On Monday October 22nd 2018 my cat Monster died. Above is the last picture that I took of him.
He was exactly 7 years old. I was horrified and taken completely by surprise because most cats have a 20 year life span. I expected our other cat, Harley, who is much older then Monster and belonged to my husband before I met him, to be the first cat to pass away. Born October 2011, we picked Monster up from the home of an Human Resource Manager from Hertz, where I worked at the time, named Ashley (she didn't stay with the company very long) who saved them. Monster's mother was a stray that lived at Ontario airport. Ashely saved the mother cat and sent out an email asking if anyone wanted the kittens. The picture of those adorable kittens captivated me and I answered the email. Monster weighed less then a pound when we picked him up and was less then a month old. He gained his name because he was very passionate and we wanted it to be Halloween inspired since he was born in October. My husband was pickingi him up saying, "Come here you little Monster," as he literally climbed the security gate that sectioned off the bathroom from the rest of our apartment...he wanted to be with us so much. He was a friendly, loving and cuddly kitty from the start. That's how he earned his name. He grew into a twenty pound cat and was best friends with my dog Angel who passed away the same month as her birth- June. They were about the same size which I found very amusing. They would both greet us at the door in excitement. I kind of think Monster, to some degree, didn't realize he was a cat. I lost my two favorite pets of all time this year. Now, I didn't mean for this to be a memorial post (I plan to make a video for him once the emotion over his loss is not so raw) or for it to be depressing Instead, this post is about what loss means and redefining it. Letting Go My posts are a bit sporadic because I've scheduled many of them to April of 2019. I have many more that need to be written because my personal revelations continue at a rapid pace. My cup of inspiration iso overflowing as I progess closer to the essence of my Soul and purpose. I considered posting this blog in April but I think it's better to post it when fresh- especially for the friends and family that knew Monster. He, like Angel, made a tremendous impression on anyone. He was many people's favorite cat. Yet, you should know that my life has changed a lot this year. I have 'lost' many things. Yet, even though that is the most adequate word that comes to mind it doesn't properly capture the experience...because while someone from the outside might assume all of this 'loss' should be depressing it has been the most uplifiting experience as I start walking my talk. I am starting to apply the lessons I have learned that prepared me for this time in my life. All of this 'loss' started in June. First, it was the frienship with the woman that was my best friend for the past 3 years and was essential to the healing process that I went through after losing my eldest daughter, Lilith-Ann, in 2014. I'm eternally grateful to her for the service she provided me by being my friend. Letting go of that frienship was hard but probably benefitted both of our marriages. Second, it was my dog Angel. She lived for 12 years and her transition into Spirit was very hard for me. She suffered more then I would have liked. She felt like a part of me and she was as much my daughter as Lilith-Ann or Michelle. I gave that dog the best possible life that I could. She always brought a smile to my face. Third, it was my truck whih was such a huge part of my identity. When I put my life back together after being divorced in 2005 that truck was the first thing I ever bought 100% for myself. I didn't take into consideration anyone elses needs or wants when I bought that truck. That was 100% mine and not many chicks drive trucks so it was something I identified myself with and made me a bit unique. The truck was also in awesome shape. So, selling it was very tough. Fourth, I gave up my financial indepdenence. I closed my personal bank account and quit my part time job. That was a tough one because both of those were something I had done entirely for myself. Again, they were something that I felt defined me. I really value my independence. Fifth, is Monster. Again, like Angel, he was like a son to me. I loved that cat like a individual being with his own identity and personality that exceeds some of the one dimensional human beings I know. He brougth a lot of joy and love into my life. He was spoiled and kept me company when I was sleeping during those long months of bed rest when I was lonely. Transformation I didn't understand what I was going through at that time...and it is a reflection of the world in which we live. We live in a world of transition or transformation. I only realized this lately when I was going through the themes running through the movies I've seen this year. Movies, as I've explained, that we choose are a reflection of ourselves and also represent themes that the Collective Unconscious are exploring (If you prefer you can call it the Oversoul of Humanity. Think of all human beings souls- not their physical bodies- as cells within a bigger organisim forming the body of that being. The easiest name to call that being is the Oversoul but in Hebrew tradition this would be Adam or Eve- as there is more then one Oversoul incarnating. When one person in that Oversoul changes it alters the entire composition of the Oversoul and triggers a similar change in the other 'cells'). Sometimes, before you can become something new you have to give things up. The Catepillar when it enters the cocoon thinks that it's building it's own casket. When it's going through the transformation within that cocoon it 'loses' the attributes that made it a catepillar. Little does it know after the process of transformation it's going to gain the ultimate freedom and a beautiful set of wings! A New Frequency I realized when Monster passed that I've changed significantly. I was not as inconsolable with Monster's daeth as I would have been at the start of 2018. Oh, I cried and I'm in mourning. I loved that cuddly cat...but I realized that teachings I have been working on have finally sunk in. As a result a lot of things that I found mysterious before make sense. I have gained a greater clarity...on life and myself. One of the teachings of Bashar, which is not one of my foundation teachers but is in agreement with them and had the biggest impression me, is that a key to changing frequency is to 'let go' of all of the things that no longer share the frequency that you want. Think of frequency as trying to tune into a public radio station. Sometimes you're just out of range and it comes in spotty at first. You only catch bits and pieces of the music. But it's the most beautiful music you ever heard and your determined to 'tune in' to the station to hear that song. You have three choices. You can move closer to receive that station more clearly but it means that changes will have to be made. Maybe you have to sell your house in order to move closer to the source of that signal. You can choose to continue to do your own thing. The most logical decision may be to move closer to a city with a job that society says will bring you the success that you want and a radio station you don't care for too much. The third choice is to stay where you are because it's good enough and you don't want to change. That, in a nut shell, is what changing spiritual frequency is like. I choose to go closer to the Source. That's my life purpose. I've been contemplating the nature of God since I was a little girl playing with Barbies. Self-Actualization I never imagined the result of moving closer was to become more of my authentic self which is in alignment with my greatst dreams. In todays society that dream is not valued- to be an author of inspiring spiritual literature and house wife dedicated to raising happy, healthy and capable children. I am in transition...though...because I haven't reached the full cycle in which all of those events occur. I am at the start of this 7 year cycle. So, the seeds have been planted and the biggest one...my daughter Michelle, has alredy grown but she was neccesary to give me the motivation to let go of what did not serve me for the other ones to grow. That being said, I'm in middle of writing my first book which I hope to have published on Amazon by November. I am thrilled that being published has changed so much since 2007 when my short story, The Hutnress, was published. I am so grateful to Amazon and YouTube for transforming media in all it's forms. The internet is the greatest and most empowering tool humanity has ever invented. This took the power that was held by a few to choose what type of content the masses experienced and gave it to society. Now peopel can execute their Free Will more freely then ever before! The intellectual who holds onto a hiearchial point of view might see this as a bad thing and belieiving these inovantions provide platforms for less quality people to contirbute or share their ideas creating disorder...I disagree. The movment of the power from a select view who decided what was quality to the masses is a really good thing. The transformation of the distribution of information has sped up the distribution of that information...and a wider variety of choice to people. This is fantastic because it acceleartes human growth (or self destruction if that's what the individual chooses) beings it allows people to practice their Free Will and it helps people learn discernment! The power to control information belonging to just a few people who were supposedly more capable of discernment then the majority of people was a erronious idea. Giving the freedom of choice to people is always a positive! Much as some people claim that we have too many choices, as though it's a bad thing, they are in error. Yes, it may require a higher falculty of thinking in order to make the choices that will benefit people...but it also gives them the opportunity to make mistakes and find out what they don't want which accelerates learning far faster then metering out 'approved' information. The Lesson As I said, this year is the end of a 7 year cycle for me. I have let go of a lot of things. Consequently, things that I have always desired and wanted that serves the person that I am becoming have come to me. Things I never imagined are falling onto place. I"ve realized what felt like obstacles were in truth...adjustments...to help me focus on what should be a priority. Take for example, the fact that the work on my kitchen (the remodel by the contractor is done but additional work my husband is doing) has been delayed. When meditating on that subject I was reading a book on the 7 Gates of Noah. I realized because of a passage in that book that cooking dinners for myself and my husband was not the priority. My Higher Self and the Creator were conspiring to give me the conditions to ensure that I would write The 7 Code. Events keep occuring that ensures that I work on writing that book beucase it will be of far greater service to the whole of Humanity then cooking dinner for my husband. There are times when cooking dinner for my husband is the greatest service I can provide to humanity. Every effor that was undertake can be that...and eany service that benefits all fo humanity furhters the One Creators plan...and therefore is a service to the One Creator (as long as it adheres to the one rule of not impeding on any other individual's Free Will). Conclusion If you are suffering from losses in your life there are many ways you can interpert the loss in a way that is not taught by society. Society wants you to punish yourself for every ending...to mourn and be distraught. As a whole Humanity has been unwilling to accept change. This has hindered growth. Mastering the art of Letting Go is difficult. Yet, it's beautiful too because for everything that I have let go...I've found that something has been added that's preferable. Beleiving that we are all eternal beings...that energy merely changes form (not just the physical energy that was the material body...but the consciousnes or soul) can greatly help. I suggest you meditate on that...let your Higherself remove from you all that no longer serves you so better things that will take you the next level of growth can be added to you.
0 Comments
|
Author:
Thank You For Visiting
Brave Soul! May Your Journey On The Path Of The Seeker Bring You Joy and Peace! I'm currently posting every Saturday. With a new addition the family I have pre-scheduled most posts through December 2022. Full Moon Posts will contain up-to-date content when I can get to them. Thank you so much for your support and understanding! This is a place where you can encounter new spiritual ideas that have helped me develop as an Individual On The Path of the Seeker. Take or Leave this information as you see fit. Archives
April 2024
|