Screaming Goats.
Google says that the Meme with screaming Goats is from 2013. I'm pretty sure it was older then that but what can anyone do? That sums up Thor Love and Thunder- badly timed jokes and sheer sacrilegious superficial terrible writing. My first though was, "This is what happens when an athiest writes about Archetypes." Thor is weird anyway, taking a deeply revered Norse God and turning the entire belief system about him into an Alien Species. The comics, with this premise, predate Stitchin's Annunaki theories. This movie not only mocks the belief in any God...but it even takes a different at Meditation. "I tried meditation," Thor says to Jane, "Did you try meditation?" "No, that's boring," Jane laughs (not an exact quote by the way). "...it just made me angrier," Thor says. I can't help but sigh and shake my head. As many people noted, they went with an extremely dumb version of Thor. This isn't the Thor that sat and reconciled what he knew as Magic with Jane Foster's Science. Such a superficial movie that's all colorful lights, nauseating loud sound, and an attempt to awe with no 'soul' or heart. In addition, the movies core was about two things that are very serious and just not funny- Cancer and Existential Crisis. The resolution of these two very serious topics- Thor, Jane and Gorr all having Existential crises- is totally dissatisfying and disingenuine. There could have been a truly healing experience for everyone on the journey. The two most interesting parts- Jane as Mighty Thor and her journey of giving up on Science to save her prompting her to embrace magic and Gorrs descent into madness driven by his Existential Crises and grief- were barely there. They could have made a movie just about Mighty Thor (Natalie Portman was amazing as always) or Gorr (Christian Bale was terrifying) but they barely received screen time. Instead there was a lot of Screaming Goats. This should have been a Darker themed movie. This should have been a movie that was so focused on Thor. I knew it was awful when it opened with very cartoony aliens that looked beautiful but were totally not believable (same with the goats) just totally taking me out of the movie. Of course, it started with Thor destroying a very important Temple that the Guardians were being paid to save...the opening really summed up the disrespect of Archetypes. Gorr giving his daughter Love to Thor was totally unearned. His charecter had absolutely no development that would cause him to turn like that at the end. Don't even get me started on the weird love triangle between the Thor, his Hammer and Axe. That was a joke from Ragnarok that was taken way too far and was not funny. The hospital scene where Thor urges Jane (by the way whoever chose to name her Jane did a disservice because it always makes me think of Tarzan) not to pick up the Hammer again because it's killing her was by far the best part of the movie. The Collective I'm glad that the Collective rejected this film just as they did SheHulk. The ideas in this film and the perception of the world and Existential crises needed to be tossed because it's just wrong. We shouldn't find purpose by, "Feeling shitty about someone." That is officially the dumbest solution to a Existential crises I've ever heard. I think Tiko heard the phrase, "Better to love and lost then never loved at all," but totally didn't get it. The love from that quote is a deep, long, abiding true love...not the brief shallow relationship they showed Jane and Thor. I think most get it... I also think that most people who've actually encountered an Existential Crises- where our entire identity and paradigm is lost because the beliefs were faulty- know the answer lies within the archetypes and primordial concepts in which the concept of the Gods are rooted. That is why this movie feels so wrong. This is the athiest concepts that anyone who believes in anything before modern science is a moron. Thankfully, the majority of people don't feel that way. That may be because they've had multiple lives of believing in something bigger then self-gratfication. Again, so glad to see that the Collective rejected this nonsense because the "moral" (can it be called that when it's answer to the purpose of life is to blunder about conducting shallow self-gratification? Maybe we should call it "Lesson") of the story was absolutely wrong. No, being extremely superficial and shallow focusing on self-gratificiation or fleeting moments of love is not enough justification for how shitty life can be...instead it is far more rewarding to believe that there is more to life, more to reality, then just the Physical Material Reality..that we have a Soul that is evolving and learning with each incarnation and that there is a purpose to the accumulation of that knowledge. Bravo Collective for rejecting this crap...perhaps, as Werewolf By Night indicated, it is far better that we start going into the Darkness because Marvel's attempt at light hearted materiail has been gross.
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I'm writing this during the day before the Taurus Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in November.
I was resisting the urge to write this- especially, prior to the Election Results that will probably determine so much. Also, this is prior to two major movies- Avatar Way of Water and Wakanda Forever- come out. Yet, I can see clery where those are going. The Trend I saw in the Collective Consciousness via Entertainment was "A New Power Structure." In review, the most powerful theme was "Family" complete with awkward family meals- including Turning Red and SheHulk which I embedded above. The Third Trend, also embodied by the two movies above and Werewolf by Night...was "Accepting The Bull"...which I referred to in my last blog where we accept our Animal Body which was the lesson of the last Indigenous Age- the Age of the Animal. In ancient theology we were taught to 'Kill the Bull' by denying pleasure and the senses...effectively, killing our Venus nature. Absolutely, this ties into the astrology perfectly and my intuition that the Divine Feminine- that Venus Nature- is being reborn. Our relationship to pleasure and beauty is going to change as our perspective of being human changes. Those who love being human- such as Carl Jung and C.S. Lewis- would look at this Global Warming nonsense and Green Agenda that is so authoritarian and cold that they would rather see the elderly freeze to death in their homes...as madness. Let's break this down....
The True Theme
​This video really surprised me as I was working on this blog. "This is about American Families," says one of the Fox Referring to the mid-term hosts on this video that randomly came on after I listened to a Breaking Points video. Family. How very beautiful. All of the Movies and Shows this year came back to family. At the same time, this year, the Divine Family United in the signs of Virgo, Libra and Scorpio. That was one of the major transits I laid out as being the most significant. To see this family reunion theme emerged in all of the entertainment this year is I was really curious what would happen and I am not disappointed. Family has become *The Theme* of this year knocking out the New Power Structure Theme that I saw in advance. The second most common theme has been the Feminine accepting the 'Animal Body' which I tied to Venus in my last blog. Sometimes the Theme was bizarre- such as in the case of SheHulk that ended with an awkward family BBQ that I embedded above. Or somewhat subtle, as in Andor, where a series of events that will lead to him being a decisive member of the Rebellion start off with Andor seeking to find his sister. In Hocus Pocus 2 it was a surprise as Winnifred chooses to be with her sisters over ultimate power. In Thor Love and Thunder...Thor matures and ends up with an adoptive daughter Love. Starlord, at the beginning, emphasizes how it was better to have loved and lost Gamorrah...and how looking I to the eyed of his family of misfits gave him the meaning Thor did not have. In Doctor Strange: Multiverse of Madness (MOM) it was about family in many ways as Wanda sought to restore hers. Even more so as Doctor Strange ends up with American Chavez as a sort of daughter after giving up forcing things with Christine. In Obi Wan Kenobi we saw family as well because Obi Wan saw Anakin as his brother. He had to see that Anakin was truly gone, replaced by Darth Vader, for him to move on with his own life. Although, this was very intersting because there was as real Archetype- the Masculine diving into Darkness (Vader/Anakin) and Light (Obi Wan) and the three women- Leia, Reva, and Tala- representing the Goddess (often symbolized by Hecate, the Norns, or the Fates). Ms. Marvel was all about Wholesome family values as she went back in Time to save her Grandmother. I loved that series and that was easily the best part. In Turning Red, where the main charecter- out of her entire family- accepts the Panda side of her that the rest of the women in her family rejected the theme of Family is easy to see. That movie was enjoyable, but the main charecter saying she 'accepts all labels' and the FourTown stuff defintely made it so that it wasn't for me. There were some awkward questions from my eldest daughter watching this one and she didn't want to watch it a second time (the Mom turning into the huge Panda scared her). Maverick was also about family. He healed his releationship with Penny and ended up with a daughter as a result. He also healed his relationship with Rooster who was like a son. He went from having, "No one," as Rooster told him at one point to making the choice not to remain aloof. Of course, in the two series I didn't watch- Lord of the Rings: Rings Of Power and Game of Thrones: House of the Dragon- revolved around families. Galadrial is motivated by the death of her brother. House of Dragons, obviously, focuses solely on politics inside the Targaryen Family. Although, I have to point out- as I did in a previous blog- both of these were political strategizing/soap ophras based on the past of a story we already know the ending to...so it's not something that was about current events in the Collective Conscious but understanding how certain endings/stories came about. Black Adam and Shazam will also be about family and ones role in it. Those haven't been released either. In Wakanda Forever, family will be important as Tchallas death will be central. Similar Turning Red and SheHulk we will see one of the women- probably Shuri (my favorite)- will embrace being the Black Panther. Although, all of the women may adopt the Symbol. In Avatar, it's clear that family will be important and the main focus as Neytiri is pregnant and one member of their family is human looking. I hate to say it but it sounds a bit like Thor Ragnarok where "Asgard" is not defined by the Place but by the People/family/tribe. My Favorite Movie This year was mostly disappointing but my favorite movie was very much The Batman. For me, seeing it when Jupiter and Neptune were in Pisces leading to so much water energy (as I'm writing this Jupiter has retrograded to be in Pisces again, there is a Water Trine as the Moon is in Scorpio and I believe there is a asteroid in Cancer...and naturally it's pouring rain at the moment so that my backyard looks like a Lake)...the ending and outro narration that The Batman does captures a maturing of the Divine Masculine because Batman is, ultimately, the battle between the Dark and Light within the Divine Masculine. Here is the quote: "The city is underwater, the National Guard is coming...I can already see things will get worse before they get better...and some will seize the chance to grab what they can....we must rebuild peoples faith in our institutions...our elected officials...in each other...I'm starting to see now...I have had an effect here but not the one I intended...vengence wont change the past...mine or anyone elses...I have to become more. People need to have hope that someone is out there for them, the city is angry, scarred like me. Our scars can destroy us een after the physical wounds have healed...but if we survive them...they can transform us, they can give us the power to endure and the strength to fight."
Werewolf By Night
I think this one really defines the energy. This should be obvious to anyone who read yesterday's post about The Bull. In Werewold By Night it was about Elsa earning her heritage by earning the Bloodstone- not by killing the Monster but aiding it (such Divine Timing). She chooses to show mercy to Man-Thing. I love how New Rockstars Eric Voss describes it in his breakdown. He explains how Elsa goes from the Black and White World of Good Versus Evil of her Father's world to one of Technicolor because she shows Man Thing Mercy. As I shared in that last post, ultimately this year is when humanity finally got the message of not trying to force an unnatural order onto reality. We have successfully transmuted our Shadow- the fear of our Animal Body impulses symbolized by the Bull/Satan- and we are ready for what's next.
​ The New Power Structure
I was shocked to see people talking about the New Power Structure this year. This was the exact theme that I had predicted. I saved two things in particular. Rick Levine mentions the New Power Structure in his Aries Full Moon video in October. At 30:12 he gets into it saying... "...The Changing of the Guard...um you know we've seen already in the United Kingdom on England Great Britain the changing of the royal family there and I think we're seeing the beginnings...the turning point...that I said the power structure here in the United States...what that means, where it goes, how it'll unfold Time will tell..."
Then in Edgar Cacyes A.R.E. there was this fascinating article by Reverend Chris Fazel called "New Power StructureWhich Way Will We Go?"
..."These expressions of feeling overwhelmed by forces of chaos resonate with my own emotions as I witness the disintegration of a world order that has held together tenuous since the end of World War II. In the seventy years since, we've witnessed increasing assassinations, wars and horrific genocidal murders on the world stage, and what we have seen recently adds up to a grim reminder that the demons of the human soul have not been fully eradicated, or even subdued, and have erupted again in great masses. ... Essentially, Jung book is a warning that the potential of any society declining into an authoritarian state- even ours- is an ever present threat. He writes: 'We have no reason to take this threat lightly. Everywhere in the West there are subversive minorities whi, sheltered by our humanitarianism and our sense of justice, hold the incendiary torches ready, with nothing to stop the spread of their ideas except the critical reason of a single, fairly intelligent, mentally stable stratum of thr population. One should not, however, overestimate the thickness of this stratum.' The Undiscovered Self is a small book, about eighty pages, written foe lay people like you and me. The entire treatise, enlightening though disturbing, is freely downloadable from the Internet. Popular culture has in its turn presented this same warning in vivid dramatization, among them 1956 sci-fi movie Invasion of the Body Snatchers... Late in the film, when it's heroes are running from the mob of "pod people" protagonist Dr. Miles Bennel, a psychiatrist, articulates the story's primary theme: "In my practice, I've seen how people have allowed their huma ity to drain away. Only, it happens slowly instead of all at once. They didn't seem to mind. All of us, a little bit, we harden our hearts and grow callous. Only when we have to fight to stay human do we realize how precious it is to us, how dear..." A more recent warning of the insidious slide into mass consciousness that debases the human spirit was the Star Trek franchise creation of "the Borg," a collection of assimilated beings whose individuality has been erased and who function only as an extension of the "Hive mind." Pgs 29-31 Just like with Atlantis...when we try to kill the Venus within us thinking that we are killing the Monster...we lose our Divinity. The Borg is an extreme example of this where the body and individuality was seen as inferior. Black Panther: I have to touch on this one a bit because it is significant. Not only is it significant that a dream that I had with two symbols- being in a chair where I was being operated on and watching someone emerge from the Ocean on a screen- but it is also interesting that like The Batman, it is coming out as Neptune and Jupiter are in Pisces and flooding/water is a part of the movie. How I interpert this is that instead of experincing some vengeful force creating a New World Order or solidifying the Democrat World Order (you can see biden refer to that here: https://youtu.be/_2I0FwP_Dcc) here on Earth...I think that entire story line has been placed onto the Big Screen. I think, somehow, that story diffuses World War III that would have happened on Earth altering our history. The collapse of the Democratic New World Order is a good thing...and clearly is what is giving rise to the War of the Oligarchs that Biden also referred to here:https://youtu.be/hJmMHaiFJM0 Namor sounds just like Bran from Game of Thrones: "The most broken make the greatest leaders..." Bran, as I have shared in other posts, reminds me of what a childish A.I. might think. First, and foremost, I don't believe that we need to organize and unite behind one leader. Anyone with that goal- broken or not- is against my personal favorite philosophy of Self-Actualization. If you lose yourself in the masses following one being...well, go back and read that Edgar Cacye A.R.E. articles that I referenced above. Personally, I think the "5th Root Race" said to occur at the end of Pisce by Edgar Cacye are those referred to as "Brown People"- those who are a mix of indigenous and Spanish. While I am a mix of European and Indigenouse- it's Norhtern European- German, French, and Irish (possibly Scottish)...not Spanish. So, I really don't belong to this 'new' race. This Group, it is very possible, will change the outcome of the Mid-Term Elections that are happening the day I am finishing up and posting this blog. The fact Namor has been changed to be Mayan and that he is from Atlantis is perfect. As Edgar Cacye said that the "Red Race" are the descendants of Atlantis. Again, they changed the name of Atlants to Talocan and changed it to represent the Mayan...coming back to execute vengence. I won't doubt that it will be similar to Batman or even the first Black Panther in Civil War where T'Challa realizes vengence is not the way when he talks to Baron Zemo.
Conclusion
In one way, a New Power Structure has happened. Russia has shown it's not interested in bowing to the West's Democratic Order...this has been coming since our CIA helped with a change in government in Ukraine- getting rid of a Russian sympathetic president and bringing in a government that was more interested in being allys to the West. The Queen of England has died and there are changes in the United Kingdom. Some of the countries- Austraila and Canada- are just as effected since the Queen was on their money. How that will play out no one knows but Steve Judd believes that the Astrology is not good for the Kings Coronation. The Astrology, in particular, for me is the thing that really brings this home. The most important part has been the Reunion of the Divine Family in the last two months. Family emerged as the most common theme- all but Batman had family at the center of their stories- and it may be the most decisive aspect that influences voters at the polls for this Mid Term Election. The Pisces energy in particular, at the end of the Zodiacal Age of Pisces- has been so importatn. As I said- The Bataman and Wakanda Forever- probably the two forms of entertainment that will define 2022 for me- were released with that Neptune and Jupiter in Pisces...and featured Flooding. Finally, and most importantly is the Divine Feminine accepting the Animal Body- the Beast Within. Whether it was Turning Red, SheHulk or Werewolf By Night. This transformation by the Divine Feminine is the result of her having a different story in the Underworld thanks to the help of the Divine Masculine traveling with her in the first half of the year. That the Astrology was so prominently featured in the Collective Conscious story is what really blows me away this year. I think that we are embarking on a new experience...a new path. That other Timeline that goes into the Virtual Reality is falling away at the end of this year....this is the Timeline where the Divine Feminine accepts the Animal Body...and rejectst he perfection that the Borg Queen represents and defines the Virtual Reality Timelines. I'm curious to see what 2023 brings but I don't think that we are going to see what that is until after March 2023 when there are huge energetic shifts- with Pluto especially. This is the finally crumbling of what Pluto was destroying...and it it is the Binding of Venus....the entrapment of Venus in the Nightmare of Duality... Good vs Evil and Black vs. White...that is the most important thing that Pluto has brought down. The Patriarchy really tried to purge the Divine Feminine from the records...and from society. The Goddess has Awakened, however, and she is not Vengeful...she is accepting and as a result the world is going to be abundant again despite how dark things may look according to the shuddering final gasp of the Oligarchy. Oligarchy is outdated and humanity doesn't want it anymore...our ideas of government will forever change. ​ ​
The Healing Vibration Video is perfect for this moment.
Instead of dreaming of being on a beach with a raging ocean that I feared pounding onto the shores...IvrI've been dreaming of being st the edge of a creek with water coming to me and then flowing freely away until I was drained of all of the contaminated energy that had turned toxic because I had held onto it for so long. I have written about the Bull Ad Nauseum on this blog. The Bull absolutely became Satan. Yet, there are reflections that I can always add and it's been coming up a lot. I'm writing this on the Taurus Full Moon Eclipse in November of 2022. This Full Moon aligns with the Celtic New Year of Samhain. According to Steve Judd, the Celts only Believed in Summer- the Season of the Divine Masculine- and Winter - The Season of the Divine Feminine. Steve Judd pointed out that in six months there will be a 95% Lunar Eclipse in Scorpio at around 15 degrees...within a degree of this Taurus Lunar Eclipse. He says this is a 6 month period of closing the door. The South Node Lunar Eclipse in Scorpio is going to initiate a Celtic New Year focused on the end of the Age of Pisces. As Uranus is in the Zodiac Sign of Venus literally creating a New Heaven and a New Earth as even Saturn navigates it's historical sign of Aquarius and the Zodiac Sign assigned to Uranus...everything is conspiring towards this New Heaven and New Earth.
​Winter Is Here
I've shared that Coronavirus was a reflection of the events that led to the Fall of Atlantis.
​In Game of Thrones there was the question of Magic coming back with the reappearance of the Dragons. The people of the North (indicating the heavy Celtic influence on the story, similar to Tolkien, and how it was bastardized by George R.R. Martin- of whom I am not a fan) always said, "Winter is coming."
The reasoning was the North Rmembers....they remembered the Winter that happened before the Endless Summer of plenty (Westros having a very strange atmosphere and seasons that make no sense because agriculture wouldn't be possible). Those phrases turned out to mean next to nothing in the Books...but were strangely prophetic in our lives. This Winter everyone feared is here. Even in the United States as the Ukraine and Russian Conflict gives rise to an Economic War of the Oligarchs people are going to suffer. As Biden went all in to try and make the Green Energy Ideology a reality he heaped coal onto the fire of the Energetic problem. All of it comes down to a problem of energy- that comes about from a narrow skeptical ascetic world review amongst the largest portion of the population. The Elites, who believe they are capable of taking the right to Free Will from Ordinary People (the peasesnts) that they don't like or trust, are literally saying, "You will have less and you will like it..." essentially because they zealously believe less people are better for the planet (you can here Steve Judd echo this concept in his video) and it's better that all of us go back to the stone age. Yet, some of us remember when there was a time like this before...in a prior age... Those events occurred as Lemuria- a Matriarchal Culture that embodied the Devine Feminine Receptive Energy- battled Atlantis- a Pateiarchal Culture that Embodied the Divine Masculine Active Energy. Those culture experiments when those two came together and ultimately clahsed...led to what was considered Unnatural. That Unnatural Occurence wad the Illusuon of Seperatiom where a being perceived itself as it's self and seperate from the Collective and thr One Creator/God/Source/All That Is. The result was, at first, in many cultures an attempt to go Backward. To merge back into Unity Cosnciousness and lose Identity/Individuality. To go back to what they saw as the Stone Age. The Age of Pisces, involving the ocean- a symbol of Group Think, was when we really tried to go back and led the Mega Empire of Rome merging religion with Politics. With the Coronavirus we saw the equivalent of the freak out and isolation souls went through to get the heck away from the individualized people- Known as the Sons of Darkness or Belial. Yet, the "virus" of individualizatiom caught and spread. Following that there was an Energetic War leading to the Crystaline Technology to become out of tune. Combined with the Fear of the People this lead to a heavenly body being pulled from the Heavens onto the Eath leading to the final destruction of Atlantis. With their ending Dearh entered the world and the dense Physical Body developed that had to Die. Here we are, right after Coronavirus, moved in an Energetic War just as the Atlanteans and Leumarians knew. Going Forward Instead Of Backward This brings me back to the concept of the Bull. As I was listening to Adam's (formerly Acuyta) video (I will embed it below) he talked about the Bull as that is the Symbol for Taurus and Venus who is the Planet that ruled Taurus. When Trump was in office Rick Levine always said that a Solar Eclipse represented the concept of "the King Must Die." When you start to Compare Cosmologies for commonalities to understand the Ancients Wisdom the Bull, as I have shared, was a major concept. Recently, I shared the Video from Anyextee of the Decoding of Hathor's Temple. Here it is again if you have forgotten
​The interpertation in Brilliant but keep an eye on the concept of Killing the Bull. In Egypt the Apis Bull was the embodiment of Osiris- the Agregarian Earth God.
When there was a drought/famine (a lack of Energy) or less then prosperous times came the Bull was Sacrificed...and as you can tell the Hathor Mural shows Horus Killing the Bull. In the Sumerian story of Inanna (that played out a different version in rye heavens this year through the journey of Venus) she descended because mysterious "Bull of Heaven" was killed. I believe that this is a reference to the destruction of Atlantis...where "the Bull" or "Belial" was first "killed" believing that would help souls on Earth to return/merge back into the primordial Unity Hive Mind. In the Celtic cosmology it is similar. Freyer, the Agrarian God, was sacrificed if there were times of Energetic lack. That is embodied by the Wicker Man concept where a life was acarificed to revive the land. Here is a fascinating video on the subject (https://youtu.be/StZqajx_oao). However, as Adam shares the Buddhist idea of Dancing With The Bull...evolving...is the true path forward. Individualization, once it occurs, cannot be reversed. To try to reverse individualization and return to Hive Mind (as I have shared Ad Nauseam) is madness. The way forward is not to kill our physical body or deny ourselves pleasure. The biggest Shadow of the Piscean Age has been enjoying oneself, indulging in pleasure and enjoying our human bodies. The Ascetic approach to life of discipline and denial of physical comfort had been paramount. Christians coined the Term, "Money is the Root of all Evil." The prevalent belief was that common people should not have a lot of money...the government should and that should be give out even...ultimately giving birth to Socialisim. Then it gave birth to the "everyone gets an award" Culture that we currently have. Anyone who has a lot of money is inevitably evil in this mind set. This has led to Revolution after revolution as people Even the Athiests have this as their totem pole concept. The Earth doesntdoesn't have enough Resources, therefore, you must deny comfort and modern conveinances. You need to give up youryour ability to travel far distances because drilling for Oil is evil! Youcan't be warm in the Winter because mining coal is evil! The Spiritual Community agrees. God forbid you eat chocolate or McDonalds. You can only eat vegetables and even better if you go back to growing your own vegetables! No modern conveinances- mass corporate farms may have fed Millions and getting rid of them would lead to people starving but it mist be done! We, in the Age of Pisces was like the story of Eros and Psych reversed as Adam Elnbaas ahares it. I Instead of Venus, representing physical pleasure, hating the Soul...Physical Pleasure was demonized. The Goddess and all of her Icons- and in Islam even the physical body- were destroyed. Venus was cast out, murdered, in the hope that we would somehow escape our Addictive Earth School Existence.
Post Script- A Strange Moment
A Strange Moment I've become used to prophetic dreams and predicting of Movie Plots being a part of them. This Moment is by far the strangest of this occurrence. I shared last year the dream where I was in a chair being operated on by a Masculine and Feminine Being who asked to take something away from me so that I didn't become a Borg Queen. Now the Borg Queen is taking the concept of hating the Human Condition and trying to return to an extremely warped version of the Hive Mind. In that dream I took a moment and went down to watch a Television Screen of a Memory that would never happen. In that memory I thought, "I remember the day the X-Men came," and I saw super human beings with Blue Skin emerge from the sea. There wad a whole story there, like a memory, and I knew it would never happen. Then I went back to the operating chair and let them remove those memories/life times. Well, it came true in two ways with a synchronicity. Back in April, when Jupiter was in Pisces, I realized I needed to have work on my teeth done. There were a lot of delays, as I wouldn't go back to our prior dentist because they wanted to rip us off and the Husband took awhile to choose a new dentist. Even then I had to cancel appointments two or three times along the way because I was vomiting one time, another time my daughter was vomiting and another time the Husband had to work. Long story short, through sheer accident I had a wisdom tooth removed at the same time that Black Panther Wakanda Forver trailers dropped...when Jupiter re-entered Pisces...just as that same month I said I wanted to go trick or treating with the kids at Calico...and that came into frution against all odds as Jupiter rentered Aries. That alone is fascinatig. I was sitting in the chair waiting or the Surgeon when watching the Trailer and I got goosebumps. That was the closest a prophetic dream has ever come to literally happening in real life. No, I don't think that the pulling of a Wisdom Tooth prevented a future incarnation from being the Borg Queen. I think the dream realm is the Template level of reality where we direclty interface with the Energetic Matrix in which we exist and set up experiences that we wanted to have. I do think, and I will touch upon this in the Year in Review Blog, that this is symbolic of a shift in the possible future outcome of the world. That is a bit involved so I will go deeper into that in that blog.
I admit, this is not going to be an easy end of a cycle. However, I think it's always important that it's always darkest just before the dawn. I thought we were living in dark days in 2015 but I think that 2020-2021 really shook my faith in humanity. Ultimately, it is my journey on the path of the Seeker that provides a firm foundation through this experience to not give up hope and to trust in the Divine. In my personal life that faith has helped me to move beyond Depression into a beacon of light to others in my own right. I can share my life story and awe people. My approach is simple, if I can overcome all of that so too can eveyrone else.
Of course, it is a bit lonely to be so developed. Most people haven't had the depth and breadth of experience that I have but my life lesson that my soul chose was to learn how to accept and flow with change. I'm a Capricorn Rising, Capricorn Moon and a Capricorn South node. In my past life I mastered the Capricornian energy, I love Saturn, and I had a innate talent for business. In my Past Lives I was my own personal task master and I identified with groups. To me Capricorn represents Crone energy while it is, fascinatingly, depicted as the asexual Baphomet in the tarot...but the Crone is the only phase of the Goddess left out of the Tarot and Capricorn is identified as a Feminine sign. I have moved from that Crone energy into the Mother energy of Cancer, my Sun Sign and North Node. Being a stay at home mother is teaching me how to go with the flow and be in relationship in a totally different way then I think in any other life. Humanity is going through a similar change...where we built rigid inflexible systems that became so stagnant and fixed that those systems had to change. We have so many laws, that instead of going through them to see what to get rid of and what to keep Demoncrats decided not to enforce any of them. No one could possibly know all of the crazy laws that we have out there without looking things up. Just look at the unnecesairly huge book on Tax Law. I gurantee you Gang Bangers have even one brain cell interested in those laws. Those rigid systems were a false sense of security anyways because life is all about change and challenges to help us develop as souls. I feel as though very little has changed in the last twenty years...its as though we are stuck on repeat with the soundtrack degrading each time it plays. The rock music stations still have the rock music that I grew up with in heavy rotation and most of the movies that are being made are reboots of the movies made prior to 2020 or based on stories, such as the Marvel comics, that were released prior to 2020. Even when it comes to technology, most notably cell phones, innovation has completely stalled. Literally, no new and innovative ideas have been released in twenty years! We could say that Millenials are uninspired, fat, boring individuals incapable of creativity...but what happened to Generation X? My childhood, teenage and young adult years have been on a repeat Time Loop and I am really ready for some change. This Taurus Full Moon seems to be that culmination point. This is the point where we are closing the door on that energy and no one can predict- with the Full Moon conjunct Uranus as she is cut off from the Sun- as though our Subconscious, our Spiritual Telephone, is being Cut Off from Source and falling into chaos. (Post Script November 2022 I wrote this blog in August of 2021. I was meditating on this subject today and, at first, wrote an entire meditation that I thought about posting at the end but that didn't feel right. I'm going through a very Scorpio rebirth phase in my Dreams...that is very bizarre. I may write about this when I understand it better or it comes to a culmination point. However, I wanted to share an insight that came to me as I contemplated Mars and Venus. Not only is the Moon cutting off from the Sun in this Eclipse but Venus has been lost from sight for us. Venus, that resonates with our Heart Chakra, disappeared from Earth's view a few weeks ago. We went into Scorpio Season without that guidance...and with this Eclipse we are losing sigh of the Sun which is our connection to Source. With Uranus there it's as though there is a Reset of our Subconscious and instead of Source redirecting this Reset on Earth...Uranus (often equated to Prometheus) is directing it. In my dreams, Earth is the most random place in all of Creation. This is why many things are decided here...because the result is always known in the rest of the Cosmos. Here, the result is truly unknown because the souls have Free Will and have no idea that they are linked so there are a lot of variables that don't exist in the rest of Creation. Venus in her isolated Cocoon is being reborn...she is going from the stage of the Catepillar to the Butterfly. So, the Divine Feminine is going through a MAJOR change. Mars, the Divine Masculine, is going through it's own challenge and this is where I had and insight or what modern parlance calls a 'Download.' The Divine Masculine is in on the plan. He knows that we are at this turning point and that it is where everything changes. Rick Levine described Mars as extremely frustrated because he likes to go Fast and Gemini likes to be fast too. However, Gemini is the sign of the Thinker, and instead of seeing just angry frustration...I saw it as the Divine Masculine that is in mutual reception with Mercury (as Bryan on Fixed Air Moon pointed out)...really carefuly reviewing what has happened and the next steps because this is extraordinarily important. This is not a time for rash decisions. I think we are at a point very similar to the Werewolf By Night or Wizard of Oz. We have been living in a world dominated by the Divine Masculine that was battling itself in a war of Dark versus Light- Black and White. We have literally seen this fight in politicians using skin color for the last two years. You don't get anymore literal then that...but we are leaving this idealogy behind. Uranus is a bit like Han Solo in Star Wars. He is the counterpoint of the Light (Jedi) and Dark (Empire) narrative by introducing a third unpredictable force that will transform the outcome. Luke decides against the temptation of the power of the Empire...but he really doesn't bring back the oppoiste- the Jedi. I don't know about you I'm really ready for humanity graduate from this Black vs White mentality to Technicolor where we perceive a lot more then the battle between Good vs. Evil and pigeon holeing people into one category or another to justify war or these pointless political battles.) After all of our clearing and cleansing...we are back to that 7 energy that we experienced in June and November...but this one is different. The Astrology First, this is a Lunar Eclipse which traditionally means we 'cut something off.' The Moon is at 16 degrees of Taurus with 7 energy but I wouldn't call this one Lucky. Ouch! That's the approriate term for this chart. This chart is full of tension and conflict. The Sun (Divine Masculine) and Moon (Divine Feminine) almost look as though they are about to have one heck of a battle...but with The Moon conjunct the North Node the winner has already been declared. Of course, we have the Saturn and Uranus Square. Plus, the Neptune and Pluto sextile. There are 9 oppositions and six squares. That's mind boggling. Plus we have five planets retrograde: Mars, Jupiter, Uranus, Neptune and Chiron. The Divine Family (aside from the Moon) Sun, Venus, and Mercury are healing the past as they hold onto the South Node in Scorpio. Is there some historical secret Mercury has dug up in Scorpio? The Moon is conjunct Uranus and the North Node. They're pushing for that Revolutionary Aquariuan Energy and cutting the future off from that past. Retrograde Mars in Gemini is square Retrograde Jupiter in Pisces. Both are double bodied signs. The Collective is not having this double standard energy. Merucry in Scorpio (which is a Mars Sign) is in mutual reception with Mars in Gemin (a Mercury Sign). These two may be out of their comfort zones but they are offering different perspectives and aide to one another. Saturn is intervening in the fighting to bring this battle to an end by squaring the Sun, Moon, Mercury, and Venus. However, he is trining Mars in Gemini. He is reviewing battle plans with his favorite soldier. Retrograde Neptune is conjunct Retrograde Jupiter, squaring Mars, and trining the Sun and Venus in Scorpio. The Media is in an amplified Full Death Sting Mode resulting in a wave of energy destined to create a Phoenix Moment that will not be revealed until the end of December or the start of 2023 (perhaps March?). Pluto is Sextile Jupiter supporting the Collective Narrative as it helps bring the Capricornian institutions to an end...Clearly, whatever the current narrative is will hasten the institutions demise. That planned Kiss of Death Sting is going to be turned back on its origin. Lilith is in opposition to Pluto while Trining Neptune, Jupiter, Venus and the Sun. She approves both the Collective Narrative and the Sun in Scorpio. Chiron is sitting this one out. Oracle Stone: Tigers Eye This protective stone is one of great courage. This a Solar plexus stone (the Chakra Mars represents) empowering us with confidence. I always think of that song, "Eye of the Tiger," from the movie Rocky when I see this stone. This is one of the best stones if you need to stand up to someone or if you are going through a personal storm. Courage can be difficult but we will need it this month. Further Thoughts Goodness gracious. This energy is so rough! I think I'm going to need to buy some more Tigers Eye to get through this one (I kid)! Yet, clearly this is that moment of birth or transformation that has been mounting for some time. A lot of this intense energy is going to fall off one by one starting next year so after three years of this craziness there is an end in sight. The sorting out phase of what I call the Harvest-but others may call the Splitting Timelines, however, seems to primarily be taking place 2020-2023. I have not looked at 2023 in detail yet but I had a prophetic dream many years that the worst of the transition into the Age of Aquarius would end by 2023 and the astrlogy is in agreement. The Temperance card holds the Rainbow of promise. Tempering a sword is the process of hardening the blade with a process of fire, air, and water. This makes the blade stronger. Humanity is being tempered by this threat of Big Brother but we will prevail. These may be difficult times but it is Part of the Divine Plan...now go buy some Tigers Eye! ​ Meditation At first I was going to post this blog seperately and name it, "True Confessions of a Former People Pleaser and Martyr." However, I decided to share it here. I had other blogs scheduled and trying to move things around didn't seem to be the right decision. In many ways, these are the life lessons I've learned that let me go of those bad habits. The huge revelation that I don't like people has been tremendously freeing. They can take their "affirming", "validation" and "agreement" or "approval" and stick it where the Sun don't shine. I don't need their Group Think. I have far more intersting things to consider. I don't need anyone to say it's okay to be me or to approve my beleifs. I don't mean that I hate people. What I realized is the true meaning of, "Be in the world but not of it." I just can't relate to most people anymore. I am not of this world, heck, it appears I am not even a part of this Energetic Matrix. I see people with all of their petty pursuits and interests...not only are they boring but they're acts of futility. I wouldn't watch a show featuring someone beating their head against the wall the entire episode for multiple episodes until hey die of a brain hemorrhage. To me that would be morbidly sad and boring. Neither would I want to watch a show that was nothing but train wrecks with no narrative or story. Just endless train wrecks at the same exact spot on the tracks. Boring and futile. They pursue instant gratification and pretend that their live's are so great because they look good on Facebook or whatever social network they are a part of desperatly trying to gain others approval..when deep down there is a deep rot in the core of their souls...that they will do anything to avoid examining. That's why I've never compared myself to anyone. I know I'm unique and I now see that as my greatest "super power." Our Greatest Riches, Joseph Campbell would say, lies in our darkness. Instead of slaying the dragon of "evil" within us, when we accept it the entire thing is transformed. I've seen this in multiple people. The schizophrenic customer at one of the places I worked at who couldn't figure out why "the voices" wanted him to draw profane things. I told him that transmuting the profane into something beautiful was the highest form of alchemy...with the planting of that seed of self-acceptance I saw him transform into a highly productive person who now owns his own house. What people think is their greatest weakness is often their greatest strength. Yet, instead of doing the work most people try to kill that part of themselves through impulse buying, gorging themselves on food, drinking alcohol, smoking cigarettes, doing street drugs or opharmaceutical drugs (which all street drugs started off as in the first place..Freud thought cocaine was a cure all)...and it just feeds the Shadow making it bigger and adding to the burden they carry. I've faced 24 or 26 impossible situations that would have broken or defined other people's lives. Most people usually face one of those situations in their lives and that is it. So when people tell me their drama I'm like, "Been there done that, is that all you have?" I won't bore them with an account of my story. I'm super bored with my past. I've done my Work and examined it all until it's boring. I'm also not going to say that I am better then anyone else. My soul is insane for all that it took on in this life. Luckily, it knew that the potential for success was strong and the rewards worth it. Yet, I really should have died four times along the way. Only the Divine hand of Fate explains why I lived. Let Go, Let Love and Let Be The most loving thing you can do is to let another person go. Our society was taught intervention by the Catholic Church but when you enable- or subsidize-bad behavior you get more of it (as Ron Paul and Ben Shapiro often say). Intervening or trying to save someone is really a disservice to them and yourself. In fact, I think you earn more Karma when trying to save someone else. Instead, you have to let people make mistakes. The One Creator performed Tzim Tzum to create this realm for us and retreat because it was known that we needed to have the Illusion of Seperation. The One Creator chose to let us go and let us choose if we want to unite our Will with the Natural Order. Any form of force...anything that would cause us to know without a doubt that anything but our own selfish will existed...would break that Free Will. When we choose to do things it is far more powerful and meaningful then if we are forced. That's why I don't tell people my opinion or advice unless they ask. To do otherwise, to Boss or Berate others, is a deep insult. You are placing yourself above the other person as some sort of authority...and of course most of us like to see those people fall and fail...because no one wants to be subjugated. I let my children fall. I let them fail. They will be friends with those who are not good for them. They will date losers. I won't stop them but when they learn the truth will be ther to support them. I will try to gently warn them but all of us must learn discernment fo ourselves. I know I can guide them afterward and that a lesson will be learned. I have fallen so often that I feel almost indestructable...24 or so times at least. I forgive people their failings and mistakes. They are only human. I am very human too. I don't know why we created this perfect image of people...as though only righteous people who make no mistakes are worthy of power or leadership...when it is an unrealistic image. I could probably be more gentle abotu truths...but I am not gentle with myself and I find it a bit boring. In most cases, subtle is a disservice. I want people to tell me plainly just how things are without any flower exposition or imbellishment. Straight to the point like an arrow to the center of a target. A Little Explaination This meditation was written back when I discovered that I had a malicious gossip reading my blog. After consideration, it was obvious the correct choice was to delete that person from my life. I had suspected that something along that lines was happening but didn't have confirmation. In a way it changes nothing because they were not someone that was active in my life...I only encountered them about five times over a decade and a half. Their motivation is probably a combination of jealousy, boredom and being miserable. I'm sure this is an addiction for them and they are still reading it. My mother asked if I would block them or change what I do in anyway. I said nope. Maybe their conscious mind is looking into all of this with the intent to gossip and malign but their soul may pick up something it will apply in another life. I was taken by surprise, and so I worked through how I could have such clear sight regarding other people but this one slipped by. I realized, I adopted someone else's bias and ignorned my initial intuition. I was betrayed or hurt emotionally...I was more upset that I made an error in knowing someone had malvolent intent. I also worked through how I have changed and why I really wasn't emotionally effected. As a double Cappy I really don't get emotional unless it's about my kids. Like a surgeon I can cut things I know our unhealthy out of my life. The only people that matter to me is The Husband and The Kids. Everyone beyond them is not my business. The Let Go, Let Love and Let Be...is in a way a summation of this Meditation. I thought of only publishing that part but...as this blog is an example of my failings and successes I thought I would share the entire process. This is very much stream of consciousness with only one editing session as are most of my blogs. My major life lessons have been self acceptance and assertiveness. **Seeing The Good In Everyone** This "virtue" was always my greatest weakness. The truly evil people stuck in the Illusion of Physical Material Reality will exploit this to no end. Like Psychic Vampires they will suck the good intentions dry trying to get that Divine Loving Energy of those that are connected to the One Creator have naturally. I really thought I had a never ending reservoir but even astrologically that has changed. I've seen so many of the strong Spiritual people get knocked on their butts in the last few years...but that's when the Path "gets real" and you have to implement what you've learned. Peter Woodbury of the Edgar Cacye A.R.E, whom I had the pleasure to meet, really cracked me up with a story about a woman in a study group. She was very good at attending the Group but then her life fell apart...her husband had cheated or some such thing. She told the group and when they reminded her of all of the Spiritual Lessons, "Forget that! This is *Real Life*!" I'm the opposite, I don't show up to the Socializing...I'm here to do the work and I apply everything that I learn. I can almost always find at least one redeeming trait in a person. Even the most awful people care about their family or they do their job to the best of their ability, etc. People are doing the best they can with what they've got. I used to pursue and become friends with the people who were the most disliked. I kind of took pride in winning those people over. Often, I would be taken completely by surprise when someone I thought was good turned out to be the most evil...and had been the entire time. I still see the good in people. I believe that humanity, at its core, is good. I now practice, "Let go, let be and let love." ​I trust that they are destined to find their way one day, but it's not my job. I can see tremendously Toxic people have virtues. I know that to be true but I have no interest in trying to help them heal. *Sacrificing For Others Is Never Appreciated* The saying, "Give someone an inch and they will take a mile," is so true. I used to have a major Martyr complex where I would sacrifice my own happiness to make others happy. This was a major addiction for me. I was terrible at doing things solely for myself because I felt it was selfish. I honestly thought the sacrifice and care would be reciprocated. Boy was I wrong! Instead, what I discovered is the smaller I made myself and the less needy...the more I was ignored. Most people share what they need or desire. The self-important people scream it from the roof tops. People still love them. I would just put my needs on hold perpetually thinking the other person's cup would eventually be full and we could share. That's not how things work on Earth though. It's kind of like when people have a pay raise...they adjust their life accordingly and continue to live paycheck to paycheck. Or a person moving into a bigger house swears they won't fill it up...but then they do. That's just how people are and while someone living in a small two bedroom house may not conceive of spending as much money as the top 1% with multiple homes around the world...if their roles were reversed...they'd find it easier then they imagine and that they have the same worries...just more 'things' to worry about. **You Can't Make People Happy** This was a big revelation for me and I've been chewing on it mentally for quite awhile. I knew it imperically when I studied Psychology. Yet, it really didn't sink in...I always got sucked into relationships where I was the giver...and I would give even when I really didn't want to...and what I've discovered is that's just being an Enabler of bad behavior. I really shouldn't give people a pass, even if I don't really consider what they are doing as particularly harmful to me, for bad behavior. Yes, most people don't know what they are doing because they are completely driven by subconscious conditioning...but that is 100% their fault...and especially if they are adults because there are tons of resources out there that they can use to heal. If they keep having experiences and doing the same exact thing expecting a different result...that's on them. I've done my homework and I have changed. I realized the only person who can make themselves happy is the individual. No one is responsible for anyone else's happiness. That's why Socialism doesn't work. You can't make everyone equally happy. That's a fairy tale nonsense notion. Happiness is a choice. This is a basic known concept in psychology...someone has to want to change and ask for help for change to truly occur. You have to do the work and it's unique to each person. No one can tell you what will unfold on your path. They can share their stories, which is what I attempt to do here- stand here nakedly sharing my Truth as an example of how the Path works without fear of Judgement because the only one who's judgement matters is the One Creator and I know that I am loved. I learned that no outside could heal me as I worked my way out of depression. Only I could heal that depression. That depression, I feel, came from a spiritual cause and nothing on Earth could have healed it. No one was at fault for it- there was no one to blame because it was due to a misunderstanding. A lot of people think all they have to do is find a relationship and they will live, "Happily Ever After." Relationships are hard. Pema Chodon calls them the Charnal Ground of our lives. Good relationships challenge us and we literally have the illusions about ourselves stripped away just as birds strip the soft tissue from corpses in an open air burial area (aka Charnal Ground). People think relationships should make their lives easier. I've always looked for a partner. I knew they are the most difficult aspect of life but I really wanted kids and having a really good father figure for them was important. Otherwise, I would totally be a Buddhist Monk. That reclusive life is super appealing to me. I've done that in past lives. Why being a monther and a wife was the key to my spiritual evolution instead of the other way I have no idea. **You Can't Spiritually Rescue Anyone** The dreams where I was searching everywhere in the Etheral realms for something to convince The Husband to believe in the One Creator and my Truth ended with this stunning lesson...it will never happen. I could find the most convincing evidence in the world to me but the truth is I can share it...but the way the rules of this world work I can't impose it on another. The One Creator wants it to be people's choice to pursue it...and if you provide irrefutable proof to others that would negate their Free Will. People who believe in miracles, experience miracles and people who beleive in ghosts experince ghosts. People who believe in neither...experience neither. Our Subjective Reality is subjective for good reason. When I had the dream where I went into a store to shop for The Husband and came out with the realization I wanted nothing...and the angelic music played (I swear these things remind me a little of the sound you hear when you when a fight in Final Fantasy...it's a unique tune I've never heard in real life but it is clear that you've "Leveled up." Nothing in real life comes close to that music.) Yes, it can be lonely to some people. I used to feel that acutely. I felt sorry for myself for a bit there...but then I realized my relationship with the One Creator supersedes all relationships on Earth. That's why, honestly, I'm really looking forward to what happens after I leave this realm. (I think people who want to live forever in their physical Avatars are nuts). I don't neccesairily wantto evolve out of matter. My mother and Father in Law say they're not going to come back but it's because they hate it here. I love it here but I've realized there are other realms where I am needed. I know there is so much more then this reality. As Acuyta Bhava Das said- there are other worlds to go and experience. I don't truly believe people can refuse to come back because they hate it here...those people are really solidly stuck in Samsara but maybe they can. *Boring Reality News Television* I know most people are sucked into the news these days. Every day there is a crazy revelation. Biden is redefining everything to make himself look good. They are on the edge of proving to the world that Trump really is Hitler. People love it for some reason. With the chaos of Uranus on the North Node and Neptune is Pisces...reality has gone all wibbly wobbly like a tour on the T.A.R.D.I.S. Yet, as various people- whether it's Russel Brand, Bill Maher, Breaking Points, or Ben Shapiro or Gutfield chew over and share their take or angle on everything...I just find it so boring. Sometimes it's funny to see how people react to events. The Trump "Compound" Raid was by far the most entertaining this year. The Roe vs Wade the most unpleasant. I realized politics is the new Reality Television for all but the teens. The scrutiny is definitely uncomfortable for the geriatric D.C. elite that always sailed below the radar before...and it's a really good thing. The D.C Soap Oprah has really hooked most people...but I find it hopelessly boring. The government trying to either make the rich and corporations richer (Republicans) or the government trying to create Utopia on Earth by taking money from the people who work to those who will vote (Democrats)...both suck and, ultimately, not beneficial to me. So, yes, I feel the entire government is a waste of time. Oversight is beneficial to everyone. Ultimately, the best that could happen is their (meaning all politicians) power is completely stripped away and the only things they can do is pass Infastructure/Administrative plans that make life in the United States run more smoothly with a very specific budget. The Government should be boring. *** Share What You Can*** When people think of giving to the needy they think of money and Socialist programs. This blog, in my opinion, is my greatest contribution to humanity. I no longer wish to "save" anyone or convince them of anything. Instead, this is a place for people on the Path to find a kindred spirit. To see what the struggle is like in full detail. I'm not channeling some being from another dimension that I think is better or wiser then me. I'm not telling people how to live. I'm sharing hard won lessons that I've learned and how I've stumbled. Many of you have watched me stumble. I'm sharing the deeply rich and fulfilling spiritual life you can lead...without fame or recognition...so that others can achieve it too. I'm saying, "Look at this deep unshakable inner peace that I have found and you can achieve it too." Take it or leave it. Learn something or go your own way. Is my life still messy? Are there things in my life that are imperfect? Heck yeah, that's the human experience and the part that makes life fun. If all of us were perfect and everything always went as planned life would be so boring. We would not learn anything about ourselves. In my experience, Souls are surprised about what they do in certain situations and the chocies they make in the lives that they choose. They make contracts with the best of intentions prior to life but come in and are blown away by what happens. Most people end up being Dr. Evil whe. They think they would be Steve Roger's Captain America if they had the chance. Soul's literally come here to test themselves and find out who they are in an accelerated crash course. Everyone who incarnates here is a Hero for trying, People don't bungee jump or go on Roller Coasters because they want to feel safe and in control all of the time. **Own Your Shadow** When people try to hurt me I feel a feel a little like Captain America saying, "I can do this all day." Yes, I am an evil, awful, horrible person...and totally ungrategul. Hyeard all of that crap before from other people. Once you own all of that, and I do, I admit I could be evil and I could be very good at destroying peope psychologically if I wanted to destroy them...then you're not going to be triggered when people call you names. Triggers go right out the window and life becomes more smooth and peaceful. A little boring perhaps because you're not drawn into all the conflicts that the world has to offer. You're not a sheep either, in fact, if you're not triggered you are not controlled. I get why people like to be triggered. I get why people like to fly off the handle and chew people out for the smallest offenses. I get why some toxic people would be attracted to that too. That can be exciting. Most people like to lurch from one dramatic situation from the next. Oh, my god this and oh my god that...banging their head against a wall for fun. I choose not to be those things on a concsious level. So, I know when and if I am consciously choosing to be that way and if someone calls me out on it...it's like, cool. I can see that and that's good to know. Is that all you have? Yet, despite having the potential for all of that the one Creator felt that I was worthy of existence anyways. The one Creator also found everyone else worthy too because eventually they will all heal and return home. I make mistakes. I have the courage to own my misatkes. Because I know that I have faults and so too does everyone else...I am quick to forgive and let go of any hurt someone has caused me. I hold no grudges. I know I'm not alone because I don't tolerate toxic people or because I don't let people in...I feel alone because I have a unique set of interests and experiences that most don't share...and everything else to me is boring and irrelevant. I don't, however, keep company with people who intend me ill or are incapable of genuine good will... because that is unwise. I learn my lesson, accept it, and leave that person behind. The most common poison behind such actions is usually repressed jealousy and innate self-hatred/self-sabotage. I do not feel sorry for such people. They do it to themselves and the resources there for them to heal. If I can heal myself from all that afflicted me...they can do the same. I drink coffee. I like chocholate. I eat meat...all of which are 'sins' in the Bliss Bunny Spiritual communities. I would also be a Foodie if The Husband was into it but he's on a very strange self-imposed diet because of High Cholesterol concerns and watching weird documentaries. I also see that everything is the energy of the One Creator so it doesn't matter what form it takes. One part of the One Creator is just like another and I'm not going to sacrifice my enjoyment simply because I think being a glutton for self-abuse and self-sacrifice makes one virtuous. No one is better then anyone else or better then me because, quite frankly, they have the same potentials for evil. Some will, and do, act on them...and some don't. That is the wonder and fun of the Earth experience. I've owned my Shadow. I know the evil I could be capable of in certain circumstances. My mind has explored all of those dark hallways of potential realities. The great thing is that once you own your Shadow you're a bit like Teflon...insults don't stick to you or affect you. Conclusion There have been many points along the Path where I thought to myself that this must be the end. I am well and truly done and not terribly interested in Earthly activities. I am well and truly satisfied. I keep thinking what could possibly come next. I have no idea. Somewhere, between the psychiatric hospital visits, being divorced (so funny when that happened I thought that was the worst- little did I know what lay before me) to lying in a pool of my own blood (twice) hemorraging, giving birth to what looked like a kidney in a shower because the fetus didn't form or burying a daughter...any pride I had was completely obliterated. My Spirit wasn't broken but I can look at the bum on the street and relate. I probably shared a room with them at the Psychiatric Hospital, how can I judge? Unlike Garth Brooks, I don't have friends in lower places. I hit the bottom several times so hard I bounced. I don't have any idea how I recovered. I just choose not to spend time with people who prefer those lower places. I can go anywhere I want in all of Creation, why would I want to spend time with people in their personal Hell's that they've created? I don't doubt that I am still here for the healing experience of being with my girls. I am looking forward to seeing their kids. Then hopefully die gracefully surrounded by love as I did in my Jerusalem life (instead of being resentful and hateful towards my "ungrateful" daughter in the London life who I felt I had sacrificed so much for but was really just busy meeting the needs of her demanding family...and she's the same way in this life- "too busy" all of the time...even now that she is retired. Same personality...just a different Avatar and location. She's my Mother in this life. I love her infinitely regardless and would aid in her transition if needed but there are other people who would prefer to be there and I've told her all of this and she finds it entertaining.) Most people aren't really ungrateful. They are just oblivous. So many people are so absorbed into their toxic lives and running around pursuing happiness they don't have the capacity to appreciate or show unconditional love to others. That is the funny thing. I have this huge undying capacity to love others. My heart is biggern then this planet. I would save and shower every person on this planet with love if I could. I love them with all of their faults and sometimes love their faults. Often, as I said, their faults can be their greatest strengths if they are willing to learn from them. I have perfect faith that they will one day learn but it is not my job to teach them and if I try to do it for them it will be just another stumbling block. I hope the rest of my life is simple and graceful. A lot of the future is still a mystery. Only the promise of, "The worst of it will be over by 2023." Not a promise that everything will be peaceful and perfect...that is impossible in a human incarnation but that the really difficult Work will be over. That difficult work,apparently, started by developing rock solid faith and boiled down to the purging the Martyr Complex and the People Pleaser aspect of myself. May those aspects of me rest in peace. I still love people. I still believe in honor..but the truth is more noble then the sweetest lie...and words are important. I choose mine carefully. A raid is a raid. A riot is a riot. A vaccine prevents a person from getting the disease instead of increasing their rate of infection. A Recession is a Recession... Don't let others define your reality. Own it and discard those trying to take that power from you. Don't let people silence you because they don't want to hear what you have to say. Even if something is true for you only in the moment...it is true for you. Share it...and maybe the other person will learn from it or self-eliminate from your life...either way humanity gains. Only you can define who you are, you don't have to be triggered by others interpertations. You should examine them, find the truth, learn from it and improve. That is the depth and power of Shadow Work. The people who trigger you are the best teachers. Yet, they do not need to "affirm" or "validate" you. External approval will gain you nothing. Friends who blow smoke up your ass and pretend they approve of your life are a dime a dozen. A friend that will give you their honest opinion without holding back the negative are worth their weight in gold...and so are the people capable of handling that level of truth. References: Perakis, Athena. (2021) Sage Goddess. www.SageGoddess.com Victor, Arisa. (2009) High School Astrolgoy. Fraternity Of The Hiddne Light. Carson,James and Sams, Jamie. (1999). Medicene Cards. St. Martins Press New York, Ny. Hoffman, Edward. (1998) The Hebrew Alphabet A Mystical Journey. Raincoast Books. British Columbia Dobin, Rabbi Joel C. (1999). Inner Traditions International. Rochester Vermont Callahan, Kathy. (2010). The Path of the Medicene Wheel. Trafford Publishing. BC Canada. Lembo, Margaret Ann. (2013) Crystals, Minerals, and Stones. llewellyn. Woodbury, MN ​Lotterhand, Jason. (1989) Thursday Night Tarot. New Castle Books. Los Angeles California
I really wanted to like SheHulk.
At the end of the day, though, I couldn't. The series was a series of nonsensical events and whatever attempt at a plot the writers made was literally tossed out in the Final Episode. To say I was disappointed is an understatement. I'm not sure what they were going for here but SheHulk ended up being a charecter that I didn't like. I don't like Twerking. I don't like songs that start off with, "I drink that cum," (a line literally used as the outro of the final episode that had me looking at my daughter in worry that she would her it (do parents listen to that crap with their kids around these days?). At the end of the day I don't like 'empowered millenials' if they are just self-absorbed people into twekring, sexual promiscuity (yes, she did act like an easy slut- a week of dating and she puts out?) and getting drunk. There was nothing that was admirable about her charecter, there was no charecter development, and there wasn't even a deep background story. She was just a boring entitled middle class woman who went to college and earned her degree...and at the end she's just a boring entitled upper class attorney (attorneys are not middle class) that mostly loses her cases and is vindictive. Part of why this wasn't funny, aside from the fact that I'm not a part of Rap/Hip Hop Culture (whatever Megan Thee Stallion is- I had to look her up, I thought she was an obscure Marvel Charecter), is that the humor they were attempting was very Asian in nature. Awkwafina could have pulled off the jokes because Asian culture is very stoic and sexually aggressive women is more of a thing. The writers, based on that final episodes look at them, were mostly Asian women and feminine (perhaps even gay) men. No wonder it was such a miss. The emphasis on sex was just gross. I really didn't need that on any level. I loved Tattiana, she was brilliant, the look in her eyes at the end of the 'penultimate episode' where she realizes she Hulked out at the Gala (over nothing, really, a sex tape maybe and she felt ashamed?) there was an amazing moment where you could see the hurt in her eyes. Which is exactly why the comedy didn't work, she is way too emotive for Asian comedy, because as far as I know, she's not Asian. She didn't have that stoic nature...she was way too emotive and needed comedy written for someone that's not stoic. The writers were very self-aware with the 'women haters' persona. When Todd (was that his name?) injected himself with the Serum to become a Hulk and said, "Unlike you I EARNED my powers." That was brilliant...but so poorly executed. The 4th Wall Breaking was usually used as an afterthought and was really poorly done. That didn't add to the story at all and neither was it really explained. Deadpool, at least, we know he was crazy from insane Trauma. Jen, on the other hand, seemed concious of having viewers but not really and whether that started when she became a Hulk or not...I don't know either. The fact they went the Robot Master storly line in the final episode really felt like an opt out. Instead of being a brilliant ending, which it could have been, it was just a conveinant way for them to end with the family get together and mock the Super Hero genre...kind of like Thor Love and Thunder (also awful)...without explaining anything or having any pay off or point to anything. So, the entire series ends up being a pointless series of events. Again, by making Emil (Abomination) a bananas crazy guy that runs a retreat to rehabilitate villians and then making fun of him (that was an attempt at comedy) they made fun of religion/spirituality again. They had to make it like a cult with 'seven soul mates' or whatever (funny because of the 7 chakras). Athiests strike again. The people who go to retreats are weirdos. Then, when he seemed to honestly be violating the terms of his parole in an innocent fashion and to spread a positive message, he even tried to save her...she wanted to punish him by sending him back to jail in an isolation tank. They made it clear that they really don't think people can be rehabiliated. When she spoke to the K.E.V.I.N. A.I. that is controlling her reality she didn't question anything important- only the daddy issue thing? She didn't ask what it's purpose was or why it should have so much power or Even Wong and Daredevil didn't help this series and I won't be watching it again. The whole Wong and Madasynn storyline just abruptly ended. This is by far the worst of the Marvel products. At least Thor The Dark World and Falcon and the Winter Soldier had plots. Collective I was so depressed by this one and so disgusted I didn't know how to feel about it. I think this is the example of the typical Zombie person...just empty habits of going to work and chasing relationshps. Yes, that's what the corporate USA and society acceptable standard is...but how boring. Movies like Office Space made fun of people like this instead of offering them as someone to emulate. That this is supposed to be a 'hero' is just...dumb. This is not what I wanted from Marvel or any form of entertainment...but has our society become so Vanilla and focused on superficial pursuits that these are the only stories people can make up? Can they no longer make deep meaningful movies with relateable charecters? |
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