There is only one company, Jofferys*, that makes a coffee blend just for Saint Patrick's Day. I didn't buy it this year (maybe next year!)...so I settled for the RedBrick Irish Cream Blend from Winco. The picture is from the bulk bin.
I've had Irish Cream before and didn't like it and especially the creamer that had a strong alcohol flavor. I am not a fan of alcohol, I drink. So, this will be an adventure. Black: I can smell the slight smell of cream and Peppermint. I don't smell alcohol. However, I can taste neither. This is a nice medium roast so it's not very strong With Cream: With a little bit of milk it mostly tastes like the cream which is ok. I can't really taste anything but that creamy flavor. With Sugar: This really punched up the cream flavor even more. The Peppermint liquor flavor is very slight. Conclusion This coffee was okay. Given that it was the only offering I could buy it was okay. I wouldn't mind making it a annual tradition. Maybe next year I'll compare it to Jofferys.
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Aries...the first sign of the Zodiac. The things that I could say but I think I will later.
Let's keep this short and simple. There are a lot of planets in this sign- Eris, Jupiter, Chiron, Venus...and Juno has just left it. So, we have a lot here. Add in the Sun and it's going to be one heck of a party! A healing party...that is...hehe. *Amethyst* A stone of detoxification it was a stone that the Greeks believed would keep them from getting drunk if they added it to their wine (per Athena at Sage Goddess). This is a Third Eye Chakra stone. So, we are working with our perception here...and the upper chakras. Doing a detox...drinking some DeTox teas (there are plenty out there) and some Reiki Plucking Videos sounds about right for additional Tools for this energy. I have a lot of Amethyst. At one point, Amethyst was as valuable as Gold, I hear, but then large caches were found and it lost it's value. Here are my favorite ASMR Plucking/Cord Cutting ASMR Artists Silver Hare: https://youtu.be/6m4qhhHdmIM Tabuhan: https://youtu.be/pjPvFcF7kLs Whispering Gentleman: https://youtu.be/2G2pvYG5-EU Lune Innate: https://youtu.be/j3dK8rjDecE Sunna: https://youtu.be/zSoH_OtzqXI Guided Vibrations: https://youtu.be/nPwo6vM29bE
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So, first and foremost I am of the mind to believe that the Age of Aquarius started in 1981 based on Astrology. I've shared it elsewhere but in Kabbalistic Astrology By Rabbi Joel C. Dobin there is a teaching about the Prophetic Age's that when there are four Saturn/Jupiter conjunctions in an Elemental Triplicity it marks the end of the age and the next Saturn/Jupiter conjunction is the start of a new Prophetic Age. That ended up happening at Midnight on New Years Eve back in 1981. So, all of these people trying to herald and bring in the Age are late.
When it comes to Pluto entering Aquarius, yes, most of us only see Pluto enter about three signs in our life. Each sign last about 15-20 years so it is the defining moment of a generation. We do live in a defining moment. The eighties, the start of the Aquarius showed an optimistic idea of the future. Then, people became really dark. We started to see things really change when it comes to our approach to all of these things. The manical idea of the End of the World and Raptures- whether from 3d to 5d or the Christian Version- really took control of the narrative. As we stand on a precipice that may end up triggering World War III and a devastating world catastrophe as a result...the idea that a Golden Age will come about due to an absolute collapse in society as we know it seems possible. I would never even contemplate the idea. Ultimately, I am not looking at the next 15 years as an 'Event' or the end of this entire Apprhension Around the New Age as the period of time when we will 'arrive.' Instead, what I see it as...and which Bashar has referred to in some ways...is that this is the last time that people who need a few more cycles in the Age of the Animal will stop incarnating on Earth. They are acting up in a response and they want to take the world out with them because if they can't incarnate here they don't want anyone else to experience it. That, obviously, isn't the ultimate plan. Fascinatingly, not long after Pluto enters Pisces Eris will finally leave Aries and enter Taurus. The Shadow that has been rejected by society for so long is going to finally be on Earth. The Rejected Feminine, the psychological Shadow, was not allowed to go to a wedding in mythology. As a result she threw a Golden Apple into a Garden where three goddesses (I often wonder if they represent the conscious, subconscious and superconscious) fought over it and that started War in the world..and ultimately lead to the Trojan War. What we may see at the end of this Pluto in Aquarius Age is the merging of the concept of the Spiritual with Science. Yes, maybe it will take a machien to tell scientists there is a God and they will believe the Machiene. I, personally, love that idea because it would be so...well, such a Modern way of doing things. An object created by man saying, "Duh dumb dumb, you have a soul." Yet, I don't know how that Spiritual and Scientific Revolution will take place exactly. I did write a book called, "The Purpose of Life: A Brief Scientific and Magical Approach For The Zodical Age Of Aquarius." I think something along the lines of where we the wisdom of the Ancients (not just Greek Philosophers) merges with Science. Truth is, our progress in many ways has become stalled. After so much rapid progress it does seem that there will be a shift in understanding...but we may plateau the next fifteen years and that's it. In his book 2038: The Great Pyramid Timeline Prophecy John Van Auken states, "Unllike most visions of humanity's future, which focused on making heaven-to-earth, the ancinet egyptians were ultimately oriented beyond earh. The final acievement wasnot realized in this world- but rather it was realized in multi-dimensions of non-physical realms of consciousness andactivity." pg 100 So, too I have come to believe that believing in the world changing in an instant to where we no longer have suffering- rather in a Rapture or a Utopian accomplishment- is neither kind nor ever possible. Both points of views are not supportive of the Earth School that this planet is mean to be...there are other realms of reality where we can experience that boring leisure. The souls who came here did so to face the challenge of rapid evolutionary soul growth. Instead, what I see is that instead of resisting or denying Divinity and it's purposes...we align ourselves with them. We orient ourselves back to the Source from which all of us emanated and stop trying to fight the reality we find ourselves within. Once we accept the neccesairily temporary nature of reality and the purpose to evolve from a mere blank photon of light into something much more we will be able to adjust more effectively to this life and this world...it would change from fighting the Dragons within to learning...to growing and aspiring to be something more. That is what the Age of Aquarius is ultimately about, in my mind, and I think it is the best possible scenario for humanity. Yes, life can be harsh. We can use methods that are balanced to help ease that harshness but if we orient ourselves to align with the energy instead of conquering or manipulating it...life simply runs more smoothly. That seems like such a small shift in consciousness...not the big huge moment of Threat that makes everyone one co-hesive Group Think being or returns all of us to the stone age so that the animals can re-take the parts of the world that human now inhabits. That the Ancient Egyptians looked at this moment, having remembered their Soul Journey and story on Earth, as a moment of At-Onement- not of punishment but humanity accepting their Purpose and agreeing to peform it with happy hearts instead of resistance- more then three Ages Ago...knowing they would go into multiple Ages of Ignorance (Aries and Pisces) and cycles of reincarnation before they reached that piont- is a humbling one. That is where Pluto in Aquarius is taking us...not to Utopia or Rapture or 5D Earth...but At-Onement where we turn back to the Creator with a curious and joyful heart that we are lucky enough to have a choice and individuality...and start dancing with Divinity once again instead of being cut off staring only into our Shadow (Eris) and operating on the self-fulfilling prophecy of Fear that we created when we found ourselves in such an unusual state as a a soul/photon of light (Black Moon Lilith). Then the Triplicity of Eve (the Collective Conscious), our Entire Subconscious, will be healed. Pluto in Aquarius does represent that Crossroads of Heacate. Souls simply won't incarnate here after their current life. They will go to another planet (and all sources indicate there are others) where they can continue the lessons as they choose to experience the rebelliousness of their Spiritual Nature. Yet, each will eventually choose the alginment as the most obvious choice for their own well being, turn within, and explore themselves so that the Eternity that we perceive in the Cosmos can continue...each with our own little creative contribution to the whole. I debated what a St. Patty's Day smell should be...and after looking around and especially finding a Four Leaf Clover in my yard this one made sense. I have a lot of clovers on my yard in the grass.
This smell is so relaxing. This isn't just a fresh cut grass smell. There is something in there that really evokes a brisk winter morning. This is the perfect essential Oil for this last leg of Winter (which just won't go away here in California as we are in midst another week of rain). This a fantastic oil. Eternal Essence continues to be amazing with their blends.
The above image that I am sharing I drew way back in 2015. Long before that on a website I shared a poem about this image. I saw myself as being asleep at the base of my Tree of Life.
This is such a beautiful dream I just wanted to share it. I think it was one of the most intresting ones I've ever had and I think that it is fun. I'm going to share the dream but I won't be interperting it. I think it's a good example of how, if you work with your dreams, you'll have amazing inspiriation and they can develop beyond the usual "I'm naked in a crowd" or "I'm flying" dreams. By the way, if you dream that you are naked it usually means that you feel exposed and vulnerable (usually emotionally but certainly in any way) to a group of people depicted in the dream. Flying dreams means that you are expericing a sense of freedom and power over your life- again the scenery and where you are means a lot if you are unable to Lucid Dream. I can choose, in uncomfortable dreams, to peace out and fly wherever I want by willing myself to do so and it feels a lot like swimming underwater in a pool. Ganesha/Garden Of Eden Dream I was walking in a garden that was all white and gold. I was an Elephant, which reminded me of Ganesha. Here I realize what a perfect symbol that is for the Human Experience. We are these immortal beings with vast huge experiences...and long memory. Both of which the Elephant represents so beautifully. As I walk around I see that there are not many trees in the Garden. What trees that are there are mostly roots (human lives represented by a sort of potato that the roots form) with lots of branche. Some of them look as though if you touched them they would turn to dust. As I walk, I realize that these trees are actually elephants that chose to take a nap. Some of these napping elephants have been alseep so long they don't remember they are elephants. I sit down and become a tree to see what it feels like for a short period. I hear two Gardeners, both old and grizzled talking. They say that there are not many elephants coming to be trees anymore and no water. They complain that no Gardners are coming either these days. The Garden looks neglected. I see a building that looks like a school. I go into it and realize this is where the Gardners and the Elephants are supposed to be taught. Instead, I find my brother playing a video game called Pirates vs Soliders. Instead of teaching these new souls what he should he is teaching them how to play this game. They look like they are getting the lessons set down by a higher authority but that's not what they are learning. I sit down at my brothers computer and I realize that the game is taking up most of the power of the system along with the memory. So, I deleted the game. I was wondering what I should download in it's place so I can write a simple word document story. I'm interrupted, they see through my Elephant disguise and realize I'm not supposed to on this level of the Multiverse. They throw me into a solitary confinement cubical and I walk right through the bars (an easy trick when you've been O.B.E. enough..walking through walls can be difficult but it can be done). Then I went outside the school. I came to two competing companies that were recruiting the students. I realized these were somehow from the Game. They were recruiting the students my brother played to become players of this game. As I took a pamphlet the woman who was helping me realized I didn't belong and started to say something. I simply woke up.
https://youtu.be/wJnBTP The Tree of Life
Almost every different spiritual religion has the Tree of Life. The most disturbing interpertation of a Tree of Life easily goes to the Norse Mythology that I recently delved deeply into since I encountered Odin in a dream. The image above depicts an actual ritual practice conducted by the elite Norse of the Odin Cult. If you dislike the term Cult I urge you to check out Arith Hargar's channel and listen to his explaination for using the term. Either way, with the Odin Cult, which was mostly practiced by the Norse Royalty and Elite they would hang people from a particular tree emulating the Tree of Life. Now, personally, I have come to interpert the Tree of Life in a particular way. In my drawing above the different gold globes represent the different lives that I have lived...much as the ornaments on my Christmas Tree represent different years of my life and the memories that go with them. However, this Odin Cult depiction of a Tree of Life is by far the most f'd up that I have ever seen. Synchronistically, it showed up the day after I had the Ganesha dream when I watched Arith's great video on the Odin Cult and it's practices. Only some rich a$$ elite jerk would interpert such a beautiful symbol into a ritual sacrifice of this manner. Ganesha I just wanted to add a quick note on Ganesha. Laird Scranton was elephant obssessed (as I am and my mother) for a bit and very much focused on Ganesha. I highly recommend checking out his work, it really came through with the Mystery of Skara Brae, as far as I am concerned. He knew that two Hugging (one male and one female) Ganesha's existed as a symbol and he was able to find it based on his research. Ganesha is known as the Remover of Obstacles. If you buy Elephants in Asian superstition (I am still tripped out that I have Sout East Asian Ancestry but I still bet that's the Cahuilla indian) they have the trunk up and they are good luck. A friend of mine at work, from Guam, named Ruby gave me a Elephant Ring for good luck when I was trying to get pregnant with Michelle and as far as I am concerned it worked. So, Elephants have a *Huge* and powerful Archetype behind them within the Collective Unconscious/Consciousness that I really recommend you tune into. And A Lot More Well, that's all I wanted to share but Spirit had something else in mind... Mostly just random information that I have collected that I really enjoy and a beautiful dream. I love White and Gold in symbolisim. This was sort of a theme in my dreams recently representing me. Now, as far as jewelry and such, I am like my Grandma Alta and I am all about silver...but I do love that White is Purity and Gold is the Sun...which represents Clear Consciousness. I recently listened to someone talk about symbolisim and what it is like to go through life as a Symbolisit...I think it may have been Rick Levine (love that guy, he and David Palmer appear to have some sort of beef going on between them but they bring different information to the table and I like multiple resoursces even when it comes to a Full Moon transit...that's just the college student in me). I don't want to go into astrologers here, I may make a post with my current favorites but it's very true. When you uncode the Symbolisim, the Universal Archetypes, you see the world and everything in it in a very different way. Recently, someone challenged me on my Alchemy video where he was defending Paul Foster Case (a symbolist whom I love and adore that needs more love) choosing a certain system for the Alchemy Process for Esoteric reasons. I promptly asked for a resource so I could learn more. As a symbolist you never know everything and you are constantly learning more. I guess, if I can claim any label now it's a Mystic Symbolist. Ha! That's a new thing. I have a few dining reviews coming up, including speciality food from the Peanuts Festival at Knotts Berry Farm since I am an annual pass holder I will be trying at least one speciality dish while there (the dining plan is awesome if you plant to go there often! No, it doesn't include Mrs. Knotts Chicken Restraurant but still! $150 for two meals a trip per year is amazing. My husband spent $90 just going to a Thai Restraurant and at In N' Out with his sister who came to town to say goodbye to the Mother In Law since she is now on Hospice). Needless to say with the M.I.L.'s imminent passing things have been super weird and nostalgic. The Husbands family deals with death in repressed ways and I seriously will never forget when his Grandpa died and we went over to the house while the body was still there. I *HATE* seeing dead bodies. They creep me the hell out. They are so empty. Personally, I'm going to be cremated and I already know where I want them to put me just in case the girls want somewhere to go to express their grief and give me gifts after I'm dead. Which reminds me I need to visit some graves- my Grandma Emma, Uncle Dougie-John, and Aunt Ruthie are all at the same graveyard. My Grandma Alta and Grandpa Doug are at an exclusive small one in the High Desert. You're Not Alone Everyone Is Having Existential Crises I'm seeing people go through a lot recently and she shared this video that I will also include at the end of this Blog: https://youtu.be/xXFDKtxrNsc Everyone is having existential crisis and Dark Nights Of The Soul. My dear friend Jillian, if you can call her that since I've followed her on YouTube for years and I have talked to her one on one, lost her dog Bomba. Breaks my heart: https://youtu.be/xXFDKtxrNsc The Leo King lost his cat Pixie. He mentions it in the Public YouTube video below. Adam Ellenbaas continues to be challenged that he's not as "Spiritual" because he's no longer a monk: https://youtu.be/6rQI42na6Ds My Personal Existential Crisis I personally have gone through hell recently. I went to the Psychiatric Hospital because the Husband gave me a heavy dose of an anti-psychotic drug I was prescribed back in 2015 for Panic Attacks and it triggered a Psychotic Break. Below is a link to an article explaining that this is actually normal. Let me say this again, supposedly anti-psychotic drugs literally create psychotic breaks. (https://www.priorygroup.com/mental-health/drug-induced-psychosis#:~:text=Drug%2Dinduced%20psychosis%20is%20often,a%20drug%2C%20prescribed%20or%20otherwise). Turns out this has happened five times in a row. I don't think he knew that Anti-Psychotics can cause Psychotic breaks and was truly trying to help. Any old psychiatric drugs need to be tossed as soon as a new prescrpition is given. That's one of the reason I got off that stuff is because a drug that induces the exact thing that it is supposed to treat is a Perfect Circle of logic...the paitients are going to return and be life time customers. I hate the Pharmaceutical Industry with such passion, I legit get the sales people and the fat checks they collect, but it is so corrupt and unregulated because of government corruption. The one case that BP talks about below is just one example of the corrupt industry. Either way, I can move on because, shit, I've been here before. I feel like Bob Monroe when he came across the Soul Complex that claimed to be God and demanded to be worshipped. He Blew up his energy and then reassembled it like, "Oh yeah? I know I am unstoppable and immortal and endless. F Off!" I have endless forgivness because God knows I'm wrong a lot and I judge a lot so people make mistakes. I don't think that my husband wants to kill me or a divorce or anything extreme. Just an honest mistake. Not everyone does their research like me. I'm a College Graduate so you know I hit the books whenever something happens to me and then I go down every Rabbit Hole that intuitively calls. Coming Back From Impossible Situations I'm being led to include this here but I will post this as a seperate blog too. There are some things, hindsight, that I can inlcude but this is the basics for those going through crises. I've tread this path so often that I'm kind of a pro at this point. When Fate walks in and hands you a pile of bullshit here is what to do to come back from it and...all of it does come down to what you can control. Reasserting some control in your life when it feels as though it's out of control is so essentia to coming back from a Devastating Dark Night Of The Soul. Realizing that so many are having issues I want to go through what I do to bring myself back from seemingly impossible situations: 1. Ground Yourself. Figure out what grounds you in reality. Yeah, it's great to float out in the clouds but as the Buddhist saying Collette Baron Reid always shares goes, "Cut wood and carry water." (I highly recommend reading The Map). As I pick up puppy poo or change my daughters diaper...well, no matter how lost you become you have to get back to basics. A. Aromatherapy/Essential Oils/Incense, Etc: * For Example: I LOVE using something earthy or spicy. Deep Patchouli essential oil from Wildberry as a perfume or watered down in the diffuser. Forever Red by Bath and Body Works. Tobacco Vanilla (smells just like Main Street at Disneyland) from Essential Essence is another I'm obssessed with. B. Ritual to Consciously Banish Evil Energy For Example: Sage or Smudge: Sacred Smoke works. I don't know why. I have a mood ring and it went from black with anxiety to relaxed after saging the house. Palo Santo is a great alternative, so is any incense. The actual Indigenous (Cahuilla no less) ritual involves three plants. The Sage Clears, but Sweet Grass blesses. I usually use my incense since the latter is harder to get and I always forget the third plant. The intention to clear negative energy alone works, even carrying a lit candle around the house will work because it is the concept of working with the subconscious through ritual (something creepy dude Crowley knew but I legit discovered on my own, Jung proved it and AA is a great example- by the way research how Jung was involved in the creation of AA). C. Reassuring Routines. Our daily routines are our daily rituals. For some it may be a familar exercise routine or activity. I am pretty random so I don't have one in particular. Yet, just vacuuming can help me. Work routines are a great example especially if you don't have to interact. D. Parental Familar Patterns I find Breaking Points very grounding because it's News and my parents always watched it. So, I find it reassuring and grounding. Cable News, not so much but Breaking Points I learn new things and I usually agree with their conclusions that I've come to in my own life. 2. Declutte and Organize: Legit, this works. I first learned about decluttering from Doreen Virtue who went off the Deep End again when she lost her Animal Rescue thing on Hawaii because of bad money management. But her advice still works...again, like Collette Baron Reid...get back to basics. Decluttering is a simple and easy accomplishment that gives you immediate a Dopamine Hit of accomplishment. Dopamine is a brain chemical that doctors don't understand why but they do know when it is secreted it is the 'Feel Good' chemical. That's a good subject to research. But every day activities that create a Dopamine Hit and amount varies uniquely per person. For Example: Eveyone has a junk drawer. Go for that if you have OCD cleaning issues. Most of us have messes all over the house. 3. Do Something You Love or Go Somewhere You Love For Example: Shop. Dance. Listen to Music. Go To a Theme Park. Etc. Anything that can make you lose track of time. This is what bliss feels like an tapping into bliss can heal anything. 4. Try Something New For Example: I got sucked into the Walkerverse. Discovering something new that you like can help you explore new parts of yourself. I went to a Past Life Reading when I lost Lilith-Ann and was recovering from Galbladder (the two most painful experiences a person can have physicaly- birth/galbbladder surgery- back to back with the most painful psychological phenomenon- the death of a child). I guess you can see why I don't cry for people who chip their nail polish. 5. Dress Up: Doens't matter if you don't have anywhere to go...when you look good you feel good. As someone who is low maintainace- where I don't wear makeup all of the time and can pull out my stuff- the right clothes, the right cute hair style, and makeup turns me into someone hot. That transformation alone can be a Dopamine hit. Doesn't matter if it's a 'waste' and I have no where to go...if you're married the other half will appreciate it and you're lucky to get a little something. For Example: I like putting on my Super Girl Shirt, Wonder Woman shirt or Captain Marvel...all my favorite feminine Super Hero Shirts. Even the Harlequin shirt I am wearing right now feels empowering. Like me she started off studying the mind and had a taste of darkness that made her cooler, in my opinon. A boring by-the-book psychiatrist wouldn't be a very interesting charecter. 6. Embrace The Temporary Darkness: You Are Not Alone. Everyone has Dark Times. All of us Fail in the process of learning. This is not punishment from God. This is a temporary learning experience. Don't run from it because the lesson will come back stronger then ever. Like a Wheel we repeat lessons, on a timed basis literally written in the stars. The thing is what you do with it that matters...that's why predestination and Free Wheel work together. Our Path is a Spiral of either up or down depending on what we have been given. Ground into your lessons. Learn from them. The Move On....and it will be better and easier when you come back to the same lesson. As Kabbahal Teacher Rav Michael Laitman teaches, it is our Spiritual Practices and Approach that can cause the ups and downs of life to lessen. If there is a Creator, which I believe, we worked very hard with natural forces to craft life lessons that would help improve our Eternal Soul that we can become the "Companions to God" (Edgar Cacye) through the process of Knowing Ourselves and Individualization Conclusion Anyways, love you guys. I'm going to leave you with what I've been listening to this month. I would really like to bury my head in the sand and ignore everything. I've become super selective with my News and I'm only watching Breaking Points at this point. I love Krystal, even though I lean more right, and I adore Sagaar's unique point of view. They really are the best news show out there so I'll leave a video from whatever they posted today as well so you can find it. I've been obssessed with the Walkerverse. Alan Walkers music videos are like mini-movies. That he loves cool cars, video games, and everything I think is cool in the world...it's natural that I would like it even though it's more poppy electronica and I'm more of a metal head. So check out one of his most popular songs called The Specter which has a melody that is so Zelda here: https://youtu.be/wJnBTPUQS5A Also, I've been listening to Avenged Sevenfold Instrumentals. I really consider The Rev to have been one of the best Drummers ever and this was the last alblum he wrote the drum lines (is that what they are called? I have never formally studied music) and Synyster Gates is the best Guitarist ever. Yes, they are from where I grew up- one city over in Huntington Beach- but I discovered them while living up in Big Bear so no, I don't know them. I just love them. Here is a great song, I think that a different drummer ended up recording it because The Rev committed suicide but it show cases Synyster and The Rev at the peak of their time playing together: https://youtu.be/ioaGOqdGtew Breaking Points Talking About Pharmaceutical Companies:https://youtu.be/GNUMwxr7Kf8
The amazing thing about this Full Moon is that I am really feeling blissed out. I'm just so grateful to be where I am and that some things have faded into the past. I feel as there is much more to do in certain areas of my life. I have finished my book, I'm letting it rest for a little bit before I read through it and edit it one final time. I have committed myself to publishing it by the end of the April. That it flowed out so quickly, in about three weeks, and that it is so easy to get published these days (so different from when I used to send manuscripts to different publishing companies, one at a time, waiting to get the no letter so I can send it to the next...that was such a long process! I got my short story through but phew, for an novel I can't even imagine and some publishing houses take a year to send a letter where they say no- I have two in my Memory Box).
I have to admit that YouTube channel journey this year has been an adventure. My channel may be getting more views then before but the viewing hours are going down and I have to hit a certain amount to monetize which is crazy. One Daily Oracle Stone hit 1k which was crazy. I am also slowly adding subscribers which is also very interesting. The longer format videos are not getting that many views which does show that the Shorts are where all of the attention is being focused. All in all it is a very fun adventure and I'm grateful to be on it. The Husband let's his presence be known in this video when he gave up and went to bed. Harley started talking and I had to stop the video. There were two times where he was walking to the kitchen or upstairs. Too funny. He was not happy about the Backflow Incense, but Wildberry backflow cones are super strong. The smell is lingering in the house which I love and combats the smell of our Snake who took a dump after eating a rat last weekend. I'm hoping the Husband will clean that out next week, I won't go into the snakes tank...I don't mind Speeders presence but the husband was bitten, just a glancingblow, once and he's been handling that snake since it was a baby so there is no way I'm cleaning that tank. When Summer comes I will be recording these in my Sacred Space where it will be a lot quieter and no interruptions. Right now it's just my kitchen table. Right now, it's so cold in the Covered Patio, where my Sacred Space is, it is so cold that I have to wear a jacket just to go out into it. I think it's only a couple degrees warmer then outside which has been below fifty this week! We received snow two weekends ago which was amazing and beautiful. I took a video of one of our yellow roses being snowed on: https://youtube.com/shorts/XZzDhH9ok-k?feature=share Thank you again, everyone for the support, subscribing, liking the videos when you see them and showing up to this blog. That means the world to me. I find it so surprising as an Introver to have these public actions as a hobby but I think keeping esoteric knowledge to myself would be a bit of a crime. The Astrology
Primal, that's the word that comes to mind when I look at the Symbols for this Full Moon. This Virgo Full Moon is at the number of the Spiritual Path of unfoldment, 7. After the strong Goddess energy of Venus and Lilith this is interesting. Not to mention this is happening on March 7th in some places adding to that energy. There is not a lot going on with this Full Moon but what is going on is very tense. We have a Stellum in Aries with an awesome Venus, Chiron and Jupiter conjunction. This really brings to mind a fresh start where we can really (Jupiter) heal (Chiron) our Wounds by loving (Venus and the depositer of this Full Moon). Yet, we also have (although not as close) a Stellum in Pisces with Saturn conjunct the Sun, Mercury (conjunct the Sun) and Neptune. The Group Think may be strong this month. Mars, still stuck in Gemini, is square the Sun and Moon while supporting Venus with a sextile. Uranus is in a supportive Trine to the Moon and a Sextile to the Sun. There should be unexpected help during this New Moon. Neptune is square to Mars, opposing the Moon and conjunct the Sun. Emotional faith is what's pushing the transformation. Oracle Stone: Fancy Lace Agate Athame Okay this one took me back. Last months Full Moon Oracle Stone Surprised me but this one blew my mind. This is one of my favorite pieces in my collection. I used to pull stones from a box but these days I say a prayer, hover my hands over a display plate filled with my collection, and when I feel what feels like static electricity pick the stone. I forgot this athame was in there. While I never imagined this as the Oracle Stone for this Full Moon it's perfect. Fancy Lace Agate works with all of the lower chakras: Solar Plexus, Sacral and Root. This is a healing and protective stone. An athame is a sacred tool for ceremonies that I primarily use for directing energy. This one is made to resemble a Stag antler which is a sacred animal. This brings in more protection, strength, and courage. With Chiron being so strongly emphasized in this chart I feel this Athame is almost like a surgical tool. We need to discern where we direct our energy. Our Subconscious is holding us back from cutting ties with a behavior connected to our Wounds and doesn't serve us. Just because a familiar habit seems safe because it's predictable it may not be good for us. The energy this month is telling us to let that go. Meditation I'm calling this Full Moon Breakdown, Breakthrough or Falling Together? I see this Full Moon a little bit differently then others. Most people are focusing on the fact that Saturn and Pluto are at the final degrees. Those are very interesting but there is something even more interesting going on here and the Divine Timing is exquisite. As someone more interested in symbolisim I'm fascinated by the coincidence of this particular story. We started out with the Cosmic Oneness of Pisces and we are now at Virgo- the Sleeping Goddess. Virgo literally, according to the interpertation of myths by David Warner Mathisen, is referred to over and over as either sleeping or lazy. Mathisen explains on pg 46: "Virgo is situated at the "crossing down" point on the Zodiac wheel and associated with the fall equinox and the "plunge" downward into mortal existence in many world myths..." Fascinatingly, if you follow simply the symbology of this Moon Cycle it starts off with the Cosmic Oneness from which all of our souls come...to the "Fall" into the mortal experience. The replication of the series of events that led to humanities experience in the mortal realms only adds to the finality of this Moon Cycle. There is a theme of Breakdown...and the hint of a coming Breakthrough. Sometimes, things have to fall apart before they can get better. With the original barrier Planet- Saturn- that represented limitation and death along with Pluto who is literally the God of Death being st the final degrees of Aquairus and Capricorn...both Saturn ruled signs...the deep finality of the moment can't be missed. So many people are having existential crises it is amazing. I keep seeing people have break downs. I went through my own, ironically just after writing my blog on tips for the Dark Night of the Soul (which I intend, at the very least, to release as Shorts on YouTube). I'm over mine, since I regain my balance and move on very easily these days since I don't have much of an Ego to rebuild. With the Stellum in Pisces, the final sign of the Zodiac there is so much energy of an ending it's amazing. Then, the energy that is in Aries...that should be about a new start and the fact Venus has just left her Conjunction with Jupiter....well, it's really asking us if we are going to rip the scab off of an old wound. Venus is now in between the Wounded Healer, Chiron, and the Univinted Feminine Shadow of Eris. That's a tough place foe the Heart to be...should we dwell on our Wounds and feeling rejected? Do we really want to start a new cycle by rejecting our Wounds? That is a very difficult question. Personally, I prefer to Awaken that Virgo energy...to step into the dance of the Divine Masculine and Feminine...instead of descending into that same cycle of ignorance that we have been in for thousands of years. I understand people's hesitation to say that there is any association between Pluto entering the sign of Aquarius and the Age of Aquairus. I personally, believe that Rabbi C Dobin's explaination that we entered the Age of Aquairus because that is when Jupiter/Saturn conjunctions entered a new elemental triplicity* that happens only 2,200 years because it's based on Astrology and not the Roman's best gues as to when Jesus died (and all accounts show that he probably died around A.D. 40). Along with John Van Auken's explaination of the Great Pyramid Prophecy that comes to an end around 2038 and symbolizes the Involution of the Soul into phsycial material reality...which matches up pretty closely to when Pluto will exit Aquarius and Eris will exit Aries...big things are going to be happening in the 2040's. I will be writing an entire blog and making a long format YouTube video about Pluto exiting Capricorn. Simply because we only see Pluto enter about three Zodiac signs in our life times. Add to that Eris takes about twenty two years to pass through as sign and thst they will both be changing around 2040...those will be big Collective Shifts. I am also very happy that we are going to be out of the Saturn ruled signs. Saturn has been brutal but it seems, looking at the dire economic situation, they are throwing the baby out with thr bathwater as they go... The fact we are revisiting- energetically- that original energy of the Fall from Oneness into the Seperation...means this is the opportunity to fix it. We can choose to de-evolve by destroying the planet via Nuclear War...which many people seem less concerned with then the ridiculous Human Driven Climate Change narrative that ignores the Pole Shift from Canada to Russia (symbolically not a good sign foe the US...meaning power is changing from the North American continent to Russia/Asia and with the fact our stance on the Ukraine War is driving Russian and China into a more concrete financial alliance against the U.S. the symbolisim is playing out)...but I digress. Ultimately, the Divine Plan seems to be that we wake up. So far, it hasn't been the horrific tragedy that even Edgar Cacye predicted...instead, because I believe we hit that 100th Monkey phenomenon with the Awakening movement...we are having gradual shifts in energy. What happens through the end of this Moon Cycle will be very telling. We are really getting back to those Primal Roots of humanities dilemma...being trapped with Animal Bodies that have urges that must be tamed to regain our place in the Oneness of the Universe. Everything says we are going to get this right even if it does look bleak at the moment. Personally, I am very excited to see how it happens and the changes to come. All of the Sources: The Great Pyramid Prophecy, the Mayans, Indigenous North Americans (in particular the Hopi), Bashar, Dolores Cannon, Edgar Cacye, Sylvia Brown, even Brian Weiss when exploring future lifes with the people he placed under hypnosis...report that we are coming into a very special time...that the Age of Aquraius is where Humanity Returns to knowing who we are...and on my journey's I feel I know exaclty who we are...Infinite Beings experiencing a Temporary Human Experience and after seeing so many people Awaken to that reality so that it's common knowledge in the Spiritual Community...I can't see how we haven't hit that 100th Monkey moment that's going to act like a wave gaining momentum- if only in the fashion of a Self-fulfilling Prophecy- and with a sweeping flourish cause all of humanity to rise up just based on the sheer momentum. So, I have no fear going into this and seeing what little flavor comes up in the last leg of this Moon Cycle that will give us a taste of what is going to propel that momentum forward. At this point it's a competition between a huge change in the Economy, Artificial Intelligence or World War III....I'm hoping that it's not the latter but anythingcan happen. We also have the Alien factor...and everyone is talking about Aliens whether it was the random objects shot out of the sky after the Chinese Spy Balloon incident or people mistaking the gorgeous Venus and Jupiter conjunction as being Alien spaceships or something...who knows? References: Froud, Brian & Macbeth, Jessica. (1998) The Faeries Oracle Fireside, Simon &Schuster, New York, NY Perakis, Athena. (2021) Sage Goddess. www.SageGoddess.com Victor, Arisa. (2009) High School Astrolgoy. Fraternity Of The Hiddne Light. Carson,James and Sams, Jamie. (1999). Medicene Cards. St. Martins Press New York, Ny. Hoffman, Edward. 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Happy 1st day of March! This is the month where we are going to experience a lot of changes. I think a lot of people are curious to see what that will bring. Usually, when a planet firsr goes into a sign is when it makes the biggest splahs- and we have two outer planets that take a long time to go through a sign going into new ones. I plan on sharing some longer format videos on both transits. I may not because I am supposed to go on some medication and I'm not sure how I'm going to respond to it...previously it caused me to slur my words. If that happens I'm not sure what I'm going to do with YouTube...but enough about me! I decided after meditation to start doing the Runes for the monthly Oracle Pull. Using a Oracle Stone felt a little like a one trick pony. I will probably start using an Alchemical Oracle Card for my shorts for the Zodiacal Season and pull an Oracle Stone for the long form video where I meditate on the Sign itself. I've decided to add to the Alchemical Oracle Cards that I made. The metals assigned to the different planets will make it a little bit bigger and help illuminate things a bit more. Plus it's a bit of Esoteric Astrology information don't know. The Rune I pulled is Algiz and here is the YouTube Short that I did for it: https://youtube.com/shorts/-UuxL3ZKwi8?feature=share Further Thoughts Algiz is the Rune of the Elk, the king of the forest. The antlers represent an activated crown chakra. I think of the Elk as similar to the Hermit in Tarot guiding us through the forest when we think all else is lost. This a rue of protection. This is the rune peopleput on their cars or get a tattoo. I have a bracelet with Algiz on it because I pulled it so often. This is also a rune that ties to the Ancestors, they are some of our strongest protectors. Arith Hagar, on his YouTube channel, explains that this is a Rune for listening. Not so much a time of action or taking risks but to be aware of what's happening. In light of everything else that happens this month I'd say it's going to be a really rough one. We are going to have Neptune and Saturn in Pisces, the 12 house of undoing, for the Collective. Saturn will be there for two years. Neptune will be there for three more years...but this is the month where we get the first taste of this Saturn transit and it's where we are going to find out what the next two years will be about. What we might encounter this month might scare the living crap out of us. When I pull Algiz in my daily life it is a day where I am on high alert, like an Elk in the forest knowing that it is the Prey but also knowing that it is the King when the human isn't in the Forest. I'm usually challenged and that is what this Rune really tells me this month. We're going to face a mega challenge. I've seen so many people having Dark Nights of the Souls that I wrote a blog about it...and it started prior to Valentines Day. I've seen even more people fall aprat since I wrote that blog. The challenges are intense. This Rune, however, says that we are Protected even during this time. We have a lot of souls in Spirit sending us energy and support through this. At the end of the day, these challenges are the best thing to happen for us because it promotes Soul Growth. The Soul doesn't worry what happens in the human life so much, it's more interested in the experience, and it's how we decide to work with the energy that determines if we have a smooth ride or not. Those who are on the Spiritual Path are affected more because we are more aware...it will slam the non-spiritual people out of nowhere at some point leaving them thinking, "Why me?" The energy right now is about big endings and dissollution...seemingly of our paradigms and our Ego. The good thing, as I said in my blog post, when you don't build up that Ego again, eventually there isn't anything to rebuild...just a sense of curiousity that is accepting of whatever may come. Not the best news for this month but at the same time a word of warning so we can be prepared for what happens and if it's minor be grateful that it took that form.
a I knew this year was going to be weird. I had the personal prophecy that things would be easier after 2023. Not easy, mind you, but easier then they had been. This personal prophecy was pre-Coronavirus and even 2012.
About this time of the year, I'm writing this during Capricorn Season though you will see it in February/Aquarius Season or later, I get smacked in the face by Spirit. I've only really been aware of it and tracking it since 2015 but I know it goes further back. This year has been particularly...weird and undeniable. Usually, as I've been tracking them, I have a deeply meaningful dream on the New and Full Moons. This time of the year...it becomes the norm and, in the past, I had a hard time sleeping because of it. This year, I only wanted to sleep. Similar to when I was depressed and could sleep all day but with two kids that's impossible. In the past I have resisted it and kind of think it sucks. I have no reference for it happening to other people. I kind of experience it as a huge download. Sometimes I will be reading a book at the same time. I have resisted it in the past. A sort of, "Oh shit, not this, again." Then dealt with major fall out. This year, I made the conscious decision to change my approach to a lot of things. I had some big *breakthroughs as a result. I have, for years, learned that writing it out is the best thing to do. In the past, I would post all of what I wrote. This year, I don't think I will do that...So I wrote this blog that kind of brings together everything that I will share. Truth is, I feel I was a bit whiny and I've sorted things out. Now, on the one hand, my perception makes logical sense. On the other hand, it's a weird synthesis. The Odin Issue Yeah, this threw me for a loop. There were and have been developments regarding this one. Ultimately, how cool to encounter a God in my dream that is responsive. Yet, very frightening at the same time! Holy crap, a God from one of the Pantheon's is real on another plane of existence. I went to him, mind you...but it shocked the crap out of me. Granted, I had encountered Jesus and that was cool but he's a lot easier to believe in...and he asked me who I was that I was awake so early during the Dawn. In that dream, I broke down and cried saying I didn't know. I have, for awhile now, accepted that I am often having Out Of Body Expeirinces. Thinking back, I can see the evolution. I really wanted to have OBE's when I was a teenager after my Grandma Alta died. That didn't happen the way people described though. I remember when I first tried to connect with a Guide way back in 1997-1998. Turns out it was Edgar Cacye who also showed up for my Past Life Reading to help turn me into a tree and ground me (all dream symbols). I received the name Gerrite Casement. When I first started working with dreams I couldn't 'hear' spirits at that time in a dream. I couldn't talk to them directly as I can now. I would see my Grandma Alta, who did come through in dreams often afterwards, but she would open her mouth and I couldn't hear anything. I received Gerrit Casement because I was sent pictures including a 'window casing' as I saw it, by the Soul talking to me. Mind you, I really didn't know who he was back then. I had read a prophecy by him in a book called America In Prophecy and he was mentioned in my Dream Book in passing, but so was Carl Jung and he didn't show up (as far as I know) in my dreams. No, Cacye showed up when I asked for a guide...Gerrite Casement was Edgar Cacye. It's amazing how my conversations in Spirit have changed and how they really kicked into gear after I read Robert Monroe's books. I've had arguements with my Grandma Alta over the years. One time, when she told me she really didn't die because death doesn't really exist I told her, "Well, we better dig up your body because we buried someone." I woke up from that dream laughing. Clearly, even now I still have trouble believing death isn't real and that I can communicate with someone who's dead in my dreams. Yet, she's a very common visitor. Yet, the Odin experience, where he told me about Creation, and who I am along with saying he taught me himself... Well, that was bananas in my book. I didn't tell anyone for awhile after it happened. I mentioned it to my husband and he brought up the usual stuff. Dreams are just the mechanical brain processing events of the day like a computer shutting down. He brought up the two times that he thought he saw ghosts- once when he was awakened from his sleep and another just before sleep. He thinks all such incidents are the same of him and a process of continuing to dream when waking up. He didn't even ask me what Odin said or what I experienced...no curiousty. Just, more or less, stating that it wasn't anything. As I've explained elsewhere, Odin is not a God I believed in. My only real exposure was through Marvel Movies. To me, it seemed super cheesy. Given that most of the hard evidence for the religion actually happens after the time of Jesus and most of what we know is really like Live Action Role Playing in attempt to recreate a religion that was brutally destroyed by the Christians...I didn't buy it. I thought it was the least legitimate concept out there. Yet, it provided a sort of ending to a cycle that I didn't even realize existed...and right on time with Astrology...and a Comet. Who Am I? Why did Odin tell me who I am and why was that important? This brought up an old issue. An issue I tried to bury and forget over the years. I was trying to sort through when it was I became obsessed with discovering, "Who I am." Now, I went through and wrote a whole blog about the little Energetic ball of light that I remember being and it's story. I will probably not post that one for various reasons. In fact, this is probably be the only post you see on these subjects for a bit. I did want to take January and February off, after all. I am still super behind on a bunch of montly activities that I manage to do somehow while balancing kid and puppy chaos. I was really troubled, however, because thinking for so long that "I am someone" bothered me. Did I have some weird self-aggrandizing ego issue like those people who think they are Jesus or reincarnation of Nefertiti or Hatshepsut...but know nothing? Then as though to answer my question, I remembered something that happened before I had a Dark Night of the Soul...before I started to look for things Spiritually on any level. Way before my Grandma Alta, who really triggered my first Awakening back int he '90's when this wasn't a thing at all. I was 14 and I had gone up to a room the second story of the house I lived in with my parents. The day was sunny and bright. This was in middle of the day and the sun was bright outside during the summer. I wasn't tired, never imagined encountering anything and never studied spirituality- never went to church- and really only exposed to such things through seires like Unsolved Mysteries that scared the crap out of me. That was 26 years ago...right about the time that Pluto entered my twelfth house (I'm a Cappy Rising) of the Hidden, as I like to call it. I saw what looked like a black cloud come in through one window. I thought maybe someone was using a barbecue in the backyard but noted that the window was closed. I was going to tell my mom something was wrong when I went back down but I continued to get whatever item it was that I meant to retrieve. Then the thing floated until it was in front of me and it was *looking* at me even though it had no eyes. I was frozen solid unable to move. The thing told me, "I know who you are...I will be back." Then it floated out the front window. Finally able to move I screamed and ran downstairs to tell my Mom I thought I had seen a ghost. Being a double Gemini she asked me, "What does that mean?" I had no clue. I had hoped she would know what it meant. Remembering that, and remembering how in those teenage years I felt a presence that creeped me out- I would turn on the radio to help me go to sleep- and my mantra became, "I am nobody, nothing, no one." This was about the time that the comet Hail Bob paid us a visit. I find that interesting because as I write this Comet Leonard (a germanic name meaning brave as a lion) in the constellation of the Bear (a symbol associated with Odin) is gracing us with an appearance. Comets have always been associated with bad tidings. In Game of Thrones it represented the ordeal of Daenary's and the return of Dragons along with Magic...but in real life it's been associated with plagues and war. Yet, this one seems Auspicious and David Palmer covered it on High Vibe. There are other creepy as heck things that have kept me believing in the Supernatural. Things that can't be chopped up to drugs (never did them) or I was asleep...or any other easy explaination but I don't want to go through them. I tried to bury and forget this one over the years, believe me. My parents believe in the Supernatural. After all, my Grandpa Douglas Q. McMasters (an Cahuilla Dreamer- a sort of Shaman) used hypnosis to teach people how to O.B.E. Even my Dad did it and he accurately described to his mother what she had been doing in the kitchen when he visited her scaring the crap out of her. He did all kinds of other things like making a UFO that I have pictures of in a parade (Edwards Air Force Based checked it out, actually, which is a funny story I need to tell), joined the Black Panthers who bombed the wrong house when they found out he was working for the FBI, fought in World War II...and all sorts of things. I plan on filing a Freedom of Information Act paperwork on him just to find out what he did exactly because I want to write a book on him. Anyways... Not only do I not have some egoic God complex...I quite frankly was terrified about being one or being special in any way. I've had other times, which I believe that there was a hint that I was semi-divine as I call it...but yeah, I have no idea. Dreams My decision to study the Runes wasn't prompted by anything special. I figured it was just another Divinitory system. I had seen it on Sage Goddess and figured it's something I probably should have along with the Stone Reiki Symbol set I had collected. I simply love rocks. I love that people have attached symbolic meaning to them and they are so useful...just as the symbolic meaning of Aromatherapy has been adopted. I love what the Spiritual Community is creating in regards to a symbolic healing system. Anyways... I had the dream about Odin *before* I read the Rune book (I wrote a reveiew on that book). To be honest, I didn't even know the Runes were associated with Odin. I thought they were some sort of Witch divination system. I had never come close to studying them. I decided to get a book on Odin. I chose Diana Paxson's Book. I knew a little bit about her because she was involved in the Mists of Avalon by Marion Zimmer Bradley. My sister gave me that book when I was a teenager after I started my spiritual journey. I knew that Diana had gone on to help create a Heathen Religion/Cult but much like Scientology didn't take it seriously. I had three more Odin related dreams. In one dream I was going past a series of stores. I went to the final one where I meant to order a Christmas drink, but I discovered I had no money. I went back to review the other three places and saw the front cover of Paxson's Book with the word Odin. They were selling tapestries. I wanted the long one that looked like a Map and I vowed, since it was $15, to come back with money and get it. Then I went next door to Space Mountain that was just like the one at Disneyland and went on a ride on that since it was free. The next day, the book that I had not been tracking, arrived. In another dream I went to the roots of the world tree. There I found a soul that looked like a snake...just like Nidhogg...but it wasn't really that at all...and I didn't know it was an archetype until the next day. The next day I randomly came across a video by Arith Hargar on Nidhogg and commented that I didn't even know that was an archetype. In the other dream, while reading the book (which I finished today as I write this first part) I was at a family reunion for the Husband. I told him we didn't need to sleep in the Hall where they had put us so I went to check out the other buildings. One was a huge empty granary that was huge and in good shape but very empty. Another, when I opened the door looked like a stable and there were dinosaurs inside. But then I saw that it was a trick and they weren't real. Finally, the last Hall was of the Dead...well people pretending to be and it was a birthday Hall for kids. They were dressed all in white like dead zombie knights with a red line going down their faces and black around their eyes and lips. The next day, my husband commented that Jurassic Park Dominon (I wrote a review on it) is on Amazon and asked if I wanted to watch it. As you can see, the dreams were pretty much prophetic with an element of them immediately manifesting in my life. Before, it would take years or even months...right now, I'm having a dream and then it manifests. My Conclusion and Moving On I've had this sort of bizarre stuff happen long enough that I don't hold onto it...for one, most people are not interested in it...in my life anyways. My mom seems to be over the supernatural on a lot of levels. She is not really interested- aside from telling me to Sage the house which my husband hates. The Husband, being Agnostic, is definitely not into it. So, really, there is no one, save myself, to encourage me to look into it or project on it or anything. The situations happen, I let them go and continue on with my life. The style of that last dream of the Halls reminded me of the style my Past Life Regression took and I had the realization that clearly, if I had an incarnation on the plane Odin exists on...it was just like a Past Life. That isn't a current life...I did seem to return there...but I am not sure that is the same level as the Creator Being that I was a child of in another dream. Does any of it really matter? As I pick up Puppy Poop or try to untangle the strings on Balloons for my four year old daughter who's figured out how to tie knots and decided to practice on them...I can't help but think...not really. Unlike Alexander the Great who rushed around trying to get proof or evidence of some connection to Divinity or even Hitler who clearly, now that I've studied Odin, wanted the Spear of Destiny (the Spear that is said to have been used on Jesus during the crucifiction...and being that Odin is a very similar charecter that Hitler studied) to give him God-like powers at the turn of this Age. I have a whole theory on that idea but I'm not sure I'll share it. I learned about the relics of Christianity while reading Stephen R. Lawheads awesome books on the Crusades in High School (I have wondered if it was reading those books that caused me to have the Crusades dream...but at the same time, everyone was shocked I read those books in High School so maybe it was my Past Life that inspired me to pick them up...it's kind of a what came first- the chicken or egg type of paradox. I laugh at farts, I don't have income at the moment, I have had tremendous failings like a divorce in my past, and panic attacks, visits to psychiatric hospitals...the last thing I would think is that I am meant for some grandiose fate or destiny in this life because of who I was in a Past Life...or am in another Plane of Existence. Writing A Book I do think I will write a book this year. Mostly, it's already written. Much of the information will be similar to what I shared on my YouTube channel. I would like some sort of income and that seems to be a very easy channel of revenue. This blog doesn't develop anything because Google AdSense is a pain. Now that it's owned by Square it is really set up for a business but I sereiously don't have time to do more then photo energetic readings. (They say that the people who can read you by looking at you are the legit psychics...and well, that's easy for me to do...I don't need to channel). YouTube, especially since I haven't updated it in so long hasn't produced any revenue and if it has it's many a couple of pennies. I love YouTube but it seems as though TikTok is the easiest way to make money fast on a streaming service even if it is known to be Chinese Spyware (). My goal is a short (something that can be easily read in a couple of days...after all I hate Poetry or literary license or obtuse language in books that are supposed to help people) to the point book. The working title, in my mind at the moment is: "The Purpose of Life: A Rejection Of Buidling Utopia or Attempting To Return To Eden," or something along those lines. Those are both fatally flawed concepts and I want to show people how to drop those so they can really achieve their full potential and healing. Sharing One Last Dream This one was very interesting. In it I was went by a white building two or three times. I was really surprised it had red, white and blue decorations on it. They were very fancy but I thought to myself, "It's not Fourth Of July, it's not Labor Day or Vetrans Day. What are they celebrating." On a banner out front it said, "Celebrating you." Inside I saw a golden incense holder in a tibetan hand gesture- the Prana Mudra. Mind you, I don't have those memorized nor have I sought to memorize them. They just pop up now and then. Anyways, it looked like a store or a gas station. So, I decided to go inside. There, however, I found white walls and a lot of doors. I came across a woman all in white. I was thinking of leaving. Nothing interesting seemed to be in this place really. Then a woman who's skin looked like homemade parchment paper with her veins like black ink was there. She asked, "Are you not afraid of us?" I said, "No, you're beautiful." I was distracted by a series of Sodalite stones on her chest, I counted nine and four Sumset Sodalite. She seemed surprised and so I revealed I had some too, She reached out and touched one at the center on my chest, a druzy Rhodochrosite heart (which I didn't know existed) and, "I'm surprised this has lasted so long." That gained me entrance into their scchool based on the symbolisim of further events in the dream they would have to find a different way of teachingf me since I'm incarnate. I have heard that the Fey try to steal people into their realm. I've never encountered it in a dream, however, so I found that fascinating. Conclusion At the moment, in the mundane day to day human life my One Year Old is Teething while the Husband is determined to get her off the bottle and have her sleep in her own bed. So, that is a hot mess of a situation. On top of that the Mother In Law is officially on Hospice (I had a dream that I missed her at Christmas because she had died. The Husband, this past weekend, met up with his best friends at his parents house to say goodbye and so far, his sister doesn't have plans to come out). I didn't go see her because I just needed a break from the kids since the Husband has been spending most of his time at home in the Garage. For the first time this past year I felt that Winter and Christmas had acutally arrived. There have only been a couple of sunny days here in Southern California with the rest being cold and rainy. So, we are actually experiencing a Winter for once in So. Cali. There is a lot of jacked up stuff going on behind the scenes. Yet, as I have done before, no matter how destroyed I have become, no matter how broken down my life becomes, I can move on and forgive. My Dad taught me well- when knocked down I get back up ready to fight- I have absolute and complete trust in my ability to survive. If anything, and this is what I want to share people with my book, it's that we are- on a soul level- indestructable and when we tune in with that on a Mortal level...well, we are an unstoppable force in a reality of temporary and broken things. I'm sharing a few songs below that I love. I'm fascinated by the whole Alan Walker thing on YouTube. I think it's a style and a person? I have followed Alan Walker. Yet, I haven't researched it but I stumbled across it when I was listening to Avenged Sevenfold Instrumental Music (M. Shadows is my favorite Lead Guitarist of all time). I like listening to something smooth when writing or doing artwork and this music stands out. I haven't liked pop music in a long time but this seems to be a thing. I love the music videos they do too...including an entertaining one with Wensday from the Netfli Show (and she is by far one of my favorite charecters of all time! I always think that I should have looked like Wednesday or Morticia now that I am a mother instead of an annoying Blue/Green Eyed Blond... but anyways that scene looks amazing. A werewolf charecter with pink hair that's her best friend...I love it. I hope that series crosses over to Amazon Prime...I hate the exclusive agreements on all of the different streaming options). |
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