This Full Moon, to quote Adam the Woo,"...is a beehive of activity." The majority of it is supportive but there are tense bits that are...well, they're not fun.
Lines appear to have been drawn here with most of the planets on board this Uranian energy of disruption. The Astrology This month our Full Moon is in Pisces at 17 degrees. This energy is 8, again, and it's all about reciprocacity and the exchange of energy. Ah, the Siren Call of the Collective Narrative has captured our Subconscious this month. This seems like the type of stuff that would keep you up at night. Plus, like last year we have seven plaents retrograde: Mercury, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, Pluto, and Chiron. With Mercury stationary, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune and Pluto all retrograde there is less compulsion from those planets and we have more wiggle room on a personal level...but don't expect to accomplish a lot on the Collective Level or concering logic. This is a time to turn inward. With disruptive Uranus in Taurus conjunct the North Node steering the ship the energy is far from relaxing or normal. This month Lilith has jumped aboard the ship with a supportive Sextile. So, we're going to see some chaotic feminine energy. First off, we have that lovely Uranus and Saturn Square stop and go energy. Saturn is also in square with the North Node so these delays are not in alignment with our future and very frustrating. Our willpower, sacral Chakra energy, is under attack this month. Mars is square Venus and the Sun in Virgo and the Moon in Pisces. He is over this girly sentimental stuff and the Collective Narrative...and Mercury in Libra agrees. Mercury in Libra is also opposing Jupiter that's been pumping out that Aries energy. Whatever this New Beginning is our thoughts are not in harmony with it. The Sun is busy this month squaring Mars in Aries and Opposing Neptune. Our conscious thoughts are not on board with this New Narrative either. However it is in supportive trines with Uranus, Pluto, and the North Node. The Sun is even in a supportive Sextile with Lilith. Consciously, we are on supportive of the choas this month. The Moon is also busy. The only square she has is with Mars in Aries so subconciously we are not ready for this new start. Otherwise she is sextiling Uranus and the North Node while conjunct Neptune. Just like the Sun our Subconscious is on board with the Collective Narrative of Chaos and the Uranian/Aquarius direction in which the world is heading. Chiron, in true wounded healer fashion is supporting the under dog of this Full Moon with a supportive Sextile while square Lilith and opposed Mercury in Libra. Oracle Stone: Dendritic Agate Dendritic Agate is the stone of the Observer. This stone helps you keep grounded and focused. This is a stone of Shadow Work and Transformation. There are times in life where we should be active in the dance of life and others when we should observe the waters of transformation flow. This is the perfect mineral compliment to the Hermit Card. The advice here is to Observe...don't get sucked into participating in the chaos...if your opposed it then you are going to be run over because the two most powerful aspects- the Sun and Moon- are in support of it. Further Thoughts The Battle Lines have been drawn. If society was symbolized by a marriage this is a month of divorce. A lot is happening this Full Moon. I think that the repeating Card of Otter that showed up in February and again in August is the best advice anyone could give...go with the flow this month as much as possible remembering humanity is One and that being friendly with everyone matters. (Written in 2022 as I update the blog in August- Keep in mind, it was in February when the Ukraine War started! Those who jumped aboard supporting that issue clearly muddied the issue and gained nothing). Dendritic Agate is also great advice. Instead of being drawn into this battle of Willpower settle back and enter Observer Mind. Meditation I reviewed the above and wrote this blog in early August 2022. I've chosen to take a break from doing up to the minute Meditations. I was paritcularly inspired but didn't have the time to really take a deep dive into these...just a brief look. So, this isn't going to be a lengthy deep dive. Yet, they are ideas worth sharing. The Collective Collectively, through Novemeber, on an astrological level I feel we are at a paradigm breaking moment. I can see the spiderweb of fractures in the glass at the moment. I don't know when the glass will actually break but it is totally random with Uranus conunct the North Node. We might even have to wait until next March (when Saturn leaves Aquarius and Mars leaves Gemini) to see the shards fall but we are so early into this transformation that I don't want to comment...and quite frankly I've been Tuning out the news entirely. Personally, I've been feeling the South Node Scorpio energy very acutely and even prior to Mars entering Gemini was aware of sharp cutting words from myself and others. (I am very good at that game and, because I can read people's energy, I can decimate someone but never choose to do that because the last thing I want to do is cause people to suffer). However, with the cutting words (Mars in Gemini) and South Node in Scorpio...we may receive unpleasent messages delivered to us in a very painful manner but that's a good thing. I'm always grateful for my triggers because they teach me what I need to transmute myself to diffuse them. Triggers highlight where your lessons are and Scorpio is very good at showing them to you-espcially in relationships. Once your aware of it you can rise above it thought...which goes with the symolisim of Scorpio. Scorpio either inspires you to crawl along the ground like a Scorpion looking for the next person your going to poison or transforming into an Eagle that has the bigger perspective but still has clear sight and, finally, the Phoenix that transcends this Earth. The Divine Feminine As The Wheel Of Time The fact that this topic came up for a meditation where we have Otter as our Medicene Card, an indigenous symbol for the Divine Feminine, is perfect. Otter energy is playful but neccesairly intrusive. Even more fascinating is that this is during a Virgo Lunar Cycle that started with the Virgo New Moon. Virgo, in the Zodiac, is the epitome of the representation of the Divine Feminine. I've also noticed that it's during Virgo season that I turn within. I become less active and less engaged with the outer reality. This happens every year and reaches it's peak during Capricorn Season- which is around Christmas and is my Moon and Rising Sign. I'm happiest and most at peace during Leo Season which is funny because my Sun Sign is Cancer where the Moon is exalted...yet, that is a challenging time for me too. I had an interesting dream. I won't go into all of the details but at the end of it there was the suggestion that the Divine Feminine is the Wheel of Time itself...also referred to as the wheel of Karma. This was in reference to what I can only describe as angry animals. I also heard a voice say, "This is the Key to the Evolution of the Soul." The Feminine as The Wheel Of Time Itself, of Samsara, actually makes a lot of sense. The most common depiction of the Divine Feminine is as Hecate- the three in one...Maid, Mother and Crone. That clearly shows the phases of time. The Divine Masculine, on the otherhand, is shown only as Good (God/Man) and Evil (the Devil/Dragon). The Divine Masculine, split into two, basically pursues and battles each other across the Wheel of Time. The only way for that to be resolved is for the Divine Masculine to explore and integrate it's Shadow instead of repressing it. There is a reason that young men are the majority of people in jail and who commit violence. That's why Jordan Peterson is spot on with "Dragons, Monsters and Men." You can see the clip for it here: https://youtu.be/hYWp0zw-qFA We mostly have access to the Divine Masculine approach to the Divine. Organized religion is totally a Masculine thing. Even the Esoteric practices that have been handed down are all based on Masculine systems. The Feminine System, aligned more to an informal and intuitive Spiritual approach, was completely villified and eradicated. Women who tracked and kept in tune with the seasons, who treated people with herbs, were called Witches and murdered. There is hardly a whisper of the Feminine approach left and none of it comes from Western Civilization. That the Divine Feminine is the Wheel makes sense from the vantage point that she is what links all of us together too. The idea that she is like a Queen Bee that directs the Hive Mind (Collective Unconscious) seems about right too. The Wheel of Time and Karma, the Illusion of Physical Material Reality, is created by the shared dream and that Collective Unconscious. That is the level upon which Soul Contracts are formed. Pairs and groups of Souls agree they want to experience something, create a contract and then it manifests in day to day (PMR) life. I could probably do a very deep dive into this concept but this was one of those cases where my dreams revealed a deeper perspective on a subject. I don't have the time to really get into this at the moment. Even more interesting is that when I had this realization in the dream. I've read no material that speaks to it that way but the system that I describe with the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine is in all of the Archetypes. Conclusion I had three deeply meaningful dreams. In another dream I experienced a series of events that I can't describe with the two guys that pop into my dreams regularly. After seeing the series of events one of them said to the other, "No wonder they have that whacky story about us being born from the same egg." I woke up and actually Google that and it does turn out there are multiple myths about twins emerging from eggs- famously Castor and Pollux who are considered the twins of Gemini. The other dream was funny...it involved Groot ans I woke up laughing. Then realized the I Am Groot shorts were releases on Disney+. Not surprising that I dreamt of something I would be watching...that happens far too often. I won't be writing a review on that because, similar to the Olaf Quarantine Shorts, there wasn't much to them. Very deep meaningful dreams. Post Script I thought that this was going to be a short reflection and sharing on the idea of the Divine Feminine As The Wheel Of Time and the Divine Masculine as the duality of Good and Evil. Yet, it came up in a couple of places and seems to be a theme that will play out over the next month. Robert Monroe describes how this information in the Spiritual World works when he described what he calls R.O.T.E. You receive a packet of information in Spirit and it slowly 'unfolds' as you need it or can comprehend it...not all at once. So, I'm going to share some extraordinarily surprising synchronicity/validation and then further Revelations I had while meditating on it. David Palmer - The Leo King I am going to embed the video at the point where David started talking about the Divine Union- the Alchemical Marriage. Now, he seems to suggest that the Alchemical Marriage occurs in the physical with another person. Yet, all of the research I have from numerous sources- Edgar Cacye, D.W. Hauck, Jason Lotterhand, and Paul Foster Case...all point to this being an internal process...the marriage of the Soul Self/Higher Self/Subconscious and the Conscious Personality/Ego. The validating synchronicity is he flat out says that the Divine Masculine is about Good and Evil while the Feminine has to have kids to properly experience that energy. Now, I understand why people will struggle with the latter idea ans I will expand upon this... Yet, the fact that I just had this revelation through a dream and then this immediate validation...when I had heard abaolutely no one share that before was staggering. D.W. Hauck can't reveal this stuff because he's made promises with formal training. As far as I know David, like myself, never took vows to any group. So, we can share openly our insights...and that may be why David revealed this where D.W. Hauck, the only other person who shares on this subject (and Alchemist) that I know.
She Hulk
Almost to drive the difference between the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine is She Hulk. What is funny is that during the New Rockstars after party they were wondering why this difference exists. They tend to over analyze everything which I enjoy but it is really funny when the answer lies in a real world Truth about the Natural Order. Everything, is naturally a reflection of our reality. As I explained when analyzing themes theough entertainment...the Shamans of Western Society went to work in Hollywood. Their work is a reflection of different realities we can experience (not exact but theme wise) through archetypal symbolisim. Society either then agrees with it and the movie is a success or they reject it. Hollywood, however, does a lot of research so the movies that so get made are those that resonate the most with the public. The first episode just came out, and while a bit "Blah" since they showed most of it in the promotional material...it contained this key concept about the difference between the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine. The entire charecter arc of the Hulk was him fighting his Altar ego. He describes it as the "other guy" who was very animalistic (now this is a underlying theme on movies this year). He also explains how he had to make peace with those two aspects of his own personality so he can be Smart Hulk. His cousin, SheHulk, however doesn't have this issue. She can change back and forth, chameleon like, between her human and Hulk form. No real or direct explaination is give except that she is a woman. The Difference Between The Divine Masucline and Divine Feminine The Divine Masculine, in pushing it's narrative, eradicated the ways of the Divine Feminine. I think, it's best to look at the two from a very specific lense...of video game charecters. When you create an Avatar in a video game it gives you the run down of all the strengths and witnesses of the different options. Well, in our reality it is much the same. Those who incarnate as men do so to explore and experience Good and Evil within themselves. Men make up the majority of criminals who commit violent crime. All men face the challenge of integrating their inner Dragon- the Evil- drven by selfishness and greed- within themselves. This is their focus throughout life. All men have a very Dr Jekyll and Mr. Hyde nature to them. This corresponds to the Divine Twin or Brother image throughout Myth. The Sun, the Divine Masculine is at it's greatest potency in Gemini...the Summer Solstice. Usually depicted as Castor and Pollux it can easily be Eros and Ansteros, Loki and Thor or even Cain and Able. The Dark, I've discovered (I can't remember where I heard this exaclty but I think it was Perez) that Darkness is extreme Logic and Intellectualisim. An Artifiial Intelligence would be the extreme example of Logic and Intellectualisim trying to force an unnatural Order on everything that it perceives as Chaos. That makes absolute sense. Since the Patriarchy killed and destroyed the Feminine Spirituality it is far more of a mystery. I don't have any point of reference for it. The Goddess is usually depicted as a victim or Villain. That way, essentially, is that of Nature or the Natural Order. Virgo, Psyche, Freya, Brigid, Harmonie and Hecate or the "three fates" of Greek Mythology...are all indications of that ancient knowledge. Yet they are told through the lens of the Pateiarchy. She is usually associated with "Gold" or "the Nectar of the Gods, " "Gold" or "Golden Thread." The Feminine is the Bringer and the Keeper of the Light while experiencing the Darkness of the Masculine. However, she is often maligned as sleeping or unfaithful (Psyche). She usually "falls" because of a Fruit (an Apple in Eden, A Pomegranate as Persephone, or a Golden Apple). She is also associated with love. Either way, women work with the Seasons- either through the three seasons of their lives- Maiden, Mother and Crone. The woman who goes straight from Maid to Crone are usually villainized...maybe because they experienced a journey similar to men and not the transformative defining experience of a Woman being a Mother. Given that the term Woman and Mother are both under attack...it seems that aspect of the Divine Feminine is the one being targeted by the Patriarchy at the moment. I think that is happening inf to draw attention to this Feminine story and power. To illuminate the difference. After all, in my dream it was said that it is through this that there is Evolution out of Physical Material Reality. There is a mystery here, that I don't yet comprehend, that is in midst of revealing itself over the next two years. I may go deeply into David Warner Mathisen Star Myths Books to figure it out. I'm not certain. I may have missed something in the myths by focusing on the Divine Masculine Perspective instead of seeing past that...but I think this is going to reveal itself. Even in shows and movies I've noticed that there are three women showing up...which really dilutes the movies. In Obi Wan- it was Leia, Tala and Reeva. In Jurassic Park Domion- it was Masie, Ellie and Claire. In Black Panther- Churi, Nakia, and Okoye. Thor Love and Thunder: Valkyrie, Lady Thor and Love. Somehow, in my dream, the connection between the Goddess and the Animals- revenge of the Animals, as a matter of fact, is the means of Evolution. That, in the dream, had something to do with the Aspect of the Divine Masculine that is about enforcing His Order at all costs is behind the Corporations and Animals. Personally My eldest's birthday went really well on every level. Twice in previous years I had a nervous breakdown over her birthday because of the stress. The Husband and I have very different approaches to Birthdays. My parents were very genrous with us kids but they had a system where we didn't get things when it wasn't our birhtday. The Husband's family, based on the conversations that we've had because we've never talkd about details...gave them one gift and cake. I love to decorate regardless of whether or not other people are visiting and that's something my parents never did. The decorations are cheap, mostly Dollar Tree finds, and I reuse them every year in new ways to keep it fresh. That I have had breakdowns over something that should be relatively minor gives me pause because if I am having breakdowns over my kids birthdays I don't know if I will be capable of returning to work. My kids do mean a lot to me, I went through a lot of personal sacrifice and trials to have them. They are more valuable then everything or anything in the world to me so making their childhood magical is important to me. I couln't care less about the average adult. Either way, this birthday went awesome. I did really well and everything worked out. She loved all of the surprises that I had for her (I hate suprises but she loves them). I wanted her to feel just as special as the youngest who's going to have a first birthday party with guests. I ased my eldest if she wanted a party with guests or a Tea Party and she opted for a Tea Party. I bougth a really cool Glass Tea Kettle for her annual Tea Party's and some special treats that I will be reviewing. I simply didn't have the budget to set up the Tea Party for a lot of people. My parents agreed with my logic and bought her a lot of presents...so I think she was overwhelmed with gifts. Kids always compare themselves to each other. The amount she had was way too much. I think that the proper formula would be three- one educational gift, one fun gift and one Book. I'm very dedicated to a book for every holiday that involves gifts because being able to read, write and type are very valuable talents. Making that special is very important to making it fun instead of boring work as they do at schools. My eldest told me afterward, "Thank you Mama for all of the surprises." When I asked her what she liked most about the day- the Tea Party, the Cake and Ice Cream or the Present- she breathlessly said, "I loved all of it!" There was a bit of gloom cast over it as the Husband realized that his Mom's decline due to MS is getting really bad. She can't walk at all and she's terrified of the wheel chair because she feels as though she'd going to fall. The Father In Law has never been considerate, he doesn't have that personality trait, so they should have put her in the recliner instead of kept her in the wheel chair when my daughter was opening her presents. If I wasn't so focused on my daughter and keeping balanced during the whole thing- I would have fixed that because I like people to be comfortable. My eldest had waited all day and was super excited about her presents so fussing over her Grandma was just not on my mind. The Mother In Law did have two men, one her son, who could have done that but I do feel a bit of guilt when I was watching videos that I took after because the littlest one was fascinated with the wheel chair. I guess the Father In Law confessed he doesn't think he can take care of Mother In Law. He's really upset about the money factor. He's also worried about when he can't cook or do laundry...what he's going to do when he can't take care of himself. This after years of telling us that he had plans for retirement and it was all taken care of so not to even mention it. The Husband extended the offer that I came up with of buying a house with a seperate suite so we could take care of him but the F.I.L. doesn't want to move out of his house. He could never live in a house with us, as my Great Grandma Emma and Grandma Alta did with my parents. He can't stand kids and I'm not going to force them to stay in their rooms all of their time and let him rule the Living Room and television. That's why he would need a seperate suite. No one can help someone who doesn't want to help themselves. I also couldn't take care of an Invalid, there is a reason that the caregivers make $25 an hour...let alone try to take care of two kiddos. I don't think I'll ever forget the F.I.L. wishing for nuclear war saying that, "We destroyed Mars and another planet to make the asteroid belt and we will destroy this one too." How can anyone really help someone holding that vibration? Trying to help is very much a lost cause. I was busy with my daughter. Looking back at videos it was really sad and I don't think the caregiver that came with them liked her the Mother In Law very much. I did witness the M.I.L. being kind of hateful and indecisive with her which is, sadly the average way people behave with hired help, and so while the woman was kind and very professional it was clear she was not going to go out of her way to make the M.I.L. happy. Between the very hesitiant indecisive M.I.L. and the impatient demand F.I.L. that job must really suck. I would go out of my way and try very hard either and especially since she has an infant at home. I wasn't surprised by the M.I.L.'s declibe. I saw all of this coming. I tried to warn the Husband and Sister In Law. I don't think that the M.I.L. has been officially diagnosed with Dysphagia but she was choking on her own spit in one video. From what I've read online people with MS diagnosed with it are put on Hospice. They might live another year at most. There is a clear lack of understanding and perhaps consideration when it comes to communicating what's going on with the M.I.L., apparently everything is dismissed as being a part of M.S. and nothing can be done according to the F.I.L., so there is nothing I can do to find out what's really going on. The M.I.L was taken to the hospital again and the F.I.L. didn't call us so if she does pass I highly doubt anyone will get to say goodbye. I'm grateful the M.I.L. will be at the youngest birthday but the rest of the year may be rough. That is a great memory for the little one, especially since I document everything and the M.I.L. has never been anything but kind to me. She seems like a sweet person but for the fifteen years that I have known her there wasn't much there besides a warm body. From what I understand, since she was diagnosed with M.S. in her fifties everyone has just been expecting her to die...that's twenty years of thinking she could go at any moment. While I have a similar experience with my Mother, she is very actively engaged and has her memory intact...not the best memory but it's there. Plus, she has always been one of the most loving human beings I've ever met and that's why there is an entire army of people willing to take care of her. I hate seeing people suffer but at least I lessened that by scheduling correctly. By not feeding them they stayed for a very short period of time because the F.I.L. has to eat precisely on schedule. At previous events horrible things happened at the end with the M.I.L. (for two years) because she prefers to be at home and gets worse the further into the evening it gets (as is totally normal for everyone). Solving that problem, of politely having the F.I.L. excuse himself for his own benefit was a huge relief. Going forward, then, I have learned a lot of very important things that will help me in the future not have a nervous breakdown. Focusing on the kids and not caring a whit for the guests is by far the best method I learned. The formula for gifts that should please the Husband and satisfy my own desires for the kids is super helpful too so we don't have that conflict. Then learning that not serving food or a meal is far less stressful makes me a lot happier too. I get that is how my husband feels he should do things, as a host, and by making people things he expresses his love which is super sweet...but it causes serious problems. Post Script The Father In Law did call and inform us as I was writing the Post Script that he and the Mother In Law may not attend the youngests first birthday. The M.I.L. collapsed and even with the care givers help they could not help her stand so the paramedics took her to the hospital where she was diagnosed with Coronavirus. Her status is unknown and what will happen after that is completley unknown at this time. References: Perakis, Athena. 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