The next gem* that I uncovered in Shannon Doreys Master Of Speech isn't based on the Dogon teachings. Instead, in a chapter where she provides evidence for the Sunconscious she provides this fascinating quote from an author names M-L con Franz:
"In his basic view of life the soul is simply a companion referred to as 'The Great Man'...Those Naskapi who pay attention to their dreams and who try to find their meaning and test their truth can enter into a deeper connection with the Great Man. He favors such people and sends them more and better dreams. Thus the major obligation of an individual is to follow the instructions given by his dreams, and then give permanent form to their contents in art." Pg 138 Dorey goes on to explain that dreams are seen in a similar way by the Dogon. I've worked with my dreams since I was 15. I don't have typical dreams. They're usually like movies and have several layers of meaning. I think it's interesting that both the Catholic Church and Science demonize or dismiss dreams. Some research has suggested that people who don't dream are psychotic. I think that's a by-product of not being connected to Spirit. There are a few ways people look at what we are connected to in dreams. Are we just connecting to our Higher Self, the Collective, a different dimension or the Creator? I think it can be any and all of these. Sometimes they're just dreams that rehash our day or repeat something we are trying to learn. Out of body experiences definitely happen too. The two main lessons I've learned when working to receive and interpet dreams has been paitience and discernment. My life is definitely richer with my dreams. My dreams just make life more interesting. I've had too many pre-cognitive dreams and personal breakthroughs to dismiss them. I feel really sorry for those who choose to miss out on this dynamic and intersting part of life.
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I didn't know this was a possibility so I want to share these dreams with you.
I'm sharing this because once you know someone else can achieve something you can achieve it too. We set barriers in our society and agree no one can break the current record. Yet, we've pushed so many. For a long time people believed that no one could run a mile under five minutes. No one believed a plane could break the barrier either. Yet, as soon as one person breaks a limit others start to follow suit. So, I offer this as a way to broaden your perspective. These dreams are relatively rare. I've been working with my dreams since 1995 when I was given my first dream symbols book. I think that's why I have no issue remembering my dreams and they're pretty epic. Just like any skill the more you work with it the more you can develop it and, for all intents and purposes, when you start to show an interest in Spirit...Spirit starts to take an interest in you. Since then I had a short period where I tried to control dreams but that wasn't fun. Since then I've learned to go with the flow of dreams instead of trying to OBE (which gets boring) or direct them. Cave Dream I had this dream in 2015. I've shared this before so I'll keep this brief: In it my husband (who represents my ego) and I entered a cave. There was a shallow stream running through the cave and a lot of spiders. We reached then end of the cave and emerged on a mountain top. To the left was mountains of doughnuts, slurpees and other food. To the right was an ornate Hindu temple. My husband went to the food but I chose the temple. I was shown a past life that I had spent in a Hindu temple. I was taught how to mediate and cleansed. I gave birth to a child and then I was told I had to return to the world below. Interpretation This is the classic dilemma. The Ego wants to fulfill desires and in particular physical desires such as eating. However, I chose the spiritual life which is a lot less indulgent in the physical senses and focuses on mental discipline. The child represents a spiritual rebirth. A potential result of following the spiritual Path is that it transforms a person into a new being. The Sacred Mound Dream This was the start of my obsession with the Bull as a symbol. I believe I had this dream around 2014/2015. In it I floated in spirit form without a body to a big potbelly like mound. (At the time I didn't know the spiritual significance of this symbol or how common they are around the world). I saw that a former teacher I used to follow had made this one out of concrete. As I looked at the mound I saw that two golden screws were loose. One screw said, "In No Cent," and the other said, "Accept The Bull." I tightened the two screws and I was allowed to enter. Interpretation This was a spiritual initiation. I realized, when I told my dream to my husband that the words on the screws were a play on words meaning: Innocent and Acceptable. In other words, in order to be accepted into the mound, which I now know represented spiritual regeneration, a person shouldn't do it to make money. The part about the Bull confused the heck out of me. At first I had a very fear based interpretation that I had to accept the bull which I associated with the Annunaki Enki and with a very born again Christian background that did not sit well. I know understand that I was the bull that was being accepted. I've since studied the symbol in depth over the variety of cultures. I believe the Bull represents the raw material aspect of us...in many ways the undeveloped and untamed mind. In the Jewish tradition the Bull would be the "evil inclination." Another way to look at it is unadulterated desire mind that is only looking for sense gratification. Oneness Dream I shared this dream back in 2017. In this dream a video was being passed around at work. It was said that if a person counted the right amount of people wearing red shirts they would gain superpowers. I have never been fantastic or quick with math because of my dyslexia. Math is a very sore spot for me so I had a negative attitude about getting the number right. People I knew were gathering together and counting the shirts. One explained how a part of the video was in black and white. He was explaining the trick of it when I realized...there was only One person in that video. There is only one person because there is really only divinity here experiencing itself. I went to where here were three rabbits. There was the trickster brown rabbit on the outer circle, a widened skinny gray rabbit hopping in a circle clockwise and a white rabbit as sleep at the center. I picked the brown rabbit up and told it my answer. That the answer was One. The thing looked at me dauntingly and asked if I was sure. I told it absolutely it's One because we are all One with God. The Gray rabbit came to an abrupt halt staring at me in shock. Then the white rabbits eye opened just barely like a slit. Interpretation The red shirt I associate with the Red Pill from the Matrix meaning it represents choosing to know the truth. The three rabbits represent the trinity in whatever form you prefer to recognize it. Regardless of the name's assigned to it the trinity is Source (Absolute Unbounded Oneness), the Creator and Creation (Absolute Unbounded Multiplicity). Laird Scranton makes a good argument in his books that the rabbit in Egyptian hieroglyphs represent vibration. Knowing the true nature of Oneness is a sort of Super Power. Again, you can't use it to profit and you can't dominate other people with it...it's simply a priceless perspective and without it one truly can't proceed forward on the Path of the Seeker or experience the "Fruits of the Spirit." End Of Desire Mind In the dream I was at a store. I walked around the entire store looking at things. I wasn't able to find a single thing that I liked. Instead I decided I wanted to leave. When I went to leave the clerk's insisted I couldn't leave until I bought something. They tried to prevent me from leaving but I managed to get out. Then I was surrounded by angels. They congratulated me for resisting the temptation as I asked what was happening. They then dressed me, arranged my hair and gave me a suitcase even as insisted I wanted none of it. Interpretation Shopping has been a regular recurring dream of mine. I never imagined it was a sort of test to see if I had worked through my desire mind. I think there is a whole blog I can write about this subject. In the past I had interpreted the meaning of these dreams that I had made the wrong choices. Most recently it was with the healing hand. I never imagined the correct decision was not to buy anything! Non-Judgment/Forgiveness I had this dream recently. In it I went with two women to a graveyard. There we were looking at an index card file system to see if someone one of them had known was dead. When we found the name one of the girls started to cry. Turned out she'd been in a car accident and had killed the girl. I asked if she had be drunk. She said yes and I couldn't pass judgement on that. A nearby woman had been listening to us and was about to chew out mu companion but I turned to her and said: "Do not judge her. Everyone makes mistakes." The woman was silenced and we left. Interpretation I'm not sure what my companions or the graveyard represents. This dream mostly drew my attention to the fact that I have reached a point where I don't really judge others. Everyone makes mistakes. Non-judgement is huge! Optimist I had this dream recently. I was debating how to approach the virus subject in my Coronavirus Reflections Blog. There are legitimate reasons why current events could inspire fear and pessimism. Yet, I decided to be optimistic. After all, I've seen that the systems that we had in place were unhealthy for years...and really it's falling apart in a fairly gentle way. In the dream I was celebrating with my four guides. Two men and two women. I was told by the leader, "Do you know hard it was for me to turn you into an optimist?" Interpretation This dream is simple. Again, it's a big milestone. In it I realized that I've become optimistic and this is a huge life lesson. For most of my life I've been a pessimist and severely depressed. I know some people can spend an entire life time trying to achieve this one...that I've achieved it in this life is huge. As time continues I've begun to forget what it feels like to be depressed. Conclusion These dreams of spiritual achievement are pretty awesome. I've never heard anyone else talk about them so I wanted to share these as an example. When I dream about achieving these spiritual milestones I see them as my soul achieving these goals. Dreams are a little like an interface where we work with ourselves...and since our actions come from our most authentic core of soul identity the choices we make in our dreams are a direct indication of our spiritual state. Just like meditation and quieting the mind I didn't really believe any if these feats were possible. I thought they were unachievable abstract ideas...not achievable goals. deas...not achievable goals. However, I can now say with certainty that they are achievable. Thank you, brave soul, for exploring this avenue on the Path of the Seeker with me! Sending you infinite love and support on your journey! This another blog that is tough to share.
I'm so sensitive to this subject...it's like a barely scabbed over wound. I'm writing this more for self-exploration and to see if I can make sense of it. I have no idea what to make of this or the third cycle of dreams I'll discuss near the end that has not finished playing out. These are just weird folks but they were a big part of what I experienced during the Saturn/Pluto Conjunction. I can't remember the timeline of when they occurred but it was between Christmas and New Years of 2019. They are pretty epic though and like so many of my dreams could be turned into a pretty awesome book. That's where the inspiration for my Merosis books (my neurosis) came from...I would literally dream the next chapter, wake up and write it down! The Higher Self Dream I had this one back in December 2014. I've shared it before...in it I was on a space ship looking over the Earth. I could see the Earth from the viewing window that took up the entire Eastern wall. My Higher Self was the Captain of this ship. A man stood at attendance to her left. I went up and very self-consciously said hello and gave her a compliment. I learned during that meeting that to her Earth was like Disneyland. She never knew where the ride would take her. She very much enjoyed the experience even if the Avatar- like me- experienced pain. I saw a possible future version of myself that she had been working on wearing a shirt with the American Flag on it with short hair that looked very ragged. She looked like she'd been through heck. That version of me told me thank you because she was no longer needed and had a become her it would have been a very hard experience. Then I saw my Grandma Emma at the threshold about to cross over and I knew that she was probably going to die. The dream was very surreal and carried more information then that but this cycle of dreams has to do with my Oversoul. The Cyborg Dream In this dream I was on a space ship. Inside it looked like a paradise with a pool and people floating down lazy rivers. People were having barbecues and it was just a lovely place. I saw myself lying on a gurney with two people near my feet and above my body was a holographic image of what looked like a monstrous cyborg woman. She was the Captain of this ship. I recognized, somehow, that it was a projection of a potential future version of my Higher Self. As I turned I was shown a terrible event where all of the people on the ship were struck by a wave of energy and a lot of people died on the ship. This was purposefully done by the 'captain' cyborg thing that was super ugly and scary. I knew I should have been terrified and horrified that I could become the thing. I was neither. Instead I was strangely accepting and fascinated. I actually felt sorry for it though it was no longer even remotely human. I looked at the man and woman that were showing all of this to me and said, "Well, it's a good thing this isn't going to happen." I understood that they needed something from me so that it didn't happen and offered it to them which seemed to surprise them. I knew that the future was going to be altered by these two beings so that the devastation would never happen. Before that happened my eyes fell on a screen on the first floor, we were on a platform above it, and ont the screen was the ocean. I started to go down to it lost in memory, "I remember when they first arrived..." The man went to stop me but the woman told him, "Let her go." I recalled seeing humanoid like beings coming out of the ocean like a distant memory. That's all foggy to me now but I was sad that memory would be lost somehow because of whatever was happening. The woman said to the man over my head, "It was a mistake John." As though to say that the destruction of all of those people had been a mistake on the part of my Oversoul. I had the feeling they thought that I would be a monstrous person in this incarnation and they were shocked that I'm not. The Quantum Dream I know this dream happened the following night. It felt as though it was a continuation of the first dream and how that potential future was averted. In this dream I was in a doctors waiting room with my husband. We sat to the west of the room. Against the North wall of the room was a man that looked a lot like one of my favorite male comedians (whom I won't name). He was accompanied by a man laying on his back on a stretcher that was engulfed in a black cloud and was writhing in agony. I commented to the guy that looked like one of my favorite comedians that he looked like the comedian. He got a look of distress on his face and said, "I know." I told him it was a good thing and explained that was a trait that had attracted me to my husband. He looked at me in amazement looking encouraged, "Really?" but then he looked down at his friend and looked horrified. Then the nurse came in and said something along the lines that there was no one willing to donate to the man on the stretcher as she made eye contact with me. I looked down at the man on the stretcher and stood up. His eyes were closed and he said, "No one will ever forgive me." "I'm a universal blood donor," I told him, "I promise you're going to be okay." The next thing I know I was on a gurney and a direct blood transfusion was going on. I looked up at the nurse who told me I was doing great and I realized her name tag said, "Q is best!" Then I woke up. Conclusion I don't know what these dreams mean exactly. I really think it's weird that I have started to read things in my dream. That's a new experience. I used to try to read things and wasn't able to but now I can. I think perhaps these dreams have to do with Shadow Integration. I wasn't phased by either of them in the dream although it felt as though the other character's in the dreams really felt like I should be. Both men in the dream could represent my Animus- the 'light side' and 'dark side' and by the transfusion the part that was 'in shadow' was healed. That shadow went away. The only other idea has to do with the Timeline Wars theory. I heard about this, and that we are collapsing Timelines now that the War is over thanks to Glacia Rain. You can find her channel on Youtube just by typing in that name. This wild theory is that back in Atlantis (where the first individualization took place) there were experiments with creation (something Athena Perkins also believes based on her Ayuhasca journeys). Some of those experiments were with Artificial Intelligence and the result were Timeline wars. You can read a fascinating account of that here: https://ascensionglossary.com/. Just to warn you this link is not for the faint of hearts and it's a really big rabbit hole. I don't know how I feel about it but there seems to be a bit of truth to what he talks about and it actually makes sense of something things I've always been curious about. The author is not the best and I don't know who wrote this glossary...but that will get you started with the Timeline Wars. The first set of dreams that I want to share with you that came to an end with the December 25 2019 Solar Eclipse in Capricorn was a major cycle of dreams that I've had as long as I can remember. As I said elsewhere, I'm a Capricorn Ascendant and Moon making my astrological chart very heavy in Earth energy. Capricorn, people may be surprised, is a feminine astrological sign. (Just a quick recap, people are familiar with their sun sign- mine is Cancer- but you can look up your ascendant and moon sign at astro.com to find what element is heaviest in your chart). My South Node also falls in Capricorn which according to modern astrology means that is an energy my soul is working on releasing in this life. Knowing all of this information does explain why this particular eclipse knocked me on my butt and why so many dream cycles reached a sort of conclusion- especially this big one.
(The above image is from Mt. Rubidoux in Riverside California January 12 2020).
As some of you may have noticed I went absent around December and popped up again recently. This was partly to do with the fact that I couldn't find the charger for my laptop and partly to do with the fact I was in a bit of a crisis for a while. This blog is about to get weird. I'm just letting you know right now. If you are not into the weird esoteric right brain not so logical side of spirituality that is not based in hard science like thought...it's time for you to bail. For those of you willing to walk on the wild side thank you an advance for giving this even a moments thought. I'm being very vulnerable in writing this as I am more of a left brain logical thinker thanks to the 'conditioning' (programming) of my college education that is heavy in the patriarchal yang energy that has dominated the planet. I am not a hard core feminist. To get ahead in this world I adopted a very masculine approach. I've done hard labor loading trailers. I could keep up with the best of the guys. I was very much of the Group Think when I was younger. Having studied the Divine Masculine and Feminine I don't think they could exist without one another. In a world where there is only one masculine God portrayed by multiple religions that will kill those who do not believe in it...it's hard to be someone who appreciates both archetypes. I am guilty of blaming my husband, originally, for the crisis I went through in December through the first part of January. I thought it was brought on by stress. He was home for two weeks and we had a lot of meaningful family engagements occurring during those two weeks.Things had been ramping up between us as he continues to be secretive. I had planned way in advance for Christmas 2019 because I was hoping to be pregnant and that it would go smoothly. Instead it was pretty awful. Thankfully, although originally disappointed by it, I wasn't pregnant because that would have made that time period and this Coronavirus experience so much worse. Everything is in Divine Order! A Little Background The events started with the end of a cycle of dreams that I had since I was a small child. I have already written that blog and it will follow this one. While it is with great trepidation that I say this- I think the crises was brought on by something spiritual. I am guilty of being a bit of a bliss bunny. I focus on the positive side of the spiritual experience. I have no desire to feed the perceptions of duality or the battle of good vs. evil/ light vs darkness. My research and internal explorations (highly influenced by psychology) have led to the fact that I now believe there is no way to 'win' such a war...and knowing that we are all One at the level of the One Creator there is no doubt within my mind that the only way to end such a conflict is not the Yang energy of battle but the Yin battle of receptivity...in other words integrating the shadow By integration the Shadow on our level of Creation we are literally deconstructing all of the levels that have been in a non-violent but loving manner, through many spiritual belief systems, been associated with Hell and helping to create 'a new heaven' just as Yeshua prophesied. I honestly believe the Earth Plane is a bit of a cosmic gate way to the Heavenly Realms and the Hell Realms. The Hell Realms, in essence, were created by the though forms of human beings that didn't know they were Creators. That's not a new idea- the concept of Midgard on the Nordic tree of life is well known even if that religion was utterly destroyed. The idea that we are Creators that created the Hell Realms and had to be sealed away from the rest of the Tree of Life is not new either as the Jewish Kabbalah hints at that (and perhaps some dark teachings say it out right but those are probably oral or not something you could buy on Amazon). I bypassed all of those levels of the Tree of Life and went straight to the One Creator who is both Light and Dark. Both A.U.O. (Absolute Unbounded Oneness) and A.U.M. (Absolute Unbounded Multiplicity). The Light is often associated with the Male Yang principal that creates via ideals and the darkness with the Receptive Yin energy that is latent potentiality of everything. In computer terms you could call the Yin energy the Operating System that runs in the background and the Yang the code that creates the specific applications (Apps) with the result being our reality. Yet, the Yin and Yang are not the One Creator that is composed of both qualities. I recognize that there has been a battle between the Darkness and the Light. I don't when it started or how long it has been going on. I believe the idea of Shadow Work has ended that war. What we are now seeing is the birth of something new as a result of that war ending. Of course, it's all within Divine Timing because it coincides with the Astrology. The Astrology The energy of Rebirth is potent for everyone right now. Those of us who have strong Capricorn and Cancer in the charts are really experiencing this energy. If you read my Jupiter/Pluto conjunction blog where I sought to provide as much information for your own evaluation of 'The Event'....I was not a believer! I was very much a skeptic. The entire reason I started paying attention to Astrology was to study the classic 7 planets and their symbols. I didn't get into it because I thought it was predictive or had much to do with our personal lives. That our fortune could be told in the Stars seemed a fairy tale. Having dived into the symbolism of astrology (which is deeply related to alchemy) I became absolutely fascinated. Well, my skepticism went out the window on December 25th. (I think the skepticism of many people went out the window because of the Coronovirus.) On December 25th we had Capricorn Solar Eclipse. On January 10th we had a Cancer Lunar Eclipse Then we had the Saturn/Pluto Conjunction in Capricorn on January 12th Right now the North Node is in Cancer. Now the North Node is not actually a celestial body but a hypothetical spot based on "points where the moon goes nor or south of the equator" (Granny Rainbow, High School Astrology pg 131). The North Node, hypothetically, is where we are heading in our evolution...the direction we are going towards in our lives. Right now we are headed to this very Yin Mothering energy. In Vedic astrology the North Node is called Rahu and it's the head of a demon. The head is eternal because the demon swallowed the elixir of immortality before being killed. I will go into some speculation and synchronization with this myth in a much longer blog. The South Node, naturally, is in the opposite House of Capricorn. The South Node is what we are leaving behind or letting go of as the past. In Vedic astrology it's called Ketu. This is, in evolutionary astrology, what we are leaving behind. As you can tell the energy right now on the cosmological level is all focused on Cancer and Capricorn. Both are Yin (Feminine/Receptive Energy) signs. Cancer is the Sign of the Mother. Capricorn is the sign of Structure. My Personal Astrological Correspondence To The Current Astrology The reason I probably got slammed by this cosmic energy is obvious when I look at my chart. First, there is my Sun Sign. The Sun Sign is the one that everyone is familiar with because it's the one that you would find in the Newspaper. I am a Cancer Sun Sign. Within Cancer is my North Node. That means that my entire life has been heading in the direction of being a mother. Also, when I was born there was a complete Lunar Eclipse which means the light of the sun could not reach the Moon because it was blocked by the Earth. The moon was literally cut off from the sun.I think that's very interesting. I have never really heard a good explanation for what that means although I probably will later this year (as the same event is occurring on July 4th!). Second, my Ascendant and Moon sign is Capricorn. Obviously, a Moon Sign means that the moon was in the sign of Cancer. The ascendant is a little bit different. That was the sign on the horizon when I was born. Add to that the fact that my South Node is in Capricorn and I have that much more energy in the sign of Capricorn. I also have Black Moon Lilith (the first wife of Adam) and Juno (Eve in the bible or Hera in Greek mythology) in Capricorn which is an entirely different complex subject I won't touch on here.I will say it gives that sign an added dose of feminine energy and weight. Also, my chart is something called an 'Interception' meaning that I am missing certain astrological houses (Aquarius and Leo) and I have particular Astrological houses twice. My Interception is Cancer/Capricorn. So Capricorn is both my 1st house of identity and 12th house of 'undoing.' My fifth and sixth houses are Cancer. So, I have twice as much energy in these two house which are super activated right now. Oh, and Saturn and Pluto are conjunct in my chart. From what I can gather based on the Astrologers I listen to (Acuyta Bhava Daas, Anastasia the Cosmic Astrologer, Molly Mccord and the Leo King David Palmer) this means that I am undergoing one heck of a dismantling and rebirth of identity (1st house) and in the 12th house which Granny Rainbow in High School Astrology relates as "Ocean, Oneness, infinity, return to Source) or in other words Soul/Subconscious. At the same time there is a lot going on in my 6th house (Integration/Career) and 7th house (Partnership/Marriage). Based on all of that it makes absolute sense that I'm getting my butt kicked by this Eclipse Season. What Happened? Well, to start off with I had two dreams. The first dream I will go into detail in the next blog (End Of A Dream Cycle #1). In that dream an ever present character in my dreams (referred to as my brother but not my physical brother) was removed. That dream honestly had me floating on cloud nine. That dream coincided with David Palmer saying that he was seeing a split in the Collective Consciousness.That has to do with the splitting of timelines and what people call 5th dimensional Earth and 3rd dimensional Earth. I've talked about Timelines elsewhere and I will touch on this briefly in the next blog. The Failed Student Dream This one freaked me out. I had another dream which I will go into detail here. I was in a Muslim classroom tutoring a girl as she worked on answering a quiz. I knew that I was a tutor for all of the classrooms. I looked up because one of the students, dressed in the colors of Iran's flag, slammed down his book. I knew that he was being expelled from the school never to return because he had failed. He had done something very wrong that would lead to a lot of deaths, and in particular, the death of a lot of people in his own country. I was horrified by this and looked up at his teacher telling him, "This is all your fault. You're a terrible teacher." The Teacher replied, "Who are you to say that to me?" When I told him who my teacher was (which I wasn't allowed to hear so I knew I was replying but I don't know what that reply was- this happens often) he went pale. I woke up in a cold sweat. I told my husband, my Dad and my Mom about this dream. I theorized that he would set off a nuclear bomb that would fail because that's the only way I could see so much death, especially in Iran, as a result. I also knew 'the student' would die. For me the Classroom symbol, as I hinted at in my Earth Is An Incubator Blog, doesn't represent the Earth to me. Instead, it represents the Spiritual Realm we go after we die. This realm (described in books like Journey of Souls) is a little like Limbo. We study there and prepare before we are cycled back into the Earth experience. So, this person wasn't just killed physically- he was expelled from the entire cycle of reincarnation. That never really happens. Well, this turned out to be predictive. Qassim Sulemani was killed by a drone strike right after and I believe he was the one from the dream. That really freaked me out. Add to that the fact that Iran has been ravaged by the Coronavirus with a huge death toll considering it's small size. Christmas Day I knew I was not doing too well on Christmas Eve but I still made it to my parents and celebrated Christmas. I remember showing my mother all of the Grounding Rocks I had. I told her I was having major anxiety and about the Failed Student Dream and what I'm calling the Levitation dream. My mom knew I wasn't doing well because I didn't take pictures and I actually sat down and watched the television. When I enter this altered state, which is what I have to call it, everything suddenly makes sense. The synchronicity is off the charts and it's like a queasy dream. I say queasy because it's similar to feeling like I have motion sickness. I've entered it before at acutely stressful periods in my life and usually in March not December. I will get into this very uncomfortable topic in End Of A Dream Cycle #2. Christmas Day, sense I was in this altered state of consciousness, I was babbling. My husband pretty much quarantined me to my room. He thought I had been sleeping and didn't realize that the state of being (we call it crises mode) was because of my dreams. He gave me sleeping pills but they didn't have any effect. The end result was I pretty much missed Christmas except for some awkward moments here and there. I mostly spent it crying because I felt this really deep sorrow and fear. I was able to distance myself from the experience and become the observer during this time. I became aware that my husband reflected back to me a similar state. He was in a crises himself with an altered state of consciousness where time and events went just as weird but he would not consciously admit it. He does admit that he doesn't remember much about those two weeks. This altered state of consciousnesses slowly wore off and was pretty much at an end on January 12th. The Saturn/Pluto Conjunction I really wanted to get out of the house so we went to a bunch of places while I was in crisis. One was the a beautiful Nature Preserve in Long Beach. On the actual day of the Saturn/Pluto Conjunction, however, I climbed a mountain. I let the husband decide where we were going to go (I was pretty much just along for the ride at this point). We went to Mount Rubidoux in Riverside. The experience was surreal. I was pushing my daughters stroller. People blessed me for pushing the stroller up the steep path of the mountain. My daughter had a blast. One African American woman stopped me and said she knew that my daughter was a Miracle Baby. I had Michelle dressed in boys clothes (dinosaurs) because I didn't want any of her lighter girly clothes to get stained by dirt if she ended up playing while we were there. At the top of this Mountain was a huge open air cathedral with a cross. Apparently, back in the day it was the location everyone went to (including celebrities) for Easter Service. (Strange that I am writhing this on April 11th 2020, the day before Easter). The location was absolutely stunning. I couldn't help but think of the connection with Capricorn and the Goat. The symbol of Capricorn is of the Sea-Goat. The story (you can look it up under the mythology section of Capricorn in Wikipedia) goes that the Constellation is of Amalthea- the Sea Goat that suckled Zeus when his mother Rhea threw him into the sea to keep him from being eaten by Kronos (I love the name Rhea and actually had a character in one of my books named that. I had no idea it was a part of a myth!). The constellation is also said to be Pricus. Pricus was the father of the Sea Goats (half fish and half goat). His children would climb out of the sea and up a mountain eventually becoming normal goats. Kronos (Saturn) had given him a device so that he could turn back time to bring his children home. Eventually, he gave up on keeping his children in the sea and asked to die but was turned into the constellation of Capricorn instead. The Sea-Goat is seen as very stubborn, as you can tell and climbs that mountain! So, to find myself climbing a mountain to a place that was idealized version of where Christ was crucified was very symbolic. Conclusion The Saturn/Pluto Eclipse Sandwich was a difficult experience for me. However, as usual, I learned a lot very rapidly and I was grateful that I was able to 'regain my seat' as it were. My dreams have been very prophetic recently. In one dream I was in a hospital that was being burnt down. I had been trying to keep it from burning and save everything in it along with another girl. We both admitted that the fire was coming and there was nothing we could do. Then the fires in Australia happened. I don't know what to think of having prophetic dreams other then they are a bit of a nuisance. Yes, it's a great demonstration to me personally that it is possible and spirit is real. All of this stuff I've been studying has really brought a deep magical component to my life. I don't blame my studies for the altered states I experience from time to time. I think they would have happened anyway. Instead, I'm grateful because without my studies I wouldn't be able to recover so quickly. Oh, and in this time period I went onto Facebook. I was thinking it would be a good way to connect with readers but boy was that a mistake. I had hundreds of friend requests from Muslims all over Europe and those I added tried to add some of my friends who are pretty. I received multiple messages from those friends and family members believing I had been hacked. So I deactivated my account (it has since been restarted) but I'm not on there. I have no explanation for that experience. I did start an Instagram and I pop on there at least once a week to post a weekly Stone to set the tone for the week. For example, this last week was Mahogany Obsidian. This gorgeous stone is known as the Warrior Stone. The stone is very protective and grounding. I keep these stones in my Medicine Bag that I always carry so that I'm in the energetic field. I draw the stones out of a small box that I have as a kind of natural oracle as opposed to oracle cards (I only pull a Animal Medicine Card on the New Moon to help me know the theme of the current lunar cycle). In these ways I've become more in tune with the Cosmic ebb and flow of life...and I'm starting to recognize the patterns as well as the cause and effect more easily. Thank you for joining me on the Path of the Seeker. I promise it is not always as weird as this blog or the next two. I really try to ground all of this in a practical left brain sort of fashion but there are spiritual experiences that just don't fall into that category. Sending you infinite love and support in your subjective reality experience! his dream was odd but so worth sharing.
It felt like Ghost In A Shell, The Matrix and Captain Marvel mixed together. I don't know what it means. Sometimes I don't interpret the dream but just let it be... I think of them as a short stories. The Dream I was upstairs in my house with my husband. He was smoking and there was a lot if cigarettes smoke. I have asthma and can't breath cigarette smoke. I have no problem with incense but then I always make sure I'm downwind of it. Here thought, it was this thick cloud and I couldn't wave it away. I looked at him in shock and horror, "Since when do you smoke?" I had ex's and friends who smoked but my husband hates smokers. So, it was horribly wrong. I went downstairs and encountered something that was equally bizarre. On a brick stand was a 1950's wooden television. Now my grandmother's and my aunt had one of those but I certainly never did. Ross was somehow already down there so I looked at him and said, "Since when do we have a wooden nineteen fifties television?" He looked at me in surprise with his lips pursed. He was amused for some reason. Disgusted with these bizarre inaccuracies I went out into the backyard to get away from him. At this point I knew I was in a dream. I saw my dog Angel, along with two other dogs that have passed named Buddy and Snowball. I knew that his dream had been really bizarre and things were off but I got down on one knee and opened my arms for Angel to come to me. As she ran up to me I saw her coloring as all off. Instead of her white with gold (buff, they call it in dog competitions) she was gold with weird dark brown coloring. I decided I didn't care so I was going to pet her anyways but... Everything went dark and I felt intense pressure. I blinked and found myself looking up into the eyes of a man in a white lab coat. I had the weirdest idea that I had just been born and he'd delivered me. He smiled at me and asked if I was okay. I simply nodded. Then he sent me onto a conveyor belt that turned into a spiraling chute. I popped out into a school yard like area. It was fenced in and everyone there seemed hushed. I can't explain it but it felt like an area where people go to recover. Don't ask me what they were recovering from. They ere all dressed in gray long shirts that were slightly reminiscent of hospital gowns.w A woman told me, "I'm glad we found you in time. Another group with a..." here she paused as though carefully weighing her words, "...perspective...was looking for you." She put a glove on my right hand and the palm was separated into three plastic screens. One at the top right had letters and numbers, one at the bottom was for inputting data and on the top left was a map with three squares. "You have access to these three sectors...for now." She left and someone came up to peer at me from the side saying, "I wanted to cone to see you myself because everyone is saying how beautiful you are." That confused me as I stood looking out over this fenced in yard wondering what the hell I had just experienced. I was completely aware I was dreaming. The Other Dream This dream seemed to reference something that occurred in a previous dream. I'll just cover a small snippet of that. In the dream I was trying to rescue something. Three 'bad guys' had tripped me. I was wearing a hood in the dream but when I went to get up from being tripped something weird happened. The only 'bad guy' that I had a look at was one that looked like Darth Maul and he said, "Who are you? You're so beautiful." My thought was, "What the heck," because I don't consider myself beautiful. I have always had severely warped ideas about my body type and my looks. That's something I can't figure out. I'm happy with my weight and looks but I have features I find unattractive in others. The Darth Maul dude told one of the others to stay with me as he and someone else ran off to tell their leaders. Seeing that I had the opportunity since there was only one person guarding me I escaped. Conclusion I always find it fun when a couple nights dreams are interconnected. I don't know the meaning of these two but thought they would make a good story. I've felt a bit different since the rebirth dream. I don't know if it's just the astrological energy or something else...but either way I hope this was entertaining for you. "Dreams Are Answers To Tomorrow's Questions." - Edgar Cacye
Well, why hadn't I heard that statement before? I know dreams can be boring but I assure you...this is going to be a bit interesting. I've never heard of anything like this one... With this in mind I was contemplating a healing I had this past weekend. I was not terribly happy with the healing. I left feeling bruised and uncomfortable. The healer told me, that when working on me, she discovered that I had been leaving my body through my crown chakra. That was not the portal I was supposed to be using. I was supposed to be using the portal in my heart chakra. I just about had a heart attack. I had a dream that I relayed to both my friend Jennifer Lara and Diana Dire who have been tremendously uplifting hand helpful. I consider them soul sisters. Never did I think this dream would come to fruition in such a fascinating way. I knew the dream was of importance and I thought it was beautiful...but the second dream had a fascinating and almost...scary...bit of information. Dreams often happen in series. Multple dreams in one night are usually interelated. I've remembered and recorded up to seven dreams in one night. I know, you would never think that you might have that many but it's just a fact. At this point I've recorded 101 days of dreams. This dream was June 2nd of 2017...about two months ago. Here is my entry: "I was at this place. Like a funhouse. You walk into it and whatever you expect to see the walls change into...there were walls made up of every type of rock set into frames. There were differented sized doors in different parts of the walls...sometimes they were hard to find. The experience was a little scary because I realized that you can trap yourself and not know what is real. I overcame a couple of obstacles. I began to create doors where I wanted them to be and was marveling at how I could pass through what had appeared to be dead ends into new rooms. Then I encounted a womand and realized she was testing me. I didn't want to be tested so I created a portal to escape the fun house, a tiny little door that I had to crawl out of and into a green meadow. Then, I was transported back into the fun house abruptly. I heard a woman's voice tell me that my portal was closed. That was not what I was supposed to be doing. I was supposed to be showing people how to navigate the illusion. The illusions completely fell away. I saw it for what it was...made up of shoddy brown construction materials. There was nothing pretty, scary or magical about it at all. I was pretty grossed out as I walked on the spongey carpet matting that wasn't even nailed down yet and stared at the unadorned beams. I reached one girl in a hallway. I told her that it was all an illusion and there was a way through it. I don't think she saw through the illusion but she started following me and I knew that she would comprhend what I was doing soon. Then I came to another that had made a cage for herself...she wanted me to scratch my left cheek to show I was real so I did but she couldn't stop making illusions. I touched her fingers as she seemed to sink into the cage she made that was fillwed with water and I saw the waves slosh as she went down. Then I woke up...and when I went back to sleep... "I remember I picked up a book and it said, 'If you can read this it means you already made a pact with him.'" Explaination Now, at the time, when I told my two friends about this dream both identified themselves as being the one drowing in her own box...of beliefs. I've realized since making my videos that the symbols I go to create in videos are right out of my dreams. The box of beliefs...well, that's what this perseon had created for herself and she couldn't see a wI ay out of what she had created. We've all been there, where we can't see how we are going to create our way out of a situation of our own making. That's a hard experience. The creepy part, for me, though is the portals. Beause the healer I talked to told me that she had closed the portal that I had created and that I needed go through the heart chakra. I had total Deja vu at that moment and a memory of the dream. Further, I had a dream, two nights later. At first, I was fighting what felt like an entity that was on my heart...some sort of essence I can't explain. That had been there since the healer had done her healing. I felt that essence of energy depart from my heart...I sent it happily back to the healer knowing it was her energy that she had stuck to me...was that the test? That night, in that dream I saw myself floating down a river looking as though I was dead towards a male figure that looked like my ex-husband. Let's just say that's a bad symbol for me. This was symbolic of where I had been going...realizing where I was going I said, "OH Heck no!" swam out of the river and woke up. So, now knowing that dreams are answers to tomorrows questions...based on this dream I can almost bet that healer was testing me. When I walked into the room she had asked if I was a healer and explained people can heal in different ways. She explained that she knows an accountant that is a healer. I may just be healing by making my cups of java with the utmost of love for each of my customers. That might be what brings certain customers back to me. Further, now being ableto tie my dreams to a particular date...perhaps my dreams after that point will point me in the direciton of what will come. There is a deeper teaching, that everything starts off with the essence of our being on a template level by our higher selves...and then "later" occurs in our lives. First, it's created in the template reality (I suppose we would call this Eden) and then it becomes part of our material world. Dreams may be where we are in touch with that template reality and actively create, with our higherselves, what will happen tomorrow. Conclusion A dedicated practice of working with dreams can be life changing. I find it eastiest to just record them on a word processor and put them in a file with the date of the dream as the title. First, upon waking, I do an overview of my dreams remembering particular symbols that stood out the most. Then I get up and write them down on the processor before I go about my day so none of my waking thoughts can analyze the dream. Sometimes my writing is terrible and later on my entertained because I do not write the dreams in a voice that matches my waking conscious writing style. Now, I am going to perform a little experiment to see if the timing continues to be correct...where items I've covered in my dreams show up in waking life and if the delay is really two months. Because if that's true...it's freaking awesome. Above is one of my original drawings. I made this in the depth of my depression after my daughters passing. The idea behind it is seeking deep into the water of the Earth and then allowing that to grow upward into a lotus. According to John Van Auken the open lotus held the scent of the heaven that we follow home. In this drawing I meant to invoke that by drawing Spirit down into me and grounding it into this world. At the time I didn't know the sun that I drew was a really accurate depiction of the 4 emanations of existence according to the traditions of Kabbalah.
* * * I was going to change subjects. I have some really amazing blogs that I wrote while deeply inspired this week. Yet, this Beast subject and what it means continues to be something that comes up in my daily life validating the insights provided by my dreams. I may end up adding updates until the summer on this subject. "In Revelation, when the disciple Jon sees the number 666, he knows what it symbolizes and why it is called the number of the beast: because it is the lower mind that never seeks higher consciousness and is not willing to endure the sacrifice necessary to reach such higher awareness. That sacrifice is symbolized in the number of the cross- 777- upon which one must "crucify desire" in self that your real potential may be realized." (John Van Auken, 2010 and Edgar Cacye reading 2475-1). Here is validation of what I had come to understand regarding the beast. The Sacral, or the adrenaline fueled chakra, is where the lower mind tends to dwell. This is why most people are on survival mode. Most people stay attuned to their earthly needs and rarely seek spiritual knowledge. Most, when they seek spirituality go too far and form an imbalance by becoming Monks/Priests/Nuns and trying to fully repress their human nature. Striking a balance is hard. Chakra Dreams Let me begin by explaining I think that my progression working with the chakras has been abnormal. Based on my research most people start off by awakening their lower chakra and ascending upward. I, however, was the opposite. My upper three chakras have always been opened (save when I turned my back on spirituality) and I have always been able to 'tune into' the Oneness. This might have to do with what the regressionist who first discovered this when attempting to heal me (and subsequently caused a real imbalance because I hadn't worked through the issues locked in those lower chakras) I may not have fully become grounded in this life for fear I'd have another experience as I did in my last life. In that life I was murdered and suffered a great deal...this time my spirit was ready to depart on a moments notice instead of suffering as the body died slowly as it did in that life. I have already covered the dreams in which I was shown that the lower chakra's were 'the beast.' Yet, it wasn't the scary beast most people conjure in their nightmares. In fact, it is just the animal like nature and instincts of our bodies. In a blog post where I was studying passages in the bible regarding the Kingdom of Heaven I discovered Jesus says often that we must 'overcome.' What are we overcoming? Sure some might say Satan but that's just another name for the beast...I feel he's talking about overcoming our human/animal like nature. Another dream theme that was co-current with the following were letting three strays into my house. I had many dreams with that as a theme. This was followed by a dream of adopting two children. To me this means I'm 'owning' or starting to integrate what these lower chakras symbolize. I realize this topic is intensely personal to me. They might not be of interest to the general public. Yet, the interesting parallel between me working with these energies as it crops up as a theme in movies is interesting. So, I offer this as a curiosity and little more. Dream One: Driving Down To The Three Chakras (3/8/17) I drove down a dirt road where a lot of people I love live. I was driving on the paved highway and I saw a man driving a truck down a parallel dirt road. He was going too fast and I heard a terrible pop. He had a flat tire. He stopped where the two roads met just before the road where everyone lived. I was going to offer to call AAA but he was on a cell phone probably getting help himself. Two other people were also with him on their cells phones. Both might have been women. They watched me apprehensively when I passed by. The first house was an old man. I knew him. He gave me something like a pressure washer. I then watered his yard. The second house I remembered as a kid. The feeling is similar to when you find something in a box you forgot about from the past. I thought Oh! I remember when I was a kid I would visit this house and go into a back room. There I would remove a metal strip from the old box freezer and place it on my forehead. This would cause the entire area along my spine to freeze. I remember leaving the door open and that it was so cold in that room I could see my breath. The third house was my Grandma Emma's house. I knew it had been sold in real life (this is where lucid dreaming can be interesting because things you know in the waking world influence how you perceive the dreaming world). There was a black dog that was friendly inside a kiddy gate with a little baby girl that looked like me when I was a toddler. The dog didn't care I was there as I watered the roses by the front door. It was when I saw a quilt that Grandma Emma made getting wet on the rocking chair by the kiddy gate that gate I got angry. I went in and the women living in my Grandma's house had many of Grandma Emma's things. There were four pictures of my relatives asleep tied with blue ribbon from a curtain rod. There was Grandma Alta, Grandma Emma and my Aunt Ruthie. All of them were sleeping, I don't know who the fourth was because I didn't get a very good look at that picture (that's Spirit's way of hiding things). There were more of my G. Emma's quilts pinned to the walls as decorations. I saw an old lady and I commented that she had a lot of my Grandma Emma's things. She even looked like Grandma Emma though I didn't realize it in the dream. My Grandma Emma has crossed over after all and the house is sold so my waking consciousness that was aware of the dream rejected that idea. The woman shared that she was watching her granddaughter. I asked the woman if I could take the pictures of Grandma Emma, Aunt Ruthie and, Grandma Alta. After all, those were my family members and didn't belong to her. I thought she must have found them in the garage. She said no. She liked those photos. I decided to ignore her and undid the first blue ribbon. When she protested I I went to give her a stack of cash. I wanted to give her a thousand dollars. I maybe had a couple hundred and that was not enough. I couldn't make the money manifest as I usually can in my lucid dreams. This dream wasn't responding which frustrated me. I decided to give her an IOU. She had a stack of green time cards that shone like emeralds in her hands. She said they were too old for me to use to pay the debt. I told her that I could use them. Interpertation I know from the dream that I was driving down and I know based on the symbolism of the third house that it was my Root Chakra. I recognized in previous dreams that my Grandma Emma represents to me a very worldly person. That was the key for me really unlocking the meaning of this dream. At the first house the Solar Chakra- I'm given a pressure washer to water the plants there and continue to the other houses to water them. This ties into my meditation that I do right before sleep. In that meditation I imagine each charka as being a Gerber daisy. I fill up the daisy chain starting from the crown chakra and then descending downward. I fill each with water causing the petals to open outward and I can tell the difference when I feel the body part associated with that chakra relax. Only when each is fully opened do I go on to the next chakra. So, this dream contained the idea of 'watering flowers.' At the second house, the Sacral Chakra, I find that I have been freezing the entire chain of chakras since I was a child. Something about the way I used the energy from this chakra allowed me to really solidify my system crystallizing it somehow. My guess is I was just so psychically sensitive that I tried to shut it down as a child. (This also ties into something I'm studying now in John van Auken's book on the Kabbalah and he mentioned in his Revelation book I quoted in the previous blog. We crystallize our system, solidifying our thoughts, which is what anchors us to this reality). At the third house, root chakra, I find my inner child with a black dog protecting it in a baby fence. I also find my Grandma Emma in the house. I'm not sure about the symbolism of the four sleeping relatives. The root chakra is where the Kundalini usually sleeps in the body (also mentioned in the Hindu and Egyptian parables of where the spirit or housewife is sleeping). Again, this is another clue that this house represents a mental or dream representation of the root chakra. Dream Two: Sacral Chakra 3-13-17 I was in the mountains with my parents. Here it was desert and there were golden brown rocks marked with the red of iron much like the mining area near Barstow. I knew it was a little bit North of Grandma Emma's house (Root Chakra). An old couple friends of my parents had passed away. They had been living on this campground at the base of a hill. In my dream, I was shown and image of the past where they were living on two motor homes on the property. The motor homes were now gone. Dad was finishing the task of taking care of the old stuff by putting them into two different enclosures. There were two areas of belongings. He was wrapping blue cardboard around them saying, "The winds get very high here and I don't want stuff to be blown away." There was a little boy and his family at the location. There was a pathway up a hill (we were in the mountains). I wanted to hike up it, I knew that I had done so before, but there was no time on this trip. The little boy of the family that was camping there wanted to know if "the lamb was up there." Apparently, there were Shepard's in this area and sometimes they brought their flock to this desert hill. Interpretation I know this is the Chakra that I used to really solidify my experience in this reality. The two motor homes and the two storage sheds might represent my ovaries which are associated with this chakra. The blue cardboard being wrapped around them represents these being protected and spiritualized. The mount with the lamb on it definitely invokes the idea of Christ. The fact that this location was a little bit North of Grandma Emma's house suggest it was the Sacral Charka. In John Van Auken's book on the Kabalah there is an old gnostic drawing. In it the lamb is represented by 888 and it's among the three upper chakras. Dream Three Solar Chakra 3-4-17 I was sitting in the back seat of the car from a friend from High School. I associate being humbled and reconciliation with her. I wasn't happy to be there and she blinked at me in surprise saying it was the agreed upon time to meet up. We drove for a while and picked up a professor along with his adult daughter from the university. He wanted to see wherever we were going as well. As we drove my friend talked about the Daffy Duck cookies she had made and I remembered seeing it on FB in the dream (no such thing actually happened in real life). I asked for one of the Daffy Duck cookies and she gave it to me. We drove to a stadium. We weren't really supposed to be there yet. There was an animal in the center of the stadium like a lion but it didn't have a mane so it must have been female. The lion was going to attack a guy. I jumped down to the bottom area of the arena like a super hero. I confronted the animal. The animal backed off retreating back into the center of the coliseum. I looked up and saw my sister-in-law, her best friend and brother-in-law in a balcony cheering me on. I was puzzled by their appearance. After the animal had retreated back through a gate in the stadium I gave a glass of water to the guy that it was going to attack. When he didn't say thank you I told him, "Normal people say thank you." Interpretation This is an interesting one. The lion does seem to be associated with the third Charkra. Most notably in the Revelation. The professor and his daughter my represent my research and the knowledge that it has created within me. The idea of reconciliation and being humbled represented by my friend suggests the intital dreams that I had about the beast wherein I knew that there was supposed to be a reintegration and transformation but it was going to take time to occur. I guess I was confronting my own inner Beast in this one at this chakra. The fact it was like a Roman Coliseum is really interesting and again makes me think of Christianity. The male in the dream that I saved from the lion could be my Animus (male aspect). When I gave him a glass of water it represents purification. Conclusion There really isn't much about people working with their lower chakras or the imagery of a beast. The little bit of validation I have found has been in the Edgar Cacye books that John Van Auken has written. This doesn't surprise me too much. A lot of this type of thinking has been submerged and stamped out for so long by those who would call themselves authorities. I believe that this represents some sort of spiritual passage. To what I am not sure...although, it has really increased the peacefulness I experience and I feel a core of confidence I've never had before growing as well as my compassion. Curiously, through this time period there was another thread of dreams. That of books or records being turned to ash. Those dreams occurred on 2/23/17, 3/5/17, 3/6/17, 3/10/1. There might be more but it's an odd recurring theme of books and files turning into ash. I would hazard a guess that somehow whatever records of my misdeeds throughout my past lives have been destroyed. All of those records are simply wiped clean and whatever karma I had incurred from them are no longer an influence on this life. That is all that I wanted to share to demonstrate how often the inner reflects the outer and vice a versa. I have no way to map this state of being out. I see no similarity of what I am experiencing with any mystics of the past. Therefore, I have no frame of reference nor knowledge of what purpose all of this might be serving. In fact, it seems that I have descended through my chakras instead of ascending. Again, there is no reference of this occurring in any mystical literature I've uncovered. I doubt I am a singular case of this occurring. On a side note, watching a Rosicrucian video and the reading the book on the Kabbalah I realized the symbolism involved in Beauty and the Beast. I will go into detail here but it appears....the Kabbalah tree of life which is also a representation of the chakra system (surprise surprise!) Beauty is the Sacral Chakra when being worked in the positive...the Beast is obviously when in the negative. The Rose represents the many lives that we live...so, prior to the last petal falling (our last mortal life) we must turn the beast into beauty within ourselves. In my last blog I covered the movies with a little girl and a beast. However, the second trailer for Transformers really gave me pause when I watched it today. To my amazement, it was narrated by a little girl. At one point the girl starts to walk towards some of the Decepticons and their leader telling them that she is not afraid of them. The leader of the Decepticons she approaches has horns reminiscent of a bull. I'm not sure if that's supposed to be Megatron, but if it is they definitely added the bull like horns for this movie which is beyond bizarre. As you can see in the picture I posted Megatron did not have the horns in the previous movies. Again, the image of a little girl standing up to a Beast...this time reminiscent of the bronze statue of the little girl facing the Stock Market Bull. I have no idea why this is manifesting in so many movies. I find it really fascinating! The Beast In My Dreams Every time I find a theme it really seems to be reflected in both my dreams and the waking world. Keep in mind, these dreams are from November of last year so I had them four months prior to realizing these movies have a similar theme. The last thing I would think of dreaming about would be a beast but the 'beast' in my dreams was never something scary. So, let me share the dreams with you and I'll go through the interpretations. There are only two I'm going to share. The third one I thought about sharing doesn't really fit the context. I will include in a fourth post two dreams that directly relate to my root and Sacral Chakras that I find fascinating but feel need to be covered after the third installment for this series of blogs. Dream One: The beast dream that really stood out to me was one that I had on November 12th 2017. This dream was very deep and the images have remain with me. In the dream I was at my Grandma Emma's house. I was watching the scene from the third person perspective...as though I were watching a movie. At the same time I knew that I was one of the little girls in the dream. There were a bunch of little kids, no more than eight, playing a game. Half of them were dressed up as Jedi and the other were dressed up as Sith from Star Wars. We were playing a game of war between good and evil. The little girl that was me was a Klingon from Star Trek. The little girl that was me left the rest of the game. She began to cry because she found it all very sad that all of the people were being mean to one another. Then the adult version of me, a character I know represents my Higher Self, appeared. She went to the little girl comforting her and embraced her. Immediately, I understood that on her level of existence good and evil did not exist. All was One and so, it really was just an act...a child's game that we were creating here on Earth. I had a feeling that the two- the Higher Self and the Lower 'beastly' self- were reintegrating into one...but a transformation that should have happened didn't take place...but was delayed. Yet, that dream completely and utterly changed how I look at 'good' and 'evil' in this world. Dream Two: I had this dream on November 21st 2016 Again, it was a dream from the third person perspective. There was an ecological disaster that happened because of a mining company. They have dug too deep into the earth and struck a stone that sounded like a bell causing the entire world to quake. I saw a young girl who could save the world. Time sped up, moved forward, and then moved backwards. My Aunt Donna and the people on television were saying it was Doomsday. The girl didn't know she can save the world. She took one of all the animals that were knocked unconscious by the bell like sound to a temple in Japan except one. She could not capture the wolf to protect it. There all of the animals turned into statues for protection. Years later, I go to the temple, now in the first person perspective, to find out what's happening. There I am greeted by an old lady and a young kid who are protecting the temple (this we will return to in my dream about the root chakra). The temple is now very ancient. I tell them I want to help. They tell me it will be a steep price to learn about the temple. I tell them I don't care. I go inside and the young girl looks at me intently. She hasn't aged a day. I ask her what animal is missing. She tells me the wolf. I tell her I am the wolf, I have to eat the meat of animals in order to remain healthy but I am not happy about it. I agree to help her. That is the end of the dream. Interpretation: Dream One: The first dream I understood as my lower nature (lower four chakras) and my Higher Self (said to reside in the upper three chakras) interacting. Good and evil, duality, is just a game that was being a played on Earth but wasn't 'real.' There is no truly good or truly evil because we are all One. The part of me that was experiencing life on Earth experiencing the 'dark and light' was a Klingon from Start Trek. I see those as character's that are very animal like. They are the perfect representation of the "beast." Dream Two: The second dream is a bit more personal. The company that mined too deeply and rang the planet like a bell is probably what happened in my last job. What happened there, which lead to everything that happened with Lilith-Ann, completely shook up my world. I'm not sure about the animals turning into statues. Perhaps, the animal part of me became very stony...or very unemotional as a result of the tragedy I experienced. I'm not really sure. The part where I say I am a wolf. That's claiming my animal side, claiming the part of nature that I think is the most cruel...where we eat other animals. There is a sense of being at peace with myself as an animal and a predator to boot. Funnily, the part of me that is aware in every dream was startled and a bit shocked when I stated that I was the wolf. I woke up feeling very off kilter from the dream. Conclusion As I've stated before it's really important to own our animal aspects. There is nothing wrong with the fact that our bodies are made as they are and require specific nutrients. Nor is it terrible that we have animal like tendencies. Many people following spiritual paths try to repress or deny their animal nature. Yet, we were made this way for a reason. Just like all animals we were created with the urge to protect ourselves, eat and procreate. A lot of people forget that is part of our nature. A lot of people try to subvert that part of themselves or try to repress the animal tendencies. That's just not natural, but I covered that in my Detachment blog. There is a balance and a relationship between our two aspects- the Animal (body) and the Spirit. As long as those are not working with one another we are warring with ourselves. As Jesus said you can't serve two masters...the lower beastly self is worried mostly with survival and money. As long as that's our focus we won't be able to work within the realm of the Higher Self. In my next blog, we'll examine the perspective of the four lower chakras/energy centers, their relationship to Maslow's Hierarchy of needs and the way they appear in multiple religions. Entertainingly writing this blog made me think of the following clip from Jurassic Park. Clair has become so indoctrinated into the way we are told we are so supposed to behave she is completely out of touch with the 'animal' part of herself. In being put into a traumatic situation she finds the part of her that makes her a caring human being...by letting go of her need to control everything (after all, that's kind of God's job...micromanaging God is a bit tiresome because it's so much easier just to learn how to swim in the flow). By now you probably noticed the changes in my blog. I wanted to take a moment and explain why they happened and how they happened. I also wanted to share the motivation I have for blogging along with some ideas that form the foundation for my perspective of life and spirituality.
I realize that everything in this blog is my truth. This may be my truth but I encourage you to find your own. Perhaps by gazing upon my experience you will want to make your own spiritual journey towards self enlightenment. I don't deal in absolutes. I won't tell you how to live your life or that my spiritual journey is better than anyone else. I've found a lot of healing after facing trauma's from which some people (and my psychologist) believed they can't heal. I find it funny that in this blog from February 26th I talked about the transformative energy that would last through March 20th 2017, the Spring Equinox (note I thouht the Spring Equinox was the 23rd at the time I wrote the blog but my calendars say it's the 20th). (http://bridgetkorns.weebly.com/blog/transformative-energy ) Isn't it interesting synchronicity that I ended up transforming my blog at this time? Why Change The Blog The main reason I updated my blog was because of technical reasons. I realized that the archives on the right side of the blog did not show anything after August 2016. I've been writing the blog for three years now (I deleted my entire blog at one point so everything from 2014 was lost). I realize this website has advertisements. I don't profit off of them. They are how the creators of Weebly allow people to have free blogs. I can't really see paying money for the blog. Advertisements is the best way most people make money sharing media so at the moment I can't really complain. Why Change The Name Since I was updating the look of the blog I decided to update the name. In wondering through the internet I discovered months ago that someone else had a blog titled 'Oh The Humanity.' I don't recall if the blog was made after mine or before mine but I decided that if the opportunity arose I would re-name my blog since it was no longer an original title. The subjects covered in the other blog did not involve spirituality but I was still disappointed to see someone had also used the title. The new name for this blog came from a dream fragment. I don't remember the context but I was contemplating the idea of what I would name a book containing my favorite blog posts. The name that came to mind and the reasoning for it is what I have subsequently used for this blog. Why Use The Term Mystic? I don't like labels. I feel labels group people and help them solidify a personality or identity based on that label. Having a personality...defining yourself as this or that is very unhealthy. In fact, all of the literature and research I have done spiritually argues that dissolving our personality construct (which most people refer to as ego) is necessary for a Spiritual Awakening. You can call this Awakening to being in the Spirit of Christ, Enlightenment, or Awakening to our Higher Self...the specifics are not necessary. The goal is the same...to lessen our personal suffering and bring the light of God/Source into this world. The idea that I could be called a mystic in any way shape or form once bothered me. Let's face it, ever since Yeshua's death people who were mystics died horribly at the hand of others. Either they died following in Yeshua's footsteps or were burnt at the stake for being a witch or warlock. Given that I believe in a past life I died painfully and horribly for defending my personal spiritual beliefs....writing this blog was hard at first. The last thing I want to do is be persecuted for my beliefs. I have not been persecuted by others for my beliefs since writing the blog and it's become a wonderful outlet for me. The definition of a 'mystic' really does capture what my personal 'hobby' has been since I was in my early teens. Here is the definition according to Google: "1. A person who seeks by contemplation and self-surrender to obtain unity with or absorption into the deity or the absolute, or believes in the spiritual apprehension of truths that are beyond the intellect." In that case, I can say that I am a mystic. I've owned the fact that the term can be applied to me and it also conveys that the blog is written from a Spiritual view point. Even if I'm doing a Book or Movie Review it's always filtered through my spiritual beliefs in this blog. I can see them from other perspectives but for me much of reality is the song of spirit. That's, of course, because I believe we exist within a Subjective Reality which is a topic I've written about previously that I will revisit in the near future. Why Use The Term Butterfly? Since I was about eight years old and inherited my Aunt Ruthies Butterfly pendant collection I've been crazy about Butterflies. I was into butterflies before the trend's in the late nineties where it started to be plastered onto everything. I didn't mind that and I still don't. When I got my butterfly tattoo at 16 (my parents were there and signed a paper giving permission) very few other people had butterfly tattoos. I don't mind the merchandising or the fact that butterflies have become an extremely popular symbol. I buy a lot of stuff with butterflies on it because I feel it is my personal symbol. The Butterfly has always represented Transformation to me. Even as a young teenager I felt that was my 'Spiritual Idea' (a concept based on Edgar Cacye's work). Since I started working with my dreams as a young teenager I have had an appreciation of the symbolism involving a butterfly. Therefore, Mystic Butterfly might also be interpreted as Spiritual Transformation which is my inner and very personal life work. Why Write a Blog? I first started writing fantasy novels when I was in high school. I completed my first one- Merosis- when I was 16 years old. I used to think Fantasy was the main vehicle I could use to convey spiritual ideas that I had been studying. In my twenties I finished completed writing a Merosis trilogy. I sought to have them published but the realm of Fantasy novels had been slowly dying out during that time. I did have a short science fiction fantasy story called The Huntress set in the world of Merosis published by an E-Zine called Midnight Times. Eerily, my life has reflected the life of the main protagonist in my stories. You always start off writing what you know so naturally the main character was based on me. Writing the books was a very personal psychological inner journey. My taste in what I liked to read changed when I hit my thirties. I read more mystical books. I started off with Zechiriah Stitchins Annunaki books, then branched out to books published by Edgar Cacye's A.R.E. and on to a number of others that you will eventually be able to peruse in a Source Page I'm going to add to my blog website. I also became more interested in watching YouTube video's on Spirituality and Listening to Talk shows that talked about spiritual subjects. Whether Christian, Buddhist or something else I'd give anyone who had a plausible argument a listen. What I found was that almost all of it was negative fear based information or Bliss Bunnies (a term originally coined by Jamie Sams) who had no idea what they were talking about...but it felt good man! I saw information provided in a way that could do more harm than good. I began this blog as a way to change that and give people a different paradigm to look through. I love looking at life through different perspectives. I think this is very healthy and anyone working on the positive side to help illuminate other peoples minds is very much needed in the very dark world we live in. An Inclusive Approach In a previous blog I wrote about the idea of Inclusive vs. Exclusive point of view. This rambles a bit but here it is: http://bridgetkorns.weebly.com/blog/inclusive-vs-exclusive. At the time I was very much into the Shift which I no longer think is all that important. That is an entirely different subject I wrote about in the same period of time that I wrote that blog. The important thing is that this point of view of being Inclusive regarding spiritual beliefs is different from what the majority of society has held. The other day I was talking about seeing the X-Men movie Logan while I was at work. A gentleman overheard the conversation and tried to verbally attack the movie X-Men Apocalypse. He was fishing to see if I was upset by anything in that movie and I commented that I didn't think it was the best but it was as good movie. He was disappointed and went on to lecture me. He did not like that the character Apocalypse saying that he was, "Elohem, Yahweh...Ra, etc." The customer said he didn't care that the old Egyptian God name of Ra had been invoked but how dare they use a name for God found in the Bible- Elohem. That was blasphemy, he declared to me, and he believes in Jesus Christ. I smiled at him indulgently. Eventually he left commenting that, "He must be old," as the reason why I didn't see a problem with the context of that movie. Later, I was happy to observe that I hadn't heard anyone say the word Blasphemy in a very long time. I didn't mind that he had his own opinion, it in no way affected mine, and I was going to tell him I know a lot about the word Elohem. I did not want to start an argument. Instead I just smiled and said I understood that it could cause discomfort. Elohem has been a hot button topic in the metaphysical realms for awhile as some suggest the Sumerian Annunaki were the Elohem. Some believe the Annunaki were aliens that came down and engineered humanity (much like the movie Prometheus). Strangely, Elohem is plural...meaning more than one being. The mere fact he focused on that word and not Yehovah surprised me but maybe he wasn't as familiar with the connection between the name Yehovah and the Christian God. Of course, I was fine with the charterer in Apocalypse stating those were his prior names as a part of the X-Men movie. I see Source, or what Christians call the Trinity, in the Hindu concept Brahman and Atman. I see it in the Egyptian Amun, Ra, and Ptah. I see that same concept in the Hopi concept of Tawa, Masauwu and the Spider Woman. I see it in the Dogon concept of Ama or the Sumerian creation story of Anu, Enki and Enlil. Call the Trinity or Source by any name you wish...it's the same Source/God/All-That-IS. Just as I am the same person whether you call me Bridget, B, Bird, Bridge to the T, Bridgey Korns, etc. A name is just a name and in a realm made of energy, who cares? In fact, I really don't care about the hundreds of different names for the species of frogs that exist...because to me they are still just frogs. Perhaps, it's because Apocalypse is an alien and he's mortal that the many said it was Blasphemy. Well, there is an entirely different concept called Oneness. That we are all reflections of the divine and One with Source. This is a difficultl abstract lesson I've learned but have yet to write down in a blog. Yet, I will say, that in a way we are all Yehovah, we are all Elohem, we are all reflections of the God's that have ever been named. Why can't all spiritual beliefs be based on the same truth just stated and interpreted in different ways? Maybe, they distorted what they have perceived and caused harm but that is most likely by accident (hence the saying the road to hell is paved with good intentions). Why can't commonly recurring symbols mean the same thing, at their basic level, from one culture to the next? This approach is that of harmony...of brotherhood and of "Loving your neighbor as yourself." (Mark 12:31). I don't see Jesus (Yeshua) as growing up in a cultural vacuum. He had access to Buddhist monks, Greek mythology, Roman mythology and Hindu Yogis. India is not that far from Israel and there were plenty of traders. Israel was definitely one of the countries that had thriving trade with other nations especially under the rule of the Roman Empire. The Roman Empire, at the time, very tolerant and often correlated regional Gods and Goddess to their own system. Yeshua didn't reject the Samaritan at the well when she asked him questions. Instead he recognized that she had the spiritual necessities to appreciate truth and shared some with her. How can any follower proclaiming to follow Yeshua not be accepting of their neighbors earnest search for Godin whatever format that might take? In many ways when we explore life, when we explore ourselves, we explore a part of Source/God. Subjective Reality I will touch on this for a moment. Through earning my Bachelors Degree in Psychology I made a staggering discovery. The final class I was required to take had an amazing admission. Psychology has discovered that people cannot be categorized into groups or their behavior predicted by their identification. The way people approach a particular life event depends on too many variables to be predictable and is unique to every individual. We know that when the human eyes are mapping our world that there are gaps in what we perceive. Our brain happily fills in those gaps. Here is an article on the subject: https://braindecoder.com/post/up-to-90-of-your-perception-could-be-made-up-purely-by-the-brain-1104633927?utm_source=facebook Life is entirely Subjective to the Individual. We interpret the information we encounter through the uniquely developed filter that we have created based on our personal life experiences. These filters can change but most people tend to stick to the filters they form during their High School years. This erases the possibility of any Absolute Truth ever being applied to every human being. The worlds we perceive on an individual bases is purely unique to each individual. This isn't to say that the truth of Source and the Natural Order does not work within all of those perspectives in a similar way. Instead, while that same 'force' may be interwoven into these individually perceived unique worlds it can be interpreted differently. Not one single person holds all the answers and truth for everyone. This is also why we have to journey within to discover Source for ourselves on an individual level and not through a book, Preachers, Guru, or any other person who tries to hold themselves up as a Spiritual Source or Contact for Source. There is an individual perspective of 'universal truth' and a societal truth that is arrived at through debate/expression of the individuals. This is why Free Speech is so important and it's absolutely wrong to oppress another person based on their beliefs. As long as no one else is harmed in the process each should be able to pursue their own beliefs because not one person knows the filter of another. We can't walk in each others shoes so we can't judge people but we can judge their actions. Paradigm Shifts People who hold onto a particular view, making it very solid, encounter a great deal of dissonance when they meet people of other cultures or belief systems. This is a hard way of living life...judging other peoples worthiness or righteousness by comparing their way of living to your own. In that traditional perspective everything you believe is right and part of your personal identity (Ego). Therefore when something 'outside' threatens that perspective it has to be defended as though the your life itself (or that of the Ego) is at stake. This is where, to me, it is so valuable to look at the Cosmos through as many different perspectives/filters as possible. Whether listening to others life stories, reading books that challenge my point of view, or watching movies that make me think...I grow as a person. The more I learn about how other people see the world the more I learn about myself. When Paradigm Shifts or Epiphanies happen it as though the entire world has moved or we moved a mountain. Yet, the only thing that really shifted was our own perspective of the world. Our vision becomes a little bit more wider...a little bit more lose when it comes to the 'truths' we hold. With practice, paradigm shifts lead to a very fluid responsive state of mind that is flexible when presented with opposition. There is no reason to fight but a great sense of compassion and a desire to understand the other person. I understood why that man said X:Men Apocalypse was Blasphemy. When I was in my teens I held the same point of view that I had learned the few times I interacted with religious people. The old Roman Catholic Point of view was very particular about obliterating anything that threatened their religion. Society considered it acceptable that anyone even slightly threatening their paradigm could be burned at the stake for practicing the 'dark arts.' I know the history. I know he is working with an outdated framework. He knew it too, stating, "Maybe I'm just old." I pitied him then, I admit. Yes, his mind was a rock unable to perceive anything beyond a time worn way of thinking that newer generations just can't conceive. In isolation such thinking may thrive but when you are part of a culturally diverse world it is impossible. Different is not bad (unless it hurts someone physically) but it can cause people who have a very solid 'personality complex' pain. Those types of people can't separate their self-identity from their beliefs. The dissonance as they try to integrate and relate to people with different beliefs they never considered can be acute. Often they lash out in pain when they encounter a point of view they don't understand or they shut down mentally. Dreams A long time ago I set the precedent that if Spirit wishes to communicate with me it must be through dreams. I have always believed that dreams had deep meaning...at least on a psychological level. People such as Psychologist Carl Jung were very much into using dream interpretation to help patients. The basis for all of the Spiritual Truths that I own and integrate into my beliefs come from dreams. Often, I find a verification for a truth that I was first shown in a dream after I have the dream. There is no chance, most of the time, that an outside influence was the source for the inspiration of the information for a dream. I will reference dreams often when talking about concepts that I'm exploring. That's because the exploration of the different subjects are usually connected to or prompted by a dream. I, like most, want some sort of external validation and if there were others who experienced something similar I can take comfort knowing I'm not the only one. Conclusion I'm excited that my Blog changed by chance. I write my blog for numerous reasons. Mostly, my aim is to help others lessen their suffering. I do this through investigating and explaining different paradigms and spiritual ideas. I explore new themes I see in the metaphysical and spiritual communities. I share insights and epiphanies I gain from dreams. I write this blog as as service to other people. I don't do this for profit but for others. Hopefully, if I share this information other people around the world will suffer less as I have learned ways to lessen my suffering. I am not a spiritual leader. I share what I learn from others and I will be adding a Sources page soon. I encourage people not to take what I am saying as their Truth. I ask that everyone investigate and read the material that I have shared and read and come to their own conclusion. My deepest prayer is that the work of the Source/God is reflected through my blog bringing Source/God into others lives so they can work in harmony with Source. With understanding, compassion and harmony we can start working with one another instead of opposing one another all of the time. On my Spiritual Journey I've learned that it's not all about me. Even if I were to reach enlightenment it would be very lonely unless I had companions who were the same. That, as much as anything else, is why I write this blog to share my journey. May all of us reach Enlightenment together, being in this world in the now but not of it and magnifying Source's presence on this planet to the betterment of all. |
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