I've come to realize that I have reached an odd pinnacle on my Path.
I didn't intend to end up where I am...I could not have conceived of where I am. I have this unshakable confidence that I didn't know was possible and a quite mind. I still have strong emotional reactions, that's part of being human, but they are small now. I realize what they mean, examine the situation they revolve around and make a choice. I am no longer controlled by thoughts of ear or doubt. I know, regardless I will survive. There will be a nother sunset and another sunrise. I know I had Four major goals on my quest. 1. To obtain the knowingness that Jesus eluded to in the Bible (and yes, he said people could obtain it...in fact in John 14:12 he said, "Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the father." 2. To obtain faith. Which I admit I did not have even when I was baptised and really only grew into having the last two years. I really had no deep trust in the Universal Forces until I reall understood what Oneness meant. Once I realized that I've had an unshakable faith and no fear. 3. To obtain peace. In my prior state of being I can't say I knew peace. I was never really entirely comfortable. I never really felt safe. There is a really good reason why Safety is on the second tier of Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs. 4. Awaken Within The Dream (I didn't even know what this meant for a long time). Now, I can say that these were the major themes in my life. Now that I've obtained them I'm note really sure what I'm supposed to do...just as when I realized Oneness I was shocked the world still turned, I still woke up for work and I still went about my ordinary life. I'm not sure what I thought would occur at this point. I can say it's defintely not what ended up happening. There is one pecular difference about my every day life now as opposed to before 2014...but I'll get to that in the conclusion. Knowingness I think it's kind of rare that I read the bible and wanted to obtain the Knowingness Jesus had. I haven't run into any Christian who has professed that desire. Sadly, I fear most of them would think it's blasphemy despite my favorite bible quote Matthew 11:28-11:30. However, I've run into very few Christians who've read, let alone studied in depth, the bible. I kind of take it for granted that I read the bible cover to cover when I was a teenager and continue to pick it up and review certain passages. Or that I read alternative views from the ideas agreed upon by Rome that are still taught ini the majority of churchs (more on that in my next blog). In fact, I've come to the realization most people want to be saved by something outside of themselves. They don't want to heal themselves. They don't want to find the answers within. They don't want to do the work neccesary. Life is so much easier if someone is willing to do it for you. In fact, Jesus never claimed to heal people. Instead, over and over again he told people that their own faith healed them. Mark 5:34, Luke 17:19, Mark 10:52 and Luke 5:70. This is very similar to the placebo effect in science. Because people believe so strongly that a drug will cure them they can be given a sugar pill and it will cure them 70% of the time. People believed so strongly that Jesus could heal them that they were healed without him having to do anything. Jesus knew that it wasn't him that healed those people but their faith/belief. Faith Now, this was really something I couldn't grasp for most of my life. Sure, there was belief but not faith. To be honest, when other people talked about faith I really didn't think they had it...I could see right through them. I can't think o fmany people who have faith. Now, you could say this has to do with my ability to 'read' people. I think that might be partly true but I think everyone can tell when someone doesn't really believe what they say. Often times, it's their actions that betray them. I really didn't gain Faith until I understood Oneness. That state of Oneness, as I have explained before, negates Fear completely. There is nothing to fear because a part of me will always exist. However, I do admit that it takes a certain amount of bravery to realize this and let go of personality/ identity/ego. The idea that we are a fragment of a reflection of a divine personality can feel threatening. The reason it's threatening is because we have such a strong sense of self- the ego- and the idea that our current personality/incarnation is just as temporary as the dandelions in our grass...well, one might feel that belief is fatal. However, you learn it's anything but...and if you're open to the possibility you slowly integrate it into your life. That faith that all of this experience of Bridget Korns is valuable and that it will never be forgotten by the One Creator allows me to look at this entertaining creation in a very different way...and to have faith because this body is destined to perish in some way...but the memories and experiences will not. I cannot describe this to anyone. The glimpse I caught of this was with my past life regressions. I was able to get the flavor of being those other version of myself...and understand the essence at the core of those experience lives eternally. The fact I can look at my life as Ana in the Eastern US, the life as the Muslim Bedouin, the life as the English hat maker, the life as the orphan turned Nun in Jerusalem and the life of a Egyptian girl...and know they are me and yet in a different form..that's the only way I can comprehend the One Creator or "Divine Personality" as the Hindus call it. Like an actress who plays different roles in movies...those charecters isn't the actress. But within that, within that realization, I can grasp the bigger picture and have an unwavering faith. Not a faith that I will get everything I want...no that desire completely disapperes. At my core I am everything and I have had everything at some point in my experience. Yes, I do like to buy little trinkets but do so more for amusement then I do out of some desire that I must have it. Peace The deep peace I feel in my soul even when looking at chaos and the sadness of some people's plight is not something I could dream being possible. All of it comes with the shifts in perspective that I've undergone. I know, thinking that I could forgive a murderer is extreme. I thought it was extreme when I felt that shift in my heart. What the heck right? Well, I know now that person is locked in a deep trap of the mind. They are so stuck within Ego they can't think of way out. They didn't have anyone that could help them to see the light. They missed their opportunity in this life to do things right. They might, with time be able to recover. They might be able to redeem themselves in this life somehow...but to make that *HUGE* mistake of killing another person...that says they are deeply at war within themselves. When someone kills another it's a way of killing themselves...it has hardly anything to do with the victim. That's sad. That's the saddest state that a human being...that a soul...can reach. I read something interesting int the Bhavavad-Gita the other day. The person who provides information and explaination of the different verses, His Divine Grace A.C. Bhativedanta Swami Prahhupada, stated that it was far better to kill a murder so that he repays his sin in the current then life to have to experience it in the next life. Wow! Talk about long vision regarding mercy! I know deep down there are reasons for everything. Often simple reasons. I know that humanity is like a Gordian Knot. Each of us are seeking to untie it. We chase strands but we only have parts of the truth. Our psyches are tied in these knots and we are trying desperately to unwinde our minds and all of the conditioning of society. We are told we must care about so many things that mean so very little. Until each of shares our strand of our knowledge the full possibility of the entire story cannot be known. However, I also know that I'm just a fragment. I know that there is an intact Divine Personality that does know the purpose and that there is always order even in apparent chaos. There is an order in that Divine Personality...it's just all of us little shards that need to sort ourselves out...find our places in the mirror so we can see the full shape of it. I also know I've gone through terrible things in past lives. I know tomorrow comes regardless... That's where seeing things in life as Opportunities and not Obstacles comes in handy. Each thing we might see as a stumbling block came to us from our Higher Self as a form of learning experience. We can choose to learn from the experience or we can choose to be insane and repeat the same pattern of behavior and experience it again. All of it depends on our Interpretation and our ability to read the terrain of our own inner psyche. All of it depends on whether we see the struggle as a learning experienice or just unfair. Also knowing that everything is a temporary experience is extremely handy. Also, the concept of Soul Contracts is helpful. That most of the hardships people face is chosen by them to learn from. Even if it's a very bad experience, such as when I lost my daughter...such traumatic experiences can lead to the most fruitful lessons. So, yes, they are absolutely worth it and our souls absolutely know it. I would deny such suffering to no one since there is so much potential growth in the healing. Awakening In The Dream This is an abstract concept. Yet, more and more people are talking about the Awakening. To be awake in the dream is to know that this is the dream of the Divine Personality...or Adam. I think this is an important concept most don't see..it's buried, as I said in some Sources. THe Jewish Kabbalah, the Edgar Cacye Material, the Ra Material, and A Course In Miracles. I view life from a different perspective now that I know I will continue on...not as Bridget but as the essence of the sum of all the experiences that I have had. It's a bit like a video game. I know that people agree to have the experiences they are having much as they agree to experience the video game when they buy it at the store. Messed up stories might exist in those games, but they agree to that story because it's entertaining, fun and the learn from it. Each is working on their own lessons. I cannot nor should I have any say in what they do or do not experience. Any good psycholgist knows only people who are feeling acute pain really choose to change. So, it's childish and it dishonors human suffering to say we want an easy world where everything is given to us. I've found the most beautiful riches that I possess in the darkest night of my soul. I've found everything I gained that was tough was absolutely worth it. The journey, more then the goal was worth it. In fact, much of our literature and movies depict exactly that. Humanity, it seems believes that we would like to think that when we lose everything or everything is on the line that we can rise to the pinnacle of our abilites..unless of course we let it cripple us into a victim where we want revenge the rest of our lives. I am no Social Warrior and I discourage people from being such a thing. To try and force your perspectives on another person is just plain immoral. There is a lack of empathy and understanding in such an approach...yes, sometimes people make mistakes but sometimes you have to fail in order to learn a lesson. In fact, I value mastering something that took a lot of trys...such as solving a puzzle in a video game far more then I value something I can do effortlessly. I will remeber the puzzle that took a lot of trys and what it felt like to succeed...but I'll take for granted what I was given effortlessly. Conclusion I didn't expect to obtain the four things I listed. I have no idea where to go from here. I sit at peace and I look at a world of fear. Yet, the people love their fear. They love their boogymen. They love the idea something outside of them brings bad or good luck. They love their teachers who say they do not need to do anything themselves but just follow and pay the people who seem to be wiser or more spiritual for information. They love their demons. They love the concept of a Dark Army and an Army of Light. Never realizing that's a projection of the battle of Darkens and Light within them. Recently, I was watching a positive and uplifting YouTube video... it had a few thousand views. On the side bar there was a recommendation for a video about A Demon Army that lives within Earth. It had thirty thousand views. I don't think any video of my positive uplifting channels have so many views...even if I combine several of the videos. I sat stunned for a moment. Saddened really. I felt the same thing talking to someone I know recently. She was told by a healer she could learn to heal herself. But she didn't want to...just as she's not interested in my teachings or what I have learned. She's only interested in talismans that wil bring her good luck, fortune, and protection for bad people/events. I feel like Diana at the end of Wonder Woman after killing Aries. She realized it changed nothing. I've changed, I know. I feel apart from the world and capable of seeing a bigger picture from multiple perspectives. I can see several scenarios playing out on different levels stemming from similar issues. I have a deep inner peace that is utterly unshakable. Yet, I also know that's a gift many don't want to receive. I also know that it's unlikely I will make much of a dent on those scenarios. That the people engaged in them are in a hopeless loop of behavior...and in order to break those they need new fresh perspectives that at this time they do not want. So, I watch from my place in this world. Curious as to what role I am to play or if my Higher Self has chosen much of a role for me to play. Is this the end of my spiritual journey? Perhaps, I came here only to gain those four things. I have no sense of desire anymore. I am at peace and I have faith. A deep silence has settled on my soul. I'm not suer what will come next. I have no expectations. I have no real goals. I just intend to experience fully whatever may come. To know that I am here because for some reason, my Higher Self really wants to be here at this time, and to continue to enjoy the food I eat and the experience I have to the fullest of my ability. No hoarding, no regrets...simply being and appreciating the moment fully.
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