The timing of this epiphany is a strange one and perfect.
For that I am thankful! I just realized this recently. I must admit freaked me out when all of it fell into place. I don't ask that you beleive me. For me it's real and that's what matters. If it brings me peace then so be it. Some of these stories are the deepest secrets I hold. Some might think I have psychological issues because of them...and again I don't care...that type of thinking is very archaic. Anyways, enjoy this approrpiately timed Haloween story.... I have a strange little story to tell. Part of why I am so prone to believing in Spirituality and one of my major Validations has to do with what is, for all intents and purposes, a haunting. I'm not talking about some random Ghost haunting me. I'm talking about someone I knew in a Past Life. You might be familar with this story on some level. I've told parts of it before but it never dawned on me the continuity of it in this life. I only realized this in the past two days even though it's now obvious to me. First, if you read about my past lives you know that in my last incarnation I was murdered. I was stabbed in the gut by a kid who was trying to attack the guy I was dating who thought he was the cat's meow. This was sometime during prohbition. I think it was during the 1930's that I died as a teenager. I came into this life with memories from that one. I remember as a very young child in this life, maybe three or four, telling my mom about one particular memory and she told me in never happend. It wasn't until I had a Past Life Regression that I realized that memory was not from this life. The Ghost Encounter Either way, the experience that first prompted me onto the Path of the Seeker happened on a bright and sunny day. I was going upstairs to a room that would later become mine. I noticed a strange black smoke coming in through the windows that faced the back. Now, keep in mind these windos were closed. The smoke came into the room in an odd way. The smoke seemed to move much as a serpent would slinking forward and there was this greasy shinyness to it. I found myself frozen in place. Whatever the heck this thing was it had me abosultely terrified and I could't move even if I wanted to move. The smoke stopped in front of me and I had the distinct impression that it said, without words, "I know who you are and I will be back." With that it went out the front window of the house and, no longer frozen, I ran downstairs and told my mom what had happened. I was absolutely freaked out. Later, when that would become my room I had the distinct feeling of a presence. Several people heard someone walking along the dropped ceiling of that room (it was the only room in the house with a drop ceiling). I would keep the radio on at night because I was so frightened by the presence. Years after I moved out my dad tore down that drop ceiling...and there were no more footsteps. The Walk In In 2005, something really bizarre happened. My ex-husband had gone through cancer, he had a surgery called an RPLND which basically gutted him like a fish and they removed his lymph nodes. He was back at work but he had begun to behave in a bizarre fashion. He had always acted in a bizzare way but this was even more so... I had no context for what happened at the time even now there isn't much information on the concept. He started talking in his sleep. He sounded like he was having horrible nightmares. I sleep like a rock so it takes a lot for me to wake up. I would try my best to soothe him back to sleep. This happened night after night for weeks...at least a month. Then one night it changed. Something, that was not my ex, talked through him. This thing explained that it was a "place holder" spirit. This Spirit was very upset that I could talk to it and the guys eyes were open as though he were awake. It even talked to itself saying, "This has never happened before, what do I do," and it explained that it's main function was being a placeholder. Basically, it explained, it keeps a body alive while a soul is sought to continue with the life. Then it explained that the ex-husband's soul had been inexplicably hurt by the experience after the RPLND treatement. That his soul could no longer function in the human body. I asked to speak to him and what came out was this discoherent crying mess of a personality. Just screaming why, why and it was absolutey bizzare. Having only a Christian background I was freaked out of my mind. I figured he had to be possessed. I told him what had happened the following day and he claimed he didn't remember any of it even though his eyes had been wide open! The following night I got out my bible. When he started talking in his sleep and woke me up I turned on the light. I started reading the Lords Prayer. My faith was very solid that Jesus would protect me. There was the most wicked laugh that came out of him. He told me that the bible could not protect me. Those were just words and the bible was just paper with ink. Now I was nearly beside myself. He asked, "Should I take over this body? Would you like that?" Okay now I was abosolutely freaked out beyond comprehension. I can't even explain to you how I felt. I started to get dressed deciding I was going to leave...that I had to get away. I ran to the kitchen but he followed me, his eyes wide open as though he was completey and absolutely awake. He told me we had been together before and when I asked him why he sounded like Dracula he said we'd had a life in some European country and Transylvania was part of the kingdom or something. I was convinced I was talking to a demon. So, I grabbed a knife and told him to keep the heck away from me. He grabbed it out of my hand. I ran like a bat out of hell to the bathroom, closed and locked the door. I slept in the bathroom part of the night. In the morning I found he was in bed asleep. The next morning he claimed he couldn't remember what happened. That night at work I ditched him (we worked at the same place and the car was mine) I went home and I left. I never went back to him. He was such a screwed up person I can't say for certain he purposely acting like that...why he would I have no idea. But I realized if I didn't trust him enough to believe that he didn't cosnciously pretend to be possessed I shouldn't be with him. Don't feel too bad for him, though, because he was that kid who killed me in my last life. Hence, why he had the RPLND surgery to remove his lymph nodes. Karma is a bitch. Past Life Regression Nightmare Years later, I would have a terrible experience the night before I went to have a past life regression done. I had several nightmares in a row. I would go back to sleep and have the same exact nightmare. Each time the front door of the living room in which I was sleeping would be broken into...one time it was the screws in the door knob were forced out. Another time, it was a window that did not exist next to the door that was broken and a man reached in and turned the doorknob. The first two times I felt as though my throat had been cut and that I was drowning in water. I just couldn't breathe and that's what startled me awake only to experience the same exact situation again. I heard the words, "Ana! Ana! Wake up!" The third time, it was agreed that I would be allowed to talk to him but that it had to be observed. I sat down at a lunch bench and he showed me a pink urn.There was a white and yellow flower on it's neck. He apologized, which I didn't understand at the time (I thought maybe he was apologizing for my daughters death that had happened two weeks before). Then, the next day I had my past life regression. In it I learned that in my last life there had been this guy named Lou who was called the Peacock. I didn't see his eyes in the regression. I once heard that when they don't show their eyes they're ashamed of something. Well, this guy had plenty reason to be ashamed. After I was stabbed by my attacker who was really just trying to show Lou what it was like not to be so lucky...when I was bleeding out on the boards of a pier he did the unthinkable. He and his friends, instead of being implicated in their crime and having to answer questions about what happened threw me into the ocean. I had probably passed out from bleeding so much and they probably didn't know that stomach wounds take a long time to kill someone...but they threw me into the water. Technically, they killed me because I drowned before I succumbed to the wounds caused by the attack. The funny thing was as soon as I was out of my body I wasn't upset or vengeful or anything. My first thought as a spirit was, "That wasn't supposed to happen!" Which I personally think is hilarious. It's like when a video game charecter dies when you're trying to complete some sort of complciated feat and the controls don't work right. Psychic Overload This also explains some of the bizarre information/experiences I had when I was being overwhelmed with panic attacks. Some of that information, when I was completely heavy and could not move, had to do with someone apoligzing. Still. "I didn't know, I didn't know," was the feeling I got over and over again plus this overwhelming sadness I can't explain. I have no doubt when I open up on a psychic level this guy is just waiting there for me ready to pounce. Waiting to hear that I forgive him. I just didn't understand the message until now. Why Does This Make Sense Now? I guess I can thank Lou for my becoming a Seeker but as I know nothing happens without a reason...I kind of figure my Higher Self had that planned. There was an even bigger promise made to the One Creator that absolutely nullifies any karma I have here. This epiphany came to me while I was thinking about my Kundalini experience and all of the mystical experiences I had. I've always wondered, why the heck I had seen whatever that thing waswhen I was a kid and what did it mean it knew who Iwas or that ominous 'I will be back?' Conclusion Apparently, I need to tell Lou I forgive you now move on. I'm done with that life as Ana. I wasn't terribly upst after that life ended. I just went about my way and went to the Spirit world on my own. I knew the way (which is considered odd usually a person has a Guide to take them). He's inadvertedly helped me in this life several times. He's proven without a doubt that there is something beyond death. I can't deny it because it was so powerful which means there must have been a pretty strong connection. How should I know? Yet, whatever he is or became he needs to go on to the Spirit side. I forgive him, he needs help because he's trapped and lost. This body that is sitting in this chair is not the way for him to get help. I haven't researched that life much.I really don't want to research it. I don't know if it's just because if I found out more about it...the whole thing would be even more real. I also don't want to obssess over the past. I know I'm not Ana, this is a distinct experience. So, yeah, I guess the next step is to look at how to send this spirit on his way. Extremely weird stuff.
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This is a topic I find fascinating, which you might be able to tell from how I talk in the video. The most amazing part to me is the fact that this word has de-evolved to such a point where people don't know what it was used for originally. The original bible meaning, being that it was written and interperted. The bible was cannonized after the word changed in meaning...but why would that happen. How much of a role did the church purporsely play in that to confuse people? If people could go directly to God for all of their needs clearly that would eliminate a need for a church. This woefully misunderstood topic is actually one of huge significance in my own personal journey. I would never have been able to tell you that one of my ideas was to, 'stand naked before God.' I don't remember where I read that quote when I was a teenager, 'who can stand naked before God?' I think maybe it was in reference to Adam and Eve. I took upon myself to lose as much shame as possible. My goal was to stand naked before God unashamed because...how else would you meet him face to face? Do I think I met God face to face? Well, a form of it...when I met my Higher Self. The more I think of that strange vision/dream the more I find it fascinating. Back then I didn't realize that the future self she had been creating (a version of me with a pixie cut look worn out and bitter wearing an american flag shirt and way too patriotic) was a different aspect of me that I would morph into if I hadn't met her. When she thanked me I realized it was me thanking myself for taking that step because it is a HUGE step in spiritual development. Anyways, I hope this makes more people think that it's possible. That it's not something for an elect chosen few. That instead it's something you choose and it's when you do the work on yourself where you can stand up saying, "I am doing everything I can to live a right life and I stand by what I do 100% knowing that I am pure of heart," the battle is one. There is no more "two heartedness." Suddenly, everything is just all One. This book is simply amazing.
Glenn Sanderfur does an excellent job examinging not just the lives Edgar Cacye said Jesus lead prior to being the Christ but also explains how Christianity became a religion that didn't believe in reincarnation. There is ample proof that early Christians did believe in reincarnation and that the Jewish idea of transfiguration is reincarnation. Here is an amazing quote: "If the concept of reincarnation was so prevalent in early Christian thought why is it n ot a part of mainstream Christan theology today? Although such a belief has surfaced from time totime in the long history of Christianity, it ceased to be a signficatn factor in the religion after the Fifth Ecumenical Council of Constaintinople in 553 A.D. One of the products of that council (although apparently added by Emperor Justinane) was " The Fifteen Anathemas Against Oriegen," in which the doctrine of Oriegen, including belief in reincarnation, were condemned. The Lives of Jesus listed are: Adam, Enoch, Hermes, Melchizedek, Joseph, Joshua, Asaph, Jeshua, and Zend. Edgar Cacye said Jesus incarnated thirty times before he got it right. Yet, these are the ones provided probably because Edgar Cacye was so Christian these were the easiest for his little group to understand. One of the lives of Jesus, according to Edgar Cacye, was Adam in the Garden. There is an interseting Jewish Scripture call The Book of Adam and Eve and in it there is this fascinating bit of prophecy: "7 And, again, as regards the Water of Life thou seekest, it will not be granted thee this; but on the day that I shall shed My bloon upon they head in the land of Golgotha." Another one of the lives that Edgar Cacye listed was that of Hermes: "One of the still-extant books attributd to Hermes is Poimandres, and it has at times been caleld The Genesis of Enoch. The book descrbies how Hermes, "while wander in a rocky and desolate place, gave himself over to meditation and prayer." Divine revelations then came to him, and, just like Enoch, he was given information on the mysteries of the heavesn and the workings of the universe." One of the most interesting things it this books explains the reason Jesus had to die in such a fashion was because of the life he lived as Joshua where he killed so many. That bloodshed ensured that he had to meet a gruesome death to balance out that karma. There is so much more to this book. I have just touched on a few small things but it really can expand your mind. When asked why Rome decided to get rid of reincanration as a concept in Christianity Edgar Cacye replied that it was considered a short cut. If people thought they could live multiple lives and that there was more then one life where they could get it right...they wouldn't have to make things right with The One Creator in this life. Of course, Edgary Cacye added, there are no short cuts. I can't help but think that by getting rid of the concept of reincarnation Rome did Chrisanity a huge disservice. In fact, it's one of the many things on a long list that I think Rome did horribly wrong...but then they were all about self-service anyways. So, Rome never really understood what Jesus taught anyways. They just used it to further the agenda of their Empire. I cannot recommend this book enough to every Seeker. If you truly seek knowledge that will enlightened and uplift all people this book needs to be on your bookshelf. Two weeks ago in my blog I tore apart corporations accusing them of being souless entities that just consume because their only purpose for existence is consumption of profit. They are the same as an amoeba when it comes to their purpose.
The Benefits of Corporations However, at the same time corporations are a fantastic example of how amazing human beings can be when they work together for a common cause. They do teach unity, albeit for a corportion-only-serving cause. Corporations prove that when huge amounts of people come together for the same cause they can do tremendous things. Many of the corporations in the United States today have performed feats prior companies could never imagine. The practices that some corporations put into place- such as the manufacturing practice of Henry Ford- has improved the quality of life for billions of people in the world. The only drawback, as I pointed out before, is that we haven't created corporations to serve people but to serve themselves. If we take a look at creaton from the Hopi perspective that our souls have evolved through many worlrds: The Mineral World, The Plant World, and then the Animal World...we'll discover the 'world' we are going into is the World of the Human. The world of the Animal has been learning what it's like ot be an animal. To behave like animals. The survival of the fittest. The competition for resources. Pack mentality. As a consequence, what we have created- corporations- behave like amoeba's because we haven't quite figured out what makes us better then amoebas and what the benefit of being human is to the rest of hte planet. (To the point where some people would literally love to see the entire population of this world wiped out and filled with 'natural' animals). A Diffrent View of The Future If all of those behaviors were of the animal what does the World of Humanity hold? I forget who it was that compared each human beings to a cell. When all of those cells are put together they form a larger organisim. He explained that the lung cells don't evny the heart cells and the bone cells don't envy the blood cells. Each naturally knows what role it plays and does so in harmony. I think that's what the future for humanity holds. Each of us finding a niche where we belong where we can serve the whole...not just a souless corporation or govenrment that's fightin for it's surival with all of the intelligence of an amoeba. We can form societies and groups that help to take care of each other while overcoming hurdles that a single person can't solve. Of coures, to really see improvement it won't be driven purely by a desire for profit...but a desire to serve all of humanity because we finally realize by serving everyone we really serve ourselves. Any time one person feels they are lacking it harms the whole because they strike out in some way believing that others have waht they lack. As techology takes more of the pressure off of us for doing mundane tasks the ability to focus our time thinking and problem solving (the movers and shakers of society don't sit down and watch television all of the time) will increase. We will have to spend less time working and more time to put our skills to helping all of humanity in our own unique way. Maybe that's painting nails, maybe that's writing blogs or maybe that's creating an innovative machine that's affordable that can vacuum the floor (Zumbas are still too expensive for the common person)...each of these people have an equally valuable talent. That's one thing we need to fix in society's perception. The CEO is no more valuable then the burger flipper. The teacher is no more valuable then the pizza delivery guy. The actor is just as valuable as the janitor. I honestly value the janitor above the rest because they do the jobs no one else wants to do while receiving no glory. With the internet we can share and strategize in ways never conceived of before and it allows for diverse groups of people to share their ideas and maybe their inventions or solutions as well. There is also more opportunity to praise those who are worthy of praise who won't be mentioned in our current media because they are not victims or rich. I think as we stop focusing on mundane tasks and start working together to solve problems that seem to be paradoxes we will fully emerge into the World of the Human. Conclusion Coroporations and governments are proof that humanity can do great things when they are organized into a group with a singular goal. So far, the only goal has been survival in the form of profit that goes to a small few so *that* does needs to change Yet, it is great proof that when large groups of people come together to solve problems we can produce amazing results. As technology gives us more free time we can join groups on the internet and start working to solve the worlds problems without the desire for profit...but to benefit the whole. Corporations have absolutely served a purpose. They have taught large groups of people how to work with one another like a well oiled machine. Now, it's time for humanity to take that idea to a whole new level so that when we work together it benefits everyone and leaves out no one. We need to transition into appreciating every human being instead of a chosen few (actors, politicians, CEO's).
As I said at the end of this video making this was a Hero's Journey for me. I really faced a paralyzing crisis while making this becuase this dream is so personal. I find most people's dreams to be incredibly boring. I had to overcome and purge a lot of personal blocks.
This week has been rough. First, as I discussed in my blog on Monday when I went to the Learning Light Center I felt really drained. I love being around people who are into spirituality as much as I am but the need of so many who visit that place is just too much. When I contemplated making this video and how to do it I had a little crisis of self-doubt. I worried that these videos will never amount to much as they don't seem to be becoming popular. Meanwhile, I distinctly don't want to become to popular while making them because that would freak me out and put a ton of pressure on me bringing out my inner critic. I'd probably be struck dumb with fear. What's the point of making them, I wondered? What am I really trying to accomplish here? What's with this contradiction in thinking and how can I resolve this? The answer came to me in an couple of ways. First, I had a dream explaining that each effort was a little ripple and that little ripples can make big waves. I will effect certain people who will go out and effect others. I also know, based on another dream, that these videos are not meant for masses of people who are just now waking up. These are meant more for the advanced spiritual person...that I've been about 10 years ahead of the bell curve of these events. Then as I was working on the slides for this video I was listening to a YouTube video on the Moore Show, where the host, Kevin, asked the same question to a channeler named Douglas Ballard and was told the same answer. Here is that video: https://youtu.be/YjstImu3coc For some reason I resonate a lot with Kevin Moore. Edgar Cacye popped up for him when channeling. Edgar Cacye pops up as one of my guides, kind of like Aswana that I describe in the video, but only when I'm really being challenged in life (mostly when I've been suicidal). There's an earnestness to him that I adore and his videos have been a major inspiriation for me during the roughest patch in my life since my daughter, Lilith-Ann, passed in 2014. So, it doesn't surprise me that a message he asked so clearly answered a quesiton I needed to hear...it was in a video published a few weeks ago that I couldn't find the time to watch...yet, the timing when I finally got to listen to it was perfect. In the end, this little crisis with negative energy was helpful. I did put into context the more bizarre and frightening mystical experiences that I had which I have been questioning for a long time. I wrote a blog based on this epiphany, "A Strange Little Ghost Story," which I will publish on Monday. I seem to be purging some major patterns that have occured over multiple lives which is fascinating. The amount of Karma I'm balancing in this life is fascinating and the Path of the Seeker continues to become more surprising. Each time I think I'm reaching the end of it I find something new. Also, I had been thinking for a couple of weeks, because so many videos post on Monday that I needed to change the day that I post my videos. Being inundated with videos on Monday of YouTube channels I follow I realized mine might not get as much attention from my subscribesrs (11 so far which is one of my favorite numbers). Also, my work schedule changed. I was off on most Mondays but now my days off are changing every week. Posting on Friday allows me to utilize whatever week day I'm off to work on my video. There was one thing that I did not mention in this video that I noticed when editing. Interestingly, in the interperted version of Joseph Campbells Hero's Journey for writing they chnaged Atonement with the Father to Crisis. I think this is very interesting, since Atonement is the heart of the Initiation part of the cycle Campbell identified. Do most people face a crisis when dealing with Atonment? Next week, I think I'll do a Traveler's Notes video on Atonment. That one is exciting and totally inspired by the work of Edgar Cacye so that's going to be fun. The next step on Maps of the Pscyhe is going to be Abraham Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs. This is so exciting because I love bringing an actual concept I learned when earning my Bachelors in the Science of Psychology to bear on this information. I think it totally validates what I'm talking about. I also found it really interesting in Campbell's book Pathways To Bliss he talks about Maslow's hierarchy of needs and associates it with the chakras!! What a perfect little validation of my own concept..although, his view was not flattering and I disagree with him a little. I look forward to including his opinon during the next set of videos. Thank you everyone who is reading this blog and watching these videos. Creating them brings me a lot of joy and happiness. Simply put this movie is a must see.
When I first heard of this movie I shrugged it off. If you look at my movie reviews for this year you'll see I didn't even consider seeing it. I wasn't a huge fan of the dated original that I watched for the first time only a couple of years ago because my husband said I need to watch it. I liked it, at it's heart it's a love story while also acting as a vehicle to explore what artifical intelligence might be like. I wish I could say this one couldn't stand on it's own. A person could probably watch this movie and appreciate it without seeing the origina. However, some of the details might be lost on them. This is not a movie that narrates the action for you or tells you how to feel. There is no exposition. None. Filled with breathtaking visuals that set the tone for each scene it is a beautiful film. The charecter development is the best I've seen in decades. At one point in the movie, at the major plot twist I felt physically sick I was so jarred. I was so devastated by what the charecter must have experienced it almost physically hurt. I've never had a movie affect me so much emotionally. The third act of this film I was sitting on the edge of my seat. The ending was absolutely beautiful and perfect. The acting in this movie is some of the best I've ever seen. Each performance was flawless. There was a little bit too much nudity for me to feel comfortable with it but it wasn't sexual at all. In fact, there were no sex scences int his movie which makes me so grateful.There is a odd foreplay scene but that't it. This movie will make you think. While it has a fairly long run time...when I walked out of the theatre I wanted to sit down and watch it again. I have a feeling this is one of those where I will watch it several times and find something new that I think is amazing about it every time. I absolutely recommend seeing this movie. Every now and then I like to update with how I'm doing personally and the direction I perceive my life as heading. So, here is a brief update.
Posting YouTube Videos On Friday I've noticed a lot of videos post on Monday. I really don't want to compete with other people for views. This week was the perfect time to switch over. I've been contemplating it the last two weeks. Yesterday, I had a little bit of sickness which I will elaborate later on in this post. I also think this weeks been tough because this is the first time where I will relate one of my personal validations which is hard. It's like sharing a part of me I'm not sure I want to make vulnerable but it's so beautiful at the same time I feel the need to share it. Also, my work schedule has changed to where I'm currently working most Monday's now. I tend to have days off during the week so it should be easier for me to post on Fridays. Learning Light Center I went to the psychic fair this weekend. First, I realized that I was severely drained by attending it. I noticed that before but this time it was particularly noticeable. There were far less vendors and I realized that it doesn't hold much interest for me. I realized I have no interest in having a psychic reading or healings. The experiences were fascinating in the past but I am so connected that it's not neccesary. I realized that going often to see these people is a little like a junkie looking for a fix. These people are going to others constantly instead of looking within for answers. This kind of blew my mind. I might have a life between lives regression in the future...it costs a lot of money though...but other then that I'm really done being 'read' by others. I realized my Path has taken me to a place where I connect within and I don't need anyone else and that I can only be accurate with myself. Finally, I had a really odd experience. I was feeling really drained. I had horrible weird nightmares after going. I also had the impression of someone with nicotene stained fingers, a pipe smoker, that was a relative of one of the people I had spent time with at the fair. I decided that a male spirit stuck in the astral realm had attached to me so I decided to take a Epsom salt bath. As I settled in and started to read my current book Venture Inward by Hugh Lynn Casey I saw something strange. I saw a bright blue triangle shaped light appear off to my right by the wall. This reminded me of a light given off by the sun reflecting in a car door's side mirror. Only it was perfectly diamond shaped which I've never seen a car door side mirror in that shape. The strange thing is I was mostly able to perceive this with my right eye. That's a weird factor as that eye seems to be more sensitive. I have never heard of such a thing so that's weird. There is no way that any sort of reflection to reach me in the tub. There is no way light can shine in there. I'm on the second story so it wasn't a light reflected off someone closing their car door. That's the only logical this world explaination I can think of... I can only think the salt bath drove off whatever being thought I'd convey it's message to a woman with whom I spoke. I feel sorry for souls trapped in the astral realm but at this point in time have no interest in helping them. I think they have an unhealthy obsession with the actual material world and being a 'vehicle' for them actually has a negative effect for them and for us. Doing Readings I've started doing 'psychic empath' readings on people's photos. The things that I've picked up and had confirmed are shocking. I picked up weird details. I told one person that her brother was not depressed from this life but from a past life that he had brought with him and he speficially chose her family to trigger the problems he was having so he can heal them. Then I found out he recalled his past life when he entered this life and told his mother, when he was a child, that she chose her! Wow. I also pick up on other strange details. One woman I told her that she had half remembered memories and trauma in her childhood. She admitted she can't remember most of her childhood. That was mind blowing. I realize I go into an altered state when I do these readings. I don't so much look at their image, I become in tune with their spirit. I have the picture open and then I often look off to the right. I also realize I've been doing for a very long time but never understood it or understood what I was seeing. I can't see the future for them...I can only tell them about unresolved past issues and make suggestions in how they can heal themselves. I can only see how dark they are (how much baggage they are carrying around) or how light they are...few people are sparkly or clear. I've always seen the darkenss and the light into people since childhood but I thought everyone could. When someone represses their emotions and feelings or memories it can have huge consequences and that person isn't feeling that black hole in their energy that repression feelings and emotions creates. Instead they become toxic and suck up other people's energy. Only by healing and reverseing the flow can they truly heal. That's essentially the Path of the Seeker and the Hero's Journey. People are seeking me out and PMing me for readings which is amazing to me. Apparently, they noticed I have the gift in the group I'm a part of and feel the need to get a reading specifically form me. A huge thing for me has been realizing I have this gift and understanding what that means. Will I go into it full time? I don't think so. I feel terrible for charging people for a gift I was born with...it did not cost me anything to aquire it. I guess, it's because I always wanted to know how Jesus healed people. My main reason for departing on the Path of the Seeker when I was a teenager was a desire to have that knowingness to help people. I guess we will see what happens there...but really I couldn't interpert and work my gift without all of the life experiences that I've had. Although, I've experienced a lot of horrible things I learned so much about the darkness now I know what it holds. I also know that it holds nothing to fear. I also know how I healed those issues in my own life. As someone said, that's the essence of the Wounded Healer. We heal ourselves and then we can teach others how to do the same. Ghosts that are stuck in the astral realm are just beings that have made mistakes, they have errored and they are lost. People who carry a lot of darkness are also erroring and lost. I prefer helping the living then the dead. Conclusion I can tell that my gift is changing as I understand the full caliber of what I'm capable of sensing. My focus is still my school/YouTube Channel. I think there is a great need there and at the right time it will really serve many people. It will help them so much. Making it as lessons has been confirmed as someone asked if there was a school for this. To me it's really important that it's free so it reaches as many people as possible. So, my main focus in life right now are those videos. I'm learning more then I did without working on these videos and I'm making more connections. I find it utterly fascinating. In addition, I will be trying to have a child starting in November or so...and then I will be on bed rest for awhile so I'll defintely appreciate having the YouTube videos as something to do and I may up the amount I post per week. These are exciting times. I feel lucky to have learned so much and read so much so that I understand what is happening to me. That's exciting. I'm excited to learn to help others with my gift. Yet, maintating my balance in all of this is the most important. I realize I'm a channel for the One Creator to help heal this world and I think that's awesome. At the same time I know that everyone has this ability but few really chose it...because they are looking for someone to save them instead of learning how to save themselves. This is an odd title, I know, but it is something I've run into a few times.
I have to mention David Icke who has an amazing lecture about how people actl ike Robots. This is also partly in response to watching Blade Runner 2049. A lot of people in our world go through life acting like robots made out of meat. They don't look into other people's eyes. They don't want to have human interaction. They seek out place where human interaction is neccesary but then they go into oblivious mode. When at work they tune out their human emotional side and make logical decisions with the only aim to make the company more money. In many ways, we live in a world where humans pretend to be robots just get by ignoring their emotional human side as much as possible. This creates a lot of repressed emotions and results in a lot of people being out of touch with themselves. Naturally, this condition is miserable. History of Being Disposable This is not a new state of being...where we are represented by a number and looked at as a disposable asset. This has been going on since the 1050's at least. There are the nobles and rich who are of value (according to society) and the peons...the peasents who are of no value and can be replaced. They are merely assets that do the jobs that have to be done. We know, in every war, every person is looked at as a disposable asset. They are part of a figure representing many men that is simply moved on a board as a larger strategy that somemone of value makes. Only if someone demonstrates abnormal bravery or behavior that brings their side success are they considered an individual of value by society. Sodliers are made to wear the same uniform. This dehumanizes them. They no longer have an individual personality. Everyone who wears that uniform is expected to act the same. They are tools...not individual beings. For a long time people were serfs in England. They lived and worked the land but did not own it. The land could be taken away from them at any time. They were practically slaves to the lords and ladies set into place by Kings who were given their throne by the Pope. This system existed throughout Europe. As long as people went to Church and gave them what they could the Church was happy. The people that attended the Church were just assets to make Rome stronger. They are referred to the flock...which, agian, causes a person to lose their personal idenitity. They are just white fluffy sheep that all look the same and nothing more. This is an old system. Current Economic View Point I've talked about the predicted labor shortage that did not happen. Around 2005 the government and the economic 'experts' were expecting a labor shortage around 2015. They allowed as many people to come into the United Stats to ease the problem as possible. The generations afeter the Baby Boomers were just too small to take over the jobs left the retiring Baby Boomers held. If a labor shortage had happened, as far as the Government was concerned, their income would be effected. Businesses would be comprimised and would need to have competetive raises and pay rates to get the most talented employees. Food prices would go up. There would be talk of lowering taxes. Government looks at each person as an asset. They need to produce a certain amount of revenue for the Government for the Government to stay in operation. That's all we are to our governments...a source of revenue to keep their pet projects going. Faced with a labor shortage and population shortage the value of this country would have gone down and it would be harder to borrow money. The government would not have been able to continue to run in the excessive way that they currently operate. When it comes to lending our country is already considered a high risk because we continueto expand the deficit and we are likely to default unless our economy and our population don't continue to grow. Banking institutions don't believe they will get their money back (which didn't exist anyway but that's a conversation for another day) and our government exists in it's current state only because of loans. That's why we had the immigrant crises and why there is so much debate about it. That "crises" was intentional and has kept us from a labor shortage. For the citizens the labor shortage would have been great. The quality of lifestyle would have improved and balanced out inflation which has been soaring while wages have remained stagnant for the last thirty years. The government doesn't think about that, of course, because they (like all souless automatons) only care about existing in the same current state with very little change. Science Says We're Disposable Hard science reinforces this belief that people are just assets...just numbers. We're just meatbags. Our consciousness arises from our brains. Once our bodies expire we are gone forever. With that type of mentality of course each person is just a cog in a machine. Cogs can be replaced. If the part isn't what is needed or desired it can be reshaped with a few tools. The problem is it's not that way with human beings at all. Psychology has revealed that 'tools' can't fix the brain or consciousness. Humans are not machines. They require more then just food/fuel to function. In China during the abandonment of all of the baby girls the churchs and orphanages would feed the babies. However, they would not hold them and they would leave them in dark rooms...the sensory deprivation and lack of touch would lead to the baby girl's deaths within days. Souless Automatons There is a old story that in Atlantis there were Automatons created that had no souls. They would do all of the chores and tasks that humans felt were mundane. Well, we have souless Automatons now. Only people become a part of them. Their called omnopolies (corporations that own more then one company but keep the original company they consumed) and government. These entities solely exist with the intent to continue to exist. They are completely and entirely devoid of a soul. They only exist to consume money (which represents human energy) and to grow bigger. The problem is that the people who are a part of these big soulless entities take on Group Think. They live, breath and only exist for the company they are working for...the problem is the primitive nature of these companies. They're on the same level of intelligence as an amoeba. They reinforce the idea that we are just cogs in a big machine...a machine they want to control. We are all replaceable. They don't care about the actors they hire to continue their existence. They don't care about the minor dramas that play out in their halls. If they cut off a finger (a company with a few thousand employees) it can be replaced with a new one. They are zombies that suck the life out of everything they touch. Companies do not care about their customers (only their money) and they do not care about their employees. They only seek to continue to exist. They exist only on the energy that humans produce and return nothing back to the people who work with them or the people who use their product. That's why when they couldn't get cheap disposable labor out of the United States when the unions said each person was of value and should be paid accordingly... they went to other countries where they could exploit other people. A Society Problem Strangely, I realized this when I was watching Blade Runer 2049 and after the Las Vegas shooting. We humanize robots in movies but we dehumanize the human beings we see in every day life. Human beings are given so much. Yet, we don't seem to appreciate what we have been given. We don't value or appreciate each other. We don't honor each other. In todays society we look at other people only as a means to an end. "I have to deal with this teller in order to get the money I want. I want them to be human because you can't intimidate or rationalize with a computer. However, I don't want to recognize them as an individual human being either, so I won't use their name, because then I'd have to realize I was using someone else. Even though this is a bottom rung employee with no power they represent the entire company and I hate them." This is the problem with society. People have been considered disposable for thousands of years. Our current state of government (not the original but the corrupted one lead by lobbyists) and our omnopoly corporations have learned to disguise their intent to a degree. They are one system that is interdependent at this point and leading this country. Yet, they are souless zombies reinforcing the ideat that everyone is just a cog in a machine. People are to be consumed through working for them and give the results of their labor back to them in an endless cycle of exchange where the person is never really compensated in full. The thing is that our current society is so large and so less independent on each other that we do not value each other at all. We don't look at each person as an important component in the overall scheme of life. This has changed since the times of being a serf...becuase back then we had to depend on the network of people with which we resided. We knew our neighbors and if we needed help we went to them because there were maybe a hundred people in a community that we had to deal with on a daily bases. The baker was always the same guy...not a rotating amount of five to ten people and if we didn't like that particular store we could go to another. As long as we think that this world is all that there is and that everyone is disposable we will continue to compete with each other without seeing the value in each other. If we act like meat robots when we interact with strangers and treat strangers as though they are disposable...we reinfroce this belief. If we define peoples value by their job and ourselves by our job....then we also reinforce this belief. Then what does it matter if people are killed in large numbers? They are just numbers. They aren't real or important unless they are a member of government, a CEO or an 'expert.' Only the soulless profit seeking governments and corporations fighting for their continued power and existence are important. They must be preserved at all costs. (Our original government didn't seek profit or taxes). Conclusion The funny thing is if we woke up to the realization that this is current society we can change it in the twinkling of an eye. If we woke up to realize that each human being is as important as the muscles in our own body and that without them society could not function...this belief and the resulting behavior would change the world. We could stop spending money on useless causes and on things we don't want. We could start spending money on things we do want. Will society every choose to see each human being as an important priceless piece of the system with a unique precious gift and function to share with the whole? Will they start behaving in a way that demonstrates this belief? I'm not talking about giving money to the street racketeer with the sign saying he's poor or a non-profit organization which is just a corporation in disguise claiming to help people but who's CEO lives in a mansion. Will society ever wake up to the fact that the government and these corporations have no real value? That thier individual life is far more important that any company they may worship, follow and who's prodcuts they buy? That we could exist without government and corporations... and for our own mental health corporations should not exist at such large levels or have any influence upon our government? Government should only be for the purpose of organizing public resources. They should maintain the roads and infastructure and general order of the society but have no power when it comes to addressing or 'fixing' societies problems. They are only a disposable tool that morphs and changes accordingly in response to society. Our priorities and our values as a society are all backwards. That happens when you place Organizations and Corporations that have no soul on pedestals to be worshipped. That's what happens when 'things' have more value then people. We are robotic slaves of our own choosing because we buy into the system by choice. We perpetuate these values. Someone else has built this ride. We have the choice if we get on it or we can choose to honor the individual spirit of each person we meet. 90is book was absolutely amazing.
I highly recommend Pathways to Bliss From a touching story where Joseph Campbell shares what it was like when George Lucas took him to Skywalker Ranch and showed him Star Wars...to his different reflections on how to define your own personal myth this book is well worth reading more than once. Here are some quotes: "There lives in us...a life wisdom. We are all manifestations of a mystic power; the power of life, which has shaped all life, and which has shaped us all in our mother's womb. And this knid of wisdom lives in us, and it represents the force of this power, this energy, pouring into the field of time and space. But it's a transcendent energy. It's an energy that comes from a realm beyond our powers of knowledge. And that energy becomes bound in each of us- in this body- to a certain commitment. Now, the mind that thnks, the eyes that see, they can become so involved in concepts and local, temporal tasks that we become bound up and don't let this energy flow through. And then we become sick. The energy is blocked, and we are thrown off center; this idea is very similar to the tenets of traditional Chinese and Indian medicene. So the psychological problem, the way to keep from becoming blocked, is to make yourself- and her is the phrase- transparent to the transcendent. It's as easy as that." pg XVII "Of of the problems in our biblical tradtion is that the universe is present in one posited by the Sumerians five thousand years ago; we've had two universe models since then." Pg. 7 "Now, the hierarchy of values that Maslow names corresponds to the these bottom cakras (chakras). These are values that we share with the animals. We have an animal body, though of course it's not the body of a dog or a gazelle, but the body of a human animal. And we live the animal life in the human mode..." Pg. 90" In any case, when I'd finished my lecture up in Seattle, one young lady came up to me, and she said, very seriously, "Oh, Mr. Campbell, you just don't know about the modern generation. We go directly from infancy to wisdom." I said, "That is great. All you've missed is life." pg. 108 "Now, theres the way a rite works- there's something about that business of identifying yourself with something that's happening. There is a story- you may have heard me tell it before- of a samurai. His overlord had been killed, and his vow was, of course, absolute loyal to this lord. And it was his duty now to kill the killer. Well, after considerable difficulties, he finally backs this fellow in a corner, and he is about to slay him with his katana, his sword, which is the symbol of his honor. And the chap in the corner is angry and terrified and he spits ont he samurai, who sheathes his sword and walks away. Now why did he do that? He did that because this action made him angry, and it would have been a personal act to have killed that man in anger, and that would have destroyed the whole event. It is veyr much like this hunting at of the Pygmy. This is a mythological attitude. You are actiong not in the terms of yhour individual, peresonal life but with the sense of yourself as the priest, so to say, of a cosmic power which is operating through you, which we all are in circumstances, and the problem is to balance yourself against that and have a personality at the same time." Pg. 139 There are many more then these but I strongly suggest you read the book for yourself. You can buy Pathways to Bliss at Barnes & Noble and Amazon.
This was one of the most difficult videos I've made. It's not perfect. I think there is at least one spelling flaw, and maybe more...but I chose to post it today regardless. I am tired. I am exhausted. I'm a bit heart weary.
The last two days have been strange. Twice my dreams played out how my day would go (despite twists and turns) and twice my days went in the odd direction of my dreams. Twists and turns that I did not expect but I'm ultimately happy with the outcome. I borrowed a quote from Dr. Strange in this one. I also used the Ghost Picture again in the Jerome Mine...I needed another picture for the Crossing the Threshold. I thought that was an apt choice. I'm not sure many people can see him in that picture. Now that I've seen him I can't unsee him. I find it fascinating. I think one of the reasons this is hard is because I never expected to become a teacher of this stuff. I'm doing these videos because I feel compelled to do so...in attempt to help be the change I want to see in this world. I know that if all of us share our truth, and that truth being of a loving and compassionate point of view based on unity with the One Creator this world will become a better place. I've shared some of my own Hero's Journey in this video...where I explained that I've experienced the Hero's Journey which I associate with Awakening three times. Once in 1998, 2005 and again in 2014. All of which were fascinating times in my life. The next video might be harder then this one...I'll be relating my own personal myth. There are two directions I can go on that...as I feel that my myth has morphed a bit. Perhaps, I should even write a new ending. So, I'll have to come up with the way in which to approach that one. How much should I tell? Should I illustrate only one thing? It's a fascinating question...you'll have to tune in next week to find. With much love and hoping that you find you're life as fulfilling as I find mine I wish you a good day. |
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