Dearest Lilith-Ann,
If you were here today you would be five years old. I would be preparing for your first day in kindegarten. That would be a very big step. I can only imagine how different my life would be if you were here. Yet, I am so thankful for you. You were the catalyst that set me off on my Spiritual Journey. I learned so much from you. Perhaps, you were only on this world for three days in this life with me...but you left big foot prints on my heart. You also saved your sister, Michelle Annmarie. If it hadn't been for the fact that you were paritally implanted in my Septum...prompting a specialist to explain what a septum is to me...I would never have known to have it removed so that your sister could be here today. I can only imagine what it would be like to have both of you. You and your sister would undoutedly be absolutely adorable together. Would we have waited until 2018 to have had her? I don't know but I often smile and think about you. I wonder what it would have been like to see the two of you together. The two of you are so different. Even at 7 months Michelle has a very light layer of strawberry blonde hair. You were born with thick brunette hair. I realize now that you were the first miracle that I experienced. I remember the look at the doctor and eveyrone else's face as I prayed to have just a little more time wity you. Your heartbeat and blood oxygen level rose so swiftly. You fought so hard to stay with me those two extra days. Since then there have been many miracles. The miracle of the Sherrif Seargent at work, Rob, who had a seizure for no apparent reason. The miracle of your Grandma Candy last March 23rd. Finally, there is the miracle of your sisters birth- that her premature birth was halted and that she only spent five days in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit. I love you so much. I know that you sense the celebration that your Dad and I had for you. We had some vanilla cupcakes and vanilla ice cream. Your sister got to try frosting for the first time! I'm sending you so much love and gratitude even as I feel your gentle presence with me even now. I just have to remember you when things are rough and your sacrifice to show me the way forward. Your such a brave strong soul and I am so thankful to have shared the time that I did with you. Eternal Love, Mommy
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I loved this movie and I give it an A.
There were two minor things that could have been done better but overall I thought it was great. I don't think it's fair to compare it to Wonder Woman. I am probably a bit biased. First, most of this movie is based around Edwards Air Force base and there are a lot of scenes from the High Desert where I spent the first eight years of my life. Second, it's awesome to have a blonde super hero who is not second fiddle to a man. I'm glad they got the entire storyline where she got her powers from a man. They did use some of the comic book history- Mar-vel is a gender swap from the Cree guy that she got her powers from in the comics- and I am so happy they went with that storyline. Third, I am just happy any female super hero makes it to the screen and has their own movies. We've seen several versions of Superman and Batman (no one compares those movies to each other for some reason) and I have no problem with future versions of Captain Marvel. I have to say that the 90's is the main era I grew up in...I graduated in 2000. So, this movie was a little odd for me in some ways. I didn't feel the nostalgia so much. I guess, as I realized as I was sitting at Claim Jumper after the movie...because the last two decades don't feel real. I feel like it was yesterday I was a hostess at Claim Jumper and that was more than a decade ago! For me, none of the stuff referenced feels 'old'. Heck, Nine Inch Nails still gets played regularly on the radio. The music station KROQ tried to change formats and playlists....failed miserably and went back to playing the same stuff they played in the 90's attempting to mix in new stuff. In some ways it feels like the 90's never really left...as though we've been in a time loop since then unable to move on in any other way but spiritually (the spiritual community, which some might call New Age, has really transformed in that time period but it's the only the area that I've really seen growth and I include the conspiracy theorists in that category.) Addressing The Major Criticisims The movie doesn't have an A+ because the it was just entertaining. I found it better then the first Captain America movie. Brie Larsen's acting was really good. I think that most people failed to comprhend the charecter she was playing. No one whines about Black Widow not showing a lot of emotion. Vers was a Cree soldier trained for six years not to show emotion. So, when the charecter doesn't show emotion through most of the movie it's because she's actually in charecter. I really don't comprehend how people don't get that one. I didn't see most of the other harsh criticisims either....so, all in all an entertaining movie. There were two points where I laughted out loud. Again, as usual I was the only one who laughed but oh well. At least someone in the audiance showed emotion. =) My Two Criticisims The song by No Doubt in the pivotal fight scene in Mar-Vel's lab was awful. I like No Doubt just as much as anyone else but....seriously it took me right out of the movie. I agree with ScreenCrush that it should have been the Alanis Morresite "Break Up Song." Ska was a limited movement of two bands for a reason. That form of music was not very dynamic and defintely didn't fit a fight scene in space. The second is from a story telling point of view with a missed opportunity. If they had dared to make Carol have a good relationship with her Dad and he became a P.O.W. there might have been more impact with the shapeshifters when they found out why the main' bad guy' was trying to find the coordinates of Marvel's laboratory. However, unlike the rest of the heros Captain Marvel is almost entirely an original origin story that draws very little from the comics. The rest of the charectes had huge histories with many alternates that could be pulled from so I can't complain that some opportunities were missed. Conclusion The movie was good don't let people deter you from going to see it. I think some critics are having Super Hero fatigue and others have major political agendas. If you're a Marvel Fan it is a must see movie. As far as stories go for strong Female Hero's I do prefer Captain Marvel's storyline. Diana in Wonder Woman had really campy moments...she fought Hades and that entire scene was pretty corny. That doesn't happen in Captain Marvel...although, the one big fight scene is ruined by a poor song choice. All in all, I have to say the moment where she hits Yon-Rogg when he was trying to trick her into fighting him was probably my favorite movitie moment in any any film. I was shocked when he said that he was 'proud of her' and I really loved that she told him, "I have nothing to prove to you." Sure, I was probably the only person in the theater who let out a loud, "Ha!" at that moment but...yeah, seriously, if you're a Girl Power person (which I am) then that moment will make seeing this movie worth your while. The Bigger Picture There are always scandals around these super hero female figures. With Wonder Woman it was because Gal Gadot was a citizen of Israel and that she was 'scantily' clothed. This movie has been no exception with a speech that was written to pander to a specific female audiance at the Lucy awards caused the lead actress to be attacked as a social justice warrior. Look, people have a right to freedom of speech including celebrities. There personal ideas don't influence the film, however, because the director and writer have complete control over the story. To hate someone based on personal beliefs instead of their actions is pretty dumb. People change. People make mistakes. She was pandering to her audience and would have stayed off the radar if she hadn't been in a big budget Marvel Film. In fact, by fearing here...these people gave her more power but it is sad some people would sick a movie hundreds of people worked on just for one petty grievance. That said, I think that the Cree created a reflection of the United States that most people don't want to see. The Skrull are described as 'terrorists' by the Cree. Yet, they just want to have a place of their own to live in peace. Considering how 'terrorists' have been used for both Muslim and Christian extremists in recent years...makes that word a particular trigger. Emptahizing with the Skrulls might be too much to ask a populace that has been trained by the media to hate 'terrorists' at all cost and would probably agree with 'serving the collective' over individual soverignity letting people choose to join their empire instead of forcing their rule on others (I've argued how the U.S. is an Empire of it's own right and forcing others to use the Dollar as the main currency as a way to rule other countries through their economies is the main catalyst for most of our wars). I think this movie will grow on people with time. I Just think it's on that cutting edge of information and mirroring reality people are not ready for...just like so many other popular culture items have been depicting the collective 'Death Wish' of humanity. Thanos, I think, was actually named after the Hindu term Thanatos which means death wish. The people who want the rapture are part of the group that has a death wish for the rest of humanity. Some people feel humanity is a mistake and a pluage on the rest of creation. The Georgia Guidestones suggests that there are people out there who beleive we have a finite amount of resources on this planet and our population is out of balance...the same argument Thanos makes. Exploring this idea on the big screen, so that humanity doesn't have to truly go through it...is one of the gifts humanity has to offer. I think it's one that most people need to think about and realize...hey, maybe resenting a part of humanity for existing is futile. Of course, it takes faith that is a Higher Power that's not petty and has a purpose for absolutely everything it creates- "villians" and heros alike- to move past the concept that destroying half the population of Earth is just evil. That there were critics who agreed with Thanos...still blows me away. I love that New Rockstars pretty much sees the same connection. They refer to a television series that covers that concept that I've never heard of... You an find that New Rockstars video below.
The Path is a Spiral.
When we don't learn a lesson the first time we will come back to it...time and time again. Then there are occasional Pop Quiz's (I have to credit Jamie Sams fo that name) thrown in for good measure to make sure we haven't relapsed to our previous behaviors. You may have noticed a huge change. I've taken a break from YouTube and I've taken a break from my personal Facebook. The combination of personal drama and a small hemmorraging event (if I hadn't gone through something similar several times I'm sure I would have gone to the Emergency Room but I've learned they don't do anything but wait around to see if a person will bleed out enough to need a blood transfusion.) episode that was a part of my body healing from c-section triggered my PTSD. I stayed home, continued to take care of Michelle, tried to keep off my feet and tracked how many heavy 10 hour pads I soaked through in an hour. My husband barely noticed- I really have to freak out for him to notice stuff. Steps I Took To Heal From This Dark Night The details aren't as important as the lesson. Thanks to studying the Path Of The Seeker from different perspectives I can, thankfully, remember steps to reclaim my center when I'm knocked off balance. At first during the dark night it's hard not to sulk. A big part of experiencing that first phases, called Calcination in Alchemy, is to allow the feelings and learn from them. I always shoved down the unpleasent feelings trying to hide or ignore them hoping the situation that gave rise to them will go away. However, in psychology that's called repression and they always come back...just a lot stronger and at really inconveinant times. Naming The Cause First, I have to recognize that this is a response to feeling neglected. Now, my mom was a clean freak who obsessed over cleaning the house. She spent more time cleaning the house then with me when she was a housewife. Then when she got a job she became obsessed with it and continues to be today. She just doesn't have time for anything else in her life but her job, a little gossip and the news. So, that's the origin of the conditioned response. Over the last three or so years, my husband has neglected our relationship preferring a fellow muscian and Sunday "band" practice every week. The guy was a third wheel even through my pregnancy. They even went to a concert and comedy club together. Not only did he spend almost all day at my house every Sunday, with a meal out, but every Friday when I had an OB appointment he had to meet up with us for lunch. In truth, I felt like I was the third wheel in my own marriage. This gave rise to huge jealous issues, here I was experiencing a very important moment in my life and my husband had to drag someone else into it. To say it was an unpleasent experience is an understatement. I even went so far to demand if my husband was gay. So, that triggered my negative conditioned response from childhood. I try to not be a burden on someone elses time because, deep dowm, I hold the beliefI'm not worthy of thir time or as important as other people. Asking For Spiritual Help Naming the isue is a big step but this is the second step is the hardest for me. I don't have anyone in the flesh that I trust to help me with these issues. So, I ask for spiritual instruction and the overwhelming response was I need to stop protecting and trying to save Ross. The Core Belief/Behavior Next, is to identify the core belief that gives rise to this recurring paatern. Feeling like I'm in the back seat of my life has been a recurring event in all of my relationships. Both my parents are narcisstic, my close friends were all narcissitic and all my ex's. I'm what Lee Harris refers to as a "Rescuer Empath". With newly clear eyes I can view my relationships for what they were now that I can see this pattern. I blamed myself when Ross constantly made selfish decisions. I made my needs small and went without alot. How many girlscan say they went shopping for new clothes three times in ten years? For soe reaspn (though I know better for myself) I though if all of my husbands greatest desires were fulfilled he'd be happy. I worked my butt off going to school full time while being a full time supervervisor when we first met. Then a manager with 50+ hour weeks for three years. Then I nearly worked full time for three more years. All the while I did all of the cooking (he never liked any over the 100 dishes I made for him) and household chores except cleaning the cats litter box, and mowing the yard and taking the trash bins to the curb once a week. While I've learned for myself that material objects won't make me happy during my spiritual journey...I tend to shower those I love with presents. I was operating from that old paradigm in my relationship with my husband. I realize, because I made my needs small and was ok sacrificing my needs because I was willing to do whatever it took to get to a place where we could both be happy and start a family...I let him run amok. I realized that it began at the very beginning of our marriage. I was going to school full time and working as a supervisor full time in addition to household chores, although, at the time we lived in a two bedroom apartment so there were hardly any. I thought it was really cool his Dad offered to pay for whatever Honeymoon we wanted. Ross asked me what my dream honeymoon was and I said a Cruise around the Greek Islands. I trusted him, because he had far less on his plate because he was just a regular worker at the company he worked at doing around 40 hours a week he could plan it. I beleived him when he said that he had 'made a mistake' and didn't include the plane tickets for the trip in the amount he asked for from his Dad. We were, he said, taking our honeymoon during the peak season and he didn't want to ask his Dad for more money. So, he asked if I would mind if we spent that money on buying the motorcycle? I had a lot on my plate, as I said, and would have to do homework on the honeymoon so I decided fine...it had been a hassle to get a passport anyways. I made the best of our strictly budgeted frantic $1000 budget honeymoon but it was far from romantic. That set the trend. Since then Ross has kept me on a very small budget. I had a set amount of fun money $40, I could spend on my needs, per month. Meanwhile, his music and any tools he wanted to buy didn't have to come out of his fun money budget (he used it on food mostly) because, supposedly, they could possibly make us money. He needed the tools for his work. Nine years later and he has not even attempted to relase a song and he hasn't made a dime on his music but he's spent thousands of dollars. The past nine years have been littered with Ross meeting all of his needs while hating everything I wanted to do. When I had a little extra money that was mine for building websites for a few people I took him to Disneyland. He was miserable and the trip was pretty awful. I paid for him to get a massage, my first, along with me...and he said that the woman who gave him a massage actually hurt him. He was ungrateful for anything I tried to do for him (not entirely his fault, though, his entire family is that way). Meanwhile, every goal that he ever had has been met. I was elated when I realized that around June of last year...but of course, as we know on the Path of the Seeker, that wasn't enough. He got into a new hobby I couldn't support- guns and shooting. To the point where he was late for his cousins meeting Michelle for the first time, because he threw togeter a group of people to go shooting at the last minute. He paid thousands of dollars for guns, ammunition, cases, cleaning materials, and targets....and then even had his best friend lie. The Lesson I need to stop keeping my needs small and sacrificing what I want for my husband. He is not going to be happy even if he doesn't. I've allowed him to get away with his bad behavior for 9 years. I can honestly he has everything he ever wanted and he's not happy. I did the best I could and I am done. So if I want something. I"m going to buy it. Conclusion I had this same sork of wake up call back in 2014 but I wasn't strong enough to see it for what it was. Back then, I was pregnant and eating Healthy Choice meals at lunch and Ross would yelled at me if I went out to eat lunch with the other pregnant girl at work. He wouldn't let me quit the job even though I felt I was endangering my daughter and he held me to the strict budget because he needed my income to qualify for our house. He controlled my diet because he was concerned for the babies health...seemingly good intentions but woefully misguidede. Meanwhile, after my daughter was born prematurely I discovered during that entire time he had been going to 7/11 and buying slurpees almost every day. So, here I am back where I was in 2014. I have revisited everything that led to the crisis that led me to being on disability for a year with severe depression and panic attacks that kept me from getting out of bed. This time, I'm armed with spiritual knowledge. He is responsible for his actions and I hold him 100% accountable. I am not victim blaming by saying I have a responsiblity to see my part in the situation. What I have to do is change my behavior and our relationship will have to change. He will have to grow as an individual to accept the new status quo. The one thing I know for certain about the future is I am not going back to the person that I was and now that I see how I've been manipulated (by the way, past friends and ex's are just as guilty- the ex-husband was far worse!) everything has changed. Right now, I'm celebrating this as a victory. I am grieving for the relationship I thought I had but I'm glad I woke up and be the mother that my daughter deserves. I have no interested in ending my marriage. I beleive that my husband has it in him to be a true partner and I still love the person he is at the very core but I have to take this day by day. I'm just really enjoying my beautiful little daughter and the gifts every day brings.
(I created the piece of Artwork above and called it Healing Cirlce because I wasn't sure what people would think of Healing Spiral. This was made back in 2007ish when I was attempting to explore the Spiritual Path for the second time- I stopped working that path when I met my husband who was an athiest at the time...the amazing thing is how I knew I had to put this picture in this blog...and it ties in so well with what I explore at the end of this blog.)
The spiral of creation is something I've finally started to comprehend. If you look out on the web you will see a lot about the Fibonacci Spiral. I put a video on that subject at the end of this The Spiral is the pattern upon which all of Creation is based. This is also the pattern that our lives are based upon. In this blog I want to share what it means to work with the Spiral Cycle instead of against it. Humanity has attempted to work against the Spiral for generations. We have resisted change and resisted the concept that there are deeper meanings to all life events or that we are constantly repeating the same patterns. The Spiral is a visual representation of the pattern we can expect to see in our lives and how events are interelated and interdependent. Let's go deeply into this subject and find out what we can discover about this process. The Soul Is Eternal I know this is an odd place to start this blog. I just want to start here because when things start breaking down in your life you may feel like you are being destroyed. Part of the inherient pattern of the Spiral is that everything starts off at a concentrated point of being (at the center) and as you work your way outward on the current lesson you are working on in life (some people only work one lesson in their life and some of us, like me, work multiple lessons) you are required to let go of a lot of what you started off with. In my research, I've discovered the soul, the essence of who you are, is eternal and can never be destroyed or made 'less then' by this Spiral Path process. We have -from the soul perspecitve- nothing to fear. The One Creator from which all of Creation sprung...doesn't make mistakes...you are a neccesary part of creation and you will never be destroyed. Yes, we may have undesirable experiences when exploring Samsara (the process of life and death) but those experiences are only temporary and the level of your discomfort is based on your perspective. Every undesireable experience contains a lesson and represents progress in the evolution of our individual soul spark as it develops into a mature expression of the divine (to put it into alchemical terms all of us start off with Lead and it's in the fiery furnace of Samsara that we transform Lead into Gold becoming mature souls). Too much of organized religion has focused on temporary negative experiences in Samsara as punishment causing a very big distortion (error) where people focus way too much of their attention on trying to avoid punishment (which due to the Law of Attraction/Self-Fulfilling Prophecy actually causes more of that experience) and very little time on self-development with the intent of reaching spiritual maturity. Religions -to put it nicely- do not encourage spiritual maturity. Recognized The Spiral Cycle There are two cycles I remember learning about in school and college. The first is the water cycle...where Condensation becomes perceptiation, which becomes a body of water on Earth then filters to the ocean where it evaporates and becomes condensation again. The second cycle that I remember learning about is the cycle of verbal/emotional/behavioral abuse: Tension builidng, Incident, Reconcilliation, and then Calm. These two cycles are both excamples of the Spiral Path and they resemble each other don't they? First...there is Tension Building or Condensation building up. Sceond....the Incident or Rain. Third...Reconcillation and the Body of Water joining the sea. Fourth...Calm and Evaporation of the Water. Funny how that works out doesn't it? Yet, in Psychology they have the audacity to suggest that the Cycle of Abuse is unnatural! The Cycle of Abuse describes how most people live. They go through a period of relative calm, then tension starts to build up in some area- sometimes it's work, sometimes it's ith a spouse, and sometimes it's some random event that triggers the Dark Night Of The Soul...and that would be the 'incident phase'....followed by a Reconciliation/Adjustment/Integration of whatever lesson was learned from the experience. In Psychology the person is told to break the cycle by leaving the other person. Yes, that's a good start but that is not even close to the end of the journey. The problem is if they do not change their own behavior they are going to attract someone with the same qualities of their last abuser and they will be in the same exact situation. They cycle will repeat itself until the individual undergoing the experience learns the spiritual lesson they need to learn and change their behavior. When they change themselves the results will change. Often the lesson is about being assertive...and standing up for oneself (I know from experience). I find it hilarious that the one behavioral cycle identified by Psychology is seen in such a negative point of view and seen as an exception to the rule...when it, in fact, is the same pattern the divine applies in every aspect of life in which we live. Continous Cycles If you check out the video I did no Joseph Campbell's Hero's Journey (the return) or my YouTube Intorduction to Alchemy Video you'll find something fascinating. Both Thomas Campbell and D.W. Huack point out that the cycle is continous. When you finish and return from one Hero's Journey...you'll be called out for another. Joseph Campbell in his Pathways To Bliss book even goes so far to say that a fulfilling life is a continious cycle of Hero's Journeys...each time you learn a lesson you are changed but you still keep being called out to go on a new adventure. That's why the spiral cycle makes so much sense...each of those Journey is just the exploration of a single circle or curve of that eternal spiral. Just like the Hero's Journey you end up where you started...the Hero returns to the home he departed to share his boon with his community. Now, some people may look at this and say, "What's the point? If I end up where I started...If I don't really go anywhere...why bother?" We can find the answer in the same place we found the purporse of life. If your soul knows that it's eternal and Physical Material Reality is an illusion or the ultimate truth...why would it chose to enter the Cycle of Samsara (Life and Death) to gain the Knowledge of Good and Evil (Duality)? Well, why do you sit down and watch a Movie? What do you gain by watching a made up story for an hour or more? The answer is Experience. While Physical Material Reality (PMR) might not be the Reality of the Absolute...or our soul...it gives us experiences. Those Experiences is what makes each soul spark unique...and the opportunity to grow. We start off as little seeds of potential...and PMR helps us grow quickly (other beings on other plains of existence that do not experience the degree of the Illusion Of Seperation that we experience grow much more slowly...Thomas Campbell explains that concept in his Big T.O.E. Books). As Bashar explains, the experience might not be 'real' in the sense of the Ultimate Reality...but the experiences are real. Just like you can recall the feelings invoked by watching a good movie...the movie itself isn't real but your reaction to it...your personal experience with it...is real to you. That's how PMR works...the experience is real to the soul teaching it more about itself, the rest of Creation and, in turn, The Creator. While we might end up in the same place or situation where we started our Hero's Journey...everything has changed because we have changed ourselves. Which reminds me of an awesome song that I will put at the end of this video. I'm really excited that there are more bands that are expressing the awakening experience. Refinement With each cycle completed, I have learned, we are further refined. I have recently re-entered the phase I found myself in during 2014....and this current phase started in July 2018 and will be complete in 2025 (I recently wrote a blog on this topic published on). I will be completely dependent upon my husband for a second time. I can tell you that I never imagined in 2015, when that cycle of being dependent upon my husband as the sole income earner (although, technically that wasn't the case because I was receiving disability) that I would ever willingly enter that situation again. Yet, I have refined myself by completing several cycles of the Hero's Journey- that contain several little moments of At-one-ment with the Father with each resultng in a minor adjustment to my behavior- that my atittude is totally different. My entire situation, although the same as 2014 in type, is totally different. Not just for me but for my husband as well..and this is due to events that I put into motion back in 2014 that have come to fruition since then. That's the purpose of the cycle...it's like a potter at their wheel. The Wheel is continually spinning as they shape the pot with their hands...it's the continous cycle of the pedestal that really does the work of creating the beautiful figure of the pot...the potter only provides the energy and a slight pressure to help shape the pot into the image desired. The One Creator is the Potter, putting pressure on us to shape us and supplying the energy for the Spiraling Cycle of our lives. Conclusion In conclusion, when you understand that cycles are completely normal and are all the reflections of a natural process we can stop resisting the cycle. We can stop thinking something is wrong with us that we are experiecing a cycle. Cycles are the way that this world manifests and that our Soul's learn. We always end up where we started...just like the Hero's Journey and Alchemy states. Wen we work with the Spiral Path we gain knoweldge more quickly and we experience the abudnance of Spiritual Growth. The Cosmos/One Creator naturally provides the energy and experiences we need to help us continue on this healthy path of self-realization/self-actualization. When we work against the Spiral Path we are scarttered, lost and confused. We will end up creating more havoc setting ourselves up for brutal challenging life lessons as we continue to fail the test that would allow us to move onto the next lesson our soul desires. I just want to touch upon the Fibonacci Spiral video that I'm attaching below for just a moment. I want to point out a couple things in the video. 1. The Female Circle is the obvious manifestation of this principal ini our reality...the feminine is manifested. 2. The Male Square is not something we see in nature. This is just a conceptual basis for humans to recreate the spiral sequence that we see in nature based on math. In Theory it someone exists in nature but it's 'unseen' much like Non-Physical Material Reality (NPMR). 3. This might be the meaning behind the Masons stated purpose of, "Squaring the Circle." The Circle already exists in PMR but the square is invisible existing in NPMR. 4. The Association of the Circle with Manifested PMR is confirmed by the Kabbalah Tree of Life where PMR is referred to as feminine (Malkuth, the Lesser Mother) and is wmanated from the feminine Binah (the Greater Mother). Aftera all, Francesca Simon has associated Binah with being the 'Gathering the materials' phase of manifestation (for example if you're going to cut a snowflake out of paper...you first must have the materials before you can make it. In this case, Binah would consist of the scissors and paper). This also aligns with the Dogon philosophy...Binah would be 'Amma's Placenta' in that Creation Story. 5. The Association of the Square with Unmanifested reality (NPMR) is confirmed by the Kabbalah as well. Here we find that Francesca Simon assocates Chockmah, the second descending Sephiroth on the Kabbalah Tree of Life, plans. This is where we plan how we are going to make the snow flake and that the project requires scissors and paper along with a visualization/image of how we exepct the final result to look). 6. The Descent down the Kabalah Tree of Life was a Spiral of energy...the Ascent up the Kabbalah Tree of Life consists of conceptual 'squares'. The song below by Nothing More is amazing...and I'd say, "Do You Really Want It," should be the main mantra for anyone who says they want to follow the Spiral Path of the Spiritual Seeker. Knowing that you will be repeating the same lessons until you get them right may affect your decision...but you can always tell what you really want because you'll stick with it despite any set backs you may experience. The rate you grow at is entirely up to you and it usually starts off slow.
Depends on what your subjective concept of "evil" is...that's why we have such a complex court system.
Can "Evil" be redeemed? Absolutely. "Evil" can absolutely be redeemed. All of us have the potential for evil. The choices we make when we have the option of acts that harm others determine the outcome. The problem pops up when people don't have the perspective of having a choice. They have tunnel vision based on conditioning and karma. They can't see the other options that exist. In fact, for the people who are spiritually minded it's a personal neccessity for them to forgive and let go of those who wronged them. To latch on and name anyone evil is to deny a part of themselves...after all, we are all ultimately One Being viewing itself from multiple perspectives. Finding the ability to understand to some degree the person that wronged you to some degree and forgiving them is important. Forgetting helps too but that takes a lot longer process...and the entire process is huge. If We're All One Where Does Evil Come From? This goes all the way back to Adam Ha Rishon...the primordial being who's oversoul is also the architect of this world. He is the Light Stealer. He is Maui, Lucifer, Prometheus, The Smith, and the Jackal. The demi-urge as people call him. He was a bit insane because of what happened to him. The first and only of his kind...cut off from the 'hive mind' that other species experienced prior to his creation in Spirit. As Thomas Campbell describes it...everyone was in a chat room with each other with instantaneous communication. Then this other area was created. The Jackal was the first to occupy it and he was alone. I wouldn't even be able to comprehend that idea. This was all in Spirit. None of this was in the physical yet. The Nummo that are talked about in the Dogon religion are not physical but spiritual. They were never really entirely physically manifest. Anyways, there was this belief that Adam Ha Rishon killed. This is an old thing that goes through the storyline we have been stuck in...kind of like a time loop. That involves the entire Set/Osiris storyline or Cain and Able if you are more familar with the bible. Glass I know this is an odd comparison. I found the relationship between Casey Cook and The Horde...Kevin Windell Crumb...to be fascinating. Now, who can deny- on an archetyAbsolutely "Evil" can absolutely be redeemed. In fact, for the people who are spiritually minded it's a personal neccessity for them to forgive and let go of those who wronged them. This goes all the way back to Adam Ha Rishon...the primordial being who's oversoul is also the architect of this world. He is the Light Stealer. He is Maui, Lucifer, Prometheus, The Smith, and the Jackal. The demi-urge as people call him. The first and only of his kind...cut off from the 'hive mind' that other species experienced prior to his creation in Spirit. As Thomas Campbell describes it...everyone was in a chat room with each other with instantaneous communication. Then this other area was created. The Jackal was the first to occupy it and he was alone. I wouldn't even be able to comprehend that idea. This was all in Spirit. None of this was in the physical yet. The Nummo that are talked about in the Dogon religion are not physical. Glass I know this is an odd comparison. I found the relationship between Casey Cook and The Horde...Kevin Windell Crumb...to be fascinating. Funny she's called Cook and he's a Crumb. That's funny. On the Archetypal level The Horde is "The Beast"...just like Beast in Beauty and the Beast. Anyways, their relationship in the movie was amazing. First, that she didn't hate him for what he had done to her. He inspired her to put her adoptive father who clearly was sexually abusing her into jail. He helped her go from being a victim to her own personal Hero. Second, that she didn't give up on him. She loved him. Now peple are going to say, "Well, that's Stockholm Syndrom." He let her go and she returned to him...so is that really? How can you really hate him when you realize...in a lot of ways...he was the victim? Not just victimized by a cruel unloving mother...but the fact Glass led to Kevin's death because of the Train wreck. Kevin was just as much a fly caught in Glasse's web as Dunn. At the same time I cried for Elijah too. He didn't ask to be born broken. While people who still hold the dualistic paradigm of good and evil it might feel wrong to empathsize with charecters that were classically considered villians...I find it refreshing. Conclusion One of the beautiful things about looking at life from a multidimensional point of view allows people to understand that there is a lot more variety. Story wise it's kind of the concept that's simliar to when movies went from being silent to having sound and then with the Wizard of Oz color. We're in one of those transitions in our world...where we are going from one paradigm to another. Think of it as a new story. I'll cover what I think the old story was as much as I can tell and tehn I'm moving. I'm just so excited we're going to have a new collective story!al Funny she's called Cook and he's a Crumb. That's funny. Anyways, their relationship in the movie was amazing. First, that she didn't hate him for what he had done to her. He inspired her to put her adoptive father who clearly was sexually abusing her into jail. He helped her go from being a victim to her own personal Hero. Second, that she didn't give up on him. She loved him. Now peple are going to say, "Well, that's Stockholm Syndrom." He let her go and she returned to him...so is that really? How can you really hate him when you realize...in a lot of ways...he was the victim? Not just victimized by a cruel unloving mother...but the fact Glass led to his father who was going to help him's death. He was just as much a fly caught in Glasse's web as Dunn. At the same time I cried for Elijah too. He didn't ask to be born so limited and thinking he was useless. While people who still hold the dualistic paradigm of good and evil it might feel wrong to empathsize with charecters that were classically considered villians. Conclusion One of the beautiful things about looking at life from a multidimensional point of view allows people to understand that there is a lot more variety. Story wise it's kind of the concept that's simliar to when movies went from being silent to having sound and then with the Wizard of Oz color. We're in one of those transitions in our world...where we are going from one paradigm to another. Think of it as a new story. I'll cover what I think the old story was as much as I can tell and tehn I'm moving. I'm just so excited we're going to have a new collective story!
March is always a tough month for me because my daughter Lilith-Ann was born March 28th and passed away three days later.
However, on a more cosmic level we are entering a great period for solitude and reflection. As I've shared before I am taking a break from YouTube and Facebook. I'm really retreating into myself and seeking inner balance. Looking back, I have been in constant battles since 2014. For a few weeks now and now during Mercury retrograde I just don't have the words or the levity to go into the examination neccesary to really divulge the depth of what I've gone through in the last five years. So, I'm just resting and I highly recommend a regimen of meditations every night along the lines of the Heavenly Light Meditation that I use. Also, this is a great tme for an aura cleanse which Lune Innate shared on her YouTube channel. Check out the podcast from Molly McCord who brings up similar chllenges this week regarding communication at the bottom of this post as well. (The picture above was retrieved from https://www.123rf.com/photo_10864931_bottle-with-milk-for-a-baby.html)
At this time society in the United States is pushing that 'Breast is best' ideaology. Women who can't breastfeed are feeling inadequate as a result which I have had a taste of...and it's very easy to give up hope and throw in the towel when it comes to breastfeeding. Hospitals have gone with the trend and the nurses push for women to feed a new born exclusively with breast milk leading to some weird policies. With most things in life...it's best to remain flexible. Events may occur that prevent you from exclusively breastfeeding and this blog is for the women who find themselves in that situation and to provide information for first time mothers. The current recommendation is to breastfeed for the first year...yup, at six months your baby will be eating solid food but it's recommended the first year the baby has breast milk. If that's too long the second suggestion is to breastfeed for the first six months...up until the baby starts to get teeth. The third suggestion is to bresatfeed exclusively for the first 6-8 weeks at least (the same period of time that you should keep baby at home and away from anyone who hasn't had the whooping cough vaccine). As I found out not all women can breast feed for the first year of their children's life...or the first six months...or even the first 6-8 weeks. Most workplaces, even if there is a law such as in California, don't provide a special room just for breastfeeding mothers to pump. In the realm of business there are not that many breastfeeding mother's who are employees to invest in one room just for them. At least in California there are 12 weeks (3 months) of baby bonding time....so that more then covers the 6-8 weeks of exlusive breastfeeding. The worst case scenario happened to me. Since my daughter's stayed briefly (5 days) in the Neo-natal Intensive Care Unit the she was given formula and breast milk in a bottle so she won't go back to breastfeeding. This is called nipple confusion. Simply put- a bottle is far easier for a baby to receive milk (if they are paitient they can let the drip of the bottle do all of the work for them without sucking) and going back to mothers nipple is just plain confusing and frustratinig for them. Further, my production hasn't been enough to satisfy her hunger 100%. So, I have to supplement some formula anyways. Women do not consistantly produce milk until six or eight weeks in when the 'milk supply is established.' Until then the supply is effected by how much a woman eats, the amount of rest she receives, and if she is relaxed. At this point, there is a decision to be made...do I just throw in the towel and go with 100% formula or do I use a pump for the next year to feed my little one? Don't Be Discourged Before you make the choice by leaping to conlcusions about your production in the first few days there are a few things you should know. Yes, you might hit the worst case scenario where I did where your daughter ends up in the NICU or a well meaning nurse gives your child a pacifer within the first few days or a bottle leadint to nipple confusion. That in no way means your supply is inadequate or your 'not good enough' (I admit there was a period of about three or four hours where I felt sorry for myself). Here are summarized facts that I wish I knew during those first few days. Breast milk doesn't start to 'come in' for most women until the third day after the baby is born and for those of us who do c-sections it is usually day four. During this time there are only tablespoons of colustrum produced. This is referred to as liquid gold. You can go five hours before pumping or feeding. The hospital will push you to pump every two hours but if you're tired you need to rest. You will produce less if your stressed out and exhausted which will just create more stress...until your in an endless loop of stress and anxiety. Don't wake up the baby every two hours to feed. The hospital may instruct you to do this but it's perfectly natural for baby to sleep 4 to 5 hours at a time. This popular trend comes and goes as often as the tide but experienced parents will tell you that waking the baby to eat (as long as they don't sleep longer then four or five hours those first few months) is nonsense. The baby will eat twice as much as they do every two hours...but hey they need your rest and so do you. Hospital staff can feed every two hours because they work 8-12 hours shifts...but you're with baby 24/7 and your rest is important because it will effect how much you produce. Breast milk supply isn't established until six or eight weeks after the babie's birth. You can expect the amount to go up and down untl then. Unlike breastfeeding moms who can't track the amount of oz's it's easy for those who pump and supplement to become obssesed with this variation. As long as your peditrician thinks your little one is on track weight wise there is no reason to stress over how little or how much extra you produce in each pumping session. Babies eat twice as much formula than breast milk. Don't be surprised if your baby drinks 8oz's of formula but only wants 4oz's of breastmilk.That has nothing to do with the quality of the breastmilk and everything to do with the lack of formula's ability to mimic breastmilk exactly Breastmilk consists of a hindmilk that is high in fat that helps fill and soothe the babies tummy. The hindmilk leads to a fuller feeling without the extra calories. This prevents over eating. Making The Choice I haven't really seen this topic covered in blogs or books. In the over 400 pages on the subject of Breast Feeding in, "What to Expect The First Year," by Heidi Murkoff this topic is given a tiny three square aside. In that square it's noted that breast pumping is the hardest method. Woman rejoiced when formula was created. Suddenly, they were no longer restricted by the need to stay home for at least six months to feed their children. Not to mention the mothers who had difficulty with breast feeding- thanks to latching problems or in the case of my mother medical problems- could feed their little ones safely. I can see why most women throw in the towel if they can't go the direct breast route. Feeding on demand naturally seems easier then having to use a pump every two hours (an electric pump is not that bad) which is time consuming. Add in the Little One having feedings in between that and you're not goin to get much done. Making the decision is hard. For me, I can tell a difference in the behavior of my baby when she eats breast milk instead of formula. She has more gas with formula, eats three times the amount of formula than breast milk,and doesn't sleep as well. Breast milk consists of a foremilk that has all of the nutrients that the baby needs (this is after the first few days where they receive colustrum which is referred to as liquid gold- there is far less of it but it contains potent antibodies produced by the mothers body) and a hindmilk that contains a lot of fat that helps fill the babies tummy and helps them sleep. As such I have decided to stick with breast pumping for a year to give her the best start that I can. I know it's the hard and demannding route but I'm 100% sure...after seeing such a dramatic difference in her having formula and breast milk so I can compare the effects...that for her breast milk is the best choice. I cannot judge women who choose formula. She's not awful with formula. There is no conclusive evidence that formula leads to children being less smart than their breastmilk counterparts, there is no difference in bonding (afterall, my daughter is receiving botled breast milk), and formula is just far more conveinant- a little adding of powder, a little shake and the formula is ready to go (you can even buy the premixed stuff which is even easier). Formula is the best option for a working mother. Luckily, my husband makes enough that I don't have to work...and so I've chosen to give up my job in order to continue to feed my daughter breastmilk. Becoming a house wife is a topic for another blog. What You Need Now, for someone doing straight formula...all you need is the formula and the bottles. You can use room temperature water to mix the powder formula. For those who breastfeed exclusively the list is a bit more complicated: Breast Pads- Disposable or Washable Cotton A milk band to track the next feeding and which breast you will use next. This is a life saver in the first few days at the hospital. A nice covering if you have to breast feed in public (I'm not a fan of the boob hanging out) A pump so Dad can give you a break (this is only after breastfeeding is firmly established after a few months). A handful of bottles so Dad can do some feedings. If you're pumping breast milk and supplementing formula you'll want everything above and a few other things: Lots of Bottles- You'll need bottles for formula and for breast milk. These need to be marked. The shelf life of formula is different from breast milk. Breast Milk has a four hour shelf life at room temperature. After being in the fridge Breast Milk is only good for one hour. Bottle Warmer- This isn't neccesary for the other methods...but if you're pumping every two hours you'll want to keep that breast milk in the fridge...and my daughter, at least, get's an upset tummy if I give her formula straight from the fridge. You can use two coffee cups as a method of warming if you don't have the money for a bottle warmer but there are models for $25 and boy is that expense worth it. I will have another blog with the products I chose after hours of research and reading reviews. There are a lot of products out there and finding the best product for your money is hard. Be Careful What You Eat Just like breastfeeding moms...when you pump and supplement formula you have to be careful what you eat. While breastfeeding a woman needs to maintain between 1500 to 1800 calories per day with the emphaisis on the high end of the scale. Since I gave birth and started breast feeding I've experienced a huge weight loss. I can now fit into a pair of jeans I haven't worn for over five years! Within two months I weigh less then I did at the start of the pregnancy. That alone, to me, is worth pumping and breastfeeding. That said, I learned to avoid spicy foods. I had my husband fix his spicy spaghetti and boy did I regret it that night! That spiciness made it into my breast milk and my little one had the most painful gas! Since her body is still learning to process it and she doesn't really understand what's happening (after all, she didn't choose to eat the spicy spaghetti) it was rough for both of us. All I could do is hold her as she cried and fussed while apologizing for eating something spicy. Poor little thing! Don't Mix Formula and Breast Milk My husband and I made this mistake when we first came home. The baby gets the worst of both worlds. You may seperate the hind milk from the foremilk...leading to overeating (resulting in some throw up) and you may get just he hind milk leading to an increae in the feeding activity. Either way, it's not a fun experience. If you're supplementing keep the breast milk and the formula seprate. Use the breast milk first and only give the baby formula afterward if the baby still acts hungry (an opening of the mouth is a request for food). Most of the time they won't because the hind milk fills their little tummy and they'll crash after eating the breast milk. Beer Now, the book "What to Expect When Your Expecting" states that there is no food that will increase your breast milk production. There are teas and supplements out there that say they do but they don't. Yet, my Pediatrician who is on the board for the Association of Pediatricians in California...told me to drink beer. In particular beer with a high amount of malt. The more malt (not yeast) that is in the beer the higher your breast milk production. I hate beer but I was willing to try anything. When I tried it I was shocked that my production doubled. Still, I didn't quite believe it...so I did what the nurses suggested for a day and drank a lot of water (which I do anyways) without the beer. Well, the production dropped significantly. Now, I can't say entirely that the effect is caused by the malt as the peditrician claimed. Maybe, in the comnig months I'll work my way up to the darker largers that contain more malt. For now, I can only tolerate the pale beers because I don't like the taste. Yet, I suspect part of it might be the affect of the alchohol. As I noted- rest and relaxation is the #1 most important aspect of increasing breastmilk production. I see the biggest total for the day increase when I have four to five hours of consecutuive sleep. I'm a light weight so a bottle of pale ale- yes just one- pretty much knocks me out. I always end up taking at least a thirty minute nap after drinking a bottle. That might be the main reason that beer increases production so much...it helps a mother relax and rest. I haven't tried the tea or the supplements. I really don't have the desire to at this point. Yet, it's possible the tea acts in much the same way as the beer. I know tea has a relaxing effect on me, not as much as alcohol because it doesn't knock me out, but something about the comoforting warmth and satisfaction of a good cup of tea is relaxing. Conclusion I respect single mothers more then ever after my experience with my little one. I have total respect for those who choose to go with formula instead of breast feeding. I understand why it's been popular since it's invention in 1865. The freedom of being able to feed a child formula so that a mother can go on uninterrupted with work and chores is stellar. I have total respect for those who are lucky and can naturally breastfeed. I think it's beautiful (but I still don't want to see your boob in public with so many options to cover yourself...sorry) and the best option for a healthy child. Not only will the child not overeat but they will also have to work harder for the food...helping to establish a very healthy metabolisim and delay gratification (as opposed to the instant gratification of a bottle which is the primary cause of nipple confusion). I also give credit to anyone who decides to pump because of nipple confusion, latching issues or a lack of production (the only one I didn't experience was the latching issue) because it is the most difficult and time consuming route. Another item I didn't think was neccesary.
Yet it's been pefect. The bug lights up which babies love, plays music and has ocean sounds. There is a hook that you can use to put it anywhere- I've even hooked it to my belt buckle as I held my daughter. There are accesories where you can attach it to the car seat and stroller too. For me, the most valuable part is that I hung it from my daughter's Fisher Price rocker sleeper. The ocean sounds along with the rocking put her straight to sleep. That combination is priceless. I also used it during tummy time. This gave her something to look at and listen to as she works out. She reaches out towards it so it's good for motivating her to crawl. I highly recommend this toy.
I really enjoyed the first How To Train Your Dragon and the second one. This third one did not disappoint. The villian could have been given more development but...seriously, it's a kids movie. I don't expect a relatable or deep villian (nor did I really want a Thanos or Killmonger type charecter in a movie like this one).
That said I give this movie an A. The true magic of this movie is with the Little Ones. The theater was packed with small children...and all of them were spell bound through the entire movie. There were no random children talking or crying. They were completely absorbed in the action. This was the only childrens movie with that many children packed into a theater where this occurred. The fact that they aged these charecters and ended the series conclusively was absolutely bold and awesome. The ending of this movie made me cry in the theater because it was so Sweet! How To Train Your Dragon 3: The Lost World does hold surprises which- as the third movie in a trilogy- is shocking. So, that said, if you have children you need to take them to see this in theaters!
To try and keep things positive and light hearted because I tend to take things way to seriously I've really focused on my favorite fantasy franchises or ASMR. They usually don't talk about politics. For the most part the discussions are shallow.
New Rockstars is a nerdy gossip program talking about fictional charecters. The YouTube channel analyzes these movies for "Easter Eggs" in the MCU movies (and the show Walking Dead and most Marvel Franchise and only the DC movies). I, personally, don't care that Black Panther was nominated. That's a movie I have and can watch a million times and enjoy. If it had won it wouldn't changeor influence the fact I enjoy watching it. I don't need other people to validate something I already love. I agree that award shows are dumb. They're popularity contests judt like the student body elections in high school...and much like political elections. They're egoic public masturbation. One of the guys on there, Eric, when talking about the Twilight Zone reboot that I won't watch because I'm not payingfor a streaming platform for just two shows, mentioned something fascinating. Now when I got into the whole Timelines theory in the spiritual movement it started with John Titor. The multiverse and alternate timelines have been plot devices- some might even call lazy- in the comic book industry for years. Anyways, one of the hosts commented that he named his comedy routine Darkest Timeline because he considers this to be...THE Darkest Timeline. He feels someone went back in time and 'did something' that's sending out ripple effects. This is the video that I placed above starting at the part where he talks about the theory. That floored me because this Timeline is certainly not the darkest I could imagine. For me, in fact, despite the hardships and set backs that some people can't imagine in my personal life...this is the most awesome time of my life. Personally, I'm in the best possible Timeline in which I'm learning the most. I forsee things becoming so much better on the world level...but things are going to get really ridiculous first because the light is illuminating the darkest corners of human psyche. A dislike of the unfamilar and the desire to set ourselves apart from others is nomal in our world...it's part of the process of differentiation that's the basis of our individuality and is neccesary to 'grow up' spiritually. As the saying goes, "It is always darkest before the dawn." We have had far darker times in the history of this nation. We've had a civil war, Jim Crow laws in the South, and Mccarthyism. We have had two major low points during my life- the Gulf War and the "War" with Iraq both of which were extremely stupid, unjustified and obviously not in the best interst of our nation. We have overcome tremendous hate from colonial countries such as Britain and Spain who would have loved to reconquer us to exploit our resources not very long ago. Why Do People Who Love Dystopian Future Stories Feel These Are The Dark Ages? Dystopian futures have been the rage for some time...more so then Super Hero movies. Alita Battle Angel and Ready Player One being the most recent. I'm over them but the generation that funded those movies really think that's the only outcome humanity is capable of producing. The hopeful movie of Tomorrowland was flatly rejected by this generation. While the people of the 1950's were probably the most repressive...they were also hopeful for the future and were willing to explore the idea of the future from multiple perspecitves and out comes. Not allof those were exercises in negativity...Star Trek being among the most positive of future outcomes and it is compltely unique. Perhaps it's a huge phenomenon but it is the only science fiction franchise in the cinema to explore a positive future for humanity. The latest generation seems to be really focused on the Dystopian Future rejecting other outcomes. For example, the CEO of the Tesla car company and Space X really believes that the Earth itself is a lost cause and the only way to save humanity will be to colonize Mars...abandoning our planet. Perhaps these people think that Trump is a symptom of the degradation that will lead to the destruction of our society and Earth. I just want to laugh at people who are that insanely pessimistic...like Mr. Rich CEO who doesn't own a profitable company but gets a lot of funding from his friends in the government while other more practical start ups with real applicable solutions struggle to exist...but then I supported Obama, Ron Paul and Trump because their campaigns said they would get term limits on congress and get rid of lobbyists in D.C. The cannidates who want to do that will always get my vote because it's the only way to fix our goverment. I'm not ready to give up on Humanity and trying to make the world a better place...or giving up on the Earth. Women Who Hate White Men And Vote Based On Gender Are Facist I'll write a seperate blog on Girl Power. This is another group that seems to be advocating that we are in a modern Dark Age. Back in the 90's when I went to see the Spice Girls I never imagined that it would earn the same connotation as Black Power. That there would be people who literally hate that statement or create a new 'hate' label- Social Just Warrior (SJW)- seemed impossible in response to a movement that is supposed to be based on female empowerment... I think it's insane. However, it has to do with the women who latch onto the label and run around spreading messages of hate. Truly empowered people don't have to hurt or destroy what they consider 'the enemy'. That is what triggers such a hateful response from others and makes such movements ditasteful to general society. Hate only breeds more hate and trying to wipe out another group- whether it's a gender or race is the epitome of hatefulness. I'm all for feminine empowerment. Some of what people are calling Social Justice Warrirors are just misguided people trying to use that platform to further their careers. Their stupid speeches remind me of some of the inexperienced ignorant people doing a presentation in front of a high school class thinking that they were 'edcuating' people by presenting evidence mixed with a heavy dose of self-righteous opinion. That's indoctrination. Mostly, I think people are trying to use these 'hot topics' to promote themselves but they really don't relate to the topics revealing a lack of maturity and morality. I like the majority of middle aged white men and I don't think they should feel guilty about what their ancestors may or may not have done in this country. Not to mention the white males of my genartion are pretty weak...they are mostly geeks who live in their parents basements because they can't figure out how to live on their own. To punish later generations that don't hold a candle to the motivation, strength, will power, self-respect, inspiration or determination of their forefathers is just...well, as insane as the statement 'Girl Power' sounding militant. The fact many of them are joining in this movement shows that they have just as much hate for their acestors and themselves because they've been such co-dependent failures...so what does it really accomplish? Congratulations for villifying a group of white middle aged males who already hate themselves...is it really a victory if they already defeated themselves? People are responsible for their actions in the here and now. I don't respect superiority complexes of any kind and people who are authority figures have to prove why I should respect them. At the same time we can't go into the past and change things. We have to deal with people as they are now. As Thomas Campebll says- that's just part of the rule set of this reality. I don't respect people based on gender, sexual orientation, their job title, political orientation or race. None of that matters. How they treat the people around them speaks volumes...and how they treat strangers. How they treat friends, family members or how they treat people that they admire or that they want to sell something (including their own election) means nothing. The survival of their ego depends on the support from those people. The definition of Facsisim is: "A one party dictatorship." Feminism right now might as well be a party of it's own. If you elect women solely on their gender...that's a one party system. A very ignorant perspective because being loyal only to a gender gives someone with no morality but the right bilogical part power it opens the way for a female Hitler to try and gain control of this country. You may get the warm fuzzy feeling for 'correcting history' but that honeymoon won't last very long. That's an insane philosophy and motivation to vote. I don't play for teams even if it's based on biology and my 'team' is the one being given the win. All of these angry wounded people are projecting their fears on others instead of healing them. Don't Give In To Group Think Inclusion and equality means everyone is given consideration and the people who are truly in service to all are chosen by the people. Did you notice the words gender and race are not even components of the equation? Everyone agrees that this country is divided but they are lining up with everyone else on opposite ends. That's called being part of the problem and whining about it instead of acting like an adult by choosing to be the solution. This country wouldn't be divided if people refused to play the game. You don't have to pick a side or be offended. You can realize that these people are manipulating peoples inferiority complexes to invoke fear and gain power. No race, political party or gender is superior. Race, political party and gender is not what defines us and it's not like any of those will play a factor in our life review in the spiritual realm. I can't see, "Here's Jane, she was a disadvantaged female so we will give her extra spiritual brownie points because she ruined the careers of several men." Now, granted, someone was fired for sexual harrasent because of a letter I wrote to his boss. I did it immediately after the incident and didn't seek his termination but to protect future women from his harassment. I didn't wait decades or until I felt he had undeserved power. My intention makes all the difference...it wasn't politically motivated and not motivated by the desire for power or to gain attention. I didn't hate him. I don't watch the news. I stopped listening and reading about politics. When elections time comes around I will look at the candidates. I don't let half reported news make the decision for me. Corrections to inaccurate or inflammatory accusations are usually buried leaving the majority of people with a false perception of reality. When you don't follow along with the daily drama you don't have that bias. I didn't have a bias when I wrote that letter. I was doing the right thing for everyone. That's how I vote as well...given the information I can gather I vote for the person I feel will serve the Greater Good...I don't care if they are technically qualified or not. Conclusion We are not in the Darkest Timeline. In many ways the two timelines idea I've talked about in the past are an illusion. The experience of feeling the need to choose is real but...the entire idea is an opportunity. Right now this country is going through the alchemical process of transformation. A catalyst is always needed to get that going. There are paradigms in this country that needed to shift for a long time but they had to be brought into the light before that could happen. We had to see the crazies openly being crazy so we can make an informed decision. People are holding onto old perceptions of reality that no longer exist. Transformation isn't easy. People have an aversion to change and this seeming divide is just the noisiest group of people trying to dig in their heels and resist the change that's already occurred. They're lining up against what they think is the opposing side but, really, they're just two sides of the same coin. I see no difference between the hateful people on either side. I can disagree with people's personal phiolosophy and ideas without wanting to see them suffer. Things will just continue to be laughably ridiculous until people reach their limit. I'm way over the absurdity at this point and I'm waiting for the rest of you to catch up to me. I can't believe there are still people who are waking up to the bigger picture. The fact it's become mainstream is fascinating given that I saw the absurdity in 2007. I guess that's why I started to form this perspective 12 years ago and most of what I hear or read people talking about today seems like really old news. I remember when it was cutting edge information and not general knowledge. Yes, it's incredibly awesome that all of this is becoming general knowledge so everyone has the ability to choose a better future or choose to keep creating this ugly mess of hate where one group wants to destroy the other...that never leads to a happy ending. |
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