I'm writing this on Mother's Day weekend but this won't be posted on my blog until July 4th.
I've noticed the number of views on this blog have dramatically decreased. I find that very interesting. Meanwhile, I've been mentioned in more Academic papers posted to a Academia.edu. How interesting that the type of people come across this has changed so much...of course, many say the blog is a dead art form. There has been a major shift in my thinking and this blog is just stream of consciousness. If it feels as though it's a bit all over the place that would be the reason why. In a previous blog I shared with you some dreams that I had about personal development. One of those dreams was about Non-Judgement. When faced with a situation calling for Judgement my mind just flashes to the thought, "Everyone makes mistakes." That really suggests that if I were to judge someone else for making a mistake that I would have to judge myself just as harshly. As soon as I hit that epiphany and owned it things became a lot smoother in my relationships. That was probably one of the hardest lessons I've learned because I usually don't make mistakes. I have lived a very careful restrained life out of the desire to keep things simple and 'correct.' I used to be very opinionated and judgmental- both of my parents are Air Signs and both judge everything 'good or bad.' This year is literally driving them insane even though they are knowingly addicted to the news. Granted, my life is not as simple as possible. I could have a lot fewer possessions, for example, but I've really let go of all desire for community and friends. I don't care about all of that anymore. Too much drama comes along with those interactions. What I didn't share is that I had a dream where I sat down a High Priestess Crown and I told my Higher Self, "I don't want to do this anymore." I was told, however, that I had to make one more judgement. I didn't know what that meant in that dream but we just had a Full Moon in Scorpio and judgement came up a lot. The Judgement card in the Tarot Deck is associated with Scorpio (have I mentioned how much I love Granny Rainbow's book High school Astrology? She includes the tarot card assosciated with every astrological symbol!) and I have Jupiter in Scorpio. Ultimately, that judgement was my choice to be an optimist about the Coronavirus. I was shocked my Spirit Guides literally celebrated that choice with me. Since then my dreams have taken on a very different tone...in one I was called back to an old job that I didn't like...in another I went to a wedding for people I didn't like but I had the opportunity to say goodbye to them. I know, deep down that I am in a new place on a Spiritual Level. Working With The Creator My focus has shifted from searching for to working with the Creator through astrology and ritual. I don't believe the Creator is consciously involved in this world. I don't believe the Creator is the one that is arranging for you to get that job or saving you from a big car accident by causing you to make a wrong turn. That is the role of the Son but not the Creator. Knowing that has brought me a lot of peace. The Hindu, Jewish Kabbalah, Buddhist, Chinese Cosmology and the Dogon religiog are in agreement with this...not to mention Thomas Campbell's My Big Toe. I will eventually write a college worthy paper on the subject. The astrological forces represent the will of the Creator and by studying with them we can start to work with them. The more in tune I become with matching my will with the Creators the easier my life has become. I know that Athena Perkins uses the New Moon and Full Moon energies to set her intentions and then to be thankful for them...and that's beautiful. Yet, I have decided to move way from that concept. Instead, I use it as a way to contemplate the Larger Conscious System or Great Spirit...both are beautiful ways to describe that living consciousness that you, the stars, and I consist of that are the part of the One Creator we have access to in physical material reality. I would never imagine myself saying that I use astrology and ritual to reflect the will of the Creator in my own life and my willingness to match the energy of the One Creator. That was not even on my radar when I started to search for answers in the Nineties. Most of the spiritual material that I have come across are mistaken in believing that something else can do the 'Work' for you. When I say work I simply mean personal development and evolution. In fact, the Catholic Church and it's offspring all promote being Childlike Immaturity...which is an error. Peace doesn't come from other people 'saving you' but coming to accept why things happen. That's shy so many are fixated on the 'Return' of something that will 'fix' the Earth. With the heavy born again Christian phase I went through as a teenager I can really see how fear affected and warped my perceptions. I was afraid of Astrology...because I didn't understand it. I was afraid of ritual- even though Church is one big ritual and the Catholics are the masters of ritual- because I didn't understand it either. I thought both were selfish means to try to create an outcome in the world. There are certainly people who do try to manipulate the energies to create the outcome that they want instead of surrendering to the Divine Will. I see that as an act of futility but Free Will is a blessing. Those people will just slow down their personal growth but that is their choice. I also don't use Astrology for Fortune Telling. I use it to deepen my relationship with the Creator. In fact, I don't like Fortune Telling at all...whether it's a Pick-A-Card or someone using the Tarot for a quick reading. Sometimes they have deep meaning...if you're really lost on your path they an help...but people get addicted to them. There is a place for that with people who are hopeless (which denotes a lack of faith, which I was once guilty of) or have a weak sense of self (which I was guilty of, mind you). Once you develop that sense of self to the point where you can float in the Sea of Unity with ease at the same time...comprehending that you are One but also One With The Creator...none of the day-to-day activities matter as much. They are really just chores. I really don't care to know what chores I'm going to be doing five or ten years from now. I like living in the moment. Some people use astrology for self-gratification- I can clearly see how it can be used to match our energy and frequency to create mutual reception with the One Creator. Those are people who are looking for demonstrations of the Creator's Will because they really don't have faith. Look at how Nature creates some of the most astounding and beautiful patterns. What better pattern to emulate in our own life to create lower entropy (chaos) within our minds? Chaos happens in our minds when our thoughts are out of control. Mostly, our thoughts are controlled by Desire. We think about how the chair we are sitting on is too hard, how the temperature isn't right, what we plan on doing tomorrow, what we plan on having for dinner and our level is usually affected by how safe we feel. When we don't feel safe we usually desire more things...as the Coronavirus showed the first people thing did was over buy toilet paper and food with complete disregard for others. All of those thoughts arise from our desires. The Chaos is magnified if we are in a situation we don't like. The Coronavirus Lockdown is a good example. I don't think anyone likes the experience of not being able to leave our homes because of fear. I kind of feel like the entire world experienced Agoraphobia...the fear of leaving the house. We were told to be good little soldiers and do our part for our country (CNN literally said that in an article!). I've been through that on a personal level so it doesn't phase me at all...but it does feel as though the entire world is going through what I experienced in 2015 after Lilith-Ann died...with the Grief and Agoraphobia. Mostly, I'm just amazed by the deep peace that I feel and I'm excited to study every New and Full Moon so I can reflect the energy back to the One Creator. I think it's beautiful to have the opportunity to interact with the One Creator consciously. I think of it like my dreams. When I first started working with my dreams people couldn't speak to me. I'd see their mouths open but I couldn't hear them. Soon, however, I learned not to 'hear' with my ears in dreams but to read minds. I don't see people in dreams and talk to them but I 'download' things when I look at them...basically it's telepathy. The initiation dream with the words on the screws (In No Cent and Accept The Bull) was an anamole. That was the first time I had seen writing. Recently I saw an entire sentence emblazoned on a stone and I read it. Reading, just like talking to people telepathically, has become common in my dreams. I feel as though my dreams consist of interacting with a consciousness system. As we grow to know one another the conversation and depth of the dreams have changed significantly. In particular, I'm aware that the character's I encounter don't matter as much...it's like interacting with NPC's in a computer game. They really represent the system itself...the LCS. Yet, everything I interact with in dream time is a communication from the LCS...because every object has a meaning. I recently dreamed that I had to wash dishes, for example, which is a first. They weren't my dishes but someone else's. Yet, I knew that it was an important task and symbolized something I needed to do in real life. Basically, I was cleaning up what other people had 'served' themselves. In other words, in my dream state my relationship and interaction with the LCS continues to evolve. There is nothing besides the LCS/Creator so there isn't really anything else to interact with. The less we are afraid of working with the Creator directly the clearer the communication becomes. Getting over that fear was a huge obstacle, I have to admit, but so worth it. After all, since we are One with the One Creator it's like fearing yourself. Which is just silly. Yet, religion teaches you to be scared of the Creator and that the only person that can interact with the Creator is an elite Priest...because you're not special enough. That's why ritual and astrology are 'wrong' because this false system suggesting you need an intermediary between yourself and the Creator because of the 'sin' made by Adam and Eve. What a self-defeating system! Of course, we have to feel that we are worthy before we can work with the One Creator. I think that's what the High Priestess phase of dreams I had (and no I won't be sharing them) meant. I was developing a sense of self-importance that needed to reach the level to where I realized it wasn't important. In a way, learning to work with the LCS/One Creator/God is like learning to work with yourself...or to work with your body. I know when I need to use the restroom, for example, I need to find a toilet. I know that when my stomach growls from hunger I should probably find some food. For me, in my life, there is nothing greater or more gratifying than to develop, deepen and work with the Creator. I love my family but even that pales in comparison to the excitement I feel about the relationship I have with the One Creator. They are aspects of the One Creator, and specifically ones that I am meant to interact with so they are important...but what I am talking about is deeper. You can only know other human beings on a superficial level...communication with the One Creator is far more intimate. I never even thought that was possible! The veil is not just something in our minds, when you think about it, there is a veil between us and those around us. We are limited in perceiving other people. I can only superficially perceive my husband based on interactions with him and the behavior that I witness. He can be (and I know this for a fact) a totally different person when around other people. His inner perception of himself is undoubtedly radically different then my perception of him. He's the central character in his own story but in my Life Story he just has a supporting role. So, there is very much a veil between us and other human beings. I think that even goes for our animals. I know my Dog Angel look at me as a loving provider, companion and food provider...she could sense my moods but not my specific thoughts. The amazing thing that has changed in my dream state is that now that the understanding is going both ways...I'm teaching character's in my dream things. I'm even taking them by surprise. Again, that's a new experience! I'm curious and excited about my new journey in consciousness. I may read books about the basic system as it was taught to the indigenous...and books on astrology. Yet, the rest isn't as interesting. What's funny is that I still have this built in response...I want to see the new Marvel movies even though I'm less excited about them. I still want to have that piece of pizza...even though I know it's a reflex of my conditioning. I still want to take my daughter to Disneyland... Yet, there is this 'need' for those things that's removed. I do them because that's the way one goes about life. We plan things and we have experiences. At the same time, I'm just as satisfied by the experience of using the computer or when meditating before bed. Yes, I meditate before bed and I have no trouble sleeping. I kind of envision it as hitting the reset button before going to sleep and wiping way the data from the day. In fact, the way I process my day is differently. I no longer review it and think of what I didn't get done or what I need to do tomorrow. I let experiences slide off of me. I enjoy it in the moment but I don't hold onto them or search for some deeper meaning or purpose. I used to be very past oriented. I'd go over the events from my past so many times trying to relive and make a different decision. Then I became a lot more future oriented planning events far in advance (I bought every present for this year in advance, for example). Now, I'm settling into the moment. I'm enjoying the moment...such as enjoying the feeling of running my fingers through my daughter's hair or really feeling the warmth from her fierce hugs (she gives THE best hugs ever!). Even listening to the different ASMR sounds or images....when you focus on really enjoying them they are very sweet. When focused on the next event, or dwelling on past failures...you miss out on the sweetness of the present moment. Well, this ends my little reflective study for today. I'm sending you infinite love and support. I can't wait to explore this new paradigm with you!
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