Dearest Lilith-Ann,
Today is your birthday. If you were here you would be four years old. I took your loss hard at first. There were so many variables that went into what happened. So many lessons about myself I had to learn. Most parents aren't ready to have children. Hardly any of them were fully mature human beings when they have children. Most don't lose their children as infants and they grow up as they raise their kids while continuing to make mistakes. I wanted to join you. I didn't want to live. Losing you broke my heart. Yet, four years later and a personal transformation I didn't conceive as possible has changed me. I had no role models as an example to show me this Path was possible and I realize the purpose of your brief life. I had a hint of it at the start but it's proven to be 100% correct. You were the biggest blessing I ever experienced in my life. Your brief life is a bigger blessing then the cars, the house, the friends...because you woke me up. You showed me I was on the wrong path. You called me back to the Path of Spirituality that I had started and stopped once I had everything society says a person needs to be happy. You drove me to re-examine my perceptions of myself, life and lead me to realizing and recognizing the One Creator and the Oneness of all life in the Cosmos. That Spiritual Breakthrough would never have happened if you had not come into my life for that brief brilliant moment. You probably, on a soul level, knew what I needed. You were ready to sacrifice yourself,as you did in my life in Jerusalem, so I could experience a more profound Awakening Experience. I shudder to imagine your suffering. You have brought me eternal peace, patience, and unconditional love. Even more, your brought me an unshakable faith in the One Creator and the Order of reality. People may challenge me, they may question me, but I know who I am at last. There is no room for doubt after what I've experienced. All is in Divine Order. I did not think that eternal peace, patience, unconditional love or Faith could ever be achieved. Yet, I look around me and I experience so much forgiveness for those who do not know what they do, I feel so much love...and so much gratitude for the One Creator...and it all came from you. I've been tested. Again and again I have been tested. Have I learned the lesson? Have I submitted completely to the Will of the One Creator? I know there will be more. Yet, I know I will pass them all for I live only for the words of the One Creator. I do not know what I have become as I dislike labels. I do know that it is entirely because of you that I know that I can weather any storm while in the flesh and return home. I know that my heart belongs with the One Creator, where you and I are eternally, and that I am never apart from either of you. Even here and now I can feel your presence and your love. This year, is a bit more poignant then the last few. Not only am I stronger psychologically and spiritually...but your sister exists because of you. I educated myself because of what happened to you. Now I walk into a doctors office and I don't see an expert in power to whom I must submit. I see an equal that can learn from me as much as I can learn from them. Yes, they have experience in the realm of what their given field is but often times they lose sight of the bigger picture. You, Lilith-Ann, have given me that bigger picture. I will always honor your memory. Your sacrifice is as great as any hero that has died on the battlefield or been martyred for their teachings of the One Creator. I honor you and send my love to you. Your little sister, Baby Michelle, will know of your sacrifice. We will not mourn your birthday every year but celebrate it and spoil her a little so she know how grateful we are for her existence. Hopefully, she will be joined by another sibling in a little over a year. Both will learn to celebrate you as your father and I do. I don't think that she is you reborn. I think you incarnated. I don't know who this little soul is and I am ready to work with her to help her grow in this life. I do know, however, that you carved the path for her existence with your sacrifice and this is a profoundly different pregnancy. If you have taught me anything it is that I am the custodian of a soul for a temporary time as a parent. You enter and exit according to a Higher Purpose that I cannot fathom but I trust beyond the shadow of any doubt. To be a parent is the Highest Honor of all of Creation. Each soul is equally autonomous and has it's own purpose for entering the physical realm. I am here to aid in their development and I am lucky to be chosen for such a honor. Thank you Lilith-Ann for choosing me to be your mother. That will always be my highest honor and I humbled that you made that choice. That you chose to make that sacrifice and choose suffering for me is beyond comprehension. I will celebrate your brief life on Earth for every year that I am here and I will never forget you or stop thanking the One Creator every day of my life. All My Love, Your Mother Bridget R. Korns P.S. In brief explanation of the term One Creator. I have adopted this term because I believe all God's are a representation of the only God that exists. God is an abused term in our society. I prefer to be Inclusive. Whethe you call 'god' by the names: Great Spirit, Atman/Brahmen, Jehovah or Allah...they are the same One Creator/Creation (there is no separation). There is only One.
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When you turn on the news do you like what you see?
When you talk to your neighbor do you like what they have to say? These days, so many people think that our world is circling the drain. How did we get here and how can we change this? The answer is so appallingly simple and so difficult at the same time. On A Personal Note This last weekend has been a trying time. If you follow this blog you know that I'm in midst of a high risk pregnancy that limits me to staying downstairs in my two-story house and keeps me from doing any extended walking (the most walking I do is to take the dogs outside to go potty) or chores (I can't do any lifting or bending...not even emptying the dishwasher). I'm currently at 18 weeks which is a celebration as it is about half way to when I will have my c-section done (week 36 or 37- the last week of July or first week of August). Add to that this week, Wednesday, is the anniversary of the birth and death of my daughter Lilith-Ann. She was born at 23 weeks and passed three days after her birth. So, this is always a difficult time for me. Then last week my mother was in a terrible car accident. She has emphysema and as a result of the accident when the air bag deployed it caught on fire. So, she breathed in a bunch of toxic fumes that really made her sick. She also had four broken ribs. On Friday morning my husband was woken up by a phone call informing us that she had been put on life support. My husband and I went straight to the hospital. I was thinking I was going to have to say goodbye. Dad didn't think she was going to wake up. He knew that she had been sedated. An old doctor had him convinced hat if my mother ever ended up on a breathing tube she would never get off of it and my father thought that the machine was doing all of the breathing for her. However, that wasn't the case. While I was there she woke up and as of today the breathing tube has been removed. Yeah, it's been an interesting week already. What got me, though, when I was at the hospital was that my father admitted something to me that I never imagined he'd say. He told me, "You know your sister is just like me. I can't handle my emotions. I channel it all into anger and I just explode." I was stunned for him to tell me this so flatly. Consequently, I realized my entire family has this same problem. Since my Dad can't handle any emotion besides anger everyone in the family has had to repress their emotions. I realized it, but not so bluntly, years ago when I was examining memories from my childhood. A dog of mine had died and I was a hysterical mess. My Dad took me by the back of my neck and forced me to look into the hole where he'd put the dog that had been shot in the had telling me, "Look, he's dead. He's never going to come back so stop crying for him." I learned that day tears were not acceptable in my household. Even more experiences enhanced the fact that I was allowed to be Angry or Happy but nothing else. This expressed itself in huge temper tantrums...as that was the only emotion I was allowed to feel I expressed it like none other. Even this, however, was not tolerated in my family. Anger was only okay as long as it wasn't directed at anyone in the family or as long as it didn't affect anyone in our family. I have since dealt with these issues. I've confronted them and I have forgiven my father. He is the product of a very violent and unpredictable household. For some reason, when he admitted this issue...I saw him and my entire family differently. I saw how emotionally repressed the environment always was...how my sister is an exact reproduction of my father. I know that my brother simply shuts down in emotional situations because it's the safest way to cope and that this is how my mother used to behave. I find it very sad. I no longer feel they are an obstacle that I need to overcome or somehow change. I realize each of them must make the personal choice to work with their emotions or continue as they have been which is perfectly 'normal' for them. I find it highly unlikely that they will make that choice. I'm the oddball who changed which is what makes them uncomfortable but it's vital that I continue to be that example of how a healthy person behaves. Yeah, I admit, a part of me feels that the change I've experienced won't have much effect on their entrenched emotional habits but what matters is I've found peace and I don't think I could return to that way of being even if I wanted. Yet, I believe that it is my duty as a soul to continue to be an example. Finding Freedom My Dad admitted his problem, however, he said it more as an excuse. As though, because I know he is that way, I should just accept it. I should accommodate him and his unhealthy habit. Just as I don't criticize him smoking because I know it will fall on deaf ears (even when it's around my mother but she has chosen to stay with him even as he shows blatant disregard for her health). I see this as a huge missed opportunity. With the help of my husband, Ross, in the last four yeas I've purged myself of those old negative beliefs and emotional habits. Ross is strong enough that when I cry he holds me and let's me get all of it out. I no longer see crying as a huge vulnerability and weakness but as one of my greatest strengths to release my emotions. Working with emotions, as I pointed out in my Sacral Chakra and Solar Plexus Chakra videoes, is vital to be a healthy human being. Further, our intuition comes in the form of emotions. That is the primary form of communication from our Higher Soul Self directing us in life. When we have a situation similar to a past life where we must make a choice...being in touch and understanding the communication of our emotions is vital. Toxic My family is not unique. I know many families that are the same way and many people who repress their emotions. In the spiritual community these are the people who are labeled as toxic. They poison their entire family and frienships with this misunderstanding about emotions. Yet, the home environment isn't the only place that insists that people act like emotionless robots. * Schools. Schools are the same way. If you express your emotions in school, especially anger it will put you on that path of being removed from the general public and placed in a continuation school among even worse influences which leads a lot of people going to jail. * Work. There is no place for emotions in the workplace. A customer can scream, yell and do everything short of cuss or threaten your life...and you're expected to be nice, courteous and 'professional.' Crying or defending yourself is considered 'unproffessioal.' Our society itself, then, as these are the two main institutions that people participate in is Toxic. Yes, knowing that you have a toxic relative or friend can really help. For a time, on your spiritual path you're going to have to cut them out of your life so you can have a drama-free sacred space in which to heal. Yet, they know not what they do and at some point you'll have to reach the next stage of self-transformation... Forgiveness This takes us to what I'm going to cover in my next YouTube video. In this weeks video I'm going to cover The Heart Chakra. You might think...Well, Bridget, isn't the heart all about Love? Yes, in many ways it is...but the ultimate form of love is Forgiveness. We can only experience unconditional love for other people when we can forgive them for all of the wrongs they have done to us. Yes, it's easy to hold onto all of those things. Yes, it does help when you can rationally understand why someone would do the crazy things that they do...but 99% of the time people don't know why they do what they do. They just say, "This behavior is me- take it or or leave it." When an entire society operates on a toxic belief system how can you judge someone for being among the social norm? That it is normal doesn't make it right or healthy...but generally speaking that's how Group Think works. Hope I know as a personal fact that a person can change...they can change how they think and they can change their behaviors. The story of AA is fascinating. A man reached out to Carl Jung because he had a huge drinking problem and he knew he was on the path to an early grave. He asked Carl Jung what he could do and Carl told him that only an act of God could help him...That's why believing in a Higher Power is so important in the AA...but that man went on to give up drinking and created an organization with two of his friends that saved and transformed countless other lives. I have changed myself. People might see me as the child or person they knew...but I'm not that person with that history. That's an old narrative. To me it's like a Past Life and I don't associate myself with it anymore. I am utterly reborn and this is utterly a new life. That gives me hope that society can change. That we can start working with emotions. School is a fantastic opportunity to start teaching kids healthy coping mechanisms. To start teaching them that emotions are okay, how they work and how to express them in a healthy way. We could change entire communities with this information and it would be something kids would enjoy learning. Conclusion I look at society and I see that we are...as a whole world- toxic. This is not new or isolated in the time that we live in...it stretches back into thousands of years in our past. The toxic inability of dealing with our human nature- which is primarily our emotions- is poisoning the very environment of the planet we live on. Yet, there is a huge Awakening to this phenomenon. A huge amount of people who have decided to challenge what society accepts as 'normal.' We are waking up from our slumber and the denial of our emotions and intuition. We are being called to create a new 'normal.' We must, reconnect with our emotions to save this planet and reconnect with our spirituality. We must, on a personal level learn how to work with our emotions to achieve this because it will be a personal choice for every individual. Society cannot force you to change your behavior. We must, on a relationship level learn how to give and receive affection. We must, on a the level of our Heart forgive the injustices of the past and let them go in order for those old patterns to be replaced with the new. Political Correctness derived from hate or competition for resources and Participation Awards are not going to achieve this goal people. Punishing races because of the evils of their forefathers is not going to achieve this either. (I don't know a single white person who doesn't wish we could go back in time and turn those slave ships around sending them back to Africa. I don't know a single white person who doesn't wish that the Indigenous genocide didn't happen. Yet, we can't go into the past and fix those things...we are here now in this situation as it is...and I pray to the One Creator that the other races will start forgiving the white race for their ancestors (technically some of my ancestors are Indigenous so I can't include them in this generalization). Mental health awareness- teaching adults and children the appropriate coping skills and how to work with emotions- will achieve this goal. All of this information has always been out there. This information has always been available to anyone who goes on an inward journey of self-discovery and transformation. We need every single person on this planet capable of learning this to do so...to serve as an example to everyone else...and transform this planet. This isn't magical nonsense. This is achievable. This is a personal choice and challenge to every human being on this planet. Become the type of person you want to see in every other person and change the world.
This video was a bit hard to make this week.
A terrible tragedy occurred that nearly obliterated my ability to think straight. Luckily, that situation is improving dramatically so for now things are stable. To discuss Will Power and not really discuss Free Will is very difficult! Yet, the two concepts *Are* different in some ways. Will Power is the freedom to choose how to apply energy. So it is like Will Power where we use our energy to reach the outcomes we desire. Yet, will power is a given. Most people will admit exists. Free Will, however, is the question of whether or not everything in our life is Pre-Destined or if every thing was meticulously planned by God so that even though we think we're deciding something for ourselves God made it so we had no real choice. That is an age old philosophical question. In fact, it's one that doesn't have a very good answer and may never be resolved to the point where everyone can agree on it (but that's a tough goal in general- especially in a society trying to seek it's identity right now). I have resolved the question for myself in my personal belief system. The essence of that question lies in comprehending that we are all One. As for the 'Source' there are two parts...one is a latent part that is and will always be the same that exists outside of time often symbolized by the void (Brahmen) and then there is the part that is the active principal (Atman) of which we are a part and that does have it's own conscious awareness that we are plugged into when in Spirit but shut out on purpose during Human life through the process of forgetting. The Atman or active principal part or All-That-IS as Bashar calls it...is learning about it self and always adding to it's information much as Thomas Campbell described it's like a computer system that is the in process of evolving and learning. This two part configuration would cause someone to answer the question, "Is it Free Well or Pre-Destination?" and the answer would be both. If you add to that...that in spirit according to the book Journey of Souls that we, as Souls, before we come into the material realm use a 'virtual reality' system. Much like playing a multiple ending RPG videgame we go through every possible variation of our upcoming life before living it (hence the reason we can have deja vu) as a way to choose the path we prefer to follow and try to remember certain things (such as the person we wish to marry in this life commonly referred to a 'soul mate')...you realize it is almost pre-destination on the soul level but as soon as we get into the material realm and have the block of forgetfulness there is a real unpredictable outcome. I know, that's a lot of information and I could break it down in more detail and perhaps I will do that in a future post. Yet, for me, that the conscious part that knows absolutely everything isn't an active participant in creation solves that issue. Anyways, I hope this video helps you to grow on your personal Spiritual Path. Okay, by now you should have read the dream I had on 3/3.
I want to meditate on this one because there is something deeper here. This is one weird reoccurring theme. So, I'm going to take you through my Dream Interpertation/Meditation Process Step by Step so you can see it as an example of how to interpret your dreams. You'll notice that I kind of do this in a method you would expect to see in a homework assignment or exam from school. That kids, is why you should pay attention to school and how you can apply those skills in a very practical way in your life (and yes it's fantastic when devising work projects or outlines as well). Dream # 1 Garage Scene From 2015 I was in the garage with Thor and Syf (two Norse God's of all things). The garage was a mess with stuff piled everywhere and all sorts of odds and ends that Ross and I had picked up when we inherited a bunch of stuff from three different households. There was an old Egyptian Sarcophagus, I assumed that the mummy was still in it, and it was being removed from the garage. It was being rolled out carefully and then hooked up to a helicopter that would take it back to Egypt where it belonged. I explained that we had found the Egyptian Sarcophagus among Ross' grandfathers belongings. That it had been stolen and that we were sending it back to Egypt where it belonged. Thor and Syf looked at each other and said, "This is no coincidence we are here witnessing it for a reason." Then I was tested. I admitted as I raced them that I was not the fastest person in the world, I have asthma after all, but I had endurance. I remember them looking at each other in surprise, first at the insistence in Spirit that I had asthma as I do in life and so I couldn't run and also there was significance to the fact that I mentioned endurance. **Note- This dream was right before I had a *big* psychological breakdown. Boy was that a test! I think the contact from Spirit was too strong and if you're not prepared for that it can really screw with your head. Dream # 2: Garage Scene from March 3 2018 I went into the Garage because I had heard a noise. I went out there and discovered that it was nice and organized. The garage door was wide open. I found, of all people, Jesus holding a beer dressed in regular blue jeans and a shirt. He had come across the street from a party that was going on over there even though it was 2 or 3am. Not recognizing him at first and thinking only sneaky people go about at night I tried to close the garage door but he was already inside so I couldn't keep him out and I couldn't close the front door. I was upset about this and called for Ross to help but he never came. I "spoke" telepathically to Jesus. The gist of it was more or less, "How are you doing?" Then he left and the garage filled with a bunch of party people from across the street. There was a empty car trailer at the center of the garage kind of slanted across it so that it fit. Later a voice spoke and said, "We need to remove this," which was weird because 'it' spoke in the plural. I said, Ok. The car trailer removed itself on it's own and as it was going out people that had been in the garage jumped on it. As it was pulled out of the garage and the people (men and women) went into the darkness beyond the garage lights the people went from wearing ordinary clothing to wearing old solid green military uniforms and they were saluting. Then the turned into green toy soldiers and the entire dream ended. Dream # 3: March 20th 2018 In this one I was actually aware of something happening in my neighbors yard to the right of my house. I looked out to see marines saluting the wood coffin as it came out of the front door of their house and was put into a waiting hearse. However, this was not a sad affair but a huge celebration with music and laughter. There were young kids and adults all laughing and enjoying themselves. I was shocked all of this was going on at night as I peeked through the front window. I saw the people walk across the street holding hands. They were all races and they were walking to a New House that had just been built across the street with a For Sale sign in the front yard. All of the funeral goers were walking through the house and I went to take a picture with my phone. I wanted to share this really odd scene on FB. The flash of the camera startled everyone and they were staring at me with shock. They peered across the street at me in surprise and pointed at me. That was the end of the dream. Interpertation Let's break this one down to the main similar elements. What were these series of garage related dreams/sarcophagus/caskets about really? Since I'm taking you through this process so you can realize how to do it on your own let's break it down to the major themes and then explore each. This is roughly what I do every time I meditate on a dream. You're feelings are an important part of dreams but sometimes it can cloud the message. All dreams are multi-faceted. How you feel can color the meaning of the dream as well but first it's easier to start from an analytical approach. 1. What does the garage symbolize to me? 2. What does a messy vs clean garage mean? What has changed in my life to justify the difference? 3. What does a sarcophagus or casket mean to me? 4. What does a car trailer mean for me? 5. What does the removal of the object from my garage or someone else's home mean? 6. What does the symbol representing messengers of the One Creator - Thor/Syf and Jesus? 7. What does across the street mean? Answers Alright, we narrowed down the main themes. Next it's as simple as answering these questions. 1. The garage symbolizes projects and storage to me. 2. A) Ok, since the garage stands for projects and storage...the messy garage crammed full of stuff that wasn't all necessary mine originally represents junk I've collected, need to sort through, prioritize and ditch what does not serve me. B) If you are going through the adventure of working through the chakras with me then you are learning first hand what has changed with me. I have cleared up a lot of blocks that I had, gone through my belief system and removed what doesn't serve me. Some of those beliefs were inherited, some were from pop culture and others were just misunderstandings. In Conclusion: This probably represents my subconscious. My subconscious is where I stored all of this junk and also the inspiration for my projects. 3. This is actually two questions: A. A sarcophagus to me represents Egyptian Mysticism and mystery. I really didn't fully understand this concept until I was reading The Path of the Kabbalah and understood what the concept of 'Come out of Egypt' represents symbolically in the bible which did heavily influence me when I was a teenager and reading it for the first time. Egyptians worshiped the body. They thought by making their bodies indestructible they would take their worldly possession into the afterlife. So, for me this symbol represents an entire belief system that was in error. B. A casket represents a death of some sort. In this context a symbol for war and the military. 4. A car trailer is something that is used to transport a broken vehicle. i.e. I have already identified that a vehicle in my dreams represents an idea or method for me to achieve my goals. 5. Okay, so whether it's a car trailer, a casket or sarcophagus they represent ideas. So, these are ideas that are being removed from the homes. i.e. Removal of false/broken ideas/beliefs/dogma. 6. Emissaries or Witnesses of the One Creator checking in on me. That's pretty simple and straight forward and yes...in a way these were beings that were 'outside' of me and were not expected. 7. Across the street represents...well, the Spirit world. Crossing over literally means crossing over. Interpertation Alright, so I think this makes things pretty clear. With time things become cleared because it's easier to look back and see how things played out. Dream #1: -Represented that my subconscious was a mess and that I was storing stuff there that I didn't know. The subconscious is also the inspiration for my projects and that is where Spirit meets me. -The return of the sarcophagus to Egypt represented the idea that I was going to let go of an old belief system that was in error and hinted that I would recognize that I am not my body and Oneness. - In the dream I was tested and it was with endurance and not speed that achieved this feat. Well, goodness folks- hindsight 20/20 it took me 4 years to really endure and reap the lessons from that test I went through but it was worth it and I came out of with a rock steady Faith which I never imagined I'd ever possess and I had been searching for my entire life. Dream #2: - Represented that it isn't through my conscious mind that I encounter Spirit but through the subconscious becoming conscious (For more on this process check out this week YouTube video on the Solar plexus chakra). - The clean and straightened garage stands for the fact that I worked with my shadow and brought all of my baggage out into the light and straightening it all out - Only when I was able to clean out all of that Baggage was I really able to meet Jesus in my subconscious. Which, in fact, that dream as I wrote before completely and utterly was the embodiment of a promise he made to meet people in their temple like 'a thief in the middle of the night' which I totally mistook him for in the dream. - The car trailer represented a broken idea. That idea was a pro-war stance. (I just realized this ties into a dream I had about meeting my Higher Self from 2014!). - The party across the street was maybe Spirit celebrating because of the removal of this idea? Dream 3 - The military funeral in my neighbors house was that the proverbial 'neighbor' would give up the idea of a pro-war stance as well. - The celebration was the end of the perpetual war we have known in this world for a long time. - The new house across the street has to do with Spirit. I have a theory about it but I'm going to discuss that in next Monday's blog. Conclusion I hope this helps provide an example of how you can come to interpret dreams. I'm not saying that these dreams represent a bigger picture of the world or impact the world. Just my subjective reality. Everything in a dream is representative of you. Perhaps the people celebrating was a part of me celebrating. Perhaps the messengers of God was a message from my Psyche. I tend to believe that it can be and is both. Because there is only ONE thing experiencing all of this right now....and that is the One Creator. I am a part of that ONE thing and so there is no Separation as I wrote about in my Illusion of Separation blog. Yet, that is a deep deep concept some people are not ready to embrace. I think there is a bigger picture in my life here that have been communicated since 2014 and my dream where I met my Higher Self. I find this fascinating. The trailer for Infinity War finally dropped and this is one of those I wanted to include in my 2018 looking ahead. I find this trailer extremely intriguing. The director has stated that this movie is actually all about Thanos which I think is brilliant. One of the most fascinating things, which I have found interesting, has been the idea that Thano's is going to re-balance the universe. Gamorrah at the start of this trailer says the method he wants to do this is to destroy half of the galaxy. We know from Ragnarok that the Galaxy is going to be unabalanced because Asgard has been destroyed. So, it will be interesting to see how Thanos addresses that especially given his history with Hella (the Goddess of Death) in the comics. Conclusion I do still believe that movies are reflective of the current state of mind of humanity. They are like gigantic mirrors for us to look into and this idea of things being out of balance does really apply. If you ask anyone who is anti-Trump they would tell you there is something off in our world. Just like most people who think that there needs to be some dramatic event to change everyone Thanos thinks it's his job to create his vision of the universe in order to 'save it'. I've seen a lot of people think that way from Super Justice warriors who create some non-profit to 'change the world' to Apopolyptic Christians who want everyone who doesn't think like them to suffer and die permanently, and even the New Age communit who got excited about 'the event' which was supposed to be a wave of light from the sun that caused people's DNA to change and ushring in the 5th dimension earth. I think humanity has always dealt with these questions. Hitler is the first one that comes to mind who literally became powerful enough to try to force his warped vision on the world but there are older examples. Napoleon. The Empire building of Rome and even Persia. Humanity has dealt with this issue for a very long time. Facing it, digging into the reasons a charecter would think that way, is going to be a good thing for each person who goes and sees this film. I don't think historical charecters or seeming real world charecters representing this idea will really make people think about it...so it's going to impact people. This movie will give people the chane to think is this right? Is that the right idea to have? Then they can, hopefully, reject it and realize giving a lot of power to people who claim they want to change the world is not the best option. Instead, each of us need to do our part of contributing to the whole and no one should expect a 'powerful leader' to 'save them' or 'fix things'.
I'm sorry this was a day late. I had some delays that set me back this week.
I really enjoyed making this video. I am very passionate about the meaning behind the spiritual concept of blending the male and female. I have heard this idea completely misunderstood by the Doomsday Christian Conspiracy Theories. They make it sound as though the male has to become completely female or the female completely male...that's a secret gnostic teaching I remember one Christian railing on about like it would trigger the Apocalypse and when I was working on this I thought of that quote. I thought of all of the people lamenting that there has been too much gender bending recently...especially with transgender bathrooms. Here is my theory which I did not share in this video. The thing is that our world became overly dominated by the straight white male energy. This was completely neccesary at the time for the lessons we were learning in the flesh. Also, it's a by-product of the overly obsessed society we live in that's convinced that *we are our bodies* and not our soul first and foremost. That frightened state of being that gives us *way* too much power as a species and not enough to the One Creator has led to all sorts of dysfunctions and purely animal like tendencies. With the long vision of reincarnation and that we are both male and female this information that I have provided is easier to accept. At the time of Jesus and the early gnostic Christian teachings that were psychological in basis but was completely cut out by the Catholic churches meeting in a very democratic way (we know democracy run rampant can lead to censorship and councils are primarily democratic- just look at the fact Mark Twains Huckleberry Finn is banned from schools). Since we went through a phase where the Catholic and the European Christian Countries killed and conqured all those who disagreed with them (Muslim Terrorisim in these countries sure seems like karma to me) that original state of mind disapeared. Leaving us only with this extremely patriarchial narrow minded short sighted dogmatic literal (meaning not based on the scripture) point of view with which to try to understand these esoteric teaching. Well, why then the surge of recognition in the gay community. Why does Ru Paul have to be out there and be popular (I love Ru Paul by the way- that's one spiritually evolved person!)? Well, women weren't enough to rebalance the energy after the patriarchial domination. We needed a little help and that came in the form of beings that predominately incarnate as female coming in as male. This is why there is so much confusion and unhappiness for these souls. They provide a key balancing agent at this time but it's easy to then go the other extreme and become more overly the top feminine then male which can cause a lot of discomfort for everyone because our society has experienced such strict gender roles for so long. I have stumbled onto this subject, more or less, in the course of my Spiritual Path. I know that it will upset some but I think the beauty of the greater plan is just amazing. Once people lete go of the idea that their physical body with it's physical attributes is not them in any way shape or form it opens an entirely new dimension of viewing reality...of viewing human relationships but for some that's an extremely upsetting prospect. As with all adjustments our society is going to extreme and overboard with trying to even out the energies. That will only happen to a short period of time and for everyone who realizes the bigger picture it will make it easier on the whole. I know! I know!
Yes, two weeks in a row I'm writing dream blogs about two different major dreams. Yes, I could sit down and write a review of a couple of books that I have read but this one is just timely with the fact I will be publishing the YouTube video on the Sacral/Navel Chakra this week for my YouTube video. This ties in so well and it's so surprising at the same time. Have you ever wondered what your specific life's purpose is? Have you ever wondered why you came to Earth in this life? Reincanration puts a different spin on this thought, making it less of a dramatic universal mission that affects all of humanity, and more about personal lessons learned gradually over many lives. Pregnancy dreams are known to be poignant. I, however, decided to throw into the mix a internet past life regression filmed by Brian Weiss that I had used with success before...I was trying to figure out why on earth I would choose to have an older sister that has absolutely despised me my entire life. Of course, this is a thought only a person who believes in Life Plans and Reincarnation would consider. I knew that I haven't done anything to her in this life to cause the animosity she has famously shown me since I was in the womb. The session didn't answer my questions, all I saw was two women- one in blue and one in tan wearing head scarves working on laying a brightly colored mosaic into a limestone floor...and nothing else which is odd. However, what happens when you open the door to this information in any way is that besides the regression you usually experience dreams as a result. Why Share Dream Blogs? As many of you probably know they are not my favorite but this one is going to be a little different. You might be sitting there thinking, "This is great for you but what does knowing about this do for me?" I hope to demonstrate how successfully interpert your dreams. I cannot recommend Kevin Todeshi's books on dreams enough because for me reading his book was a tremendous breakthrough. Yet, I know not everyone will take the time to read a book...a fairly short blog should do a good job of giving examples. Plus, it shows the very rich answers you can receive if you cultivate your dreams. On the eve of becoming a mother at 35, which is late by most standards, but fairly certain that it's going to happen this time, I've been full of uncertainty, doubt and a little fear. My husband has laughed this off saying that if some people we know can do it we should be able to do it...but this fear exists for me nevertheless. Can I be a good mother after the readjustment I had to make in order to be more selfish then I was as a child? Being a mother has been such a cherished dream for so long...originally I said I wouldn't after 25...then it became 30 and now here I am at 35. Somewhere along this path I did lose hope. I trudged onward hoping for a new day but accepting the outcome that I may never experience motherhood in this life. So there you have it...what I was thinking before the dream which is always important. Was there a question that you were asking in your heart of hearts? Are there questions troubling your soul? To properly interpert a dream you must take this into consideration. The Dream I was watching a woman with very large Oracle cards giving someone I consider a Spiritual Teacher a reading. The cards were laid down in a upside down double N pattern. First it was 7 cards descending, 7 cards ascending, then 7 more descending, and 7 ascending. Every 7 cards were a 'choice point'- a point where the person receiving the reading would make a choice that would determine the next leg of their Path. If you add up the ones she sat down it would be 28. She explained as she laid out the cards that in past lives the person hadn't really learned how to give and receive love. That in this life the goal was to figure out that balance between giving and receiving. She was about to lay down 7 more cards, which she explained was the next phase of this person's life, when I interrupted the reading because I saw that there was a choice point that she had missed that had occurred around the second to the last of the cards- the number 27. In that set of 7 cards there were actually two choice points which was unusual. She had three more sets of 7 cards to lay out. However, when I, in ghost form, corrected her she admitted she had made a mistake. She did not finish reading the rest of these cards but turned to this person and pulled a card out of the person's abdoman...seemingly out of their jacket pocket. She explained that there was too much of a tendency to form attachements to spiritual teachers and that those attachments would have to be cut. To do so, she explained as a string that attached the card to the person traveled up their body as she attempted to remove it... they would have to let go of their hat which was in the form of a popes hat. Then she showed him the card which was a person standing in front of tower with a devil on one side and a saint on the other. She explained that the the meaning was that they, through these attachements or lack there of, would make themselves into a devil or a saint. A Few Pointers On The Interpertation 1. The Spiritual Teacher is an aspect of myself not the specific person I have left unnamed. Instead, it was that part of myself that considers myself a spiritual teacher. Which I have admitted is something I've kind of become through my blog and YouTube videos. Not that I wanted to but because it just sort of happened that way...beleive me I've uncovered that's just a normal development on the mystic path. You have to teach what you learn for others instead of keeping it for yourself. Also, my lifepath number is 32/5 which correlates with the Hierophant in the Tarot...which depicts a religious leader that appears much like the pope with two 'worshippers'. 2. The cycles of 7 cards- There is a common saying that our life evolves in cycles of 7. In fact, in Charting Your Course Francesa Simon has been teaching about cycles. There is an entire example of this in The Path of the Kabbalah, "There are 7 days in the week, 7 notes on the musical scale and 7 directions (left, right, up, down, forward, back and center)." 3. The Significance of Number 27- at 27 I made a huge life changing decision and moved in with my husband Ross. I am currently at the end of that cycle and at the start of a new one just like the cards indicated- now that I'm 35. Within that same 7 year period...at 23 I had left the ex and moved in with my parents so this reading was very much about me. 4. Three more sets of cards: The fact that there were three more sets of cards in the dream is interesting...but I in no way believe that means I'll die at 56. More then likely it means that this lesson of giving and receiving love will be completed at that time but I have at least three more 'choice points' ahead of me to determine if that will be the case. 3. The part about choice points is fascinating. These are decesions, or one might call them tests or trials, to see if I've learned the lesson. The choices are not right or wrong but I got the feeling that if I chose the option indicating that I had found a balance of giving and receiving love that particular lesson will be completed. I have never heard of such things before in my reading but it seems plausable...usually, the more weird details there are the more likely the dream has deep meaning. To me it's always a pleasent surprise when there is a profound insight revealed in a dream I never consciously considered. 4. Forming Attachements to Outcomes in the material world is very much based on Buddhist teachings. That's called entanglement and it's one of the ways we incur karma which will ensure that we come back again. A huge part of the manifestation process is to let go of the outcome...set an expectation...and the let it unfold naturally on it's own. 5. The giving and receiving is very much a Sacral Chakra issue. I'm doing a video on the Sacral Chakra this week and didn't really know what to write about. This Chakra is not focused on by most people who write about Chakras. When I went to see that past life regressionist back in 2014 my sacral chakra was dormant. 5. The parth aboug giving Birth to a Saint or a Devil based on my ability to let go of the attachment. Here, there is a double meaning represented by the aspect of the spiritual teacher in the dream. I believe the primary message is that I tend to become 'attached' to a particular spiritual teacher and there path, very much wishing it was my own, and often that gives rise to confusion in me. Not to mention I feel hurt when these people inevitably let me down by saying something I don't agree with...which happens often and I know I do too because as long as we are in the flesh we make mistakes. If we were really prefected we would no longer be on this physical plane of existence. Second, the meaning is that I need to let go of my attachment to *be* a spiritual teacher. Lessons In Giving and Receivig The first part of my childhood was spent people pleasing...being the teacher's pet and the one who went out of my way to make sure new students felt welcomed. The second part of my child hood was experiecing bullying and being the outsider. I never learned how to defend myself in an approrpiate way. When a math teacher in high school bullied me along with other students I didn't say anythig but simply walked out of the class and sat down outside. I had been taught to walk away from arguments...I hadn't learned how to fight back. Then as a young adult I had to overcome the stigma of divorcing a horrible person I never loved and never should have married. The first boy I married was horribly broken when I met him and for some reason I thought I could save him with love (not true, that's where I learned the brutal lesson that someone won't change unless they want to change and enabling bad behavior by giving them everything they want will only reinforce the bad behavior). Again, I was a door mat in the relationship...always giving and askig for nothing in return. Then when I did meet the love of my life, after a brief stint of self-exploriation and work, I fell right back into the same old habits of people pleasing. I even put my spiritual interests and hobbies on hold...although, when I first met him I laid them all out on the line and told him exactly how I felt...and he accepted them, although, he politely disagreed with my conclusions (he used to identify as an Athiest) That's how I wound up in a situation where I felt utterly alone and unsupported as I knew something was wrong with my pregnancy but no one else took me seriously. Being vulnerable and asking for help was not something I was comfortable with and, apparently, my attempt to do so was not loud enough. The first part of my life was a brutal training session on how to stand up for myself, state openly how I feel and be prepared to defend myself or adapt points of view when appropriate. If one of the lessons that we come to Earth to experience is how to get along with others (which sure seems to be the case) relationships are the fertile ground upon which we learn the most poignant lessons in the most loving way possible. I am blessed withn an amazingly adaptive loving husband who sees me as a partner and equal. Though he had lessons of his own- he grew with me. We were lucky we grew together and not apart in our harsh lessons with and after Lilith-Ann's short stay on Earth. This is the polar opposite of what I experienced with the ex when he had cancer...he decided to punish me for his misfortune and the fact he survived. I can happily say that I did not behave in such a selfish manner with my husband with Lilith-Ann's death. When I saw psychic Medium Robert Brown, back in 2014, I was shocked when the message that came through was not one I felt was very compassionate. I thought there would be a message about everything is going to be okay now or something. Instead, it was my grandmother Alta who was a pacifist herself saying, "You need to stand up for yourself. If someone pushes you, you push them back harder!" I had always been a pacifist, isn't that what the bible preaches? The answer is no, that's not what the bible preaches. That is not the way to lead a happy life. Too often that translates as passive aggressiveness which is super unhealthy. Honest conversation where you state your desires or disappointments is the healthiest relationship...even if you are fearful the other person might reject you it is far superior to repressing emotions and letting others either control you or trying to control another through emotional blackmail and manipulation. I remember one time at a drive thru where I worked two snowboarder guys came through that were high as a kite. I tried to be nice to them. They were rude and threatened those of us, mostly girls, who were working. When I told my manager Wayne, he told me, "Don't tolerate that, you have the right to refuse and abusive person service. The moment they start cussing at you...that's it- pull the plug. What are you going to do? When they are choking you to death are you going to say, yes, please kill me?" Sadly, some idiots in the United States would say, "Make the customer happy," but I digress...and unfortunately it's a gray area when a customer doesn't cuss or threaten but behaves aggressively. That was, for me, the first time someone told me that being a pacifist is not the right way to go about things. There are people out there that are little more then animals and facing them down is like facing down an angry wounded bull. So, that was the first major lesson in the earlier part of my life of giving and receiving...it's ok to be selfish and protective...to not be a doormat and give unceasingly until your spiritually spent especailly to those who don't deserve it. The Kids Raising kids is going to be difficult for me on a soul level. As far as the past lives I can remember goes...I only had a child once. That time was in London and it did not go well. I died a mean old resentful woman alone in a nice house thinking of her ungrateful daughter. A single mother in the late 1800's I had sacrificed myself, working my ass off to provide for her, as a single mother and she couldn't even honor me by being at my side during my death. The soul that was my daughter in that life is my mother in this life...and damn has that relationship been hard! She was my father and the owner of a Caravan in the Middle East in a life prior to that where she wanted me to take over the family business and I ran off to make a lot of bad decisions. So, you can see how the karma worked there. We switched rolls...me being the ungrateful son in the middle eastern Muslim life and then her being the ungrateful daughter in the London life. In this life, that karma has been paid off. She still hurts, I know, but I feel the weight of our karmic bond has been lifted. There was this huge debt I always felt I owed her and in recent years that has disappered. The other time in a past life that I had a kid in my charge was in Jerusalem when I was a nun but not a nun (don't ask me what that means) during the crusades and I had no way of feeding the baby during a famine...so the baby died. That was Lilith-Ann and you can see how in that life she passed away because I didn't do enough to save her and in this life she passed away because I didn't fight hard enough to save her. I cannot express the love I have for that soul and the wonder as to why it would repeat such tough experiences. In that life, that was the deepest form of bond I had with anyone as it was mostly a life of scarcity and sacrifice. I died adored by the fellow women of my 'church' and I had some peace but I really hadn't experienced love. Based on what I know of my past lives then...I haven't been a stellar mom. I haven't done very well giving and receiving love. Which should be interesting and challenging in this life. Knowing that I am a little nervous about being a mother. I know most people wouldn't approach it from that position but that's me. I'm a little different. Conclusion The idea of giving and receiving love being my major lesson in this life is perfect. I can see why that would be my life lesson this time around...I can see how it ties into my past and into my future. I can see how that was a major component of past lives...where I really didn't exchange love. In my life in the middle east, in Jerusalem and in London I was too busy pursuing other goals. In the middle east and London it was all about securing financial wealth. In Jerusalem it was the misguided idea that I was securing a place in heaven at the cost of my humanity. A huge part of giving and receiving love in this life has been learnng how to convey emotions and needs- which is not an easy feat. The easier path is to pursue pleasure of the flesh- sex, drugs, and alcohol- or to throw oneself entirely into a displine or role- be it a business manager, a mother or a nun- without working on those icky Shadow issues. I find this fascinating...as learning how to express and understand the reason for emotions was a major stumbling block in my early childhood. Emotions are our direct link to our spiritual aspect...our subconscious...our Higher Self. When we cut them off and try not to feel them we lose our connection to the Cosmos. Well, I thank you for reading this...as I said I found that dream fascinatinig and actually very reassuring. I find it so strange that I can receive such strong answers to help guide me. The key thing is that I ask for help! For me, it gave me an answers I needed. In another synchronicity, having to do with that spiritual teacher from the dream, there was a statement made that sometimes people, especially siblings, play the role of antagonist in your life simply so that you learn it's okay to cut ties with toxic people. Sometimes, that's the lesson and role they have agreed to play in your life. Should I worry about my carreer in this life? The answer is overwhelmingly no...that's not my purpse. Gosh knows I've wasted too many lives in the past on that ambition. Overwhelmingly, this indicates to me what I wanted to know most...what I wanted to make sure for certain was ok because I feel it's super selfish. That it is okay if I become a stay at home mom. That it would be in my best interest and in my childrens interest to focus on raising them. My husband and my kids will be my utmost priority. I will settle into the domestic life. No matter who tells me, "You're capable of so much more," as if that's a problem or try to push me into being a leader somehow...my family will be my focus. Yes, I'm a capable leader. I've proven that in past lives where I ran businesses, a bit too ruthlessly, but nevertheless they were successful...in this life it's more about the intiate relationships which can be so much harder. I hope to raise good kids. At the same time I see having kids totally different then the typeical Christian. I did not create them. There soul has been here before and they are equal to me...they could have been in any sort of relationship with me or Ross in their past lives. They come in for their own purposes and have their own free will that is independent of mine. That soul then, is completely independent from Day 1...and has it's own choices to make. I am merely a way shower, a teacher, and a guide...but I will not be attached or value myself based on thier success or failure as people. I think there is a lot to be said on that topic and maybe that will be a future blog post. This snuck up on me during my path.
Non-judgement? I thought that was impossible. I had rationalized my way against that argument. You have to judge people, places, and things just to survive. If you don't label things good or bad how do you make decisions? Love your neighbor like yourself? Hardly anyone seems to practice that...they call into complain about the grocery clerk that was having a bad day that didn't look them in the eye while ringing their groceries or the waitress who didn't bring the 200th ranch they had requested before they finished their french fries. Treating 'neighbors' like you would be treated was only practiced when on the holy ground of the church because there, surely, God was watching. Forgiving violent offenders. That's just crazy. Who would do that? Who could look at a violent offender and see a human being? Wouldn't that mean that person would end up tolerating them? Keep them out of society. They're not human. They're deserve to suffer. They're monsters! Compassion The Buddhists talk a lot about developing a heart of Compassion. You don't hear a lot about Compassion in Church, on the News, or in Newspapers. Everyone is always quick to condemn that which is deemed harmful or out of the realm of acceptable human behavior. What is Compassion after all? Well, the defintion according to Google is: "Sympathetic pity and concern for the sufferings or misfortune of others." I really don't like the word pity in there because that's not really what lies at the heart of compasion. Concern falls short of what the Buddhists describe as well... How can you accept someone's loving advice if it comes from pity? The people who have truly compassionate do not pity the individual that is going through hard times. Instead, they recongnize that *everybody* goes through suffering at some point in their lives. Suffering, in Buddhisim, is the natural state of the human being. Suffering is the cause of the choas in the human experience and a person can stop suffering, reach enlightenment, with discipline. Being compassionate isn't the same as chairty. Compassion urges us to take time to get to know another person, to reach out to them, and say the two most healing words a human being can utter, "I understand." Chairty is saying, "You are less then me, I have more, so I will give you stuff to make up for that fact to make myself feel better and in turn assure that you know you are less capable/lucky/blessed then me." Compassion doens't require you to give to the poor. This doesn't require you to go out to prisons and preach to the people there. There is no desire to tell other people how to live their life or that they need to change. There is no desire to convert or teach them. The wise know they cannot change the outer world to suit their desires or other people because that would be a violation of anothers Free Will (freedom to choose for themselves and learn as a result of both good or bad choices). That would be the ultimate vanity. Instead, it's an acknowledgment that you cannot change another human beings perspective. That their perespective, even if it's in error or uninformed or one of powerlessness, is just as *VALID* as any other experience. That they have made choices that you might have made given the same exact circumstances. Compassion comes from the realization that you cannot judge another person because you can empathisize with how they feel and even the poor decisions they made. We all have the potential within us to be 'the bad guys' as much as the potential to be the 'good guys'. Both labels are subjective to the individual. We have all made mistakes. We have all acted out in anger. Yes, myabe I broke the door on a cabinet when I was kid by slamming it shut in anger because I was bullied and didn't know how to ask for help instead of taking a gun to school to exact revenge on my peers. Yet, if I had felt that was the only way for me to express myself in a broken system and I had turned my anger outward instead of inner...I could have. I have known the depths of suffering and despair to understand even that grievous mistake. A war hero can go out and kill hundreds on the other side of the enemy lines...because the people on the other side are labeled enemies. To the other side of the conflict that person is a ruthless murdering monster. The only reason we differentiate between the two is based on who's subjectie 'side' we take but it's the same individual regardless of the perspective. Compassion is not always feeling compasison towards those labeled 'victims' but also to the perpertraor. There is recognition when it comes to human behavior the path is always gray...and each side is equally valid in their reasons...even if one is in error. No one commits a crime that doesn't make sense to them in some way. Often times, those who go out and hurt others were origially 'victims' that are hurting on a level they can't handle so they 'act out.' The perpatrator is usually so badly damaged psychologically that you cannot help but feel compassion. Compassion understands that we are all One and, in truth, there are no right and wrong sides. I Understand The two most powerful words that a person can say. Not, "I'm sorry," because that phrase just communicates pity. That doesn't do anything for anyone. This is one of the worst phrases a person can utter to someone who is suffering. This is an admission of fault on the person who is attempting to empathisize while making it clear they don't understand the suffering. Whether someone has lost a relative or loved one or someone has a mental disorder..."I'm sorry," is the most common and worthless phrase someone can say. "I understand," however, is powerful. First, your validtating the other person's perspective. You're saying how they feel is 'normal,' You're saying that anyone else in the same situation would feel the same way...that you, in that situation, would feel the same way. "I understand," immediately restores some self-worth to another person. Of course, they will test you, "Oh? How deep does your scar run? When have you felt as I have?" That's why the archetype of the Wounded Healer exists. Unless you've known the depth of darkness...chance's are you don't understand. When you can pull out a hefty scar, a memory or expereince that makes the strongest man pale and want to say those dreaded words, "I'm sorry," you have a chance of reaching into the wounded heart of that stranger and transforming how they view the world. "If you can survive all of that," they say, "then surely I can survive this. Thank you." Then you watch them thrive like none other. Reincarnation The belief in reincarnation helped me build a heart of compassion. This is simply because it allows for more responsbility and gives a person a wider perspective. I don't think that I could have built a Heart of Compassion without believing that we have a choice in the lives that we choose to live. That we choose the family that we are born into, the place, and the potential temptations or the paths we choose in life. That responsibility, instead of feeling at the whim of outside sources...is vital for inner peace. That causes me to respect people who have chosen more challenging families and circumstances. Even if they fail I can see that their soul was ambitious and wanted to learn a lot in a very short period of time. That says a lot about their spiritual essence...maybe, it's naieve but they're really trying. I also know that eventually they will make progress. Maybe not in this life but in the next...they will eventually reach the state where they return to the One Creator. There is a lot more fogiveness in the idea of Reincarnation versus the idea that we are only given one life and if we fail at that we are punished for eternity or utterly destroyed as a result. That sort of burden has destroyed many people. I don't know if it's truly possible to be compassionate without believing in reincarnation. Forgiveness Compassion is the ultimate form of non-judgement. Compassion consists of understanding and respect. The consolation offered is not material but on a conscious level. For me, I didn't experience true forgiveness until I developed Compassion. I couldn't practice non-judgement because I organized everyone into 'threat or non-threat.' That is natural for survival. Compassion is like standing at the top of the mountain. You can see the full lay of the land below you from the mountains, to the valleys, deserts and rivers to the sea. You know that each path before you meets with the sea eventually. That all people have the same destination but the route is different. You forgive those who were lured by treasure to go through the burning wastelands and those who ventured into the swamp. They may harm themselves and otherse trying to reach their destination but there is an understanding that they *ARE* trying and our society is woefully bad at giving people the tools to find inner peace. Conclusion Most people don't understand compassion, non-judgement or forgiveness. Of course, this is my biased interpertation based on how I came to each of these on my path. There might be meditations that help people reach this point through methods other then reincarnation but I haven't see any evidence of it by word or deeds of people who choose not to believe in reincarnation...I mostly see harsh and even retaliatory judgement...the desire to kill anyone who might be a 'witch', for example or the Crusades as another or gentiles that were treated as second class citizens. That lies in how we operate in society. We say, "Peace, peace," but we judge and categorize everyone. Even in psychiatry it's admitted that the categories in the DSMV are essentially made up and 'seem to work'...we just categorize people who can't function well in society then instead of teaching them coping methods we give them barely understood medications and social security so they don't go out to participate in society other then their Group Therapy sessions. Buddhists call categorization 'naming activity' it serves no one in the bigger scope of civilization and it leads to suffering. Compassion is releasing fear and understanding that everything is as it should be...and not taking the illusion of life so seriously. There is a great deal of trust and faith that there is something more and some purpose to it all. The stepping stone to that faith is creating a Heart of Compassion. I remember when it hit me during a meditation. I was wondering how people can do such horrible things. Then I realized that each of them have a broken path that they walked. Molesters were most likely molested first...rapists were probably molested. Killers were not raised in loving environments- a good percentage were raised in violent neighborhoods and are second or third generation druggies or mob/gang members. People are, for the most part, a product of their environment, the sins of their parents behavior and their parents behavior passed onto the children who are never given the ability to view life from a different perspective...violence, quick money and drugs are all they know. This doesn't mean that I would want to be around those people. This doesn't mean I would try to save these people from themselves in some sort of out reach program- although I agree with those- I'm not equipped for that type of work. Yet, I can still look at those people and say, "That's a human being that's suffering and really needs help...how much will it take for them to ask for help? Will they ever in this life?" Of course, that brings up a lot of questions but it's clear we need a bettr Mental Health program in this country that currently just prescribes Xanax to stressed out upper class people.
Well, this is a longer video then I normally do but this subject merits that length.
I thought about breaking this into two different videos but couldn't quite see myself doing it as I couldn't prioritize the information that would make sense and link the two. There is so much material that I covered in here and concepts I didn't really mean to do in this video. I think I will explore the idea of the Shadow a little bit more in depth in a YouTube video of it's own. So, that should be a great deal of fun. I had to pick through -A LOT- of information. I have several pages full of information that I wrote down in my journal about the Root Chakra. Having a week to pick out the major themes was a bit intimidating. I had never really sat down and put it in order but new just a general outline. This YouTube video, however, really wrote itself and at one point when talking about how the Shadow is the opposite gender of the Hero I very much felt like I was channeling. I had to re-record that portion three times so that it sounded like normal human speech. That's a subject I really want to get into on it's own, especially since Abraham Maslow and Joseph Campbell have fascinating quotes on the subject that I have marked in their books. I'm delighted in how this came out. I wish I had taken the time to draw the picture of myself and my inner child instead of just cutting/pasting photos of myself. However, it is strangely effective in what I was trying to get across and for me drawing is a long drawn out process that takes weeks! I'm very satisfied with the end result of this video. There was one thing I would change which was to move Colette Baron Reid's name so it was more centered but after spending several hours on this video and wanting to hit my deadline I chose to let that error go. I also had a error in writing the name of the book by margaret Ann Lembo- It's Crystals, Minerals and Stones. I also misspelled Crystals as Crystals...but again after spending hours on that I was going to be too picky and I figure it just indicates that I'm human. I don't want to be too perfect or high quality. I prefer to look human and have errors. Finally, I forgot to include that in Edgar Cacye On The Revelation by John Van Auken this chakra is symbolized by the calf. That is a foot note. I could go into depth on the entire take on Revelation that Edgar Cacye had but that's been done in other YouTube videos and more importantly the book which I prefer people to read. I hope you enjoy and next week we will be talking about the Sacral Chakra. One of my biggest struggles in presenting information about working with Spirit is how abstract the information becomes. We live a world where everyone is taken literally and everyone is used to thinking of either/or.
The thought process of most people is, "If you have what I want it means I can't have it." I've had numerous people tell me, "I don't know what you're talking about. You're smart. Explain to me what that means." The words used sometimes, especially in certain spiritual groups, are down right confusing. Trying to translate abstract ideas into something people who are used to thinking linerally is not easy. Then what people do with the information is all up to them. Some people use the information to grow into a better human being. Some try to use the information to enrich themselves. Some simply lack the ability or desire to comprehend it and still others consider it magic when it's not that at all. There is a scientific framework and a very analytical way to approach Spirituality. However, before people are capable of approaching any of it from that view point they have to give up a lot of limiting ideas and beliefs. In general, most people have a very romantic, superstisous and fearful approach to working with immaterial forces. That has a lot to do with domga and how immaterial forces are depicted in Pop Culture. I used to like watching those depictions myself but have no interest in them now a days because they just irritateme with how wrong they are and how they breed fear into people. Spirit Is Feelings As Rav Michael Laitman explained in his book The Path of the Kabbalah...once you start working with Spirit it's all about feelings. There are feelings and symbols...that's the heart of working with spiritual forces. In the immaterial realm matter doesn't exist and neither does time...or depending on what you're working with time occurse at a diffrent rate. In order to understand Spirit you have to have an imagination. Spirit is always very funny. Spirit loves puns. Spirit doesn't take things so seriously...because Spiritual forces, including our souls, are eternal so there is no press for time. There is knowledge that there is eternity to get things right. All things that come into existence in the material world first exist in Spirit...this is a key Teaching of Edgar Cacye that is very true. Take for instance the fact that you decide to darw something. The image doesn't exist on the paper to start with...first it exists within your minds eye. Then, you think of how to transfer the image that exists in your mind eye onto the paper. Then the drawing exists where everyone can see it...but at first it started off as an image that existed solely in your head. Spirit is the essence of consciousness and it meets us within the minds eye. There we interpert the information we receive from Spirit and bring it into the material reality. Those who are completely fixated on material reality...or trying to conform material reality to their thinking...can't perceive Spirit. Their mind is too full of their own ideas, thoughts, and desire to change the world around them for them to hear the subtle quiet voice within. To Each Is Given Their Measure I can usually tell where someone is on the spiritual path by talking to them for a short amount of time. These are just general categories. Some people may be a mix or they might fluctuate through the different categories at different times in their lives. There are the material minded, usually athiests, who's only goal is material gain. They do not possess a bone in their body that desires contact with the One Creator. Their only focus is money, owning material possessions and their next aquistion or conquest. They have no time to consider intellectual pursuits let alone develop a taste for spirituality...all of that is just superstitous nonsense that they cannot weigh or measure. There are the closed minded ones who only accept one defintion from self proclaimed authorties for anything spiritual. Incapable of opening their minds to ideas or possibilities beyond the religous ideas they have memorized they do struggle to be better people to their neighbors trying and I always failing to live up to the incredibly unrealistic of perfection they told they must reach in order to gain entry into heaven. They only march in tune with established religious teachings demonstrating they are very good at memorization but not believing they can apply what they have learned to their daily lives aside from asking or trusting God to provide for them what they desire. There are those who are curious but scared. They believe that something is out to get them and if they delve too much into spirit they will bring bad things upon them and their families. They believe in witches and warlocks that can manipulate the world without being punished that exist outside the One Creator's control. They usually use Spirit for material gain. The majority of people who put themselves out there as 'spiritual' fall into this category. They know enough to put some things into action for themselves but genrally mislead others. These people might not even believe in the One Creator. Then there are the people who are more open but they are looking for a guru or teacher. They want someone to give them all of the answers instead of stepping onto the Spiritual Path of the Seeker. They lack the ability to discern what practices will benefit them and too easily fall for those who will use them spiritually. They lack the desire to be individuals and are more comfortable in a Group Think environment. Finally, there are those Seekers who step onto the Path alone. They may join in groups for a short time, listen to many teachers, and continue on becasue the real goal is to seek companionship with the One Creator. They do not allow others to tell them how to work with or interpert the One Creator but seek within for that connection always measuring those who proclaim themselves as experts, spiritual, or teachers against the still small voice within that connects them directly to Spirit. When someone in the final category talks to those in the first category...their words might sound like nonsense. If I put the book The Path of the Kabbalah into the hands of a strict church going Christian they would not be able to comprehend even a tenth of that book. I struggled to understsand parts of that book but it was only through knowing my own experiences with Spirit that I understood what the author meant which makes it ring as authentic to me. There is a certain point where the Work of becoming a Seeker becomes so abstract and so based on feelings as well as very personal messages...that it fails to have a general application or even the need to be said with human words which are so limiting. That might be why any attempt to make a generalized spiritual system fails...because each of us is unique and our path to the One Creator is unique...it is never the same as anyone else. Also, you come to know that most people aren't aware that they are sleeping and disturbing them from their slumber will just generally upset them. I hae learned that Spirit only allows people to comprehend wisdom on the level they have chosen to operate. If they come upon information that is not within the realm of what they have worked towars spiritually they will fail to comprhend it. There is no judgement in any of these categories. These are just the ways the people I tend to interact behave. The Troubel With Teaching You learn to trust Spirit. At first, when I started to gain insight and have all of these awesome Peak Experiences I wanted to share them with everyone...especially those who were suffering. I wanted to help everyone to learn how to suffer less! I wanted to tell them how I did it in the hopes we would have a mutual experience. However, like Moses on the mount who came down to find that the people had resumed their normal activities...you find people are slow to change. In fact, in Psychology you'll find that people will only change when they want to change and usually it's because their pain has become so acute they have no other option but to reach out to a Higher Power. Even then, they may change just enough to alleviat their suffering to a more tolerable level. You could perform amazing feats for people...but then some would try to tear you down as a fake, perhaps even kill you for blasphmey, and others would elevate you as existing at a level above themselves and still won't reach out to have the experience for themselves, so what would be the point? Spirit is working through all of the categories of people I have mentioned above to various degrees. Spirit does not intrude when it is not welcomed- which is mostly in the first and second categories. Spirit is gentle, paitient, kind and loving...it doesn't intrude but waits to be acknowledged. Why Is There Suffering? One of the things the media uses to their advantage to make more money is the explotation of Suffering. Why, do they say, do some people suffer and some do not? Shouldn't we try to eliminate the suffering of other people? Shouldn't we take care of everyone else? Isn't that the loving human family thing to do? If I saw my brother break a family heirloom would I volunteer that I broke it so that he didn't receive the correction for it? Would I be helping my brother by accepting his responsibility? The answer to that is no. No, it is not the neighborly or loving thing to suffer in the place of someone who has made a mistake. This material reality and the souls that exist within it, for all intents and purposes no matter what obscure religion that you may study, is always the result of a 'mistake.' Call this reality an illusion (Hindu, Buddhist) or the Fall (Judaic, Christianity, Muslim) it amounts to the same thing...there was a mistake at the start of this part of the creation and all of us are working towards correcting that original mistake in perception. One of the funniest statements in The Path of the Kabbalah is the idea that the people who have smooth lives and obtain everything they want...are those who are not called by the One Creator. You might sit there and think, why do I want to be called if it meansing Suffering? A materially minded person would laugh at that and not even try. Well, suffering is how you are pushed to make the adjustments to your belief systems and your ideas. That's how you are pushed to grow. At first it seems rough because you're more aware of why you are suffering and you're trying to figure out how to stop it somehow...and because of certain genrally accepted beliefs you may feel you're being punished for some reason or attacked by some outside force. Suffering is not punishment, setbacks are not punishment from some outer force...it's instruction from a Higher Power. If we just accepted that in the general population there would be a lot less suffering. Further, one cannot correct ones self and then try to transfer it to another person. No one can do the work for you (unlike what the churches would like you to believe). Grace is something you have to earn and ask for...it is not just given, although, it is always at hand should you ask. You have to make the corrections for yourself because it is an adjustment of your perspective that needs to change. Not neccesairly behavior. Behavior changes only after the perspective of the individual changes. That's why, much to my horror at first, when I hear someone else is suffering I don't feel sorry for them. I have realized that each person is the cause of their own suffering and even if I can try to shoulder their burden it's not my place because I would be interferring with their development. I don't try to take on their pain or solve their problems. I will offer advice and encouragment but if they demonstrate they are not intrested in changing their ways I stop. I trust Spirit. The right people are guided to this blog. There is such a beauty in that and it is so wonderful to see how just reaching out to others in love by being an example you can watch people transform themselves. I have seen miracles. I have seen people that were on a self-destructive path pull themselves out and transform their lives. Free Will The Buddhists call it Detachment. That's not like the Psychological bad concept of Detachment where you can't form relationships and you're detached from reality because you're unable to deal with the pain. What it is, is not being attached to material goals, material outcomes or material gains. Most of us are born into this world with a Will of our own. We try to force our will on our parents, on our environment, and on others. Of course, it's not healthy to try and control others. As we grow up we learn to use our Will in a more constructive way. We use it to learn how to draw, paint, make lattes, fix cars or any other amount of things that humans have applied to their mind to and created. Some people suffer something traumatic, then they go out form an organization and try to change the world. While that is applauded in our modern world...it is not a good thing. The outer world, other people, cannot be changed or controlled deep within their being just because they heard a story of heart break. Those people, who have a little bit more insight into human suffering, didn't learn compassion from it...they became warriors trying to force their will on others, but of course, they would argue...for a good cause. They became attached to an unrealistic outcome that they will be able to change everyone...when that traumatic experience was only meant as a personal wake up call to them. The Promise The other easier option is to let go of your Will to be Archtect of your Universe. To turn that over to the One Creator or whatever Higher Power you are comfortable believing in...and then just going with the flow. The promise has always been that once you surrender to that perfect Archetect that knows what's best for everyone is that what you will need will be poured out upon you. There is no effort but it is not without an exchange. By practicing and providing that loving compassionate example to other people the opportunities to positively affect others lives come to you naturally. You develop discernment about what to give, to who and when to give. The other people around you don't have to accept or change their behavior because of your example...although, it is guranteed they will be affected on some level by it. Hardly anyone can deny that their has been a transformation. Their is a confdiene and a gravitos about people who are working with the Divine Will insetad of trying to enforce their own Will upon others. Yet, once Spirit has seen that you have surrendered the path becomes smooth. Things fall into place and the people you need to encounter simply appear on cue. Communication with Spirit is slippery and abstract. Somtimes you get clear answers once you comprhend the language...and sometimes your left on your own because Spirit knows you've got this handled. There are many tests as though Spirit is asking, "Do you really understand? Are you really faithful?" Yet, the clues just continue to add up, things continue to fall into place, the seemingly unlikely or impossible happens...until it's undeniable that a Higher Power does exist and wants a very personal relationshp with you. Conclusion Well, I think I went a little off topic. Hopefully, though, this gives you a little bit of an insight into the Abstract quality of the Path. How much of a leap it is for us to trust but how big the rewards can be...I mean what is a sweeter reward then Inner Peace and A Knowingness that everything is exactly as it should be? The Egyptians describe our world as, "Upside Down." What that means is that we are in great error...that we believe that is false is true. We have created this false material world and we want to declare, "This is All-That-IS!" Yet, the rest of creation, including the One Creator, is sitting there waiting ever ready for us to invite them to join us...but not until we can learn how to play nice and not force our Will onto the rest of Creation. |
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