public education, I think that was my happiest. Teenage Experiences In my teenage years, after my Grandma Alta passed away, I felt very lost. I began searching for answers and I turned to the Bible. My parents, though not really religious tended towards Christian traditions. I sat down and read the bible from cover to cover. The book of Matthew has always been my favorite. Yet, it did not prepare me for what I would experience in life. Encountering A Spirit One day, this is before my Grandma Alta died, I went upstairs in what was a recreation room. I don't know what I was going to get from that room but I saw something float in through the window. It look liked a greasy cloud. I thought, perhaps, my mother was BBQ'ing as the grill was right below that window. This cloud however, moved as though it were sentient and it stopped right in front of me. I found myself frozen in place and I had the very distinct thought, that was not my own, "I know who you are and I will return." Terrified I ran downstairs forgetting whatever I had meant to retrieve from the room. I went straight to my mom and told her what had happened. Now she is pretty superstitious and it freaked her out. So naturally it terrified me. Throughout my teens I would listen to music at night because I was frightened of something. I don't know what it was or why but sometimes the only way I could sleep was with the radio on. The one thing I knew for certain after this experience was that other dimensions absolutely do exist. I threw myself into Christian knowledge but I didn't find any answers that could explain what I witnessed. My mother couldn't explain it and I've never come across anything to explain that experience. Experiencing Oneness At Will The second thing that occurred in my teens that really changed things was that my mom brought home a book called Journey of Souls. That was the first non-christian Spiritual book I had encountered. Right away it resonated with me. (Yet, it would be decades later that I realized that the earlier 'false memory' was actually a memory fragment from a past life. My mind had to really be retrained in order to conceive of that one!) The strange thing that happened though is that I asked my mom if she could feel the Oneness. I could, at any time, tap into that feeling. I was really puzzled that my mother could not feel that Oneness with all life. I felt really sad for her that she didn't and it was the first time I realized that *MOST* people can't experience that Oneness at will. Faerie's Oracle and Dreams During my teens was the first time that I encoutnered an Oracle card set as well. My mother bought me Brian Froud's Oracle Card Set simply because it was faeries. She thought it was a book and had no idea that it was an oracle card set. Being me, I read the book diligently, completely innocent as to what an oracle was and performed the meditation in the book. This was the very first time I ever meditated. I never dreamed that meditation didn't come some easily to other people. The meditation has the person envision that they have a tail that reaches deep into the earth (a grounding exercise) and "feel" there wings. I remember perceiving this huge energy field that was me...and my thought was whoa, I'm Huge! Back then I had no idea what I was feeling, now, twenty years later I realized I perceived my Aura (also called energy body). Back then it was unblocked and it was HUGE, it took up a good portion of the room and it felt fantastic to perceive it. This was also when I was given a Dream Dictionary Book. This book would become very fundamental. I started to work with my dreams, although not very diligently. I still had a very superstitious dogmatic point of view. That book is how I learned about the Edgar Cacye A.R.E. which I would turn to in my most recent Spiritual Awakening (2014). Strangely, that book doesn't appear to have ever existed and my copy that was on my bed stand for years disappeared around 2005. Thoughts On Childhood Memories I find it interesting that I appear to have chosen worldly parents on purpose. The one person who might have given me spiritual guidance and might have realized what all of this meant died the very year I was born (my Grandpa Douglas Q. McMasters- google that name and you get some interesting results! Even though he died in 1982 he left quite the impression!). I'm glad that I didn't have guidance or influence. Yes, It might have been easier if my mom had recognized it (now she would but she was in her teens when she had me so she was very young and very focused on day to day survival). In a way, I feel my experiences were more pure and I was allowed more freedom because I didn't have anyone there to explain of frame what I was experiencing for me. Since I didn't have that the experiences became a catalyst for me to become a Seeker. I must say, however, that my mother did have a bit of a negative influence. She, because of her father, had experienced some mystical or supernatural situations. She feared them, however, and she transferred that fear to me. Perhaps that was a good thing because I could have gone down a more destructive path without the fear and respect I developed for these experiences. Young Adult Years I had another past life memory recall at a pivotal moment in my life. At the time I was contemplating moving out with my boyfriend (which I did). This past life memory appears to have been a warning. This was in the year 2000. I've shared it in detail before...but basically in that life I chose material pursuits instead of doing my duty and searching spirtually. After experiencing seeing myself as that young Muslim man, and him seeing me in a mirror while dong some sort of drug in a hookah (I had no experience with either...I am straight edge against drugs and I had never seen a hookah besides Star Wars)...I was asked, "Do you want to do this again?" Well, I chose to do it again. My spiritual pursuits dropped off and I worked at UPS as a box handler. I was very in touch with my masculine side and I can say that I was probably channeling the energy from that past male life. I knew I was as strong and could out work any other man. For the first time in a long time I found a profound level of acceptance with the people I was working with and I started to develop some self-esteem. Terrifying Experience In 2005 Everything Fell Apart. Two years after I married my ex-husband he was diagnosed with testicular Cancer. Subsequently, he had his testicles removed and then his lymph nodes in is abdomen in a very radical surgery at USC called an RPLND, Here's what happened. At this point the ex-husband was diagnosed as Cancer Free and back at work. Night after night I was woken up by him talking in his sleep. I would try to get him to go back to sleep but he wouldn't. I would have full conversations with them but they were very distressing. At first, it appeared that what came through him was what I now call a Place Holder Soul. This entity even talked to itself, "This has never happened before. This shouldn't be happening." The Soul/Spirit explained that it was a place holder entity. The thing explained that it never actually incarnated and that it would just come to inhabit bodies for a temporary time as a suitable soul replacement was found. The entity explained that the soul I knew as my ex-husband had retreated from this life and was not interested in living anymore. He explained that soul was in a deep dark hole and wouldn't come out and wouldn't re-inhabit the body. I had never heard of any such thing before in my life! I was pretty freaked out but as this happened every night there was a natural sort of curiosity. I asked this place holder entity if I could speak to the soul of my ex-husband, the one I had married. He said yes. What came through was not coherent. All I can describe is just pure terror, inconsolable sorrow and I realized whatever that was could't be rationalized with. I didn't have the book Journey of Souls to consult as I had given it back to my mom to give it back to the original owner. I wish that I had because maybe then I would have been able to figure out what was going on. I hadn't thought of spiritual concepts in years because I was focused on what I now know was unhealthy material gain. Every night this terrifying event continued to happen. I told my ex-husband what was happening at night. I wanted to sleep on the couch but that upset him. I wasn't entirely sure he wasn't acting. That this wasn't some sort of psychological trick he was playing on me. He was in a terrible place mentally. His behavior had become moody and verbally abusive during the day. Sometimes he would grab my arm and give me this hateful look. He blamed me that he had survived his surgery. Even the people at work had noticed it. One night I was unable to sleep worried about what was going on and reading the bible trying to find answers. He woke up with the most evil laugh I've ever heard. He told me that the bible would protect me from him. He proceeded to talk with the worst vampire accent I've ever heard. Claimed he had known me in a past life and his personality was nothing like my ex-husbands. He asked if he should take this body so we could work alongside each other again. When I said no he chased me with an Ornamental Knife that I had on display. I locked myself in the bathroom and slept in the bath tub. The only frame of reference I had for this event was that of the Christian point of view of possession. I was terrified. The very next night I left him and I've never spent time with him sense. I had extreme anxiety attacks as a result of this experience and was diagnosed with PTSD. Meanwhile, he claimed not to remember any of it. On a mental and spiritual Level I was freaked out questioning my own sanity. No one at the time could help me with this or perceived how disturbed I was on a spiritual level. I couldn't even really put into words what I had experienced. In my limited point of view this sort of thing was impossible. Spiritual Seeking I was thrown back into my spiritual seeking by the events that had occurred. I wanted answers to what I experienced. There really weren't any out there. I went through a terrible depression. After all, I left the entire identity I had built for myself (mind is a builder after all) and was starting over. I didn't know who i was or what I was going to do. My psychologist, which I was not entirely honest with about what happened gave me the book When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron. For the first time instead of trying to explain away or fight what had happened I looked at it as an opportunity to learn more about myself. As Pema said, "I leaned into the uncertainty." I began going to college online with the University of Phoenix. I experimented with different relationships with men...none of which really worked out. Yet, I was taking calculated chances I would have been frightened of taking in the past. I picked up Sakyong Mipmahm's book, "Turning the Mind Into An Ally." I began to meditate daily learning to quiet my mind. Again, I took to the practice much as a fish would to water. It never occurred to me that people struggled to adopt this practice. I started to build my personality all over again. This time it was a little bit more edgy. Instead of being a frightened little mouse I focused on becoming more like a character of mine named Talonea in the fantasy series that I had written non-stop. I worked to transform myself. I had terrible highs and terrible lows. I think I've already shared most of them but on a spiritual level I came to a certain level of acceptance. Acceptance of my flaws and my lows. I got sucked into the 2012 hysteria and I felt a desperate need to "Awaken" even though I didn't know what this meant. The response I received when trying to "Awaken" was that it was not time yet and that I had to wait for the others. This came from a person that had gray hair, roundish glasses and piercing blue eyes. He appeared to be one of my guides but I had no clue who he was at the time. I now think it was Edgar Cacye. At the time I did not search out the A.R.E. at all. That simply didn't occur to me. I thought if I was to "Awaken" I would pull the rest of them "up" with me. I had no context of where these thoughts came from or why I was so desperate about them at the time. Either way, I reached a point of Wholeness and Acceptance in these years. Although, I was still off balance and still experiencing a discord as a result I did reach a very positive place mentally. I will go more into this in my post on Valentines Day as to how I cleared space for the wonderful amazing husband I now have. Thoughts On Young Adult Years This was a tough learning curve. Even sharing this with you his hard for me because the time I spent with the ex-husband was such a spectacular failure. Even thinking about the experience with the Place-Holder Spirit and the uncertainty about if it was all an act...I feel queasy. I have come to look at that experience as my Soul prompting me in a very dramatic fashion to get out of a bad situation that wasn't serving me. I was put back on the spiritual track that I was meant to travel in this life and knocked out of the usual material pursuits. Strangely, here is a weird numerical cycle starts. I was with my ex for five years (2000-2005). I lived on my own for three years after that happened. Recent Years I met Ross in 2008. The years after meeting Ross I began to focus on material pursuits again. This time I was really successful. After two years of courtship we married in 2010. Ross and I had an agreement that who ever made the most money would be the bread winner and the other person would stay home when we had kids. There was a real high point in my life when I hit 30. I graduated from University of Phoenix with my third degree- A Masters in Business Administration. I had just started a promising new job. Life seemed Golden. Another five years cycle had come to completion...this was 2010. Second Wake Up Call The five year plan Ross insisted on when we were married went faster than anticipated as we achieved our goals within the first three years. In 2013 we were on track to buy our house. My focus switched from my career to having kids because I had lost the bet... That's when Everything Fell Apart...again. Most of you are aware of what happened in 2014. I won't go into the details of what happened here. What I will say is that after Lilith-Ann died I had nothing to lose spiritually. When the identity I built with Ross from the age of 28-33 fell apart I never bothered to build a new one. That aspect of me died with my daughter Lilith-Ann This blog started at that time. I began seeking Spiritually again. This caused some discomfort for Ross because he doesn't see value in having faith or a spiritual practice of any kind. He neither believes in God nor disbelieves in God. God, he says, will never be proven by the Scientific Method which is what he uses to judge "truth" in the material and so why bother? As I said though, I had nothing to lose at that point because of the mental state I was in. I didn't blame god but I certainly blamed my Higher Self that had planned this life. I didn't see people suffering the way I had suffered. I wanted some answers. What resulted was the profound experience of a Dark Night of the Soul and a Kundalini Awakening at the same time. I had no idea what I was going through at the time. I had never even heard of Kundalini. 2014 was a very confusing year. I received the message, near my birthday, I had one more year left. I had no idea what that meant. This message came through my lap top and even now it seems insane to say it. The thing was locked up and the voice I heard did not come from the video I had been listening to...I told Ross about it and my mom. I was very unbound and explored many faucets of spirituality that terrified me or I thought was too far 'out there' before...and I couldn't justify. There were a lot of elements that just really fell into place that allowed me to do all of this for the first time. I realize now that in 2015 a five year cycle was completed. Thank goodness it was because some of the most hellish years of my life. Currently This deserves it's own blog but the last three years (since 2014 when Lilith-Ann passed away) have been anything but easy. This cycle was steep and dizzying but very much worth it now that it is coming to an end. I'm not quite ready to put it all into a cohesive narrative because I need a little bit more emotional distance. I haven't completely understood the depth of what the heck I experienced. Again, I was in a situation blindly going through experiences not understanding what they meant. I had no mentor for direct guidance. I met my Higher Self, which was a crazy experience that gave me a lot of perspective. Spirit was very much trying to give me answers but I didn't have the Tools to understand them. I didn't really feel sure of myself or my experiences until August of last year, 2016. The profound sense of lack of trust of myself and my senses was the biggest struggle. I realize the three year cycle of soul seeking...similar to the three years I experienced from 2005-2008...is coming to completion. I expect it to be complete in April. That's just a feeling that I have and I know that I am starting to clear out for something new to come in...that's the impression I have of this year. Thoughts On My Early Thirties I am leaving out some mystical experiences that happened in the last three years. I've explored many of them in previous blogs. So I don't really feel it's necessary to rehash them. These last three years has consisted of a spurt of spiritual growth that was pretty fearless. My Spiritual Ideal I've experienced three spiritual Awakenings. One happened in my Teen when I was drawn to the Faery stuff, was given my first Oracle cars, first started interpreting my dreams, read Journey of Souls and fell in love with the Angels of Venice Song "Awake Inside a Dream." I would say this occurred from 1997-2000. My second Awakening was from 2005-2008. This is where I explored Buddhisim and meditation. I heard about the Annunaki and 2012. Yet, I knew I wasn't really suppose to Awaken Completely then because there were not enough people ready then. My Third Awakening has occurred from 2014-2017. In this one I went further then ever before and really started harmonizing all of the beliefs that I had encountered. I vowed to only work with my Higher Self. No other groups or entities because it was just so confusing. Many of you have joined me on this Journey in this blog. I'm finding more and more people openly sharing their experiences and so much information about all of this...I no longer feel alone. All of these periods were rough. In all of these time periods my mother and those around me were pretty sure I was loosing my mind. This, I suppose, is normal. This reminds me of a Native American who as given a tour of a psychiatric ward. He came away stating that's what the West does with their Shamans. Joseph Campbell stated, "The psychotic drowns in the same waters in which the mystic swims in delight." Perhaps there are real benefits of having a spiritual teacher through this "Awakening" process. Yet, I'm glad I didn't because I don't think I would have ever realized that final part. Many of you know the Bunny Dream. As I was walking blind through much of this experience I've learned that my Spiritual Ideal is what Edgar Cacye stated... "The purpose of the heart is to know yourself to be yourself and yet one with God." Life, as the Buddhists and Hindu explain, is a Dream. It's all Maya...illusion. To awaken within that dream and know that I am myself and yet one with God...was my Ideal in Spirit...now it's kind of a blank slate? I guess there really isn't any higher spiritual purpose and I can't explain to you why but it really appears to me that no one is talking about what to do when you reach this point! Let alone helping people see the reason why this should be an Ideal at all. Conclusion I have seen, writing this, a five year and three year pattern. This is fascinating to me on many levels. Five is my personal number. This number has popped up sychronistically all over the place and I suppose I will cover this in a future blog. I've already covered three. There is even a 7 year cycle in there..after every five years of completion there is a two year period of great struggle. I'm coming to the end of a three year spiritual growth spurt. I have two more years to this period in my life. That's a bit fascinating. I'm going to have to sit and meditate on that one. Especially given that I realized that my goal of having children this year is not going to happen...God's timing appears to be very specific in my life. Being pregnant in 2008 would be right in alignment with that five year cycle...I'll probably give birth in 2019 and in 2020 the baby would be here right on time for a new cycle of lessons. Wowza! Based on what I've experienced before it is exactly where I was in my life right before meeting Ross...I'm clearing out the old to make way for something new. Thank you for going on the journey of this post for me. I knew writing this would give me perspective. This has been an all day endeavor and a very uncomfortable one. Much of what I have related here has caused me to question my sanity. That is, because of how we treat people we see as psychologically different in our society. The western idea of a mechanical universe has no place for mystics. Sharing these events honestly has been purifying and terrifying at the same time. Realizing that I'm a mystic has been no easy task! Yet, my soul had a very specific ideal for this time period...because it really wants to be of service during this time. I realize I've had helpers and been supported on many different levels...it is very entertaining and there is so much more I've discovered that I wish to discuss. For now let me close with a final quote from Edgar Cacye that I didn't even knew existed but puts this time period in perspective: "...for changes are coming, this may be sure-- an evolution or revolution in the ideas of religious thought..." There is more of this quote that you can see in if you follow the link below. I don't want to go into that here because it will detract from how I wanted to end this blog and deserves another blog/meditation of it's own. (http://www.miraclesandinspiration.com/edgarcayce_quotes.html) I want to note a few things prior to getting into this one.
1. Normally I publish my posts on Monday and Friday. Today I'm breaking that trend because I think this message is timely and I'm actually excited about sharing this interpretation as I've already shared the dream. 2. I will be writing a blog about why Ross, even though he is a skeptic, is the best partner for me. I want to explain how he came into my life as well for those who can't seem to make room for the right person to come into their life. I'm retooling a blog I wrote on the subject already but I will post that blog Valentines week. 3. The synchronicity of both Wolverine and Beauty and the Beast coming out this year and being associated with a Grand Cycle of Time is a bit bigger than I first thought. The Hopi believe that the latest "World" is that of the Animal. In both movies...the characters have the choice to give into their Animal natures...or choose compassion. The next World of the Hopi is that of the Human. * * * I've decided that I want to share a dream and the interpretation that I had because I realized how powerful the message was and that it might have some value to others. As far as I'm concerned all dreams are personal dreams, often times it is our mind crunching data but sometimes I do believe messages from Spirit that can apply to everyone can come through. The perspective that this dream provides about current affairs is what really matters. What I do is not special. Receiving messages from Spirit is something anyone can do and we all dream. All of us have access to the most perfect consul and font for answers every night (or in meditation). Yet, I realize not all people will allow this in their life unless they see someone else model the behavior. So, hopefully by sharing this with you it will move you to start seeking your own answers within. I didn't realize that this Message from Spirit might be valuable to anyone else until I told my mom about it. This has been a strange phenomenon that I have had recently where I don't really comprehend the depth or meaning of a dream until I share it with someone. The Dream A friend of mine from work, Mikey (who I consider to be extremely left brained and logical) had loaned me a DVD. If I answered the question on the DVD correctly I would be granted super powers. As I gave it back to him I said no, I had not been successful. We then went inside to try to solve the puzzle as a group. As we watched we had to count the people wearing red shirts. That was the question that we needed to answer in order to get 'super powers.' We watched the DVD on a small fuzzy tube television. At one point where the video turned into black and white video footage of two football teams. Mikey pointed at the screen enthusiastically, "Here's the trick. This team wears red jerseys so everyone on this team counts as wearing a red shirt." He tapped the screen every time there was a player for that team reaching a mind boggling number very quickly. I retreated from the room. I don't like math games because I have dyslexia and it messes with my ability to track anything but prime numbers (1-10). I was not happy that this "trick" was being employed. What happened if a person was color blind and was trying to answer this puzzle? Then it hit me, I knew the answer in the dream (As I was watching myself from a third person perspective I did not 'know the answer'). I told everyone in the room I knew the answer. Bill Styhe, the actor was there (to me he represents self-assured authority) and he asked, "Are you sure because I think I have a really good guess." I said, "No, I know the answer!" I raced outside the house. By the front door I encountered a Brown rabbit. I told that rabbit for some reason, "I know the answer?" "Do you?" the rabbit asked doing the Pepe the Frog gesture with his hand upon his chin. "Yes, it's One!" "No, choose again-" The bunny replied. I picked the rabbit up refusing to back down. "No, think about," I told this talking rabbit as though this was perfectly normal thing to do, "we are all one at the source. Every person on that DVD is one at the Source level. The answer is One!" The Rabbit smiled and out of the corner of my eye I saw there was a gray jack rabbit that had been hopping clockwise around a white stationary rabbit. The gray rabbit came to an abrupt halt as I said this and looked at me with the most incredible powerful expression. The white rabbit continued to sleep (I reviewed my journal of this and mistakenly thought it had woken up). I realized that I, holding the brown rabbit, the gray rabbit and the white rabbit were all in perfect alignment. I had answered the question at the exact right moment to allow for this alignment. I realized this indicated that I had answered correctly, I was very excited and the dream ended. Dream Interpretation 1. The DVD represents the story that we see in the world. Most of what was on the DVD were news stories or narratives. Interestingly, we could experience it more than once (replaying the DVD) until we came up with the answer. The narratives and stories were a distraction from the main purpose of the DVD. 2. The Riddle: I believe that God/Spirit/Source (whatever you want to call a higher power) is always testing us...have we learned our lessons? 3. Super Powers: I imagine the reason why you would want a super power is because you feel powerless and to help other people. That didn't seem to be what aroused my curiosity however. I like meditating on riddles and puzzles. 4. Mikey, to me, represents someone who is very left-brained. This is an aspect of me, not the actual person that I know...and what this was saying is that I was looking at the issues in the world from a logical linear perspective (which doesn't apply to emotions). 5. Red Shirts: Immediately when writing this I thought of two things...First, the Red Shirts in Star Trek... the joke is that extra red shirts on away missions usually die. The second was Republicans (we associate them with red while democrats are blue). So, I knew this partly regarded the emotional struggle we see in politics going on in the nation right now. 6. The black and white "trick." Right now a lot of people are trying to see the politics in this country as "black and white" or "Good Vs Evil." (I had already learned this lesson). I realized the division into teams was an illusion...a distraction. Too often we over think about things and attach meaning to events that, quite honestly, aren't there. 7. Bill Styhe, as I said before, reminds me of assured authority. You know that one person who seems to think they very much know the answer to everything. He asks me if I'm sure about my answer as though doubting my ability to discern the answer. He only has a guess but he thinks that his guess is more valuable than my answer. This is the part of me that tends to give my personal power over to a strong male authority. 8. Bunnies- My first association is to Easter and Resurrection. My second association when meditating on the subject caused me to refer back to Laird Scranton's book "The Cosmological Origins of Myth and Symbol." A feature of the bunnies that I focused on was the bunnies whiskers twitching for some reason...and on page 48 of the book I read this, "An example of his kind of adopted symbolism is illustrated by the symbolic assignment of the concept of VIBRATION to the image of a hare or rabbit." So in my mind, it is clear, Rabbits represent vibration. 9. The Significance of Three: There is a huge significance to this number. To me this represents the Holy Trinity (in Hindu it would be Brahman, Atman, and the Individual ) and the Spirit, Mind, Body complex of humanity. To me these are reflections of each other. On a different scale it can also me my Mind, Spirit and Source. On a different scale it represents the Higher Self, The Inner Child and the Ego. 10. The Brown Bunny. This one represents my earthly body self...I'd say this is actually the Mind or Ego. This is the one that really doesn't see the bigger picture. This one tried to tell me I was wrong. Maybe, because of it's limited vision perhaps it didn't really understand or comprehend my answer. Yet, it did that smug Pepe the Frog look...so it also has an element of the God Kek (which I don't fully understand). 11. The Gray Bunny: This one would be the Soul level...it stopped what it was doing and looked deeply at me with a sort of deep penetrating Wisdom I've only seen one other place- A past life regression where I saw Jesus. When it stopped Time seemed to stop (it was jumping in a clockwise motion). To me Jack Rabbits are tough. They are the "Doers" in the world of Bunnies. On the level of the Buddha this would be Atman. On the level of psychology this would be The Higher Self. At the same time this is the Soul level. 8. The White Bunny- Source. This would be the Brahman level. 9. The three being in alignment. By realizing that we are all One at the level of Source (represented by the White Bunny) I caused the Gray Bunny to stop hopping around the White Bunny. The three in Alignment suggests that Mind, Soul and Source will's are in alignment. Also, on a level that I didn't realize until today with the bunnies representing Vibration it means that I am in alignment with my "true" vibration (I'll attach a video by Bashar to kind of clue you in on what that might mean). What Does It Mean? The general message is that the apparent division that we see...the battle between Good and Evil that so many focus on in our dimension is an illusion. At the Source of all life there is not Good or Evil. There is no dressing up and playing Jedi vs Empire. All of this is just an illusion...when we are looking at these details we are seeing the trees but not the forest. This apparent division that we are seeing offers a tremendous opportunity to us consciously. Will we give into our Fear...which will lead to Hate and Suffering? Yet, what is compassion? How do we find compassion when we are feeling threatened? The only way is to see the bigger picture, the deeper meaning and purpose of it all. To realize the division and the suffering is all an illusion and this life is the story we are telling ourselves. Too often we go to the news allowing them to narrate and make sense of it all for us...but do you really want the world they are trying to sell you on? A world based on fear, lack and competition? Can't we tell a better story? The Light Side and the Dark Side is an illusion. We are all shades of Gray...To me Black and White television shows always appeared as shades of gray. Trying to sort out what color is what in such a scenario is pointless and useless...it doesn't matter. That's why the answer occurred to me in the dream. At the end of the day all of us are One. Solving the Riddle I was able to see the bigger picture, as it were, and realize that what this is all about is learning that we are all One. The process involves inner work and integration but the work is simple if you are willing to be honest with yourself. This deep soul searching should lead to your ability to love yourself (not that way sicko!). Okay I made you laugh...but really, before anyone can truly love you...you must learn to love yourself...that is the very first step on the path. By realizing that we are all One, by realizing that all of those people in the DVD are One Being Divided battling themselves...I loved all of them. With that realization my Mind, Soul, and Source (or those other three which represent the same concept) came into alignment...my Will was the Same as Source...I had tuned into the vibration of my Higher Self (also sometimes called Christ Consciousnesses) and Source. Within that space there is only love and infinite compassion. Deeper Meditations on the Dream You can stop here if you want...we are about to go into the depths... All of the questions and answers I've ever had are in this dream. Right there, if you have the eyes to see them. So simple and so obvious but so hard to accept at the core of our being after the multitude of games of fear and rejection that we play on Earth (In Alchemy Earth = Fear....the very name of our planet is FEAR!). One Being divided...of course Source does not want us to fight one another. As we find peace among ourselves so too does Source. What we are playing out here is a very very small part of the Cosmos (remember my Mountain Top dream) so it's not that all of Source is this way. Just our tiny little corner of the Multiverse. What we see reflected in the world around us is what is also on the inside. Are we not owning some aspect of ourselves? Are we letting Fear rule us? What we reject in others is what we reject in ourselves. If someone calls you a liberal cry baby....they are denying their inner emotional weakness. If someone is rejecting you because you voted for Trump...it's because they fear 'Change, Chaos, Uncertainty.' Anyone who's had their life torn out from beneath them knows that sometimes we must be reduced to ashes (metaphorically!) before new life can burst forth. The rotten fruit fallen from the tree becomes compost and then feeds the tree so that it may bring forth new buds. This is a natural cycle of "death" (change) and "rebirth" (also change). We just choose how dramatic it will be by how much we resist it and try to hold on to the old. Surprising to some, new is often better...because it represents growth. This is a fundamental part of the experience we agreed to when we came to Earth and to try to disagree with it is to Argue and Deny/Reject Source. Why fight Source, why try to swim against the tide...instead of learning how to swim with it? We come to Earth to learn a multitude of lessons. One of those lessons is to be Individuals our own individuality while simultaneously realizing we are One with Source. We are both. We come from a collective consciousness in Spirit...we don't need to create it on Earth (this is why Group Think is so terrible). What other way can Source create companions for itself? Life As A Dream Alright, and deeper we go... Think of life as a dream. Other people in Dreams are Aspects of ourselves. They are whatever we associate with them. Mikey has his own identity in the waking world. I can't even begin to know what is going on within his mind. By identifying what he means to me in the dream (left brain thinking) I learn about myself. This, on a much larger scale is what God/Source is doing...that's why we were created more or less. WE are God, we are Aspects of God, but we are individual flavors of God. He assigned us different gifts and abilities. He experiences through us...and solve it's own paradoxes through us (please note, that there are three "levels" to God conscious in my paradigm/that I can perceive...the part that we are, the part that is active (learning/Christ Consciousness), and the part that is latent and all knowing. To borrow from Colette Baron Reid think of it as a Cell...there is the Cell Wall (Brahman/Source), Cytoplasm (Active Part/Christ Consciousness/Atman) and us (nucleus)). This is why life can be a metaphor and experience at once (why the Bible can be literally true and symbolic). The flow between these three elements, that are all one but know themselves to also be separate, is fluid. We are the dream and we are the dreamer. At the basic part of this is an encoded aspect which is why 3 pops up so much and 7 pops up so much. This is a very interesting dynamic, delicate and gentle Partnership with Spirit (Christ Consciousness) and Source...a sort of intuitive trusting dance. We can learn to swim with the tides of the Source and the Flow of the Higher Self....and suffering is alleviated. I hope this helps you or at the very least causes you to think. I had two videos attached to this post but I see the one by Bashar has been taken down (happens every time I post one that's not from Bashar communications). If you look into Bashar's work he talks about how by following your highest passion you will tune in with your higher self and find 'a reality that is more alignment' with your true nature. The other video was Peter Woodbury of the A.R.E. but I also found a quote in John Van Auken's book (he also belongs to Edgar Cacye's A.R.E) and in it he says, "To know yourself as yourself and yet one with God." That's the epiphany I have suddenly reached in my life. Reincarnation
"Elisha has already been here but you did not recongnize him...(he was)...John the Baptist." Matthew 17:12 "All of you shall be here in those days..." Matthew 24 How My Thought Process Evolved I was just like everyone else in school that was brought up in a Christian household when I first crossed the idea of Reincarnation. The classic version that I came across involved coming back as some sort of an animal equivalent to the life that was lead. I found the idea strange and abhorrent. Then I came across a book called Journey of Souls. For various reasons it seemed to reinforce the ideas that I had taken to be true in the bible and really expanded on them. I was always puzzled by passages in the bible that seemed to imply that people would somehow 'come back' again. That seemed to be some weird zombie like experience and defied scientific knowledge. While I am in no way discounting that some people might choose to believe in that I had a hard time doing so given the physical evidence that our bodies decay. As I studied the stories about life in between lives and then, eventually, people who recall their past lives (without regression and with regression) I found the idea even more compelling. The idea that I had found so strange and bizarre before- that people would come back as animals as punishment was removed. There are still some who do believe that but for the most part in stories regarding reincarnation I've found very few that recall past lives as animals. A Too Real Dream I am strange that I do have dreams that seem more of a reality and form more of a memory than actual physical life. Dreams have influenced my thinking process, I am highly imaginative and have very detailed dreams, and there are some that I can remember crystal clear even from childhood. One when I was eighteen years old really stands out. I have told it to multiple people and they say that it was a Past Life. I was male and Middle Eastern. When I was eighteen I was facing a choice similar to that of the Middle Eastern life where I would possibly leave my parents against their wishes. The dream was much like the experiences I would later have with the Past Life Regression sessions. Only, here, I looked in the mirror at myself, knowing it was me and not me at the same, and saw a male middle eastern person who was truly terrified...no doubt because he saw my face (he was high on drugs smoked out of a hookah- a word an object that I would not identify until later on in my adult life). I was then asked by an impartial voice, "Do you want to experience this again?" I chose to rebel against my parents and move out so apparently I did. Experiencing Past Life Regressions I decided to do a Past Life Regression after my daughter passed away. I had always wanted to do one and I had some extra money so I figured I try it. I was scared of the experience because I thought it would be evil or I would be under someone else's power. Society almost seems to teach us to believe in demons (just look at the movie the Exorcist or Poltergeist) and think that's what's talking or something when someone goes into hypnosis or channels. There are still remnants of those strange people who believe in witches and that anything that is "not of the church" is "of the devil." This powerful form of Group Thinking makes it absolutely terrifying to consider anything that might even possibly be witchcraft. After the initial session with someone trained in hypnotherapy I did an online version and got some results as well (although, not as detailed or immersive). (https://youtu.be/xTnAqDPBsoY) Hypnotherapy for the Past Life Regression was nothing like anything on television. There was no part where I was not in control, where I couldn't pull myself out of it, or that I was unaware of what was happening. I would know if I had any gaps in my memory but I was completely aware the entire time. In fact, I was pretty much listening to myself tell the story and even had an illustration. I'm sure it is different for everyone but my recall wasn't real time, like a movie, it was more documentary style. For example, in one of the past lives that I recalled in the session with the actual therapist was a life as a orphan child in Jerusalem during the crusades. The scene opened up with a illustration of a alleyway with ragged fabric tents made out of torn rags and bits of wood. I saw children, that I explained were orphans, running in different directions. When asked why the children were running the camera seemed to zoom out from what I was looking at to a third person point of view. I then saw two men on horses with red crosses on their chests, long shields and helmets that covered their noses gleaming in the sunlight. I sighed saying, "Oh, the crusaders," in a kind of impartial voice. I knew, even as I said those words, that the orphan child that had stayed very still and pretended to be dead as the Crusaders killed all of the other children in cold blood around her did not know that answer. Instead, something else seemed to be telling the story from an outside perspective even though I felt the emotions and the horror from the first person perspective of the girl. Conclusion I in no way say that what I experienced in those sessions are the truth or that I can say that reincarnation is 100% real. I cannot even say that what I experienced rules out the possibility that it was somehow an induced dream. However, I did not feel lead in any way by the person who regressed me. The feeling was too much like a dream for me to rule it out aside from a sense of self that was different from what I normally possess in waking life. However, I gained an immense amount of perspective from the experience. Just as I can say that I did not experience anything that convinced me it wasn't real or couldn't be real. I have not been able to corroborate the information that I have from that past life history, however, I haven't really tried. For some reason, having validation actually creeps me out as I don't think it's too healthy to fixate on the past. Finally, the lives that I experienced in the sessions were not something I would have chosen nor that I would fantasize about. In fact, from the perspective of how we view a desirable life in our society here in the United States none of them were truly 'desirable'. In the case of the last life that I lived, I did not know there was a Jewish Mafia and I've never watched the God Father because I always felt mobster films were abhorrent. Therefore, the details in that life were absolutely not something I would have expected, nor a life where I was 'like a nun but not a nun' during the occupation of Jerusalem by Crusaders (which I have never really studied in detail but there were abbesses). In fact, I've never encountered stories about the Crusaders from any perspective other than that of the Crusaders. The will go over the spiritual perspective I received from the past life regression experiences. |
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