I am writing this as a contractor works on remodeling my kitchen downstairs.
As I noted in my last bonus blog things are breaking down for everyone. For my mom, her forklift that she's used for almost two decades at her company died (a huge expense). For my friend Diana her laptop screen was broken. For Francesca Simon the next door apartment was flooded and she had to help fix the situation (luckily her apartment was not). My test is a bit bigger and longer. Yesterday, I must note...was 9/9/18 which means 9/9/9....which when added together is 27 which makes 9. That means yesterday was all about compeltion. Something in all of our lives has come to an end. For most of us it was a cycle. Oh, did I mention that yesterday was also a new moon giving extra emphasis of the end of one cycle and the start of another? So, given that I decided to do a bonus blog. The Tower Experience This is what Francesca Simon called this experience. As we walk on the path we are stripped of the things that we don't need...sometimes that flash of insight is uncomfortable. You might notice that I used a picture from the Alchemy Stage Two Video- Dissolution...that's the same step as the Tower card on the Path of the Seeker. You can see these breakdowns as the Universe helping you let go of things that are not serving you...a sudden 'illumination' of a situation that's probably not the best. Dealing With The Fall Out The good news is that the breakdown cycle should be over...now we are at the point where we are dealing with the fallout. With the shattered chocolate egg it's times to either eat that (because chocholate is chocolate even if it's broken) or throw it in the trash. We need to handle the results of the breakdown. How do we deal with all of this and keep or regain our balance? How do we maintain our peacefulness...and if we didn't keep it during this breakdown how do we regain that balance? Two Choices- Victim or Gratitude? We have two choices...we can fall into victim fear based reactions (the status quo) or we can focus on the most powerful state of prayer- Gratitude. Yes, things are falling apart...which is inconveinant...but that also means new stuff is coming into your life! Your life is being cleared out to make way for the new! Like it or not...that new state of being you deserve is here and all of the good things you deserve are rushing into your life at an incalcuable speed...even if you're like me and trying to hit the brakes so you can just process all of the changes. Surprises are not my thing for the most part and most of us resist change...even if that change is in our best interest. The Situation My just over 1 month old daughter and I are currently upstairs in my bedroom with the door closed. My husband just started a new job this week that takes him away from home (he has been working from home). My father immediately pointed out the same thought I had, "Too bad he won't be home when you have strangers there." Of all of the times to remodel the kitchen this was probably not the most conveinant for me. However, it's something that really needed to be done and things just fell into place so that it's being done this week. Whoa! Where Did That Come From?! In this latest cycle I've seen so many things break down With a one month old baby that's not the easiest challenge or test to face. The fridge has been having issues for a while...but the ice maker flat out didn't work.Then the temperature regulation stopped working properly. I called a repair guy and he said it would be $600 to fix. On a fridget that cost $1000 that just didn't make sense. Then the oven burners on one side refused to light. My husband chose both the fridget and the oven. The oven that he bought is the same as my mom's which I always said I wanted. Thankfully, we had come into just enough unexpected money (remember that car accident back in February? Well, Geico paid us a bit of money on top of what they paid out for the hospital and ambulance ride for the innconveinance of having to deal with crazy bill collectors). The Water Heater Died Then the water heater died. Luckily, on the same day my husband was talking to the contractor who's now working on my kitchen downstairs. I was the one who contacted the contractor. Ross said that while he was home he'd like to have them make the stone wall we thought would be the cheapest project of the ones we had been considering. Luckily, the contractor offered to fix our Water Heater...well, replace it really...and so what might have been a huge problem for weeks was handled in a very short time! My husband had known that it had been leaking...but he didn't realize how big a problem the Water Heater was...and I can say now that we have a new unit that the water heater was not working right for a while. So, again, miraculous perfect timing. The Kitchen? Of the three projects my husband talked to the contractor about the cheapest one turned out to be the kitchen. The tile counters were uneven. We had an exposed fluoroscent light because the plastic covering kept falling out because of the shoddy construction work of whoever installed that fixture in the first place. Having the plastic fall all of the time was dangerous so we didn't replace it. The cabinets looked permanently dirty. I had taken a Mr. Clean sponge to that thing....which can remove peromanent marker....and it didn't remove the gunk and yuck. Someone had stained that wood over the grease and the worn marks...and on top of that when they restained the cabinets they left drip markers...so the cabinets always looked as though something had dripped on them! Having a new kitchen, the heart of any house, is going to be amazing. How I Used To React Now, there are two ways I could look at this situation. The contractor wanted to get on it right away...starting this week even though we finalized plans on Friday. That's a short amount of time to empty out the kitchen and plan on how to take care of a month old baby by staying upstairs. The part of me that likes to plan everything to the last detail was freaking out. The way I used to react was to think of myself as a victim and my husband, because he agreed to this remodel, as being the villian. After all, even the contractor asked, "What about your wife and daughter?" Ross simply tossed out, "They can stay upstairs." He wasn't going to be home so it wasn't his problem. In fact, he really didn't put much thought in how things would work out taking the baby upstairs when I had most of her stuff stationed in the living room. I admit, for a moment I did feel like a victim. I was really sad and angry about the situation. How dare he volunteer me for this without me asking? Why did this happen now and not when he was working at home or his three weeks of vacation that he took to help take care of Michelle? Then I stopped myself....because I knew that type of thinking was not going to create a diserable outcome. That was not a self-fulfilling prophecy I want to see play out. Now, this reaction has nothing to do with my father. I have had this approach to things since I was a little girl...as long as I can remember. There's no good reason for me to ever have felt like the victim...that people were doing things to me just to be mean to me. My past lives, however, defintely offer good reasons to feel unsupported and that other people choose their own selfish intentions with no consideration for me. Choosing To Be Grateful The kitchen has been ok. I really hate the tile. The tile is so hard to clean. To get through this disturbance to my personal space...I've focused on what I can do- which is organizing and cleaning my closet and my office... I've also focused on being grateful. I've been celebrating the kitchen remodel. Luckily, the plans I set up and my husband helped me make have proven to be effective and it's not all that inconveinant. I'm keeping out of the contractors way and they are just doing their thing. When my husband comes home he can deal with providing feedback. He's been our major point of contact anyways so it's just easier for him to talk it over with them. I am very lucky to have my kitchen remodeled...it kind of came out of nowhere. Out of the projects, do to the lighting situation, it's probably the project we needed done the most. I'm going to be a lot more comfortable in that kitchen with the quartz counter top. Not to mention...it's quartz and I *love* quartz so it's a high vibration stone that they are putting into my kitchen. How cool is that? Conclusion We just came out of a huge testing phase. Surely all of those breakdowns affected our paitience, our attitude...and like me you're probably still dealing with the repurcussions. We can control how we react to situations. I, for one, am taking it easy today. After so much activity in this house, and even though there is more going on downstairs right now...I'm taking a time out. I'm writing this blog.I meditated. I am going to write a future YouTube video script for the 7 Directions Path of the Medicene Wheel which is so much fun to study. I had to stop myself from writing more blogs...I have at least eight qued up to be written..because I had a dream about the Medicene Wheel. Do we go into that old script that we've been using...much like the clothes I've been holding onto since Middle School? Or do we choose to do something new...knowing that react that way we can catch ourselves, stop the script, and rewrite a new one. I choose gratitude. Gratidtude is the most powerful type of prayer that we can have...you might say that it's not a prayer but gratitude is the greatest form of thanksgiving we can offer the One Creator (or God or Higher Power or whatever name you choose to use). I am grateful every day that I look at my little daughter. I'm grateful every day I look at my wonderful husband who works so hard and chose to have our communal living space remodeled over haing the recording room he's always wanted. I'm grateful every day that I have food to eat, a great house to live in, awesome pets, a new-to-me car, and some of the most amazing friends and family anyone could ask for...the people who have been here for me 100% are a little surprising...but they are who I need in my life. Nothing indicates more who really wants to be in your life then the people who support you no matter what type of situation you're in- good or bad. I'm very lucky I have a lot of people who choose to be a big part of my life all of the time. The people who have come to visit me while Michelle and I are quarantined so she can build up her immune system and I can recoer from the c-section...are my heros. The first person was my friend Diana and she even brought dinner one day...how awesome is that? Life really can't get better!
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" The Dweller on the Threshold is all that man is, apart from the higher spiritual self; it is the third aspect of divinity, as expressed in and through the human mechanism. This third aspect must be eventually subordinated to the second aspect, the soul." (Esoteric Psychology, Vol. II, p. 312)
There are many way we can view the concept of the Dweller at the Threshold and many traditions that hold this concept. This is such a deep topic, I admit, that writing this blog was intimidating and time consuming because it's hard to boil down all of this information in a way that is easily grasped. I greatest prayer is that I have taken this complicated concept and transformed it into something you can easily understand and apply in your own life. This blog is part of and inspire by my investigation into the Sephiroth named Yesod. What is The Sephiroth Yesod? The sephiroth of Yesod is the Veil of forgetfulness that separates us from the rest of Creation and the One Creator. On a 'cosmic' level think of it as the great 'Control' mechanism of our neck of Creation that works in conjunction with Malkuth to help reduce the entropy (chaos) created by what has been clascially known as 'The Fall.' In our work with the Sephiroth of Malkuth we know this 'fall' happened first in spirit with a primordial being named Adam Kadmon. Often, people think, once they die they will know everything...that it's only when we are in the flesh and blood vessel of the body that we are 'cut off' from being all-knowing but based on my studies this isn't true. Everything indicates, as the Hindus and Buddhists describe, that when a soul passes out of their body they go to an intermediate place where other souls from Earth also dwell...and then prepare to come back. Yesod, then, would be the furthest realm we can visit if, upon death, we have not met the requirements of passing the 'Earth Test' allowing us to explore Creation further and it's determined we must incarnate again. We find this in almost every tradition except the two most recent: Christianity and Islam. Egyptian Weighing Of The Heart The oldest tradition that I have studied that involves the Dweller at the Threshold is the Egyptian practice in the Book of the Dead where the heart is weighed. If the soul fails to pass this test they are sent back to reincarnate again but if they pass the test they can proceed. The feather the heart is weighed against is that of the Goddess Maat who represents the cosmic order. This makes sense in light of what we learned about Adam Kadmon, the oversoul of which we are a part, that "broke apart" creating chaos..and who's chaotic cosmic pattern our soul reflects (and is likely represented by the character Osiris in Egyptian mythology). Here is how John Van Auken in Ancient Egyptian Mysticism describes this encounter: "The heart, ab, is the essential nature of the person: cold hearted, warm hearted, soft hearted, broken hearted, warm-hearted, big hearted and so on. As Jesus said, its not what goes into a person that defiles him or her, it's what comes out,because that comes from the heart. In the bible, the Lord frequently said that He wanted to give humans, "a new heart," or, "circumcise their hearts." This makes sense when we consider that a "change of heart" is key to restoration of our divinity. The heart is the part of a person that is weighed in the balance at the angcient Egyptian judgement scense. In the scene, the heart is placed in a jar, put on a scale and weighed against a feather, symbolic of the delicate nature of truth. If the heart is true, weight in lightly from the lack of guilt or unresolved concerns, then the person may continue on to the heavens." pg 59 The Hebrew Letter Yod We covered part of this in the Cycles of the Moon Blog. The Yod is described by Paul Foster Case as both a Seed and a Spark. We know that when Adam Kadmon decided to give the Energetic Life of the One Creator that had descended down the first Kabbalah Tree of Life creation that he was "broken" into individual 'sparks' or 'seeds' that fell all the way down to the bottom of the tree to The Sephiroth Malkuth. In our study on Yesod we will learn that the name of this Sephiroth translated into English is Foundation. Malkuth, even thought it is at the bottom of the Tree of Life is not the foundation...it is the results of the previous levels. Dion Fortune describes Yesod, which begins with Yod as, "...the Ninth Path...purifies the Emanations. it proves and corrects the designing of the representations..." This is where the images, the final products of all of the previous activity on the Tree of Life, are given a form so they can play out the great drama that will create the solution to the chaos that started in the primordial watery womb of the Sephiroth of Binah when Adam Kadmon transferred the Light of the Creator to Malkuth before the appointed time. (Please refer to the blogs Humanity's Purpose and Humanity's Purpose Part II that you can find here: https://bridgetkorns.weebly.com/blog/category/1-humanitys-purpose). That Seed or Spark dwells on the level of Yesod where it continues to develop...and does not come fully into the Physical Realm but exists on just the opposite side of the 'Veil.' The veil, in the metaphysical community, is often referred to as 'the Veil of forgetfulness.' To fully develop we have to reach that point where the personality construct (ego) that we have on earth, which we think is all there is and identify with the body, is dissolved and we become partners with this Spark or Seed of the Divine. Here is where we find the meaning of the Dweller at the Threshold...that Dweller that stands just on our side of the veil is the sum total of all of our life experiences. When we pass through that Threshold and connect with the Yod...which is a part of our Group Soul of Adam Kadmon (also, known as the Logos) we become whole. Once we accept that our soul is part of a Group of Souls that make up Adam Kadmon (a Group or Oversoul also often referred to as the Logos) we realize that all beings on this planet are One...and the futility of harming any of them becomes apparent. That is one reason why meeting the Higher Self is such an important goal and helps us Transcend the cycle of death and rebirth. The Dogon Granary, the Buddhist Stupa...and Ganesha? One of the foundation concepts of what appears to be a Universally Known Cosmology during ancient times that Laird Scranton has identified involves the Dogon Granary which depicts the same concept as the Buddhist Stupa. This, Larid explains, depicts three parallel processes: how the universe formed, how matter forms and how biological reproduction happens. In his many books (all of which I recommend) Laird explains that the Dogon Granary was part of a Civilization Plan given to a group of eight elders teaching them how to cultivate food (farming) and build cities by a group of beings called the Nummo. The Nummo were not physical beings and were required to remain near bodies of water according to Dogon tradition (as water is associated with the Subconscious and Spirit this might mean that they could not dwell too long on the physical plane of existence). There is the slightest hint that this Civilization Plan was carried out right after the Flood that Graham Hancock gives ample evidence for in his book Magicians of The Gods. Laird describes the granary this way, "The grand, defining symbol of the Dogon cosmology takes the form of an aligned ritual shrine that, in keeping with agricultural theme of the associated Civilization plan, is characterized by a granary." These structures, like the Kabbalah Tree of Life, as Laird explained, are the pattern upon which the cosmos are formed. Why would something that hold seeds symbolize such a thing? Does the Dogon Granary and Buddhist Stupia also represent the structure of the human being like the Kabbalah Tree of Life? I believe the answer, based on my dreams, is yes it does. The primary seed is the Po Pilu that Laird has connected with the story of the elephantine Hindu God Ganesha. This next quote is bit complex because Laird is synchronizing so many cosmologies but it's one of the reasons I love Laird's work. If you have read his previous books it makes crystal clear sense but I'm not going to quote all of that. I promise I will unpack the information afterward. All words in square brackets and any emphasis such as bold are mine in the quote below: "In this context, Amma [the Dogon's name for the Creator] is also referred to as the "Hogon (priest) of wasters." As obscure as the term "wasters" may seem, we again gain insight into it's intended meaning by examining corresponding Egyptian Words. According to Budge's definitions, words that mean "waster"can also mean "destroyer." Symbolically, the words reflect the concept of dividing a thing that is originally whole into pieces in much the same way that the structures of material creation are characterized as sub-divisions of a non-material source. Phonetically, one Egyptian word for "wasters" is given by Budge as satti the same essential term that defines creator goddesses in the Sakti Cult, and a phonetic match for the name of the elephant god Ganesha's mother Sati in Hinduisim, who Ganesha called Amma. (Similarly in Hebrew, a word for "mother" is eema). Taken together, these references cast Sati in the role of a archaic yogini, who we interpret as precursors to the Hogon priests. Her consort Siva/Shiva overtly carries the title of "The Destroyer." From the perspective of the cosmology, Siva represents the concept of a sieve, a metaphoric term that refers to the spiral of the Po Pilu, whose effect is to separate particles from waves in much the same way that an actual Dogon Sieve is used to separate beans from sand in which they are placed in order to preserve them. In the same context, Ganesha's role is as the Gatekeeper between the seven stages of the spiral, and one of his mythic roles is as the placer and remover of obstacles. And of course, based on discussion in Point of Origin [a prior book of Laird's], we already directly correlate the po pilu to Ganesha based on many points of evidence. From that perspective, both Siva and Ganesha might be appropriately termed, "wasters." pg 40 of Seeking the Primordial Okay, so let's break this down. First, we have identified the Hindu God Siva with a Sieve which is synonymous with Filter that we've already used to describe Yesod. Yesod is also associated with the concept of a doorway. This is the Threshold itself upon which the Dweller of the Threshold exists. Second, Ganesha and the Po Pilu (which is a Seed and also referred to as the Egg In The Ball by the Dogon) are identified as the same. In another part of the book Laird describes Ganesha as, "the Gatekeeper between the physical and non-physical world." pg 11 Seeking the Primordial. Third is the statement Ganesha and the Po Pilu are the Gatekeepers, "between the the 'seven stages of the spiral.' The seven stages of the spiral are the changes that the Po Pilu seed goes through. To sum all of this up and connect it to our own spiritual growth...Ganesha or the Po Pilu both symbolize the same concept as the Yod...this 'seed' is our Higher Self. Once we have cultivated our minds to receive that 'seed' it then begins to grow in 7 stages. Those 7 stages of the spiral correlates with the 15 systems of 7 of spiritual development I am sharing with you (including the 7 chakras)! Meeting The Higher Self For a Buddhist Bodhisattva warrior who works there entire life to cultivate a compassionate heart the greatest achievement is not just karma...but to meet the Higher Self. Now, this is not really explained in detail in Buddhist books. There is mention of the possibility but no details given as to how this is achieved or why this is desirable. I was unprepared when I met my Higher Self and the symbolism that I encountered was profound. There is an exchange of information and communication that occurs that is not achieved otherwise and this does happen in the etheric realm of Yesod where dreams also occur. Yet, in a meeting with the Higher Self it feels more real then experienced on Earth. That might be a strange concept...but upon return PMR (physical material reality) feels more like a dream. The Higher Self is the Soul...that radiant unchanging aspect of ourselves that can never be touched or blemished by our experiences on Earth. Part of the process of reaching nirvana is to reunite with this part of ourselves. Don't worry, at this point I'm being a little vague because I don't have a good reference to describe the Higher Self in Buddhist terms. Other traditions, however, will help us elaborate on what this means along with the why and how the Soul and human personality complex separated. The Mustard Seed Parable As we have seen, in the Hebrew Kabbalah tradition- the Soul, symbolized by the Yod and often called the Holy Spirit- is described as a Seed. As we have seen in our investigation and meditations on the Sephiroth of Malkuth...Malkuth stands for Kingdom. Kingdom, is representative of Physical Matter Reality on the Cosmic scale is and our consciousness on our personal level. Knowing all of this casts a new insight upon the concept of Mustard Seed Parable that Yeshua taught: “The kingdom (malkuth) of heaven is like a mustard seed (yod), which a man took and planted in his field (consciousness). 32 Though it is the smallest of all seeds, yet when it grows, it is the largest of garden plants and becomes a tree, so that the birds come and perch in its branches.” Yeshua was not talking about faith here as so often interperted...he was talking about cultivating the Yod, the soul seed, that divine spark of Adam Kadmon. The Po Pilu is also described as the smallest seed. The Book Of Revelation The Threshold of Yesod is also described in this quote from Revelation: "Behold, I stand at the door (Yesod) and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me." This is usually interpreted only as the flesh and blood Yeshua but makes more sense if we realize that the soul of Yeshua is the same as Adam Kadmon. That Adam Kadmon and Yeshua were one and the same was covered in the book Lives of the Master by Glen Sanderfur based on the Edgar Cacye readings. This is confirmed by the channel Bashar that describes Yeshua as a manifestation of the Group Soul...which is Adam Kadmon and also sometimes called the Logos. This is one of the reasons Edgar Cacye described Yeshua as the 'template' and the 'pattern' upon which all of us can base our own spiritual development. The oversoul itself had to experience PMR in order to understand the plight of the souls trapped within it and transcend it...essentially showing the way. Of course, the over soul also incarnated as the Buddha and Krishna at other points of history and returns in every age to help the souls that remain asleep in physical material reality. At every astrological age, in fact, it's said that the oversoul returns to be an example of how to return home which is why the Oversoul is expected to return at or around the Age of Aquarius. In many ways, as Laird describes in Seeking the Primordial, Adam Kadmon is 'locked in' as long as parts of himself, the Yod's that descended to Malkuth, remain in PMR. Laird describes Locked in syndrom this way: "The archaic philosophy of Samkhya seems to describe the twin universes in their fully-ascended and descended forms, but without specific detials of how those forms might vary over time in each universe. In keeping with the Samkhya philosophy, Dogon symbolism implies that the two universes together constitute a primordial individual and are characterized as a non-deified consciousness. We have noted that the non-material universe is described as having perfect knowledge, but an inability to act due to an inferred lack of duration of time. This condition, if applied to a living being, would describe a medical condition known as locked in syndrome, one where a persons body is left without the ability to move, but their mind remains fully cognizant, although uncommunicative." pg 125 of Seeking the Primordial Now, we get to the more modern sources to help put this into a less esoteric perspective... Journey Of Souls Now, here we don't have mention of the Higher Self but Michael Newton's book about Life in Between Lives is in agreement what we spoke about before...and I'll just let the quotes speak for themselves. "Our eternal identity never leaves us alone...In reflection, meditation, and prayer the memories of who we are do filter down to us in selective thought every day. In small intuitive was- through the cloud of amnesia- we are given clues for the justification of our being." pg 68 "When the time in our lives is appropriate, we must harmonize human material needs with our souls being here." pg. 68 "...our souls are all part of one great oversoul energy force that divides and extends itself to create our souls..." pg 155 "From my work I have come to believe that we live in an imperfect world by design. Earth is one of countless worlds with intelligent beings, each with its own set of imperfections to bring into harmony. Extending this thought further, we might exist as one single dimensional universe out of many, each having it's own creator governing at a different level of proficiency in levels similar to the progression of souls seen in this book...If the souls who go to planets in our universe are the offspring of a parent oversoul who is made wiser by our struggle, then could we have a more divine grandparent who is the absolute God? The concept of our immediate God is still evolving as we are takes nothing away from an ultimate source of perfection who spawned our God..." pg 275 "They have taught me that a major aspect of our mission on Earth is to mentally survive being cut off fro our real life...A souls relative isolation (while focused on) the Earth during a temporary physical life is made more difficult on a conscious level by thoughts that nothing exists beyond this life. Our doubts tempt us into finding attachments solely in the physical world we can see." pg 274 "We are divine but imperfect beings who exist in both worlds, material and spiritual. It is our destiny to shuttle back and forth between these universes through time an space while we learn to mater ourselves and acquire knowledge." pg 276 Virtual Reality Thomas Campbell describes the Creation as a virtual reality program. The following is purely a metaphor written based on the concepts shared by Thomas Campbell in his book My Big Toe. The Higher Self would is the one playing the game. This is the person with the controller sitting. However, the computer character they are controlling has the ability to ignore the instructions...the interface is not perfect or complex. The player (soul) simply chooses what lessons they prefer to learn and choose a suitable charecter to reach those goals and then sits back to watch watch what unfolds. Occasionally, about every seven years, the Player (Soul) has the opportunity to adjusts those instructions dramatically based on the results and choices produced by the character. Often times, they put in a Dark Night of The Soul to try and get their character back on track to the goals they want to achieve and lessons they want to learn in that particular incarnation. This is a long laborious process and somewhat frustrating method of communication. The video game character often doesn't realize there is anything that exists outside of the particular environment they are in or that there is a player who has access to a map and maybe even a strategy guide that's sending directions ( through subconscious: dreams, intuition and emotions). In some cases, if the Soul, upon reviewing possible outcomes for different commands at certain 'choice points' along the story line they are exploring with their current incarnation...decides that the particular avatar has reached the end of it's usefulness and there is no hope for that personality complex (ego) to reach it's goals. When that happens the Soul may decide to end that particular incarnation. Sometimes this is through aggressive cancer that spreads rapidly and sometimes it's through other means. Summary 1. We learned that the soul/Higher Self/Holy Spirit is associated with the seed in may cosmologies/spiritual systems. 2. That our physical bodies hold that Seed much like a Dogon granary and we must cultivate our mind to grow it. 3. That the seed grows up in a 7 stage spiral...much like lightning strike on the Kabbalah Tree of Life resembles a spiral when looked from the top down or bottom up. 4. That all of us will need to cross the Threshold of Yesod to reunite with our Higher Self/Soul or at the very least open a dialogue through our subconscious with that Higher Self to proceed on the Path of The Seeker. This will allow us to work in alignment with our Higher Self's goals/intents in this life making the "two one." 5. If are hearts are light we will be allowed to continue to ascend upward...resembling the same process that occurs with the after life review upon death but while we are still incarnated. 6. That we are all part of Oversoul/Logos named Adam Kadmon that 'broke' into pieces resulting in chaos in our part of Creation...and that by reducing the entropy (chaos) within our own souls we are contributing to bringing chaos throughout that over soul. 7, That the main things that hold us back from achieving this goal of Awakening to our higher self is fear and attachment to the physical world. Conclusion Every blog is a bit of a journey. This one has been a far reaching one. I was a little fearful when starting off that I wouldn't be able to convey these ideas in a clear way...since for a long time they've been floating on the edge of awareness. The books of I listed as sources are from very divergent times in my life...and so I had an idea of the concept of the Dweller On The Threshold. As someone who walks the Path of the Seeker you are the Dweller on the Threshold. As we will discover, next year, when I create the videos on the Dogon 7 stages of the Po Pilu which are also called 'rays'...the 7th ray pierces the 'seed.' That is the point where we cross the Threshold of Yesod on the Cosmic level...and have the opportunity to evolve further without the cycle of death and rebirth referred to as Samsara. For now, we are working Yesod on the personal level...within our own consciousness and to cross that threshold we open the dialogue with our Higher Self by learning our personal dream symbols and the archetypes...and as Bashar says we must follow our highest excitement...that emotion is one way that our Higher Self instructs us. I think it's beautiful how that balance occurs. Just in case, I want to clarify that it is not that we are 'soulless' until we walk the Path of the Seeker. Instead, it's more like the energy of the soul is split. One part is always in spirit and appears to be 'sleeping' to the others in our soul group (Michael Newton goes into the details of that in his book Destiny of Souls). The seed is a metaphor for soul growth while incarnated...it indicates how we have to cultivate our mind and lower our entropy (chaos) to allow for that growth to occur. Then there is the 7 step path of soul growth that helps us grow the presence of our Soul in our life...so that we go from Sleeping Zombies seeking nothing but physical satisfactions to being able to work in conjunction with our Higher Self for the benefit of the Oversoul (and thus all of humanity). If you think this is out there...somehow I've made this transition and conjunction over the last four years. The process has been an amazing adventure and if you go back and read through my blog you can see the evolution of my soul growth from very unbalanced, fearful and confused...to peaceful, calm and confident. So, you have met someone that has made this transition and it's nothing special. All of us, eventually, will reach this point...maybe not in this life...but eventually it will happen. Thank you Brave Soul for taking this journey with me. Conclusion
As you gaze upon the Hebrew Letter of Tizaddi listen to the sound meditation. Write down in your journal any thoughts, impressions or feelings that you had when performing the meditation.
(Above is a drawing I made in 2007 based on the "Healing Spiral" that I perceived at that time...I had no idea what it meant until recently).
You will be reading this blog two months, exactly, after I wrote it mostly because I have blogs already scheduled to be published up until that point. Another is that what I'm writing about here is emotionally charged. I want time to pass so those who were involved but don't necessarily read my blog are less likely to read this. I have always known that the Path of the Seeker is more of a spiral then a straight line. Often times, we end up in the same places that we were in the last time to see if we have really learned our lesson. Well, I hit that spiral point where I was back where I had been before...but this time I was armed with the Spiritual Knowledge and rock hard faith that I have developed while doing this Work. This time, the difference was entirely psychological. I am not sharing this with you to claim to be special. I am sharing this with you so that you know what you too can achieve. Have you experienced the same or similar circumstances...do all of your jobs seem to end the same way, do all of your relationships end up the same way, or do you have a chronic that keeps rearing it's ugly head? Well, blame it on the Spiral of the Path. Each time you confront the same situation you have a choice. You can handle it the same way that you have in the past and receive the same result....or you can expand your mind and do something new. End Of A Cycle Now, I wrote about this before because I knew that I was coming up to the end of my 5th cycle of 7. You can read it here in a blog titled, "Getting on the Positive Train." https://bridgetkorns.weebly.com/blog/getting-on-the-positive-train6100232 The Positive Train is referring to a realization I had about what the channel Bashar talked about with two trains and two timelines: https://bridgetkorns.weebly.com/blog/the-two-trains-timeline-metaphor-decoded Given that I was born on July (7) 5th and the momentous stage of finally being pregnant again after losing my daughter in 2014 I knew that it wasn't going to be easy. Francesca Simon on her weekly broadcast of Charting Your Course, is also in at the end of her birthday cycle, and she was talking about how at that time everything seems to be breaking down. This happens once a year right before your birthday....because it's at the start of the birthday that the cycle begins again. You also have the opportunity the results of any work you have done in that cycle! Now, these break downs and end of relationships are a good thing. They make room for what you want to see in the next cycle of growth. She relates this process to the Kabbalah Tree of Life that you can see below. The process are the words describing the Sephiroth on the left side of the atmark.
So, as of July 5th I will be at the Idea stage for the next year. That's when I will decide where I want things to go and start to plan accordingly. The next step will be make plans and then gather materials.
That first cycle of 52 days is when you set up what you want to see come to fruition in the next cycle. This gives us the ability to go through and plan our year accordingly. Just as with gardening, you need to know that it's in the spring that you plant your seeds in the ground, through the summer you maintain them and so in the Fall you can reap the harvest...then in the Winter you let things rest. The 7 Year Cycle Colette Baron-Reid talks about the 7 year cycle. She refers to a book about fractals that I haven't read but I have heard this information in less formal places (websites like this I think) instead of an actual book. I've known for a long time that it's the way things go and in a dream that I have shared it was reinforced. I knew that I had two more choice points before the end of this current cycle.
The First Choice Point
The First Choice Point I had was connected with that Mystical Experience with the being I described in the "Getting On The Positive Train" blog. The next morning I woke up and I heard the woman from the vision say, "Accept the Deal." I had no idea what "Deal" she was talking about. My first thought was that it was some sort of business deal. As I am on bed rest at the moment and not at work...let alone looking for a job (I love my job and the place that I work) I thought maybe it was just nonsense. Then I looked at my phone and I saw that the girl I considered my best friend was ending our friendship. She had told me something in confidence and I had told her husband. In my defense, I didn't expect her to keep it secret from her husband. I assumed she would tell him. Apparently, she had looked at his phone for something unrelated. He and I were friends as well (which is hard) and she saw that I had told him. I knew that I needed to accept that our friendship was over given that beings instruction. I realized, years ago, when I moved out with my ex-husband (HUGE mistake) it was she that showed me a past life memory and asked, "Do you really want to do this again?" Had I listened to her my life would have been dramatically different. In hindsight, after meditating on the subject, I realized my best friend and I brought the worst out of one another. This was neither of our faults but just what we mirrored the most for each other. We have both experienced set backs and have a similar history but have wildly different approaches to life. Her friendship made me dwell on all of the disappointment and resentment's I had of my husband. While in the past our friendship had helped me heal from losing Lilith-Ann...it had de-evolved into something detrimental. She was incapable of walking the Path of the Seeker, seeing no value in it, and that had started to drive us apart for a long time. She stated at one point in her blog that she needed to find a friend who, "Shared her faith." I knew, at that point, that she was over our friendship but I felt that I needed to support her through some tough life lessons she was going through regardless. My old martyr syndrome I thought I had laid to rest had flared up. I couldn't share what I was most passionate about with her (my husband, being more agnostic, is not on the Path of the Seeker either). While we had a similar sad history with trying to have kids, same hobbies like writing blogs and education the only thing we shared in common in The Now was griping about our husbands. I still consider her an inspiration and will leave an acknowledgement for her in my YouTube videos because I do appreciate the support she showed me at first. However, as I explained in the post, "Getting On The Positive Train," we don't have time to dwell on what we don't like in life. That will only bring more of it into our world. This is why current therapy fails so often (and depth psychology used to work). I knew this but I didn't realize that I was guilty of it in this friendship because it wasn't always that way. The entire friendship had de-evolved gradually over a three year period. Focusing on hatred and resentment poisons the body- in particular the Kidney and Liver. Leading to all sorts of health problems that I know I don't want. I love my husband very much. He is just not like me...which is a good thing. I was looking for a salt-of-the-Earth person who could keep me grounded. Now, that I have the space to work on appreciating him and seeing what he does not as an attack on me but a part of his nature as that salt of the Earth type of guy I was looking for when I met him...I'm already a lot happier in my marriage. So, letting go of that friendship was the best decision I could make and I am thankful for the being that reached out to me to give me that direction...because I would never have been able to handle what happened next the way that I did with that friendship still in place.
The Second Choice Point
This was brutal. By far, this was one of the toughest spiritual tests I have ever faced. I never dreamed that this or would happen to me...again. In many ways, the week of June 25- July 1st was like reliving losing Lilith-Ann. Not the same exact situation but similar enough to absolutely blow my mind once I realized what was occurring. What happened with my daughter epitomizes the lesson about my Emotions that I have been learning in the last 7 year cycle. I had a hint that this was going to happen thanks to Collette Baron-Reid's universal forecast...I knew I was going to be triggered, as I wrote about on the, "Getting On The Positive Train," post. I was prepared...but I was not prepared for something happen on such a monumental shake me to the core of my foundation level. What happened completely tore me to pieces. I now see that it was imperative that I not be friends with my ex-best friend at this time because had a reacted negatively I think very bad things would have happened. My dog Angel Korns, which you have inevitably seen in my YouTube videos (in particular the one on Shadow Work where she interrupts me at the end) and in pictures in my personal blogs...died suddenly. Over the course of a week she went from being the usual dog I knew to not wanting to eat at all. At first we were told it was gastrintits and that we had caught it early but she wouldn't take the pills for that...and then it turned out she was in the late stages of Kidney failure. I had been told in a dream that she was, "Temporarily out of service and required water." Water, to me, represents Spirit. I didn't realize that it meant she wasn't going to die. I had an idea, and I hint at it...but I was hoping she would pass peacefully in her sleep and not suffer so much. My empathy when I see anything suffer is so acute it overwhelms the senses. The grief of watching her suffer as my husband and I struggled with the her steep and rapid decline in health- going from being a hungry pup willing to eat anything on Monday to not being willing to eat anything by Wednesday- was tough. I knew by Wednesday that I needed to let her go. I couldn't stand seeing her struggle. My husband, however, wanted to see if there was anything that we could do to save her. I stayed up with her over night while she puked and slept roughly. Her entire body would shudder in pain and it was the most horrible thing to watch. My husband was able to sleep upstairs because he didn't want to take time off because he's been saving his vacation for when our daughter Michelle is born. I was appalled by his behavior. I had flashbacks to losing my daughter and some of the more callous things he said to me as I struggled with that loss because she was more, "real" to me then she was to him because I carried her and could feel her move. He doesn't remember saying that to me, but I remember that as though it were yesterday and I think it's a psychological defense mechanism he has in place. I admit, I was emotionally destroyed and felt completely unsupported...as though I was going through this entire event on my own. He cared about her but he doesn't have the depth of feeling or emotions that I have. The majority of people I know don't have that level of Empathy. I cried so hard it hurt my stomach and it was not right of me to do that to Michelle who shares my body and adrenal system with me. I put a lot of strain on both of us. My grief was so deep I stood on the same precipice of emotional oblivion that I stood on with Lilith-Ann. To be honest, I loved that little dog more then my husband or anything else on this Earth. For a long time, it was just her and me and I thought it was going to be just her and me forever back when I got her in 2007. She lived 12 years which is a long time for a Cocker Spaniel but so much of my life revolved around that little dog. I bought a double baby carriage so she could go with me on walks once Michelle was born because I knew she struggled with that in the last couple of years. I was going to just plunk her in the front seat and take her for a ride. I was so excited that I was finally going to have a baby she could play with because she loved children so much and that's the one experience I hadn't really provided for her. She always loved going places. I called her my Road Trip Doggy. If I ever considered any being or thing, "Mine" and that it defined me it was her. She was like an extension of myself (much like my truck but to a far lesser degree). She was the thing, on the physical material realm, that I was attached to the most. More then any person place or object I had ever come across. The stress and grief of losing her, which I had been avoiding because I knew it was stress that triggered me losing Lilith-Ann in 2014, was unavoidable. My husband had made an appointment to put Angel down for 3pm on Friday June 29th. On Thursday June 28th Ross and I felt baby Michelle flipping over in my belly. We could literally feel that she was sideways. I was concerned but I was so sore, tired from crying and trying to take care of Angel so that she was comfortable because I knew she was in pain and scared... I was too exhausted to think that this might be a bad thing. I had an O.B. appointment to get a shot to keep me from going into labor the next morning. As we were heading to the doctors office I felt Michelle ram my cervix and a gush of fluid followed by contractions. Immediately, my mind flashed back to 2014 when something far more subtle had happened...I began leaking amniotic fluid at work. I knew we needed to get to the hospital but the doctors office wasn't answering the phone for some reason. I told my husband and we drove to the doctors office. He went upstairs and asked where he should take me. I knew I couldn't walk. We went to Queen of the Valley. This was the same hospital where I had delivered my daughter Lilith-Ann under similar circumstances in 2014. The ride there seemed to take forever. He took forever to get a wheel chair because it was a busy day thanks to the Full Moon. I brought out my cell phone and started doing a Temple Sounds Meditation realizing that I needed to calm down. When stressed I have a tendency to hold my breath. Eventually, we found out that my water hadn't broke. Apparently, when Michelle rammed my cervix she had hit my very full bladder which had given way. I had peed my pants, just a little since I was able to hold most of it, but there was no amniotic fluid. Thank god I had the cerclage done, however, because Baby Michelle would have probably been born in that car ride if I hadn't had one with how hard she had rammed my cervix. The contractions were real and Michelle was presenting as though she expected to be born any minute. The medical staff gave me a drug to stop the contractions. Ross rescheduled the appointment to have Angel put to sleep for 5pm instead of 3pm. I was very upset because I was afraid that her pain medication would wear off and that she would suffer more then she should. I felt horrible. I couldn't calm myself. In addition to that he had skipped breakfast and was starving. Time crept on and four hours later (around 3pm when we should have been with Angel at the Vet) we were still in the intake room. Then the staff finally informed us that I would be admitted to the hospital. At that point I told my husband to leave. He needed to eat and take care of Angel. I know putting down Angel without me was hard for him. Some people might feel it was cruel I was not there in her final moments. He felt bad that I wasn't there to hold her with him. Yet, I had told that dog everything I wanted to tell her and said goodbye to her the night before...I had really hoped she would pass in her sleep. He says that Angel was not suffering when he came home, that she cuddled him at the office and drifted off peacefully. That's the most I could ask for. I will be eternally grateful for him going through that without me. He had to do the much the same thing with our daughter Lilith-Ann. He has a strength to him that I don't have and that's one of the reasons that my husband and I make such a great team.
The Hospital Stay
After my husband finally left I was taken to room 1111. I was struck by the familiarity of the situation. I had delivered my daughter, Lilith-Ann, in a nearly identical room back in 2014. I was filled with shock and horror to find myself in a similar place. Yes, Baby Michelle was more likely to survive but it turns out at 31 weeks she would have had to stay in the hospital for at least two weeks if she was born. We needed to stay pregnant. The room number, as many of you know from synchronicity, is very important to me. 1111 means unity. I realized that I was at that precipice of mental and emotional oblivion. I knew, from my Shadow Work and all of my studying what I needed to do...I knew that I needed to pull myself back. I recognized that I had two panic attacks- one in the car when Michelle rammed my cervix and another as we were waiting to find out if I was going to be admitted to the hospital. I was disappointed that I had experienced them but immediately forgave myself realizing that I was in a very unique set of circumstances. I realized that this, since the Path is A Spiral always returning to previous lessons that are failed, was a Spiritual Test. I gave myself a pep talk that no one else was capable of giving me. I repeated to myself what Francesca Simon says often, "All is in divine order." What would I do differently, I had asked myself often, if I was in the same situation that I had been with Lilith-Ann? That was a question that had haunted me for the past four years. That I had gone over mercilessly in my mind as I searched my soul. So, now I was prepared for the answer. I reminded myself of the spiritual truths that would comfort my soul- that nothing really dies and that all life in the physical realm is temporary. I knew that no one in the outer world was capable or responsible of saving me from this precipice...this was up to me and I knew just how to do it. I realized that I needed to switch modes as soon as possible. I needed to let go of my grief over losing Angel and focus on getting into a positive mind space for Baby Michelle. To say it was not a natural thing for me is an understatement. I went into a meditative mode knowing that was the only way I was going to calm myself down. I listened to my Temple Sound Meditations...which are the easiest way to cut through the Monkey Mind when you are in a place of fear. I imagined the Light of Heaven passing down and through me...also recognizing that my kundalini was rising...so I pushed it back down and imagined that it was latched into place. Those instinctual flight or fight emotions were not needed in that moment and I couldn't balance them with my heart in such a broken state. Eventually, I was able to come back to myself and release my grief. This was a conscious decision...and thanks to the mental discipline that I have developed through meditation and working with releasing my psychological Shadow it was far easier then one would expect. I immediately started to practice gratitude which I will cover in the next section of this blog. There is no way that I could reach that state of mind back in 2014 when I went into labor with Lilith-Ann due to stress. Back then I was terrified to move in the bed and let the nurses bully me. Now, I set boundaries with the nurses and did what I needed to do to heal myself regardless of their well meaning instructions. As a result, there was an immediate change in the way my body behaved. At intake, each time they gave me a shot I would bleed profusely...harking back to when I hemorrhaged on cue with Lilith-Ann. I treated each of my nurses kindly and called them by name but I maintained those boundaries. I only met one that wanted to be difficult with me. I stood up to her boldly letting her know that I am not someone to be pushed around and I know my body better then anyone else. They gave me steroids so that Baby Michelle's lungs growth would be sped up in case she was born. No one thought that the contractions would stop. The thought I would give birth to her soon. My improvement, thanks to my attitude, was rapid. The doctor initially said that I wouldn't be released until July 3rd. The nurses were certain I would have Michelle within days given my history. However, I was released on July 1st on strict bed rest. When they gave me my final shot of steroids I didn't bleed at all. (Insert a picture of green socks)
Practicing Gratitude
The key method, aside from meditating, that got me out of there was by practicing Gratitude. I honored the nurses even as I set boundaries with them. I treated them as I would want to be treated. I was thankful to get green socks to add to my hospital sock collection (I like the hospital sock because they are slip resistant, brightly colored and easy for me to find in the laundry basket I've been living out of since I've been on bed rest and restricted to the first floor of my house). I was thankful that the first morning I was at the hospital I was served French Toast, my favorite meal, for breakfast. When the kitchen called for my order for the rest of the day I was extremely grateful to them over the phone for having Decaf Black Tea because I had been craving that like crazy. The woman who took my order was so touched she personally brought a cup of decaf black tea to my room as soon as she could! I told the nurses that I thought the labor was brought on by the death of Angel and showed them pictures of her that last week. They cried with me. All in all, I took a very scary situation and I transformed it into something incredibly positive. I turned it into a moment of personal triumph. I have no doubt it was my conscious decision to get back into a better place mentally and calm myself down...and the fact that I could do so...that stopped me from going into full labor and giving birth to Michelle prematurely. I celebrated my triumph in being able to overcome this obstacle. I had faced all of my fears, all of my demons, from when I had Lilith-Ann before and I had won. My emotions no longer control me...I listen to them, I hear what they mean and I let them go. Armed with Gratitude and Understanding I was able to finally pass this Spiritual Test! The Aftermath I am now home. I'm writing this on July 4th, although, you won't see this post until August because I have other blogs scheduled prior to this date. I can't walk around. My ankles become very swollen if I try to be on my feet for more then ten minutes. I don't know if it is from the steroids or if it's the way the baby is sitting or it's just a part of the third trimester. I'm on the most extreme bed rest...walking only to the bathroom and to my computer as needed. I am grateful for this experience. I have learned that I have come so very far in my work and personal transformation! The house is eerily quiet with just my dog, Apollo, the cats and snake. My Angel Korns left a giant emptiness behind because she had such a big personality. I promised my husband we would never have two dogs again and he never wants to have a 30 pound dog again...or a puppy. He only wants to adopt rescues. I know that I will see her again...whether or not it's on the physical material realm I don't know. I have a cold or something going on. Grief, I know, rests in the lungs. I have no doubt that is why I have a weird hacking cough. I intend to spend as much of the rest of the Mars retrograde that started on June 26th and continues to my daughters due date of August 27th in bed. With all that said....let's take a look at the crazy synchronicity with the energy that occurred on June 29th...because it was a big one astrologically for me. I had no idea that this level of astorlogical coincidence was occurring around the Full Moon. I only saw Rick Levine's video after I was at the hospital and I was just floored.
The Strange Astrology/Oracle Synchronicity
Now, I had a bit of a heads up going into this week. I knew thanks to Collette Baron-Reid's Universal Forecast that I was going to be triggered. I was already having fights with my husband over minor things. He has very strong opinions about what I should eat when pregnant and he is very materialistic. Sometimes, since I have, for the most part, given up my attachment to physical objects (I'm still working on heirlooms and such things) this can be irritating to me. I didn't realize that there were three huge events in Astrology involving planets and zodiac signs that have a huge impact on my chart (I am by far not that deep into astrology or it's mean but I do know some basic information). My Rising Sign is Capricorn, which is ruled by Saturn and my Sun Sign is Cancer which is ruled by the moon. Full moon's always have a tremendous impact on me because, as my cousin once told me, being born during a Full Blood Moon on July 5th 1982 I brought to much of my souls energy in with me. Rick Levine explains in the video above the three factor playing into this difficult astrological energy. He talks about it from 21:49 to 33:41. He rambles a lot in his astrological videos and he's very hateful about Trump but he knows his astrology. Here is a brief summary: First, there was the Full Blood Moon where the Sun and Moon are in conjunction. Second, was the fact that the Sun and Saturn were also in opposition. Third, Mars had begun to go retrograde on June 26th and it will last through August 27th. In the First case- The Blood Moon in Cancer enhanced the watery Emotional Subconscious energy. In the Second case- Saturn as the ambitious taskmaster with no compassion opposing the Sun brings up a sense of isolation and draws attention to the Spiritual Lessons we may or may not have completed. In the Third Case- Mars retrograde where we are called upon to slow down, reflect, reassess and reorganize before going forward. Mars likes to throw stumbling blocks into our paths to see if we've really learned our lessons. Finally, from my position on the Earth when I looked up at the Full Moon on June 26th it was in the Zodiac sign of Ophiuchus. I know because I have a Sky Watch App on my phone that when I hold the screen up to the sky it tells me the different constellations, planets and the name of larger stars. As I've said before, the man holding the snake represents the triumph of taming the snake from the Garden of Eden. What an appropriate place for the Moon to be given what I was about to experience on that Friday. The Shocking Personal Synchronicity Implication As I said, for me, this set up for a huge psychological trip of the ultimate brutal test of whether or not I've learned my lessons regarding balancing my emotions and intellect with my heart. As you can see, the Blood Moon in Cancer is a lot like my birthday 36 years ago, Saturn is the ruling planet of my rising sign of Capricorn- an earthy sign that and it's said that your Rising Sign embodies who you were in your past lives (based on what I recall of my past lives this extremely accurate). Ironically, this week on July 7th I am posting a fascinating blog on Hebrew letter Ayain. Ayain is connected to both zodiac signs of Capricorn and Cancer...and in that video and elaborated blog meditation on that letter you will find that the Sefer Yetziarah instructs Capricorn to balance their Earthy with the emotional subconscious wellspring of Cancer... The result of this balance is 'opening the third eye of intuition.' This is undoubtedly my life purpose. I've always known that I was meant to Awaken in this life. My mission to Awaken was so important I brought far more spiritual energy then I should have into this realm. Yet, to see it spelled out in a ancient Hebrew letter at the same time I under go such a profound lesson with the heavens above mirroring this as the pivotal purpose of my life is the stuff of a good fictional novel...and seems more like a magical dream then the reality most people believe in...yet it is an undeniable coincidence. So, it is, that as in the heavens on Earth...I was faced with my worse fears to see if I have balanced my Earthy Nature with my Emotional Nature. This was a tremendous opportunity to come full circle...to face all of the same terror which I faced with Lilith-Ann...and realize that I have transformed myself so much in the last 4 years. The finality and conclusion of the set of lessons that I went through in the last 7 year cycle from 2011-2018 is incredible. I am also letting go of the final remnants of the previous cycle which means that my plate is being wiped clean for an endless potential for the next 7 year cycle. Conclusion Phew. This has been such a long and complicated post. By the time you have read this I will have posted a bonus blog that you can find on the right listed under Angel Korns and on my YouTube channel with a music video with pictures of Angel celebrating her life. Like Lilith-Ann I know it's more important to celebrate their time spent on Earth instead of mourning them. I'm making the video to inspire myself and others. My husband is going to record a unique song for the video as well so it will help bring us together to share our grief. Since he's a Leo any creative project we perform together brings us together. I know my next set of lessons will have a lot to do with creating a balanced relationship with him...having relationships with human beings has always been a challenge for me. We've been together for 9 years but there is still much to learn and to improve. As we are all eternal beings, even animals, the change of transitioning to Spirit is just as simple as stepping into another dimension of reality. I mourn, mostly, for myself and my loneliness and not for those I lost...whether human or animal. Needless to say, I'm amazed and humbled by this experience. I'm amazed with how much I have grown. I'm amazed because a set of dreams I have not covered, where everything was turning to ice, indicated that if I didn't do something I was going to go, "Back to Sleep." There is even more to the story but it's so delicate that I'm not sure if I want to dwell on it and cover it in a blog. I'm finding this weird interlacing of the past and the current time to be fascinating but confusing at the same time. I feel as though I passed a test that I had the opportunity to pass in 2000 and 2007. I feel like Galadriel in Lord of the Rings when she is tempted by the One Ring and she overcomes that incredible temptation. I'm amazed as the last things from the previous 7 year cycle (in particular what defined me when I was single from 2007-2009) are also falling away. My dog and my truck are the final remnants of that 'life.' The slate is being completely wiped clean for this new cycle. I am excited about my daughter Michelle and the potential for new experiences that the next cycles will bring. I don't know what I want really, aside from raising two children, so I'm just going into a receptive mode. That concept is very hard for me and deserves it's own post as it's the final lesson that I had to comprehend to pass this test. In the Hindu tradition this is called Tamas, and I just read a fascinating Hindu Scripture on the topic. As Jesus said, we don't need to worry about all of the details. "...seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." (Matthew 6:33) I have done my part. Now, it's time to let the rest flow naturally. I had a dream where people had to choose which future they preferred for Humanity.
The first future that they could choose from was a future that resembled Star Wars. The second future that they could choose from was a future that resembled Star Trek. I brought the idea up to my husband and he was a little surprised. He'd never thought of it that way. What future would you prefer of those two scenarios? Let's take a look at this choice shall we? Star Wars The scenario of Star Wars is one of duality. The purpose of the expansion into space is to expand territory and conquer in the name of the Empire. There is always the Dark Side trying to oppress the Cosmos. First, it was the Empire that took over through politics in the prequels. In the current trilogy it's the First Order. Education is not valued aside for being trained for war. In this universe no matter how hard the Rebels might try there will always be a form of an oppression. There will always be two sides to choose between. There will always be the oppressors trying to bring order to the Cosmos by force. There will always be a small scrappy band of rebels fighting them. The technological focus is always on practical instead of luxury. Since the technology is focused on items of war they are as bare bones and practical as possible. Since the money is focused on producing weapons there's nothing to spare on other forms of luxury to make life easier for the common person. Slavery exists and is not frowned upon. The use of the Force to affect the environment. Two ancient Religions- The Jedi and the Sith constantly locked into a battle to control the Universe. Star Trek A non-dual society. A society where the purpose of venturing into space is to learn more about life. War is discouraged although it happens with some of the more barbaric species that haven't learned the benefits of sharing. There is a clause of non-interference so that societies on non-technological planets can progress naturally. Scientists of the Federation may choose to study these cultures in order to better understand the development of society but they do not exploit the people. Space ships, while practical, are similar to floating cities providing as many luxuries as home. A group of independent species with their own planets and rules working together to learn more about Creation. Each species is allowed to keep their identity and are honored for their unique approach to life. Overall, the Federation is peaceful. They have advanced technology such as replicators that can make whatever food a person might want at ease...although, sometimes cooking is done for the joy of it. Education is highly prized. There is no expectation or need for everyone to join the Federation. That is just an option that people have in life and not forced in any way. Slavery is condemned. Religions of many different types are allowed and honored by those who do not belong to them. Conclusion I know I personally would prefer a future for humanity that looks more like Star Trek. Star Wars as the future has no appeal to me. I don't think I would be willing to bring children into a universe where, no matter how often the Light Side won, there would always be a Dark Side to rise up and oppress them. Not to mention, when you study human motivation, you realize that no one is ever that simple. Those two extremes are not real. No one is really 100% evil and no one is 100% good all of the time. Good people lie and commit crimes because they feel they have no choice (often due to a psychological limitation) and bad people are capable of compassion (think Deadpool, more or less). If you were to make this choice which one would you choose? Would you choose Star Wars because you wanted to be a powerful Jedi or Sith? Would you prefer the luxurious methodical exploration of Star Trek? If you could choose one of these future's for Humanity which one would you choose?
What can I say?
Meditation is your most important tool on the path of the Seeker! There are sound meditations like those at Temple Sounds Youtube page or ASMR videos. There are physical meditations like Qingong (more on that next March) or walking meditation or dance. There are the intellectual ones where you focus on breathing. Reading or writing a book is a form of meditation. There are visual meditations on symbols such as this tarot card key. You can even meditate by focusing on the smell of incense or the essential oil in a diffuser. Every learning style has it's type of meditation with the intent of making the mind still. There are so many resources out there that something will work for you. Even if you only have ten minutes a day to meditate it's the intention that is the most important. "Be still and know I'm god." Psalm 46:10 When it comes to meditation or being a spiritual seeker desiring the end your suffering the question is, "Do you really want it?" If you do...you'll make the time to practice and study the ample amount of metaphysical literature out there. The path requores discipline and no one can make it happen for you. |
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Brave Soul! May Your Journey On The Path Of The Seeker Bring You Joy and Peace! I'm currently posting every Saturday. With a new addition the family I have pre-scheduled most posts through December 2022. Full Moon Posts will contain up-to-date content when I can get to them. Thank you so much for your support and understanding! This is a place where you can encounter new spiritual ideas that have helped me develop as an Individual On The Path of the Seeker. Take or Leave this information as you see fit. Archives
April 2024
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